fasterthanmydemons

[fasterthanmydemons]

{out of paprikash} I could not motivate tonight, guys, I'm sorry. It suddenly got very hot today, and it honestly sucked the life out of me. That combined with seasonal allergy misery, Wanda and Pietro being pretty quiet, and a few problems with work taking most of the night to sort out, writing just didn't happen. It's already 5AM so I'm going to head to bed, but I'll make an effort next week to get more done.

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ #{i did at least get the SotG reply done because i love that so much haha}

[fasterthanmydemons]

[ Speedster of the Galaxy ]

Mantis noticed that Pietro seemed… anxious. Was he worried that they would just leave without him? Mantis blinked, and her gaze fell pensively as she considered something.

“I do need to get some things,” she said when Pietro offered to get supplies for her. “But, um, do you mind if I go with you? I have never been on this planet before,” she added. She was doing it, of course, in order to put Pietro at ease. He didn’t know the Guardians, therefore he didn’t trust them, which was understandable. Maybe Pietro thought they would leave without him, but he knew they wouldn’t leave without Mantis.

She walked out of the Benatar as her antennae stood straight up, her eyes darting around. Mantis was alert in case they encountered another Flerken. Quill was right, the planet’s temperature was nice, and her natural curiosity would soon overcome her fear, approaching plants to watch them for a moment, though she did not to touch anything. In a planet where Flerkens were pets, everything could be potentially dangerous. However, Mantis was oblivious to the fact that plant life never hurt her.

A particularly large flower sneezed, releasing a thick cloud of pollen. “Oh!” Mantis cowered, before erupting in a fit of giggles. “Bless you! Take care of yourself,” she said with a friendly smile. “The marketplace, please?” At her question, the plant whipped out a slender leaf, pointing in a specific direction. “Thank you! You are very kind.” Mantis turned to Pietro. “Let’s get what Mr. Dibbles needs!”

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Pietro was surprised when Mantis said she did have things she needed to get. He thought for sure she would’ve just dismissed it and he’d be on his way. “You do?” Pietro asked, his mood suddenly perking up a bit, especially when she asked to go along with him. “Yeah, sure, I don’t mind at all,” he said with a big smile. It’d be nicer to explore a new planet with someone else, but also he knew the Guardians wouldn’t leave Mantis behind, which put him at ease. Besides... he’d probably stay a lot more out of trouble with Mantis with him than he might on his own. Not that he was planning to look for trouble, but... trouble had a habit of finding him.

“I’ve never been on any planet before, besides Earth, so... this should be fun!” he said as Mantis shared that she’d never been on this particular planet before. Pietro wasn’t only thinking about the positives right now, the exciting possibilities. The chance of encountering danger hadn’t even crossed his mind. If he needed to, he’d worry about how to deal with danger if and when something or someone dangerous actually arose. Pietro wasn’t one to catastrophize or worry about things that hadn’t happened yet. Right now, there was a brand new plant - out in space! - that was just waiting to be explored. Within reason, of course. He didn’t want to take to long getting back to the Benatar, after all.

As they left the ship, Pietro looked around before smiling at the way Mantis’ antennae straightened up. “I love that... the way they move,” he said shyly, pointing at them. “They’re very cute.” He wasn’t sure why, but there was something endearing about the way her antennae sometimes indicated mood, intention, interest, or any other number of things with her. He did hope he wasn’t insulting her or anything by calling them cute, though. For all he knew, that might be rude to say to her.

He followed her over to some plants, flinching a little in pure surprise when one of them... sneezed? Fanning the pollen away, Pietro smirked in amusement. “Is it sneezing, or is it trying to um... what is word... inoculate us?” he asked with a chuckle. That got him wondering about the control of things that might follow them onto their ship, like... viruses, bacteria... tiny little nasties that liked to cause disease. That was about as much as Pietro understood about them. Pollen wasn’t necessarily in that category, but... how sure were they that this pollen wasn’t? It was something he’d make a note of to ask Mantis about later, if there were any protocols to follow to make sure they didn’t bring back anything infectious. “Thank you,” he said to the plant, looking in the direction it had indicated for the market.

“Let’s see... Mr. Dibbles needs food, so he does not eat all of your plants until they’re gone. And... I have to get some things to build him a home in my room. A little tank maybe, so I can give him water to swim in? Some rocks to sit on? Something to help keep the water clean? And a light because there is no sun in space. Well, I know... the sun... is in space, but... is no sun inside the ship... You know what I mean?” he said, chuckling at how he was rambling. “I just want him to be healthy and happy, because he is a great turtle and he deserves nice things,” he said with a shrug.

When they reached the market, however, Pietro quickly realized that buying the things he needed was going to prove a bit difficult. He didn’t always understand what everyone was saying, for one thing. For another, what was he supposed to pay with? In all this discussion of buying things, he hadn’t realized that he didn’t actually have any money. Why was he always like this? Not thinking things through clearly before he just charges off to go do said things. “So... what is the currency in space? Because... I might... not actually have any,” he said, scratching his head as his face contorted with an expression of embarrassment and guilt.

#{ speedster of the galaxy } #pietro rp

[fasterthanmydemons]

Sophie was so sweet to him, and Pietro couldn't help but smile around her. She had such a wonderful energy about her and was always taking the time to make him feel special. It only made him want to do the same for her even more. And the bracelet she'd gotten him was absolutely badass.

"Protection, huh? I am little careless from time to time, so... I probably need some," he admitted, turning the bracelet this way and that to look at the stone and the brightly polished silver. "Thank you for thinking about me and my safety, Sophie. I can't even really say how much it means to me." No, he was not going to cry.

"And of course I like the candy, who doesn't like candy?" he said, as if it was totally and completely obvious to the world. "Would you like some? I will gladly share. It's the least I can do, since you've been so sweet to me today. Or maybe you would like to go out to eat somewhere? My treat, as a thank you?" he offered, whipping out his most handsome grin for her.

“Happy birthday Pietro!” (From Sophie; @mxrvelouscreations

@mxrvelouscreations

"Thank you. Wow, I actually didn't think you knew about that," Pietro said a bit shyly. Apparently she'd been paying attention, which made him feel special. "You're very sweet. I feel so old, but I getting older is better than the alternative, right?"

#mxrvelouscreations #pietro x sophie

[fasterthanmydemons]

"Is too," he whispered, still trying to have the last word on the subject. "Oh what? Who said that?" As he feigned looking around in confusion, he began to laugh. They were definitely always going to be joking around like this, no matter how old they got, and Pietro really would have it no other way. Nothing and no one could ever replace his sister in his life. "We'll just have to keep it interesting enough so they don't. They'll love it, trust me." Nah, the others would hate it, but honestly, Pietro didn't care one bit.

"Well... Pietro's law is the whole law of the land, so... is really the same thing. I'm telling you, is against the law not to have cake on your birthday." He shrugged. "Nothing I can do about it, is already established law." But when Wanda said she hadn't thought of cake until just now when he mentioned it, Pietro looked at her flatly. "Wanda. What do you mean you weren't thinking of cake? How are you not thinking of cake all the time? I know I am. Cake is life. And also candy. Cookies too." He was exaggerating a little... but not that much. Food was on his mind almost all the time, and sugar was right up there at the top.

"Okay, yeah, we're walking. Nobody wants you getting sick everywhere. And if it happens while I'm running and it gets all over the place, then I'll get blamed for it and have to clean it up, and-" Seeing her face, he started to laugh. "I'll stop now," he said, still chuckling. "Is fine to walk, though. I get to spend time with my little sis." With that, he hung his arm around her shoulders and they started on their way.

“Happy birthday brother!”

"Happy birthday little sis!" he said, tossing her a little grin. "So, what kinds of sugar-related activities are we going to engage in today?" Because of course birthdays were full of cake or cookies or candy or something, right?

#illbringthechaosmagic #pietro rp

[fasterthanmydemons]

[ Speedster of the Galaxy ]

Mantis was glad to see Pietro eating some more after holding back, probably because Rocket had told him it was okay to do so. She smiled and shook her head when Rocket complained that she was forcing him to drink in order to shake off the affection she always gave him. When Pietro seemed to defend her actions, Mantis laughed.

“He has the right to feel that way,” she said. “But I cannot help it. He is so crabby, and soft, and adorable.”

“I can hear ya!” Rocket yelled from the kitchen.

Mantis puffed out her cheeks. “In any case…” She looked at Pietro and smiled warmly. “You said you are going to find supplies for Mr. Dibbles, right? We will wait for you here, and then we will fly the ship to this planet’s station so we can fuel it.” She softly scratched her chin. “The citizens of this planet have Flerkens. As pets! Something tells me our help is not required. If they can take creatures as deadly as Flerkens and turn them into pets, I imagine they can defend themselves against any threat.” Mantis searched for his gaze. “Be careful, okay?”

“Be careful, okay?” Rocket said from afar in a mocking voice. “We’re not careful here. Careful is not our style.”

Mantis blinked. “That is true,” she finally told Pietro.

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It didn’t take Pietro long to finish Breakfast Round 2™, and as he brought his plate over to the sink, he listened to Mantis and Rocket go back and forth with each other. A smile lingered on his face. For some reason, banter like that made him happy. Whether it was the comfort of noise breaking the silence around him or the fact that, despite how it sounded, Mantis and Rocket clearly cared about each other, he wasn’t sure, but it lifted his mood for sure. By the time Mantis was describing Rocket in her own way, Pietro was laughing.

“If Rocket has the right to say your hugs drive him to drink, then certainly you have the right to say he is crabby, soft, and adorable,” he said. “Everyone has freedom to express here, I am learning. And long as is respectful. So, respectfully, Rocket is pretty adorable, yeah. I see it.” He nodded for emphasis. “I don’t know about soft, I have not pet him yet. Probably never will. I don’t want to lose a finger or two.” Was he saying all of this because he knew Rocket was listening? Absolutely. He wanted in on the fun.

As the conversation turned to Mr. Dibbles, Pietro nodded excitedly. “I am, yes. There are several things I need to take proper care of him. And he deserves the best, of course, he is my turtle.” A rather boyish smile followed. Pietro never had a formal pet as a child, though he would feed neighborhood strays when he could. So this was definitely him getting to live out one of his childhood wishes. maybe he never expected to have a turtle, but he wasn’t complaining about it either. “Alright. I will try to be as quick as I can so you aren’t waiting too long.” They wouldn’t leave without him, right? Right?

Pietro smiled warmly as she asked him to be careful, but before he could respond, Rocket did it for him, and he was laughing again. “Careful is not my style either, but... because you asked me so nicely, I will do for you,” he said to Mantis. Did he really intend to be careful? Yes. Would he be? Well, that depended on any number of things. “Better get started. Do you need or want anything while I am out there?” he asked, trying to be as helpful as possible. “Besides me being careful, I know.” That was already going to be a big enough task.

#pietro rp #{ speedster of the galaxy }

[fasterthanmydemons]

Aaron Taylor-Johnson as Lieutenant Ford Brody ⤷ Godzilla | dir. Gareth Edwards

#fc #aaron taylor-johnson #godzilla

[fasterthanmydemons]

PSA: Hiatus Extended until 4/2

{out of mutations} My surgery went well, but the surrounding hospital experience was unexpectedly anxiety-producing. More details here if anyone wants to know, but it was far longer and more harrowing than anticipated. The post-op pain is worse than they said it would be too, and I can't take anything for it but Tylenol, so I've just been sleeping and resting a lot. I've also got 240 forum posts to grade for work this week that unfortunately have to take precedence over writing here. I've been trying to work on it all day today, but I just don't have the focus.

In light of all this, I've decided to give myself one more week off my regular rp schedule (always available in my blogs' pinned posts, btw) to take a break and focus on recovery and work. So for this blog, that means I'll be back on 4/8. I'll still leave @tarnishedxknight open, but I honestly haven't even done much over there either because my creativity isn't flowing right now. After one more week, I should be well into recovery, in less pain, done with follow-up appts, and ready to focus back here on writing. I'm so close to being back here with good regularity again, folks, just bear with me, heh.

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ #tw: surgery

[fasterthanmydemons]

PSA: Hiatus until 3/26

{out of paprikash} So I love how I just updated everyone last night and then today all my plans change, lol. Such is life. Anyhoo… my surgery date was suddenly moved from 3/29 to 3/22, this Friday. SO… I will definitely not be here next week (3/25), as I’ll be recovering and I won’t know how I’ll feel physically and mentally. The majority of my muse is over at @tarnishedxknight, so I’ll just take a week off and write there on and off there as time and muse allows. But that means I will likely be here on 4/1. Right now, I’m going to say that I will take off from my regular schedule this week and up until 3/26. Then I’ll be back on track Weds 3/27 and onward. I will have to see how I feel post-op and all, but that’s my plan for right now. *sighs* Sorry for the drama, but I swear, these people have changes dates, times, and restrictions on me 87 times in the past week and it’s been a crazy mess, heh. So hmu on @tarnishedxknight if you want to, otherwise I’ll be back here 4/1 if I don’t say otherwise before then. <3

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ

[fasterthanmydemons]

{out of breath} Friendly reminder that I won't be here tomorrow (3/18) because I've got a really stressful day ahead and I know my anxiety is not going to be a team player as far as me having creativity and muse to write. I hope to be here on 3/25, but I'll have to see how my anxiety is doing, and I do have grading to do that week for work, so... we'll just have to play it by ear. I'll try my best to be here then because I'll need to skip 4/1 after my surgery on the 29th.

You all know my muse for Pietro has been a little stale for a while now. I want to rewatch Age of Ultron, which I think will give me a boost, but I want to wait until all the craziness with work and my surgery is done with. Then I may try to write some starters or oneshots or other assorted things to try to get the spark back for writing him again. If anyone has any meta topics for Pietro that you'd like me to do some in-depth analysis on, sometimes that sort of thing also helps to stoke the muse a bit. I may not get to them until things have calmed down, but that's my plan for Pietro because I definitely need some help in keep the muse fresh, heh.

Thanks for your patience during this crazy time, and I hope to be here next Monday! =)

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ

[fasterthanmydemons]

"Is too," Pietro immediately returned in true playfully obnoxious, brotherly fashion. He stuck out his tongue at her assessment that, while old, he fell short of the wise part. Chuckling, he shook his head. "We are going to be in our eighties and still joking around with each other like this, you know that, right?" And he wouldn't have it any other way.

"Nope, you definitely can't. I think it is written law somewhere that cake must be involved with all birthdays. We'd best not break the law, Wanda," he said, leaning in and widening his eyes for dramatic effect. "No, I had no idea! Nobody told me! You were withholding important bakery information all to yourself from your dear brother." He shook his head and sighed, as if he'd been mortally betrayed. "And I thought I was your best brother." With that, he curled his bottom lip, comically pouting.

It disappeared immediately, however, at her excellent suggestion of them going out in search of cake at this new bakery he now knew existed. "We absolutely must treat ourselves. Come on, let's go. Or do I have to pick you up and run with you to get you there faster? Because... you know I will if I have to..."

“Happy birthday brother!”

"Happy birthday little sis!" he said, tossing her a little grin. "So, what kinds of sugar-related activities are we going to engage in today?" Because of course birthdays were full of cake or cookies or candy or something, right?

#mxrvelouscreations #pietro rp

[fasterthanmydemons]

"No it wouldn't. But it was definitely sweet of you to do it anyway," Pietro said, opening the present she'd given him. When he saw the bracelet and the candy, his eyes lit up. "Oh, cool!" he said first, looking the bracelet over, and then he grinned at the candy. "I love these!" he exclaimed. "Thank you, Sophie." She'd managed to make him feel very special, and he made a mental note to reciprocate when the time was right. "Yeah, that could be it. I would take a nap, but... now I have candy to eat. Priorities, you know?" he said, already unwrapping one and popping it into his mouth.

“Happy birthday Pietro!” (From Sophie; @mxrvelouscreations

@mxrvelouscreations

"Thank you. Wow, I actually didn't think you knew about that," Pietro said a bit shyly. Apparently she'd been paying attention, which made him feel special. "You're very sweet. I feel so old, but I getting older is better than the alternative, right?"

#mxrvelouscreations #pietro x sophie

[fasterthanmydemons]

"He is breathing. He's completely fine," Pietro said, but his tone was a gentle one. He could more than understand his sister's worries, and if it had been his own child, he knew he would have been far more worried than even she had been. Having a child was nerve-racking for so many reasons, and Pietro felt like his sister was far better equipped to deal with that kind of stress than he was. "No complications. Perfect score," he whispered, smiling at her. "Well done, sis."

Pietro chuckled at the reminiscence of their childhood. "It wasn't every day. Like... maybe every other day," he joked. "Boys will be boys? Yes?" he offered up as a fair excuse for is behavior, even though he knew it didn't hold water at all. "Somehow we made it through. I like to think it's because of what they taught us in addition to our own strength that got us this far. I'm sure you gave some of that Maximoff strength to Nugget here," he said, smiling at the baby. "Look, he's already power-napping because he knows all that strength needs a recharge after all this."

"Well, good. He should feel very loved by everybody around him. I want that for him," he said with sincere affection for the baby. "There is no better way to start your life than by being loved, yeah?" And he knew this baby would have love in great abundance. He couldn't really speak for Tony, but he knew his sister was going to love their baby around the clock.

For once in his life, Pietro had to admit that taking some things slower was better. "Yeah, you're right. This here... is not a moment to rush through." As they fell silent for a moment and just watched the baby as he stirred in his half-napping state, Pietro felt himself getting emotional once more. "Thank you for letting me hold him and have this time with you both, sis. It really means a lot to me."

He sighed as Wanda caught him in shirking his duties as an Avenger. "No you can't!" he insisted. "You and Nugget are always more important than boring meetings. The mission is done, the important stuff was handled. All the paperwork and other stuff can be done tomorrow. Nugget was just born now. Is vastly more important." And no one was ever going to change his mind on that. However... "Okay, maybe I should have let them know where I would be..." he did admit.

“Brother, I have a little nugget that would like to meet you…”

Pietro had tried to make it back to Wanda in time, but of course he'd been out on a mission when she went into labor. Not even he was fast enough to get back in time, especially when everybody else didn't seem to be in a hurry. Maybe it wasn't the most earthshattering thing to them, but this was his twin sister... and she was having a baby. There weren't many other things that were more important than that in life.

After wearing a groove into the floor of the waiting room, he was called to go in and see Wanda. The staff had peeked in to look at said groove every so often as Pietro paced back and forth, sometimes at faster-than-normal speed, but they hadn't said anything to him about it. When he was called, he zipped down the hall and into the room, bouncing excitedly on his heels. "Yeeeees! I want to meet the nugget!" he exclaimed in response to Wanda, a big grin on his face. This exchange earned him even more looks from the staff, but he didn't care. He was an uncle! This was the best thing ever!

#illbringthechaosmagic #pietro rp

[fasterthanmydemons]

[ Speedster of the Galaxy ]

Rocket and Mantis could tell Pietro was still hungry, since they knew him a little better after speaking with him. Rocket crossed his arms and approached Pietro as the Guardians started getting ready for the day, though after nearly getting swallowed alive by a Flerken, they already felt they were ready for anything.

“Hey. Y'know you can grab somethin’ more to eat if you’re still hungry, right? Bug has nine stomachs, so we’re not gonna judge ya. Don’t be shy. Anyway, how’s the turtle you rescued?” Rocket asked with a not-so-subtle wink after Pietro said he was going to look for supplies for Mr. Dibbles. Even though Mr. Dibbles seemed to dislike Rocket, he still didn’t regret ‘stealing’ the turtle from Earth. From being stuck in the mud to floating in space. Rocket thought that was an improvement.

Mantis approached the two of them with a beaming smile on her face. “I am so glad you chose to have breakfast with us, Pietro. Groot thinks you are so much fun to be around,” she told him. She knew a part of Pietro just wanted to be alone, but it was easy to tell the other part of him wanted to belong. She looked down at Rocket. “I hope you are being nice.”

“Yup. You know me, don’t ya? I’m the nicest asshole you’ll ever meet,” he replied with a shrug, his arms still crossed. After hearing Rocket’s words, Mantis erupted in a fit of giggles. Before he could escape, she had picked him up to hug him again and point out how adorable she thought he was. “Put me down. Put me down!” Rocket demanded before she did as he said. Cringing as he walked away, it was as if Rocket tried to shake the affection off him. “Great, now I need another drink. Hope you’re happy, bug!”

(Or maybe Pietro understands the Guardians thanks to his bond with Wanda/his intuition? Groot’s language is so ancient it’s not even in the universal translators, so maybe at some point Pietro will need a translator implant and Mantis could make it not hurt or something.)

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{ We could go with something like that, sure. Wanda can learn pretty much any language she wants by connecting with people mentally, so maybe Pietro has a little dribble of those powers too and doesn’t even realize it? Maybe he just has to hear someone speak for a bit to get a sense of it, and then it just starts coming to him? And yeah, I think with Mantis’ reassurance, he might be persuaded to get the implant. He knows Mantis isn’t going to recommend something to him that’s bad, or at least he trusts her not to. Making it painless would also help. He’s a bit jumpy and doesn’t have all that high of a pain threshold, considering he likes to get into fights and punch things a lot, haha. }

As Rocket bothered to come over and let him know that it was acceptable to take more food, Pietro glanced back at the breakfast leftovers. “Wait, really? You don’t mind? I didn’t want to be rude and um... deplete resources or anything,” he said. “I figured everyone had a certain amount they could eat so nobody got too selfish...” There he was, overthinking everything again. The mention of Mantis’ nine stomachs, however, had him animated and grinning once more, though. “Oh! Yes, I know! She told me about her many stomachs. It is so cool, isn’t it? I can’t imagine having more than one. Mine gives me enough trouble as it is.” He glanced at the food again. “Well... if you are sure is okay...” he said, grabbing his plate and going back for more.

Pietro shot Rocket a knowing glance regarding him saving the turtle. “He is doing well, I think. Just hungry. But he likes to play in the bathtub, and run around my room. I want to get him some things to make a little enclosure in the corner or something, you know? A place for him to be when I am not around so he doesn’t get hurt. And I want to get him more food. Mantis gave him dandelions, and he went nuts for them. It was very cute and it made her smile,” he said, smiling himself at the memory.

When Mantis joined them, Pietro’s smile grew a bit. “Thank you, am glad I did myself,” he said sincerely. It had gone pretty well. At least no one seemed to take offense at something he said, or had gotten mad at him for something. At the relayed compliment from Groot, Pietro chuckled. “I like Groot a lot. He is very cute. He has big energy for being such a tiny little plant person.” As the conversation then turned to Rocket, Pietro then nodded, offering his own comment as if he were a witness giving truthful testimony at a trial. “He is. Is true, he is being the nicest possible asshole he can be. His own special brand.” He looked at Rocket. “I think... you should get it patented. Is very unique.” He was joking around, of course, but... also not? Rocket had a unique style about him that Pietro liked, even if he could see that some of it was borne of emotional defensiveness. He had his own habits and personality quirks like that too, so he certainly wasn’t about to fault Rocket for them.

Pietro couldn’t help but laugh as Rocket was all but force-hugged by Mantis. He loved the way she let everyone know how much she cared, in her own way, unafraid to be herself. In fact, he envied her for that. “Maybe,” Pietro said as Rocket complained that Mantis made him need another drink with her little hugging stunt, “but there are worse things to drink about than being hugged by someone who really values you, you have to admit.”

#pietro rp #{ speedster of the galaxy }

[fasterthanmydemons]

Here, have some more Baby Groot being cute + Gamora AKA the deadliest woman in the galaxy pausing mid fight to say hi back to him.

I’m so sorry for your loss, Silence. Sending strength to you and your family. Now it’s time for self-care, grief of any kind is exhausting so take care of yourself. If you need time offline, or to focus on muses that come easiest right now, that is okay too. We will all understand and support you <3

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{out of breath} On this blog we love and Protecc™ Baby Groot. He’s just so adorable, I can’t even handle it. Also that is... the purest thing. MOVE OR YOU MIGHT DIE....... *hi.* XD I love that so much.

Thank you, I appreciate it. Honestly, with everything going on with my health and whatnot, I feel like it hasn’t properly even hit me yet. I haven’t had a good cry or anything yet, and that feels really weird and wrong to me, but I think I’m just dealing with a lot right now. Once other things calm down, I know it’ll hit me hard, and it should, she was my favorite aunt after all. I will be taking off some time for my health coming up, as I mentioned in my post earlier today, and once I find out when/where my aunt’s funeral or other arrangements will be, I’ll probably take some time for that as well. You’ve all been so understanding, and I’m thankful for that. It’s helped so much. <3

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ #tw: death #tw: loss

[fasterthanmydemons]

Update: Rp Schedule For The Next Few Weeks On This Blog...

{out of paprikash} Alright, so... my muse for Wanda and Pietro is still low, and I'm not feeling my greatest tbh, but I'm going to try to be here when I can. My surgery is on 3/29, and I have a day of pre-testing at the hospital on 3/18. What I plan to do is to be here tonight (3/11), but then skip 3/18 as the testing will be very anxiety-producing and I don't think I'll have a brain to write after that. Then I'll be here again on 3/25, but take off 4/1 because I'll be recovering from surgery and I just want to give myself a mental break during the early days of that. So I'm basically going to alternate being here and taking off over the next four Mondays. After that, I'm really hoping to go back to being here more regularly, but I'll have to see how health, work, and family are doing at that point and update you guys in April. See you tonight! =)

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ #tw: surgery #tw: medical #tw: anxiety

[fasterthanmydemons]

Here, have a baby Groot waving your anxiety away <3 I’m sorry you’re going through a rough patch. If you need to take time off your blogs to look after your physical and mental health, it’s totally okay, as I’ve told you before everyone will be here for you when the dust settles. It blows my mind how sometimes a lot of shit just happens at the same time, and you gotta take it but you’re like “waitwaitWAIT give me a moment to recover from that other thing” and life is like “haha no! fuck you! :D” It really is a struggle. When this happens I just ask myself “who is writing the script” and it helps me take it all a little less seriously so it feels lighter in a way.

I am sending you warmth and appreciation, and in case it makes you feel better, I am so grateful you write with me <3 You always give my bug daughter a chance, you are so talented, creative, original, and I absolutely love the verses we’re creating in space (SOTG and KLTG). But your health is a priority. Everything will be okay, do what you have to do, rest and take care of yourself. Real life first, rp later. You got this.

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{out of breath} AWWWW that’s so adorable, thank you so much. Groot is seriously cute and I just wanna pinch his cheek. Er... his bark? But yeah, when it rains, it pours. Things got way worse today. I’ll continue below the cut so I don’t trigger anyone who doesn’t want to read about these things...

My favorite aunt passed away today... on her grandson’s birthday. My cousin had been by her side for week but had to fly home for a couple days to watch her kids because her husband couldn’t get out of a business trip... so she wasn’t there when her mom died. I have to call her tomorrow to give my condolences, but also I am one of the few people who can honestly say I know how she feels, since I lost my mom in almost the exact same way.

And I had an appt today that I thought was going to tell me when my surgery date was, but instead they decided to wait until today to tell me I need like four other tests before I can even schedule it. I am now waiting for various doctor’s offices to call me back about more appts. Meanwhile, I am in pain around the clock and at any moment things could go bad and I could end up in the hospital. 

So... yeah, things really just keep getting worse. It’s overwhelming. Too much muchness. Alot™. I’m doing the best I can, but like you said, I’d appreciate if life could let me breathe for five seconds before the next bad thing happens. Doesn’t seem like it’s willing to do that, though.

Of course! I will always give your bug daughter a chance! I’ve really enjoyed writing with you and you seem like just the coolest person, so thank you for the opportunity to share our love of these characters and to create some really awesome AUs. =)

I’m going to wait until hopefully the next couple days when I know how my appts. will all fall, and then I’ll update everyone on how long a hiatus might be. I will also have my aunt’s funeral and I’m not sure when that’s going to happen, so... yeah, I’m just not sure. I may need to just accept defeat here and take a couple weeks off to sort everything out, but I’ll let everyone know in the next day or two.

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ #tw: surgery #tw: death

[fasterthanmydemons]

omg I hope life gives you a break soon. surgery can be scary but trust that doctors know what they're doing. I hope you feel better soon!❤️

{out of breath} Thank you, I appreciate it. Life is actually showing no signs of letting up, as things have gotten decidedly worse in various ways, but yeah at least I met my surgeon today and he's the nicest guy I felt comfortable around and could make jokes with (humor is how I purge stress, heh), so I feel reassured by that. I still don't have a surgery date and that's driving me crazy but it's out of my control and I have to just... take it one day at a time. I am thankful for everyone here who has been so supportive. =)

#{ out of breath } ᵒᵒᶜ #{still on hiatus and may be for a bit} #{but I wanted to answer some asks i got that were very sweet} #tw: surgery