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derivativealigner · 3 years

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I rewatched the second season of South Park and took so many notes that I had to split them into two parts. Like seriously, I took so. many. notes. And pictures this time. I started rewatching just in case I’d find some cool little facts to sprinkle into my fanfic but I went way too far and now there’s a million facts under this cut (including gay stan, a domestic violence psa, and craig fucking dying)

Stan doesn’t like hospitals, he finds them gross and he gets sick 🤮. Also the hospital in South Park is called Hell’s Pass hospital. Early seasons have the name as Hells Pass but it gets fixed later

Cartman has to sing all of Come Sailing Away by Styx if he hears a part of it. After he says this, Kyle sings the first part and Cartman has to sing the rest. Kyle does it again later, which is kinda mean

Cartman’s mom tries to abort Cartman, who is an eight-year-old child and thus cannot be legally aborted. Later, after she slept with Bill Clinton to change the law and make 40th trimester abortions legal, it turns out she meant adoption

Kenny sacrifices himself to turn on the generator to the hospital and save Dr. Mephesto’s life along with others. He says “I’ll fucking do it” then does it and dies, absolute legend

Cartman gets way too into his deputy role. He goes undercover, pretends to be a prostitute, says “Respect my authoritah!” a lot and beats people up with his police stick

Kenny’s brother first appears when Cartman responds to a call about a disturbance at Kenny’s house. Apparently there are like 10 adult family members in the house at that time. Kenny’s dad has a black eye because Kenny’s mom punched him. She says he can’t hold a job

Token sits in the classroom in season 2

Cartman starts hating hippies in this season, like a lot

Chef tells the boys that the right time to do drugs is in college

Ike’s name is Ike Moisha Broflovski and he was born in 1996, making him 2 years old in 1998 when this season aired

This is probably obvious but yeah Kyle and Ike are circumcised

Kyle says family isn’t just blood, it’s who you care about, and he says “That’s why you guys are more than just friends, you’re my family. Except for Cartman.”

Craig’s finally sitting in the classroom in S02E04

None of the boys like dodgeball

Clyde gets a dodgeball to the face and he cries :( and he’s the only one who cries by the way

Pip throws a dodgeball in Kyle’s face and breaks Kyle’s nose

When Kyle’s mom tells the boys about conjoined twin myslexia (which isn’t a real term) and says anyone might’ve absorbed their dead twin in the womb, Stan and Cartman run away screaming but Kenny and Kyle stay to listen. Kenny even leans in to look at the book “Freaks A-Z!” that Mrs. Broflovski is reading from, and when she leaves, Kyle grimaces and Kenny laughs

Stan’s mom (Sharon) calls Kyle’s mom (Sheila) when Stan is all freaked out and trying to put an icepick through his brain, and Sharon tells Sheila to get run over by a truck. Sharon is pretty mean in these early episodes

Mr. Broflovski doesn’t really listen to what Mrs. Broflovski is saying, bad husband >:(

South Park’s team is always called South Park Cows no matter the sport

The school nurse, Nurse Gollum, went to Colorado State University

I just realized Butters exists. I think he appeared before S02E05 but I didn’t notice but yeah he’s there with the dodgeball team, injured

Here’s a picture to make up for my disgusting anti-Butters bias

Kenny’s dodgeball uniform number is 69 obviously. Kyle is 7, Stan is 4, Cartman is 325

Sheila smacks Gerald in the face so hard he falls off his chair, lots of violence perpetrated by women in this show. Remember, don’t do domestic violence no matter your gender, it’s not cool

I realized after this whole Butters thing that I should’ve made more notes about Pip, so I’ll make a note about his anger issues now. When people call him French, he gets angry and throws dodgeballs at them

The boys launch a jelly roll at Ms. Crabtree and make her crash the bus. They do it just for fun

The kids somehow go to China in the school bus

Cartman references Moby Dick, but he probably doesn’t know what he’s talking about

Kevin Stoley gets named in S02E05 and has his first speaking role when he says he has Chinese parents and after Cartman hears it he immediately says something racist. smh cartman, what a problematic fave

Cartman says “I love you guys 😊” but Stan and Kyle just stare at him and he goes 😐 “Eh, screw you guys 😠”

If Jimbo and Ned really fought in Vietnam, they youngest they could’ve been in 1998 is early forties, which means in the latest seasons they would be early sixties. Btw they met in Vietman

Jesus and Pals is a recurring TV show in seasons 1 and 2. Jesus just kind of lives in South Park

I just remembered that Terrance and Phillip are really old in canon, it’s so weird, like how can South Park canon still be changing, it’s been 20 years

Also the early seasons are casually racist who knew

Kenny flashes his ass on a tape the boys send to Jimbo and Ned’s TV show, which airs and at least 12 people see Kenny’s bare naked ass

Cartman really doesn’t like hippies in these early seasons. He throws a chair at Ned and yells, “Take that, hippie!” (Ned is in a catatonic state and did nothing to provoke this)

Jimbo and Ned live together I guess. Jimbo’s gonna take Ned home and show him some hardcore porn to snap him out of his catatonic state, good husband unlike Gerald Broflovski

Saddam Hussein is in hell and has a Canadian accent and is Satan’s lover in S02E06, I guess he died in Canada in the first episode this season but I wasn’t paying much attention since that’s the Terrance and Phillip episode that pissed a bunch of people off in 1998 because the audience wanted to know who Cartman’s dad is instead. It was kind of a boring episode so I understand why everyone was pissed, but it is funny that Matt and Trey did that so I’m not mad about it

Aww look at them!!! We’ve got background Style, the vaguest inkling of Crenny, and Cartman/Cake

I’d take more screenshots but it’s a pain since I’m watching legally and stupid legal websites block screenshots so I have to find youtube videos instead ughhhh piracy is the answer kids

Apparently there’s a huge waterfall and canyon somewhere close to South Park, maybe? At least in Stan’s dream

Mary Kay Bergman was an incredible voice actor. How the hell did she voice all the moms, Wendy, Shelly, principle Victoria, the mayor, Nurse Gollum, and fucking Ms. Crabtree??? Holy shit what a queen

Kenny has some feelings about death. He reimagines the episode where death boops him to death and in his version, he beats death the fuck up, then has ice cream and is happy 😊 But again, this is in Stan’s dream

S02E07 kind of establishes that nobody remembers Kenny dying because when Cartman tells a story where Kenny dies, Kyle questions how Kenny could’ve died then when he also died just a few hours ago when a giant monster took him

rip craig, he falls out the bus and into a canyon

But it’s okay because it was all Stan’s dream so everything in the episode is questionable. Everything after this is no longer a dream

Pip’s parents are dead and he has to go to summer school while everyone else is having a nice summer break

Officer Barbrady and the mayor are having sexual relations, I’m sure this is the most interesting note I’ve made so far. Idk I’m just writing everything down, this is how I enjoy things, I have no off switch

Ew summer bus stop, cursed

Kyle casually sings little tunes every once in a while, how cute

This is pretty obvious but Kenny likes dirty jokes, he laughs when Cartman innocently says he loves Chef’s salty chocolate balls (which are chocolate candy). Nobody else laughs

Cartman says “Screw you guys, I’m going home” or variations of it a lot in this season

So Stan throws up when he likes someone, right? Well, he’s watching an indie movie about two gay cowboys who start making out and he throws up, which is either a terrible homophobic joke or confirmation that Stan’s a little gay. I know which one I prefer

Kyle says Mr. Hankey is his best friend after Stan. Like I know it’s definitely canon that Stan and Kyle are best friends but it’s still nice to see confirmation, it’s very precious. Also Kyle is best friends with literal shit, so cute 😊

Kenny deaths:

S02E02 Kenny sacrifices himself by connecting a generator wire, which electrocutes him but brings power back to a hospital

S02E03 A tree falls on Kenny and crushes him

S02E04 Kenny falls in a grave and the gravestone falls on him

S02E05 The Chinese dodgeball team throws a ball at Kenny and he gets splattered against a wall

S02E06 Two guys pull on Kenny and tear him in half, as in one has the head and one has the legs

S02E07 A big scary monster plucks Kenny out of the school bus and carries him away. Also in Cartman’s fake memory of Fonzi jumping over cars, the motorcycle hits Kenny and crushes him against a brick wall. Kenny gets smashed against walls a lot, doesn’t he?

S02E08 Flashback: Baby Kenny has a firecracker and it explodes, sprinkling little baby Kenny parts everywhere. Later in the episode, current day Kenny dies when a giant firework snake bumps him off a stage and under a fence, which then crushes him.

S02E09 Kenny is playing with a yoyo outside a movie theatre when a bunch of people come outside and trample him to death. They say “Oh my God, I found a penny!” and “You bastard!”

I’ll post part 2 of season 2 in a couple days. I’m having way more fun writing these stupid notes than I thought I would (also gnomes is coming up soon and i am fucking ready for tweek)

#south park #sp rewatch #i thought i made way too many notes last time #oh boy #also sorry for my anti butters bias showing #i completely forgot to take notes about him until episode 5 #oops

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purplesurveys · 3 years

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survey by purplehugger

Would you ever get a tattoo? I would love to get one, and plans are definitely set for that. It’s just a matter of knowing when I’m finally finally FINALLY ready to have something permanent placed on my skin.

Can you live without your phone? Technically yes, but I would have a very hard time since I use it for a lot of things, if not all the things I do on a daily basis; and I imagine I’d grow cranky very fast.

What animal do you resemble? I’m not so sure about resemble...I can tell you my personality matches best with dogs, though. I always have a great time with them.

What is your best friend’s name? I have two of them, Angela and Andi.

What is/was your favorite subject in school? History, followed by honestly any social sciences course out there...geography, anthropology, political science, etc. I definitely hogged those classes in college as much as my curriculum allowed me to.

Would you ever adopt a stray puppy? I would adopt every single one I see if I could.

Do you like chocolate? Chocolate-flavored sweets, yes. Actual chocolate or chocolate bars, not so much.

What is your favorite word? Poignant always seems to hit me straight in the feels.

Have you ever done something really stupid? Erm, of course? I do it at least once a day.

What was the worst mistake you ever made? Y’all have heard it a million times by now, but it’s tolerating shit I knew I didn’t deserve. Also, touching a plugged clothes iron when I was 7.

Can you say the alphabet backwards? I did at one point, but I didn’t practice it and now I don’t know how to do it anymore.

How high can you count? Any number as long as money is involved, hahaha.

You are very loved. True or False? True.

Do you like Taylor Swift? Not so much.

Do you want any piercings? Yes, one on each of my ears; I got pierced as an infant.

Have you ever stolen something? Random lost pens at school.

Do you like seafood? Looooooove seafood. I literally have 24 pieces of sushi right next to me right now; just a lil Friday treat for myself heehee.

What is your least favorite name? That seems a bit harsh. I don’t think I hate any name that much so as to call it my least favorite.

What do you want to name your child? Olivia or Mia is still on the table for me.

Do you like the color green? Just the olive shade. Otherwise it’s my least favorite color.

Do you have lots of friends? I would say I have enough to be happy. I don’t know what exactly ‘many’ means.

Are you listening to anything right now? Yeah, my friend group put up a Discord server just tonight and Jo proceeded to start a BTS playlist earlier. Everyone’s since hopped out for the night, but the playlist is still on so I’ll be staying around for the meantime and vibe. :) Just me, BTS, and my sushi haha.

What time is it? 10:04 PM.

Are you hungry? No, I’m taking bites every once in a while as I take this survey.

What was the last thing you ate? Sushi. I got 3 kinds for tonight: Singaporean Roll, Dynamite Roll, and Mount Fuji Roll. All so good.

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? I never did.

Do you know any gay people? Many.

Do you have any pets? Yes.

Would you ever own a monkey? Probably not. I wouldn’t be equipped to care for them.

Do you enjoy reading? Essays and memoirs, yes.

survey by xxbieberburnham

Do you know anyone who has been attacked by a shark? Not to my knowledge.

What is your best friend's mom name? Girlie and Ria.

Have you ever made out in a movie theatre? No.

What part of your body do you wash first? Hair.

Do you have an innie or an outie? Innie.

How do you think the dinosaurs died? Giant asteroid.

What's your favorite flavor of Pringles? Just the original one. But tbh Pringles are so addictive anyway, I’ll always take more than one of any flavor if they were ever offered to me.

What was the last thing you got grounded for? Low grades, which was really the only reason why I ever got grounded.

Did you go to a water park last summer? No, and I doubt anyone else did either...

What shoe do you put on first? Usually the right.

Finish the sentence: Girls... Are powerful.

Have you ever had a song or poem written about you? Poem, yeah. I don’t think I would particularly appreciate an entire song being written about me though, I think that would just make me cringe lol.

Did you have a nickname growing up? Nothing like an affectionate pet name. My longest-lasting nickname is just a shortened version of my name used by family, but otherwise everyone calls me by my first name.

When was the last time you played the air guitar? Never.

Have you ever bitten your toenail? Only as a kid.

How often do you clean out your ears? Every other day.

Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper? Fold.

Have you ever been dared to do something that you regretted? Nothing major. One instance I can remember is when I was dared to pick up food from the ground, and when I bit into it it already had some tiny tiny stones and some debris on it D:

Favorite website? Twitter, probably. Or YouTube.

Worst thing that has ever happened to you? Losing two relatives I was close to in the span of four days to Covid. I am so fucking glad we made the decision to celebrate Christmas with extended family last year, no matter how ignorant it was. It absolutely sucks that I will never see them again.

Best thing that has happened to you? Recovering from my depression last year and choosing to stay. I’m living a really happy life rn.

If you could dye your hair any color, what color would it be? Dark green.

Do you have a Wii? We used to but we threw it out a few years ago since it wasn’t working anymore.

Most used phrase on IM? I think I just say “Hahahahaha” excessively lmao. Picked it up from my bosses.

Have you ever heard of The Beatles? Yes.

#survey #surveys #two in one because i found them too short

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blind-rats · 4 years

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The ability of fans to shape and change the art they enjoy is nothing new. In 1893, the reaction to Arthur Conan Doyle killing off Sherlock Holmes was so intense that he eventually resurrected him ten years later. Historian Greg Jenner, the author of the forthcoming book Dead Famous (a study of the history of fame), has even tracked the characteristics of modern fandom back to the 1700s when rival supporters of English theatre actresses would compete for dominance like Team Aniston or Team Jolie.

And to the 1920s, where fan groups would write thousands of letters to movie studios demanding their favorite actor be given better roles. “It was the same thing,” he says, “as Sonic the Hedgehog having weird teeth and people going, ‘No, that’s not the game I played as a kid, you need to fix it or I am not giving you any money.’”

The last decade or so has witnessed huge changes in the awareness, perception, and tools of fandom. In terms of television and film, the enormous successes of Game of Thrones and the Marvel Cinematic Universe have introduced geek culture – and its brand of participatory fandom – to the mainstream. At the same time, the internet – and more specifically social media – has amplified fans’ voices, while also breaking down the boundaries between them and the artists they love/hate.

Yet the extent to which the internet has changed the very nature of fandom is debatable. According to leading media scholar Henry Jenkins, whose 1992 book Textual Poachers is considered the founding text of fan studies, it has merely “increased the scope and scale of the fan community, allowed for ongoing interactions amongst fans, and made the entertainment industry more aware of the kind of fan responses which have been occurring all along”.

Case in point: in 1968, Star Trek fans – a group who essentially invented the framework of modern fandom – orchestrated a huge and successful letter-writing campaign to save the show from cancellation. Then, in subsequent years, they also popularised fan fiction as we now know it, publishing stories for each other in zines, and pioneering the homoerotic literary sub-genre of slash fiction (the term ‘slash’ literally derives from the punctuation between Kirk / Spock).

Now fans weaponize hashtags and online petitions to revive shows like The Expanse and Brooklyn Nine-Nine, or to take showrunners to task with criticisms of their blind spots and choices. One notable example is the teen show The 100, which sparked ire in 2016 after killing off one of the show’s prominent gay characters; an act that was seen by many to perpetuate the ‘bury your gays’ trope that has been prevalent in TV and film. And as for fan fiction? There is, most famously, E L James’ Fifty Shades of Grey series, which was inspired by Stephanie Meyer’s Twilight and originally posted on a fan website. But, beyond that, there is also the platform Archive of Our Own, which in 2019 won a Hugo award for its archive of more than 4.7 million fan-written stories.

“Fans engaging actively with the materials of their culture has improved our world in countless ways,” says Jenkins. “Television, as it exists today, is largely a response to modes of engagement that fans have modeled over the past several decades – [a form] where more attention is paid to backstories and secondary characters, where there is a greater degree of serialization and the core mythology is sustained across multiple media platforms, and which builds in space for exploration and speculation. And now, which seeks to be more diverse and inclusive in whose stories get told… Many of today’s critical darlings are following practices that were modeled first in fan fiction.”

Perhaps one of the most profound changes of the last 10 years is the extent to which the entertainment industry has begun to exploit the passion of fanbases for their own commercial ends. “The industry needs fans more than ever before,” explains academic Suzanne Scott, author of Fake Geek Girls, a study of the gender politics of fandom. “They need fans to ensure big opening weekends at the box office, they need them as promotional labor to create more ‘authentic’ excitement around a media object, or to distinguish one text from the glut of content that we are constantly choosing between as consumers.” Just take the techniques employed by Netflix, who have become masters of facilitating ‘organic’ conversation around their output.

On the more extreme end of the spectrum, they even rely on them as investors. A famous example being the 2014 big-screen revival of cult TV detective drama Veronica Mars, a sequel made possible only by the crowdfunding efforts of fans, and which subsequently led to a 2019 TV return on streaming service Hulu.

With the latter series, this equal partnership dynamic started to become complicated, however, with fans recoiling in horror when creator Rob Thomas killed off love interest Logan.

To quote journalist Constance Grady, writing for Vox: “Thomas, they said, had taken advantage of their desire to see Veronica and Logan together, using their investment as shippers to leverage not just their time and attention, but the literal dollars out of their pockets. In that case, didn’t he owe them something?”

Jenkins thinks it’s a fair question. “The sense of ownership reflects the way humans have always engaged with stories,” he says. “We use stories to make sense of who we are. We use stories to debate our values, fears, and aspirations. We display our attachment to stories in various ways and we define ourselves through which stories mean the most to us. There’s nothing odd about this. What is odd is the idea that corporations want to claim a monopoly over the storytelling process, resist input from their audience, and lockdown stories from further circulation and elaboration.”

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#Veronica Mars #Fandom #Fanbase #Sonic The Hedgehog #Star Trek

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yellowreeds-writer · 4 years

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Gambit Games chapter 1

(Hey guys, new project, its mostly smut and violence, you’ve been warned. this first chapter is just a bit of set up)

“It was a dark and stormy night,” Marlow spoke, his voice low trying to emulate a creepy voice. The flashlight pointed up at his face illuminating the old Elton john poster behind him. Yvette and Annie giggle at the cliché opening line and Smith gives a big huff.

Marlow grabs a pillow from my twin bed beside him and throws it at him. “Shut it, downer, I’m trying to set the mood.”

“Last time you did that it took you two hours just to tell us an “original story” that turned out just to be an alternative version of Animal Farm.” Smith catches the pillow and swiftly throws it back hitting the shorter boy right it the throat.

“Alright, fuck you!” Marlow chuckles playfully and tosses the red pillow at me.

I catch it easily, Marlow’s never been a good shot, it’s a surprise it even made it into my hands.

“Come on guys I kind of want to hear Mar’s little story.” Annie said between soft chuckles.

“Little?!” Marlow fakes a loud gasp, “I’ll have you know I’m this generation’s next great author!”

Smith moves to sit on the bed and throws my second pillow at him, “Sure, when whatever perv website you use to post your one-direction fanfiction I’ll believe you.”

Marlow shifts back, a blush coming across his face. I lean over him from my spot on Claude’s bed to ruffle his wavy hair. We haven’t stop teasing him about his written erotica since Smith saw his latest creation when he left his laptop open. We’ve known since day one that he was gay, it wasn’t really a problem for anyone but his ex-roommate Oliver, but Smith was a good man and traded rooms with him, the AC works better in his old room and anyone would want it over the other stuffy ass rooms on this floor.

“Aw leave him alone” Annie takes my third and finale pillow off my bed to support her back.

“No, keep it going, hearing about Marlow’s sexual fantasies is far more interesting than any of his books or plays that we’ve yet to read.” Yvette points out.

Giggles and laughter erupt from the group as Marlow shrivels up in his button up shirt. My freshmen year of college has gone much better than I thought it would. Its only September but I find myself in good company. In high school I’m not quite sure what I did wrong, I’m not mean to people, I’m rather smart and as far as I’m told I’m very attractive. But back in my hometown I never really had any friends. Classmates sure but outside of them asking to barrow my notes I didn’t really conversate. I spent most of my free time writing, I guess it paid off too because now I’ve got a free ride through the country’s best playwriting program.

The top four floors of the oldest building on campus is reserved for the theatre program students and the top floor is for the scholarship kids, which is us, and the other three floors hate us, which I love. I love the superiority of it all, I love being hated by the lesser it further proves my place above it all. Yvette flips her black hair over her shoulder, as she does this action, I realize what she’s wearing tonight, or lack of. Yvette has always dressed a certain way but her current assemble seemed to top a mental list I didn’t even know I was making. She’s wearing a tight-fitting black tank top that clearly is far too small and sweats that seem to hug curves I didn’t know she had. Huh.

“Psst.” Smith calls over the group to me as Marlow struggles to change the subject. He mouths something to me that I can’t really tell, the room is very dark. Then me nods to Yvette. ‘stop staring’ that was it, see, I’m smart.

As I start to tune in to whatever the new topic is my focus is ripped away by the door of my dorm slamming open and the lights flipping on.

“Why are you all sitting in the dark? Please tell me no one’s having sex on my bed.”

Claude stands at the doorway, his copper hair showing off its red shine telling me he hasn’t washed his hair in a good while. He’s tall, taller than me but not as tall as smith, but even then, Smith’s only six two. We’re not the most height-friendly bunch with most of us being below five ten.

“You wish I was.” Yvette follows her comment up with a fake moan.

Claude sighs and drops his bag by the foot of his bed and looks dead into my eyes; “What are they all doing here?”

Before I can answer Smith stands up from my bed and rolls his shoulders back, “Its scary story night, sweetheart, come on join us.”

The shorter boy puffs his chest out a bit and puts his hands in his jean pockets, jeans I now realize they are covered with an un-godly amount of dirt.

“No thanks, I’ll pass. But y’all need to relocate I’ve got a killer head ache and I’d rather be asleep right now.”

Smith looks him up and down, makes a show of rolling his shoulders back again. They’re squaring off at each other, they do it quite a lot, I don’t know if its because they’re the two alpha males of our group or what. Though, I wouldn’t say Claude is part the group, he mostly gets stuck with one of us for projects because he’s also a scholarship kid meaning the rest of the department hates his guts. At first I thought they did it because they wanted to fuck but neither of them wanted to admit to being a bottom, but now I know they’re both straight. Very much so in Claude’s case; he’s never even kissed a boy. Smith however tends to be a bit more fluid, at least from what I can tell.

Smith forfeits their fake fight first; “Tsk, fine. We can go to me and Marlow’s room.”

“Marlow and I.” the wavy-haired brunette corrects him as everyone starts to get unsettled from their spots.

Annie yawns as she gets to the door first, “actually guys I’m pretty tired, I’m going back to my room.

“Me too.” I chime in, “Y’all go on without us.”

Yvette scoffs at us, “Fine, more fun for Smith and Marlow.” She winks at me before stepping out of my dorm and down the hall.

Marlow flashes a confused face at Smith before the two of them leave. Annie picks up her phone from my bed’s edge and hugs me goodnight, she closes the door behind her and as soon as it clicks shut Claude starts stripping his clothes off.

“Why the rush?” I ask sinking back onto his bed.

“I haven’t showered in like two days and I’m covered in shit.” He says as he lifts his shirt over his head.

“Three.” I correct him. It his job that keeps him away at every free moment of the day. If he’s not in class or sleeping he’s at his mystery job that he refuses to talk about. I think he’s a janitor or something along those lines but that wouldn’t explain the weird hours or the dust and dirt, its not like bathroom grime its real under-the-grass dirt. Mud stains if it was raining that day.

As he slips off his jeans that are defiantly a size or two too big I ask him, “What’s with all the dirt?”

He grunts, “Work.”

“Very specific.”

He rolls his eyes and opens the door to our shared restroom and turns the shower on.

“I would like more details, please.”

“It was a long weekend, just worked more then usual, no laundry machines there so it’s not like I could wash my pants before you saw them.” He snaps.

“Just asking, calm down.” I decide not to push it, Claude is already a touchy person already, but I’m guessing he hasn’t slept much at all lately.

I change into a tank top and old shorts while he’s in the shower, waiting till he’s dresses and clothed till I go in there to take care of myself for the night.

“What time is your first class tomorrow?” He asks me.

“Ten.” I say through the tooth brush in my mouth, “That stupid English class they’re making us playwrights take. It’s the absolute worst thing.”

“So I’ve heard. That real flamboyant guy, William, he won’t shut up about it.”

I raise an eyebrow at him, “Non-scholarship kid? They talk to you?”

“No, but he’s loud enough during my dramaturgy class its hard to not to hear when he complains about everything.” He looks at me a moment while I spit into he sink. “Is he any good? At the writing stuff? He talks all this smack whenever Marlow or Oliver even walk by his vicinity. I just gotta know.”

“Ha, absolutely not, he thinks just because he was named after Shakespeare he’s god’s gift, but his shit is so “inspectorial” and “meta” I couldn’t tell you what a damn one was about.”

Claude nods, “A’ight, I’ll bring that up next time he calls Marlow’s play’s basic.”

“I’m surprised Mar’s doesn’t stand up for himself.”

“He’s taken after you,” He says walks to his bed, “just starting ignoring everyone that doesn’t matter. Which I suppose at this point is anyone who doesn’t live on this floor or teach one of his classes.”

“Smart kid.” I say turning off the light to the bathroom.

“Night Butch.” He says quietly.

“G’night Claude.” I respond turning off the dorm room light. As I slip into bed, I think about nothing, nothing at all.

#writing #writers #Smut #violence #tw violence #lgbt #gay

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theyreallidiots · 5 years

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20 questions thing

i was tagged by @strwberieswsugar obrigaadaa 💗

Rules: Answer 20 questions then tag 20 people you want to get to know better

Nicknames: hhhhhh i use “mia” online because that’s what my family used to call me when i was little (also i dont really like my name oops)

Zodiac Sign: sagittarius

Height?: 170cm don’t ask me how much this is in feet because i Do Not know it

Hogwarts 🏠: all my harry potter knowledge comes from starkid musicals but the website said im a hufflepuff so im a hufflepuff

Last thing I googled: “how many emmys did glee win” i was curious jksjkssjks

Favorite Musicians: uh well lets see idk if this counts but imma go ahead and say lin manuel miranda (if you havent listened to the hamilton soundtrack, please make yourself a favor and do it), brendon urie, jeff blim (he’s and amazing songwriter dont @ me) and dONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON QUEEN AND ABBA 10/10 would die for them

Song stuck in my head: la vie boheme from rent because i watched the movie a couple of days ago and also “chorn” from firebringer for absolutely no reason other that my brain likes jamie k. burns’ belting apparently

Following: 267

Followers: 225

Do you gets asks: not usually, it’s more when i make those posts like “send me a number and i’ll tell you which song you are on my spotify saved songs!!”

Amount of 💤: somewhere between 10h and 30min, i have no self control

Lucky number: 4!!

What I’m wearing: white freddie mercury shirt and gray shorts

Dream Job: photographer (if im being honest to myself i wanted to be an actress but a bitch doesnt have any talent ✊🏽)

Instruments: im trying to learn how to play piano (emphasis on trying because im doing it by myself) and i play like the flute/recorder?? but i think that’s pretty normal for every kid that went to 5th/6th grade in portugal lmao

Languages: portuguese and english

10 Favorite Songs: (no order)

the schuyler sisters from hamilton

lea michele’s cover of don’t rain on my parade from glee

the bitch of living from spring awakening

the name of the game by abba

i saw her standing there by the beatles

i was born to love you by queen bc it’s such a bop but lowkey makes me wanna start sobbing

i dont think a song ever hit me as hard as she used to be mine from the musical waitress

wait for it from hamilton. (leslie odom jr’s voice makes me wanna cry?)

stutter from a very potter sequel listen i unironically love this song and you can pry that from my cold dead hands

someone gets hurt from mean girls the musical. am i gay for taylor louderman and her voice? the answer is yes

truth be told i kinda chose some of those songs randomly because i could choose just 10

Random Fact: i’ve been hanging out on tumblr a lot recently because ig and twitter have been giving me major anxiety

Aesthetic: a mixture of 1970′s-wannabe-hipster and musical theatre geek, as of lately (did that even make sense?)

Clubs I support (or just sports teams in general): sporting club of portugal but dont quote me on that just the national soccer team but im portuguese so that’s a given

ugh i sound boring but well at least i tried sigh

im going to tag @showstoppinnumber @kickitupanotchbug @anarrayofwits @gone-to-oregone @blue-shite @robertwstanion @moonblimpie @my-legs-are-jelly @so-i-say-no-to-status-quo @debthestoner @declansdumb @notthe-latte-hottay @fuck-hatchetfield-high @abuginahumanbody @pansexualtrashcannot @verylowbloodsugar @starkidmademebi @abuffalomonster @showstoppingnumbrr @humanities-eleventh-hour

and anyone who wants to do it! obviously u dont have to if u dont want to! also if u already did it or were already tagged sorryyyy

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mill3nniumforc3 · 5 years

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200: My crush’s name is: Russell :) 199: I was born in: April 1994 198: I am really: energetic 197: My cellphone company is: Verizon 196: My eye color is: hazel 195: My shoe size is: 7.5-8.5, depending on the shoe 194: My ring size is: 7.5 193: My height is: 5′5″ 192: I am allergic to: penicillin, cats, pollen, and strong scents 191: My 1st car was: I’ve never owned my own car. 190: My 1st job was: babysitting. First real job was a desk job at my university 189: Last book you read: I don’t remember. I don’t have time to read for leisure. 188: My bed is: comfy 187: My pet: Seamus the miniature schnauzer and Sugar the Aussie-mo 186: My best friend: Ashlyn 185: My favorite shampoo is: Dove 184: Xbox or ps3: neither 183: Piggy banks are: for kids and rainy days 182: In my pockets: nothing 181: On my calendar: going river tubing on Saturday, party next Saturday, trip for T’s birthday weekend, and possibly going to Kennywood and Kings Island sometime in August. 180: Marriage is: something for my future self 179: Spongebob can: do anything 178: My mom: is the bestest 177: The last three songs I bought were?: who buys music anymore? 176: Last YouTube video watched: probably an ASMR video 175: How many cousins do you have?: too many to count 174: Do you have any siblings?: three sisters 173: Are your parents divorced?: no 172: Are you taller than your mom?: yep 171: Do you play an instrument?: piano, drums, bells, and I know three chords of the guitar 170: What did you do yesterday?: sleep [ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: sure 168: Luck: yes 167: Fate: maybe? 166: Yourself: depends on the day 165: Aliens: not really... 164: Heaven: yes 163: Hell: Do I believe in it? Yes, because God is just. Do I believe people are damned there? No, because God is loving. 162: God: yes 161: Horoscopes: no. It’s funny to see “horoscope” posts and see if they apply to me, but it’s a bunch of b.s. A bunch of Aries aren’t going to have the same day/month/year. That’s ridiculous. 160: Soul mates: I’m not sure if I do or don’t, but I do believe in love. 159: Ghosts: no 158: Gay Marriage: of course! 157: War: it’s an unfortunate and unnecessary part of life 156: Orbs: no 155: Magic: yes [ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: both 153: Drunk or High: drunk 152: Phone or Online: online 151: Red heads or Black haired: no comment 150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes 149: Hot or cold: hot 148: Summer or winter: summer 147: Autumn or Spring: spring 146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate 145: Night or Day: night 144: Oranges or Apples: apples 143: Curly or Straight hair: straight 142: McDonalds or Burger King: McD’s (though I’m probably biased because I work there) 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: both 140: Mac or PC: PC 139: Flip flops or high heals: flip flops 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor 137: Coke or Pepsi: neither 136: Hillary or Obama: Obama 135: Burried or cremated: I want to be cremated and have my ashes buried with a seed and grow into a tree 134: Singing or Dancing: dancing 133: Coach or Chanel: neither 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Kat 131: Small town or Big city: small town 130: Wal-Mart or Target: Target 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben 128: Manicure or Pedicure: mani 127: East Coast or West Coast: east coast 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas. My birthday stopped being special after I turned 19. I get good food every year on Christmas. 125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate 124: Disney or Six Flags: Six Flags 123: Yankees or Red Sox: Indians [ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: What is it good for? Absolutely nothing. 121: George Bush: he had some good policies. Better than Trump, that’s for damn sure. 120: Gay Marriage: should never be illegal again. 119: The presidential election: #FuckTrump #VoteBlueNoMatterWho #ImpeachTheMF 118: Abortion: all my life, I was told to be pro-life. These days, I don’t know anymore, but I think my beliefs are closer to pro-choice than pro-life. 117: MySpace: it’s not 2008 anymore. 116: Reality TV: glad it’s not my life 115: Parents: they’re doing their best. I’m not looking to be one anytime soon though. 114: Back stabbers: bye! 113: Ebay: Amazon is better. 112: Facebook: these days, I use it to get laughs and memes. I don’t interact with people I know IRL much. 111: Work: good for the money. Not good for my mental health. 110: My Neighbors: they’re ok. 109: Gas Prices: #ThanksTrump 108: Designer Clothes: I can get good clothes at Target. The only “splurge” I do for clothes is at Spencer’s or Kohl’s. 107: College: I plan to go back soon. 106: Sports: entertaining. 105: My family: family is life. 104: The future: anything can happen [ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: Tuesday. 102: Last time you ate: a couple hours ago (chik’n patties and cheese) 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: last week. I saw a manager I hadn’t worked with in like a month. 100: Cried in front of someone: Monday 99: Went to a movie theater: July 2nd 98: Took a vacation: June 97: Swam in a pool: back in February 96: Changed a diaper: I don’t remember 95: Got my nails done: way too long ago 94: Went to a wedding: in April 93: Broke a bone: 2017 (broke my toe) 92: Got a piercing: 2006 91: Broke the law: never. I’m a good person. 90: Texted: three hours ago [ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: Russell 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my dog 87: The last movie I saw: in theatres, Toy Story 4. At home, Adventures in Babysitting. 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: being off on Saturday 85: The thing im not looking forward to: working tomorrow 84: People call me: Vonnie, Vonn, Bonbon, Sophia, and “the girl” 83: The most difficult thing to do is: not cry while watching Grey’s Anatomy 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never 81: My zodiac sign is: Aries 80: The first person i talked to today was: my sister 79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten. His name was Wally, and we were “boyfriend and girlfriend” til about third grade, and we remained friends til we graduated 8th grade. Haven’t talked to him much since. 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Russell 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Sunday 76: Right now I am talking to: nobody because it’s 3:30am 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I hope to be teaching English education 74: I have/will get a job: I currently work at McDonald’s, but within the next 6-12 months, I’ll be moving out of state, so who knows where I’ll work. 73: Tomorrow: work 72: Today: work 71: Next Summer: I’ll be in a whole new state, so that means new amusement parks to visit and rollies to ride. 70: Next Weekend: party. Oh, and next Saturday makes officially 18 months with me and Russell, so go us! 69: I have these pets: two dogs 68: The worst sound in the world: the beeping in the headset when I work back cash. It haunts my nightmares 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Heather because she sends me to back cash all the time 66: People that make you happy: Russell, my mom, my dogs, Ashlyn, and Aunt Dolly because she sends me lives on Candy Crush 65: Last time I cried: Monday 64: My friends are: Ashlyn, Mikayla, Jon, Rilee, Lamar, Tae, Alexus, Clare, Katie, Mario, and Kel 63: My computer is: all mine because I bought it with my own money 62: My School: not in school 61: My Car: don’t have one 60: I lose all respect for people who: lie 59: The movie I cried at was: Avengers: Endgame 58: Your hair color is: natural 57: TV shows you watch: Grey’s Anatomy, Once Upon a Time, House, The Simpsons, Bob’s Burgers, and... I don’t really watch TV because I don’t have cable. 56: Favorite web site: YouTube 55: Your dream vacation: Just a big coaster trip 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: my period this month. I had cramps for days leading up to my period that were so bad that, the day my period actually came, I couldn’t stand straight. 53: How do you like your steak cooked: I don’t eat steak 52: My room is: a mess, like my life 51: My favorite celebrity is: NPH 50: Where would you like to be: with my boyfriend 49: Do you want children: someday, but not today 48: Ever been in love: ohhh yes. 47: Who’s your best friend: not answering again 46: More guy friends or girl friends: i think i have a fair amount of both 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: this is tmi, but sex with my bf. 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Russell 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: yes 41: Have you pre-named your children: I don’t have any definitive names, but I’m thinking MaryGrace Linda for a girl, and James Sebastian for a boy 40: Last person I got mad at: Anna because she put me on back cash 39: I would like to move to: someplace south 38: I wish I was a professional: dancer.... no, writer.... no, why not both? [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: peanut butter cups 36: Vehicle: Jeep 35: President: FDR 34: State visited: North Carolina (not just saying that because I lived there for two months) 33: Cellphone provider: Verizon 32: Athlete: Trevor Bauer 31: Actor: Justin Chambers 30: Actress: Amy Poehler 29: Singer: Chester Bennington 28: Band: Linkin Park 27: Clothing store: Kohl’s 26: Grocery store: Marc’s 25: TV show: Grey’s Anatomy 24: Movie: 13 Going on 30 23: Website: Pogo 22: Animal: seal 21: Theme park: Cedar Point 20: Holiday: Christmas 19: Sport to watch: baseball 18: Sport to play: softball 17: Magazine: I only read magazines at the dentist office, and I’ll read whichever has an interesting cover story 16: Book: A Series of Unfortunate Events 15: Day of the week: Saturday, as long as I’m not at work. If I’m working, then Mondays, I guess... 14: Beach: Huntington 13: Concert attended: Winter Jam, because I got to see Skillet play, and I met Matthew West. 12: Thing to cook: desserts 11: Food: eggplant parm 10: Restaurant: Olive Garden 9: Radio station: Star 102 8: Yankee candle scent: vanilla 7: Perfume: I don’t wear perfume 6: Flower: Daisies 5: Color: pink 4: Talk show host: Ellen DeGeneres 3: Comedian: Steve Rannazzisi 2: Dog breed: I really like terriers lol 1: did you answer all these truthfully ?: For me to know and you to find out :)

#about me #bored #lol

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annie-thyme · 6 years

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okay but I'm still mad about love, simon not being shown in russia. I mean I got to watch moonlight in theatre last year. they even ran carol, although it was months after the worldwide release. but love, simon doesn’t even have a voiced-over trailer. it’s just the subtitled version on youtube some fans made. and it makes me so mad and it makes me so mad and it makes me so so mad.

there’s this law in russia. it’s called the gay propaganda law and it states that exposure to any kind of gay things will make children gay, and the law is there to protect the children. always protect the children. right.

gay propaganda means books and movies and news websites. information. resources that are quite often crucial for gay kids to survive. support groups. help lines. group chats. anything and everything where at least one adult shares the information and resources they have with lgbtqia youths will get that adult prosecuted. should I even mention gay prides. but yeah. gay prides.

people will tell me to calm down and not get so worked up over one small thing. it’s just one movie. right. it’s just one movie and it’s just queer activists being sued and fined and stalked and threatened and eventually get injured or killed or forced to leave the country. just one activist at a time, no biggie, right?

me? no, I’m not an activist. I got nothing to be worried about. nothing to be afraid of. right. I live on the tenth floor but I’ll give you one guess as to what will happen if I hang the rainbow flag off my balcony. come on. I’m sure you won’t be able to guess wrong. protect the children, remember?

thing is, I’m not an activist because I’m scared. and I’m ashamed to be scared of my identity, ashamed to be so scared that I won’t even reach out and look for an offline queer community. there’s this one I know is legit, but it’s in another city. so what do I do. stay at home and write angry poetry. make rainbow art and pretend it’s just rainbow, and hope for someone to notice. someone like me.

but everyone is scared. it could be a long wait, really.

I mean. what was I thinking. nobody would show a gay movie in theatres during the same month the entire country is supposed to go vote for the dictator people still call president. which has of course already happened. anyone surprised by that.

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fullmetalgunfire · 6 years

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Chapter 4 of my gift fic for @blackwolfchimera. Honestly this might be my favorite chapter so far, I had fun referencing audition songs... Also think it might be the longest one...

Chapter 1 (plus explanation) | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3

The next few days were spent in a haze of bland routine. Go to class, be bored, rinse and repeat until he went home. The one thing that stood out was walking by that sign up sheet several times a day. He kept eyeing it, debating if he should write down his name. It wasn’t like he was that into theatre, but it’d please Winry if he at least tried. Get her off his back about it...

Yeah, that’s why he was interested in trying. It had nothing to do with vague hopes Roy was interested in doing it too. Or not much, anyway.

At lunchtime the day the auditions would be held, he was standing in front of the sheet of paper with a pencil in his hand, willing himself to actually write his name down.

“Ed? Why are you standing in the middle of the hall?”

Ed jumped about a foot in the air, dropping his pencil in the process and then, somehow, managing to put his foot in exactly the wrong position to have the pencil roll underneath it and make his foot fly out from underneath him, crashing to the floor.

“Fuck! Ow!” He exclaimed with a grimace, pushing himself up, “I’m not doing anything. Why do you have to be such a... Sneaky bastard?”

Roy laughed and reached down to help him up with a shake of his head, “Not my fault you’re a klutz.”

“I’m not a klutz, you’re an asshole! A... Too quiet asshole!”

Roy just laughed again at that. “So, going to tell me what you were doing? Or are you gonna lie to me again?”

“Well… I was… I’m gonna give auditioning a shot,” he admitted, his cheeks coloring pink as he tried to shrug it off and act like it wasn’t a big deal, “I thought it could be fun. At least it’d get Winry off my back about it.”

“Mm, not a bad reason, I guess...” Roy hummed, glancing at the sheet himself. His face was oddly unreadable again, but Ed thought he could see wheels turning. Maybe... Considering?

“Were you gonna do it?” he asked slowly, trying not to get his hopes up. It was hard not to, though, when it was starting to look more and more like Roy wanted to do it, too. Between the way he sounded talking about karaoke, and that look on his face...

Roy shook himself out of his thoughts and glanced over at Ed, opening his mouth to speak just as the warning bell rang.

“Shit, gotta go! See you later!” Ed called quickly as he took off down the hallway, a hopeful flutter starting in his stomach as he imagined himself at the auditions with Roy.

Later that day, after school was over, he walked slowly into the theatre and was a little surprised to hear Winry calling his name from where she’d crouched down in one of the aisles.

“Oh, hey,” he said, wandering over and blinking at her, “Why are you on the floor?”

“Oh, well, we’re not allowed to be working on stage during auditions,” she answered, gesturing to the piece of plywood she’s painting, which he guessed was part of the set, “But the sets are a lot more complicated than usual for this show, so we can’t just take the day off...”

“So you’re Ed,” the girl next to her said, smiling at him, “Winry told me about you, I didn’t think you’d show...”

“Wasn’t sure I was going to, but might as well audition...” he said, voice trailing off as the door opening again caught his attention, unable to help smiling as he saw Roy striding in, “Hey! Roy! Didn’t think you’d make it!”

“I got lucky, practice got canceled...” Roy said, coming over with a laugh, blinking in confusion when he came around and spotted the girls in the aisle, “What-”

“Working on something for the sets,” Winry answered quickly, “I’m Winry. Ed’s friend.”

“Oh! Right, he’s mentioned you...” Roy said, giving her a charming smile before turning to the other girl, “Are you a friend of Ed’s too?”

“Nah, we only just met...” she said, grinning at Roy in a way Ed really didn’t understand. It looked... Knowing.

“Oh, right, I forgot to introduce you!” Winry said quickly, “Ed, this is my friend Paninya, she’s in the same tech class as me...”

“Nice to meet you,” she said cheerfully, “Seriously... I hope you two are good, because we could really use some new talent around here. Maybe we can finally do our sets justice!”

“It can’t be that bad, can it?” Roy asked, frowning at them, “I thought the theatre department was good...”

“The tech department is. The actors... Not so much,” Winry explained, frowning back at him, “How do you not know that? Haven’t you been going here the whole time?”

“Well, yeah, but I... Never managed to make it to one of the shows...”

“People talk about it. All the time,” she said, giving him a skeptical look.

“I... Haven’t paid much attention to anything but basketball and class,” he admitted sheepishly after a long moment, mumbling as if he hoped they wouldn’t actually be able to hear him.

Both of the girls stared at him for a long moment before Paninya burst out laughing and Winry just turned to give Ed an incredulous look.

“Really Ed? This is what you’ve been flirting with?”

Ed immediately sputtered, turning red. “I haven’t been flirting with him!”

“Alright, everyone!” the teacher called out, cutting off their conversation before it could go any further, “We’d better get started... I hope you all put your name on the sign up form? I’ll be using that to keep track of your names...”

“Uh, excuse me?” Roy called out, “I didn’t put my name on... I wasn’t sure I’d be able to come...”

Mr. Garfiel gave him a displeased look that made Ed wince in sympathy. He was pretty sure the only reason Roy was spared any further wrath was the handful of other students making noises of agreement across the theatre.

“You’re all lucky I printed extras of everything,” he sighed, waving a hand toward the table set up at the front, “I put the sheet down there, hurry and add your names before we get started...”

Roy grimaced as he headed to the front with the handful of other students, and the teacher continued as if he hadn’t been interrupted.

“Now, the show we’re putting on this time is very special,” he said, beaming, “I’ve been trying to put on something like this for years...”

“Wait, why would he have to wait to put on a certain show?” Ed asked with a confused scowl, “Isn’t he in charge?”

“Ed, keep your voice down,” Winry shot back, keeping her voice low, “He is, but the administration still has to approve his choices. I don’t know if it was because he wanted to do a gay show or an original one, but they wouldn’t let him. Not until now, anyway...”

“He was gushing about it in class for a month before break,” Paninya commented, “Pretty much from the second he got approval...”

“Sounds kind of annoying...”

“Yeah, a bit. But mostly because we were supposed to be working...”

“Did I miss something?” Roy asked as he drifted back over to them.

“Just explaining something to Ed, don’t worry about it,” Winry said, waving a hand at him dismissively. He shrugged it off after a moment, leaning on the wall very close to Ed, who suddenly found it a bit hard to focus on what the teacher was saying. Not that he’d been paying much attention in the first place...

“I’d like to introduce our writer for this show, Mei Chang...” he said, gesturing to a girl who was absolutely tiny in every sense of the world and was glaring daggers at a boy in the front row, “She’s done an excellent job...”

“Yeah, if you don’t mind it sounding like a cheesy romance novel,” Winry snorted, not looking away from her work.

“I say fan fiction, personally,” Paninya commented mildly, poking up to look toward the stage, “And it’s not that bad, if it’s played right... Oh, the drama’s started up already. Great...”

“So that’s her cousin? Or whatever?” Ed asked, eyeing the boy she’d been glaring at.

“Yeah, that’s Ling,” Paninya hummed with a nod, “I really hope he doesn’t get the lead this time, for once. Sometimes I think it’s gone to his head a bit...”

“Wait, you two have already read the script?” Roy asked, leaning over to look past Ed at the girls.

Winry looked up with a frown. “Well yeah, it’s on the school website... Didn’t you? To prep for the audition?”

“We’re supposed to prepare?”

“Now if you could all take one of the forms on the table and fill it out,” Mr. Garfiel call out before anyone answered him, “It’s to provide more in depth information to help with my casting choices later. Previous experience, scheduling conflicts, that sort of thing...”

“Go on,” Winry said, giving them a sympathetic smile (which just left Ed dreading whatever it was she was doing that over), “Mr. Garfiel’s going to like you even less if you dawdle...”

“Right...” Ed sighed, following Roy over to the table, grumbling in frustration as people cut him off when he tried to grab a form.

“Hey Ed,” Roy called over from where he was standing, over to the side using the stage as a table to write on, “Over here, I grabbed a second one for you...”

“Oh. Thanks...” he said, wandering over and standing beside him, “You got a pen?”

“Yeah, just a second,” he said, frowning at the sheet in front of him, “You think I should put basketball practice on here? I mean, it’ll only be a problem until the game, then I’m free...”

“Uh... Yeah, just put it down to be safe,” Ed replied after a moment, glancing at the teacher, “I get the feeling we’re not going to be well liked around here, not for awhile... Better to not make it any worse, right?”

“Right,” Roy said with a sigh, scribbling it down before handing over the pen, “I think we’re getting in over our heads with this. Did you know we were supposed to prepare at all?”

“Not a clue,” Ed answered, shaking his head a bit and frowning down at his own page, “What do I even put if I have... Nothing?”

“No what?”

“No... Anything,” Ed said, gesturing vaguely at the page, “No experience, no conflicts...”

“I don’t know... That n-slash-a thing?”

“Yeah, I guess,” he sighed back, scribbling it down quickly and giving Roy back his pen, frowning at the almost blank paper in his hands, “This looks like shit.”

“No kidding,” Roy said, holding up his own sheet, which wasn’t much better, “At least you don’t have scheduling conflicts... So what now?”

“When you’re done, just put it in a stack on that table for me...” Mr. Garfiel called out a moment later, “Then take a seat somewhere near the stage, so you’re ready when I call on you...”

“Well, guess that answers that,” Ed said with a bit of a laugh, going over and starting the stack, Roy and a couple others following a moment later.

The pair of them managed to find seats at the front, falling silent as they waited. Not that it took long... It seemed like just about everyone was either heading up or heading back to their seats by the time they sat down. Apparently no one was taking that long with the form... Even Ling, who was the last one finished, was only a moment behind everyone else.

“Well, now that everyone is done with that,” Mr. Garfiel called out from his own seat, now holding the sign up sheet, “We’ll be starting with your audition songs. I’ll be calling on you in the order you signed up, please have sheet music ready if you want accompaniment...”

The teacher gestured to the piano on stage, and Ed looked over, feeling dread drop into his stomach. He hadn’t realized they’d want them to bring their own songs to sing. What the hell was he supposed to do?

“We’re supposed to bring music?” Roy said softly, echoing his thoughts and looking even more panicked than Ed felt, as they watched Ling go up and sing a song Ed didn’t recognize, “I had no idea we were supposed to bring music...”

“Me neither. Shit, what the fuck are we supposed to do?”

“I have no idea,” Roy replied as Ling was cut off by praise from Mr. Garfiel, and the next girl was called up, “At least it looks like we only have to sing a little bit of it...”

“Yeah, I guess that’s good...” Ed said slowly, making a face as the new girl started to sing, “Is she seriously doing that song from Frozen?”

“I guess...” Roy said, snorting as he glanced over at Mr. Garfiel’s much less pleased expression, “It looks like he’s not that happy with her choice...”

“Yeah. Probably heard it one too many times...” Ed said with a bit of a laugh, then shook his head, “Fuck, what are we supposed to pick that he will like?”

“I... Have no idea,” Roy replied slowly, watching the teacher sigh in exasperation as another girl came up and started singing that one song from Les Miserables everyone knew, “Guess not anything too popular...”

“The only theatre shit I know is the popular stuff!” Ed protested.

“I know...” Roy sighed, “I guess... Just try to sound good? He can’t hate it just on song choice, right?”

“Yeah, guess not...” Ed agreed slowly, “I mean... Everybody so far has kinda been only OK...”

“Right,” Roy said with a nod, “So try to sound good, and try to make a better impression with the rest of the audition.”

“Yeah... There’s got to be more than just this part, right?”

“Well, he did say we were starting with this...”

“Right,” Ed said, groaning a bit, “I still have no idea what I’m going to sing, though.”

“Neither do I...” Roy sighed, falling silent as they watched the other auditions, and the teacher’s reaction to them. There was one boy, a couple people after that, that seemed to be doing another of those stereotypical songs, but Mr. Garfiel’s face relaxed after his initial cringe, looking... Not really pleased, but at least satisfied. Ed immediately relaxed.

“I’m just going to sing whatever the person before me sang,” Ed said after a moment.

“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” Roy asked, turning to frown at him.

Ed shrugged. “What else am I supposed to do? I don’t have sheet music on me. And everybody’s had the piano so far...”

“Good point. Probably look even more unprepared without it...” Roy sighed, “Still. What if it’s a girl? I mean, the song would be too high for us then, wouldn’t it?”

“Well... Just have to deal, I guess.”

Ed was called up a moment later.

“Well, guess it’s your lucky day,” Roy hummed after a moment, “Guess you’ll be singing Stars...”

“Right. Fuck...” he sighed, but stood anyway, giving him a halfhearted smile that verged on a cringe, “Wish me luck...”

He quickly headed up onto the stage, waving at the piano player, “Can you play that last one again?”

The girl blinked at him, surprised, but shrugged it off and kept playing.

Ed managed to make it through about as much of the song as the last guy had before the teacher cut him off, immediately wincing at his... Less than pleased tone. He hadn’t thought he’d sounded that bad, though admittedly he’d been more focused on trying to remember the words.

“What, was I awful?” he said as he sat back down beside Roy.

“I didn’t think so,” Roy shrugged, “I thought you sounded good. You were making a weird face though...”

“Was trying to remember the damn words...” he muttered, sinking down in his seat as he watched another girl, one of those that had added their names last minute, did a pretty damn good version of Part of Your World without accompaniment.

And when he glanced over, the teacher looked pleased.

“Well, I guess accompaniment isn’t as big a deal as we thought...” Roy said slowly as he watched the teacher’s reaction.

“Yeah. Damn it...” Ed muttered, looking irritated, “Guess at least you know that now...”

“Yeah...” Roy said, wincing as he was called up, “Guess I’m just going to have to do the first thing that comes to mind...”

“Good luck,” Ed replied, giving him a half smile as he walked up to the stage.

When Roy got up there, he just stood there for a long moment, looking almost panicked. Ed cringed in sympathy... Clearly he was having a hard time coming up with something to sing.

“Any time now,” the teacher said, sounding impatient.

Roy visibly shook himself out of it, hesitating a moment before singing a song Ed didn’t recognize at all. It... Wasn’t great. His voice sounded fine, of course, better than several of the others even, but the song choice was... Odd. And the look on Roy’s face, getting worse the longer he stood there, made it clear he was completely aware of this.

Ed was trying not to laugh at him. It wasn’t fair, not at the moment, but he just looked so... Uncharacteristically awkward.

“Well, I think that’s enough of that,” Mr. Garfiel interrupted briskly, noting something down.

Roy cringed and headed off stage, dropping into the seat beside Ed with a sigh. He paused for a minute, then turned to give him a look. “I can tell you want to laugh...”

“Sorry,” he said, the laughter slipping out as soon as he opened his mouth, “I swear I’m not laughing at you...”

“Yes you are.”

“No! I wanted to laugh at how awkward you looked!”

“That counts!”

“Well, maybe, but it was funny. Especially because you’re not usually like that...” he said, shrugging a bit, “What song was that, anyway? It was such a weird thing to sing...”

“First thing that popped into my head,” he mumbled, sighing a bit before he admitted, “It’s this... Opening to an anime. One of my aunt’s girls likes it, she was showing it to me yesterday, just sort of... Got stuck in my head.”

“Seriously?” Ed said, trying to fight off laughter again.

Roy turned to him with a halfhearted glare. “If you laugh again...”

“Oh come on, that one’s funny!”

It only takes a few more minutes to get through the rest of the songs, and then Mr. Garfiel cleared his throat.

“Well, that went... Well,” he said, “Now we’ll be moving on to dialogue... I’m going to pair everyone up based on their performance so far, and give you one of three short excerpts to do... One for two boys, one for two girls, one for a boy and a girl, that sort of thing. Just come up here to collect the scenes when I call your name, then take a few minutes to go over the scene with your partner and decide what you want to do.”

Then he started rattling off names, calling Roy and Ed up together toward the end of the list.

“I get the feeling we’re not doing well so far,” Ed commented as they sat back down to look over the scene, “He didn’t look pleased when he saw us...”

“No, he didn’t...” Roy sighed, flipping through the pages, “Wow, the girls... Really weren’t wrong about the way it sounds. Why is it so... Dramatic?”

“Well, it is drama...”

“Yeah, but... Look at it,” Roy huffed as Ed started reading and almost immediately winced, “Do people ever really talk like that?”

“Uh, not really...” Ed said slowly, “Though, I mean... Looks like it’s a fight? Those can get pretty dramatic...”

“Yeah, that’s true,” Roy sighed... frowning at the pages, “I don’t know what to do with this.”

“Me neither. I mean... What are they even fighting about?”

“Well they... Seem to be lovers? Fighting over... Something the one did. Or didn’t do...”

“Yeah, not a lot to go on... Guess we’ll just have to pick something to go with it. Who do you want to play?”

“I don’t know. Flip a coin?”

They didn’t actually flip a coin, mostly because neither one had one on them, but instead just picked at random. They read through the scene for a moment, both trying to decide what to do with it, until they were interrupted by the first pair being called up.

It was Ling and some other boy who hadn’t made an impression on Ed, and the scene was... Interesting. Ling spent the whole time laughing off the argument in a pretty over the top way, while the other guy... Well, he wasn’t bad, but he still didn’t leave an impression on Ed.

Other pairs went up, one by one, and they all started doing the same thing... Playing their scenes just as dramatically as Ling had, with mixed results.

After a couple pairs it started getting repetitive, and Ed tuned out. “We’ve got to figure out how to make this scene sound less stupid...”

“No kidding,” Roy sighed, shaking his head a little, “I don’t want to make it as dramatic as everyone else, but... I have no idea how. It’s a pretty dramatic scene...”

“Guess just... Try to make it sound like a real argument?” Ed offered.

They head up on stage a minute later, and as he’s walking up Ed still has no idea what they’re going to do. He ends up going for barely contained anger for his part... Because, well, every argument he’s ever gotten into has either involved him yelling or barely not yelling, so it seems like it would work. Roy sounds more pleading, like someone who knows he’s done wrong but is trying to make it seem like not that big a deal. Ed thinks it works... At least, it sounds more like a real, everyday argument then the rest of the scenes.

When he looks over at the table, though, his stomach drops. Mr. Garfiel looked, at best, unimpressed... The writer, Mei, looked a little bit happier with the performance, but she mostly just looked hopeful rather than actually pleased. It didn’t go well again.

“Well, at least we tried...” Roy sighed as they sat back down.

“Yeah. Winry can’t yell at me for not trying...” Ed said with a halfhearted little smile... He’d actually started to look forward to this. Or, well, he had started to look forward to the prospect of doing it with Roy.

“Well, that’s basically it...” Mr Garfiel called out a little later, after the last pair finished their scene, “The girls can leave if they want, but if I could ask the boys to stay just a little longer? I want to make sure our leads have chemistry, so I want you to pair up with the person you think you’d do best with and sing a bit of one of their duets... The song is attached to the scenes I gave you.”

Roy perked up a bit. “Last chance to prove ourselves?”

“Yeah, I guess,” Ed said, smiling a bit again, “You and me? I mean, we did well with the karaoke, right?”

“Definitely.”

They reviewed the song for a minute, and Ed felt himself getting hopeful. They could really pull this one off... Especially with how overdramatic Ling and his partner made it, and how everyone followed their direction. He and Roy could do this, not make it stupid, and stand out. He waited, anticipating one of their names being called, as each pair went up to sing the duet.

“Well, that went... Well. I’d like to thank you all for auditioning...” Mr. Garfiel called out, gathering up his papers, when everyone except them had sung, “I’ll be either posting a cast list or a call back list in the next couple days, depending on how the decisions go...”

“Wait, what?” Ed blurted out in protest as the other students started filing out of the theatre, “What about us? We didn’t get a chance to do the duet...”

“Mei, could you clean up these scripts and forms for me, take them to my office?” the teacher said pleasantly before rounding on them, looking at them coldly, “You two are out of the running. For anything.”

“What?” Ed said, gaping, “I mean, I know we didn’t do great, but can’t we have a turn too? We should get another chance...”

“It would be fair, everyone else went,” Roy added, though his voice was lower, almost like he was commenting more to himself or Ed than to the teacher.

“No one else was as big a disaster as you two,” Mr. Garfiel replied harshly, “I’ve never seen a worse audition. I already gave you another chance! Your solos went bad enough, but I thought, maybe you could turn it around with the scene, but no. You didn’t even bother reading the summary of the script, did you?”

“We didn’t know-”

“The sign up sheet said it was available on the website. Right at the bottom.”

“What, seriously?” Ed said, jerking around to look at the sheet, which was still laying on the table nearby. He could see text now, but... “Oh come on, that’s so small! I can barely see it!”

“Regardless,” the teacher said dismissively, “You were massively unprepared, and I have no room in this production for people who can’t work hard and take this seriously.”

“But we can-” Ed started, but Mr. Garfiel just huffed and turned away.

“I have no reason to give you two any more chances.”

The teacher left without another word, leaving both of them sitting in stunned silence.

“That... May have been the worst scolding I’ve ever gotten,” Roy said after a long moment, “At least from a teacher...”

“Definitely up there...” Ed commented himself, cringing as he shook his head, “Damn it. We should have been prepared, this wouldn’t have turned into such a disaster...”

“Neither of us knew what we were getting into...” Roy tried to reassure him, sighing and running a hand through his hair with a sheepish look on his face, “I’ve got to admit... I was really hoping we’d both get cast. Maybe... Get to know each other...”

He smiled back, just a little. “Yeah, me-” he started, whipping around when he heard a noise from the stage, the writer girl having tripped on something and sent papers flying everywhere, “Too... Hey, are you alright?”

The girl’s head snapped up as he came rushing up on stage, immediately giving him a weird smile he... Really didn’t understand in the slightest.

“I’m fine,” she said, “Some id- Somebody just left their bag up here, I didn’t see it with all these papers...”

“What kind of moron just leaves their things laying around in people’s way?” Ed huffed, starting to pick up the papers, “Here, let me help you with that...”

“Oh thank you so much!” she gushed at him, which seemed pretty over the top for something so simple, then proceeded to completely ignore Roy as he came up to them and started to help.

“To be honest... Might not be fair to call whoever it was a moron...” she admitted after a long moment, “I kind of wasn’t paying attention...”

“Why not?” Ed blinked at her, “I mean, kind of seems like you should on a stage, especially when they’re working on the sets already...”

“I know...” she said, ducking her head and looking embarrassed, “I guess I’m just... Upset at the audition...”

Ed winced. “Yeah, sorry about that...”

“Oh, no no no, not you!” she rushed to exclaim, dropping some papers again as she waved her hands, “Well, I mean... You two were kind of a disaster, but I’m not upset about that! It’s... Stupid, stupid Ling...”

“Yeah, my friend mentioned you two didn’t get along...”

“That’s not just it!” she complained, looking miserable, “I’d put up with him if I had to, but did you see what he did with the script? The song? He’s going to ruin my show! Even if we don’t give him a lead, and no one else was that good, he’d still ruin it just... Just by existing! You saw what happened, how they all copied him... He’s always gotten the lead, so everyone thinks that’s what you’re supposed to do, and- Oh, I worked so hard on this!”

“It was pretty overdramatic...” Roy hummed in agreement, eyeing her thoughtfully for a moment before continuing, “Just out of curiosity, what’s it supposed to be like? We couldn’t figure out what the scene was about...”

“Oh, right, you two weren’t prepared...” she said before getting this dreamy look on her face as she continued, “Well, it starts with this rich boy who doesn’t care about anything or anyone except himself... All he wants is to party and have fun, and his mother is desperate to get him to change, even just a little, so she hires him a new tutor. He’s irritated at first, because he thinks he’s too old for tutors and it cuts into his time for himself, but the man she hires is surprisingly attractive so he decides to have some fun and seduce him, then use that to get what he wants. The tutor resists his advances at first, but then succumbs, only by then they’ve started to genuinely bond and instead of it being purely physical like the rich boy wanted, they enter into a real relationship. A secret, forbidden relationship... And as they get closer and closer, the rich boy starts seeing commitment on the horizon and, panicking, tries to keep his tutor at arms length. It all comes to a head at the end of the first act, when they argue about it and the rich boy tries to dismiss his concerns, unaware that his tutor has gotten an offer to study at a prestigious institution far away he’s always dreamed about, and is torn between staying and continuing their relationship or taking the offer, and is just desperately looking for some reason to believe his lover really feels the same for him...”

“Oh. Wow...” Ed said, blinking at her... Enthusiastic description of the plot. “Yeah, I can see why you’d be upset, playing that scene like that would be all kinds of wrong... Though we played it pretty wrong too...”

“Guess that explains why Mr. Garfiel wasn’t pleased with what we did...” Roy hummed, “So, that duet... I’m guessing it comes after?”

She hummed and nodded. “Beginning of act two. The tutor moved away to take the offer and is trying to move on with his life, but regrets how it ended and wishes it could have been different, while the distance makes the rich boy realize his mistake, and his feelings, so he travels to see him and try to set things right...”

“Doesn’t seem like there’d be a whole lot of plot after that...” Ed commented, frowning a bit, “Definitely not half the story...”

“Well, the tutor started dating somebody else in the meantime, and is really hurt over what happened,” Mei said with a shrug, “The second act mostly deals with the rich boy trying to separate the two of them, and slowly realizing he wants to do it because the relationship is making his former lover unhappy, not just so they’ll get back together, and that he wants him happy even if it’s not with him... Though, I mean, they do get back together. I wanted a happy ending...”

“That’s... Pretty good, actually,” Ed said, giving her a bit of a smile (and wondering why she ducked her head at that... Was she shy about people complimenting her work or something?), “Wish I could see it done right...”

“Why don’t we give it a try?” Roy offered, “The duet, at least. We’re here anyway, it’d be nice even if it is just us...”

“Well, you two were my favorite pair who did that scene...” she said slowly, “I mean, it was all wrong, but at least you didn’t turn it into some stupid, awful-”

“Yeah, what the hell, let’s do it,” Ed interrupted before she could ramp up any further, “Think you could play the song for us, Mei?”

“Oh, well... I’m not as good with piano, but...” she said, getting up and going over to the instrument, starting to play the intro to the song. It wasn’t as smooth as the girl who’d been playing for the auditions, but it was good enough for their little impromptu performance.

Roy found the lyrics on one of the little scripts Mei had been carrying when she’d tripped, and they started singing it as they leaned on the piano, standing close together to both see the paper. And it seemed to go well... Now that they had some context, they seemed to fall into the roles naturally, the performance coming easily.

“Oh, you were so good!” Mei cried out as soon as she got to the end, “Why can’t we cast you two, you’d actually do it right!”

“I’m starting to think the same thing.”

Ed jerked around to see Mr. Garfiel standing behind them. “Oh, shit, we... Uh...”

“Were giving the best audition of the day?” he offered with a bit of a smile, then sighed and shook his head, “I’ll admit you two have potential. If you weren’t so unreliable...”

“We didn’t really know what we were getting into, sir,” Roy pointed out slowly, “Neither of us has ever done this before... We should have done a better job, but we had no idea...”

The teacher hummed noncommittally, eyeing them critically for a long moment. “Alright. I’ll give you another chance.”

“Wait, seriously?” Ed exclaimed, eyes going wide.

“Well, that was the best duet by far. I’ll let you come back for callbacks...” he said before pointing at them accusingly, “But you have to prove to me you can commit to this show. Be prepared, be reliable, willing to work hard and be dedicated... If you don’t convince me you are, I don’t care how good you are, I won’t cast you in anything. Understand?”

“Absolutely.”

“Yeah, of course!”

“Alright... I’ll see you at callbacks, then,” he said, picking up the bag from the corner and heading back out of the theatre.

Mei almost squealed in delight. “Oh, this is going to be great! I’m practicing with you both so you have the best call backs ever... Don’t you dare back out, either! I’m counting on you two to save my show!”

“Yeah, alright,” Roy said with a bit of a chuckle, “Just tell us what you want us to do...”

#royed #(i wanted to squeeze in even more references but...#ran out of ideas a bit -erin)#our stuff #our writing

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chibipu · 6 years

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Tagged by @aphnorsea !! Thank you so much for tagging me! It's been awhile since I've done one of these

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag people

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Coca-Cola 2. Phone call: my mama <3 3. Text message: one of my best friends 4. Song you listened to: Mr. Clean by Young Gravy 5. Time you cried: unfortunately yesterday during lunch

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: lmao yea, I kind of don't regret it 😂 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: I have kissed someone but I didn't regret it 8. Been cheated on: nope! 9. Lost someone special: I think that's about to happen soon. I can feel it coming but I'm working hard to keep it strong! Gotta have some faith! 10. Been depressed: this week I have been, some issues have been coming up lately 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope. I don't plan to either!

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14. I like all shades of blue, yellow, and red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: I've made a ton of new friends and gosh!! They're all sweethearts ;w; 16. Fallen out of love: yes 17. Laughed until you cried: Yes, I have! The joke was funny but I was also pretty sad so I started crying heheh 18. Found out someone was talking about you: I mean we all have, right? Usually they just say I'm quiet and don't talk much 19. Met someone who changed you: yes, and they are the person that's drifting away from me ;w; 20. Found out who your friends are: yep! They're the people who make me happy and look forward to a new day! 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: lmao wtf no

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I don't have Facebook lol 23. Do you have any pets: i have two smol chihuahuas, a smol yorkie, and a tol bulldog. I also have 3 goats, a pig, and a cat!! 24. Do you want to change your name: absolutely not! my name has meaning to my family and I wouldn't change it for the world! 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I think I just hung out with the fam... I don't exactly remember 26. What time did you wake up: I woke up at 5:54am but then I fell back asleep for 5 minutes

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was watching anything related to marvel or captain america... also procrastinating

28. Name something you can’t wait for: getting the fuck out of high school. I don't want to deal with any of these teachers anymore

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: i’m sitting in the living room with her 😂 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my awkwardness

31. What are you listening to right now: Glorious (ft. Skylar Grey) by Macklemore

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope! 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my best friend has been avoiding me for a week. almost going onto 2 weeks. 34. Most visited website: Tumblr. 35. Mole/s: EVERYWHERE 36. Mark/s: Mostly on my arms and legs. Those are scars from being too rough in activities. I have one scar on the start of my eyebrow that goes to my forehead (there's also a little indent on my forehead from that scar). 37. Childhood dream: i have always wanted to be a superhero. The heroes that I aspired to be would be The Flash or Captain America. I thought they were awesome!! I started playing sports and running a lot so I could be as strong and fast as them. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a superhero to save people, to keep my family safe and “everyone in the entire universe” lol 38. Hair color: blackish/brownish 39. Long or short hair: long hair 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes... my best friend who is the one avoiding me.... who is the “"issue” of the week. He likes me or one of my best friends and I'm torn because she also likes him and I don't know what to do... 41. What do you like about yourself?: My fighting spirit and stubbornness? Like I get determined when I think of saving people and actually doing something for the world. If i get hurt, i tend to shake it off and get back into the fight and help my team out. My stubbornness could be a gift or a curse depending on the situation lol 42. Piercings: just ear piercings but i never wear earrings 43. Blood type: O- or O+. I'm not sure which one though 44. Nickname: My-My, MJ, Mya-Papaya, or Papaya 45. Relationship status: im experienced but I'm single rn 46. Zodiac: i’m a taurus 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show(s): Supernatural, Sherlock, The Walking Dead, South Park, Riverdale, Stranger Things, and pretty much all the basics i guess 50. Right or left hand: im right handed!! 51. Surgery: never had surgery 52. Hair dyed in different color: i wish i could! My hair is super dark so I don't want to risk ruining my hair by bleaching it ;w; ive always wanted pastel pink 53. Sport: LETS GO FÚTBOL 55. Vacation: i’ve always wanted to go to europe. Anywhere! It doesn't matter just take me there and I'd be happy! I'd also like to go to Japan! 56. Pair of trainers: my adidas are my life

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: Canes 58. Drinking: Still coke 59. I’m about to: go do some homework 61. Waiting for: the journey of a lifetime 62. Want: someone to love! someone to care for and look out for! a shoulder to cry on! 63. Get married: aaa... I'm waiting for that day to come. I just want a happy marriage 64. Career: i want to be either and artist for disney (?), engineer, architect, or a songwriter if I can! I REALLY want to be a firefighter so I could help people but I don't think I'm physically ready for that ;w;

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: WHY NOT BOTH 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: lol I'm 5′1 everyone is going to be taller than me 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: AGAIN WHY NOT BOTH 71. Sensitive or loud: It'd be nice if they were a mix of the two but I'd prefer loud 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship! hook ups are a little sketchy 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant? troublemaker? which should I choose~?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: nope! 75. Drank hard liquor: nope! 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: many, many times... 77. Turned someone down: yes.... I regret it 78. Sex on the first date: NO 79. Broken someone’s heart: i think i did.... if I did recently then i’m truly sorry 80. Had your heart broken: going through that right now..... 81. Been arrested: I’VE GOT A PROBLEM WITH AUTHORITY (lmao no I've never been arrested) 82. Cried when someone died: who the hell doesn't? 83. Fallen for a friend: like the person who tagged me... #ATTACKED IM FEELING PERSONALLY ATTACKED

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: i try! 85. Miracles: 100% 86. Love at first sight: I'm not sure..... 87. Santa Claus: SANTA IS REAL 88. Kiss on the first date: lmao I actually had my first kiss on my first date so I guess it's fine if you want to do it

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Nic, Vannah, and Ellie!! ;3 91. Eye colour: DARK AS HELL BROWN THAT ALMOST LOOKS BLACK 92. Favourite movie: ANY MARVEL MOVIE (they always make me feel badass when i walk out the theatre lol)

Don't know that many people to tag but to my two smol beans @moody-gay and @anemischan

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saidtheredhead · 7 years

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baby gay books.

Originally posted July 20, 2017.

I was back in LA for a month or so and one day I randomly had the urge to check out the library and renew my card. I was really pleased to see that LAPL was really promoting pride month with prominently displayed shelves of LGBTQ Young Adult books, big colorful spreads on the homepage of the website, and even a shoutout printed on all the receipts! It warmed my little gay nerd heart. I love the YA genre and all of its teen angst. Mostly because of academic burnout, I have a hard time making myself pay attention to fancy “adult” books. I get so tired of big words, and I like the instant gratification of tearing through “easy” emotionally saturated YA novels. I went back to my two local branches every few days and walked out with tall stacks overloading my arms. I wanted to write a lot about each one, but that makes me procrastinate on posting, so I'm just going to write a little blurb of whatever comes to mind! Happy to give more detailed recommendations if you want something to read though! (Heads up though, I pulled some of my favorite quotes that I had to mark down while reading, and they might contain spoilers!)

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz (*****)

This is such a wonderful lovely read! Very tender book about summertime friendship. Does have some scary homophobic violence and hospital stuff, but it does not end in tragedy, at all! Both of the protagonists are Mexican American and they talk about their families.

I wondered what it was like to hold someone's hand. I bet you could sometimes find all of the mysteries of the universe in someone's hand.

Simon vs The Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli

So cute! Especially fond of it, because a lot of it centers around rehearsal for Oliver. Pretty heavy public outing plotline. Not everyone is white! Simon, the protagonist, is in a virtual relationship with someone at his school, and it reads kind of like a mystery novel, but the payoff is so lovely and bubbly.

I don’t even know. I’m just so sick of straight people who can’t get their shit together.

You Know Me Well by Nina LaCour & David Levithan (*****)

THIS BOOK IS SO GOOD. I picked it out of the stack on a whim in my last few days in the city, and it was the best one I read. SUCH beautiful and diverse representations of queer relationships: crushes, friend groups, sudden best friends and mended old best friends, friends for dancing/laughing and for watching depression movies in bed all day. There was even a scene at a queer spoken word fundraiser, with all the poems printed out in full. Such beautiful angst. One of the poets was genderqueer and used they/them pronouns! In a popular published book! Seriously, go run and read this one, it's heart-warming and cute and real.

Mark: I look at him in his Star Wars T-shirt and anchor-print boxers, clutching a pillow on this bed we have spent so much of our time in, and what I realize is that somehow, without even knowing it, I have stepped out of love with him, and where I've stepped instead may end up being the better place. I have to step out of love with him, because the ground I've always wanted to be there was never really there. He is capable of giving that ground, but I am not the one he wants to give it to. Instead I have the ground we've grown all these years. I love him indestructibly, and I care about him at a root-level, but in this three-breath-long moment I can understand that the two of us will never be boyfriends, never be husbands, never be everything to each other in that way. I can let that go, and hold tight to everything else. It should feel like a retreat. It should feel like my love is diminishing and my feelings are contracting. But instead I have a sense that they're expanding. And they are doing it because they have to.

Mark: Katie smiles. "Yes--the heart is a treacherous beast, but it means well. That just about sums it up." "What they never tell you is that it's actually the friendship part that's harder. Kissing is easy. Kissing has its own politics, but at the end of the day, it's kissing. It's the real stuff--the being-part-of-each-other's-lives piece of it--" "--being close to twins without being twins--" "Yes! That is both the challenge and the reward." I look at Katie and know that sometimes it isn't all that hard, that sometimes you can just fall into step with someone and keep pace for a good long time. Again, it amazes me that a week ago we barely knew each other's names. Now we're on this journey together.

I have tons of other quotes, but I want to keep it fresh and special for you, pls read! :)

A Love Story Starring My Dead Best Friend by Emily Horner

“I’m not saying it’s right, you know? And I’m not saying it makes any sense that some people draw lines between musicals or flannel or haircuts and who you want to make out with. God knows if shoe shopping and makeup could ungay a person, I’d have had an easier time of things.”

This book is great! Content Warning: the protagonist's best friend Julia is dead, but that should be clear from the title. Jumps back and forth in time, between her road trip right after her friend dies and the current rehearsal process with the group of friends producing Julia's unfinished musical. (Yikes bit: the musical is about singing ninjas, played by mostly white kids who just love Japanese culture...)

“There was this girl,” I said. “I mean—“ All of a sudden I felt flustered and added, “we were just friends.” “No such thing.” “We were.” “Look. Despite what you may have heard, people have sex all the time with people they don’t love, or particularly care about, or sometimes can’t even stand. So why in the world do people say that it’s just friends, like it doesn’t matter as much, if you’re not having sex? Real friendship is true and forever and with all your heart. It’s not Relationship Lite.” (142)

So much good stuff about friendship and love in all its forms!!! I'M HERE FOR BOOKS THAT DEAL WITH FRIENDSHIP IN COMPLEX WAYS WITH JUST AS MUCH CENTRALITY AS ROMANCE NARRATIVES.

"Julia, well—Julia was my friend. I was careful to omit the just when I thought it this time. But I could hardly remember discovering her, could hardly remember her being new to me. I’d never needed to scrutinize her like I was scrutinizing Maggie, trying to figure out the vast sea of what I didn’t know from what was right in front of me. This was new—and I didn’t want to stop just yet.” (149)

Tell Me Again How a Crush Should Feel by Sara Farizan

I liked this one well enough. The protagonist is Iranian-American and she talked a lot about her family culture and language. Again, there's some horrible outing stuff--one of the characters is a really awful person and her dialogue was hard to read. There were also some questionable moments kind of belittling and making fun of theatre techs and stage managers (in awe of the coveted actors) that rubbed me the wrong way, but I still love books about gay teens doing high school theatre!

It astounds me that Tess is as brilliant as she is and still hasn't figured out I'm gay. I wish there was a manual on how to come out and what a young gay person is supposed to do. Like, is there a secret handshake I don't know about?

"No boy is harmless, especially around my daughters. We should have sent you to an all girls school." Ha! I would really never get any work done. (30)

None of the Above by I. W. Gregorio

The only book I read about intersex teens. I am not sure its reception in the intersex community, but it feels like a so-so book. It was written by a doctor who had an intersex patient and got /inspired/ which feels like a red flag. The main character struggles a lot with her "diagnosis" and has a lot of internalized self-loathing. A bunch of problematic ideology and slurs in some parts, but she also has great conversations with some other intersex girls through a support group. I am not qualified to know how well it portrays these topics--I have more community-based reading to do, however I will say that I'm not sure how well the author handled the topic of surgery.

Naomi and Ely's No-Kiss List by Rachel Kohn & David Levithan

I tried to start reading this one, but I didn't give it much of a chance. Not a fan of the writing or the characters. Apparently it got made into a movie though, with Victoria Justice!

Tessa Masterson Will Go To Prom by Emily Franklin & Brendan Halpin

Intense read, but the payoff was so lovely! It's one of those books where the first-person narration switches back and forth each chapter between two characters: gay Tessa who wants to bring her girl crush to prom in a conservative small town, and straight Lucas, the best friend, who realizes his love and extravagantly asks Tessa to prom. Most of the book is a pretty brutal homophobic uproar about this girl wanting to wear a tux and bring a girl to prom, but *spoiler alert!* it ends with mended friendship and a big gay party.

"You want to watch movies or something? I just got Bringing Up Baby! Katherine Hepburn!"

"Black-and-white and you going goo-goo about your crush all night? Can I ask you something? I mean, if you're attracted to girls and stuff, why can't we watch one of those videos where drunk girls lift their shirts up or something?"

"Lucas, I'm a lesbian. That doesn't mean I'm a man."

It's funny. When I imagined this--dancing with Tessa at Prom--it wasn't like this at all. First of all, in my imagination, she was wearing something that at least suggested that she has breasts. But also, when I imagined my hand on her hip, it wasn't just that I imagined something more satiny than a tuxedo under my hand, but I thought the touch would be electric, that it would be the moment when our friendship turned to love. Dumb ass. It was love all along. Just not, you know, that kind of love.

"Yeah, I don't think I'm gonna have a hard time finding somebody to dance with," Tessa says. She gestures at the scene. The dance floor is already full, and people are still streaming in through the front door. There's some up-tempo dance-pop number playing, and the floor is jumping with joyful dancing like I've seen. Tessa is not the only girl in a tux, but there are also girls in Prom dresses and combat boots, girls in regular Prom dresses, guys in dresses, guys in tuxes, and a fair number of people who are either male or female, but it's not clear from what they're wearing or who they're dancing with. And, at the wall, there are about forty girls giving Tessa that I'm-trying-get-up-the-courage-to-ask-you-to-dance look. She smiles.

Non-LGBT YA Books I've Been Reading:

Golden Compass and Subtle Knife by Philip Pullman

I was really excited to revisit this series from my youth. (I don't actually know if I ever made it past the first one as a kid though.) It didn't really hold up for me. Didn't even feel like reading the finale of the trilogy. Not sure how I feel about the intensely religious undertones and "soul" business. Also, I remembered Lyra as a badass girl protagonist, but she gets kinda shunted into supporting the ever-so-special boy, Will by the second book. Also, *spoiler!* throughout the books, the witches and other important adults are all whispering and obsessed with this important little girl Lyra, though they know her by another name. The big reveal: she is the new Eve, meant to be mother of all? Idk, man... Not into it.

Wonderstruck by Brian Selznick

So lovely and quick to read! Brian Selznick is a very inventive and moving author. (If you haven't seen his books before, they alternate between sections of text and series of gorgeous full-page pencil drawings. He wrote The Invention of Hugo Cabret, which was made into a lovely Martin Scorsese film with Asa Butterfield. Anyway, I really enjoyed this one, full of nighttime museum adventures, Deaf culture and sign language, wolves, and family reunions. Highly recommend checking this one out from the library! It's a heavy brick, but only takes a few hours to read. Ooh and apparently, it also got made into a movie, coming out this October! Looks good, and they cast a Deaf actress, Millicent Simmonds as Rose. Looking forward to it!!!

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symphony-of-genderpunk · 7 years

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Hey anon! I’m gonna assume you mean odd so here it goes.

1. What is your sexuality?I identify as queer because sexuality is very fluid and I feel constrained by labels but lesbian probably fits best.

3. How long have you been aware of your sexuality/gender?I realized that I was not straight in 8th grade, about five years and two months ago. I started questioning gender-y stuff around the middle of 10th grade, so about three and a half years ago.

5. Share a positive memory about coming out!I received nothing but acceptance from just about everyone that I’ve ever come out to. My best friend my sophomore year was only offended that I didn’t tell her sooner.

7. Do you participate in pride related events? Any other events?I wish!! I have never had the opportunity to, mostly because I’ve been playing softball on the weekends every summer since 2011. I really wanted to go to Cleveland’s events this year, but of course, I have tournaments. I’m involved with our LGBT Center on my campus though and go to a lot of their sponsored events. 9. Do you feel pride in who you are?Yes! I have come a long way to accept my gender and sexuality as they are, and to accept my past identities as valid points in my life. I’m proud to be the cute, queer, confused kid I’ve grown up to be.

11. Tell us about your first crush?It’s kinda silly, but I’ve always had a crush on my high school band director. She was sort of the reason that I realized I was gay. But she is really cute, intelligent, sarcastic, hilarious in her own way, and really doesn’t give a damn what other people think about her. I’ve always admired that. And my lil (massive) crush on her was the reason that I joined all of the clubs and groups in high school that shaped my passion for music and theatre, so I really owe her a lot of my adolescence.

13. Have you come out to friends and family?All of my friends definitely know. Especially in college, I’ve learned to be really open about who I am, and being queer is a big part of who I am, so I let that be known. Family, not so much. My immediate family, mom, dad, and little brother know but don’t talk about it. I’m not very close with my extended family, so it’s just kind of something that doesn’t need to be talked about right now.

15. Do you believe there is a “closet” to come out of?The closet is just a metaphor for the compulsive and assumed heterosexuality that every human is chained to from the moment they’re born. Coming out of the closet is the act of breaking down the locked doors that society has configured around you. I wish that everyone could just express themselves how they want and fall in love with the people that they fall in love with and it not have to be a big deal but humanity isn’t quite ready for that.

17. What’s your biggest pet peeve when it comes to LGBTQ+ characterization in media?“Bury your gays” really pisses me off. I just want to see characters in TV shows and movies that don’t die or go through horrific trauma for shock value or entertainment. I also don’t always need a tragic backstory for every queer character in their coming out/coming of age story. Some people are gay. I was 100% chill with it from the morning I woke up and realized it. I started coming out to people right away because I had the privilege and confidence to do so. I want queer characters who are just queer and that be the end of it.

19. What did your teachers say about the LGBTQ+ community in school?Honestly, they really didn’t. I’m from a very small, very rural area where a lot of people just don’t really acknowledge that queer people exist or that they interact with them on a daily basis. We never learned about same-sex intercourse in sex ed, we never talked about gay themes in English classes (despite the HEAVY gay themes in tons of classic literature), and we never were told about the sexualities of some of the greatest leaders in history. I came out during a speech in my 10th grade English class, and my teacher couldn’t stop smiling, but we never mentioned it again. We just didn’t talk about it.

21. What’s an absolute turn off for you in the same/opposite gender?Well I really really hate people who are manipulative and will twist their words or make your feel guilty just to get what they want out of you. I’m gonna go with that.

23. How do you feel about LGBTQ+ clubs/apps/websites?I love spaces that are made for and meant for queer people. Straight people are exhausting to be around all the time. My gay group chats are honestly the best escape from the world around me, and they’re always beautifully supportive environments full of people that you know have gone through similar things that you have.

25. How does your country view the LGBTQ+ community?I’m from the United States so until Cheeto Voldemort seized control in his tiny hands, I thought we were actually getting somewhere and would eventually end up within a couple strokes of par for the developed world in terms of LGBT equality and trans rights and equal opportunity but alas.

27. Any tips for heterosexual and/or cisgender people on how to handle LGBTQ+ events/news?Know your place as a cis/het ally and do not make the news about you. Respect the lives and accomplishments of LGBT individuals. Raise them up, say their names. Honor them. Be a good ally, and teach others how to be good allies too.

29. How do you feel about receiving questions about your sexuality/gender?I love answering questions about sexuality and gender, be it my specific identities or otherwise. My identity is a big old jumble of who the hell knows what, so it’s fun to explain non-specific identities to people who are curious. I also spent a lot of time when I was in high school learning about a ton of different gender and sexual identities while trying to find a label that fits me, so I know quite a bit about lots of different things that span gender identity and sexuality. Also, generally people who are asking about my identity are also queer themselves and are curious, or they’re unsure of my pronouns, so they ask in a respectful way which I am very thankful for!!

If you’re ever curious about anything or you just want to talk, my inbox is always open! Thanks for this ask, anon. It was really fun.

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@nayt-hollowbeak asked me to do them all and a different anon asked me to do 186 so here’s all of them!

200: My crush’s name is: I don’t think I have one right now. Which is odd for me.199: I was born in: 1997198: I am really: unremarkable197: My cellphone company is: Verizon196: My eye color is: Brown195: My shoe size is: 8194: My ring size is: No clue193: My height is: 5′4.5192: I am allergic to: pineapple191: My 1st car was: Chevy Malibu190: My 1st job was: Office Depot cashier189: Last book you read: Max Ride188: My bed is: Lovely187: My pets: are a Cockapoo named Tonks, a Bichon Frise (according to my sister) named Dobby, a Siamese kitten who has yet to be named, and a Yorkie named Cleo (sort of)186: My best friend: is Jesus. And also Morgan185: My favorite shampoo is: whatever is in my shower at any given moment184: Xbox or ps3: I do not video game183: Piggy banks are: kinda useless. I always spend my money before it can accumulate.182: In my pockets: Don’t have any right now181: On my calendar: Doctor, homework, theatre stuff, dentist180: Marriage is: a goal for me I guess.179: Spongebob can: die in a hole. 178: My mom: works really damn hard.177: The last three songs I bought were? You think I buy music? Ha176: Last YouTube video watched: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_v8LF-YWKfo175: How many cousins do you have? So damn many174: Do you have any siblings? 2 sisters173: Are your parents divorced? Nope172: Are you taller than your mom? Yep171: Do you play an instrument? Nah170: What did you do yesterday? Work, cry, go home, rehearse[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: Fuck no168: Luck: Maybe?167: Fate: Nah166: Yourself: Ha165: Aliens: Totally164: Heaven: Nope163: Hell: No162: God: Nein161: Horoscopes: Niet160: Soul mates: Uh uh.159: Ghosts: I’m running out of ways to say no.158: Gay Marriage: Yep157: War: No156: Orbs: ?155: Magic: Magic isn’t real read a book.[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs153: Drunk or High: Neither152: Phone or Online: Online151: Red heads or Black haired: Black haired150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes149: Hot or cold: Cold148: Summer or winter: Summer147: Autumn or Spring: Spring146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla145: Night or Day: Night144: Oranges or Apples: Apples143: Curly or Straight hair: Either142: McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate140: Mac or PC: Chrome iOS139: Flip flops or high heals: Heels138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: This question is too vague and I refuse to answer it137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke136: Hillary or Obama: Obama135: Burried or cremated: Cremated134: Singing or Dancing: Suck at both but prefer singing133: Coach or Chanel: Neither132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Who?131: Small town or Big city: Big City130: Wal-Mart or Target: My heart says Target but my wallet says Walmart129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure127: East Coast or West Coast: East. New England FTW126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers124: Disney or Six Flags: DISNEY123: Yankees or Red Sox: Who cares....[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: what is it good for..absolutely nothing..121: George Bush: “The question is, is our children learning”120: Gay Marriage: Why shouldn’t people marry whomever the fuck they please119: The presidential election: Ugh118: Abortion: You do you. I hope I don’t ever have to go through one but as I never want to have children, who knows.117: MySpace: I think it’s really only used for bands and stuff now?116: Reality TV: I like some competition shows but that’s about it.115: Parents: I mean mine are good114: Back stabbers: Um. They’re not good?113: Ebay: I don’t fucking know? Why are these so weird?112: Facebook: I use it fairly often.111: Work: My job sucks but hey I got almost $300 today110: My Neighbors: Don’t know em109: Gas Prices: So high108: Designer Clothes: Don’t care107: College: Sucks106: Sports: Boring105: My family: large? Loud? Occasionally fun?104: The future: UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: Like an hour and a half ago102: Last time you ate: around 6 hours ago101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: Wednesday100: Cried in front of someone: Yesterday99: Went to a movie theater: Like a week and a half ago98: Took a vacation: November97: Swam in a pool: Last August96: Changed a diaper: It’s been years95: Got my nails done:Ummmm. Last summer I think94: Went to a wedding: I don’t remember93: Broke a bone: Never have92: Got a peircing: When I was like 6 weeks old91: Broke the law: On my drive home?90: Texted: 10 minutes ago[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: I dunno88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My dog87: The last movie I saw: Chicago86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: the sweet release of death?85: The thing im not looking forward to: the continuation of life?84: People call me: um. My name?83: The most difficult thing to do is: Literally everything. I’m bad at all of it.82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Nope81: My zodiac sign is: Capricorn80: The first person i talked to today was: My mom79: First time you had a crush: Kindergarten78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Nobody.77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Oooo rehearsal today. Morgan and Justin get me when it comes to those fucking kids.76: Right now I am talking to: Rene75: What are you going to do when you grow up: teach theatre74: I have/will get a job: Have one?73: Tomorrow: Work 9-5:30 Rehearsal 5-9. Cause that’ll work.72: Today: Work, school, Olive Garden, rehearsal, airport, home71: Next Summer: Fuck if I know.70: Next Weekend: Work and perform69: I have these pets: see 18768: The worst sound in the world: Styrofoam.67: The person that makes me cry the most is: My ex. Fucker.66: People that make you happy: There are quite a few of them65: Last time I cried: Yesterday.64: My friends are: Annoying as a fuck. But oh well.63: My computer is: refusing to acknowledge that its has a built in camera62: My School: sucks61: My Car: is a mess60: I lose all respect for people who: are assholes for no reason59: The movie I cried at was: All of them?58: Your hair color is: Brown57: TV shows you watch: Shameless, Gilmore Girls, Riverdale, Jane the Virgin56: Favorite web site: this hellhole55: Your dream vacation: Backpack across Europe54: The worst pain I was ever in was: I’ve never experienced extreme physical pain.53: How do you like your steak cooked: Medium Rare52: My room is: also a mess51: My favorite celebrity is: Emma Watson50: Where would you like to be: Disneyland49: Do you want children: No48: Ever been in love: Unfortunately47: Who’s your best friend: See 18646: More guy friends or girl friends: Guy45: One thing that makes you feel great is: being on stage44: One person that you wish you could see right now: none of them. I need to avoid people 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I don’t even have a 5 day plan.42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No41: Have you pre-named your children: I mean I’ve had names picked for years but I don’t want to use them40: Last person I got mad at: myself39: I would like to move to: Anaheim38: I wish I was a professional: actor[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: I’m not huge on candy36: Vehicle: Classic matte black Charger35: President: Obama34: State visited: New York33: Cellphone provider: Um. I’ve only had the one32: Athlete: Don’t care31: Actor: So many30: Actress: Same as above29: Singer: Brendon Urie28: Band: Panic! At the Disco (see what I did there?)27: Clothing store: Forever 2126: Grocery store: Um? Walmart I guess?25: TV show: Gilmore Girls24: Movie: So many23: Website: This one22: Animal: Otters and meerkats21: Theme park: Disneyland20: Holiday: Thanksgiving19: Sport to watch: Football?18: Sport to play: Fuck no17: Magazine: None of them?16: Book: Harry Potter15: Day of the week: Friday?14: Beach: Um. No clue13: Concert attended: I have a hard time at concerts12: Thing to cook: Sweet and Sour Chicken11: Food: Sushi or Gyros10: Restaurant: Sunny’s Sushi or Zinos9: Radio station: 99.9 I guess8: Yankee candle scent: Um7: Perfume: UM6: Flower: Lily5: Color: Blue or black4: Talk show host: Ellen?3: Comedian: Gabriel Iglesias2: Dog breed: Poodle1: Did you answer all these truthfully? I think so?

I’m sorry that some are sarcastic? Just the mood I’m in I guess

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New Post has been published on https://shovelnews.com/mum-was-and-still-is-a-very-funny-person-i-want-to-show-theres-another-side-to-dementia/

'Mum was and still is a very funny person. I want to show there's another side to dementia'

THE DYNAMICS OF my relationship with my mother have greatly changed over the last few years, as I’ve become one of her carers while she lives with dementia.

Our evolved bond has really opened my eyes into seeing how we as a society address our older generations and the illness. As a dancer, I’m well versed in supporting my fellow dancers in our movements – so I’ve created a show called Assisted Solo, where I want to explore and highlight how important it is that we all support each other to live our best ‘solo’.

The theme of dementia and working with my mum was something that happened secondarily – it wasn’t the initial idea. When I make my work I like to go into the studio and see what happens. Work surprises you – your subconscious surprises you.

I’m one of five siblings. I was looking after my mum and I thought this is what it is, I am assisting her in her solo. At the same time it is not always clear who is assisting who, because I am learning a lot from this experience.

‘There’s space for humour’

Luca Truffarelli

Often when I talk to people about my mum’s dementia they go “that’s awful”. It is, but it’s something gradual and it’s been happening gradually over the years. There’s space for humour, space for laughter. It’s not all doom and gloom. In my work I use humour a lot. Mum was a funny person and still is a very funny person. I want to show there is another side to this situation.

It sounds really weird but one of the experiences that I have had from looking after my mother, and I’m sure my other brothers agree: once you accept what is going on and you learn to live with it, there are positives in it. It feels with my mum my relationship has now gone full circle – I have gone from being the child and being cared for to being the carer and I know her as a more childlike person.

One of the beautiful things I notice is the essence of her is still exactly the same.

She doesn’t always know my name. She’ll randomly say names, and sometimes she’ll get it. And sometimes I could be her father, sometimes I could be her son, maybe her husband or her lover. She might not always be able to pinpoint who it is but there’s love there.

We filmed some footage for the show in my mum’s house. Suddenly we found we had all these hours of material and it became clear she was integral to the show. There was an overarching theme that connects what we’re doing in Assisted Solo.

The thing I’m trying to do is show: this is life.

A lot of people suffer from dementia in this country, and I wanted to show it’s not all terrible. It’s difficult to explain, but I think among the changes in my mum and the tough situations there’s also space for laughter and personal growth.

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‘You have to find something beautiful in everything’

It seems like two or three years, but it’s actually six or seven years since my mum got sick. It starts in such a subtle way, there are so many ways of denying it. Oh, she’s just being like this, just being like that.

I was ill and feeling sorry for myself and I went to see her, and she cheered me up. When I went to her again the next day she didn’t remember. I realised oh God, chunks of her memoryare disappearing. Like my father’s funeral, she initially forgot my father’s funeral.

And they’re the tough moments, but once you face things and accept the situation I think you can still find beauty in your relationship. I love her so much, she is so beautiful – and there is so much to learn from her still.

One of the things that I’ve really noticed is that her filter has been removed. It means she’s incredibly open and this really comes through in the video material. It’s incredibly beautiful to watch and that’s why we decided to use it.

There is a moral dilemma around that. She can’t make the decision – I have to make the decision for her . I am very protective of her, I want to show her in a very particular light but I want to get the message across as well.

My brothers are understanding about the show. It’s so important to tell this story, it’s one of the most important things I have done.

I think it’s too much to say that people will come away thinking ‘oh dementia is great’, because it isn’t. It’s very difficult. But as long as there is love you can get through all sorts of things. Love conquers all: it sounds like such a ridiculous cliche but it is true.

My dance show is about the idea of dependency and being independent. It explores the concept of ‘solo’ and what a solo really is. The reason I’ve called it Assisted Solo is because even in my work, when I’ve danced solos in the past, you’re never really alone. There are all these people making it happen and supporting you and this is true in life.

Having someone dependent on you

Source: Luca Truffarelli

As a gay man, I don’t think I’ll have kids. The only thing I’m solely responsible for is my dog and the biggest question that arises from this situation is, ‘who will look after him while I’m away?’

With my mum I have come to understand what it is to have somebody completely dependent on you and the responsibility of having a person who needs you 100%. That’s one thing that has been really tough but beautiful.

It’s also broken an intimacy barrier. By keeping her in her own home, I need to deal with the everyday realities of caring for someone, like washing her and changing nappies. This isn’t always easy but I know my family’s situation is a luxury, as there are five of us sharing the responsibility.

I also think about how caring for someone can have an impact on one’s own sexuality. How do you still manage to feel sexually attractive and in the mood for physical contact after caring for someone in this way? These are the things I also touch upon in the piece.

Caring for my mum has been a really beautiful experience. We can get so caught up in society worrying about intimacy and body contact, and thinking ‘oh that’s weird, that’s strange, I couldn’t do that with my own mum’. But why not? It’s just another human body and it’s a person who’s changed a lot of your nappies! I for one am very glad I’ve got to go on this journey.

Philip Connaughton is a contemporary dancer and creator of Assisted Solo, which will debut at the Dublin Fringe Festival from 7 – 15 September, followed by a performance at the Everyman Theatre on 22 September. For tickets, visit the Dublin Fringe Festival website.

Source: http://www.thejournal.ie/readme/phillip-connaughton-mother-dementia-assisted-solo-dance-4218154-Sep2018/

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so, how's life? It’s kinda in the middle. I bought gifts for my Gab’s family and I went from having P4000 ($80) to measly P250 ($5) but it’ll be SO worth it because I got them stuff that they really wanted. I don’t even regret losing that much money because I found it fulfilling to be buying gifts for a family that I do love.

[huge, pulsating trigger warning] On the other hand, I went into a panic attack and started hyperventilating when my mom scolded me the other night. She mocked my breathing the entire time and told me–in the middle of my panicked breathing–that I was crying over something small. She also tried to wrestle my phone away from me and I have claw marks on my arm from that. So life at home is preeeetty fucking good, if you ask me. how many hours of sleep would you say you got last night? I think I made it to six. what's the last book you read, was it good? I don’t remember the last book I read, dude. what color are the walls in your bedroom? White. do you have pictures of your friends, and family in your bedroom? Friends, yes. ‘Family’ fuck no.

do you have posters of celebrities on the walls in your bedroom? Yeah several. who is the last person you said "just leave me alone," to? I think it was my mom. Ugh I hate having to call her that can I just call her abusive grumpy woman who lives under the same roof? ever had a really bad sunburn? When I was a kid yeah. The ones on my shoulder hurt theee most. I don’t get sunburns at all anymore. who is the last person to ask you out? Gab but that was like a year ago. what is the last amusement park you went to? Legoland in Malaysia, four years ago. I’m not too big on amusement parks. do you think a lot before you go to sleep at night? Sometimes. It really depends on my mood or how tired I am. if so, what is it you think about? ^ Usually something that happened within that day. do you agree with people when they say "Hate is a strong word?” I’m the person that says that haha. My grandmother taught me that throughout childhood so it’s been ingrained in me and I avoid the word ‘hate’ when it comes to people I personally know and dislike. what kind of camera do you have, do you like it? I have a Nikon D3100, but I’ve basically given it away to my sister. I just use a good ol’ iPhone camera and yes, I do like it. what's the reason behind the last time you cried? I was remembering what happened the other night. what's the last video you watched on YouTube? Something from Good Mythical Morning. what is the last movie you saw, in theatres? Still The Killing of a Sacred Deer. Not a huge cinema-goer because tickets cost an ungodly fortune. do you read any magazines, if so what ones? Nope. how old were you when you went on your first date? 16. how old were you when you had your first kiss? 16. how old were you when you had your first boyfriend/girlfriend? 16. what's your favorite thing to do during the summer? Stay at hoooooome and do absolutely nothing. do you have any inside jokes with your bestfriend(s) if so, like what? Angela and I burst out laughing whenever we hear about pencils because it takes us back to the time I stabbed her palm with a newly-sharpened pencil in first grade. It started bleeding but I cried innocence and it was really how we got to be best friends in the first place. She brings it back every now and then to make me feel guilty but also since it never fails to give us a good laugh. have you ever been in a HUGE fight with your bestfriend? Not with Angela but I’ve had tons of them with Gabie. what's your relationship status right now? In a relationship. do you like it that way?^ Sure. It’s comforting. have you ever been to a concert, if so, who was the last person(s) you saw? I wasn’t technically in the concert, but we saw Coldplay from the top floor of a parking lot. Solid show and we had a better view compared to most of the people on the concert grounds themselves. do you like any artists or bands, that your friends don't like? Yeah everything from my punk rock collection. how many friends do you have on facebook? No clue. 300? 400? a lot of people say facebook chat is really annoying, do you agree? Not to me. I mainly use it for groupworks in school and it makes communicating more convenient, really.

what website do you usually go on first when you login to the computer? Twitter. do you want to say anything to someone right now, but you're afraid to? Not that I’m afraid, I just can’t bother to since it won’t do anything. if so, what is it you want to say to them?^ Just the classic fuck you. on average, is your room usually messy, or clean? Clean, but I could never keep my bedside drawer that way. That’s really the messiest part of my room. do you have any really annoying friends, that you just want to ditch? Athenna got annoying and petty so I ditched her. do you think you could go a whole day without looking in the mirror? I doubt it. I always have to look out for my hair since it gets so frizzy super fast. what is the scariest movie you've ever seen? Eraserhead. have you ever had surgery, if so for what? Never. have you ever seen a shark, if so were you scared? I haven’t. have you ever gone fishing, or is that totally yucky? Never have.

don't you think it's ridiculous when girls where ugg boots during summer? No...but the original spelling of the word ‘ridiculous’ in this question was before I changed it. do you enjoy museums, or think they are totally boring? I love museums. I make it a point to go to several every year. would you say you're fat, skinny, or just in between? Skinny. have you ever been made fun of, because of what you look like? Only when I was a kid because I had really short hair. With that and my name, I always got told that I was a boy. have you ever made fun of others, because of what they look like? Nope. have you ever liked someone who is a total jerk? I haven’t. does it annoy you when people put a question mark with a space like this ? Yes, and it includes every other punctuation mark. do you ever get shivers, even when it's really hot out? No I don’t. do you watch any funny people on youtube? That’s really the main reason I watch YouTube. have any talents no one really knows about, but you? I don’t know about talents that zero people know about, but only very few know that I play table tennis, if it counts. has anyone ever bought you a gift, that you already had? Yes, but they happened way back in grade school like when a friend got me a copy of Breaking Dawn when I already had one. That was the peak of my Twilight phase so I was super excited to get it anyway. do you wear makeup, if so, do you wear a lot? I don’t wear makeup at all. who is your favorite actor? Kate Winslet minus the Woody Allen apologist part of her. Also Kristen Stewart. what do you usually do right when you wake up? Spend a few minutes in bed and then check my phone first thing. what do you eat for breakfast? I don’t normally eat breakfast but when I do, it’s always luncheon meat and rice. do you know anyone with bipolar? No. do you know anyone who is bi-sexual, gay, or lesbian? I know a fuck ton of people who are all of those. if you're a girl, would you say you're more girly, or tomboy? Girly. do you have any siblings, if so how many, and what are their names? I have two and I don’t feel like giving out their names right now. what color is the comforter on your bed? Blue and gold. did you ever have a guy friend/girl friend that you secretly liked? There was Andi in fifth grade but I’ve never figured out if I genuinely liked her or if it was just an overall confused feeling. Other than that, no. do you think illegally downloading things is wrong? It is wrong but everything is expensive and that’s the only way I get to watch stuff or listen to my music, so. what was your favorite toy as a child, do you still own it? I didn’t have a favorite but I did love cash registers. I don’t own any toys anymore.

have you and your friend ever liked the same guy/girl? No. do you tell your best friend everything? Yeah, absolutely everything.

ever taken any lessons for anything? I did. I had ballet when I was 5 and swimming lessons when I was 9. do you speak any different languages than the one you speak? I’m bilingual, if that’s what you mean. Outside of these surveys I can also speak in Filipino. what other countries have you been to other than yours? China, Japan, South Korea, Singapore, Malaysia, Indonesia. do you do your laundry, or does someone else do it for you? I don’t do my own because I am unfortunately living with a crazy control freak in the house. have you ever put your clothes in the wash, with money in the pockets? I did that ALL THE TIME in grade school and high school. The pockets were super deep though so when I got the bills back they were always still dry. do you call soda, pop, or soda, or.. fizzy drink? Soda. how many aunts and uncles do you have? Tons. In the Philippines, every elder woman/man who aren’t your parents is an aunt and an uncle. would you say your life is hard? Sure. It’s not supposed to be easy. what do you usually do on a regular saturday? Get wasted on surveys and watch YouTube videos. And sleep. what are you planning on doing this weekend? Hopefully just sleep for all of it because I really hate Christmas. is there anything you're really looking forward to? Yeah for Christmas week to be over. how many relationships have you been in, in the past two years? One. have you ever been cheated on, or cheated on someone? Neither has happened.

do you go to church? Physically, I do. I’m never in it though. who do you listen to most on your ipod, mp3, etc.? I don’t use my iPod anymore, but these days I’ve been listening to lots of Paramore on Spotify. do you like french fries, cheese and gravy mixed together? Sure. I’d take fries any style. what does your hair look like right now? I’d say I have to retie my ponytail because my hair has since gone all over the place. who is the last person you IM'd? My girlfriend.

when's the last time you looked at the clock? Just a few minutes ago. do you have any pet names for your bestfriend(s)? No. what is the last compliment you received? [continued from like four days ago] I don’t know. I haven’t gone out of my room all week. do you swear a lot? A little too much. if so, what swear word would you say you use the most? Fuck. do you watch the tv show "GLEE", if so, who is your favorite character? Ugh no. I hated that show, but I guess I’ll always have a soft spot for Finn without ever even watching an episode, just because. what tv shows did you watch as a child? Spongebob, The Suite Life, Lizzie McGuire, Zoey 101, All That, Jimmy Neutron, Fairly OddParents...we basically hogged the crap out of Nickelodeon and Disney. Cartoon Network not so much. do you wear perfume/cologne, if so what kind? I wear one of Beyoncé’s fragrances. do you think it’s cute when you're leaving a place, and a guy says "no hug?" I find that a strange thing to hear from anyone but Gab. how many showers would you say you take a week? If I’m in school, 4-5. If I’m on a break, 2-3. what is your favorite resturant to go to? Jollibee, Banana Leaf, and Sambokojin; although the latter is technically a buffet place. are you craving anything right now? Yeah dude I want Thai and Indian food so bad rn. do you actually like cleaning? Depends on what I have to clean. did you watch American Idol, if so, are you glad Lee won? Lee DeWyze? No. Crystal Bowersox was my girl. do you own any white clothes, or would you just get it too dirty? Of course I have white clothes...I just get ‘em dirty all the time. do you wear short shorts (if you're a girl)? Yes. do you have twitter, if so, do you use it a lot? Hi yes I do here it is. I’m on it all day. do you like that new singer Ke$ha, if so, do you think her music is catchy? She’s not new anymore, she actually just made the most bad-ass comeback this year. Anyway, I really really really love her and I always have, all the way back from her TiK ToK days when everyone hated her still for giving off a trashy image, at least that’s what people thought. I embraced it instantly. A Kween!!! if you be anyone you wanted for a whole day, who would you be? Sometimes I can’t help wishing I could be Gabie, solely so that I would know what it feels like to have a perfect family. have you ever gone to peteranswers.com? No, never heard of that. do you live in a house, apartment, or what? House. have you ever done the "your shoelace is untied" trick? I’m not even so sure as to what that trick is. have you ever met anyone famous? I’ve had my brushes with local and foreign celebrities but I’ve never met them per se. if so, who was it? ^ A bunch. are your fingernails, and toenails painted if so, what color? They’re never painted. what's your favorite breed of dog? There’s no such thing as a ‘favorite breed.’ do you still live with your parents? Unfortunately. how many pairs of shoes do you own? Also a bunch. do you love someone so much, but they don’t even know? No. you usually tell the person you like, that you like them, or keep it quiet? I’ve only ever liked one person and I let them know.

do you laugh a lot? Depends on the day. how was this survey? Long, but I liked the questions.

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Riverdale Recap and Review - Season 1 - Chapter 8 - The Outsiders by Andrew Buckley

There quite literally is not one happy marriage happening in Riverdale. Maybe it’s the water, maybe it’s the maple syrup, maybe it’s the disturbing amount of redheads . . . but relationships are not meant to survive in that town. Tensions ran high in this episode with double crosses and back alley deals happening all over the place. Riverdale is a dangerous place to live. But they do have Skeet Ulrich, so there’s that. Let’s get to it . . .

How many times can you reference abortion without actually saying the word ‘abortion’? I counted five times, but I may have missed one. I’m assuming it’s a CW censorship thing, but I was surprised they had to avoid the word as it’s absence made it all the more obvious, but I suppose that was the point. This week, Mr. Cooper became oh so much darker than just some guy who breaks into the Sheriff’s house to steal his murder wall. He’s harboring such a hatred for the Blossoms that he actually wanted his daughter to abort the baby. The guy is certainly carrying enough hate to push him over to the darkside, but his banishment from the Cooper household says a lot more about Alice Cooper (the blonde chick, not the guy who used to bite heads off chickens on stage) than it does about him. Mrs. Cooper has always seemed so controlled in her insanity, however we certainly saw some cracks as she tries to deal with the Blossom family now trying to steal her daughter, while also revealing her own shadowy past, also at the hands of her husband. There goes another Riverdale marriage.

Polly herself is still severely lacking as a character and I think it’s partly due to us not really knowing her. The reason we care so much about who killed Jason, and not about Jason himself is because we never got a chance to know him. All we really know is he had terribly fake-looking red hair and apparently he was a mute. The same almost goes for Polly. We met her at the mental asylum where she was hysterical and she hasn’t really calmed down since. Okay, so the father of her child was murdered, her dad tried to have her abort her baby, the father’s family want to keep the baby, her parents sent her to a mental asylum, and now she’s back, there’s a power struggle over this child who will undoubtedly have fake-looking red hair. Okay, fine. She has every right to be hysterical. Unfortunately, her lack of grounding as a character is making it really hard to sympathize with her. Maybe that’ll change now she’s a member of the Blossom household. By making the choice to join the Blossoms, she’s effectively shunning her own family. And who can blame her?

Speaking of the Blossoms, let’s take a moment to appreciate just how awesome Granny Blossom is. Come on, that crazy old lady is great. Part horror story cliche, part gypsy, part crypt keeper. She keeps getting better and better.

Fred Andrews and his business woes seeped throughout most of the story this episode. With the Blossoms wanting to buy the old movie theatre land, and Mr. Lodge being the secret buyer, and Hermione knowing this but not telling Fred, we can clearly see another relationship is about to go down the toilet. It all makes for interesting TV though, so who cares? Fred confronting Clifford Blossom was a nice scene but it felt a little empty with Fred not really having a good threat to come back with. Too bad he doesn’t have a biker gang working for him . . . oh wait.

It was a touching moment when Archie and his pals came out to work for his dad, even more so when Fred and Archie have their heart to heart in the kitchen later. While I didn’t love this episode as much as past ones, I did love this scene. And it wasn’t just Luke Perry’s sincere delivery, it was the balancing out of Fred and Archie’s relationship. While Archie’s legacy speech was a bit on the flawed side, the messaging was still solid and the Andrews boys still represent a united front that doesn’t appear to exist anywhere else in town. This is of course after Fred tries to solve the problems he’s experiencing himself, and Archie walks into a biker bar. We’ve yet to see Mary Andrews but we know she’s coming (bring it on Molly Ringwald), so we’ll likely see that balanced father/son relationship shaken again very soon.

Skeet freakin Ulrich as Jughead’s dad is fast becoming one of my favourite characters. After we saw all his misgivings in the last episode, it was nice to see him find a bit of redemption here. His volunteering information to Jughead and Betty regarding Jason and then rounding up a crew to help out Fred proves that Mr. Jones isn’t all that bad of a guy. Well, except for him having Jason’s jacket, and that he uses teenagers to sell drugs, oh and he’s the leader of a violent biker gang, and that he has Joaquin (who I’m still saying is Jason’s murderer) cozy up to the delightful Kevin . . . so yeah, never mind, he’s a bad guy.

STORY FLAW ALERT! - Mr. Jones tells Hermione that it was likely Mr. Lodge who had people disrupt the construction site and beat up Moose. He blames it on Hermione getting frisky with Fred and someone ratted her out (Veronica, clearly Veronica) and that the incident was part of a jealous attack? On property he owns? Disrupting the building of his weird hipster community housing? Where he stands to make a lot of money? And didn’t Clifford Blossom all but admit to being the culprit in order to bleed the owner of the land dry? Something isn’t adding up there but maybe it’s all a bunch of red herrings. Or trout. Or whatever fish happens to be native to Riverdale.

This was a setup episode, inserted so we can get from here to there. The Jason story got moved along with Mr. Jones and Joaquin (the murderer) hiding the jacket. Polly moving in with the Addams family effectively destroys the ‘Stepford Family’ archetype that the Coopers had been trying to project. Fred and Mr. Jones getting the band back together means it’s being setup to be broken apart again later. And the looming threat of Mr. Lodge stretched its shadowy tendrils a little bit further.

Next week sees the return of Ethel (finally!), though it doesn’t look like we’ll be getting an answer to the burning question on everyone’s mind: Where is Hotdog?

Until next week . . .

STRAY THOUGHTS OF AWESOMENESS . . .

- Valerie was there, but . . . not really there? True, there wasn’t much room for development of Varchie? Valerchie? Archerie? (we’ll need to work on that) Hopefully we’ll be able to see more of that relationship over the coming weeks.

- Same goes for Bughead. Not the best way to start a relationship, amid a murder investigation and a crazy pregnant sister, though we’d still like to see some development happening here. And more than just ‘yeah, my Dad’s a biker’.

- Sheriff Keller - Absolutely terrible at his job. Fortunately for him, he appears to be the only law enforcement agent in all of Riverdale so he’s got great job security.

- Was anyone else hoping that Moose would lay some smack down on those two guys? I mean, c’mon, he’s Moose!

- Archie and Jughead’s ‘bro moment’ was underwhelmed by the lack of conflict. Archie got a little angry, Jughead got a little sad, and then all was well again.

- I kinda love how much Kevin loves the Lodges. From his awe over Veronica’s party invites to complementing Hermione’s shoes. Yeah he’s a walking gay stereotype, but he’s adorable.

About Andrew:

Andrew Buckley attended the Vancouver Film School’s Writing for Film and Television program. After pitching and developing several screenplay projects for film and television, he worked in marketing and public relations, before becoming a professional copy and content writer. During this time Andrew began writing his first adult novel, DEATH, THE DEVIL AND THE GOLDFISH, followed closely by his second novel, STILTSKIN. He works as an editor for Curiosity Quills Press.

Andrew also co-hosts a geek movie podcast, is working on his next novel, and has a stunning amount of other ideas. He now lives happily in the Okanagan Valley, BC with three kids, one cat, one needy dog, one beautiful wife, and a multitude of characters that live comfortably inside of his mind.

Andrew is represented by Mark Gottlieb at the Trident Media Group.

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