#I should shut up now. fuck

[afranticsonicperson]

being so, so tired to the point where you can’t even open a document or draw digitally anymore and now your in a rut

….anyway, so here’s a surge

#now. #have I read any of the idw comics PAST the metal virus arc? #…it’s uh #it’s complicated #ok i’ll stop no. no I haven’t. #BUT. surge the tenrec already looks badass as hell and is easy to draw. #I should shut up now. fuck #anyway goodnight #sonic #sth #sonic the hedgehog #sth fanart #my art #surge #surge the tenrec #sonic idw

[xamaxenta]

@itsthefandommash aaaangel im so sorry this took me so long i was suckerpunched by the depression this past weekend and i was struggling with literally everything and all basic tasks and its been exhausting and disheartening but i enjoyed the small serotonins in drawing marcoace 🥺❤️ thank you for commissioning me and forcing me to draw two characters together it was rough i definitely need more practice but this is a start

#marcoace #marco x ace #xam doodies #xam commissions #i….may have totally skipped anatomy bc my brain is just wholly unwilling to focus and work #its something and i really want to do so much more #but yikes whatever this bout of depressonesspresso whatever bs fucked me so bad #a sketch is still a sketch and i should learn to love them #what a horrible time to get overwhelmed lol #marco the phoenix #portgas d ace #i like cried twice and then picked up my ipad and did my best #god knows i can do better but thats not rn and im disappointed i cant bring my A game to these comms rn #ajdnakdhdb im gonna shut up now im beinf cringee #ALSO THEY GOT YAOI HANDS

[humanmorph]

"[high pitched and tinny] Let’s dive in. Let’s dive in. It’s time to dive in. Get ready to [audio distorts and slows] dive. Diiive. Diiiiie…" (The Road to PALISADE 20: City Planning Department)

so that's what i've been working on for the past 2 weeks! i wanted to draw something for this intro ever since i first listened to it (as a companion piece to my other gur drawing, though it of course ended up being way bigger in scale), but it only really gripped me about halfway through PALISADE ep 18. the next morning after that i listened to this narration on repeat for about 45 minutes and then made a big sketch on 4 sheets of paper at my desk at work.

anyways, i haven't listened to the new episode yet but i think i'm probably ready for whatever they're gonna throw at us with the next sortie. i'm gonna believe, against it all, in millennium break. for gur

(i recommend listening along while scrolling! + transcript btw. if anything is hard to read)

#road to palisade #road to palisade spoilers #palisade #fatt #friends at the table #gur sevraq #<- yuore everything btw. #long post #and good god. it sure as fuck is #rosa art #the full file for this? that i had to split up? its 30000 pixel tall. thats 218cm #im so proud of this & it was a ton of fun. ooohhh my free floating panels i love them #i posted about my progress (theres some earlier sketches n lineart too) on cohost to be like well. #maybe i wont talk so fucking much on the actual post but noooo i cant shut up #love that for me.shoutout if you read all this #if you find a typo please. dont even mention it #a fun thing about this is that i almost know the intro by heart now. theres like 3 lines i get stuck on but mostly. its all there #ill link the cohost if i reblog this again. personally i think its interesting stuff but i love to hear myself talk abt shit i make soooo #anyways i have art class tomorrow & should sleep soon : ) but im happy im finally able to show this off. it rules sooo much

[astralzeraphias]

he has a minigun now

#megatron #maccadam #transformers #pinkatron #i’m sorry @ ms splendid for only spending five seconds w/ u as my pfp…… i blame this on god #‘megatron should be a tank’ ‘megatron should be a helicopter’ shut the fuck up . he has a mini gun now . #anyways . i don’t think him turning into a gun is stupid . i think it’s funny #hasbro please let him turn into a minigun i promise i won’t be weird about it #(<- is lying) #gunatron

[moffnat]

Do you know how hard it's been for me to contain myself?

#shut up. shut UP #i am so devoted to these two. im a writer not a gif-maker but no one wants fic of someone ELSE'S tav so #HERE WE ARE #I FEED MYSELF AND I AM BLESSED #bg3edit #gamesedit #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #halsin #halsin x tav #look i haven't giffed in like 4 years and it's all different now so these look like shit #i don't care. im thriving. my crops are watered and my tav is well-fucked #as silvanus intended #*mine #*bg3 #nsft #i should give them a ship tag too #a little moon and her bear prince #there's a reason for the nicknames fuck you i do what i want

[itsafreetrialofdeath]

“You’re enjoying this aren’t you”

#I ​just think you should be able to confront him if you broke in but didn't trigger anything major #you're telling me I can't call him out on his self-cest bad at sex incubus stuff without killing him??? #truly a crime #tav balian #he​ canonically breaks into the house of Hope to steal mol's contract but gets sidetracked and fucks haarlep #this is for all the body type 3 and 4 enjoyers #he ​is CHEST HEIGHT AND CALLING ME PIPSQUEAK??? #shut up idiot before I kiss you on the mouth #villains with dumb outfits my beloved <3 #my art #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 raphael #bg3 fanart #raphael x tav #baldur’s gate 3 #tav x raphael #dnd #reposted with some minor edits #thank you everyone who liked the original post but I couldn’t help myself #now it matches my durgetash one

[beanghostprincess]

When they get to Egghead Sanji complains about the Hawaiian shirt, saying it's too boring in comparison with the other outfits. Then Usopp looks at him with a thumbs up and says "Looking good!! It's very you <3 Do you think that we could keep these things after this is over because I pers-" but Sanji isn't hearing shit anymore because he's having a moment™ and he feels hot all over and maybe he's going to faint, who knows.

#when a pretty boy says you look good so you have a gay crisis #zoro looks at him and smirks and says 'you alright?' knowing obviously what's going on #and sanji goes all 'SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT THE FUCK UP I AM FINE' on him but now every time he looks at usopp he's dying #he tries to like. be in front of him to show off #now that shirt is suddenly his favorite thing #as it should be because he looks extremely pretty with that #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #egghead

[shieldofmen]

Catelyn’s scared of society’s image of what a bastard is. This is why she treats Jon the way she does, because of her classist ass belief that Jon is inherently evil by nature of his birth. Shes not truly scared of anything hes done within those 14 years he’s lived in Winterfell. But Jon? The way he feels about her isn’t connected to some bullshit societal prejudice. That comes from her, and how shes reacted to him. (Which clearly still has an impact on him even after he no longer lives with the Starks) But yea somehow shes in the right for treating him like shit and hes in the wrong for? Existing within her general vicinity? Despite the fact that he had no choice. Would they have preferred Ned kicked him out? For an ADULTS comfort? Ah come to the asoiaf fandom where we think children should accommodate the adult because we are ass backwards.

Yall do realize just because someone lives in a time/place where the prejudices they hold are common does not mean they are absolved of the hurt they have caused, right?

#jon snow #ill even be kind and give this the ole #anti catelyn stark #‘she could’ve done worse!!!’ she also could’ve done better #no leway in this situation she should have done better as the adult in the situation #and dont even bring ned into this because his avoident ass is in the same hot seat #maybe if ned stark stans #if they exists idk #came into jons tag and said similar vile shit about jon id be posting about neds failures as the adult in the situation too #but they dont its cause and effect #yall cant shut the fuck up so now neither can i #hey i wrote this in april 2022 wild how the fandom NEVER changes

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

if one more thing happens. respectfully. i am going to Lose It

#yknow that one clip of the bugs life stick bug #where hes like 'im going to SNAP im going to SNAP' #yah thats ya boi bogathan over here #ITS ALWAYS FUCKIN SOMETHIN!!! HUH!!!! #oh motel pillow. we're really in it now #can i go... One Week... without a bad development to my Situation.... #i need a giant fucking cake and i need a fork #and i need to demolish that shit on the floor #no no yknow what i need? #weed and an entire rotisserie chicken. On The Floor. #Also A Cake. Always Cake. #and a cantaloupe. maybe i should go get those marinated garlic cloves and chow down #heat up tonights steak. god i wish i brought my tablet i need to Scribble #BITING CLAWING MAIMING #absolutely unprompted #sorry venting again on main Look Away #im not even upset at this point im just mad #like the shrek meme - CAN YOU SHUT UP!!! FOR FIVE MINUTES!!!!! #and the shit starts comin and it dont stop comin and it dont stop comin and it dont stop comin and it dont- #at least ive got my stepdad in my corner smh #hes the real hero here #well i have a bunch of dc fics to catch up on. might as well do that!

[paverics]

vanessa hudgens f i n a l l y playing gay and the trailer shows us we’re supposed to be rooting for the guy from scrubs? lmaoooo get the hell out of here loser

#the movie is basically gonna be the plot of chasing Amy all over again and it’s gonna be so fucking bad. i’m gonna hate it so much #i can’t begin to tell you how much we don’t need ‘oh your girlfriend is bi but you should be WORRIED about her #because all bisexuals are promiscuous and maybe she’s actually a lesbian and you’re the only man who can save her ❤️’ #shut the fuck up!!!!! #we’ve had enough of them #stop the count #1 was too many but we’re well into the dozens by now

[m1d-45]

You know, that would be ANGSTY COMICAL if we mixed that in the aftermath of the reveal of who is the real creator, since it could be taken as the creator REPLACING characters who hurt them.

-🥘Stew

that was the intent!

i think diluc would have it easiest. red is from a hateful part of his past, and he knows that he’s grown beyond that stage. if it weren’t for red’s temperament, he’d want to try and connect, if only to gain his trust. it still hurts, knowing that even after all this time he still failed to be what you needed, but it burns him the least.

fischl would be worse. night is everything she tried so badly to be, down to her own oz. to make it worse, night couldn’t care less about fischl, ignoring her monologues about who’s the real princess. the only one she needs the approval of is you, and she’d gotten that the second she was first summoned. she does fischl the mercy of letting her keep her name, but even that is mostly at your discretion. ‘fischl,’ ‘night,’ whatever. she just needs to protect you where amy failed.

and kaeya… my poor beloved. if night is what fischl wanted to be, shade is what kaeya has to be. night is a persona that fischl copied, shade is the very mask kaeya had put on for all his life. he’d entirely remade himself, down to the name he used and the way he treated his fellow knights, and it still wasn’t enough. all of his effort was poured into making himself something that could be accepted, that could be good enough. he’d thought he’d done a good job when he was first marked as a vessel, but now in the hunt it’s clear that his palatability only ran skin deep. shade is what you need, shade is what you want, and he’s genuine about it. shade’s entire life is yours, and he was rewarded for that devotion with your affection, earning a place at your side. and kaeya had devoted himself to the hunt instead, was so blinded by his own desires that he’d ignored the resistance of his vision. diluc may hate his past and fischl may hate night, but kaeya can only really hate himself.

#m1d : [chats] #m1d : [secrets] #stew🥘 anon #the shining nikki saga #the dark side of dawn #sailwind shadow #hello. i need a moment to be emotional about venti really quick sorry #hey siri put on my yearning playlist #fucking. destroyed. on the floor reminiscing about something that never happened. #me when i’m the victim of an idea of my own making #me when i’m the cause and the cure. me when ventis stuck in a problem that isn’t there. obliterated. #no words for this feeling rn. venti i’d like to formally apologize for the shit i’m about to put you through #‘it’s just a video game’ well your honor. it’s giving me shrimp emotions. so jot that down. #to clarify this is about nothing canon and nothing irl i’m just on the painful end of my own ideas #the author that writes the words and the reader that’s bound by them you know. #don’t worry if all goes well you’ll be inflicted with my pain too. provided i can pull it off. #pull it off as in convey it right not pull off the weight of it. i should shut up now.

[stormyoceans]

no one: monica how fucked up you want pete to turn out to be exactly?

me: so nice of you to ask!!! how do i explain this. i want pete to laugh at vegas' tortures with a mouth full of blood and ask him if that's all he's got. i want pete to be able to read vegas like an open book and make /him/ feel trapped even if pete is the one with chains around his wrists. i want pete's struggle to be only a matter of loyalty to kinn and the main family and not about enjoying the things he does with vegas. but most of all, when they get together, i want everyone in the mafia world to know vegas to be ruthless, but pete to be TERRIFYING. i want voices going around warning everyone to never make pete angry and to always try to please him. i want people to say 'if you have to beg for mercy, beg pete for it, he'll decide your fate. if he stops smiling, you're as good as dead'. because yeah vegas will torture and kill you, but pete will just stand there watching vegas tear you apart and when vegas is done he will lick your blood from vegas' lips and go back to smile brightly like nothing happened

#I FEEL SO NORMAL AND HINGED ABOUT EQUALLY FUCKED UP VEGASPETE FRIENDS #and once again i lied about shutting uo about them but i need to write this down before the show destroys all my hopes and dreams #i also feel like i should apologize for this idk why sfjkshfjsg #NOW im shutting up i swear #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #vegaspete #pete kinnporsche #m: txt

[newtness532]

im gonna need teachers to stop yelling at us. if you have something to say, say it calmly or dont say it at all

#like the quiz had been over for merely a minute so we still have the stress of that and now we also have you yelling at us for the most #stupid things. like yea okay students should know how to upload the files and where they saved them #you yelling wont change that though so please just fuck off #also she was like 'dont put colors on your excel i can tell where everything is' but like dude 1. the file you had uploaded as an example #had colors and 2. im not doing it for you im doing it because an excel sheet with 5 different things and no colors is unreadable to me. #so just shut up #jo says stuff #university update

[tbartss]

i forgot how insufferable the atla fandom has become now forget i said anything

#the 2020 boom was such a fucken direct hit into recruiting the most obnoxious people on the planet into becoming a fan #or maybe i should just shut the fuck up. maybe IM the obnoxious one did i ever think of that #i think i will from now on

[strangersatellites]

strangers 1.3k words

inspired by ethel cain's song "strangers" and if you read this it is a requirement that you listen to it. (its linked at the bottom)

idk team I was just listening to this song for the millionth time and needed to get this out, so here's 1.3k words of Eddie experiencing life after death and Steve dealing with grief and guilt I guess

Eddie is a ghost. 

He’s made his peace with that.

Some kind of Upside-Down ghost probably. He doesn’t really care.

The people of Hawkins don’t know that. They still believe, still fear that he’s out there somewhere. Everyone that cared about him knows better.

WIthout a proper grave he just kind of… drifts. 

Into and out of spaces, he leaves behind no trace save for a soft breeze if someone’s really paying attention.

They usually aren’t.

He’s not really a physical being so much as a feeling. Still in his body but less aware of it than he ever was. He thinks he couldn’t explain it if he wanted to. Couldn’t explain the way that people can’t see him or hear him when he’s there, but later feel like they had, and feel crazy trying to explain it. He’s had to learn his way around his new consciousness in a way that lets him be near the ones he cares about without hurting them. It's an exhausting cycle, to feel out of your mind.

He can see it in the way dread and grief tug at the shoulders of the people he loved. He knows this because the more someone thinks of him, the closer he can get to them. 

At first he was at home a lot. 

Well, as at home as he could be in this new place they’ve got Wayne in. It’s nowhere Eddie’d ever been when he was living, but Wayne’s there so it's home nonetheless. But as weeks turn into months the closest he can get is just outside the door. He can’t get inside, can’t actually see Wayne anymore. Can’t see the way that loneliness weighs him down. The way he picks himself up every time.

So he lets himself drift to wherever he’s pulled next. A time or two it's been to Jeff’s garage while he’s practicing. Several times he’s gotten to see inside Dustin’s room late at night before the kid falls asleep. 

But the place he’s finding himself more and more often, he didn’t recognize at first. He just knew it was a basement somewhere. Drafty, door locked tight, and with nothing but dusty tools to keep him company, he found comfort in knowing that someone was remembering him. Even if only a little. Even if it’s a stranger.

Eddie’s drifted in and out of whatever kind of consciousness he experiences for a while before his surroundings morph and change. 

The kitchen of the Harrington house he would recognize anywhere. 

He smiles as he takes in the new space and thinks that if he had a human body he’d be sat up on the counter just like he is now.

Steve walks into the kitchen with a furrow in his brow and Eddie takes the time to really look.

This is the first time he’s seen Steve since the last of his air left his lungs and he’s hit with a strange sense of longing. 

Can see it in the bags under Steve’s eyes that, even now, say he’s still carrying everything on his own.

He’d always done that.

When Eddie had made that stupid, stupid decision, though he’d be loath to admit it alive, he’d wondered if Steve would've done the same thing. 

He thinks they both knew the answer was yes and that that’s the reason Steve still looks like hell even months later.

He looks like hell but he’s still so handsome walking over toward Eddie now. 

Eddie knows he can’t see him, doesn’t know he’s there. But he still finds himself longing for the closeness when Steve grabs a glass from the cabinet and leaves the room again.

In an instant Eddie’s back in the basement. Steve’s memory of him gone as quick as it came as Eddie is left with the question that followed him his whole life:

Am I no good?

As he wastes away in the drafty, cold he realizes that he doesn’t feel a pull anywhere else. He decides that seeing Steve once in a while, if only for a short time, is better than being forgotten.

It becomes a routine. Eddie’s hours will turn into days, and he’ll lose track of time. Then he’ll blink and he’s watching Steve stare at himself in the mirror. He looks like he’s been crying and like he’s going to be sick. Eddie wants nothing more than to be able to comfort him. But as quick as they come, they go, and Eddie begins to connect the dots. 

Eddie’s memory, like everything else Steve seldom allows himself to feel, gets carried with him always. But he locks them away tight in his heart and only lets them out when he thinks no one is watching. When he thinks he’s allowed to miss Eddie.

So Eddie stays in the basement, stays in Steve’s heart, heavy, guilty, until Steve’s ready to face it again.

One day it catches Steve by surprise.

Eddie can tell because he’s in the middle of putting away groceries when Eddie gets there.

At first Eddie’s confused. But then he sees the milk carton in Steve’s hand with the big MISSING: EDDIE MUNSON and his photo on the side. There’s a sale sticker over his face in what was surely some angry grocer’s last ditch effort to sell milk with the Hawkins devil on the side.

Steve’s frozen just looking at it and honestly Eddie gets it.

After everything that was lost, this may very well be the only physical memory of him that’s left save for a polaroid photo in an evidence locker somewhere.

He’s able to drift close enough to hear the breath Steve lets out before he puts it in the fridge and finishes unpacking his bags.

From that point on Eddie’s no longer in the basement.

He’s able to drift all around Steve’s house and he learns that he can touch things.

He watches Steve’s smile come back when Robin’s over.

He flits his fingers across windchimes when the air is still and watches them take in the music.

He watches Steve crash after long days at work and drags a blanket up over his shoulder.

Sees his confused face when he wakes.

He looks on when Steve pours the milk down the drain and puts the empty carton right back in the fridge.

Even though this makes him sad, he makes a smiley face out of the magnets on the door. Hopes that Steve notices.

He sees him scream out his anger late into the night and wishes that he could touch Steve.

But as time goes on he’s able to witness the way that Steve learns to carry the guilt, but to also try to let himself breathe.

Eddie spends a lot of his time wishing he were alive so that he could tell Steve he’s proud of him. That he could tell him he’s surrounded by people who would help him carry it all if he would just put it down. Wishes he were alive for a lot more reasons than just that.

But the night he gets the closest is when he figures out that he can use the phone in the office to call the one in Steve’s room while he’s away.

He’d learned early on in this afterlife that if he spoke he wouldn’t be heard. But he has a hunch that this might be an Upside-Down loophole.

He’s sitting on the floor across from where Steve’s lying in bed, and he’s watching the stream of tears drip down his pretty, pretty face while he listens to the voicemail.

Hey Stevie.

Called you just to tell you that I made it real far, and that I never blamed you for loving the way that you do while you were torn apart.

I would still wait with you there.

Don’t think about it too hard or you’ll never sleep a wink at night again. Don’t worry about me, Stevie, just know that I loved you.

And I’ll see you when you get here.

#steddie #kinda #im not even going to properly tag this #this is purely self-indulgent #sad steddie hours #gin writes #things I wrote instead of things I should be writing #y'all like actually have to listen to the song to get the full effect of this #if y’all haven’t gotten the gist by now #preachers daughter literally changed my life #and i will never shut the fuck up about it

[gregoftom]

pretty sure i’ve seen romance movies with scenes like this

#tomgreg #where do i even start with t his horseshit okay here we fucking go. #so tom's first instinct is to go to greg when he's on shaky ground with shiv. the only way he feels safe is to have GREG with him. #who tf would want greg as an attack dog??!?!? lets be fucking real. when he says that i think he means just a dog. just someone loyal. #who loves him and won't dick him around. i think he's pretty tired of it by now. #he wants an alliance with like. ok in this show who would you pick to ally with. i love greg but he's abso useless in terms of skills that #would keep you safe. if anything TOM would keep HIM safe. in fact tom himself says who else has taken care of you. literally spells it out. #he even says greg is a joke; will fail; will fuck up; so what use does he have for tom other than companionship. other than love? #a dog might do tricks for you but your main reason for getting one is usually love. right? at least it should be. it would be in tom's case. #and don't even fucking get me STARTED on ''do you wanna come with me? ...sporus?" like girl. #you know what you told him about nero and sporus right. and now you're saying to him; yeah i was talking about you. #you and me. you're my favourite and i wasn't joking when i said i'd marry you. #the whole while tom is asking greg to be his attack dog his fuckin. eyes and expression we get it you're in love with him. like it's ridic. #and all this coming with phrasing it sounds like they're fucking ELOPING. I HATE IT!!!!!! SHUT UP! stop saying that fucking shit god. god #they are so annoying. anyway #the way tom's voice breaks as he says he has things to do [what things. will i find out later.] and the deal and!! #what am i gonna do with a soul anyways... i have you what do i need it for. and as that paragraph said somewhere. he castrates his soul. #then they giggle and are fucking annoying and greg'S HANDS LOOK LIK EHE'S ABOUT TO IDK. HUG TOM? AROUND THE MIDDLE MAYBE #or do something else. and then they just hug instead and i fucking. ugh. i've had enough tbh good fucking bye