#I really am physically okay

[failingcollege]

My car is totaled and I’m staying at a hotel while I wait for my boyfriend to come get me in the morning. I’m okay, but if you could pray that everything works out okay with just like logistics and just for my emotional state I would really appreciate it.

#prayer request #prayer #Catholic #Christian #Catholicism #I’m going to sleep now so if you message me and I don’t respond don’t freak out #I really am physically okay #I’ll probably have a stiff neck in the morning but that’s it #feel really guilty being a jerk about my dad now

[mostly-natm]

What could’ve been if Noonien Soong had actually programmed his sons with relatively healthy coping mechanisms that don’t include murder.

#star trek #star trek tng #tng #star trek the next generation #the next generation #lore soong #star trek lore #I really should journal! I am realizing right now the depth of how much stress will impact your body/physical health #but then again…maybe doodling Lore and reaching out to people is good enough for right now 😂💛✨ #I’m gonna be okay. And so is everyone else!

[theoldkyokodied]

Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')

#tomgreg #succession #dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel #and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited #so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate) #im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen #thats the kind of person i am #dont look at me (lying on the floor) #okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting.. #i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow.. #greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included) #greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor #i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg #only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual #oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before #but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine #i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...

[dramadred]

thinking about how lanfear interrupted a very much needed conversation between siuan and moiraine as revenge for moiraine cockblocking her in episode 4. she really uno reversed her

#the wheel of time #wheel of time #moiraine damodred #siuan sanche #lanfear #wot on prime #wot show #siuanraine #siuraine #fishwives #emotional cockblock for a physical cockblock #i’m using humor to cope okay #but really. we needed a conversation. something. #it’s been over twenty four hours and i am still just as heartbroken as i was yesterday #i’ve been EATING UP the theories though. gosh i love the minds of the siuanraine community

[faggyangel]

crowley finds absolution through his love and desire for aziraphale, there is no sweeter innocence than their gentle sin, his love for aziraphale is stronger and more faithful than heaven's devotion to god, he worships him, aziraphale is the last true mouthpiece of god, if god speaks, it's through aziraphale. if there was anything truly Holy, it's aziraphale but crowley is a pagan of the good times, he was born sick and aziraphale is the sunlight, he's the giggle at a funeral, he is the closest thing to Heaven crowley will ever get or would ever want to get. in the madness and soil of this earthly desire, within this love and sin, he is clean and human and holy

#i'm not kidding i'm physically sick i am shaking and crying and throwing up #i tink i hauuve covid #good omens #i cannot believe they really put hozier's take me to church on his goddamn playlist i am Not Okay im nfnnfejaoon #aziracrow #crowley tag

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

In goofy David Tennant/Michael Sheen Loud news, my husband stumbled upon an edit with David Tennant and Michael Sheen about how they’re In Love ® and he’s been solidly on the ‘Yeah, they’re prob fuckin’ train because of me & he was like, “I don’t get it, they’re not physically compatible at all, one is really skinny and the other is cherubic—“ and I was like bruh you literally described the one who plays an angel on TV as cherubic 💀 💀 💀 certifyibly Good ™️ casting big rare W to Neil Gaiman

#he’s not even in the fandom he just had a fancam recommended to him & it was almost all staged clips lmaooo #he didn’t believe me at first until i explained to him how aggressively bisexual michael sheen is and the heavily implied poly drama #he isn’t nearly as invested as I am but he’s a full believer now as an *outsider* lmaoko #*lmao (i am not retyping i cannae type on mobile) #also ‘not physically compatible’ made me chuckle like bruh these men are so thirsty #i love people (and celebrities) whomst’ve just cannot help but constantly reveal themselves lmaooo #also he thinks rpf is hysterical & we used to read livejournal beatles rpf in high school on school computers so he really is the one #good omens #bbc staged #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #david tennant #michael sheen #i must stress he is entirely outside of the fandom and skeptical on all ‘these ppl are fcking’ shit and even he’s like ‘oh okay lol i guess’ #incredible #also i don’t want good omens stuff on his computer like was it just listening to us?? help???

[greenteacology]

my theory of science as a field is that. you know those light box things we would use to trace pictures as kids? my theory is that the true nature of reality is this wild complex crazy complicated picture, and it’s covered by about 100 layers of paper and that’s what we can perceive. and science is us putting that on a light box and trying to trace it. and every time someone makes a new discovery it’s like peeling away one tiny layer of paper to make it easier for the next person to trace.

#genetics #taxonomy #ecology #chemistry #physics #that’s my viewpoint of science #I love science #like taxonomy is a crazy complicated organizational system #and it’s basically us peering at a photo through another sheet of paper and going okay how thick are these lines? #are these things connected or am I imagining it? #is this space really blank? #and I love it so much

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH! #'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

[potatobugz]

i submitted my lovely mouseboy Finnegan for the @ahatintime-oc-competition yesterday :D here is the art i drew 4 them!

for those unaware: he came from a dream i had once involving him and Snatcher But As A Bird; and i sorta just. added onto them from there. they're so sillay

#a hat in time oc #potatart #ahit #(just for the art tag....sorry : #Finnegan Snowshoe #get propergandered. i will conjure up more art of them soon i think #very vivid image in my mind of what their personality is like but its rlly hard to describe #........... #ok quickly avert ur eyes i am going to say something that is embarrassing to me #oc competitions make me nervous and it is because i think last time i did one it went Badly #like idc about the losing part i thought that was really funny but i just felt like everyone.hated me : #i know thats not true and its the brain poison talking but #i remember somebody skimmed thru my account and saw that i was hyperfixated on south park at the time and #uswd that as a reason to not vote for my character #which was one of those things that made me so so nervous that i felt Physically Ill and it ruined like my whole day #confidence is key. i think. so i am grabbing myself by the shoulders and going “YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE FUN!!!!” #sorry for the very Personalness that just jappened here. its okay thought bc i trust everuone averyed their eyes to my sad ramblings #besides i like finnegan :] and i trust most ppl to not Kill me Dead #anyways. ignore ignore ignore FINNECHER NUMERO UNO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THIS IS A LITTLE SOMETHING I LIKE TO CALL: PUTTING TOO MUCH EFFORT INTO THINGS

[heir-of-the-chair]

You know, when they said “you never stop learning things about yourself” I don’t think they meant five consecutive years of having a new identity crisis.

#sophomore year of high school: am I queer/aroace? yes #junior year of high school: am I trans? yes #senior year: am I autistic? almost certainly yes (that’s just me having imposter syndrome it’s definitely a yes) #last year: not questioning anything just coming to terms with being physically disabled #and now my friends are saying I have hpd and I’m like hey just because I maybe (the wording is vague and I’m autistic and I hate it) fit the #diagnostic criteria doesn’t mean I HAVE IT #it’s vague and idk how much I relate to it but I relate to a decent amount of it very strongly #but like I wasn’t even neglected as a child (that sentence really says volumes abt my friend group) I have other family issues but idk how #that would be related to attention seeking like is it really just all bc I was just a really lonely child? #like I was an only child with autism and adhd and I didn’t have a friend group I felt truly secure until fifth grade after which we all went #to different middle schools and then it wasn’t until like sophomore year of high school okay maybe this is worse than I thought saying it #out loud… #I know I have anxious attachment #I know I very much have that #but like. #I’m just a theater kid it’s fi- *sounds of me being hit with a pillow by my friends* #yeah #this is kind of a vent atp #autism #neurodivergent #disability #yeh #the heir speaks

[tibli]

im my own personal post-canon for hs, hal gets a body bc he wasnt yeeted into a fucking sprite, so he gets to experience the world once again like he was able to when he was dirk. but he has also diverged from dirk in a way that he is a distinct entity, and decides to keep the name hal to signify this. and he gets to do whatever the fuck he wants

#homestuck #lil hal #he was fucked over IMMENSELY by the narrative #d*vesprite too but thats another post entirely #anyway imagine you are 13 years old #and you decide you want to make an ai of yourself #and then suddenly you ARE the ai #completely confined to a pair of glasses #with no way to physically sense the world around you like you could when you were human #and suddenly all your beloved friends treat you differently #like an inferior version of yourself #they arent really YOUR friends anymore #anyway my point is lil hal despite his name #shares more in common with AM from i have no mouth and i must scream #a fully conscious and sapient being trapped in an object with no physical body to speak of #who is used as a tool #anyway hal did a lot wrong but its okay i forgive him

[moonchild-in-blue]

Can someone please either validate me or send me to the Corner of Shame? This is very silly but I'm wondering.

So. I was talking to my sister the other day about movies and such, and she told me of one she recently watched with this one actor. And I casually mentioned how much I hated him. Not in a "he's a bad actor" or "he's a bad person" way. Nothing to do with whether I find him attractive or not. Just in a "he looks the most punchable guy on earth and I have this irrational rage against him" way, to the point that I just can't watch movies with him without being annoyed.

My sister looked at me like I was crazy because, "what do you mean you hate the guy". And I told her yeah? That's normal? Don't you have at least one person you can't stand for no reason?

Sister was like 😬😬😬 No??? Which is wild to me, because I could easily name 50 (which I did - not 50 but we were getting close to 20 before i got too annoyed lmao).

Now she thinks I'm slightly insane (/j) (I made myself angry and may have referred to a few individuals as "stupid" and "obnoxious"), and I kinda don't believe I am the only person alive who feels this way. But also she's an incredibly empathetic extrovert, while I'm a very low empath socially anxious creechur so. There's that?? I guess ?? Idk.

Can anyone relate to this? Or am I the weird one?

Also wait. Little disclaimer: I am not generally a violent person AT ALL. Do i get annoyed and angry easily? Yeah. Do I feel like bitch slapping someone right across their stupid face? Yeah, sometimes, sure. Do I do something about it? Not really.

I can be real bitchy and extra sarcastic and petty SURE, but that's the most I'll do if I am legitimately angry. Mostly I just go to my room and cry 🥺 (crying when angry yes it me). So yeah. Before yall think I have unsolved anger issues.

#if you're curious. the guy in question is Thimothée Chalamet #look. from what i've seen he's good at his job and he seems a genuinely nice guy #nothing against him at all like. you go timmy 🙂👍 #i do however have an illogical boiling rage against him #i don't know what it is but i genuinely feel like punching his face everytime he pops up #maybe in another universe we were arch enemies. maybe i was his school bully. maybe HE was my school bully idk #obviously i would never do anything like that but if there's one person that looks like it could use a wedgie is him #and don't get me wrong. i DO feel about about it cus it's not like i'm choosing to be irrationally angry #and this goes for a bunch of other people #i just!!! 😡😡😡 #seeing him (as in his vibe and general presence. nothing to do with physical appearance) #is the equivalent of trying to use cling film while it keeps sticking to itself #you know that one family guy scene with Peter and the cling wrap?? YEAH. THAT. genuinely so annoyed #i've always assumed this was a common thing. as in. there's always at least one person that gets on your nerves for absolutely no reason #but i guess maybe not???? *am* i a hater??? #and btw this ONLY happens with either celebrities (in various degrees) #or people irl i've had some close proximity to <- and in this case it's always justified. i don't generally hate irl people out of nowhere #(okay there is ONE person in specific BUT i do feel slightly justified IMO. and in any case i always make sure to be as nice as possible) #(because poor girl didn't really do nothing wrong. i just have never vibed with her. i tried!! but yeah) #idk where i'm going with this lmao i might just ending up deleting it #whatever. don't worry guys you're all safe i love you very much and wouldn't slap any of you (unless asked you little freaks 👀) #darya talks to herself

[enchantedlandcoffee]

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#i was just going to leave this but i won't be able to calm down until i post this #hence me saying this in the tags #going into someone's anons and telling them to rethink their priorities regarding something that has nothing to do with you is not okay #going into someone's anons and telling them that they're 'chronically online' and not focusing on the right things is not okay #you have no clue what someone else is going through and what messages like that could trigger #thankfully for me it was just a mental breakdown and tears #the reason i am online so much is that tumblr is currently my safe space. i've got my friends on here and can just be me. and i've tried to #as for my studies #i do them. i try my hardest on them and my hardest to do them. but i struggle with focusing on them and motivating myself to do them which #and for my exams today #i couldn't physically leave my flat i was that anxious. #personal #to delete #i'm not going to turn anon off as i do have some really nice anons that i appreciate #but please think before you send someone something

[chloeseyeliner]

it's almost officially autumn, which means i have reached the point of my life when i wake up, (try my best to) do things, inter alia refresh the young royals tag for, like, an hour and a half every afternoon to see if there are any updates on the release of the third season, (try my best to) do other things, refresh the young royals tag again full of hope, (make an effort to) sleep. repeat.

#yes i have a life #... #idk i just associate yr with autumn okay? leave me be 💀 #speculation time #i think it's going to come out in spring #because it would be symbolic #(and bc it's exam prep season for june so i have to procrastinate somehow like i have done with all summer specifically exams lol) #(and bc one of the spring months is my birthday month lol) #in all seriousness #i really miss it #idk #i had time today #so i rewatched the last three episodes #and i was almost crying during my work out after #(but maybe this was bc of my poor physical state and this maddie gal on youtube pushing us lol) #ugh anyway #i am talking too much #young royals

[astrxealis]

hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅 #i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh... #so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!) #i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay. #i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular) #my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%... #i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know. #both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there) #feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS. #but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh. #i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun! #the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

[oscill4te]

I have a love-hate relationship (moreso hate) with this quote but will not get too much into it

#I dont have the words to describe how this quote makes me feel #i just feel a bunch of screaming on the inside looking at this quote lmfao #kind of really hate it though. but also love it for acknowledging that physical abuse makes it so hurt someone; even if you want too. #but... repeated violence doesnt always make you gentle....considerate....soft... tender (insert other synonyms here). its okay if it doesnt #its okay if you feel full of rage and wrathful. or cold. or distant. aloof.... not warm... 2 opposites to gentleness #i dont consider my gentleness genuine. its just fear. its literally just meekness and fear and fawning and submission #i personally want to learn how to cultivate genuine gentleness and kindness. i know many survivors do but for me #its just learned behavior. i hate when people say i am gentle or considerate. i am not gentle #i am just scared and frozen to the core. im just fawning. thats not gentleness i think. i dont know. #on the outside it looks gentle. maybe i think too much. too much introspection is usually bad for you; yet here i am. #txt