#I’m gonna VENT

[daydadahlias]

~ xoxo ~

#I’m gonna VENT #I’m gonna dO IT #just got a text from a friend I haven’t spoken with in literally four months #where she was like ‘hey me and my girlfriend broke up. can I call you?’ #and naturally I was like yeah #so I clamber out of bed in my pajamas and I go outside and I talk to her for an hour #and don’t get me wrong I love her #but it’s one of those things where I go owe. #in the past I’ve literally left my dorm barefoot to meet her in the parking lot at 2 am because she’s having a breakdown #I’ve skipped classes before to sit with friends who are having terrible days #I pay for meals when me and my friends go out #i text first #and I’m just having kind of a #stare at the ceiling and feel like I don’t matter to anyone as much as they matter to me moment #which I know isn’t true!!! i have lots of good friends #but idk it’s just kind of. a shitty little feeling. to feel like my value in relationships is just… service dog #like I’ve had friends ?? make jokes about me being ?? a service dog before #so I’m just like. damn. where do my treat be then 😞 #jk #yeah y’know how to be sometimes #sometimes u just feel undervalued and like most of your friends don’t actually love you but rather love the things you can give them #ie. therapy. and loyalty #which I do give and I like giving because I love my friends #i just wish that I got. like. a little of that back #ok that’s the end of that 😌 #I’m gonna eat some ~noodles~

[multifandomslxt]

Today I got a very harsh reminder to go where I’m wanted and not where I’m tolerated.

#I’m gonna vent

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i just wanna be protected and cared for like i'm a tiny kitty with abandonment issues

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd problems #bpd #bpd vent #bpd mood #i lost electricity for two days and my fp said i could stay with him and his sister.. i love him so much #tho i can’t fall asleep because it’s a new space #so i might go see if i can sleep in his room in like a half an hour if i’m still awake #because i always get anxious when im in new spaces that someone is gonna break in and id be the first victim

[candyheartedchy]

“Tell me, do you miss me?”

#I’m gonna try to finish those trades and sorry they been taking a bit #I’m just so tired #🎨 chy creations 🎨 #❤️ scratchyenne ❤️ #vent #vent tw

[mushramoo]

I hate that having ADHD is seen as “quirky”. Or one of the “lesser” mental disorders.

It is agonizing.

You are constantly forgetting everything, names, locations, tasks, items, everything. You misplace things subconsciously and have to spend half hours looking for them, only to find them in places you genuinely cannot recall at all. Your memory is nonexistent. You are constantly aware that you have things you need to do or need to be doing but you cannot remember what. You know you are forgetting something but it doesn’t come to you, so you spend all day anxious. You get awful moments of dysfunction where words become incomprehensible and you are incapable of completing a task, but people are quick to assume you are lazy no matter how hard you’re trying. And one of the worst parts is that you KNOW you’re letting people down. You know you can’t grasp time so you’re showing up late even though you left extremely early. You know someone expected something from you by a deadline but you genuinely couldn’t remember. And in academics, you know some of your teachers are trying hard to be accommodating but you can’t even do the most basic tasks by the given deadlines. Or! You get teachers that do not even understand what mental disorders are and accuse you of not trying. People think you are using your disorder as an excuse just because you know you have it and use it to explain some of your behaviors. If you mask well enough to never need help, you don’t get diagnosed even though it’s taking all of your strength just to get by. If you don’t mask well enough and you are fem presenting like I am you are told you aren’t acting out so you are fine. You can’t win. It’s not quirky to have ADHD, and we aren’t faking it.

It’s a constant struggle, and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.

#I’m gonna include here that I’m not saying I have it the worst #Im also not saying that you can’t feel validated by your diagnosis bc I definitely did! #I just hate that people act like it’s not that bad #because it is #with adhd #adhd problems #actually adhd #adhd #living with adhd #adhd struggles #vent post #but you can reblog #in fact maybe do #I don’t know if other people feel this way #mental disorder #mental health #mental illness #mentally exhausted

[johnbleepingzoidberg]

this started out as vent art but it just turned into a cool bowser sketch featuring a teeny luigi LOL

#bowuigi #luigi #bowser #super mario bros #‘‘twas originally gonna be a big badass bowser protecting/comforting sad weegee #because i was feeling a bit sad #but drawing big cool scary lookin turtle dinosaurs always helps #might clean this up and color it properly but for now i’m v tired #my art #mine #slightly diff style than usual. sharper and more geometric #ok to reblog if you so wish #even tho it was originally vent art #i do like how its turning out :)

[f4gwithf4ngs]

i cant wait for the day that i feel safe with someone romantically.

the day that i trust someone enough romantically that i can confide in them when i’m not feeling well. that i can trust they’ll take my hands and tell me everything’s alright. that i can trust that when they say they’re okay, they mean it. that i can trust when something *is* bothering them, they’ll tell me.

trust is scary. trusting is hard. i’ll be able to do it again someday. but i cant do it today.

#kind of a vent post #not necessarily a yearning post but i’m gonna put the yearning tags. because i yearn for trust #mlm #gay #mlnb #nblm #t4t mlm #ftm mlm #gay mlm #mlm thoughts #mlm yearning #gay yearning #queued post

[asukiess]

rapidly oscillating between “why make stories if they end up the same, do I have some kind of brain fog that makes me dumb and incapable to do new things” to “no, I have specific authors whose works I read and reread specifically because they have 20 fics that hit the same spot in slightly different ways and yet the same” to “the time will pass anyway and time is fleeting” to “what would everyone think?” to “fandom to supposed to be fun” to “what if i just wrote it for myself” to “but i want to share it” to “why” to a dial tone that makes me wonder again to the first point

#Asukies ramble #vent post #I’m gonna do it anyway because it makes me happy #it’s not a very serious post it’s just grrrrrr

[muncysvelasco]

Churlish: Why are your tongues purple?

Muncy: We had slushies i had a red one

Velasco: I had a blue one

Churlish: oh

Churlish: OH

Bruno: You drank each other’s slushies?

#i’m sorry i had to #grace muncy #joe velasco #velascy #veluncy #law and order svu #incorrect svu #svu 24 #terry bruno #tonie churlish #i have regents tmrw #i’m gonna cry #wish me luck girlies #tommorow will be rough one #at least i have this blog #sorry these tags are literally vents at this point

[garoujo]

i’m not normally one to bring negative vibes onto my blog but i’ve gotten a sudden wave of unease being on here tbh so im considering drifting from here for a little bit once more. i’ve thought about creating a new blog but also wouldn’t want to waste the masterlist that i’ve worked hard to build for the people who enjoy my work + support me!

i’ve never had a super close circle of friends as such on here but i’m very grateful for the few friends i have made that continue to interact with me. i do really enjoy tumblr and i love creating, i’m grateful for the interaction i get and i know i’ve been on here a while but there always seems to be a sort of uneasiness that i feel stems from previous problems with other people on here.

it can feel a little silly from a blog like me feeling a little ‘outcasted’ and i don’t even know if i’d use that word, but i’ve just never been one that felt comfortable with the sort of underground, high school energy that i sometimes feel radiate around here. i guess i sometimes feel like i’m walking on egg shells to avoid sub posts / bad energy because i really only want to enjoy myself! but yeah, i’m gonna be less active for a few days atleast because i really need the rest anyway after my holiday + a few things on here have just sort of triggered my mental health.

but just know i love all of u, thank u for everything no matter what <3

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#ʚ・◞📎 — em entry. #cw vent #i’m gonna tag this cos ew it feels so gross to even post this like i don’t want sympathy i’m just spiralling i fear #idk sometimes i just get the random urge everyone is talking about me + normally i wouldn’t care …. #but if it hits at a bad moment w my anxiety / bpd it just sends me off the deep end sob

[honeypleasejustkillme]

for fuckin real :/

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd vent #bpd shitposting #bpd mood #bpd problems #ahah i’m gonna cry #i hate being alone #it’s the worst

[zippityzap]

Less than a week of being legally allowed to drive and I’m already sick of my mum being a backseat driver

“Why are you going so slow?” I’m sticking to the legal speed limit????

“Why’d you indicate there you didn’t need to do that” I’m showing other drivers I intend on exiting the roundabout????? I don’t know why you think this specific roundabout is the exception to that rule

“Why’d you leave it so long to change lanes” I’m sorry that I don’t want to get a ticket for being in the bus lane when I’ve had my full license for less than a fortnight

#she’s just accompanying me for the first few journeys since the route to pick my brother up from school is a little complex at parts #but fuck I’ll be glad when I’m trusted to be out on my own because if she keeps this up I’m seriously gonna crack up at her #makes me appreciate how good of a teacher my driving instructor was #zippy speaks #vent #ahh sorry for whinging but it’s frustrating

[candyheartedchy]

Feeling disconnected again…

#im trying not to isolate myself but I been finding myself pulling away from folks again #maybe I’m just tired but idk #like I been feeling fine and drawing helps as an outlet #but when I go a day without drawing I end up feeling terrible #and I been noticing I haven’t been engaging a lot lately either which I’m mad about #like I’ll scroll a bit maybe post art and asks and then disappear #but also I been feeling like I’m gonna embarrass myself around people again #so if y’all have noticed me interacting less in servers or not as talkative in dms that’s why #vent #I guess??? #I mean it’s more of just me noticing this lately and wanted to let y’all know that I just been feeling off lately #ventish #💬 chy chatter 💬

[chill4234]

I’m so annoyed right now

Watching TGAMM, found a website that has EVERY EPISODE for free. Cool, right?

It’s missing welcome to necronomi-con.

Which, based on the episode description, it seems like it would be pretty important, especially for Ollie’s character arc and the Chen family as a whole. But I haven’t seen it! I got up to Jinx vs. the human world wondering when Ollie’s character arc is gonna be wrapped up, Frightmare on Main Street was building the Chen family up as these big, exciting antagonists and I spent SO LONG wondering when they were gonna give narrative pay off. Turns out I just missed it! I missed the payoff to one of my favourite plotlines of season 2! I missed it.

Ugh. Can someone please DM me a link.

#tgamm #tgamm season 2 #tgamm ollie #the ghost and Molly McGee #I’m so annoyed right now #piracy #cartoon piracy #I’m tagging this with a lot of things because I want to vent my frustration to as many people as possible while also finding the link #as fast as possible #I’m gonna start tagging episodes #jinx vs the human world #welcome to necronomicon #welcome to necronomi-con #frightmare on Main Street #tgamm chen family

[fuckyeah-bears]

whhhhyyyyyyyyy is everything sooooo motherfucking expensive????? don’t they know I can’t afford all this shit???

#paid rent yesterday #had to take my dog to the vet and buy her more food and go to the grocery store and buy gas today #and had to pay utilities last week #I am physically pained #Can’t wait til I can actually get paid for my work #Cause not gonna lie #Mandatory unpaid student internships are a real fucking bitch #2 more months til graduation #And then my field placement will hire me and actually pay me for my work #But that’s 2 more months of OWWWW #don’t mind me I’m just whining #About capitalism #and how bullshit insane unpaid internships are #la dee da I have no money and I hate it #Pls ignore my vent post lmao #I’m done whining like a lil bitch now

[sofitai28]

my face every time my professors keep assigning me shit

i am still kicking!! simply going back into my Greek myth phase (as if I ever left). ask me about greek myth please i have too many in my head

#HELP #too many papers written the day they’re due 😔 #adults does it ever get easier #does anyone even read these? #if so sorry I’m gonna vent lmao #i have made one (1) friend in uni so far and she’s contemplating transferring #which would suck because we’re planning on rooming together next year #and she’s a very good artist and i have felt very insecure!! #but she went to art school and i have not taken a proper art class since middle school soo #we love feeling lonely and stupid and untalented #anyways #how are you guys #bbc merlin #merlin #art #fanart #digital illustration #merlin fanart #merlin bbc #arthur pendragon fanart #bbc arthur #arthur pendragon