#I gonna need a moment to process this

[dostarve]

So I just watched Season 3 Episode 19 of The Clone Wars (For the first time, btw) and since I have already seen a bunch of spoilers I knew he would “die” but I didn’t think it was gonna be this soon?????!! I thought it was gonna happen in season 4 or 5 so I was just kinda shocked lol

Honestly though poor Fives.

#I gonna need a moment to process this #POOR FIVES. #The fact that he doesn't live long enough to figure out that Echo lives is painful to me #I know that Echo was taken by some people and turned into a robot but i’m not sure by who #And I know he was rescued by Rex #I have watched Bad Batch and Rebels just not this lol #Star wars #the clone wars #star wars clone wars #swtcw #tcw #sw #dostarve speaks #Sw Echo #tbb echo #star wars talk

[big-moon-little-moon]

we could've had it all

#*rolling in the deep starts playing in the background* #orym. don't be brave. stay safe. #flashbacks to fearne saying 'but I don't know if I want to be without orym' in episode 5 #they are gonna be fiiiineeee #c3e89 #bells hells #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #cr campaign 3 #orym of the air ashari #fearne calloway #i WILL probably talk about imogen and laudna's talk after i process but im gonna need a moment #or a day or two #some heavy hits there lol

[gayofthefae]

Wait you guys......

Mike and Will are in love

No because like they're just...they're just a wholesome childhood friends to lovers slowburn I'm gonna rewatch like "aww you don't know yet".

Like....

Mike and Will are in love.

They fell in love from ages 12-16(?). That's so cute. What the hell. I just randomly starting thinking about it like it's just some show I just heard about or something and I'm like "aw cute trope". What a cute trope wtf. That's adorable. Two twelve year old boys in the 80s and they fall in love over the course of many years as they grapple with internalized homophobia and homophobia in their small town? That sounds like a GREAT show where can I watch it? That's adorable.

Mike and Will are in love. And...that's just the premise. That's just the premise of their plot. If you came up to me after you watched episode 1 for spoilers and you were like "What happens to Lucas? Dustin? Mike? That girl they found? The kid who went missing?" I could just be like "Dustin gains confidence and becomes besties with Mike's sister's boyfriend after they break up, Lucas meets this girl who's introduced next season and they're really good for each other, the girl gets adopted by the police chief and then into the Byers and has a great found family and independence arc, and the boy who went missing survives and he and Mike fall in love!"

And that'd just be like...right. I'd just be telling you what happens.

#byler #byler endgame #stranger things #i'm processing in the simplest way of like #the knowledge that #not in a bad way but #once it's canon it won't be as big a deal #nothing to prove i'll just be like 'omg that's my favorite show bc it was such a wholesome romance. they fell in love from 12-16?? cmon ado #able!' and not need to elaborate #sometimes i think about it not even as an immediate reaction canon but like #when there isn't memory of it being this huge pop culture moment and you just pass by it on netflix #or when you've heard about it because it was on your youtube homepage one day #and you were like aw that sounds like a really sweet premise #i feel like i'm observing myself right now #like it's so surreal i'm just like #that'd just be true #that'll just be true #i am genuinely post-season 5 gonna find as many people as i can who haven't seen it and make them watch it #and keep me posted on their reactions #it'll be my main source of entertainment #motivation to make new friends also #i work a gig job so i'll keep getting great turnover too

[anyshapebutsquare]

I had like an almost close friend breakup tonight. I’ve never really had dramatic friendships, except for this one. And it’s often her being mad at me for something kevin said/did, which I don’t think is fair. I haven’t reached out to her in a few months on purpose and then tonight she called me asking if we were friends in like a jokey way and I just didn’t lay down this time and kinda held my ground which she did not like. I am very non-confrontational so usually I just forgive and forget. Since I didn’t do that this time, she started victimizing herself. After some words there was a long pause because I wouldn’t back down and I was just like can we talk about this later, I worked today and can’t really think right now. And she was like yeah, I wasn’t planning on having this conversation. Yeah because you thought I would never hold you accountable!

#vague post #I don’t even have that many friends! #especially not in PA #but I don’t need this drama #it sucks bc we have a lot of mutual friends so we’re def gonna be around each other #I think in a few days I’ll text her my final thoughts bc I’m not good at talking in the moment my brain is too slow processing and analyzing

[bumblingbabooshka]

This is literally one of my favorite moments for both Harry Kim and B’Elanna characterization. I think a lot of people forget how soft hearted and altruistic B’Elanna specifically can be while Harry, of course a friendly and sweet individual, devotes himself most often to the mission, his friends and Starfleet’s ideals. Harry’s been shown to be much more down-to-earth and less fantastical in his thinking than either Tom or B’Elanna. The only time he gets in major trouble with Janeway and breaks protocol is because he wants to be with a woman. This is distinctly different to me than Tom’s (attempting to save an alien world) and B’Elanna’s (giving a robot race the ability to reproduce) transgressions. His other biggest infraction is begin a mutiny which he does in order to save Janeway & Chakotay. He doesn’t get in trouble for this which is why I put it last but again it seems different from Tom or B’Elanna to me because it’s For The Ship it’s For The Captain it’s a crime which displays his loyalty to Janeway instead of one which demonstrates him going against her ideologically (as shown by the lack of punishment). In that way I think B’Elanna and Harry balance each other well. B’Elanna is a person who seems very nervous and defensive when in conversation with others, who thinks of herself as a person who is ‘bad’ and doesn’t believe in herself much. Meanwhile Harry seems to be at ease with most anyone he speaks to, attempting to befriend even Seven of Nine right away. He’s confident in himself and his abilities and out of everyone (yes even Tom who seems most often to just become frustrated) would be the one to push B’Elanna and break through her defenses. That’s to say it makes perfect sense that B’Elanna would be absolutely enamored by this person who views her as inspiring, would be struck by that while Harry views it as just a weird question. 

#I do n't know if I'm being coherent enough...but I really like this scene!!! #and I really like both B'Elanna and Harry Kim!! #st voyager #You might say 'It's just bc B'Elanna's been with these people' #BUT I REALLY think that Harry wouldn't have gone through with the whole 'participating in a play exit'...I think if it was Harry the episode #would have been one of those that ended with him looking sadly out a window like 'It's damn hard to follow protocol sometimes...' but he'd #see no other option #I REALLY hope I'm being uhh understandable HEHEH #whenever I ramble like this I'm like 'Bea you're not making any sense' #also thispost is dedicated to the folks who yell at me (affectionate) about putting the majority of my post in the tags HEHHEHE #I finally di d it...I put the whole post up there... #I was really going to just put 'This is one of my favorite characterization moments' up there and put the rest of that in the tags #but then I was like no...they need the whole thought process #labeling Harry Kim as just 'sweet boi uwu' and B'Elanna as 'fiesty angry lady' is a real disservice to their characters #and might be rooted in some OTHER things #like CERTAIN preconceptions #I think Harry's biggest established fears are not being particular special and being underestimated or babied #But none of those fears seem to drive his behavior the way B'Elanna's do #....God I hope this information is correct I always put this shit in the tags bc I'm afraid someone's gonna reblog this like #'Bea none of this happened what are you talking about' and I'll look it up and I'll be like what WAS I talking about #B'Elanna Torres #Harry Kim #Harry's fears also demonstrate that he thinks of himself as 'good' and more worries others won't be able to see it or he won't stand out #enough for it to matter - again much more confident than B'Elanna

[taardisblue]

i cannot BELIEVE how hard they body-swap baited us im going to SCREAM

#I REALLY THOUGHT #but no. it was just the master having a depressive episode and playing the recorder while wearing his ex's clothes i guess #yeah that's uh. ok. ok. ok. #gonna be needing a moment to like. process any of this. like ANY of it #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #dw #dw spoilers #THE RASPUTIN THING IM JUST

[thissmycomingofage]

I've become so disillusioned by a certain someone that now I can't see any nice thing she does as anything but pr and well crafted com. It's a horrible feeling to experience after years of only seeing positivity and genuineness in everything she did.

#i don't like how my immediate thought process ressembles the thought process of an anti #but I just learned that she gave vip pass to ts content creators for melbourne n3 #and my first reaction was : oh good way for her to make sure they'll forever defend her (not that she needed to do that for that) #the new secret sessions ig #and it's horrible because this thought process only hurts me #I'm not gonna say that to anyone #good for those girls they had a great night #but i already barely tolerated them with the way they smoothly stopped mentioning matty the moment his history was digged #how they fawn over travis #and the final nail in the coffin being the way they talk about ttpd and just spread typical twitter swifties stupidity #and to see them being encouraged by taylor just confirms the type of fans she wants : white apolitical beautiful young girl #like her #i rant in the void just let me empty my poor draft and ignore that #swifties #artist: taylor swift #olife #text #oli schist!

[neraiutsuze]

boy i love it when a battle comes together in a narratively perfect way

sixth or seventh try at the cazador battle. for once instead of opening with a call lightning, he decides to open with a blight and insta-kill my bard, who normally starts by dimension-dooring to free astarion. this means that things get perilously close to popping off ascension-wise before jaheira and shadowheart can get her back up and a Daylight off. this kind of sets the tone for the battle, which goes Badly for almost the whole time. it hits the point where both my bard and shadowheart are just spamming Mass Cure Wounds and Mass Healing Word to keep people on their feet.

however. eventually astarion gets in perfect postion to break out the scroll of disintegrate right at cazador. who fails the save. and finally takes a proper hit to his ridiculous HP pool. he then pitches a fit and runs right at astarion to try and fuck him up, but the healing from the ladies keeps him on his feet - and then cazador was in perfect 'astarion has a scroll of Sunbeam' range. he did also hit ryse with it because i didn't realise she was in range. it's fine. she gets it. she's cast fireball on herself to get enemies before now. that put him on his last legs.

and then astarion'd taken a potion of speed before, so he had another attack - and he was wearing the risky ring, so he had sneak attack from the advantage.

get fucked, cazador.

#the power of friendship gives you loot and backup that lets you fuck up your abuser #baldur's gate 3 #miri plays baldur's gate 3 #anyway i cried i love my best friend who wins the Not As Evil As You Could Have Been award #i fully understand why you cannot hug him at this moment i feel like he would not want it he needs to process but #god damn he's gonna get hugs the moment he feels a bit more stable #EVEN IF THE GAME DOESN'T SHOW ME THEM. HE DEFINITELY GETS THEM. #also it helped that jaheira's summoned elemental was able to stand on one of the ritual circles and hold the line there #and shadowheart - when she was up - was able to do the same on another #and astarion had a third #so POWER OF FRIENDSHIP (DRAINING YOUR ABUSER OF POWER)

[v-anrouge]

i am not beating the bpd allegations

#I am still gonna be on break #i talked to my friend who has bpd and like urfh its hard to process i may have it #my mom and brother have it so it shouldn't be a surprise but it is and it's really fucking me up #i idk im still hoping this is like just a moment thing maybe it's hormones or whatever #maybe it's just college stress??? #idfk #I am tired #Im sorry for everyone ive mistreated i need to be put down desperately

[thatoneluckybee]

well. finished the whole trilogy in ten days. that was definitely Something

#I'd say I need a moment to process #But I don't think I'm ever gonna fully process that rollercoaster #Bee reads AFTG #now to hunt down pirated tsc likely or figure out an excuse to get it

[prolibytherium]

Dialogue writing is the only thing that comes naturally to me, which kinda sucks but when I get stuck on plot points I write the characters talking about the current situation as an 'exercise' I guess and a lot of the time it's like they figure it out for me

#Which sort of makes sense because if you're doing character driven storytelling and have well developed characters driving the conflict #and plot and etc it's kind of just a way to reframe the process #Like instead of reasoning it out in your head it's sort of externalizing it? Running a scenario? #Anyway my monk road trip novel draft is still making its way into existence. Still not gonna drop it though I'm shy #I'll need to do a better job of actually establishing the characters on here. Like actually posting drawings of them more than occasionally #And also it has a lot of this 'characters discussing their situation' shit scattered in the text without being edited down/out #And stuff I put in exclusively as a joke with myself #And random asides and things I'm thinking about at the moment. #And it's scattered across like 20 poorly organized google docs mingled with other things #It's kind of a mess

[mookybear12404]

I thought. I thought that was the worst of his backstory. I thought the mini episode was bad. I didn't know what was coming

#just finished episode 40 #feeling #sick #actually sick #gonna lie down a moment I need to process what I just listened to #wolf 359

[aceofwonders]

rhydian finally getting to have a proper vigil for his father 🥺😭

#finally had a moment to breath during all the chaos of the blight #had time alone and let himself fully process everything #had an emotional internal vent to his dad #about how he's fucked up but is going to try to be better from now on #he's gonna make his father proud gdi #even though the time skip had multiple huge scary battles #it was such a calming time he desperately needed #between getting a little closure and getting news about his mom he's in such better place i am excited to see him go from here! #ch: rhydian #nancy's d&d adventure #campaign: the vigilant

[allylikethecat]

Maybe that end of the NA SATVB sickfic will be coming sooner than I planned- I feel like I am currently doing a lot of first hand research 💀🤧

#allylikethecat #ally's thoughts #ally’s creative process or lack there of #i dont have covid according to my doctor #i keep testing negative and apparently don’t have the right symptoms #but alas i am ill #and apparently am ‘run down’ #and need to ‘relax and sleep more’ #and stop ‘constantly being on the go’ #and i am feeling extremely pathetic and sorry for myself at the moment #which is probably because its night time and you always feel worse at night #and i am oversharing about it on the internet lol #but also like wow if fictional!matty even feels half as awful as i currently feel #its gonna be the angstiest hurt/comfort sick fic lol #maybe this is my cosmic punishment for making poor fictional!matty ill all the time #idk my doctor and all my healthcare friends say its because i sleep like four hours a night #and never stop moving lol #apparently a full time job a social life and working out multiple times a day #is not actually healthy #oh also apparently i’m supposed to eat breakfast too #like excuse me who has time for that #that’s what COFFEE is for #apparently im also not supposed to have this much coffee either #idk man i am currently physically falling apart #and i am choosing to use it as inspiration #i was supposed to go out of town again the week after next #and i cancelled that trip 💀 #i was a lil worried my body would actually shut down if i tried to do another thing #matty fic #gatty

[bookwyrminspiration]

bro we r only 140 pages in and you’ve known each other for 2 hours I need. I need everyone to SLOW TF DOWN

#the first to die at the end #tftdate #EVERYBODY CALM DOWN #JUST HOLD ON A MOMENT #shit got SO REAL #SO fast #i need a MOMENT #can we PAUSE FOR ONE FUCKKNG SECOND #the pause is me typing this post that’s my break to process #anyway #i am now reading 3 books at once because timing :/ #BUT #my GOD #this book. is gonna hurt :)

[daz4i]

tarot reading fucked me up.. (it was positive and told me things i mostly know and think about these days but i don't know how to handle positivity)

#''hey man you are on the right track 👍 you're doing okay. maybe take a short rest but like you're good. ik it's hard but keep going'' #me: i have never felt more threatened in my life #(i think it's in part bc i'm very scared abt the direction i'm going so i'm almost seeking validation that it's wrong so i can go back) #(it's not a bad direction. just a lot of new stuff. stuff I've never done. or have done but in the far past and the setting chaged since) #(and like i'm not used to doing anything at all. i don't really want to either. i'm scared of when i'm gonna crash bc ik i will) #(but on paper i'm doing good... doing important stuff that i need to. ''improving'' my ''mental health'' and all.) #(it's just very hard during the bad moments. bc i remember i have no actual reason to do this beyond ''why not'') #(contrary to popular belief. ''why not'' is not a good motivator. not in the long run at least) #(......also what if i do become better but become a whole new person in the process and i don't like that person. and it won't be me) #anyway it's a good thing i don't actually believe in tarot fr huh! ha... ha... haha......... #this accidentally turned into a #vent #my bad 🫡 sorry