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seodami · 3 years

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Our story | LSM

Part 2

This is our story. From the day we met till the day we part. Black on white, our most precious moments, never leaving us. I love your forever.

LSM

Genre: Fluffffff

Warnings: none

Word count: 2271

Pairing: Idol!Lee Seokmin x fashion student reader

Note: Here is the second part and I have to say I really enjoyed writing this, imagining how easy and funny it must be to talk to DK :)) what would I do to talk to him once :’) Enjoy!

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You both were frozen in your tracks for a moment, you still panicking about what to say or do and him wondering why there was a stranger in his kitchen.

Seokmin hadn’t been feeling well since yesterday evening so since he was feeling even worse this morning, Seungcheol and his manager wanted him both to stay home for at least today until he felt better. He wasn’t exactly keen on staying in an empty apartment alone all day, especially when he wanted to be a part of their schedule. It often made him feel lonely and miss his members. It was stupid honestly, he thought. He saw them everyday and often needed his alone time at times, but he still felt so empty without anyone around.

He was still sleeping when he faintly heard the doorbell ring. Yet he thought it was just in his dream. But when he soon later slowly woke up due to noices from the kitchen, Seokmin wondered if their aunty might have come and would make him a warm soup for his sore throat.

So with still messy hair and puffy face, he made his way over to the kitchen with tiny steps, just to be greeted by a strange face of a girl he never saw.

“O-oh my god. I’m so sorry. I thought no one was home?” You stuttered out totally embarrassed to actually be caught. That was your doom day. Dokyeom found the rambling rather endearing, yet he cautiously made his way over to the kitchen aisle, you were working on.

It took you by huge surprise how handsome and cute this man could look at the same time. Were all idols this pretty?

“Uhm... hi... I don’t want to sound rude but I really... have no idea who you are.” The boy a few feet away from you came to an halt. His voice was a tad hoarse and he sounded a bit sick. He let out a shy chuckle, clearly feeling somewhat uncomfortable in this situation.

Little did you know, the little voice in his head was laughing at him how ridiculous and ugly he must’ve looked with his bare face right after bed. Seokmin had always had his insecurities about his body or face. He never seemed to fully like the way he looked. He would cringe so much looking back at his old childhood pictures, when he had a few pounds too much on him. It just never dawned him how his fans would call him handsome. Most of the times he would just smile and thank them but never really accepting their compliments, thinking it must be the good make up or the stylish hair. Yes, that must be it.

And now standing in front of a pretty woman, he felt it in every fibre of his body and it made him unbelievably uncomfortable.

“Oh... Right... I am Oh Jangmi’s daughter. Nice to meet you.” You quickly muttered, not daring to look him in his eyes for more than a second. You bowed as you typically did, seeing him bow as well.

“Oh aunties daughter? She told us a lot about you. Nice to finally meet you. I’m Dokyeom.” His uncomfortable face was immediately replaced by the brightest smile, you had ever seen. You swear, in that moment, your heart melted in an instant. You heard your heart beating loudly in your ears, unable to grasp this mans beauty. Never ever have you seen such a dazzling smile in person.

“Is aunty not coming today?” He asked curiously leaning against the other side of the aisle. He was way too close for your liking. And you were definitely still panicking. This man was more than gorgeous.

You shook your head, noticing his hoarse voice. “No unfortunately s-she broke her foot on the way here and went to the hospital. So she... asked me to step in for her. She will be coming tomorrow again though.” You completed your sentence while only taking short glances at the male in front of you, who was giving you 100% of his attention. You were more than flustered.

A worried expression replaced his smile. “Oh no... is she alright?” Your heart made a small jump.

You nodded with a small smile, fiddling with potato in your hand. He noticed and hummed. “Do you need help cooking? I mean... I’m not the best but I can chop vegetables without chopping my fingers off I guess.” He smiled at you once more. If he would keep smiling like that, you swear, you wouldn’t be able to see tomorrow.

You let out a small giggle, still denying his offer. “Ah no... it’s fine really. I’m just making jajangmyeon. And you sound like you’ve caught a cold so I won’t be bothering you with doing anything.”

You quickly placed the potato in your hand on the cutting board and started slicing it into small cubes.

“Yeah I actually did. It’s not really pleasant to be honest.” Dokyeom said before caughting in his elbow as on queue.

“Wait a second. I’m gonna make you a tea. I’m a pro in dealing with colds, trust me.” You insisted, already reaching for the water boiler to fill it up with fresh water.

“Thank you. You really don’t have to though.” He giggled coughing again.

“No I want to. I’m sure you will feel better after this tea. I made it every time my siblings were ill.” You smiled at him, feeling already a tad more comfortable with this man, you literally just met.

Seokmin took a seat in one of the high chairs on his side of the kitchen aisle while watching you chop the vegetables. He noticed how soft your hair looked like, falling gently onto your face. He took his phone out to check his messages. There were just a few from his manager about their usual schedule and some silly messages in their group chat. He softly giggled reading through all of them, wondering how he even got friends like this.

You couldn’t help stealing short glances here and there at the beautiful man, noticing how he swept his fluffy bed hair with one hand out of his face. Something about him was immensely attractive and you couldn’t pinpoint what exactly it was. But hell no, you were not going to develop a crush on a man you literally met one time. Nope. All idols would probably have this effect on you, right? They weren’t idols without a reason.

Soon enough you finished Dokyeoms tea with a last pinch of fresh mint leaves and handed it over to him with a smile. He thanked you, white teeth showing and crescent eyes forming. Melting, definitely melting.

“Wow... It’s very good.” He carefully slurped from the warm tea. You sent him a bright smile, deep down thanking your tea making skills you’ve even improved thanks to your job at the café. That was definitely a pro from working there.

“I sometimes work in a small café, so I had plenty of time to practice. I probably could make you every drink you want.” You laughed while taking out a frying pan to avoid his interested eyes following your every movement.

His laugh mused in with yours. “I always wanted to know someone, who could just magically let all the drinks I wanted appear in my kitchen. Thank god I stayed at home today.”

You both were pleasantly surprised how easy talking to each other was. There was a spark of fun in your conversation, which you both couldn’t get enough of. There weren’t many people you knew, If any, who you just clicked with so easily. It was definitely weird but you liked it.

“The food will still take a bit so you are free to make one more drink wish.” You chuckled, glancing over at Dokyeom leaning his head in the palm of his hand.

A genuine smile was displayed across his lips. “Mhh I have to think, this is a very important desicion, I don’t want to make a mistake.” You both snickered in unison. My god, how were you getting along so well with him?

“Alright, you still have exactly 28 minutes and a half to decide.”

“How generous, I will think about it.” His smile was even brighter now, it was impossible not to smile. There was just something about it that gave you an enormous serotonin boost and transformed you into one of these giggly anime Highschool girls. The bad thing was, you didn’t even remember acting that was after experiencing such a rush of being in his proximity. You liked it more than you could have imagined.

However, this was just the starting point of your wholesome conversation this day. It all just came so naturally, you nearly forgot to keep cooking. Seokmin on his side felt incredibly happy compared to his usual happy demeanor. He truly enjoyed your back and forth conversations and he felt greatly satisfied, seeing a bright smile or hearing you laugh because of his comments. It was at times like this when he remembered how much he missed talking to new people, especially when the two of you were obviously on the same wave length. He kept forgetting that he probably shouldn’t talk that much when he was sick but he just couldn’t stop, even if you mentioned it more than three times already. He enjoyed it that much.

You two talked about funny stories of your mom, ridiculous ones of the other members (you really wouldn’t have expected an idol group to be this funny) and also about your own interests, hobbies and families. You snorted when he told you how their trio Booseoksoon sang one of their songs at his sisters wedding in order to make the married couple kiss. The more you got to know each other, the more you forgot how time actually flied.

He even begged you to stay and eat with him when you finally finished cooking, which you hesitantly accepted after seeing his pleading puppy look. What did you get yourself into?

While eating, you told him excitedly about your new fashion projects, you were working on. He was more than hooked listening to every detail. He always loved it when people told him about their passion and he could clearly see that this was yours with how vivid your eyes were beaming and how big your smile grew. It secretly increased the warmth in his heart more and more.

It was the same look he had on his face as he told you about his fans, their next album preparations and the amazing concerts all around the world. You just loved listening to him, even though you both probably finished eating since over an hour already. Sitting so close to him while looking at his dark shining eyes made your brain just automatically foggy.

It only was when your friend and roommate Minji called to ask where you were for your groups project meeting, that you realised how long you actually let yourself swaying in Dokyeoms presence. You were already over half an hour late to your meeting.

You quickly told her you were on your way and hung up, while carrying the plates to the sink. Seokmins sad eyes followed you as he stood up to help you. “You have to go?” He asked immediately, now standing next to you, taking the plates out of your hands, while towering a good piece over you.

You nodded with a sad smile, suddenly feeling every effect he had on you even stronger.

“Yeah I’m sorry. I already stayed way too long. My group is going to kill me.” You tried joking. He chuckled, searching for your eyes.

Seokmin knew when he was interested in a person and it even was obvious for him that you sparked a deep interest inside of him after today. He just knew he wanted to see you again.

“I really enjoyed talking to you. It’s rare to have such a nice conversation. I literally forgot time.” His rich chocolate eyes met yours. “Yeah, I feel the same...” you chocked out, heart beating way too fast again. What was it with your heart today?

“Are you coming over again or...?” He asked almost timidly while fiddling with the hem of his shirt. He looked adorable. Absolutely adorable.

You sent him a shy smile, shrugging your shoulders. “Maybe... I am kind of busy this month because of work and university. But... I would love to talk to you again.” A sudden wave of confidence hit you and took even you by surprise.

A sigh of relief was heard from his side and you giggled. “Thank god. I really wanted to ask you for your phone number.”

God he really was adorable. Such a cutie.

With a grin, you searched for a piece of paper and a pen nearby and quickly scribbled your number onto it. You really had no worry about him being secretly a creep so why not.

“Here you go. Oh and I still didn’t make you your second free drink, so make sure to text me with your order.” There you both went into a giggling mess again.

“Will do. It’s all I’m thinking about.”

So after swiftly cleaning the plates together and saying goodbye and also telling him to get better soon, you made your way out of the building with such an energy, you had no idea where it came from. But you loved how you felt after spending time with Dokyeom. And you were definitely looking forward to your next meeting.

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chappedandfadedvds · 3 years

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Jan 16th, Saturday 00:03

„Have you been crying?“

„What are you doing here? Why aren’t you in Canada?“

„Wouldn’t you like to know?“ Lies grinned, while she got rid of the big coat and boots she had worn. Her suitcase was neatly pushed aside to stand next to the stairs. His sister had frowned at him for a split second as she had stepped in, but quickly changed to look rather pleased with her surprise.

Jens was left speechless. This was completely unexpected. Perhaps he was dreaming, had falles asleep on the sofa without noticing, or worse he began to hallucinate. Had he finally lost it?

„I took a plane for 10 hours to see your ass and I don’t even get a hug?“

„My bad!“ Jens couldn’t help but smirk back at her as he closed the door he still hold onto. He was bigger than her, had grown quite a bit since she had left for Canada three years ago. Her head fitted almost under his chin as he wrapped his arms around her in a tight hug.

„All good, but seriously, are you okay? You don’t look okay.“

If he had been asked on any other day, he would have laughed at the familar teasing tone. However today he felt drained and shook his head instead. He indulged in the warmth of his bigger sister. Grateful that she was here and that her arms were safely tugged around his middle. He didn’t wanted to let go. Jens only tightened his grip.

„Hey.“ Lies whispered troubled by the unusal behaviour of her little brother. They hadn’t seen each other in a while, yet it didn’T meant that they had turned into completely different people.

Her hands rubbed up and down his back while she pressed a gentle kiss against his cheek. His shoulders trembled as the pressure fell awa. Jens felt his eyes burn and sobbed quiet into the woolen blue sweater she wore.

They stood like this for a couple of minutes, before Jens felt that he ouldn move again. That he has strengths to take a step in his own.

„Let’s sit down? And then you can tell me what’s happening with you, maybe? I would like to think my sole arrival brought you to tears, but that isn’t the case, right?“

Lies smiled at Jens in her attempted encouragment to calm him down, while a sad sigh escaped her lips nonethelss. Jens suddenly felt like a child again. He hadn’t felt like this in months. If he was honest with himself, it was freeing to let the weight shatter on the floor to their feet.

They moved into the living room a little after. Jens went to grab them both a glass of water that Lies gladly accepted to drink half of it almost immediately, before they both sat down on the sofa that Jens had cried on for almost an hour after Lotte had fallen asleep. To text his mom hadn’t helped as much he had hoped.

„So I take it, that this is because of mom. Is it that bad?“

„Yes and no. It’s about mom, yes. And she isn’t doing too well, doesn’t eat a lot and is getting weak between every visit. She gets infusions instead since this week, but.“ Lies nodded while her hand reached over to take his, that he hold in his lap. „It doesn’t look good. I think it’s good that you made it here. You should see her before.“ Jens stoped himself to take a quivering breath. „Before she dies.“

„That was the idea. I didn’t wanted to tell you in case it wouldn’t work. But the company I’m working for needed someone to check up on the branch in brussels and with me being belgian it was an easy desicion. I had to quarantine for two weeks get a test done but then could come here, even get a few days early to visit you. But I have to be in Brussels on Monday morning. I’m sorry, I can’t stay longer.“

„It’s fine. I’m happy you are here.“

„Are you? You look like you’d rather change places with mom.“

Jens shrugged, unsure how to answer it.

Silence fell between them for the brief moment that he pondered how to best bring up Lucas.

„I think my boyfriend broke up with me yesterday.“

He looked over to find his sister’s shocked face. Stunned, perhaps expecting him to start laughing. She wasn’t believing him. Right, he reminded himself, she didn’t know.

„Well, yes. I have or, I guess, I had a boyfriend. I’m bi.“

Lies blinked at him, contemplating his words.

„Oh, for real? Okay. That’s fine. Great, really, just a lot to process. I never had thought. She paused. You know. I mean, you are Jens, always chasing a girl or another.“

Jens snorted, his lips curled up. He supposed she was right. And maybe he should do that again. No heartbreak with a girl had hurt as much as this one with Lucas.

„So did she, sorry, he say that it’s over?“

„No, not yet.“

„How long were you together?“

„For two month“

„That isn’t very long yet. I thought you were talking about a year or something. But than I definitely would have expected you to tell me about him sooner.“ She teased, nudging him with her elbow as she tried to lighten the mood at least a little, from the self-pity that Jens was wallowing in.

Lies was right, as much as she was wrong. It had been only two month, but it had felt like they had lived a life together. How could it only have been two month? It didn’t made much sense.

It shouldn’t hurt as much, if they only barely knew each other. Odd how fast they had moved and how easy it had felt to accept it. They had run at lightning speed, then crashed and burned, when there had been nothing to ground them to the earth beneath their feet.

This had been their mistake. This was what they hadn’t thought of.

Though maybe Lucas had. And Jens just hadn’t listened. The fault was his in the end after all.

„You don’t understand. It felt like more.“

„More? You know each other longer?“

„No, but we were close. He was always around. I don’t know how to explain it.“

His gaze fell onto the book on the table and then darted over to the opened box of cookies on the kitchen counter.

„He is still everywhere here. There are a couple of shirts drying on the rack with mine and Lotte’s.“ Jens said. He felt his heavy heart pound against his ribs. It just couldn’t be over.

„Sounds very intense.“

Jens nodded once more. He agreed. Now that he thought about what Lucas had said, perhaps Jens had used him a little too much like a lifeline to stay afloat, when he should have started swimming at one point.

„It was, but then, it wasn’t at all. It was really, really nice whenever he was here. I miss him. And I miss you. And I miss mom so much.“

„I miss all of you as well. I wish I could pack you up and take you to Canada with me. Theo would love you.“

He hummed. The idea to just escape and leave it all behind sounded rather enticing. And he had enjoyed the week that her fiance had spend with them on the visit two years ago.

„So how about we have some tea and much needed sibling bonding time? And then you talk me through everything. I am sure that this boy isn’t just going to leave you, when you really were that close.“

„Lucas.“ Jens suddenly noticed. Lies and Jens had bern on a short call on Christmas, but he hadn’t told her about his relationship. He barely had come out to his friends at that point of time.

„Huh? What?“

„My boyfriend’s name. Lucas.“

Lies smiled. The five year difference apparent in her kind eyes. As if she would have the answers he seeked.

„Okay. First some tea and then Lucas, and you better have some pictures.“

Jens huffed a laugh as he watched the excitement in his sister’s face. She looked and sounded just like she always had. As if time hadn’t passed and the last two years were null.

It would hurt to let her go again on sunday. Jens had forgotten how close they used to be. How much she always had taken care of him. But right now, here in this moment, he felt himself caught in blissful content.

“Alright.“ Jens got up, followed by Lies as they headed to the kitchen. „ And yes I do have photos.”

“Perfect. I can’t believe I get to talk about boys with my baby brother.”

„Shut up.“

__ __ __ tagged: @odi-et-amo85, @tayspots

I’m late and this is so bad..I’m sorry... I tried

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pansytheleia · 7 years

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♡ Book Day Tag ♡

Since I brewed up this tag by myself I gotta do it!

1. Favourite author from your country? I like Benedict Wells a lot, despite the fact media likes to call him a second John Irwing which is… inaccurate. I find little hey have in common. Anywho, his Spinner is easily one of my favourite books especially for people of my age/ college Students.

2. Favourite children’s book? Top contentors are basically all Astrid Lindgren books and Die wilden Hühner, but I think I will go with “Der Spinatvampir” by Gudrun Pausewang, which is a lovely tale about why it’s good to be different, vegetarian food and pancakes.

3. A book that changed your life? I said it before, I’ll say it again, “Walden”, which is an obvious pick. It changed my view on life and living, it’s bare bone down to the essential questions. It takes a while to read and digest, but makes you want to read so much more Thoreau.

4. The best book you read this year is…? Ugh, I am too lazy to check goodreads but I think it was the first Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater? I purely only bought it because Marie liked them and I trust her bookish desicions, I guess, but man… these books. I am not suuuuper big on fantasy, as said before, but I like books with well fleshed out believable characters and deep relationships. That being said the relationships between the Ravenboys are so well done. More Friendships like those! Also I utterly and deeply love Gansey.

5.The worst book I read this year? Uhm. I didn’t read as terrible books as I did last year? (Where I read Houllebeq completely misinformed and hoboy. What a piece of shit.) I think reading John Irwing was kind of a letdown? It was not a bad book overall but I expected more of it? My dad absolutely LOVES Irwing … and Hotel New Hampshire was kind of yucky with its portraial of incest sooooo … leave incest out as a plot device…

6. A book that is overrated to you Oh lord. I’m not gonna say faust! I’m not that much of a hater (who am I even kidding I am) Absolute Beginners is a book I read this year and felt it was kind of meh, it was advertised as such a culturally important piece and milestone with its talk if youth culture and racism in the UK. And honestly it was fairly mild? I would rather have read a book by someone or about someone who is actually affected by racism rather than yet another white teenager, you get me?

7. Randomly recommend a book Half broke horses by Jeanette Walls. Made every woman of my household read it.

Tagging time! I tagged a slew of people yesterday but on top of that! @inquisitorsirjohannvonfallbaer, @rocondil, @jeannakirschtein, @zerfindung for funsies

#aard answers #books #reading #reader #bookblr

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