#I NEED TO SHUT MY BRAIN OFF JUST OFF

[doodleswpancake]

APO AND RED ARE TWO BIRDS ON A WIRE IN RVERY SINGLE UNIVERSE DO NOT TALK TO ME…

#reddoons #apokuna #outsiders smp #lifetime #pirates smp #I NEED TO SHUT MY BRAIN OFF JUST OFF

[piecanl]

Do you think Tubbo would recognize the path Bad is going down, because it's one he's already walked down on?

This self-destructive behavior coming from a broken heart?

He hasn't seen Bad at his best, before the eggs got kidnapped. He's seen him a victim to grief more than a father. It's why the blue staining Bad's being isn't out of the ordinary.

But suddenly he starts carrying flowers to remind him of the love he lost, suddenly the void calls out his name even louder and suddenly Tubbo sees himself in the older demon.

And it's scary, because suddenly he sees what he has become, how it affects others.

And for the first time of many, he sees Bad walk down a road he's paved. For the first time of many, Bad is the one repeating Tubbo's mistakes.

#the parallels between soul hunters make me SOOOOO ill you hav no idea #i needed to get this out of my brain I might've misscharactarized Bad on the way and If I have sorrayyy..... #their fascination or connection with death #their undying loyalty to those they let in their circle #the switch of their perspectives on resolving conflicts after both Purgatories #the self-sacrificial mindset when it comes to the eggs #the fact they're some of the most trusted people with the eggs #Bad is openly trusted by parents while Tubbo is silently trusted by the eggs while they're both simultaneously safe spaces for the kids #Tubbo has been there for a lot shorter than Bad which lead to him following a lot of previous islanders' including Bad's steps #but suddeny he's been trust into many tragedies and now he has his own path people may fall down in #JUST AGH #i feel like I'm going in circles #i don't know #i dont think they'd ever openly discuss their weaknesses infront of eachother #but I also don't think they'd ever outright shut off a conversation over grief they share #qsmp tubbo #qsmp badboyhalo #soul hunters #soulhunters

[aeb-art]

cringe is dead or whatever so… here's a super rough comic about geo getting smooched at a new year's eve party o7 (the mall toons of course belong to @8um8le)

happy new year, go kiss a robot xoxo

#2023 #stellar city #sc mall toons #sc geo #sc tele #sc hydro #sc pyro #sc ash #self insert #self ship #wish you all a lovely 2024 xoxo #making geo's clouds explode like a bomb went off lmao #i made the little icons go with their nicknames not their models entirely bc i wanted a television for tele bc i thought it'd be funny #idk why but my favorite panel is just them on the couch i think it's so cute #okay now that i've rambled… i'm like extremely nervous about posting this idk i can't shake the feeling that it's wrong somehow #like i'm indulging to close to the sun idk i'm gonna schedule this so i forget about it by the time it's up #okay i need to go make my brain shut up bye #geo.exe has stopped responding

[hyunpic]

hyunjin on bubble

#hyunjin #skz #🧼 #his dimple for me as a reward for just finishing up my work day feels like a tap on my head thank u #then i take a look at his bratz lips in the second gif and my brain just shuts off #what’s that bruno mars song about versace on the floor.. 🫠 #need to peel him like an orange…

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

~ inseparable opposing images ~

#i will never shut up about how poignantly fascinating alex’s relationship with the way he presents himself to the world is #and i feel like it’s so well highlighted with these two photos #his ability to put his sunglasses on and look cool and unreachable and like he’s just stepped off the pages of a magazine #and then the softer and quieter vulnerability that’s behind that facade #i feel like getting that glimpse is a potent reminder of how much he needs that facade to protect himself #how it helps keep safe the more sensitive sides of him that are the reason he’s wound up in the public eye in the first place #aghhhh #i could honestly write a whole essay about this stuff because i just find him so fascinating #but i won’t because no one needs to watch me descending into yet another endless ramble in my own tags #it’s becoming a habit lately #i guess that’s what being stuck in bed ill for weeks on end will do for you #far too much time for my brain to think #alex turner #alex photos #arctic monkeys #lulu posts

[berryblu-soda]

@frauggietheperson !!!!! Guess who remembered she could crochet :D!!!!!

#afdjsgdhsgdj #you mentioned you had a little octopus and a lightbulb just went off fr!!!! #in ma brain #turns out i had everything i needed in my room already haha #she is so littol guy aaaaaaaaa <3<3<3<3<3<3!!!! #!!!!!! #okok that concludes the status update #crochet #shut up sheo #my art #(?) #jrwi riptide #pretzel #:3 <3<3<3<3<3<3 #she fits in so well in my room too 🥺💕💕💕💕!!!! #welcome home lil guy 🥺💕💕💕💕💕!!!! <- i am so normal abt a stuffed animal of a fictional character dgdhfgshfgsgf #also so relieved i managed to give her 4 tentacles idk how i pulled that off???? #double colored too #incredible #thats it #ive peaked #its all downhill from here

[spidergangforever]

hey pspider people!! how do you feel about the stars that reside above your very heads? :3

#lego monkie kid #lmk #lmk syntax #lmk huntsman #lmk spider queen #lmk goliath #lmk spindrax #hehehe... hi grey #looking up at the sky and seeing u wave down at me from atop a twinkling star #i did put more effort into this than i needed to. i failed. thats okay #heheh #A spider looks up and sees 8 times as many stars in the sky #i think my brain shuts off and i can never tell if what i write is out of charavter or not. forgive me. i have to keep #reminding myself to chillax because this is a silly rhing. for fun #i swear most of the time answers will be goofy and funny i just wanted to be a little. hm. whats the word #thoughtful #dont cry. spiders being sad ok?

[monstersinthecosmos]

not for anything but friendly reminder that ~fandom discourse~ about where women belong (or people you perceive as women) is misogynistic as fuck. or what they're allowed to say, or what they're allowed to write about, or what they're allowed to enjoy.

next time you see someone having a tantrum and vaguing, especially if their posts from week to week completely contradict each other, perhaps analyze if the common denominator is "a gross woman said something and now i'm mad" without otherwise adhering to any actual principles.

#like i wonder if someone consistently preaches that we need to respect each other's headcanons #but they are specifically bothered by women & people they assume are women #and they keep specifically complaining about how ANNOYING GIRLS are the ones with such STUPID ideas #if maybe that person is just a fucking misogynist LMAO #and maybe we shouldn't give them the time of day :) #but what do i know lol im just a dumb girl with my dumb girl brain #anyway sorry guys i hate posting vagues i think it's really immature but like how much of this do we fucking tolerate #and can you please stop reblogging him bc tumblr's block & mute functions are terrible #if i'm not vague about it does it still count as a vague? #i hate public drama but like he didn't want to resolve it in private either and won't shut the fuck up haha sorry #but i also fucking hate bullies so #:) #also in b4 fandom clique conspiracies start floating around #if you act like a misogynist dickhead and get blocked by a bunch of people #it's not a cabal of mean girls ganging up on you #maybe you're the problem lol #knock it the fuck off aren't you tired of this it's been a year man #get a life.

[da-proti-toku-grem]

venting in the tags again bc i'm literally shaking right now wtf

#god i hate it so much #my exams start on monday and i'm not even halfway through everything i need to know for my first exam #i've had all the holidays to study but i just can't concentrate on anything #i've been in my room all day every day (except the days i spent w family like christmas and new year ofc) #and seemingly i'm studying all day #my family thinks i spend all day studying #but the only thing i'm capable of doing most of the time is stare at the things i have to do w/o having any idea of wtf i'm doing #my brain won't shut tf up and telling me stuff that i know are not true #but i just can't #i feel like i've been having an anxiety attack non stop since this monday #not very bad most of the time but it doesn't really stop yk? #and i feel like i have a weight on my chest that i can't really take off #i've been going to therapy and we've come to the conclusion that the cause of my anxiety overall are my studies #(not counting my social anxiety that's been getting worse every day to the point that i don't even want to go out with my best friends) #which doesn't really surprise me but it's just Too Much #i just want to drop everything but since idk what i'd do if i quit this career i chose to do my exams #bc maybe they are useful if i do change my path #but i just can't find it in me to focus and study because my mind is racing all the time #i just want to lie down and cry but i don't even have the strength to do that #i just feel so weak and miserable ever since i started uni and every day it gets worse and worse #my mind just screams at me saying #'stop complaining all the time. no one cares. everyone goes through stuff like that. you're no different. stfu and study like everyone does' #and i know i could do it if i tried but i just can't #why tf is it so difficult to be normal and do what i'm supposed to do for once ffs.... #venting #maca speaks

[itspileofgoodthings]

also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and that’s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.

#not to put too fine a point on it but that’s what happened with the whole is Maria going to become a nun question tbh #and I needed a counselor to say to me objectively and yet also crucially without any knowledge of me or my past: #you have overthought this and now you’re terrified of it #anyway it’s so obvious but it came home to me today. slowly. #like it was just like. Oh. You did it again #you’re terrified of this because you have thought of every possibility and every outcome and every twist and turn and shadow—- #until it has become a bloated demon in your mind that is totally separated from reality #while made up of real facts and details! and tbh I know it’s a common problem #but the anxiety chokehold I can put myself in is something that is so impressive and so disturbing #I can render myself absolutely helpless through the meanderings of my own thoughts #and what makes it worse—immeasurably worse—is that I get OUT of problems through careful thought and analysis #I’m programmed that way #so I can’t escape it by the usual means. I have to back away from the monster and see it and NAME it and then it can die away. #and only THEN can I apply my usual ways of going about things. I don’t know it just all clicked today #these past few days have just been bringing it all to a fever pitch for me #anyway I guess it’s also important to me that I still be allowed to be analytical about it!!! I have to use my brain!!!!!!! #in my desperation I have tried to shut it off to feel only with my heart. To try to catch the whisper of God’s voice in the wind #but tbh I am meant to use the gifts I have! But only in the right context #and that’s only after the demon has been killed or more accurately —deflated #my counselor has been so good about this tbh. she’s so matter of fact and blunt and salt of the earth and also she sees how my mind works #and wants me to be able to use it!! #so I’m just going to tell her that I did the bad thing with this other problem and can she help me find a way forward #ANYWAY THE MONSTERS TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TREES

[greenlanterncrops]

really, really do not understand why everybody’s so insistent that jason todd would not be a red lantern if he were to get a ring

people making lantern aus will put him in the sinestro corps, in the star sapphires, and now he's got a green ring for some reason, and okay? that’s fine? like i’m not about to gatekeep - you should do whatever you want! but the fact is the dude is, like, textbook red lantern

his entire character arc mirrors that of the red lanterns almost 1:1 - right down to the being killed, brought back in a sort of unconscious state, and needing to be dunked in a magical pool to regain their memories/minds

sometimes the most obvious answer is the right one

#jason todd #hate that i'm being forced to talk about bats on this but i saw the dark crisis writer's tweets and just #?????????? #so many misconceptions about the red lanterns and it makes me sad bc they're my favorites! they're so interesting! #but everybody seems to think they're just out of control maniacs who love violence for no reason! #it's disappointing and BORING like they're so complex #but people just see 'rage corps' and their brain shuts off after that #jason's entire thing is being Unavenged and the red lantern corps' entire thing is seeking out people who need vengance #red lanterns are explicitly only drawn to the 'pure' rage that comes from victims #atrocitus straight up says the rage of abusers isn't attractive to the red light at all #red rings ONLY go to those who are pissed for the right reasons #almost all of the red lanterns are victims of some violent crime or the other #most of them were being murdered or worse when the red ring came to them #that's WHY it came to them #they don't just seek out anyone who's pissed enough #they seek out people who are helpless and angry and give them the power to avenge themselves like! #you couldn't pick a better group for him to fall into if you tried! #not that i want it to happen because i'm morally opposed to the idea of bats with rings but still!! #the way every bats-as-lanterns thing i've ever seen bends over backwards to put him anywhere BUT where he obviously should be #baffles me #truly #and again i'm not trying to tell people they're wrong #you can do whatever! have fun! #not trying to rain on anyone's parade #but the star sapphire thing being big for him is just like-- #yeah it could work but it would also be some real horror movie shit lol #the star sapphires are far and away the most disturbing of them all imo

[to-thelakes]

darlin, i definitely feel your bi panic about madani and frank cos SAME

as much as i can remember it was in season 2, madani was talking with a pretty woman who was working in the lab and all i thought during the scene was “BI PANIC BI PANIC, ladies why don’t you just start kissing”

jdsndlkfnwk sorry about the rambling i was just thinking about it since i’ve watched it and wanted to share 💘

never apologise for rambling!! i absolutely adore the rambles, i am a big rambler myself. it's honestly a problem

But FR, like dinah madani is bi, i don't make the rules, it's just fact. and her and frank?? the bi panic of the two of them on screen makes me lose my mind, like which one do i pick?? which one do i want?? (the answer is both) but they both just absolutely scramble my brain.

also, okay, the thought of those two like together has actually rotted my brain so badly recently. i don't think or it doesn't seem to be a popular like fanfic ship or like something that many people (at least from what i've seen) seem interested in but dinah x frank kind of just makes my brain melt a little.

obviously, i am a kastle girlie at heart. him and karen are just- 🫠🫠🫠 but i am nothing if not an incredibly self-indulgent woman and the thought of like frank x dinah x reader (bc i am whore) has literally rotted by brain. it's insane how bad it has been. like i've become actual feral for the thought of them. (feral to the point i have written a 13k smutty one-shot of frank x dinah x reader, whoopsie but we don't talk about that)

my brainrotting for those two aside, i am so glad i'm not alone in my bi panic over madani and frank because they make me absolutely FERAL and i just, i love my men and women emotionally damaged and slightly immoral <3

#ruby rambles #dinah madani #frank castle #the punisher #nmcu #i feel like im going insane #like i'm withdrawing off my meds (by choice) and so i feel so shitty but all my energy went into that one-shot #it was insane #i've gone feral #i think i need to be sedated #or i just need frank castle back on my screen #whichever comes first #i need to shut up #but these characters actually rot my brain

[skyloftian-nutcase]

Me: *having a perfectly good and normal time hanging out with my family*

Brain: Hey what would you do if your mom dropped dead in your kitchen right now.

Me: What—why are you—?

Brain:

Me:

Me: UGH fine I’d make sure she’s flat in her back, check for responsiveness, check a carotid and signs of breathing—*proceeds to run through entire scenario in my head*

Brain: K

Me: WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THAT

#random rambles #working in emergency medicine and critical care just… does things to the brain apparently 🥴 #idk why I felt compelled to ramble about this here please just ignore me #I need to figure out how to shut the doomsday button off in my brain lol

[clone-anon]

Can I get something soft for Commander Fox? Like going to a date or just generally roaming around

Absolutely! Fox needs to get out and have some fun. I wasn't sure where this was going, but then the story made its own decision.

Fox stood up right on time, ready to leave. He put up his hands at the troopers who walked through his door.

"No more flimsi. No more datapad." He shuffled past the men who showed up with last minute questions. "We are done for the day. Ask me when I get back."

He made his way to your apartment after putting on his best fatigues. He tried his hardest to mentally set aside work and focus only on you. As soon as you opened the door, he smiled as you kissed his cheek.

"Ready," he asked. You nodded and reached for his hand. Fox took it and gave it a gentle squeeze and kiss.

You wandered around, stopping for dinner at your favorite local spot. The food was always good and the people were friendly. You took your time, sitting close to each other and people watching through a window while eating.

You spent the rest of the evening walking around and window shopping. That is, until you came to one window in particular. You held his hand tight and pulled him into the store.

Fox laughed at your sudden joy and raised an eyebrow at the objects of your fascination. "What even are those?"

Your eyes danced as you touched them. Different animals, all plush. All soft. All round.

"They're called squishmallows," you replied, picking one up and holding it to him. "Feel."

Fox sighed but took the offering. It was soft. It was pleasant to hold and had a cute face. You handed him another one and he held one in each arm. He had to admit there was something appealing about holding them and he loved how much you seemed to love them.

"I'm buying these," you stated, taking two from the shelf and walking up to the counter to pay.

He chuckled and shook his head, placing the ones he held back on the shelf. After you walked out of the store and toward home again, you handed him the one that looked like a bantha.

"Here," you said. "I want you to have this."

Fox looked at you sweetly, held it gently, and replied, "A bantha. Like from your home planet."

"That's right," you said. "And I get the vulptex."

When you got home, you put on a holomovie. You sat down, each now holding your squishmallows and each other. He kissed your temple and held you close. The movie was soon forgotten as you both fell asleep.

#commander fox #tcw fanfiction #commander fox x reader #tcw fox #tcw commander fox #fox needs to rest #this is my first time writing fox #i always thought he needs a break but might have a hard time shutting his brain off after all the stress #but he would so love a nice night out with you #star wars fanfiction #commander fox x you #fox x reader #gn!reader #look i don't know how it happened but i just want to give all the clones squishmallows they deserve comfortable things #reader insert

[mrsoharaa]

call it controversial or whatever but...something about being called babydoll stirs some things within me....idk what it is either.

#it just feels so....enrapturing #so enticing and adorable at the same time #afaergaerht i need to go to bed and shut off my burnt brain lol

[planetsallalign]

So since my brain is dumb and won’t stop the constant worst case scenario I’m trying to keep busy. Since yesterday afternoon I’ve made gluten free sugar cookies, peanut butter chocolate chip cookies, a focaccia bread dough is currently rising. I’ve deep cleaned the kitchen sink and read 2.5 books.

#just trying to keep my mind occupied but it’s not working #I have a migraine from overthinking I just need my brain to shut off for a bit