#I AM RAMBLING BECAUSE DAD FEELS

[skyloftian-nutcase]

Oh. Oh. Listening to gentle, soothing music and the image of Link's family finally defeating Calamity Ganon, and Zelda floats down from the sky like in the game, and of course Link's family goes to him first to check on him, but Abel sees Zelda standing there. So he goes to her and genuflects, out of reverence, respect, thanks, and welcoming. And Zelda--

Zelda just falls apart. She falls into his arms, and he doesn't know what to do until he starts to slowly hug her, because she isn't a princess in his arms, she's a teenage girl who's hurting and he's a dad so he's going to hold her and tell her it's okay and kiss her head and OH GUYS

#blood of the hero #I guess you could call it spoilers but let's be real #it'll take me so long to get to the end of the game who knows what the ending will actually look like anyway lol #but just #abel being zelda's dad #zelda getting to HAVE a supportive dad #as much as I can understand Rhoam's plight that doesn't mean I don't think he was a sucky dad in a lot of ways #he cares but he was dumb and unnecessarily harsh #even he admits it later #so long story short I want zelda to have a good dad #and abel is there #and #DAD FEELS #I AM RAMBLING BECAUSE DAD FEELS #WAHHH #breath of the wild zelda #abel

[kindaorangey]

tv and film is so formulaic nowadays that seeing spiderverse have a story with authentic-feeling characterisation basically makes me want to cry.

#atsv #like you know how a decent chunk of the movie is dedicated to developing miles' relationship with his parents #and to be honest. the pacing in that part very noticablely slows down from the pace it was at in the first bit with gwen #however #not once was i mad about it #because it was filled to the brim with good shit #also #narratively #it only exists to make the threat of miles losing his dad all the more poignant (and also rio might die next movie so. that too.) #HOWEVER #because of how excellent the dialogue is #and because of the careful foundations laid by the first movie #it doesnt come across as 'obligatory making-you-care-about-miles'-parents scene' #like it absolutely would if it was some netflix original or whatever #do you know what i mean??? once you get to a certain point in ur life its very easy to identify why a scene exists #and so its such a goddamn breath of fresh air to be able to recognise that but not feel exhausted/bored by it #it is the furthest thing from hamstrung and i am so so grateful #atsv spoilers #em is waiting for her spider bite #thunder rambles

[witchcraftingboop]

I thought I was the only one who dislikes my older sister's not-yet-fiancè-boyfriend and I feel so vindicated and less crazy now that my younger sister and I had a lil moment of "👀 do you?" "👀I mean I think I do but do you??" and finally said aloud that we get the same sketchy ass hater vibes from this childish dude. I fr thought I was just a lil manhater (I am) with unjustified resentment towards this man, but I was right! Either I'm right or we're both wrong but atp I'm okay with both options

#the rancid vibes were Unmatched and I am always right is the lesson of today #no because wdym he has only ever dated girls with Your Nickname??? Does that not strike you as Bizarre???? #why are we giggling as if a grown man hating any dish with vegetables is a quirk??? #bbg he's not quirky he's a bitter sensitive manchild who hates your siblings and views your life as a lil joke he can laugh at #god forbid this man ever be forced to propose #hunny his own mother was excited for him to finally move out and eat carrots #do not even get me started on his parenting ideas #ugghhhhh #the relief #good god #truly thought I was going insane #now I just know that my grandfather and sister and maybe my dad (definitely him) hate this guy #I feel so relieved it's not just me 😭 #boop's rambles

[betweenblackberrybranches]

👍am tired

#i was called a spoiled selfish brat today so that was a fine start to the morning #my mother being lovely as usual #because i said im not sure if i can care for my dad when we go on vacation next weak if he gets sick too because i still feel like shit #i mean maybe she is right idk but she doesnt have to be mean about it #she then proceeded to badmouth me infront of my dad for the next several minutes and mimiced me in a high voice #thanks #idk i never know if she does this as a joke or not but it still doesnt feel great #idk if she thinks i cant hear her doing that if im in the next room but like ouch #but yea same old same old #probably gonna delet this later but like sometimes i am just so done #i ramble #i guess #i rant #all of this just minutes after waking up i love it here/s

[fairy-grotto]

hey so why the fuck did no one tell me that you hit a certain age and then cyclically want children? Like monthly?

#fairy is rambling #i was crying over a dad crying over how much he loved his baby today and I'm like what the fuck why am I crying #and i think about it really hard #and then im look oh shit im about to have my period #being broody wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't single #living at home with my parents #and 22 years old #as much as i would love to be a mother #NOW IS NOT THE TIME #who the fuck came up with this shit #anyway im skipping my period cause im not doing that mess this week #also does the brooding hit everyone or is it like heightened in certain people #cause i feel like im always like this but again that could be cause I want kids and am friends with many people who don't #like is it just exacerbated because i feel like an outlier #eh who knows #tbh i don't care my kids are gonna have so many aunties and uncles #maybe its worse for me because i am constantly mothering everyone I know #eldest daughter curse

[lesbiansanemi]

I don’t often think I’m upset at not having a good relationship with my parents but sometimes it really fucking hits me that I don’t have a good mom I don’t have a dad I’ll never experience having a good parent and someone I can lean on like that and I get… really upset

#I have this coworker who is about my mom’s age #I love her and she’s a wonderful person and she’s such a good parent to her kids #her autistic queer kids and she fights for them and defends them all the time #she values their interests and does things they love with them and supports their choices and jusy #ugh #today she gave me a hug because ‘it’s really seemed like I wasn’t doing okay’ #and ‘I’ve been dealing with a lot of hard things and big life changes which she knows is really hard’ #and I kinda teared up #my own parents don’t even know about everything that has happened with my roommate or the friends I’ve lost this year #I don’t tell them. and I could but it wouldn’t matter #my mother wouldn’t care. she definitely wouldn’t sympathize or give me a hug over it #she wouldn’t comfort me #my dad my try but he lives thousands of miles away #and I love my dad but I didn’t get to know him until I was 17 #I don’t think he’s really like… a dad you know? #he’s more like some weird friend or MAYBE an uncle than anything #which is fine! I think it’s really the best we can do and like I said I do love him and I know he loves me #but it’s still… different than a parent you know? #and sometimes I just ache knowing I don’t get parents… #I don’t get that relationship that so many ppl have that’s so important to them #and it just doesn’t feel fair and makes me feel really sad #I’m glad I’m as independent as I am but even that doesn’t feel fair #I’ve lived on my own since I was 17…. I never should have had to do that anyways…. #and I just feel sad because I got a hug from my coworker that made me want to sob #because it’s like damn… is this a teeny tiny taste of what having an actual good mom is like? #I missed out on so much…. #kaz rambles

[thedevotionaltour]

thinking about daredevil yellow again im not. going to make it Guys.

#static.soundz #crying screaming and hitting the ground. so good. it made me cry really bad #bc whenever i think about jack n matt it always makes me think of me n my dad for various reasons #when matt said i couldnt feel his heartbeat inside me anymore. no words. #i rambled about it on my main but dd is very much intwined in an interesting and special way with my own heavy grief about my dad #and matt was a very important character to me during that time of my life for the exact same reason. #it's why i take a lot of very heavy issue when things try to make it so his dad died in his childhood as opposed to college #bc a) think it takes away a lot of the important nature of their relationship and b) my own personal projection #bc all grief at any stage is highly personal and unique and particular #but it really does feel like. matt is really just starting to become an adult (depending whether he dies when matt's in under or post grad) #(bc i can never remember which) but he's not quite a mega established one. there's still that lingering of childhood #so even though he's grown. it just hurts in a very particular way. they saw you grow up. but they didnt really see you become an adult. #they did not see the person you're going to be. that you are. that you're becoming. it feels like such a bizarre unfair moment in time. #bc why now? why not when i was younger? why not when i was truly an adult adult who is expecting to lose you now? #why at this moment and no other time? #but thinking about matt going i wish i told my dad how much i loved him. #more than anything when he goes 'i love you dad. did you hear? i love you.' #it made me cry like a fucking bitch. honest to god tearing up when i type about it. it wrenches my heart it twists it and it makes me wanna #drop to my knees and just weep and weep and weep. they are everything to me. #i have intertwined a lot of matt's grief with mine in a way that makes him so so so important to me. because as stupid as it fucking sounds #that comic and him as a character are everything to me. so genuinely. they were a lifeline my freshman year #when i was so depressed all i could do was read comics. or listen to music #i could do nothing else. i did. clearly. i did work and assignments. but dd was everything to me alongside dm #im sorry i am being an actual like nutbag in my tags im sorry i just have a lot of feelings. this story is everything to me ever ok? ok.

[bambino1294]

and when I get out of this FUCKING HOUSE

#rambles #literally ignore me I’m venting #bought some clothes online right #something I don’t normally do so spooky scary new things that freak out the tism #have to return a couple items okay #I miss one thing in the return package that I only realised after I give it to the post office #(I resolved it via customer service so it’s literally fine and not a big deal) #tell my mum I forgot the thing and she IMMEDIATELY loses it at me because I don’t want to walk all the way back to the fucking post office #like at this point I’m still anxious because I think I did something wrong #not knowing it could be resolved dead easy #so my mum literally yelling at me is not making me feel better and actively setting off my pissed-off defence mechanism #so last thing I do is call her a bitch and she actually screams at me #like should I have called her that? no #but has this woman ever apologised to me in my LIFE? also no #so I’m gonna be petty and stubborn and leave her to be pissed off cause she upset me first #honestly was fully expecting her to smack me in the moment or not make me dinner. I was fully prepared for that. but thats beside the point #anyway dad gets home. literally tries to make me talk to him in the kitchen and when I don’t want to he shouts at me #literally just not in the mood to deal with more conversation tonight and I told him that and he was like ‘okay paint yourself the victim’ #like????? THATS NOT WHAT IM DOING FUCKWAD I JUST AM NOT IN THE HEADSPACE TO TALK RIGHT NOW #like I’m not gonna pretend I’m the bigger person in this situation or didn’t do anything wrong #but they’re fucking unreasonable people whenever I do ANYTHING wrong #like bro I don’t know how to sincerely apologise to people because I never EVER heard the word sorry out of their mouths #so they can fucking live with what they created tbh #congratulations your daughter’s a shit person and now you have to cope with it #honestly get me out of this fucking house the temptation to just walk out is only battled by the fact I’d have no where to go rn #vent post #don’t reblog ty #vent over sos y’all had to see that <3

[sadgirlautumn]

It’s always weird when the Big Problem is over with but you don’t really feel relieved yet so it’s just this awkward grace period where you don’t know how to feel. 🧍‍♀️

#basically my brother finally found a place to stay until his apartment is ready and you’d think my dad would be happy right??? #but no!!! I definitely think he’s giving it time to make sure he doesn’t actually come back bc he doesn’t trust him at all #I also know he’s anxious to deep clean the house now so we’ll see how annoying and stessful that is for me bc he doesn’t like it when #people help him clean but I feel bad not helping??? #idk I am a little relieved because at least I don’t have to stress about it at my appointment #tomorrow but I can feel the pent up frustration coming out and it’s not fun #autumn rambles

[akagamiko]

thinking agian about how shanks wanted to see roger cry and that he tells luffy he should cry but that shanks himself takes after roger in that regard and won't cry in front of people !!!

#was about to go to bed but saw the emotions thing and started spiraling into my shanks thoughts #the boyish want of needing to see your dad figure/mentor/hero/favorite person show those emotions #because shanks was such a cry baby as a kid but thinking about how he didn't see roger cry and started internalizing it !!! #and wanting to see roger cry because he cried when he was sad or frustrated or angry or ANYTHING AT ALL #but then he grew up and learned the weight that's carried as a captain and #...probably understood roger a lot better #because you want to be seen as put together of course but you also don't want to worry your crew #they look to him for comfort so he doesn't feel like he CAN boohoo all the time (unless he's being totally silly) #even though his crew would be totally fine with him crying and would simply love on him !!! #but him still wanting luffy to cry #wanting him to know that it's okay to cry !!! #YELLLLLS #he wants luffy to be so much better than he is in literally every way #like his crying is definitely a private thing when it happens #beck probably being the only one #maybe yasopp and roux too since those are all his fellas <3 #i'm fine #once again i am saying roger really did a number on him lmao #(intentionally or not sorry roger) #<3 #now i'm going to bed fr #OOC. #honestly this half belongs in the hc tag even if it's a mess of me rambling sorry #HEADCANON.

[bitegore]

TOMORROW PLAN:

get up around 12-1pm (doable)

eat the leftover tacos (doable but they taste awful :/ )

go to a location - i guess ill ask my dad to drive me to a cafe or something and give me like $10 to get a meal?

work on lining that one commission (this will take several days)

come home around 11pm (doable)

work on some other thing because taking that long to work will definitely hurt my hands

get to bed around 2am

repeat

#red rambles #i need to get out of the house to get my work done. ive learned this. also frankly i just dont want to be here #forgot how frustrating it is to spend time around my dad when he doesn't feel like i'm doing 'enough' with my time #doesnt matter that im doing everything at once - getting the charms thing started and my learner's permit renewed and commissions and just #finished finals - its never enough because i dont look like im physically idk hauling ass or whatever #so every time he walks into a room i'm in and he's in a bad mood it's this and that and am i doing x and y and z and also school this and #that and when am i gonna get a job and i should clean the house and #anyway im sick of it already and ive been home a week.

[arsonistman]

Over the last school year I’ve started to wonder how much my shitty social skills are really my fault. That’s poorly worded ik. Because I can hold a conversation, the issue is that I just get dry ass fucking responses which makes it so difficult for me to answer back. I feel like I’ve had maybe 1 genuinely fun conversation with one of my classmates because we talked about chess and he was actually passionate and interested in it and talking about it! Like man what the fuck. I’m seriously wondering if all these dead convos around me is just because people respond so dryly that there literally isn’t anything I can respond with. I hate how little passion and interest people show in talking with me

#like I don’t bite! #and I don’t wanna just talk about my interests! #i love hearing about others interests but if you talk dryly or I don’t know how to answer the convo dies #i hate it here #this post is brought to you by my dad saying I needed to learn to talk about things that weren’t my interests #fuck you old man I’ve gotten really good at doing that because no one’s fucking interested in my niche interests #but there is only so much schoolwork I can have a full conversation about before it starts looping and I get bored because there’s never #anything new added to the conversation #so I feel like my only option is to bring up something weird #I’ve tried being palatable I’ve tried being relatable #I’ve tried being weird I’ve tried being unusual #NOTHING GODDAMN WORKS #AND AT THIS POINT ITS NOT ME NOT PUTTING IN ANY EFFORT #txt #vent tw #it’s 3 am and I am angry at the world #ramblings of a lunatic

[lovromajers]

Ergo (the tags) this is not my fault at all but dalićs.... letting pricks and antivaxxers play... oh and guess what NATIONALISTS... letting these stellar players carry him through 10 matches of extra time.... who the FUCK wants to watch that??? Who wants to PLAY that game??? THIS IS WHY I NEED HIM TO BE FIRED

#Theres genuienly no joy in watching the croatian nt and idk if its because the absolute soullessness of dalićball or my personal identity #i literally never supported germany so i understand why i dont feel for it (i wasnt german in 2014 #i literally do not remember winning the wc at all... and then in 2018 they were so shit i didnt feel any pride) but whyyy croatia??? #The first football match i remember was the wc 2014 brasil match where we got fucked over by the ref #my family does not support any club (my dad supports hajduk split but its more his identity than love for the team) #BUT the nt so how is it that the imposter effect i usually have supporting clubs i in theory have no relation to #ALSO gets in my head when i watch croatia #the one single team my heart should feel for makes me feel SOULLESS #every second i watch croatia i feel like a faker im watching it to PROVE myself..... #theres no team (except maybe Germany nt) where i feel OBLIGED to watch .... idk how to explain it #Forever and always ill feel like an ant among termites... supporting Bayern (welllll....) and Spurs and Liverpool... #eating and gnawing away at the wood even though I'm not supposed to eat it.... #yet the one Croatian fig I'm offered is rotten and moulded... and the wood it hurts and I cannot digest it #i don't even know how to bite through it ... #favourite #AM i favouriting my own vent post because of those last few lines? yuuuuup im afraid i ate! #anyways im scared and i just want to be SOMEBODY #sham!s rambles

[allbeendonebefore]

okay it is ART TIME my friends let us........ do the Art... and think about ARt.

#thinks about how much i would rather be showering or something #maybe i'll do that first and then draw because i just am hitting a brick wall right now #hapo rambles #i was thinking of posting old procan art but that would involve seeing if i have it on me or not #its Battle time on the Sport so i feel like its time to draw ocs #but also i dont want it to be Sport Themed because people keep thinking i watch Sport #i dont watch it my dad is the one intent on Sport Watching #i did go outside again today before it started pouring rain so i am somewhat refreshed mentally #petrichor always helps #personal hapo

[unxpctedlygreat]

The fact that Byleth gets 3 supports levels with EVERYONE but NO CONVERSATION is a damn shame

#he's got conversations with Shez and Jeralt and that's it #but he can get to level A with everyone #And I don't feel all that strongly about A supporting him to Seteth bc of that because it kinda feels #weird? #they would be lacking so much flavour.... #I do like the idea of Byleth pining after Seteth once he meets him though #But the flavor from fe3h was so good... #Byleth having a full year to get to know everyone definitely sold me more on the interrelationships he has with everyone #and with Byleth becoming archbishop at the end of AM the path was paved for Setleth even if the game said no homo... #anyway #he'll end up with his dad probably if there are paired ending again #few3h #i need a tag for my few3h ramblings

[itstheelvenjedi]

Things I wish able-bodied people/people who don’t have chronic pain would stop asking me:

“Are you sore today?” or any variation thereof. Yes. Motherfucker the answer is YES. I am sore. I am ALWAYS SORE that’s why it’s called CHRONIC pain!

It does not go away! It never goes away! I have just had my pain become such a huge part of my daily life that I developed a tolerance for it!! So that on “good” days when the meds take enough of the edge of that I can ignore it, I can move and get stuff done! But please I am BEGGING you stop assuming that me being more physically active or getting more stuff done on a good day is me “not being in pain” because it’s not!! I just feel okay about pretending the pain doesn’t exist today! But it’s still there, it’s always fucking there and it always fucking hurts and it will NEVER stop hurting! I have been in pain since I was a teenager, 24/7, and it hasn’t fucking stopped (for reference/those that don’t regularly follow me, I am closer to 30 than 20 now lol). My pain has been a part of me so long that I don’t remember what it feels like to be a person who WASN’T in constant agony but I still go to sleep dreaming of the blissful ignorance I had as a child before the chronic pain took me the fuck out when I hit puberty (and tbh...I probably still had the pain then, I just didn’t understand that it wasn’t normal and not every child has those problems)

The difference between a good day and a bad day for me ISN’T anything to do with “not being in pain” it’s everything to do with “how well can I IGNORE the pain today?”

Because on a bad day the answer is “no”. I can’t ignore it, any of it. Stuff that I could do last week on a good day, like showering or eating food or goddamn it even getting out of bed (in case anyone is wondering where I disappear to, those are bad days and yes. I cannot leave my bed. It is that bad) are impossible. Because you might as well put a plastic spoon in my hand and tell me to use only that plastic spoon to help me scale to the top of Mt Everest. That is the level of physical, mental and emotional struggle that fighting my pain is like every day. On good days, I have proper climbing equipment and I can make it. But on bad days I have a plastic spoon, and the plastic spoon will NEVER be climbing equipment no matter how much I wish it would.

And I think a lot of people who have never experienced chronic pain don’t realise this.

#chronic pain #disabled person ramblings #kind of a vent post and kind of not idk #elven rants #sort of #elven screams into the void #this is part a vent and part info post tbh but i'll tag it as such for ppl's tag blockers just in case #ask to tag #ik my dad *meant well* when he asked me this this afternoon when he got back from our usual grocery store trip and i was *still* in bed #and barely awake...but i am so so tired of having to explain the concept of this to him #it's not his FAULT that he doesn't understand because he has never experienced chronic pain; and i'm not blaming him for that!! #in fact i am glad he doesn't. bc no one should have to feel this way every hour of every day of life #but man. it is tiring having to explain this concept to those ppl over and over who just don't get it no matter how many times you say it