#I went home and cried for a while tho lmao

[mostlykind]

I went to an engagement party on Saturday for someone I don’t really know and for some reason I was overwhelmed with the urge to cry the entire time I was there. even though I was glad I went and had a good time. I was literally fighting tears the whole night. it was not funny at the time but in hindsight… literally what the hell was my brain going through

#I went home and cried for a while tho lmao #woke up on Sunday with big puffy eyes 😀 #but it was good to get it out #thought it’d be nice to know why I was crying #literally nothing had happened btw #I was just sat in a big room filled with people I mostly did not know and thinking to myself wow this is so lovely. all these people here #celebrating love and having fun #and YET. I WAS SAD. WELL AND TRULY SAD. like a deep deep ache of sadness and a big and sudden urge to SOB #thankfully I did not cos what the fuck but ?????? #brains are weird and stupid #thinking back it’s funny cos imagine I just caved and started crying in the middle of this party #kill the vibes IMMEDIATELY 😭😭😭😭😭 #rahma’s rambles

[wednesdaytoo]

@coffinbutch tagged me for this! 15 questions + 15 friends! (coffinbutch you are so brave for doing all 15 tags. im gonna take the coward's way and ask any mutual to consider themself tagged if they want to do it!)

long under here

1. Are you named after anyone?

yea! im named after my abuela who died waaay before i was born

2. When was the last time you cried?

3 days ago

3. Do you have kids?

nope! i work with kids (teenaged) and they're fine, i enjoy them, but that's plenty of Kid for me -- i don't need to have my own in my home everyday. id love to be a lesbian uncle tho! which i already kno is Not gonna happen from either of my brothers, so my only chance is my wife's younger sister haha (we were just talking abt this yesterday lol)

4. What sports do you play/have played?

hahha i don't think i've ever played a sport like Officially, like outside of PE classes. i like badminton tho, and B and i are trying to learn how to play pickleball (we suck)

5. Do you use sarcasm?

i suppose on occasion i sarcast

6. What is the first thing you notice about people?

hair & clothes? face? im a simple guy

7. What's your eye color?

the inner part of my irises are yellowish-brown and the outer edges are grey-blue. ppl dont usually notice it unless theyre quite up close tho. from a few feet away i think they look grey and that's what i'll usually mark for eye color, or blue if that's not an option

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

i could go for either, but i think i lean slightly more toward scary movies, especially bc i love vampire movies so much. like when we watch a dracula movie and u have one of those "the monster is defeated! hooray!" endings, does that count as a happy ending movie?? we root for drac tho so it's a let down!

9. Any talents?

idk im pretty good at whistling !

10. Where were you born?

california

11. What are your hobbies?

movies, video games, insect/arachnid related things (catching, collecting, pinning, reading abt, etc), sewing/embroidery when the mood strikes me, reading (trying to get back into it at least!), listening to music/discovering new bands, sorting/cataloguing things

12. Do you have any pets?

3 cats (hopey, bullets, and cocoa) + a baby tarantula (avocado) <3

13. How tall are you?

5'6.5" or 168 cm!

14. Favorite subject in school?

in high school my favs were probably trigonometry and ceramics

in college i'd say science (esp entomology, ecology, botany, and astronomy) and foreign languages (i took french, japanese, ASL, and spanish)

15. Dream job?

see one of the above hobbies and then pay me $100/hr to do it :-))

no but fr even tho my current job has its annoyances, it's usually so chill. some days i just text B from work like "here's a bracelet i made today" "made u a candle today" "it was slow and i mostly just read in the library" "i drew a cute poster." two weeks ago we came in for a couple hours to decorate little pouches with custom vinyl designs on our new cricut. the next day we went roller skating lmao. even the actual "work" is enjoyable (i help students w/ their schoolwork, mostly math, which is fun to me, or entering info into forms/spreadsheets, also kind of fun to me bc i can listen to music while i do it). buuut i dont make a lot of money. if they paid me $100/hr and gave me some benefits, i'd be set!

#i should post the pouch i made it's cute as hell #on q14 i had to stop myself from listing more sciences lol #shout out to chemistry and geology... microbiology is dope too #wt.txt #abt

[prettyboykatsuki]

I want to tell you a story about my first (and only) time with edibles.

For a little background, I smoked a lot when I was younger and a little bit when my husband and I first met (12 years ago) but I have no experience with any sort of edibles. One evening at my part-time job, the cook and I were talking about it, and he offered me a gummy. Again, no experience whatsoever. I'd been really stressed lately and I thought, eh, what can it hurt? He said it would take a while to kick in, and I was at the end of my shift anyway, so I took him up on the offer and ate. The whole thing.

I didn't know you weren't supposed to eat the whole thing unless you wanted to be blitzed out of your mind.

He came back to check on me a few minutes later. "How much of that did you eat, by the way?"

"All of it," I said, and he laughed.

"How's your tolerance?"

"Nonexistent. I haven't smoked in years."

He said I'd probably be alright, but didn't really elaborate further. And I truly don't think he meant any harm in not telling me to only eat a portion of it. I shrugged and we closed up and went out to the parking lot, said goodbye, and then I started my car.

I live five minutes from work, and I swear it took me three hours to get there. I got home and tried so hard to act normal, so my husband wouldn't suspect anything. I told him I was tired; he took the kids out for ice cream and I sat in my kitchen and stared out the window trying so hard not to be high.

When my family returned, I laid on the couch and watched Power Rangers with my son. I was REALLY invested, and kept asking him questions, but there's one part of that conversation that I remember vividly.

"See that guy, mom? He's like a ghost. He's not real."

"You're not real!" I cried, and my son thought it was THE funniest thing I've ever said.

So anyway, if I ever do have an edible again, I'll only eat like a quarter of it, and I'll do it at home while my kids aren't there.

(you don't have to post this, it's SO LONG. but I hope you have a much more enjoyable high than I did.)

lin i cant stop laughing at this ask FDKJHGSDKFJLGF. I FEEL BAD AS IF IT HAPPENED TO ME

I DONT BLAME YOU THOUGH.... it's like. even with experienced weed smokers i think taking the edible is just a completely different THING lmao. i've been smoking on and off for years and years (even though im total dogshit at it even now... don't know how that happened). i smoked and got high basically everyday of my sophmore year of hs and had done other drugs, but i still remember my first edible experience it was the wild LMAOOO

i have an okay tolerance to it now but before........my goodness......it is quite the experience to get that like... long-term bone deep kind of high that is so frightening. especially the first time.

i started taking edibles after smoking a lot and i found i preferred it but the first time i took it i took like. 3 entire ones and almost died and i have not made the mistake since

I FEEL VERY PLEASANTLY HIGH RN THO.... THANK U BELOVED LIN

#return to sender

[sir-arlieosaurus-lung-struggler]

(I was gonna edit this but my phone died :/)

I just realized today might be the last time I go to an appointment & have the nurse I've had for 7 years as a nurse cause shes moving- like i dont know if shes in today but if she is this is the last appointment I'll have her as a nurse & that just feels werid.

Like- fuck you lungs for making me go that often but shit she really has kinda become a form of family. Shit- I've probobly seen her & my doctor more than alot of my blood relatives lmao.

When I was little I went to that office once a week, every other week, every month, and so on in larger increments to now I have a yearly checkup & go as needed, she saw me as I grew & developed, she was there for the appointment I finally went home without any sort of prescription, she was there as I slowly dropped most of my meds, for my breathing tests, when I went to the office the day before my 7th birthday & she gave me a balloon & a kitkat, theres still a note I wrote her on a bulletin board in the hallway from at least 5+ years ago. Its gonna be really weird not seeing her in the office.

My mom dosnt know what shes gonna do lol, at least I probably won't be the only one crying

Like shit I'm tearing up now. I'm really gonna miss her, shes always had mine & my mom's back & that's just nice to have & know in a nurse.

Edit: she was in, I think she was training the new nurse. It was nice we got to say our goodbyes & mom cried a bit while we waited for thr doctor. In other news lungs = very good sounding & my doc advised me to get a councilor lol, I'm happy lungs r good I just want answers for hurt & physical exhaustion tho-

#asthma #lung-struggler #chronic illness #tw rant

[withacapitalp]

✨ 2022 ao3 wrapped ✨

thanks @hexmionegranger and @thefreakandthehair for taggin meeeee I love you both!!!!

I’m also so ready for 2022 to be overrrr but I did have a good fic writing year… I’m so sorry for how dumb these are about to be 

Works Published: 24

Word Count: 340186……I need to resort my priorities lmaooooo

Hits: 173947 (If I think about that number too much I’m gonna throw up so I’m not going to LMAO)

Bookmarks: 3726

Most popular by kudos: So it’s actually Concerns which is so funny because I would’ve been sure it was a Stranger Things fic! For Stranger things it was Scrapes, Sprains, and Headaches. That’s the second part of my A New Perspective series, and one of my favorite ones I’ve written. It’s a Lucas and Steve first aid fic from Wayne’s POV generally all the stuff I love most! 

Most hits: Another not ST fic! Okay! Well this one is Not Again it’s an Omori long fic I started and abandoned (so if you go read it I’m sorry there will not be an update) I honestly forgot that I was one of the bigger(ish) omori writers right at the start. ST isn’t even number two because that’s Things Done for Love aka my magnum opus but I’ll talk about that one later. ST comes in third with Well, I’ve Been Afraid of Changin’ which is the getting together fic for A New Perspective

Longest: Things done for love BY F A R It’s 118k it’s not finished. Like I said Magnum Opus lol I love that fic so much but it needed to be put away for awhile because it’s my therapy fic and it’s like…..heavy and hard to write but I do rec reading it! It’s my baby. The second longest is ST tho! It’s The Weeks After which is the second part of my Days, Weeks, Months series! If you like Stoncy, that’s my stoncy series and it’s one of my all time favorite things I’ve written. It didn’t get a ton of traction, but I still really love it. 

Shortest: I’m so sorry that none of these are ST omg. There's four shorter ones in other fandoms then Princess, which is honestly one of those fics that made me cry. It won’t be the fic I put down for that category, but I really loved writing it, and I would love if y’all went and read it!!!

Most comments: LMAO this is ST it’s my Stranger Things Daily Drabble! I’m going to take this time to not talk about the fic, but just to thank the handful of people who comment on pretty much every drabble I do. I wait to see you guys in my email and I literally get so happy every time I do!! Obvi you don’t have to comment on every chapter, but even just the little hearts I get or the wow I loved this one make me feel so :DDDD Even if you just comment on the occasional drabble that made you feel any type of way I’m always so so grateful!

Fic that made me cry: I actually cried while writing Princess obvi but I got close while writing House and Home! I put a lot of my own thought processes into it while I was writing, and a lot of the personal stuff I feel into how Steve is reacting. Like being elated and then just having all of this shit hit you all at once I also cried writing Let Me Just Hold You Now, butI'll talk more about that later

Fic that made me smile: How to Rehabilitate a Jock actually makes me smile a ton! I just think it’s going to be a really fun story and has so much heart and seeing how much you guys have liked it so muchh has been so heartwarming!! 

Gifts: Let Me Just Hold You Now!!!!! Okay so I’ve written other gifts, but this one was just so!!!!! I wrote it for @hotcocoaharrington 💖💍I worked so so hard on it knowing Mack was going to love it and knowing that I was going to get to be so :DDDDD when I finally got to hear what she thought and it was so awesome. Anyway 10000000/10 would write fic for Mack again. (And I already am lmaoooooooo) but she doesn't need to know about that one

Events: Oh god pls dont mention events I’m still working on my fic for @thefreakandthehair I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorrrrrrryyyyyy

tagging: (with absolutely NO pressureeeee) so many of my faves have already been tagged I know but!! @strawberryspence @eddieunbanished @maxinemaxmayfield @kerlypride @gothbat99

#ask game #ao3 wrapped #I couldn't think of anyone else to tag #bc I think everyone else already has been? #But!! ! #know I thought of you for sure haha

[sxrimz]

unsent messages part 3 my first love

5 things i loved about you

you made me feel pretty

you cared about my emotions

you were there when i was so lonely

you gave me temporary happiness

i finally felt loved

well let me introduce you ig

my first love was a boy with a goofy laugh a boy that’s been through pain and struggle a boy who grew up having to raise himself he’s done crimes been in jail but to me he’s always been so gentle and kind he makes me smile he made me smile some years ago when i was at my lowest he basically saved me.

Were did we fall apart?

well ig you could say we fell apart when i realized i wasn’t the only one there for you i mean it was obvious you talked to other girls and sometimes you made me feel really bad about that like when you fucked a girl while on the phone with me that hurt a lot but this isn’t even to bash you i honestly never felt more at home when talking with you very understanding and easy to talk too you did something that no one else did you were the first person to ever even accept me :)

how do i feel about you?

i love you and i always will love you i mean you raised me you taught me so many new things and you honestly made me the person i am today i would always cry but you never let anyone see you cry you told me crying was for weak mfs and you helped me you were my escape you helped me temporarily escape my depression first time in my life when i felt genuine joy you fucking cared man idc what anyone says ik you cared i tried to kill myself over you i never told you that bc i didn’t want to bother you i tried it 2 times when you went to jail and one night you called me

where are we now?

he’s hella grown now i talked to him today i cried a little when he asked me if i was happy bc i told him no i just i can’t lie to him it’s so hard he checked up on me tho which made me feel okay he got a girls name tatted on his back lmao i just want the best for him i’m so proud of him man he’s came a long way he told me he loved me multiple times today and i’m glad he’s learning to express his emotions at one point he struggled greatly with this but i’m glad he’s came a long way

Our story (i wrote our story a long time ago)

OUTRO~

but yes he was the first person to ever make me feel loved and out everyone on this planet i’m so grateful he was the first person to love me it taught me a lot there would be no me without him he’s very much appreciated but these are things i’m way to scared to ever tell them that’s why this is my unsent message ~ written by me sxrimz

#unsent messages #my first love #a glimpse of us #history #mentally fucked #depressing shit #a story of my past

[khaleesiofalicante]

My family: talking while we had dinner

My brain: so we will be thinking about Other Max and this whole chapter in these hours. Let me tell you that...

Omg and we went for Christmas to the house of the mother of my aunt, it was all nice ig, but there was this lady who idk who she was but she looked like Izzy Lightwood and I was in awe!!! I stan her tbh. She should dump her boyfriend and he get the Simon Lewis she deserves tho...

Leaving that behind, WHAT DID I READ MA'AM??? I AM EMOTIONALLY IN HELL😭😭

The conversation Other Max had with Alec and him being so chill about this sjhsidjdkd. No one can do it like him🥺

And the talk between Magnus and Max punched my heart repeatedly but it was also so beautiful and Max erasing their memories with the rain. I did NOT expect that!!!

I did wanted to see Max's and David's POV of this clusterfuck though. For pain purposes🙂

But also I'm fricking scared bc what the hell happened for him to learn warlock math and time travel and it wasn't to get David's memories back bc he didn't do THAT so then what is it??😭

Selena is the best babe to ever exist and I LOVE HER OK?!? I STAN. I ADMIRE. I LOVE. I-

He finally told him about the memories!! Fuck yeah!!! I actually screamed and my family was so done bc we were supposed to be doing chores lmao. Maybe I died a little when Max told him everything he could remember about them and the whole "I love you madly" "And I madly love you" but it's ok :) why would I need a heart for?🙂

FUCKING SHADOWHUNTERS AND FUCKING CLAVE AND I HATE EVERYONE IN THIS MOMENT AHHHHH!!! HAVE THEY CHANGED AT ALL???

Ok I know they have but it sometimes doesn't look like it. They exiled David from Idris??? When they just suspected he was a thread??? I had to take several breaks in this scene

And Chopin 😭😭😭no my baby!!! He didn't do nothing wrong!!! And he was lovely!!! I HATE YOU VICTORIA AND I HATE YOU KYLE!!! Yeah I may have cried about the dead of a demon what about it?!?

Also can I marry Achilles?? Everything he said was😍 this man is gorgeous And I am grateful for him everyday!!

I am extremely sad for David. He has lost enough for a lifetime. His memories. His home. Why?? What has he done besides loving others and being so fucking kind??

Rosewood ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Max also waking away from the Clave... Fuck. This will have consequences. But when he says he doesn't want to be anywhere David isn't allowed🥺

And I loooved the scene between Rafel and Max. It shows Rafael understands in some way (and the little flashbacks to when Rafael wanted to strip off his runes was unnecessarily painful) and that Max knows he isn't to blame. Also the quote “You can’t stop us from leaving,” Max told him. “But if anyone can bring us back, it’s you. Fix your Clave, Rafael. Before it gets anyone else hurt.” it hit something on me😭😭

For a second I thought Max wouldn't want to be his suggenes. Thank god that wasn't it!!! And that was the best bachelor party EVER. I LOVE MERLIN!!! And Rafael feeling like a boy is something that can actually be so personal 😭

Rosewood finally going to marry??? In this year??? I am afraid if I blink something will go south lol

What a chapter. And this are just the things I remember rn, which probably aren't a lot bc I am sleepy and a liiiittle drunk. But I did wanted to share the fact that I couldn't keep still while reading this bc it kept me on edge the whole time and I experienced so many things 😭😭

De todos modos, Feliz Navidad!!!! Espero que te la pases muy bien, Dani!! Con personas que te agrade y comida rica y mucho amor y descanso porque te lo mereces!!! Ahora tal vez si tenga que irme a dormir porque ya no puedo pensar en inglés jajsjsh,

💙.💙.💙.

Okay i didn’t understand most of the Spanish and I had to use google translate and I’m not happy about that. 2023 better have more time for my learn Spanish or else 😤😤😤

And lmao reading fanfics during family events is such a mood 😂😂😂😂

Here is a tiktok for you. I don’t even have to say who this is lol. Happy Christmas 🎄

#lbaf

[eirasummersart]

Merry Christmas 💕🎄

Hello~, for the ask prompt~ 8-9-11 for Szi,Yuuki, Oriol and Dalia 👀?

Refering to this.

Merry Christmas to you too, thanks for the ask 💕 I took a bit longer than I wanted to answer this, sorry. It's also quite long, so that's partly why. But here it is! Long post ahead~

8. How old were they when they stopped believing in Santa?

Since we don't know how fae age works I'll just use our human years instead klhasklfh

He was 10. A bit later than most kids, since his parents did their absolute best to keep the wonder alive in him for as long as they could.

9. How did they stop believing in Santa?

That was also the age when he started getting bullied at school and having less and less friends and more enemies. And some of the kids that disliked him saw him so happy talking about Santa and wanted to ruin it for him 😢 He was really upset that whole Christmas. But for the next one he had already understood why his parents "had done that" and why it was important. And from then on he firmly decided to keep the ruse around any children he might ever encounter (specially his little siblings).

11. Do they have any special traditions?

Yes, he and his family do~ There's a big spring in the forest next to their home where their ancestors have been going for centuries. They go during all holidays, including during Christmas. It's such a pure fresh water that it helps them replenish their magic and feel stronger (since they're river fae). During summer time visits they do go in the nearby pond to swim, but in the colder months they just put their hands under the sping and let the water flow over them for a little bit~

8. How old were they when they stopped believing in Santa?

He was 8 years old.

9. How did they stop believing in Santa?

Nothing too special. His twin sister heard it from someone in class who learned it from their older cousin. And well, she had to tell him too lmao. She was quite ok with it, but Yuuki cried for a while after learning of it. (He calmed down once his parents assured him they'd still get presents anyway).

11. Do they have any special traditions?

Not sure if this would count as special tradition? But the few weeks before Christmas day he works really hard to make something handmade for all his family and close friends. Now that he's in NRC he makes something for all his close friends and Grim~ And eventually, his bfs.

8. How old were they when they stopped believing in Santa?

Like with Szi, we'll just go with human years saklfhsa

He was 7 years old.

9. How did they stop believing in Santa?

He just figured it out himself. After seeing how the adults acted and aplying some basic logic to it. After asking his mom she told him the truth outwardly. He felt a bit betrayed about it and felt like he needed some "compensation". So that year he ruined Santa for all the kids his age that lived in his town lmao. He just went around telling everyone. He calmed down after that and stopped doing it tho the next year XD

11. Do they have any special traditions?

Where he lives it doesn't ever snow, but, as a kid, he really really wanted to make snowmans like he saw in media and books. So his mom had to think of something and created with him a "wood and leaves" snowman that time. It ended up becoming a tradition and they make one each year 😌 Although in the later years, Oriol adds way too much to it and makes it all automated and mobile, it greets people who pass by their house and it spooks them lmao.

8. How old were they when they stopped believing in Santa?

She was 9 years old.

9. How did they stop believing in Santa?

Being the youngest of three, her parents and her sisters did their best to hide the truth from her and always make it such a fun enjoyable experience for her. It took a long time for her to discover the truth. Just one day, since almost all her classmates knew the truth already, they just mentioned asking the presents to their parents normally and she was confused. And soon they all explained to her how it worked.

She was a bit disappointed, but she took it quite well and didn't mind much. What she liked most was all the time with her family, so having them also be the ones behind the presents wasn't that bad~

11. Do they have any special traditions?

Yes, so many! They all go together a week before Christmas to buy all the presents (hidding when it's for a family member). They also go together to ice skate a few times during the holidays. They always plan a big Christmas party with all their relatives over at their big house, everything decorated and fancy, with formal dresses and all. They also do play board games every night after dinner, all together. It's just all family time~

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That's all! If you read until here, thank you so much <3

I am actually still accepting more of these if anyone wants to send more. Christmas day might be today, but it's still winter holidays for a week so~ Feel free to send some more C:

#twst #Twisted Wonderland #twst oc #Twisted Wonderland OC #Yuki Answers #OC #my art #Dalia #Dillon #Oriol #Szilárd #Yuuki #OC info #Dalia info #Dillon info #Szilárd info #Yuuki info #Oriol info #Ask meme answer #Anon #Although I know who it is XD

[theharrowing]

Oooh, so many interesting questions! 4, 13, 14, 25, 32, 38, 43, 44, 51 please. (oops kind of a lot lol. you can do less if you want!) what does 38 mean huh?? 43, my fav is koya despite being yoongi biased :/ i like sleepy/tired characters. i feel guilty for "betraying" my bias though lol

hello, anon!!! sorry for keeping you waiting, my dear! i am not shy so let's answer all of these hehe.

4. Current Bias?

but also namjoon has been like.........sharing the throne??? so to speak????? i don't know. i just cry over men, that's all i know.

13. Any concert experience? 

yes! thanks to some generous friends, i got to go to PTD LA nights 1, 3 & 4! for 3 & 4, a gaggle of gals slept in my home (i even gave them my bed) so them scoring me a ticket definitely came with the guarantee of somewhere for them to sleep. 🥰🥰🥰 here are two of the first pics i found in my camera roll that looked cute enough to share:

14. Funny moments that always make you laugh?

i answered this questions here too, but after some thought, the first thing that really made me laugh like i was dying was the run bts episode where jungkook made the sweet potatoes that stuck to the plate. he was my bias at the time too, and i was smitten by how fucking cute and silly he was. still makes me laugh all these (2 lol) years later. when jin got hit in the nuts with the air hockey puck. when suga unplugged the tv while jin was playing. they're pure chaos without even trying and i love them very much.

25. Do you read fanfics? If yes can you recommend one? 

i read a lot of fanfics! i just finished reading Stars Lost in the Sea by smiles and WOW THE ANGST i cried so much lmao, like so, so much. really great story. yoonjin, time travel, yearning. it was so good!

32. ______ (member) dream you had?

thinking about this makes me realize that recently jungkook was in a dream, but the plot is completely lost to me, and honestly, i'm a bit sad. i dream about them often. once i had a dream a very naked namjoon was beneath me (i was straddling his waist, p sure i clothes on lmao) and he was saying "show me how you fuck yoongi oppa" and then i woke up and had A LOT OF REGRETS!!!! (and if i put a similar scene in collateral 11 that's my own business.) (also, i'm older than yoongi and wouldn't call him oppa, but...my subconsciousness went for it.) my dreams aren't always sexual, though! sometimes we're just in come chaotic dream world doing chaotic things. but they are sexy occassionally. 😈

38. Your BTS guilty pleasure?

no, i am unabashedly am army lol. although many armys are embarrassing as hell and i steer clear of the drama and don't associate with them lmao. i think a guilty pleasure is something you like despite it not being popular, or despite people thinking it's not a good thing to like? and i don't think bts can even fit into that classification bc their fanbase is fucking huge. and they seem to genuinely be good people. but ig haters will say it's photoshop idk.

43. Favorite BT21 character?

honestly, shooky. I KNOW YOONGI IS MY BIAS but i don't like them bc of that lol i like them bc they're super cute and a vibe. they're a grumpy cookie and like............gosh, big fucking mood. i love them all tho, 10/10 very cute cuties. i dont even really collect plushies and i have 7 shookys lmao. and 1 rj.

44. BTS Merch you own or some you want to own?

i own a fair share. i have most cds, some dvds, some seasons greetings/winter packages. enamel pins, the coveted whale plushie, yoongi's necklace, joon's windchime, tae's enamel pins...a lot of washi tapes lol. the me, myself & i photobooks (thanks to one very generous beta reader.) 🥺

there's nothing i really want right now, tbh. i wasn't a collector before, so it's still kinda weird to me to want material possessions; i have been trying, more recently, to only get things i can wear or actually use bc i am a very broke college student, once again lol. i finally got the recipe book, and i'm really excited to use it!

51. If BTS were not Idols what job YOU believe they will choose?

hmm, this is a tough question. i could really see namjoon and yoongi as professors of some sort, or as therapists. jungkook would probably be a veterinarian. taehyung would own a very prestigious daycare center. hoseok and jimin would still be in the dance scene, somehow. seokjin would be a retired actor.

i could also see all 7 of them being twitch streamers or youtubers. seokjin and jungkook would play games. namjoon and yoongi would be philosophical. taehyung's channel would be chaotic with no theme. hoseok would model his latest clothing hauls and jimin would be a self-taught makeup artist.

ask me some BTS questions!!!!

#lovely anon #ask game #bts ask game #getting to know me #you've got mail 💌

[literaphobe]

mishhh hi im so happy to see you on tumblr again! today was mother's day in my county (argentina) so we went to my grandma's for lunch and had empanadas and pasta and ice cream, and then back home me and my dad cooked dinner for my mom, we made salmon with roasted potatoes and carrots.

Also i beat my own high score in twenty, which is now 23!!! it took me a long time but i always play while listening to podcasts (currently relistening to not another d&d podcast campaign 2, have you ever listened to a d&d podcast?? if you're ever bored i'd seriously recomend naddpod)

Also also i watched derry girls season 3 and it was pretty great! i cried at the end :") im sending this ask off anon bc idgaf anymore but still signing in case you'll recognize me

-sapphicverse

also here is PROOF

OMG U R SO GOOD also YASSSS HI OFC I RECOGNIZE SAPPHICVERSE ILY those foods sound so good im gonna eat something good today too maybe! ill like buy something…? To cook…? Even tho i have a reflection paper to write LMAO um i will catch up w derry girls soon im so glad u liked it :)

#ask

[papaivcallme]

10, 16, 17, 22 for the music asks! 🎶

THANK YOU SCHMOOPIE 🖤🖤

10.) "What was your first concert?" THIS ONE'S A DEEP CUT LMAO I don't know if this counts as a concert bc it was actually more of a small bar gig not a big concert, but I count it bc I love them My first concert (that I remember at least) was going to see Driftless Pony Club!! I'm pretty sure it was around 2011, so I was like… 12/13? It was super fun!! WheezyWaiter signed my sibling's friend's face connecting his beard to his sideburn it was great askansjdf. If you've never heard their music and enjoy some early 2010s indie, I highly recommend their first two albums "Buckminster" and "Expert," the sound of my childhood 🖤🖤

16.) "Have you ever been in the first row for a concert? if not, what was the closest seat you’ve ever had?" Not yet, I really, really hope to get close for Ghost in Sept. tho 😭 The closest I've been was in GenAdm at Monumentour 2014 seeing Fall Out Boy and Paramore lmaooo I'm not as into them anymore, but I had the TIME OF MY LIFE. I was like five rows of people from the stage and I could have touched Joe Trohman it was amazinggg. I have a bunch of shitty quality pics and videos of it from my ipod touch 4 LMAO I was also pretty close to the front when I went to see Against Me! in 2018, we were standing a level above ground to avoid the pit, they put on an AMAZING show. I adore LJG and Against Me! holds a very special place in my heart (Also idk if this counts bc not a concert, but I got front row tickets to see the Beetlejuice musical on broadway. It was the second to last show with the full original cast before Rob McClure left and I cried so hard it was amazingggggg 😭😭😭)

17.) "If you could go back in time and attend any artist/band’s concert that you were unable to attend, who would it be and when?" FR??? I just want to go back in time a few years and have listened to Ghost since Meliora era. I was so close!! I've known about them for a while having had only listened to Square Hammer, but only recently got really actually into them. Gross buzzword, I know, but I have such fomo for not being able to see papa iii in concert 💀💀💀 That, or, there was a time Todd Rundgren came to a city near me. I wanted to take my dad for Father's Day bc he introduced me to his music, but I just wasn't able to swing it 😔

22.) "Name a song that reminds you of one of your best memories" Ooooh that's a tough one, I've got bad memory kasdfkjank A lot of these are more like general ethereal feelings of being happy with people I love since I'm bad at remembering specific events 😭 The entire RENT soundtrack makes me happy bc it makes me think of many a road trip spent with my sibling and my best friend from high school, that and screaming Hamilton with my sibling driving me back and forth home on the weekends for the short time I was in college The Sweeney Todd soundtrack makes me think of my mom, she's the one that got me into musicals from her love of theater. We used to have matching MP3 players, and that soundtrack specifically was one of the few things on hers LOL Meat Market by Everybody Else and How The Day Sounds by Greg Laswell make me think of playing OMGPOP games with dear friends I have a lot of music that I connect to my bestie and roommate kenzie, but we've been living together for over two years through the (multiple) pandemic(s) so I Cannot list everything, mostly more musical soundtracks come to mind. I love that bitch ✊✊ Also in general, Welcome To The Family by Watsky gives me a very warm happy feeling and always makes me think of my friends

#sorry schmoopie is a goof name my friend uses and it rubbed off on me askdjfnak #ALSO SORRY THIS IS SO LONG #i really love music and feelings it can give you #it's a fuckin powerful thing man 😭 #ask games #ask #wow-david

[alwaysvivid]

how did our resident virgo spend her birthday this year? since she's on tour did the fans do anything special for her?

» ⠀ ꒰ ☏ ꒱ ﹙ ⠀ incoming message ⠀ ﹚⠀ ೃ⁀➷ leo !!

“ yeah we’re on tour so for the first time in ages i wasn’t home for my birthday, it was still good tho don’t worry ! it was our first night in la so i was so fucking hyped but also feeling homesick since i grew up in la and haven’t seen my parents in over a month. but the show went well. during the last segment when we come out in casual clothes the girls organized this huge surprise. they got me a crown and a sash, the whole crowd was singing happy birthday and my fucking parents came out with a cake and i burst in to tears. the fans also organized an ending ment video saying happy birthday and all the reasons why they love me and vivid. i tried saying thank you but i don’t think i’ve cried like that in a while lmao. after the show my parents took me and the girls to dinner at my fav 24 hour korean place close to where i grew up. i also got a bunch of texts and calls from all my friends in korea and stayed up till 6 am on the phone with jisung cause he’s obsessed with me. all in all i think it’s the best birthday i’ve ever had, nothing will ever top it. ”

#╰ ❛❛ // 리오 ┊ strikingly bright !! . 「 q&a ! 」 #truly one for the books. a core memory was created that day

[fasterthanmydemons]

I haven't read it myself but from what I've heard, the celestial madonna was an amazing storyline in the comics and it could get adapted into the mcu. but yeah, there were three potential celestial madonnas, wanda, agatha and mantis, and it was ultimately revealed that it was mantis. some stupid people think she's useless because she's shy and sweet but what the virgin mary is to us who have been raised christian here on earth, what she represents, etc... mantis is her equivalent in space. let her be powerfulllll!

and omg I don't blame you for choosing not to watch the gotg films :( I refused to give them a chance because the first movie opens up with a scene that is a bit triggering for me for personal reasons. I started crying so I turned it off and never watched anything from them, I met them through infinity war and endgame too. they had a cameo in thor love and thunder I think, but I refused to watch THEIR films. UNTIL I was told that there's a florence + the machine song in their third movie. I LOVE florence + the machine so one day I mentally prepared myself, watched the first two, watched the holiday special, and the next day I watched the third one (it's already on disney+) and HOLY SHIT they are now some of my favorite characters. I never laughed, cried or smiled this much watching a movie. I never cried WHILE smiling with a movie! they are insanely good (in my opinion). pushing past my triggers was hard but also so worth it. jesus christ in two days I fell in love with these characters and cried because I loved them that much haha. 😢🥰

funnily enough, I have a friend who loved the gotg ever since their first movie came out in 2014, but I could never get my friend to listen to florence + the machine. after listening to her song in the third movie, they became a huge fan of her music! gotg is what got them into her music and her music is what got me into the gotg, HAHAHAH 😂

treat your mental health as a priority tho. hopefully you enjoyed this little anecdote. I love your writing, your pietro is great, and I absolutely love the sotg verse. it's entertaining and I ship silvermantis a little even though it's not gonna happen like you said, lmao. doesn't matter, pietro is always good and the gotg are always good. with or without shipping it's just an excellent combo! 💙🛸

{out of breath} Ohhh okay. Thank you for explaining a little because I really knew nothing about this at all. Isn't it always the characters we least expect, or the smallest, or the "weakest," or the most unassuming, or something that we then find out... oh, they're gods or some other kind of overpowered being? XD I'll put the rest under a cut because I discuss some triggering topics some people might not want to read about...

As for your anecdote... that's actually really funny, heh. You and your friend went through complete opposite processes haha. And how good is Florence + the Machine, seriously? Florence Welch has one of the most amazing voices I've ever heard. I try to belt out her songs sometimes and it's a lot of fun but... I'm nowhere near as good or as loud as she is. XD

Yes. Yes. That's actually exactly what I'm talking about. I did try to watch the GotG movies a while back without knowing anything about them, and it was shortly after my mother died of metastasized breast cancer that had gone to her brain, after me and my dad took care of her ourselves at home in hospice for five weeks. She was the person I was closest to in the world and I could absolutely not imagine my life without her, but beyond that... watching someone deteriorate mentally and physically before your eyes when they mean so much to you is just about the roughest thing you can go through in life in my opinion. It was the most traumatic thing I've ever gone through and I still have nightmares about various aspects of it six years later.

Anyway... yes, so I tried to watch the first GotG movie... and boom, first opening scene is that. Well, not the same because it's movie glamorized cancer death, and anyone who has known someone who has died that way knows that it is nowhere near as elegant, poignantly touching, or aesthetically soft as they make it out to be in the movies. But even so, the portrayal had enough truth in it to trigger me quite a bit and I had to turn it off. I don't have a problem hearing about cancer, or writing about it, but when I see it in a movie, it hits a little too close to home. Especially because it was Quill's mother, too, so that was just too close for me. It's so strange to me that I can watch the most graphic and frightening hardcore horror movies without any problems whatsoever, but one little scene like that? Messes me up completely.

So that is definitely something I have to get past if I'm going to watch these movies. But then I've also heard that the last Thor movie also has similar things in it, and I've seen some gif sets that have made me a little afraid to watch it. I thought I was in a good place to get through things like that, and then now my aunt has cancer and my grandmother moved back in with us and life has gotten pretty stressful, sad, and aggravating. So now I'm in this terrible place mentally, and that's not conducive to pushing my limits and trying to tackle hard-to-watch scenes.

Incidentally, I know several of you have sent in asks or starters that... I haven't touched. For a while. I'm really sorry about that, but some of them deal with topics that I just haven't had it in me to write, like various mental and physical health issues for example. Like I said, lately things haven't been great for me and my family and my writing is really suffering for it. I hope you understand that me not answering things doesn't mean I'm ignoring you specifically, it just means I don't have enough time to write or that I'm having trouble with certain topics.

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ #tw: cancer #tw: hospice #tw: death

[excelsior9173]

tagged by @foxgloveinspace thank you!!

•name

on here i go by exie, in real life i respond to any variation of “em”, as well as andy (andy was a nickname given to me by a person i went canoeing with and really looked up to!)

•pronouns

i’m not really partial to anything and being gender queer i am comfortable with any! i often like calling myself a boy while looking extremely feminine, but am also just a “they” half the time lmao

•where do you call home?

i don’t wanna out and say where i live but i am an extremely proud canadian, and even prouder to be from the prairies (not alberta tho fuck them)

•favourite animal

100% ravens! i’m a lover of all corvids but i have always been fascinated by ravens. they’re the biggest song bird in north america! they are as smart as like, a seven year old human. i got to finally go to the tower of london this summer and i saw the ravens up close and i almost cried. bucket list moment for me

•cereal of choice

i will admit that i am a very boring person, when given free reign and allowed to pick whatever i want i go straight for some harvest crunch. idk man i love granola and grain flavoured cereals. multigrain cheerios slap so hard

•are you a visual, auditory or kinaesthetic learner?

i think a mix of visual and kinaesthetic? i love listening to my university lectures, but rely on physical notes to actually learn anything. if it is anything practical then i absolutely have to be able to do it physically or it will not make sense to me. i worked on a farm last summer and learning any of the equipment i needed to be hands on and guided through it tactilely

•first pet

i had a black and white cat named salty. he was all white on his underside, it was really just his back, tail and top of his head that was black. i loved him to bits

•favourite scent

petrichor! patchouli is a very close second. there’s a perfume i desperately want because it’s supposed to be the actual smell of petrichor mixed with patchouli and if i could smell like that naturally I would

•do you believe in astrology?

not really! i’m a practicing witch but honestly i’ve never viewed astrology as anything more than a bit of fun. i like reading my horoscope but i don’t put too much stock in it

•how many playlists do you have on spotify/apple music?

ummm maybe 5 or 6? i tend to really just play albums or my “favourites” playlist that is like, 700 songs and 40 some hours of playtime

•sharpies or highlighters?

sharpies!

•songs that make you cry?

are you really okay? by sleep token always gets me weepy

if i’m there by bad omens fucks me up pretty bad too, especially the unplugged version

•songs that make you happy?

i spend most of my time listening to pretty angry music lol. if i’m going for like, upbeat instant mood lifter? i like really stupid songs

kitty cracks me up every time it’s so good

i also like corky and the juice pigs, specifically the song eskimo. they’re a satire band and my dad sang this song at his sister’s wedding and it’s so so funny (disclaimer it’s not exactly pc anymore, it’s from 1993)

•finally, do you write/draw/create?

i’ve dabbled here and there with various forms of art but i don’t consider myself a creative in any way. nowadays i really just teach myself random songs on guitar and put together low budget halloween costumes lol

this was last years, vanya from the umbrella academy comics! i hand painted the bodysuit and boots! (i had to wear two pairs of tights to attempt to hide my tattoos lmao)

#Spotify #tag game #i feel like i wrote way too much lmao #ramble on exie #sleep token #bad omens #presidents of the united states of america #corky and the juice pigs #wow can’t believe corky doesn’t have their own tag lol #umbrella academy

[foxgloveinspace]

@thoseeyeslikefire thank you for tagging me!!!

15 questions game:

1). Are you named after anyone?

Uhhhhh, weird answer. I chose my name, and technically Foxglove is from an oc that never went anywhere, and Dakota is what my parents woulda named me if I was born male. So. I am named after myself and an oc technically. 

2). When was the last time you cried?

Wednesday. It was a helluva day. Before that? I have no clue tbh.

3). Do you have kids?

No, and I don’t want them personally. I know what other parents with adhd go through, and I know I can not handle that at all. I used to babysit 24/7 (and I mean that literally) and when the job was over, I took a look at myself and I didn’t know who i was anymore. It was not a great time. I applaud parents, and I think they are amazing, but personally I can’t.

4). Do you use sarcasm?

Ye. Usually irl, and not online all that much, cause as someone who is nerodivergent, it’s hard to understand it when its typed sometimes.

5). What is the first thing you notice about people?

Uhhhhhhh. Hair or style usually? I don’t really. Notice things very much. Not in a ‘I don’t care’ way, but more like…. I don’t uhh…… notice…. (adhd brain lmao). Like i notice what people look like, it just doesn’t stick in my brain oof.

6).What is your eye color?

Blue, but like… blue jean blue, lol.

7).Scary Movie or Happy Ending?

Both! I like thrillers with happy endings, lol. I don’t watch a lot of them tho. I prefer happy endings usually tho.

8). Any special talents?

Uhh. nothing that comes to mind? my mom would say baking, lol.

9). Where were you born?

Overland Park, Kansas.

10). What are your hobbies?

Video games, baking, listening to music, reading (mostly fanfic), writing (mostly fanfic), knitting & crochet, I want to draw but I don’t often, sudoku, journaling, watching anime, reading manga (yeah its a different hobby then just reading!).

11).Do you have any pets?

I have outdoor cats, and while I would love to bring them inside, I can not. I have four adults right now, and there's a lot of wild cats. My four adults are Moose, Marmalade, Jam and Notch.

12). What sport do you play/have played?

I haven’t ever really played a sport. I used to play around with a basketball, and try to make shots and stuff cause my cousins had a hoop. I’ve never been really good, and I never wanted to play on a team as a kid.

13). How tall are you?

5’2 ish on a good day (about 157 cm)

14).favorite subject in school?

Math, lmao. I used to be really good at math.

15). Dream Job?

Stay at home husband, lmao, I have chronic pain and so working is hard. Uhhhh, working in a bookstore tbh. But a chill one where I can sit and knit too.

I'm not gonna tag anyone, but the usual drill, if you wanna play this and you see my post feel free to say I tagged you! (cause this is me. Saying I am tagging you! lol.)

#very much so #tag game #thanks!!! <3