#I’m just thinking a lot right now

[wayward-banana]

Idk how to cope with whatever just happened (DDD moment) so I reverted to system default and put them all in dresses. can you forgive me

#it will happen again #I’ve got a lot of things rotating around in my head right now and Meow Wow is the biggest of them all #hey can we talk about dream eater Riku let’s talk about Dream Eater Riku I just think we should talk about Dream Eater Riku for a second #kingdom hearts #Sora #Riku #Kairi #like…. DDD was so good in a lot of ways but man the second time travel gets thrown in #especially like this #i get a bit lost #BBS was also good! didn’t have as much impact as 2 or prior but I still had fun #almost at 3 I’m almost there #soon

[plaunchit2]

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#having a bad night #nothings actually wrong #I’m just thinking a lot right now #which is the last thing I should be doing

[alabasterpickles]

Guys, I’m obsessed.

Mikey was one of my (many) favorite parts of the movie

I’ve been pretty busy but I hope you enjoy my little contribution ✨

#I’m not even sure I can properly write out my thoughts #just watch it #it’s incredible #and BEAUTIFUL #i won’t be thinking of literally anything else for months #i have a lot of other things in the works for the movie right now but this one’s the most complete #my art #fanart #sketch #art #drawing #animation #illustration #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt movie #Michelangelo #Mikey Hamato

[napping-sapphic]

I really do know that physical appearance isn’t everything but i also really hope that one day i get to experience someone i love looking at me and thinking i’m pretty

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #idk #i just haven’t really had many compliments on my appearance throughout my life #but the few times i have gotten them have been crazy #i end up thinking about it forever #idk i’m just forever excited about the idea of someone just plain old LIKING me #like bells and whistles of falling in love and everything aside #i truthfully deeply really want someone just to like me if that makes sense #also this isn’t like a sad post btw #it’s something im hopeful about and look forward to a lot :) #right now i just have to be a bit wistful about it though lol #im gay and i like sleeping

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[lovecoredeity]

fun scene idea that I’ll probably never get around to drawing: someone grabbing a wanted poster from a board or wall only to reveal a missing persons poster featuring the same person as on the wanted poster underneath it (also the reward for them as a wanted person is higher than the reward for returning them when they were missing)

#basically this is something fun I imagine for my oc cashmere #as of right now she’s simply missing (presumed to be kidnapped at least that’s what the family she is from told people) #as of rn in her story she isn’t wanted for anything but that can change I’ll probably have her (attempt to) commit treason against her #own family or something #I think it would be fun that her family is willing to spend less when she’s missing than when they’re mad at him and want him back to be #punished for angering them #I have attempted to draw this out before but was like #it would be better as like an animation tbh but #I can’t animate I’m not going to animate my tablet does not even have the storage for me to animate #maybe a quick animatic if anything but like #idk #it’s more of a fun idea than anything #I imagine what leads to cashmere committing treason is that upon being back in the hands of their family they begin to realize that they #can’t lie to theirself anymore their family is terrible and the reason they died in the first place and snaps #i feel like they found themselves in a situation where they attacked someone out of fear and rage and blah blah that is seen as treason #it would probably be his dad that gets attack im ngl conquest deserves it #or they accidentally hurt them out of fear #I am unsure #*shrug emoji* I’m just making up shit for cashmere as I see fit and per what I find most interesting and fun <3 #also cashmere is my only oc rn who would have both a missing and a wanted poster #sure most of my ocs would find themselves wanted for one reason or another or targeted by others #but some cashmere is useful as a tool to their family and having a runaway child is bad for their reputation they’d ofc want her back to #keep her quiet and keep people from finding out that she ran away #they also still think she’s sickly and wouldn’t want anyone to find out who she is that she’s sickly and for word to spread #basically they want cashmere back so their reputation isn’t damaged and so they can go back to using her as they please #I put a lot of suffering into this character #and I will continue to do so because as my favourite this is what happens #sorry I’m babbling

[murdleandmarot]

The gang’s all here!! They’re on the case!! And there’s no ghost that they wouldn’t chase!!!!!

@mysticalcats’s Foxglove, @toki-toro’s Chaumet, @emimii’s Clownaire, and my own Bluebelle :)

#this was indeed the project I was working on lmao #WHY DID THIS TAKE 17 BILLION YEARSSSSSS #I actually rly like how the actual paint turned out #ESPECIALLY FOR FOXGLOVE SQUEEEEE #he looks so cute….and I got all the colors mixed for Chaumet #watercolor oc painting: 1 #back paint neck pain headache pain: 0 #no but sketching this took such! a long! time! #I just straight up could not get foxglove and bluebelle right it was maddening #but I persisted and I beat the odds‼️‼️ Yipee‼️‼️ #I love all of these guys so so so much I’ll prolly never stop thinking about them #please never stop talking about your ocs ever #and I am working on being coherent about Bluebelle as we speak!!!! #I got an idea and now I’m trying to make my brain not be mean about it #literally just chanting to myself ‘YOU! CAN MAKE! IT AS WEIRD!! AS! YOU WANT!!!’ #shoutout to my fairytales throughout that ages book for inspiring me #100 points and a drawing of your choice if you can figure out the story Bluebelle’s backstory is based on lmao #ANYHOW #I just be rambling in these tags I perhaps need to calm down lol #I LOVE YALLS OCS FOREVER AND EVER!!!! #clownaire was literally perfect from the start I NAILED his pose first try and then he was very supportive the rest of the way through #live laugh love 🫶🫶🫶💐💐💐🩰🩰🩰 #next up: Jemima painting!! with two special guests!!! #oh shit those are a lot of tags uhhhh I’m done now i promise 🫶🫶 #cats the musical #cats musical #cats oc #jellicle oc #sorah’s silly scribbles #(also the text right under the drawing are a Scooby doo song LMAO it’s called Dig It Scooby Doo it’s insanely catchy)

[mxliv-oftheendless]

I would just like to point out that it’s canon that in hobbit culture they make light of more serious things—and I would also like to point out that Bilbo’s invitation to Frodo to come live with him is: “You had better come and live here, Frodo my lad, and then we can celebrate our birthday-parties comfortably together.”

And in context it’s just. What if it was Bilbo recognizing Frodo felt lonely and stifled living at Brandy Hall ever since his parents died, and that he was a young hobbit in his tweens with no one to really turn to or give him the kind of attention or stability he needed. What if it was Bilbo offering Frodo that stability and understanding and companionship. What if it was Bilbo telling Frodo he knew he couldn’t replace his parents but could still give him a good home where he could feel safe and secure. And what if it was Bilbo telling Frodo he could do all of that for him through the comment about celebrating their shared birthday together, because they’re hobbits, and hobbits make light of serious things.

#lord of the rings #frodo baggins #bilbo baggins #I’m sorry I just. im having a lot of feelings right now #and that line is making me really emotional for some damn reason #it’s just really sweet when you consider the context okay 😭😭😭 #I think about this so much #I love Frodo and Bilbo’s relationship they’re so sweet #analysis #not much of an analysis but I guess it still counts lol

[phoenixmetaphor]

Day 4 - Real-life Captain America

#chreonweek2k23 #chreon #my fanart #leon kennedy #chris redfield #day 4 - real life captain america #how DARE you come for me where i live like this #honestly would have done a more serious take but i didn’t have the time #they’re going to a costume party #and leon is being super low effort #and chris has chosen that time honored classic costume: slutty captain america #i literally did this exact comic but it’s actually just steve and tony #and i only feel slightly bad about that #anyway i guess everyone be glad you are spared my 10k meta essay about chris being a lot like steve rogers #chris has big steve rogers energy #right down to the part where he thinks he can stop someone from being drunk and sad if he yells loudly enough #you don’t have time to be sad the world needs to be saved #get back on the horse champ #ok i’m done for now

[erinravenseeker]

Just had a middle-of-the-night “ohhhh” moment as I just figured out that Kim Dokja needs the Fourth Wall not because of the scenarios but because it was essentially his survival mechanism for life.

Now I have only read the novel once so I could totally be forgetting stuff & way off-base but this is what I remember. Inane rambling under the cut, major spoilers included.

We know he’s generally antisocial, placing himself outside of society like a reader, and he internally smoothed over Sangah’s rough points even before the scenarios, making her into a ‘character’ (a caricature of herself) that fit into an archetype.

Dissociating from reality & viewing himself as a reader is his coping mechanism & “WoS coming to life” provides a convenient excuse to keep ignoring that fact.

This kind of ties in with an idea I’ve been forming about the Fourth Wall, which is that KDJ is fundamentally incapable of believing that “The Characters” (read: everyone) can experience growth as a result of his actions. He exists outside of the story, he is in the audience beyond the fourth wall, so he cannot affect the characters.

Hence the paradoxical nature of the Fourth Wall. For as long as he is a Reader, the Fourth Wall is maintained. And as long as the Fourth Wall is maintained, he will continue to be a Reader.

(Warning this is where it gets incoherent and messy.)

Kim Dokja fundamentally NEEDS the Fourth Wall to be maintained. Not just because of the OD stuff, but because it’s the way he’s learnt to cope with existing. It’s also why dying is so easy for him—we know he cannot deal with the guilt of making people he cares about suffer, but if he’s just a Reader, that means he can’t really have any meaningful impact on their lives, so it’s fine for him to just… disappear.

Kim Dokja is not actively suicidal, he’s just invested himself so far into the worldview of himself being a Reader that to him, his temporary deaths no longer register as dying. More like… stepping out of the theatre for a bit.

It gets complicated when we hit OD. Because then we realise the KDJ we’ve been accompanying is essentially a self-insert OC. So we can ascribe the way he thinks to OD, including all the coping mechanisms and self-distancing. But where OD manages to escape the narrative along with SP, at the same time the KimCom Crew escape the narrative, KDJ actually kind of… doubles down?

Like, OD does what any Reader does and learns from the book. When KDJ says “I, someone of no redeeming quality, could be loved by the others.” It’s not just him learning this lesson. It’s actually kind of the opposite. OD is Reading this lesson so he learns that he’s allowed to accept the mercy of SP & the 999 crew. So they escape the narrative.

KimCom also manages to escape the narrative but KDJ… can’t. He comes to the conclusion that he was actually backstage all along. But that means he’s still not ON stage. A Character can’t feel for the Script Writer or Director or Stage Manager. So he doubles down on his separation from them, stepping into that role. And then then KimCom comes banging on his door backstage because they’re not just characters, they’re the Actors now, and KDJ disappears because he can’t deal with that, because he fundamentally cannot exist on the same plane as them.

I think that’s why I’m hopeful at a post-epilogue ending. KDJ The Reader exists at essentially a higher tier than the people around him, and so he believes he cannot be loved in a way that has a lasting impact on them. But he DID spend years being affected by WoS, by Yoo Joonghyuk. If he becomes the Character, and them the Readers… maybe, just maybe, he can actually accept that love.

#orv #orv spoilers #this is barely coherent #the first half I know what I’m talking about #(maybe) #when I get into the FW meta it falls apart but if I didn’t write it down I’d never manage to develop it #it’s 5am and I haven’t slept yet I just had a Need to get this out there on my initial realisation #was it reading fanfic at 4am that led me to my ‘oh?’ I reserve the right to remain silent #was it also halfway through a smut scene? you can stop asking questions now #meta stuff produces A Lot Of Thoughts in me #particularly around its paradoxical/self-perpetuating nature #my stuff #omniscient reader's viewpoint #please feel free to debate me (nicely) in notes/responses I love Media Analysis #this is definitely not the only take on his character eg i think he also has zero selfworth #& feels like he needs to be useful maybe bc if he doesn’t have a narrative function why does he exist #something something being a character wow maybe it does all come back to that

[hiatus-queen72]

Another favorite current song post darling 🥰

#dance gavin dance #this song is just eargasm central for me right now #me #music #selfie #Spotify #I think it would be funny for people to find my profile from the tag Spotify if I’m honest #cute #girl #love #fashion #photo #brown hair #blue eyes #hot #hehe it was regular tag time #the fact that I use hot as a regular tag says a lot about my ego #anywayysss

[fakeoutbf]

five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person** #i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention) #anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious?????? #your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up??? #if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right??? #so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

[jade-kyo]

For all my bitching and complaining… that last bit with Wash and Carolina and the Freelancers was… comforting. For someone who grew up with this show and Rooster Teeth it has been really hard to watch it all fall apart these past few years… these people raised me. And it’s hard to feel so disappointed by the very thing that made you who you are… but that’s now. Things weren’t always like this. There was a time RT and RvB was the most important thing to me. My hero’s. And the effect it all had on me still matters. Those memories matter. And no matter how bad or disappointing things got in the end… I can always remember those first 13 seasons that changed my life. I can always remember the reds and blues who helped me define my sense of self. I can remember what they mean to me. Red vs Blue may be over but the memories it’s gave me will follow me till I die. I can always remember at nine years old my brother showing me the Tex vs the reds and blue fight and laughing my ass off at it. I can remember always watching over my brothers shoulder when they were watching it. I can remember how they always quoted it. I can remember sitting down at 15 and deciding to watch the show fully for myself. I can remember how my jaw dropped at the alpha reveal and I actually had to take a full 30 minute break to go scream outside for a bit. I can remember how Wash instantly became one of my favorite characters. I can remember how it took three whole rewatches for me to get the “I thought it’d be bigger” penis joke. I can remember how I cried when Caboose walked out on Church. I can remember how I hated Carolina at first but then slowly grew to love her even more than Tex. I can remember how I forced my best friend to watch the show just so I could prank her with sad fanart once she finished s13. I can remember how I grieved Church for so long after finishing 13. I can remember how I secretly themed my entire bedroom after blue team. I can remember how this is the most emotionally attached to a group of fictional characters I have ever been and probably ever will be.

So yeah I’m gonna bitch and complain about all the shit I didn’t like, what else would you expect from someone who calls Church their favorite character? But I’m also going to always remember what made this show so special to me in the first place. Thank you Red vs. Blue for being my favorite show ever. Of all time. I will always remember what it means to me, the joy it brought me, the comfort, the hope… after all

Memory is the key

#rvb #jadey speaks #red vs blue #rvb restoration spoilers #rvb19 spoilers #rvb spoilers #rvb restoration #rvb19 #this is the most emotionally vulnerable I think I’ve ever been #just… yeah I’m feeling a lot of things right now.

[sage-lights]

hey, genuine question, do you romantically ship amanda and angela?

hi anon! in all seriousness, no i don’t. amanda is very happy with her husband and loves him very much. i honestly wish them all the best. what i love about amangela is their friendship (which is the same thing i loved about shourtney before we got official confirmation). it’s the kind of friendship where the love is just so evident you can’t help but be delighted whenever you see them together! (rpf is a separate convo though in my opinion).

#amanda lehan canto #angela giarratana #amangela #asks! #smoshblr #(also this is just personal to me but i don’t write amangela kissing or doing anything explicitly romantic) #(my fics are both still very rooted in friendship) #(and i think the love female friends have for one another can often transcend a lot of expectations people have for romantic partners) #(but that’s a can of worms i won’t open right now because no one is asking for all my philosophic thoughts on love LOL) #(i’m not here to yuck anyone’s yum just to be clear i still love reading romantic amangela rpf fics!)

[youngyoo-apologist]

If I ever met Cale I’d laugh in his face because my life is everything he wants his to be (I slack off and he doesn’t)

#I do nothing all day #I’m the real slacker between the two of us #he’s actually such a fake slacker I can’t believe him #he’s so in denial about it too #I love him he’s so pitiful and unfortunate #he doesn’t even know he’s digging his slacker life’s own grave #tsk tsk #Cale let me tell you from a real slacker to a fake one #a REAL slacker does the bare minimum of everything possible #if something sounds like a pain you find a way to avoid it entirely and do something where you can get the most rest right at that moment #while I think your method of slacking off for the future works occasionally #you must find balance between work and rest #and you poor soul have found yourself forever drowning in work because of your ‘I have to do it now it’s more convenient’ mentality #rambling #I like to make fun of Cale a lot actually #Alberu too #it’s just so funny #My favorite old man workaholics #one of them is in denial about it the other is not #tcf #lcf

[heaven-zent]

the pacesetter needs a content warning or something cuz i watched his fight for the 1st time three months ago and not a day has gone by since where i haven’t thought about him

#my toontown interest is fueled by him #inside my mind there is a pace running around #Just something about him. #i don’t expect him to leave any time soon either like god i’m in this TRENCHES right now #it has not gotten any better #i think it has actually . that first week was a lot #one day i hope to have my graham thing die off a little so i can point at other characters and go yayyy #but right now… right now it’s all him. #and it will remain that way for the foreseeable future #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #pacesetter #adam chatting