#I can’t explain what he means to me :’)

[itsnotgray]

putting this out there now that if/when a tribute game happens, i will be going mia.

not because i’m flying to spain or anyhting drastic like that- but because i’ll be in the corner sobbing for 7-9 business days

#i can’t explain what he means to me #lionel messi #gray talks

[rdr2gifs]

Serotonin boost <3

#the bestest boy ♥️ #arthur morgan #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #this was my worst game yet 😆 #I can’t explain what he means to me :’) #rdr2 videos

[watchyourbuck]

It's just to me disappointing bc I feel you're not a real buddie fan and I've followed u since forever. How can u genuinely ship them if you ship another pairing too

oh my GOD. okay, this is the last time im gonna indulge in this fit that you keep throwing in my ask box bc i feel like ive said it all already, but alas, here i go.

why is it that you cannot conceive people liking more than one pair? this is a fictional world, with fictional characters that we all partake in freely. what the fuck would even a "real buddie fan" be like? ASDHAJ have you ever liked two things at the same time or have you limited yourself to one thing your entire life?

man (gn) this is a SHOW. you are talking to a REAL HUMAN BEING here. you keep insulting me. how do you think thats gonna fly? lmao

anyway, i know which answer you want. yes, anon, i ship buddie above bucktommy. i think buddie is endgame. i think maybe itll go canon. NO, im not gonna stop enjoying bucktommy bc of that. theyre fun, and theyve kissed, and bucks exploring his sexuality and right now he seems happy. do i hope that happiness eventually lies with Eddie? yes. does that mean im gonna boo tommy? no. i never booed lucy or ana either, i just didnt think they were endgame.

also, if following me is giving you tummy troubles maybe u should curate ur online experience bubs

#fr tho whats ur issue with me dfghj #why is bi Buck so tied to a ship bro he’s a person #so just bc I want Buck and Eddie to end up together that means I can’t enjoy bucktommy? #I think they’re cute #and fun to see and write #whatever why am I explaining myself to you???? #911 fox #911 #911 tv show #buddie #evan buckley #911 abc #evan buck buckley #eddie diaz #buck x eddie #buck and eddie #911 spoilers #911 season seven #911 on abc #911 season 7 #911 show #911 s7 #bucktommy #tommy x buck #buck x tommy #tommy kinard

[spilledbeans116]

The idea of Yamza is so absolutely HILARIOUS to me on so many levels and I LOVE IT but the main one is that Yamcha, in his silly goofy mind, was like “oh you took my girlfriend? Guess what! I’m taking your BOSS.”

I can’t even imagine what happened when Vegeta found out in these headcanons but I can just TELL it’s funny

#beanbag talkie time #yamza #yamcha #Frieza #Vegeta #DBZ #dragon ball z #obviously Frieza was more of a dictator than a boss #but you guys know what I mean #I keep giggling over it I need to get to bed #but seriously the ship is sweet to me I can’t explain it #good for Yamcha tbh #in my mind I think Vegeta straight up passed out #I don’t think he could handle it

[beetlevsboy]

I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #the cat king #i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their #Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me #Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under #Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy #even if he doesn’t return those feelings #The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite #Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin #Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand #He’s a older secretly insecure character #Edwin is the younger #genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants #It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting #Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel. #And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need #you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people #I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of #The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by #Healing those traumas #Something the cat king learns and accepts #Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because #Yes; Edwin is 86 #but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while #The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami #Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man

[rotzaprachim]

*breathes in and out through mouth* everyone is scared and grieving and still waiting for news of their families everyone is scared and grieving everyone is scared and grieving*

#Jewish communal leader hurt me very and I mean VE TU deeply today #I mean very #I think in what was to her mind a not passive aggressive way she felt the need to explain the Israeli Side and Israeli history #But like the nail in the coffin was implying that I don’t feel as deeply for the people in Israel #I don’t understand the depth of suffering of the people in Israel #Because I was bothered on Saturday zoom Torah by how Netanyahu has used this for more war crimes #That the fact that I care about Gazans means I don’t feel enough grief or a normal Jewish grief as she sees it for Jews #To me this is jsut unconscionably cruel #Also that the majority of Jews don’t support a ceasefire or at least local Jews #Well if that’s true I want no part of it. Not now or ever again #I can’t believe she felt the need to like. Explain the news cycle to me #I didn’t get this off a tiktok ma’am #I read yo@v g@llant in fucking haaretz. I heard what he said #*no one in Israel is calling for mass death* clearly they are #Anyway she told it was whataboutism to care about the reprisals on a civillians population from what Hamas did #And to feel better being part of a community or doing soemthing active. Maybe read this book on feminism I’ve already read #I’m just so hurt by it all! #Telling another Jew they don’t feel or care enough for ‘am yisrael is the deepest cut there is

[simcardiac-arrested]

#i wouldnt usually care about stuff like this. but every month or so i get two or three asks like this and i just got one earlier today #and look. i’m not saying u can’t hate ns or dislike them. feel free to send me asks that are like ‘ns you are stupid and you suck and i hate #you’ he IS stupid and he DOES suck and he is quite hateable. that’s fine #it’s just when you start sending me wholeass paragraphs explaining every single detail you hate about ns and how they deserve a slow and #painful death that i think two things: 1. you are finite waves reincarnated 2. you are weird! and strange even! #what are you on about! ns absolutely does NOT deserve a slow and painful death! and you absolutely do Not have to be so hostile and #aggressive towards them as a character! like Please relax. we serve bullshit here sir #most anti-ns asks i get are funny and are light hearted because it’s just people messing with ns on purpose or mocking him and making him #mad because he easily gets mad and it’s funny. Like those asks are fine. it’s another deal entirely when you send me this detailed and— #honestly—really mean message. I guess i am not surprised considering how similar ns and pebbles are in terms of personality #(and circumstances somewhat) and we all know how the fandom treats pebbles. even worse than ns. but yeah anyway #they are not an irredeemable unforgivable monster and they do not deserve to die. Hope this helps #to me even calling them a Bad Person is kind of a stretch. let alone the shit some of you are saying about them #we have to get normal about mentally ill and traumatized and autistic characters gang! #crammerposting #i also do not appreciate when people insuniate that ns is stupid for overworking himself and damaging his structure and so on and so forth #yes it is his fault but that didn’t mean he deserved what he had coming to him or anything like that. be nice to him

[quietwingsinthesky]

Cage Torture: Michael Edition + Sam being devotedly in love with Lucifer when he’s pulled out thoughts.

Because what if Michael was the one who turned his anger at destiny being thrown away onto Sam? Sam slips out of Lucifer’s grasp or Michael takes him away by force, but either way, he’s at Michael’s mercy now. And now, Michael can see that Lucifer isn’t the problem. Lucifer might have protested, might have asked Michael for another way out of the Apocalypse, but in the end, he was willing to do what they were always bound to.

No. Sam is the problem. Because to Michael, vessels are tools. Instruments of an angel’s will. Their goals are the goals of the angel possessing them, but Sam made a choice that wasn’t Lucifer’s. (There’s lingering resentment about Dean here, obviously there is.) Or, to be clearer, he made a choice that wasn’t Lucifer. He chose Dean.

Michael’s looking at this mirror of his brother, Lucifer who was cast out for saying he would love God above all else, and Sam didn’t play his part right. Sam chose Dean. Sam chose humanity. He was supposed to choose Lucifer.

He doesn’t love Lucifer enough, clearly. So. Michael fixes that. He rips Sam up and puts him back together, takes away pieces he knows Sam won’t need to play this role, (lobotomizes him, you might say, lmao) and when he’s done, and what’s left of Sam is terrified and utterly devoted to Lucifer, that’s when Michael gives him back.

(There’s a fundamental disconnect here between them. Lucifer values choice in a way Michael doesn’t. During the Apocalypse, he didn’t really believe there was any other path except the one they were on, but it mattered to him that Sam would walk it beside Lucifer of his own free will. And Michael can’t see how that’s important to him. It doesn’t matter if Lucifer wants this from Sam or not, he doesn’t want it like this, because Michael has removed Sam’s agency from the equation.)

#so sam loves Lucifer. he loves him. and it is terrible. #I mean Lucifer does want Sam to love him. whether as a deity above him or as an equal or. both. (he can’t see the contradiction there.) #but not like this #and when Sam gets freed he has to deal with the lingering effects of this #being torn away from Lucifer is agonizing #and even though Michael’s the one that did this. all of the pain *is* connected to Lucifer. the fear is connected to Lucifer. #so sam is again left with ‘Lucifer tortured me’ #and it’s not true but. that’s the only way he can explain what’s happening to him #maybe exacerbated by if like. Dean & him share hell trauma stories. and alistair gets thrown in there. #teacher and torturer. of course Dean felt devotion towards him. like a father. like a god. #and so sam connects the dots. alistair torture Dean -> Dean felt a connection to him #Sam loves Lucifer -> Lucifer tortured him #see what I’m getting at? #samifer #spn #sam winchester #lucifer spn #michael spn #cage thoughts

[moonlight-prose]

i can’t even begin to describe what blue beetle means to me. jaime reyes is just a guy going through it.

#i showed my dad the movie tonight #before everything went sideways #and i can’t even begin to explain what this movie means to me #from me going through the oh is it ‘jamie or jaime’ bit #to the love of family and the culture he comes from #to his relationship with his dad #i am gonna just rant about this for years #also my dad finally getting to see a mexican superhero who is a BADASS #i want to kiss the movie makers on the mouth for this one #witch aunt talks✨

[donnatroyyyy]

Batman has/had some kind of miscommunication going on with every single one of his kids. The bat family is just one big miscommunication trope after the other.

#him and Dick have miscommunication about how they see each other. Bruce sees Dick as a son and Dick sees Bruce as a father #but they didn’t think the other saw them that way so they never told each other. that’s what led to their fights in Dick’s later teenage #years and dick quitting and becoming nightwing. he thought Bruce only saw him as a ward/robin so he thought that as long as he couldn’t be #robin Bruce wouldn’t want him #and if didn’t help when Bruce stopped talking to him when he left. though to Bruce it was because he thought Dick didn’t want to talk to him #and also Dick really needs to tell Bruce like ‘hey you put me on a higher pedestal then you put even yourself which is saying something and #and I don’t like that cuz that’s too much pressure for me. and also since you did it everyone else does it and has done it since I was Robin #and it’s literally just a matter of time before I break from the pressure cuz I’m not fucking Superman and I can’t take it’ #and Jason with the whole UTRH thing. you know all Bruce had to say was that he had tried killing the joker over Jason multiple times and #maybe just explain to Jason WHY he doesn’t kill. a simple ‘you’re better than me because if I killed one person I’d kill everyone’ #or it could even just be a simple ‘I do love you Jason youre the kid that I felt most comfortable loving’ #and also maybe a ‘I don’t think anything changed after my death and that makes my death meaningless which I think goes against your no kill #rule because I hat is the rule of not a reminder taht death means something. and by that logic my death already went against the rule so why #can’t you do it again for the man that murdered me.’ and Bruce needs to make a presentation: ‘all the ways Jason’s death meant something’ #and Tim just needs a simple ‘I don’t see you as work I see you as family.’ maybe even a ‘you don’t have to be the grown up in this relati #anymore I’m sorry you were one to begin with. you should’ve always been the child’ #now his miscommunication with Damian goes much deeper but I’m one hundred percent sure if they sit down and air out all of their feelings it #would help a lot but I have a feeling that won’t happen #a ‘I have trouble understanding you because both your trauma and compassion run deeper than mine and I also never had to grow up to be a #weapon’ from Bruce and a ‘I don’t understand your optimism and moral stubbornness and easness why is it so easy to be good for u?’ #his miscommunication with Cass stems from two things a simple ‘why are you so afraid to show how deeply you love?’ from Cass maybe a #‘I’m jealous of you because you’re better than me not only in fighting but morally and emotionally’ from Bruce should fix it #and Steph— look I’m not even going to TRY to get into that that goes SO much deeer and wider than any one else’s miscommunication #but maybe a ‘you reminded me of Jason at a time where that wasn’t a good thing’ from Bruce should start things up #for Duke a ‘I can never truly understand what you’re going/have gone through and for that I’m sorry’ from Bruce should suffice #maybe also Bruce telling him that just because he sees Duke as a son doesn’t mean he’s trying any less to get Duke his parents back #oh and babs just needs to go up to him and say ‘I don’t like that what happened to me happened for your story and not mine and I don’t like #that you don’t let me make it into my story’ and then Bruce can follow up and say ‘I see so much of myself in you and it makes me worry and #also I can never look at you without feeling guilty cuz you’re right what happened to you happened for MY story so I’m at fault’ #then the two can go back to being too much like each other and sitting at their respective computers

[ryukatters]

there’s just something about yuuta man

#I can’t explain #he’s just a skrungly (and slightly offputting) guy #does that make me want him more or less idk #I just know I’d be both aroused and anxious if I were to be around him #kat’s thoughts #edit: skrunkly?? skrungy??? you know what i mean

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

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How to explain that going to church makes me hurt and angry, but not going to church makes me sad and depressed.

#I need to go to Mass. I need to get over the anxiety mental block and just go. #blue chatter #it’s just. I’ve only gone a couple times this semester and every time has left me feeling more empty and hurt than when I walked in #and I know Mass is more than just how you feel. and that it matters that I am there where God calls me to be #I know. #I wish nobody there knew me so they wouldn’t be so worried and ask questions about where I’ve been #it’s like. I cannot possibly explain to my church friends why I haven’t been showing up. #it’s not even scrupulosity anymore it’s just. I can’t be here. I don’t belong here. #and the new priest is trying *so hard*. I’ve been honest with him about how I’m struggling. #but it’s just. there’s something missing. he wants to include the congregation but fundamentally doesn’t understand what that means. #‘everyone is welcome. No I will not make an effort to include marginalized people. they’re welcome bc they can Walk In The Door.’ #and I know it’s not that the church has changed #if anything I’d be having the same issues with the old priest. I’m the one who’s changed. #but instead of spending my Sundays with God I’m just. melting into a puddle of Sad. and that’s not good for my faith life. #I need to do *something*. I just. any time I think of trying a new church i feel exhausted. #God please help me. #I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t want to be alone and miserable and losing touch with my faith

[mars-ipan]

i think part of why i love tsp is i love horror but hate threats

#no monsters in that game! the horror comes from your solitude #you are the only one in there! you are the map’s sole living occupant #when you see that rare glimpse of the employee walking through the window you don’t feel /fear.: #you feel /relief./ #relief that slowly dwindles as you realize you will never get to interact with this npc #you’re as alone as ever #and the game knows this!!! it knows it!!! #your sole company is the narrator- a disembodied voice. that’s it. nobody else #(yes i know the curator the timekeeper/settings person but you get my point) #and some of the most unsettling moments in the game are moments when the narrator is quiet #the playtester ending where you fall out of bounds and he can’t follow you #the infinite hole in that moment where he leaves and you can’t do anything but wait #do i even need to explain the skip ending. the distress in the narrator’s voice- the distress YOU feel at being forced to leave him alone #he actually has a really interesting bit of dialogue in there. to paraphrase- ‘if you can hear me then maybe i’m real’ #i feel this line perfectly encapsulates the loneliness of this game #it is just you and a voice. each confirming that the other is there. that the other has an impact. that their actions mean something #that they’re real. #and what’s CRAZY about it is that it’s not even a horror game!!!! #is that part of it? yes undeniably. but the game is about choice #the narrator says so all the time #GOD it’s so good. one of those games that turns you into a philosopher #another reason i like tsp is because the narrator is relatable lmao #i too love to go on long tangential rambles and use purple prose and i too will be distressed if nobody listens to them #might be why the skip ending seems to frighten me extra #anyways i think more art should focus on the horror of loneliness and effects of solitude on the soul #i could write a goddamn essay on this shit. actually i might i loveeeeee analysis

[ckygetsjobs]

So glad he’s happy :)

#All I want is for him to be happy #Still think about when raab said he’s the happiest he’s ever seen him #Can’t even explain what he means to me #This was honestly an excuse to show off some of my dico pics #jackass #brandon dicamillo

[buildoblivionthenwewilltalk]

in other news I’ve been spending my commutes day dreaming up a fic where we just drop s3 Klaus in the middle of s1 and let him run riot please add your own suggestions to this scenario below <3

#it’s just such a tasty premise to me #mainly cos my boys had the good character development #he’s just so present in s3 with his powers and his plot and his relationships with his siblings #I’d love to see how a) the sibs would react to a slightly more ‘sober’ number 4 AND b) how klaus would try to explain and or fix everything #AND OG Ben reunions with the added spice of ‘wait has number 4 kind of got his shit together???’ #can’t decide if I’d have s1 Klaus there too #cos what’s better than 1 klaus AND cool angsty ‘have we found dave?’ ‘what do you mean dad killed us?’ opportunities #but also I just love the image of klaus popping into existence where his old self used to be and running riot #Im imagining him appearing just after five comes back in the day that was #cos I love the idea of five being like ‘shut up everyone i time travelled I have the answers’ and then s3 Klaus being like ‘lol BET’ #uRGH so much potential #there’s just something great about showing off how far a characters grown #especially when they’ve always been underestimated #just a very sexy trope #I will probably never write it #but if someone has PLEASE GIMME #tua #the umbrella academy #Klaus hargreeves #shut up min

[donnies-low-empathy]

Unpopular opinion but Donnie’s an extrovert and I will die on this hill

#foggy talks turtles #I think people have a skewed perception of what introvert means #and this has a little to do with his mbti type but mostly. he just is. I can explain if someone wants me to but #also ENTJs are quite a specific type of extrovert #and people are *always* arguing about whether a character is an INTJ or an ENTJ because of this reason #saying ‘he can’t be an extrovert because’ and then some bs reason that’s usually a headcanon or just a poor take on his character