#I need to reach out to friends more

[lumifoxproductions]

drop this sunflower 🌻 into the inboxes of the blogs that make you happy! lets spread a little sunshine ☀️

Aaaaaww Tysm! I’m so sorry for not responding sooner!

You make me happy too @freak-like-meemy we need to hang out more!! I don’t know if I deserve this many sunflowers, I’m just glad to be able to bring happiness to people, especially my friends, because they’re awesome and deserve all the sunshine and good vibes! 🌻💚💜✨💕(^ ^

#lumifox production studio #lumi rambles #I need to reach out to friends more #; w ;

[colorisbyshe]

"male loneliness epidemic" and the men in question refuse to talk to their friends about anything meaningful

and then call women bitches for "making them this way"

like idk a lot of these male problems are just personal problems like... if you want human connection you gotta try.. connecting... with other humans, my dudes

#lots of people are lonely but you know what?? #when i feel lonely and isolated #i realize i need to reach out more to the friends i DO have #and if for whatever reason they aren't meeting my needs #(too busy not physically close enough for casual events whatever) #i realize... oh i need ot go more more and make additional new friends #if i don't wanna go out i download bumble #and reinforce that i'd rather be lonely than talk to most peopl eon there

[mygirljunhee]

thank you, moonbin. rest in peace.

#moonbin #it's been an emotional few days and I've had so much trouble processing and dealing with this #I got into kpop in one of the lowest moments in my life - and it/the community has helped me get through more than I thought I could #Moonbin and Astro were a huge part of that #This hurt - it hurt a lot more than I thought it ever would #I can't even begin to imagine what Sua - the rest of Moonbin's family - Astro & his close friends are feeling #All of my thoughts are with them #And to every other fan struggling with this: you aren't alone #And if anyone needs to talk - please reach out #I know there are a lot of incredible fans on here who are willing to help - and I'll do my best to make myself available for anyone #addy.gifs

[sesamenom]

Reverse Gondolin AU family portrait

#silm #silmarillion #idril #tuor #earendil #reverse gondolin au #is this baby earendil's first appearance in the au? #so I decided Idril & Tuor still get married in this au #mostly bc I want Earendil to exist. #i haven't figured out what I want to do with Lomion #but maybe he can be obsessed with tyelpe instead of idril bc they're friends in this au and idril showed up a lot later? #also c&c + celebrimbor moved to gondolin instead of nargothrond since Aredhel lives there #you may notice that tuor has a diff hairstyle & outfit in the au! #this is bc fashion trends in reverse gondolin are more influenced by aredhel's choices than turgons for obvious reasons #hence the white cloaks and shorter (but equally fancy) sleeves #also idril is lord of the mole in the au #my headcanon is that 'lord' as of the lords of gondolin is just the title regardless of gender for the specific role #'lady' is a different role with much less administrative stuff and more social/public-appearance type stuff #aredhel is the white lady of gondolin bc she does Not want to be a lord #so she does the occasional royalty-waves-and-smiles-from-a-tower type event when necessary #but other than that she doesnt have political duties #idril is the administrative/political leader of the Mole in the au hence she is a lord #shes also the lady of the wing bc she married tuor and is part of the house of the wing's nobility but doesn't do their political stuff #and tuor is the lady of the mole #reverse turgon after arrival has less of a interest in politics than canon turgon (the whole eol deal was rather traumatizing and he needs #time to recover) #so he's not one of the Lords but he is colloquially ar-feinion #his official title is some sort of prince #after he reaches a more stable emotional state he helps a lot w the political stuff when aredhel is out #so maeglin doesn't have todo everything himself

[8bit-mau5]

Update

Hey guys I didnt mean to disappear the way I did this month, but especially in the more recent weeks. I've been in an UNBEARABLE amount of pain with migraines almost every day for over a week and I may very well have a sinus infection (': Like I WAS diagnosed with chronic sinusitis last year iirc but this is unbearable. My throat hurts, my teeth hurt, my face hurts, I can't breathe out my nose. I feel miserable tbh.

Another reason for absence and being so slow on work is because I came really close to calling the cops on my mother in the middle of a fight not too long ago. I'm certain it would've gotten physical if Popo hadn't walked through the front door when he did. Thankfully things DIDN'T get physical, but I'm still very shaken up about it. I'm in no danger, but I'm getting around to making an official post for my [GoFundMe] that's been successfully published now. That was the last straw I just cannot handle how my cats and I are treated. It's seriously affected my workflow for far too long.

Anyway I could really use some positivity and distraction. I missed this place and I missed you guys, home life has just been.. a lot. And I'm exhausted.

#abuse #abuse tw #animal abuse #animal abuse tw #i think thats everything? #okay to reblog #since it has my GFM link? #i had to call my shitty hardly-present in my life father to calm me down but like. the way he talks to me aint great either #the treatment ive gotten from mom has gotten exponentially worse since my sister moved out just like we all expected tbh #ive NEEDED to move out for ages but now i have like. a plan #i just need to make the money for it now #honestly id be happy to even reach 7k. the deadline is just in a few months so.. i'll be keeping it up for rent and move costs. but id like #to raise a bit to properly PAY popo for driving me up there and back. so $ for gas. food. hotel stays. etc. and paying for a rental truck #8bit beeps #god i wish i just had a friend i could move in with RIGHT NOW just to weather out the storm and work on raising more money #to go to chicago w/my boyfriend

[dimorphodon-x]

Being an artist honestly kinda sucks because for no reason at all, drawing becomes so difficult and you can only manage a few scribbles before being so burnt out and tired that you just don’t do anything for the rest of the day and then it goes on for weeks

#thinking is honestly really hard rn #and I really need to finish commissions but it’s been so fucking hard #I can only manage maybe a few more lines before giving up and I just #whyyyy #personal vent #there’s nothing for me to do out here either #no places to go hang out #let alone friends #I might be reaching a point where I want to cry and lash out at anyone who tries to comfort me #hate it. #really hate it

[snickerdoodlles]

there's a lot of things people blame for why fandoms feel like ghost towns these days, but no one's really talked about the way discord's contributing to it

#its like #people are trying to force fit discord's chatrooms into forum boards #except discord is just. really really *really* poorly setup for that #and theres no way to archive or share it so everything said in it is easily lost despite personal export or community pins or search option #and like #vaguely hearing about the way some people are unsatisfied with them/feeling unfufilled in the response to them #a lot of people would be better off posting those things to places like tumblr #where there isnt a time limit on when people see or respond to them #part of what's scary/frustrating on tumblr rn is some fandoms arent good about reblogging to posts or tag rambling #like with bad buddy a large part of the fun was the enthusiastic and in depth tag rambles and the way responses built on each other #vs something like kinnporsche which feels much more like-oriented #like? its not like theres any one way to fandom #and there's nothing actually wrong with likes or quiet reblogs #but vaguely hearing about the way some people were/are really upset with some servers im just kinda like #idk #feels a bit like people trying to force a square thru a circle or that they're looking in the wrong spaces for what they want #.......this is not a complaint for my space ajkds i think i've carved out a pretty happy space for myself! #im just checking the reblog graphs of some old vs new stuff and thinking about a convo other cookie and i were having over the weekend #i have a lot of friends around and i love everyone who's happy to ramble with me #but i do feel a slight case of DM burnout rn where mostly people reach out to me via DMs instead of reblogs #which is a very different dynamic #its like. hmmm words #i love DMs but the pressure of responding to a lot of individual messages #vs something like reblogs which is more open forum for everyone and feels more communal #if that makes sense? #the difference between visiting one person at home vs casually hanging out with a group at a cafe #and the lovely thing about tumblr specifically is that i can set down a reblog chain for several days if i need #before returning to it later when i have more time/energy #its got Longevity that discord lacks u know #........okay enough tag musings from me ajkfhjdgfhj BYE

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Had a good thing happen at work today and got a bonus 🤑

#bonus time baybeeee #celebrated by buying art supplies #because I needed new canvases to paint on #life of faye #wish I had more people I talked to regularly #so I could talk about good things when they happen and I feel good about them #i mean it would also be nice to have more people to talk to when I feel bad but right now specifically was a good thing #but like since I don't really talk to anyone very regularly now #except for my one online gaming friend #there's nobody to celebrate with #and I don't want to just reach out randomly to people because that feels like dumb bragging #so my other option is to scream the news into the void which is what I am now doing

[autisticlee]

you know what, it's autism acceptance month. that means all the cool, nice, outgoing, fun people should adopt an autistic person (me) as a friend and show them what it's like to have cool and fun friends! most of us struggle with that and don't know what that's like, so in the spirit of acceptance, please accept us into your friend groups :D

#autism acceptence month #autism acceptance #autism awareness #autism #autistic #actually autistic #asd #this is not a silly meme. im being serious fbhdhdhdjdjee #accept us and learn how to be accepting of all that we are. stop bullying and rejecting us. thanks! #i keep getting told i “need more autistic friends” and stuff like that. sounds cool and all. but we're too much alike and its a struggle #so i think i actually need friends who arent autistic and are good at socializing so they can do more of the work because im TIRED. #some allistics are so good at getting people together for stuff and reaching out and being enthusiastic about socializing #while autistics arent (no offense). ive mostly tried to befriend other autistics and have only been friends with other NDs at least. #why cant the allistics or NTs pull their weight and stop talking up space and do something useful for once lmao. accept us and reach out! #i dont know where im going with this. im just tired and lonely im sorry lmao #lee rambles

[xomoosexo]

I miss badboyhalo can we get custody back :(

please I'm literally begging

#dream when he said they needed to make a new discord server to skeppy and bad:( so they can hsng out more:(( #i need to reach through the screen and shake him like JIST DO IT! JUST CONTACT YOUR FRIENDS!!!! #i am actually very curious what goes on behind the q smp scenes to make people write tweets like that lolll #askies

[spocks-kaathyra]

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#vent #wow I will never be able to let myself have friends huh #I am unwanted and inherently unwantable #I have it all figured out I just can't DO anything right. why is breaking silence the hardest thing to do #I can't bring myself to make/maintain/deepen friendships bc I'm convinced that I'm unpleasant to be around and unpleasant to be friends with #my company is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy #<- completely unjustified belief. I am kind and friendly and capable of responding appropriately in the majority of social situations #they reach out and I shrink back every time. no matter how much they reach towards me I can't believe that they actually want me around #and ofc the reasonable thing for them to do is stop reaching! when I never reach back! why would they expect a different outcome this time #so I can't blame anyone. I can't sit around waiting for a saintly mindreader who can see that my actions contradict my feelings #I know I just need to reach out. but how could I do that when I'm convinced it'll only hurt them? #my presence makes their day worse. I'm a mangy dog begging for scraps I don't deserve at their table. I am harming them with my presence #how can I beg for their attention and company and time when I know their life would be better without me in it #<- false belief. when I reach out I make them feel wanted and they feel more comfortable reaching out to me when they know I like them. #everyone appreciates being reached out to. I am pleasant to be around. they like being liked by me. my company is a desirable thing #company in general is a desirable thing. my company is better than no company. people like being liked. #logically I know all this to be true. emotionally? they hate me and I deserve it and the more I show I like them the more they'll hate me #sigh. what a banal problem to have. I'll stop being 18 years old one day. I can't wait until I have better things to worry about #replies appreciated. btw. in the interest of asking for what I want instead of expecting ppl to read my mind lmao #narcissus's echoes

[celticwoman]

mutuals not making any promises but like this post if you wouldnt mind me dming u/asking 4 your discord???? maybe?????

#this is mostly 4 mutuals i havent talked to #i want more friends friends. yknow #i wanna interact more #this is silly but i kinda need the reassurance that ure okay w me reaching out #okay anyways. ily #cami.txt

[eddiemunsn]

i literally just want my cat back that's all i want i'll never ask for anything ever again just bring him back to me

#im losing my mind i cant stop distracting myself or ill go fucking crazy #he was my only solace #my emotional support buddy #we were grumpy and lonesome together #he was my sweet sweet baby boy and he didn't deserve to die like that #and none of my friends have reached out to see if im okay #only a few people on here who i appreciate so much #and my BOSS #who also was there for me when we had to euthanize him #she held me and cried with me and helped me wrap him up to put in the freezer until the taxidermist can take him #and she's texted me once a day reminding me how loved i am and how if i ever need anything she's there for me #when your boss is a better friend to you than any of your other friends #its time to get more friends

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests... #theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!) #but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍 #anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^) #.vent #.diaries

[aeide-thea]

die eigentliche Frage: wie viel Duolingo muss ich noch machen, bevor ich hoffen kann, hier auf Deutsch zu schreiben?

(viel mehr, bevor ich etwas Interessantes sagen kann! aber die Katze sitzt jetzt auf mir, was nicht interessant zu hören, aber ganz angenehm zu erleben ist. 😽)

#lol i need 2 know SO many more words. #like. great that i have now solidly incorporated ‘Zeichentrickfilme’ in2 my working vocab #but uh #pace our friend Duo i gotta say i’m not sure how much use i’m gonna get out of that one #vs i still dk how 2 say like. ‘depressed.’ ‘genderqueer.’ lol #at least thx 2 C— i’ve got ‘dicke Katze’ down. Kaffee- und Katzeklatsch: ein Blog #also like. do i gotta caps properly in a blog context. like i will if i have 2 but like. does not spark joy #everybody wants 2 teach you standard orthography which is great but like. some of us want 2 understand the stylistic impact of rulebreaking! #anyway. in unrelated conclusion it IS maddening that i know basically 0 swedish BUT when i reach for eg ‘nothing’ i sure do end up at #‘ingenting’ before ‘nichts.’ similarly ‘och’ before ‘und’ sometimes. deeply unuseful!! #however i guess maybe someday the like. 2 phrases i remember will come in handy 4 me #‘du är vacker. jag vill knulla dig i röven. vill du också det?’ #one can only hope 😇 #anyway. peut-être que demain je bloggerai en français. qui sait #my mission‚ should i choose to accept it: ​bastardizing ALL languages i only half-remember 🤘 #in conclusion i vaguely remember that in the construction ‘something Adjective’ you caps the adjective but not why lol #i mean i assume it’s for Substantive Reasons but like. if it’s modifying a pronoun why is it a substantive. however. #ours (whomst suck at deutsch) not 2 reason why‚ &c. #right. okay. good morning!!

[juno-infernal]

oof auugh ow just sent a difficult text message and now i have to die ten thousand deaths waiting for a reply

#reached out to my ex’s brother and sister in law #who have become some of my closest friends over the last 6 years #just to tell them how much I love them & that I don’t want to disrespect my ex’s boundaries but that I will always be here if they need me. #& it’s. sad. #& if they were to rebuff this affection harshly it would be more painful than the breakup tbh. #m