#I feel euphoric

[lemonycranberries]

you know... I was still being able to hold myself together. kind of. but not after this scene. oh no. that guy made this speech and the leaves started appearing as Isaac smiled and oh my god. and then crush culture started playing on the soundtrack. and then I started singing along. and when I realized I was crying. and laughing. and I had to go back a few minutes and rewatch this beautiful scene. the second time around I didn't even try. I actually just cried, laughed hysterically, put my hands on my face and cried some more as I screamed along to Crush Culture. I realized I was literally shaking. the feeling of being seen this much on a screen... it's something I had actually never experienced before. this means much more than just a scene on a TV show. this feels like the beginning of something. this feels like actual representation. the things I just felt right now are simply indiscribable.

#who knew screaming “CRUSH CULTURE MAKES ME WANT TO SPILL MY GUTS OUT” while watching a TV show could heal me internally so much. #won't even be able to talk to my allo friends about it... they have literally no idea what this means to me #now my face is kinda burning because I cried too much #who cares #not me #I feel euphoric #ofc this isn't the first time we see an aroace on television EVER #and Koisenu Futari will never ever stop being one of my favorite shows #but still #while watching this I felt. things. #because the meaning of this is so much bigger than simply aroace teens being able to see themselves on a TV show #which is already VERY important #it means being acknowledged in many different ways #it means a path for aspec rep is being carved #it means those feelings which have isolated me so much during my life can now be shared #it means everything. #heartstopper tv show #heartstopper s2 #isaac henderson #aro rep #ace rep #aroace rep #aspec rep #aromantic #aro #asexual #ace #heartstopper #v rambles #my posts

[winterf4iryy]

THIS SHOW IS SO FUCKING GOOD WTF DO I DO IM ONLY ON THE FIRST EPISODE BUT THIS IS LITERALLY MY EVERYTHING I LOVE IT SO MUCH ITS PERFECT EVERY CHARACTER IS AMAZING I CANT BELIEVE IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO WATCH THIS WHAT THE HELL THIS IS MY SHOWWWWWW

#LIKE HOLY SHIT #DO PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT THIS SHOW #PLS TELL ME IT HAS 5 STARS #imagine i say all this and it gets worse #I DOUBT IT THOUGH #anywyas #im so overwhelmed #i feel euphoric #a league of their own #also my apologies for not responding to messages or replies bc i was doing visa stuff <3 #it’s so stressful holy christ #anyways im very happy rn #˚｡ ⋆୨୧˚ dear diary… 💌

[toomanylegos]

Do you ever absolutely agonize over the look of a character for months or even years and then, when you finally think of the way you want them to look, you absolutely explode with utter euphoria and creativity? Cause I just experienced that this morning thanks to a Marshall's chasier and I am close to tears of absolute joy

#i feel euphoric #absolutely losing it #my self-esteem has never been higher bro #oc creation #writing characters #thank you gorgeous Marshall's cashier

[stuckinapril]

I will entrench myself in literature this year no matter what the fuck it takes

#forgot how euphoric it felt to just be seen by a piece of writing #I’m excusing myself for last year bc I was having the busiest semester of my life & then traveled shortly after #so I didn’t make reading a priority #but no more. i have to consume more this year. it makes me feel so good whenever I’m down in the dumps #it’ll be hard in tandem w all the other shit I’m juggling but I’ll make it work #I’ll make it a priority for my mental health lol #just like I have to pop my vitamin pills every day I have to READ MORE to STAY SANE #teen me consumed so many books & i wanna go back to that. full on literature girl for 2024 #p

[praisekink-nb]

I just want to be high and have someone touching me everywhere

running their hands over my chest, drawing circles with their fingertips around my nipples, their mouth on my neck, nails running along my thighs, hot breath in my ear, pulling slightly at my hair, fingers slipping to see how wet I am while my brain goes fuzzy from how tingly everything feels...

fuck

#Everything feels so tingly and euphoric when I'm high and I desperately need someone to take advantage of that #intoxication kink #intox kink #mb t4t #transmasc nsft #t4t #touching #bi t4t #bisexual t4t

[cupiidzbow]

i love you gender non conforming self shippers i love you masc girls and fem guys i love you gender weird people i love you neopronouns users i love you trans people who don’t want surgery i love you trans people who get a little silly with it!!!!!!! we are really awesome and cool being transgender is the best and I love our silly little self inserts we are so real and awesome

#self ship #txt #feeling really euphoric rn i love my body i love being trans

[pariaritzia]

Ranveer Singh and Tota Roy Choudhury performing kathak, an Indian classical dance form typically performed by women, in ROCKY AUR RANI KII PREM KAHAANI (2023)

#bollywood #rocky aur rani kii prem kahaani #ranveer singh #tota roy choudhury #adventures in gifmaking #gonna have to add another installment to my queerness in indian media series #tho I won't be returning to that for a while bc as I said before....it's kind of exhausting lol #but anyway seeing this in the theatre. transcendent. delightful. euphoric. breathtaking. marvelous. #audience cheering and clapping and so happy #and the fact it's ranveer singh....and karan johar directing....feels good #saw in a film companion interview that this was inspired from karan johar's own life bc he said he was 'effeminate' and- #-danced to the women's parts of bollywood songs as a child #glad he got to display this on the big screen in a big budget mainstream hindi movie! and it is positive! and the audience took it well! #long post

[thefishdeath]

Never feel more masc then the times I try to look fem

#Crossdressing as a woman is truly the epitome of being a man #I HAVE to be the most confusing person at the grocery store #Voice of boy? but makeup like girl? but boy mannerisms? Girl hair? Boob? lesbianism? Man? Woman? Man? They? It? Maybe #You'll never fucking know. I hope it keeps you up at night #Committing gender fuckary? In my city?. it's more likely than you would think #It's very obvious how boy I am when I try to girl #I love being a weird little guy #I'm that boy thing wearing a dress what's not clicking here #Transmascs im telling you WEAR THAT MAKEUP!!!!! #PUT ON THAT DRESS!!! #only if you want to ofc but there is nothing more euphoric then dressing like a woman and still feeling like a man #but that's the process. A couple years ago wearing nail polish made me sick to my stomach. AND IM AGENDER!!!! #totally just like rambled in the tags mb #transgender #trans masc #transmasc #agender ism #genderqueer #nonbinary #trans man #trans joy #just fishdeath-ing #genderfluid #genderfuck #multigender #xenogender #genderflux #abinary #transneutral #don't know why I'm tagging this so hard but i learned like three new terms so that pretty cool

[aggressionbread]

hey that little voice in your head telling you to cut your own hair is absolutely right btw.

#euphoric rn #knew it was bothering me for a while but didnt know how much until now oh my god i feel so free

[ssaseaprince]

Just ONCE I want to see Will and Hannibal go absolutely feral and fight each other. Think Red Dragon but slightly less lethal. I want to see them biting and clawing, giving each other dislocated joints and broken bones and cuts and bruises, leaving bleeding bite marks and scratches on each other. Is that too much to ask?

#Why do I feel like it would genuinely be good for their relationship #Like getting all their aggression out on each other and just letting the pain and anger thrive for a minute #I bet it would feel euphoric in the end #idk #dont listen to me i have no idea what im talking about #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannibal lecter #will graham #hannibal nbc #hannigram #hannibal and will #hannibal crack #they would definitely fuck at the end but thats not the point of the post

[uncanny-tranny]

I think sometimes, people can be intimidated by the idea that as they transition, they will stop feeling euphoria or happy in their gender, and I think that's assuming incorrectly many times. It isn't that you completely stop feeling those feelings, but they might change and grow and even grow in intensity as you start transitioning the way you want to.

I've been transitioning for years, and I find that when I am lifting, when I am helping people, when I am creating, I feel so much more euphoric because now, I feel more free to truly hone these skills and crafts.

I think for some, they've internalized the idea that if they are not completely and utterly happy all the time, ecstatic to the nth degree, that says something about the viability of their transition or even their transness. The impulse to cover up your feelings, to be fearful all the time of your own self will only alienate you further from yourself. It's okay to not be sure, but I worry sometimes if that is inhibiting people from what they want.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #i think i've talked about this before but still #i feel just as euphoric but it's... aged like a wine almost #it's matured with me and has evolved and it's made me feel much more intune with myself if that makes sense #i think the impulse can be mistaking change for non-existence almost #so thinking that if your feelings change that means they either never existed or that you're somehow wrong

[sudokuplayer]

#my godddd 😮‍💨❤���‍🩹 #life is so beautiful you guysss #bless Sufjan's fucking precious mind😮‍💨🩷!! #everything written‚ produced and recorded by him + all the artwork and essays also by him!! he's everything!! ❤️‍🩹 #the entire album sounds both familiar and new (like Goodbye Evergreen is literally how The Age of Adz goes from Futile Devices to Too Much! #sounds very atmospheric and melancholic and bittersweet but also dreamy and euphoric. and very gentle #and there's a sense of urgency and helplessness but the album ends in a very hopeful note which is so beautiful!! #lyrically is so impressive and breathtaking. man the way he feels everything so deeply 🫨❤️‍🩹 #stunning compositions + so much heartbreak and existential despair and unsettling imagery and self-sacrifice #and distress and personal atonement and resignation and so much HOPE and LIFE and LIGHT #and also religious devotion (shocker i know lol) #and the Neil Young cover (shoot me!) is better than the original lol it's just so sweet and hopeful 💐 #i really loved it so much!! #sufjan stevens #javelin

[kazanskys-mitchell]

listening to danger zone dressed as mav in my car with a top gun license plate was just the perfect halloween

#making top gun my entire personality is what i do best #dressing as him makes me feel very euphoric #i love it here #pete maverick mitchell #top gun halloween

[deny3verything]

my ultimate superpower is that getting called slurs makes me feel like this

someone calling me transgender/bisexual? sure whatever. factually correct. good job. someone calling me a fairy? a pansy? a faggot? stoppppp you’re gonna make me blushhh

#like it somehow makes me euphoric. it feels like a compliment #it’s affirming in a way i can’t explain #transgender #lgbt #bisexual

[melit0n]

I need to shout about Distraction for a minute, so bear with me.

First off, ouch. Big fucking ouch. That thing has been licking the wound it helped create ever since it came out.

Second of all, the repetition of "it's too late for me" always being the background noise to an otherwise quite quiet song, other than the breakdown, is absolutely diabolical. The breakdown feels like a panic attack. A complete and utter mental breakdown finished with a scream-sob of something that has permeated the whole song; it's too late for me. It's always been too late, even with the help of Her, She who is not like any other and is far more than one could ask for, it's too late.

It's always been too late. She found him in the cold waters, on the verge of drowning in self hatred and tried to pull him up, but he didn't want to get Her hand damp. He is not worthy of it all and he screams for the final time for Her to let go because it's too late.

And then everything stops. We are back to the beginning; the quiet, repeatative beat of an anxious heart.

What makes it worse? Distraction is a loop. Starts on the same chord and ends on the exact same one with the same beat. She comes back again and again but it's still too late.

Distraction is a loop of self hatred laced with the inner turmoil of a Thing that doesn't believe it can ever get better because it fears the help of others. It believes it's not worthy of touch, and so rots in falling further again as it warps into something it never wanted to be; broken into fractions and driven to distraction.

#this one hurts me #I say a lot of their songs hurts me but this one cuts deep to a personal level #I've spoken about this maybe once or twice before but I suffer from chronic insomnia #so I've spent years trying to fix myself and being afraid of the help of others because I physically cannot be myself anymore #I'm riddled with self hatred tiredness and wounds that at this point I myself am stopping from healing #I've always belived it's too late for me- that I'm past the point of no return- and that I'll eventually die from this #so it was quite euphoric to hear someone scream the exact feelings I've been experiencing for my whole life #apologies for the vent #sleep token #st #distraction #distraction sleep token #this place will become your tomb #tpwbyt #mel's rambles

[ilikebobcuts642]

Fuck it bro, Trans Bruno

I hc that he has an extremely androgynous voice that helped him transition (without needing t or surgery) in the long run

(I’m a trans man btw so please don’t turn this into something weird. This post is basically self-therapy to me, nothing else.)

#shitty on purpose #drawing this made me feel incredibly euphoric so I don’t regret it one bit #hope I won’t regret posting it too #jjba #jojo vento aureo #bruno bucciarati #bruno buccellati #bruno jojo #my art #transgender #trans #transandro #transandrogynous