#I have to believe it’ll get better

[floral-hex]

Just canceled all of my future therapy appointments. Big fudgin’ bummer. Did I mention I lost my insurance? Didn’t even find out about that until the day it lapsed. Trying to find a way to fix it now, reapplying and whatnot, but ya know, it’s bureaucracy so who knows how long it’ll take. Just fingers crossed I don’t run out of meds first.

lol it’s underwater 🐠

#ugggghhhhh so sad #like genuinely I think my therapist rocks #he’s the best one I’ve ever had. nice and cool but no BS and just harsh enough to push me #I feel like such a baby for saying it but literally the number one thing I’ve wanted these last few weeks was to go to therapy #I had to skip my last appointment so I haven’t seen him in weeks #between my mom’s organ transplant and driving back and forth to see her everyday and taking care of my bros aaand super suicidal birthday #I’m just… I’m tired. I want to vent. I just want to spill my guts for an hour and maybe cry a lot #and I can’t do that with anyone else. I know that’s dumb to say #I 100% can’t complain to my family because ya know I gotta be strong and they don’t need me being a burden #and I love my mutuals but I don’t know any of you anywhere well enough to feel comfortable venting #I mean. y’all can vent to me all day. I’ll gladly listen to you talk about yourselves. I’m here for it. I just can’t do it myself 😕 #I’m so tired and anxious and I don’t want to really get into the self harm talk but I’ve had some serious self destructive thoughts lately #I don’t know what I’m going to do #I have to believe it’ll get better #because if I don’t believe that then… what’s the point? #also.. I’m really fucking lonely. just to throw that out there. if you can’t tell by my reblogs. #I am like desperately and ravenously lonely and full of longing #and you add that to everything else it’s just the sad little cherry on top… #now I want an ice cream sundae… mmmm…. #I need 1000 hugs and to sit with someone and maybe get fucked up and complain and sit in silence and and and blegh #but that’s life. it’ll be… it’ll be whatever it is. #sorry. this is a bit too heavy for this time of morning #I’ve been sick. really bad vertigo and vomiting and I’m just wiped out and sad #but I love you stranger or at least I like you enough to be okay with you reading this #okay be safe #goodbye forever #text

[pois0ncandy]

life is boring and meaningless i should just kms

#what is there to live for? #absolutely nothing #everyone keeps saying that “it’ll get better” #“this won’t last forever and then years go by and it’s still exactly the same #the world is going to shit #i don’t make enough to survive on my own #and finding a new job is practically impossible these days #i have no one to even talk to #i don’t want to talk to anyone anyways #like what’s the point? #i’ve been holding out for so long and for nothing #fruitless endeavors #empty promises #forgotten dreams #any hope i had is gone #can’t believe i stayed alive this long all for some dipshit who doesn’t even live in my country and has forgotten my existence #like why have i put myself through this #there is no point #pathetic #i hate everything #i just don’t think living is for me #and it never has been #and i’ve always known this but tried so so hard to change how i feel to find some meaning in life and it was all for nothing

[fridaynight--saturdaymorning]

SPARKLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

#Bestie stepdad pulling through as always thank you sjonners #I just ate a whole punnet of raspberries and I’m feelin funkey 😎 I’m gonna drink 1 of my fancy waters now bc I need drink and I think it’ll #Make me feel a bit better cause I sadded myself there for a sec #It’s a dash water they’re so a scrummy nobody ever believes me on that tho #Tomorrow I mighttttt buy one of those overpriced lime flavoured liquid death drinks from the co op #I will deserve it after my extra shift during late night shopping #I’m gonna buy some liquorice at work I have a cute little jar that I can put it in which is fun bc I fucking hate packaging and bc it’s all #Traditional style in there the sweets all come out the big jar and get done by weight before they go in their lil bag #It’s iconic I wish everything still worked like that refill shops are my best friend

[snoring-dragon-productions]

Just spent some time crying while sitting on the bathroom floor and proceeded to stay there for Who Knows How Long with my eyes closed, not quite asleep but mentally checked out of Existing.

I’m winning at life lmao

#negative tw #dragon’s ramblings #gotta love how whenever I have a Good Day planned; some fresh Hell breaks loose and I’m here trying to arrange the pieces lol #I’m just Tired. can’t even let myself get too comfortable because then shit goes bad #this is exactly why I can’t believe it when people say it’ll be better #not in a ‘it’ll never get better’ kinda way #that’s not what I’m saying at all #but in an ‘someone says they’ve got their shit together’ kinda way #because they Don’t. and it’s all just Words to me #I’ll believe it when I see it and when I see it for an extended period of time #because I don’t see it #so just stop even Trying to tell me otherwise #I’m tired and upset and confused and frustrated #and all I can do is try to weather the storm as best I can #because hopefully it’ll pass and when it does; the boat will still be afloat #but I can’t keep us from sinking on my own #and I don’t even know if the others are able to either #but fuck it; I’ll keep doing what I can #because I like to think that things would be a lot worse if I stopped #so fuck it. this is just how things are gonna be right now #at least I can type my shit down instead of screaming them at people #because I’d rather be That Person than the one actually screaming all the shitty things I’m thinking #because that sure as Hell isn’t helping anyone but whatever hgjtbughg

[stillcominback]

💖💖💖

#i know i’ve been quiet but *sees last post* life’s just been a lot lately! 🤪 #BUT i’m feeling a little better a day at a time #being in the office is rough but i’m hoping it’ll get a little easier as i kinda feel my feels and stuff #big thank you to all of you who’ve chatted with me or reached out or literally just been here at all #your support and kindness really means SO much to me #like always but especially right now when i’m probably the most overwhelmed i’ve ever been??? #🥺🥺🥺 #it’s still really hard but I’m starting to believe there’s a ‘future me’ who’s happier and more settled and onto better things #just THANK YOU to all of you for being amazing support and friends 🥺💖 #AND PLS i may not be at my best rn as far as reaching out but #plsssss feel free to hmu on IMs or discord because i’d love to still plot and chat!! i miss it! #I’m also happy to write on discord (or do little things on the ic wires I have!) #ANYWAY!! off to bed I gooooo 🛌💖 LOVE U ALL MWAH #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[dadbots]

May this year bring us an abundance of fulfillment, achieved desires and comfort. 🖤

#dadbots.txt #officially in 2024… hard to believe that tbh. But it’s here. And hope for better things to come our way. #I plan on committing myself to some planned goals and ideas to work on. Including devoting myself into my craft again - #- and explore other fields as it is a big part of my life. With so much happening and being overwhelmed caused the focus to shift. #And I truly want to put my attention onto things that helped me. Made me happy. That’s important to me overall. #This year will be aimed towards completions. Anything that’s been held off and sitting in a backlog. That I should’ve and wished to do. #Things I need to do. Whatever — I want to complete them and knock ‘em off my list. There’s so much to go through and it’s tiring - #- when you see piles that you swept under the rug. But that’s why I’m working on completing them and have a clean slate to work on again. #Won’t break chronic procrastination. But it’ll get me doing something. Little by little. #And will reduce the blow for my fatigue. In general for anything really. And this definitely isn’t some ‘new year new me’ mantra that ends #- in a couple of days. A whole year dedicated to what’s important is good enough for me. Of course you can start whenever and at any time. #But I consider this a journey. Means I have to show something for the month. And with so many changes made in 2023 — it’s possible. :) #I hope y’all have a wonderful year and have blessings flowing our way. 🤞🏽🖤

[nope-body]

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#I fucking hate how my dad has essentially told me that it’s my fault I’m in so much pain #not that he’d ever acknowledge how much pain I’m actually in #but I just keep getting told that my general physical condition is my fault and I’m a burden for needing more support than others #and that I don’t know what I need or how to take care of myself and just generally that I’m bad for being disabled #not that anyone would ever say that I’m disabled #and I just hate it! I’m so tired of it #I’m tired of my dad treating exercise like a cure and my mom supporting me only when my dad isn’t around and never in any meaningful way #and I’m tired of feeling like an unlovable burden when I’m in so much pain that I can’t stand #because it’s really getting to my head! I almost texted my friend asking them if they were sure they wanted to be roommates with me because #I might be in pain sometimes and that might impact them #like. what the fuck!? they already know I’m disabled and they’re disabled too! and we support each other and we are more than aware of what #being roommates consists of. my parents are just getting into my head to the extent that I feel like I shouldn’t be around people because #I’m a burden and unlovable due to my pain and I would tell anybody else that that’s wrong #so why am I letting myself believe it? #also I keep saying that my parents are getting better but I don’t think they’ve changed. They can communicate a bit better but #their feelings are the same and that’s the problem. they don’t understand and they don’t care until they’ve had time to think about it #about it and normally I’d be fine with that but when you’re stuck on the floor crying in pain you just want someone to care #you don’t want to wait until your health comes up weeks later in a conversation #you just want compassion and someone to be there with you and tell you it’ll be okay #they have never done that

[starshapedpetals]

THIS MAN TOOK 114 PULLS TO COME HOME BUT HES FINALLY HERE AFTER NOT PULLING HIM HIS FIRST RERUN & ON THE VERY LAST FUCKING DAY OF HIS BANNER

#i’m so mad that he made me spend every last dime on him when kokomi is rerunning in the next update #& whenever i have to pull for my man thoma in eula or klee’s banner idk yet i only want thoma #if i get a five star in that banner it better be tighnari or i’ll cry i want him so bad #i can’t believe it’ll be my third time trying to pull kokomi & i missed tighnari’s only banner just to not pull her 🥲 #third times the charm..right? #i pulled this man while waiting in the doctors office & it was so hard not to lose my mind #& i’m so mad i can’t c1 my wanderer because of kokomi 🥲 xiao pls don’t rerun after kokomi pls pls pls pls i need to c1 you pls pls #kokomi seriously better come home she’s the whole reason i started playing genshin #now all i need is tighnari & kokomi for my 2nd team to be complete (thank u layla & kazuha 4 coming home) #twst is so nice to me compared to genshin seriously. even when i had to get 100 pity to pull my applepom epel that’s such a rare occurrence #genshin impact #kaedehara kazuha

[pepprs]

the way i am going to need to be tranquilized and sedated to get through tomorrow. god fucking help me

#purrs #particularly from like 1:30-3:30 specifically. i do not know how i will be able to get work done. i do not know how i am going to be able to #not fucking die. i really feel like i am going to pass out. i can’t do this i really truly genuinely cannot #every time i remember. like just… there are implications of this i have not even THOUGHT OF yet. that haven’t even crossed my MIND that are #still so engrained in my life and way of thinkjng and being. and i don’t know ifim gonna make her uncomfortable or panicked or guilty by #sobbing my eyes out not to mention other people witnessing that but there is NO WAY im gonna be able to not sob hysterically. this is #legitimatelt one of the most painful things that has ever happened to me in my whole life which says something about how much pain i have #experienced as a human being and how ridiculous it is that im freaking out over this LOL. but ummmmmm. this is……. this is so bad. i think #everything after tomorrow will be very hard (because i’ll miss her terribly) but it’ll be okay because it’s like this is the reality and now #we have to just like move forward and yeah im gonna have breakdowns on here abt how i feel like we aren’t properly grieving it or whatever a #and how i want time to like cope with it and not keep movi ng at 38472974mph WHILEALSO trying to not convey panic. but it’s been this #excruciating mindfuck of a situation bc she’s still HERE. STILL USING THE ‘WE’ THE DAY BEFORE SHE LEAVES! LIKE WHAT IS GOING ONBNNN THE COGN #COGNITIVE FUCKING DISSONANCE OF IT ALL!!!!! and like seeing her and having her stuff still around and whatever is um. it’s bad. it’s really #making it hard for me to accept that this is happening. so tomorrow is it then and we will drag ourselves through it and i swear to god i #will be hysterically crying. maybe even as i walk in and see her there knowing it’s the last time. LOL. like how do i not…. omgggggggg 😍😍😍😍😍 #this is so so so bad. why is this happening. not only is it embarrassing and humiliating but it’s like girl thisis an office this is work it #it’s really not that big a deal. BUT IT IS. TO US. TO ME. WHY IS SHE DOING THIS? i am about to punch the WALL. but nothing will help or make #it better until time passes or if she randomly decides not to do it. idk .i just can’t believe it. im so angry and sad and hurt and scared. #tomorrow will straight up kill me. it really actually seriously will. i don’t know how im gonna get through it. LOL #delete later

[vampdollgirl]

tonight a man spat in my face because i wouldn’t sit next to the bus after he aggressively grabbed my bag. the only people that asked if i was okay were the two other young girls on the bus. the dozens of men on the bus sat in silence. i will never forget that silence.

#he got off very close to me and i had to run home bc i was afraid he’d do something worse #never taking the bus again obviously #i have so much trauma from the bus and it’s all from men #these are the same men that get angry abt women being ‘’jumpy’’ #the rare good men will do everything to make sure we feel safe #vent #everything has been drained from me and im miserable. im so unhappy with my life #i want to believe it’ll get better when i have my licenses in a couple months but i feel like everything is too broken to fix

[embraceyourdestiny]

When someone has a better life than me I don’t even get jealous I just get sad I’m like man I want that and I don’t think I’ll ever get it

#sorry for the sadposting i get like this whenever I think of family stuff #I genuinely don’t believe my birth family will ever be a place I feel like I can belong. even if I could change all the problems and make #them better I really don’t see the rest of my family being able or willing to try. it would hurt too much and they’d rather be in known pain #than unknown pain even if it’s better in the future #og #i just know I would be so grateful to have a loving family and people who do take it for granted. my family doesn’t hold love for me like #some people LOVE their family. i don’t even think my family really loves me beyond a general semi obligation. I’ve thought about how my #relationships with my family would be if we weren’t conjoined by blood and living in the same house and I don’t think any of us would want #to know or be around each other #man now I’m sad I just want a family that I love and who cares about me and I’ve mostly lived my life thinking it’ll never happen #ill probably die before it does honesty #like my family jsut thinks I’m annoying and a nuisance. no one gives me the benefit of the doubt or tries or even wants to understand me. i #told them I don’t feel like they care about me once and instead of trying to understand why I feel that way they just got mad and said I was #wrong and crazy and yelled at me for feeling unloved. as if it’s my fault. sacrificing things isn’t the same as love and I understand the #sacrifice but I don’t know if they really did it because they truly love me or feel like they have to. no one ever looks at me and feels #immense joy. no one ever sees me and just smiles because they’re happy I’m alive and I exist. fuck I need to stop god

[rosicheeks]

😐

#ok #appointment 2 done #had to get X-rays so not excited for the bill I’m going to get from here #but hopefully it’ll be better than $700 #i still can’t believe that #bro I have $50 to my name right now #where the fuck am I going to get $700?! #why is living so expensive #i need to figure out #rent / groceries / gas and now all my medical shit I have to deal with #cool cool coooooooool #why does life suck so much right now #shut up rosie

[the-winds-of-destiny-xxx]

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#spent a few hours with mom at the hospital #the doctors and nurses are saying she’s made good progress #and that she’ll be fine #it’ll just take a few days for recovery #it was just so hard seeing her like that #like she’s better than yesterday apparently (I didn’t see her) #and I’m glad that I didn’t because if I was crying today I wouldn’t have been able to handle seeing the state she was in yday #dad cried when he saw her yday #so I laid in bed with her today #held her hand #we listened to some worship music together #and I prayed for her #I genuinely believe she’ll be fine but it’s just a matter of getting through the recovery stage #think they’re gonna move her out of icu to another ward tmr morning

[melzula]

well since requests are open i wanted to request a zuko fic?

zuko x waterbender reader in which someone from team avatar walks in on them kissing?

i feel like it’d be funny idk lol 😂

a/n: i love this trope it’s so funny. also it’s like subtly mentioned reader is a water bender since i didn’t wanna just shove it in there awkwardly. anyway hope you enjoy!

summary: a private moment between you and your boyfriend is interrupted by your unsuspecting friends

“Are you sure no one saw you come in here?”

“Yes, I’m sure,” Zuko says with a huff after closing the flaps of your tent. “You know, I’m starting to think you’re embarrassed to be seen with me.”

“You know that’s not true,” you argue with a frown. “I just enjoy having some privacy. I know those guys are going to make a big deal about us being together, and I just want to enjoy our relationship without having to deal with any prying eyes.”

“I know,” he admits with a sigh. “I’m just tired of sneaking around. Do you know how difficult it is not to kiss you or check on you after a fight with my sister? It’s torture.”

“It’s just until the war is over. There’s a lot at stake right now, and it would be a weird time to come clean. It’ll be over before you know it.”

“I hope you’re right,” Zuko murmurs with a frown, one that immediately melts away at the feel of your arms wrapping around his midsection. It’s hard to be upset when you’re smiling up at him with the purest look of adoration in your eyes. Despite everything, all of his flaws and mistakes and cruelty, you love him, and it fuels the warmth inside of his heart knowing he has someone like you. Maybe he would have joined the Avatar and his friends sooner if he knew it would lead him to you.

“At least we’re finally alone,” he notes with a faint smile before leaning down to press his lips against your own in a long awaited kiss. He hasn’t been able to give or receive affection all day, and it isn’t until now with your chest pressed against his own that he’s finally able to truly feel relaxed.

Unfortunately, you’re both too engrossed in each other to notice the rustling of your tent flaps as Sokka and Toph let themselves in without a second thought.

“Hey, y/n, Toph and I are gonna head into town, do you want to- oh, gross!” He cries after catching Zuko and yourself mid lip lock.

You both jump at the intrusion, knocking your head together on accident and groaning in unison at the impact.

“Sokka!” You cry out in embarrassment. “Monkey feathers, don’t you knock?!”

“It’s a tent! There is no knocking!” He yells back defensively, equally as upset as you are. “I can’t believe you guys were kissing!”

“We weren’t kissing,” Zuko argues, his face red with embarrassment. “We were… hugging… with our… mouths?”

“Oh, spirits,” you groan, your palm hitting your forehead in embarrassment at Zuko’s horrible attempt at lying. For a Prince, he has a terrible way with words. You’d think all that time spent with his Uncle would make his vocabulary more eloquent.

“If Toph could see she’d be very upset right now!” Sokka scolds, but the girl beside him simply shrugs.

“Actually, this works out great for me. Katara owes me five gold pieces now,” she says with a grin.

“You guys knew they were dating and didn’t tell me?!” The water tribe boy says in offense.

“I had a hunch, but Katara disagreed, so we made a bet.”

“Enough already! This is mortifying enough as it is,” you groan impatiently. “Sokka, we’ll talk about this later. For now, I need both of you out!”

After getting the two to leave the tent, you shut it closed with an irritated sigh. You’re absolutely humiliated, and you don’t think you can show your face to your friends ever again.

“So much for keeping it a secret,” the fire bender mutters.

“You,” you say with an accusatory finger pointed at the Prince, “need to learn how to lie better.”

“I know,” he admits meekly, awkwardly scratching the back of his neck. Sighing, you open your water pouch and tend to the growing bump on his head from your previous collision. You can’t stay mad at him when he looks so flustered and sweet, so instead you merely throw your arms around his neck and pull him back in for another kiss.

You can focus on coming clean later. For now, you just want to enjoy your moment of peace with the boy you love.

| zuko tags: @thebluelcdy @royahllty @the-firebender-girl @ilovespideyyy @yiyibetch @eridanuswave @lammello @a-monsters-love @knaite-solo @taeeemin @lora21

#zuko #zuko x reader #zuko imagine #prince zuko #prince zuko x reader #prince zuko imagine #atla #atla x reader #atla imagine #avatar the last airbender #request

[harrylights]

ok ranting in the tags time again but mostly about happy stuff hehe

#i genuinely cannot believe that my louis show is in TEN DAYS WHAT THE FUCKFKKRKDE #idk how i’m gonna cope #it’s gonna be a bit anxiety inducing bc i might see insane larrie girl there but once i’m in the pit it’ll be fine #also not sure when to show up to get wristbands etc bc i wanna get at least close to the front so i can see #i’m so excited tho #i have so many bracelets too!!!!!!! #i hope ppl are into the exchange thing and that vancouver FOR ONCE is a good crowd lmao #also so stoked to go camping almost immediately afterwards #need a mf break #and i haven’t been back to salt spring aka my favourite place on earth in too long #and last time i was there it was a weird trip bc of the ppl i went with #but i’m manifesting wholesome vibes since it’ll just be me and my parents and maybe some of their friends #lowkey kinda scared to potentially get a new diagnosis on friday 😬 #but we’ll see how it goes #if i do then it’ll at least mean better meds hopefully #but dang dude it’s just like #one thing after another after another after another #trying to roll w it tho bc much of this year was spent rotting in bed w nothing happening lmao #i just wish some of the things were less chaotic and fucked up lol? #anyway #we’ll be alright 🫶 #i’m gonna see louis then my favourite sunrises then be gay for my city’s pride day #hell fucking yeah dude let’s go!!!!!!! #rowyn rambles

[spicybunni]

YANDERE HUSBAND HEADCANONS

Hello Darlings! This is an imagine I had in my drafts about a husband who just loves his wife so much he wants to care for and impregnate her💕 Hope you like it!

WARNINGS ⚠️: NSFW!! (Minors do NOT interact), NSFW descriptions, fem!darling, controlling husband, pregnancy mentions

-You’ve been Married to your husband for a year now and it’s been great. The biggest change was your last name changing to his and having a big rock on your finger. The second was him asking you to be a stay-at-home wife…

-You loved your job but…how could you say no to all your needs being met by a man who worships and adores you? He just wants to take care of you and be comfortable. “Is that so bad of me to want for my little wifey?” He would ask while kissing the knuckle of your hand.

-He told you if you didn’t like the lifestyle that you could go back to working. (As if he was gonna let that happen.) which made you feel better about just being at home all day and spending his money. And also letting you believe you had some control. But of course that wasn’t the end of his plans..

-Before having unprotected sex your husband would always gush about having babies with you and how great of a mother you would be. Your face would turn red at the thought at first but then you brushed it off as your husband having baby fever. It’ll pass right?

-Ha. If only it was a phase.

-This man has been wanting to impregnate you since the first year of you two dating. He loves you so much and think life would be even more amazing if you carried and raised children together. He wants to see your big belly and be there for when you get needy and become oh so helpless with the excessive hormones.

-But despite not using protection you always tracked your period for your health. Your husband started to get into it as well to lookout for your ovulation week. His favorite time of the month.

-He would low key get a little bummed out when you would start your period. But it gave him motivation to try harder…go harder… cum inside you harder…

-Perhaps he could just do that position you liked a few days ago….you were really squeezing him and begging for more.

-Yeah by the way, this man keeps track of what positions are best for making a baby and what makes you cum hard on his cock.

-You are no dummy to his antics. It takes two to tango. You knew your husband wanted a baby and…let’s just say he was very convincing in his actions to want a family.. 👀

-Plus you were married so there really wasn’t anything to be worried about right?

-So why do you shake with anxiety as you look at the test in your hands? The reality of it hits you hard in your bathroom. You feel good but also nervous to tell him. Even though he always claims he’s wanted kids with you just couldn’t help but prepare for the worst. But you also knew this would happen eventually when you let him cum inside you.

-A week prior when you two went out for dinner, your husband was the most possessive man ever. He hated when other men would even get to look at you. His grip was tighter and gaze so dark. On the way home he was holding onto your thigh as if you would fly away.

-That night you had 3 hours of raw heaven. By the end of it you remember being sticky and a bit sex drunk. Not being able to move your legs to your butt feeling sore. Your husband did not waver. You felt so full of him and content you couldn’t even complain.

-“My perfect wife, taking her husband’s load so good…”

-A week and a missed period later your husband in question is downstairs cooking dinner for you both. He figured since youre in the shower (and taking a pregnancy test) that he would surprise you!

-You come down in a bathrobe, hand griping on the tie. “Hey honey?”

-He turns his head to you, immediately becoming worried at your facial expression and appearance. Turning off the stove burners he comes over to you. “What’s up baby? you okay?” He puts a hand on your waist and another resting on your cheek to look at him.

-“I-I’m pregnant..” you stutter out. You back up from him to get his full expression. His face would be surprised but then he would become red in happiness and embrace you. You blinked a few times not saying anything before your husband exclaims with watery eyes “I’m so happy!!”

-You both embraced the news and continued into the night gushing about this new chapter you started. For your husband it was more of a marker that you’re finally all his. And he can’t wait for the little rascals he’ll continue to fill you with.

-That night after dinner you both lay in bed with your husbands hand holding your stomach protectively. You place a hand over his, smiling and drifting to sleep before you heard your husband mumble “Now you’re all mine..” in his sleep…

❤️

#yandere imagines #yandere x reader #yandere husband #yandere headcanons #tw yandere #yandere #fem reader