#I’m just done so here’s a shit post

[g0gglez-eyeballz]

Here you go :3 thank the thought of this shit post to some of my discord goobers

@nosleep83 @wingstobetorn @browless-donnie @alexkbwi

#ah yes twitter drama #I’m unpassend by all of this to be completely honest #shitpost time #mm tmnt #art #digital art #tmnt #I’m just done so here’s a shit post #mm leonardo #YEAAAAAHHH HIT HIM WITH THAT SIGN LEO- #SMACK HIM-

[adriancatrin]

katara sees her brother and bff approaching something that can make them happy and says no interruptions

based on this photo from the live action cast

#my art #i learned SO MUCH about digital coloring while working on this. i can’t wait to try to put it to practice from the start and on purpose #instead of stumbling upon leagues of info when i was already 95% done lol #anyways #zukka #idc about tagging rn tbh i’m tired #fuck backgrounds dude #hate that shit #i need to do lighting studies fr tho #i can’t do interesting light i just. don’t have the knowledge #makes me sad cuz lighting really makes or breaks pieces it seems #also lol i started this then stopped for like two hours and just sketched katara a fuck ton #what i landed on here isn’t my favorite but i liked the soft + gently amused emotion she’s showing #ok whatever i’m done rambling #post

[3amsnek]

a very merry birth to our most logical boy :]

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reblogs >> likes!! don’t like if you don’t reblog!

#logan sanders #sanders sides logan #ts logan #ts fanart #ts art #ts logic #sanders sides fanart #logan sanders fanart #sanders sides #thomas sanders #literally Howmst the Fuck did I get this done holy shit #almost there kids!! we’ve technically done all of them but I’m gonna try to do em all in a Calendar year as well just because. I am. #apparently a masochist why the hell am I doing this again #context: one year ago today I realized it was Logan’s bday panic hed posted a random coincidentally finished thing of him I had on hand #and then vowed to draw a finished piece for Every T.s Character Birthday for the next year. absolute lunacy but here we still are #continuing for the sake of Spite if nothing else #i make. good choices #hypothetically it’s really not that bad it’s like less than 10 I think over a full year #and obviously tons of people Do do this every year #but of course in the interim i have been diagnosed with ‘oh yeah basically everything’s just gonna Hurt Forever sucks for u man’ disorder so #getting less and less realistic to set. kind of Any art goal anymore :’/ #and like yes yes this is also the year i decided to do pride dragons for every identity celebration day I could find #very aware #one Certified Fool right here

[mooseonahunt]

The way I wanna see Luis go completely apeshit and just start doing things that he wouldn’t do in canon. In canon we know he feels immense guilt for his past and wants to make up for it all. We see him trying to do good over and over again. He wants to redeem himself and prove he’s changed.

But a part of me so badly wants him to kinda just,, lose the plot for a hot minute. The whole “be the monster they always said you were” kinda ordeal. He gets left for dead after the Krauser attack and nobody came back for him so he’s kinda bitter about it. I know it would be out of character because of what we’ve seen him go through and do, but… I do kinda wanna see it happen anyway.

#so naturally I’m brainstorming a corruption arc fic that will never be completed bc nobody wants to see this #and also because I will get people saying it’s ooc #I love him for how good he genuinely is and how human he feels I swear #but sometimes I just wanna see my beloveds go fucking berserk #I’m sorry i think he would also kinda be hot as a mad scientist #you ever see someone reach their breaking point? where they realise everything they’d done had been for nothing? completely useless bc #nobody bothered to see the good in them? #ofc Luis had Ashley Ada and Leon who saw the good in him and gave him the opportunity to do good #but also nobody went back for his corpse for a proper burial so like… #idk. I’m just saying shit out here. #Luis Babygirl Serra #moose rambles #moose posting #focusing on his anger bc if I think about his sadness I’ll break down and cry

[eastberlin]

Doing some Serious Painting for the first time in uh over a decade and holy shit y’all I’m…good? Like, I periodically step back to check things and go “hot damn!”.

#I think stepping away from art for a while helped me tbh #I also think my fine motor skills finished baking a bit in my 20s #and just generally maturing w/r/t patience and other things #(for anyone new here I started college as an art major then changed majors like twice and ultimately dropped out bc mental health) #(I’ve been doing a little sketching and shit here and there but nothing major) #anyway I had the bright idea to do some oil portraits for Xmas gifts and here we are #literally the last time I finished an oil painting was in…2011? 2012? something like that #so I wasn’t 100% sure going into this #and now I’m really excited #I’ll post a pic later when I’m done for the night

[arthur-r]

something’s just not right / there’s hunger in my eyes, but you’re not looking into mine / in the morning light / i wake up next to you, but we’re no longer entwined / i want to love you with a ravenous hunger, tear your flesh into mine / you say you like me, but you’d rather that i listen quiet, keep it all inside / i romanticize a lust for blood and the glint of evil in your eyes / any kind of sign, something to tell me that your heart is burning just like mine / rend me to pieces if that’s what it takes to tell me that i taste divine / there’s something wrong but i just can’t quite place it, leave me on the precipice, i’m fine / something awakening and stirring inside me / i’m gearing up, your pretense in decline / i slice my heart up on a platter and find that you don’t even wanna dine / i gave my soul up, you can eat me raw / diced up and vulnerable, i’m yours to try / you’re glancing to the side, bored, and find that you don’t even wanna dine!!!!

#round 2 of recording my loser boring cannibalism song #(it has more words now. it is still not a complete song but it is getting somewhere….) #basically i really like cannibalism as a literary device and devouring somebody and being like violently enamored #and i convinced myself that my relationship was really good and healthy and i just don’t know how to handle a Good Normal Relationship #but secretly loving somebody should be at least a LITTLE BIT like cannibalism. especially if you’re me #so i got really hungry and he didn’t ever lift a finger for me or smile in my direction #and i wish he would just be hungry for me back. kill me a little bit if it would mean you care #i just thought that Normal People should be Normal about each other and he was just being Normal about me #when he like. did not prioritize me ever. and was only affectionate when he was drunk 🫠 #he does NOT deserve to be the one who ended the relationship!!!! #anyway i would rather he eat me alive than not even look at me. and that’s what this song is about #and i’m gonna raise my standards so much fucking higher. he should be fucking hungry for me actually #literally and figuratively shdhdf i was always the one to invite him to dinner too. #and he was SHIT at communion motif. that guy had awful fucking table manners why did i date him #anyway shdhdf. idk here is round two of my hungry song #i’ve already changed the lyrics a little since recording this a couple mornings ago but it’s FINE my roommate is in here so can’t re-record #but: there’s something wrong but i’m not ready to face it. actually. cause it was so fucking obvious i was just willfully ignorant #anyways!! i’m feeling a little weird today and i haven’t done anything and i want to play music but i can’t. so i’m posting a song instead #and later i might be going to a concert?? we’ll see. if i’m feeling better physically by then!! #anyway i hope everybody is doing okay and lmk if you need anything!! sincerely arthur #me. my post. mine. #delete later (probably) #music

[corrodedcoughin]

You!!! Make this community a better place!!! Thank you for grazing in the Steddie nation!!

#you ever watch a documentary on autism in ‘women and girls’ and SO MUCH of it hits home and makes sense but not all of it 100% so doubt #yourself even though over 75% fits when you’ve been thinking this might be The Right Fit but don’t have a formal diagnosis and probably #will never get one #BUT THEN get really upset because it’s in ‘women and girls’ and you don’t want to be either of those and it hurts in a way you can’t explan #and then worry you are over analysing everything and making things out to be more than they are #idk idk just thoughts to vent out I don’t need a reply so please don’t feel obligated or anything #I mean talking abt it is always interesting but I’m not expecting anything #as all of my posts are!! never an obligation! ever!!! #idk man just thinking out loud and tag talking is my way becaude a full text post is too Much #I just hope everyone is doing okay???? AND!!! I hope you are enjoying yourselves??? #in some way!! #because I’ve come back and seeing the creativity and joy and community here js so lovely #I wish I had the time to reblog everybody’s work and exclaim the details and feeling of it all #because regardless of fic shit post art edit gifs it’s all INCREDIBLE. it brings so much emotion to so many and you deserve the recognition #and credit for it because yes you do it for yourself but the feedback is always nice. always. #I just want people to be encouraged to create idk you are all so wonderful and I need you to know that #OKAY I’m done back to Normal reblogs and ask answering and whatever else I can provide #sorry!!!

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Ah manic energy making me seem productive for a few days before a shitty mental health crash, I’d hoped you were dead

#I can’t even be happy about the productivity because it’s gonna end up shitty anyways #I’m just gonna hope it doesn’t leave me too tired for my spring show next week #see like it sucks because there’s no bright side or silly little jokes to be made about whatever the fuck does this to my brain #like with my autism I can make silly little jokes and jabs at it to lighten the load #with this i literally don’t even know what I’m dealing with beyond a suspicion of bipolar (maybe) there’s nothing fun to find here #always great to be in dance and energetic and happy and shit and then realize why you’re like this right now and be like shit #this ain’t gonna last for long will it #anyways haha silly little funny jokes right guys #sorry this is very venty #I’m just so fucking done with this shitty ass brain making my life shitty #vent post #vent

[faggot-friday]

god it’s like primary school again (people are spreading rumours that i have a crush on someone)

#(except this time they’re right) #ugh okay it’s so annoying. it’s not actually rumours it’s just One Guy told two of my friends and they asked me #and they’re not disclosing who told them but i know EXACTLY who it is bc of. yknow. my incredibly deduction skills #and like. he talks a lot of shit but he wouldn’t be one to like. actually spill to the person. so i think i’m safe there. wait yes he would #my biggest issues are (a) word gets to people who WOULD tell the person or (b) this guy snitches to the person #bc i KNOW he’d do that. he’s done it before except i was The Person he was snitching to #and it wasn’t even out of malice he was mates with the guy. and we’re not Mates but we’re not Not Mates #but. ARGH. this is stressful #also to anyone who read this far and is somewhat up to date on my love life shit: this is a different person than the one i’ve posted about #before. like the person im talking about here who i like is Not the one i’ve posted about before #ANYWAYS. had to get that off my chest bc im actually scared the personll find out :D like im shaking rn #thankyou for reading i’m gonna show you a photo of my massive bruise now cause it looks cool #vent tw

[fckedupnerd]

Holy fuck, some advice… do not mix a Zyrtec with two Benadryl and then drink a full pot of coffee and a Monster Energy. I promise your heart and head will feel like they’re gonna explode. 😬

#I’ve just done this #do not recommend #allergy season in Florida is a fucking BEAST though #there is genuinely a specific environmental/pollen allergy here that I have a near-anaphylactic reaction to #so I’m a zombie just power loading Benadryl for like 3 months per year #just to keep my eyes from LITERALLY swelling entirely shut #😩😩😩 haaaaate spring so so much why do trees and flowers even exist damnit #personal post #sorry lol I just feel like shit

[little-shiny-sharpies]

*through gritted teeth* don’t trust how you feel about your life after 9 pm or during your monthly hell, don’t trust how you feel about your life after 9 pm or during your-

#//vent #I feel so alone #whenever I’m jittery and excited and I gotta talk to somebody there’s never anybody there #usually because of time zones #everybody posted about how quarantine affected them but that’s just literally how I’ve lived my entire life #I want to get a shit job at Joanne’s I’m not kidding deadass I want to experience the mundane life everyone else but me has lived #I only go to town once every 4 months or so and I RELISH it. There’s a whole world out there. Look at all these people with lives as rich #and complex as my own. What I wouldn’t give to small talk with every single person in Fred’s and learn their passions and how they live #all I do is wake up feed clean and water animals that’s all I’ve ever done #I remember being in HS and loving lunch bc I could watch everybody laugh and eat and live #I never got to stay after school for activities bc my mom hated picking me up #I never got to go to parties past 10 yrs old bc my family was more important and they fucking hated me orbiting them #my family is all I’ve ever known and they don’t even realize how starved I am for contact #ANYTHING #ANYTHING AT ALL #ILL TAKE SOME OLD WHITE MAN HURLING SLURS AT ME I NEED TO FEEL ALIVE #I need to feel the bitter sting of life and live #and I don’t even have online friends to play with like yeah I occasionally talk to my besties on here #but I can’t bring myself to ask for anything more

[skhardwarevers1]

sorry for saying I was going to do things and even starting them and then disappearing from this website entirely for three days. It will happen again

#Nothing new. Tbf I’ve done this a lot #I would say I’m focusing more on school and my personal writing but that’s more of a fucking lie than full truth #I genuinely have felt sick to my stomach posting here for whatever reason #Guilt shame anxiety paranoia etc etc you get the point. I feel like shit with no valid reason as to why #So for now I’m going to stop doing the thing that makes me overly emotionally sick to the point I have actual physical reactions???? #Yeah that’s the logical course of action. Might post small personal anecdotes and doodles and such to give off the vague energy that Im fin #But beyond that I quite literally can’t. I sat down and thought about writing this post and immediately broke down #I don’t know why I feel guilty over having inconsistent motivation for putting up shitty writing on a website for strangers to see #But I do and k think the only good way to get past that is this. Gotta stop acting Impulsively it’s ruining my fucking life man #There’s only one other thing that I’ll thank Eloise for #and it’s for getting me off of tumblr long enough to realize that I desperately need to get help #This is fucked I fucking hate it. I might be online if k can bare the possibility that people can see this #Namely people I’ve grown attached to in concept #Idfc at this point. it doesn’t change much about how things have been going for the past year #Vent #S.K explains that things never really got better they would just suck less for short periods of time

[filthy-lil-bugger]

the most guy ever

#HOLY SHIT I’M POSTING ART ON HERE. LIKE ACTUALLY. #i’ve done it before but it always looked like shit and was purposefully buried under other posts #idk i just like this piece #he looks so stupid i love him #dghda #dirk gently’s holistic detective agency #dirk gently

[lavender-femme]

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#don’t mind me I’m just having a night™️ #i hate living with my dad more often than not #the only consistent pro is not paying rent #which I only get because every time I ask him what he wants me to pay him he gets all kinds of passive aggressive #I got roped into being his caretaker post knee replacement just because I’m here #and he can’t be bothered to treat me with half as much respect as he does his numerous girlfriends who treat him like shit #I’m so so so tired of doing every fucking thing around here #i haven’t done laundry because I’ve been in too much pain #i haven’t done dishes because I’ve been in too much pain #so of course the sink is overflowing and his laundry just sits downstairs because he ‘doesn’t want to’ #the knee replacement hasn’t even happened yet #and I just know I’m going to end up doin every goddamn thing around this house even more #doesn’t matter that I am in a shit ton of pain and can’t even properly treat it #doesn’t matter that I might be having a difficult time with my mental health #doesn’t fucking matter !! he doesn’t want to do something now so I can end up doing it later #just thinking about how he and my uncle joked about ‘if you do it wrong enough times you stop getting asked to do it’ #about dishes and laundry and shit #and that is so fucking disgusting to laugh about #especially when you literally put everything off so your kid can do it despite you being perfectly capable #and then refusing help when you actually do something #I’m just so fucking annoyed #i am in so much pain and all I asked was for one thing #doesn’t matter that I’m using my limited gas to drive him to and from the hospital tomorrow #or that I’m the one who went out and found him crutches #or that I’m the one who told him to think of some meals for the week since he’ll be recovering and I’ll be cooking them and then he refused #Fuck #I’m just so exhausted #and i I have to wake up super fucking early #i wanna bury my face in a butches chest and never come out #it’s fine I’m fine everything is fine

[dragons-hoarde]

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#if you see this post really really really no you do not please do not look here I just need somewhere to say this at all #just keep your own mental health state fine first before reading on about my shit; yeah? you’ve got your own life to worry about #maybe things to do or projects to plan or animals to take care of #you’ve got you to handle worry about me later #… I don’t even want to make the post anymore #this is pathetic #and useless #go hug a friend or touch some grass #go love somebody else #I’m so over existing #I’m so done with it all #I have no hopes #my dreams are nothing #all I want is a gentle off of this plane #I can’t think more than a year ahead because who knows where I’ll be #5 years will be a different yet same world #out out out out out out out out out our out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out out

[achilleslyre]

i hate tolerating smth for so long then reaching ur breaking point before u can actually do anything to change the situation so now ur just gonna be an asshole all the time bc ur past the point of being able to just ignore all the bullshit that goes on here.

#i fucking hate being mean but #i’m fucking tired of this shit #once i come back from xyz i’m gonna try to get out of here asap but #idk how well that will work 🙃🙃 #whatever. #i’m just done but i hate being an asshole but i also hate how i’m treated here #why cant anyone i live with ever be decent or nice or just okay to live with #i’m never gonna find a safe place to live ever. am i? #blowing myself up. #srry i hate being negative but i have to post angry so i dont start screaming at the ppl i live with rn. #jitter bugs u