#FUCK MY WHOLE LIFEEEE

[werewolfoffeverswamp]

^DOING T SHOTS WHEN UR AFRAID OF NEEDLES AND DONT LIKE IT I DONT LIKE IT OUCHIEEE I HATE IT BUT I LOVE BEING ON TESTOSTERONE AUGHHHHH IM SO SCARED

#cro talks #FUCK MY WHOLE LIFEEEE #and i still cant get an appointment with planned parenthood so i don’t know if i need to adjust my dosage or not 😀 #i’m 5 months on T now heehee #anyways. i also have to get my syringes from the pharmacy i pick up my T at instead of planned parenthood and they give me different shit— #every single time i go. like i have no idea what needle gauge im sposed to be using. not a clue #i think a 21g is ok ..? i dont remember what planned parenthood gave me in the first place. anyways #being on T for me is a cycle of am i doing this right? is that the right amount? is that an air bubble? girl HELPPPP

[immolatic]

was about to fall asleep just fine and then the mental illnesses decided to kick in and now its racing thoughts and hitting my forehead trying really hard to stop thinking and not lose my mind and not let myself get upset or something

#mytxt #😁😁😁😁😁😁😁 #i forgot that im mentally ill these past few months tbh like i forgot what it was like to be unstable and mentally ill #fuuuck fuck my whole LIFEEEE im stupid and its just all paranoid irrational thinking like its NOT REAL and STUPID oh my god save meeeee #i need to be shot in the head

[murdoc]

before taking my road test i did genuinely think everyone who said some of them will try to trip you up or be overly harsh were just sorta stretching the truth, but after how stupid my test was i understand.

i ended up autofailing bcz it was a two lane (same direction) parking lot where there were signs and cones saying one side was for the road test & one was for regular vechicles EXCEPT FOR ONE VERY SMALL AREA ONLY AT THE BEGINNING. but then she proceeded to make me continue on and do a parallel park, making me assume i didnt do anything wrong, and then have me circle back to the beginning and THEN fail me.

not only that, but she.. lied? about me not using my blinker when either going in or leaving the park????? which i straight up did do????? 🥲

#i think id have been less devastated by the fail if the just immediately told me to turn back around bcz i failed at the bad signage #i genuinely think that if anyone else saw that signage theyd be confused too. in fact im pretty sure my instructor didnt even know #bcz we needed to turn right but instead of going over to that tiny area that clips into the road test section #we went the long way around so we didnt go in that lane #the lesson i went to before my test was two hours and heavily inconvenient for my sponsor so to go through all of that and autofail.. #odds are w her id have failed anyway. i genuinely dont see why she lied about the blinkers but AT LEAST if i went through the whole test & #failed it wouldve hurt but at least i could walk away knowing it wasnt as stupid as it was #now i have to renew my id bcz i wont have a license. and renew my permit. and pay $200+ for another test bcz i dont have #a car that can be used for the regular rmv. and now im paying rent for a place i cant even go to yet bcz the next rmv appt is in MID MAY #(the rent thing is normal and i did plan for it. but if you havent experienced rmvs 'post' covid.. you dont even do the test there. #you 'check in' and leave to do it at your house.) #i may try to beg my ride that i now 100% need to drive me to a further out one but. sighs. who knows #i ❤️ lifeeee #diary #sorry this is so long lol. im not as inconsolable as yesterday but now im just annoyed #i also wish to stress that while i love my car i fucking hate driving #my reward for getting my license is high car insurance and paying a ton for gas? YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! #AUUGGHHHHHHHHH 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣

[thexwayward]

// my issue here is that i follow a bunch of cool people but lack the social graces or cojones to say hi and plot with them and that is a big ol’ me problem. no pos wow.

#[ ;; shut up ali ] #ive been on the fucking character ayy eye website for like 4 days because im too chicken #i have been writing things with bots bc i am a pussayyyyyy ahahahahah #fuck my whole entire lifeeee

[haechtual]

anyway I'm sad I hate that I have all these added worries and stuff about uni and being in rooms with people I don't know because of this stupid thing 🙃

#it's all well and good my mum telling people I'm not alone and that I can just say to hell with it but I can't LMAO #I hate it so much #and I'm realising I'll have to deal with this my whole lifeeee #I'd love to be able to just not care but it's so fucking embarrassing for me #telling me ** not telling people #people don't get it AKSHSHHS #I just feel so :/ about it tbh whenever I sit and think about everything like stuff in my future etc

[dryope]

Once day im going to fucking snap once and for all

#i feel it bubbling in my chest #all the time #just this insane amount of anger and rage and one day i am going to explode #my parents said i never threw tantrums as a baby #never screamed or cried and how good i was #never raged #but i wonder if i felt it and just never expressed it #sixteen years of rage just exploding #sixteen years never expressing how i really feel how angry i really am #one day i am going to blow it all up all of my relationships i am going to cut it all off #because of my rage i know it #it could be soon i could be 40 i could be 80 but it will explode #ive cried and ive sobbed but thats not really what i feel thats a byproduct #im really just angry #angry at everything how ive been treated by everyone in my life how everyone treats me delicately angry at how my feelings have been #ignored #for my whole fucking lifeeee #tired of being good #i need to be bad i need to be angry i need misbehave i need to be an inconvenience

[notreallyuseless]

Seriously, this will have been the LONGEEEEST FUCKING TWO WEEKS OF MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFEEEE.

I CAN'T DEAL WITH ALL THIS NEGATIVITY. I (personally) CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME SEE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN RP BEING ANGRY AND THE CC BEING GENUINELY ANGRY. When i saw the team agreeing on the no enchant, i felt a huge weight lift off my chest like "yeah! they won't have to grind for their armor so much anymore!" and now this whole...thing about the enchant armor in blue safe zone and i'm AAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!! (blue shouldn't have enchant armor in their safe zone chest but red shouldnt have destroyed their chest!)

I love and respect the admin team and all the people working on Purgatory and stuff like that obviously! They tried something new and they're changing rules and making adjustment every day and I hold them close and dear to my heart...but omg get us OUT OF HERE HAHA

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #i usually watch Phil's purgatory stream but right now i think everyone is a little bit too upset for my taste so i'll go do...something els

[stuckonjbbarnes]

sleepover with the oc's (& the boys crash it 👀) pls 🖤

The Proverbial Punching Bag {OCs x Marvel Mens}

Summary: Immediately following the ending to At Least Not Alone, the gang has a sleepover.

The OC Fics (in order of appearance)

A/N: Thanks for never giving up on me writing about my OCs and helping me remember who did what @buckysmischief

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“We’re still having a sleepover right? Steve didn’t ruin it, right?” Sasha whines.

“Yes, you’re all still welcome to stay, even Steve.” Sawyer adds before acknowledging her ex, “I forgive you for the way it ended. I don’t regret anything that happened after, so stop beating yourself up and let me be happy in my fucked up choices. Be happy with your own choices, that’s all we need.”

“I- knocking cuts Steve off.

“I’ll get it!” Jazzy jumps up, “I called in a reinforcement and he’s bringing more pizza!”

“YOU INVITED J?!”

The door swings open and like a flash Sawyer leaps over the couch and throws herself into a man. Pietro watches over his bottle of beer, as she’s twirled. The rest of the group watches in mostly confusion, save for Sam and Bucky who share a similar look of recognition.

“J? You guys know Joaquin?” Sam asks, attempting to piece something together.

“Know? I grew up with him!” Jazzy smiles, “He’s my favorite cousin.”

“I’m your only cousin.” Joaquin pouts, playfully jabbing her in the ribs.

“And therefore my undisputed favorite.”

“You know those two?” Sawyer throws a thumb over her shoulder towards Bucky and Sam, “I’m so sorry…”

“I’ve done a mission  or two with Sam…Bucky, I see your sleeve is still intact today.” The man grunts in reply, not at all the Bucky that Sawyer was used to but rather reminiscent of his soldier days.

“Would it kill you to be nice to new people for 2 seconds?” Sasha unsurprisingly berates him, causing a blush to creep across Bucky’s cheeks.

“It actually might,” Sam smirks.

“Fuck off Sam.” Bucky gripes, causing the whole of the apartment to erupt in laughter.

“Wait…so you guys are like friends? I thought you hated each other.” Joaquin’s eyebrows knit together and he receives both looks of sympathy and some eyerolls.

“Frenemies.” Tali shrugs.

“No no. They love each other.” Monroe intercedes.

“They’re both boring. Can we move on to someone significantly cooler?” Jazzy asks.

“Thor?”

“Can we not bring my brother into this?” Loki groans.

“J, who are you texting? Sitting over there with a goofy ass grin on your face…” Sawyer turns her attention to Torres.

“Just the love of his lifeeee.” Sam teases.

“Her name is Wren. If you must know.” Joaquin says, eyes not moving from the screen, “She’s just a girl from Tinder.”

“...that he saved from a shitty date. Twice.” Sam adds, throwing pieces of popcorn at the man.

“Well I want to meet her.” Daisy pipes up, earning a round of ‘of course you dos’ from the group. 

“No..no. Daisy’s right.” Sawyer agrees, “I’d like to meet her too.”

“This wouldn’t be the first time they shared feelings over something.” Scott chuckles.

“SHE THREW A POTATO AT HIM!” Loki and Tali both yell, much to Steve’s embarrassment.

“I think I’m missing something here.” Joaquin squints.

“It’s a lot to unpack.” Pietro shakes his head.

“I think you could write several movies with the amount of drama and hysterics in this friend group.” Sasha offers, “I would recommend running while you can.”

“It’s too late. He’s been introduced. He knows too much.” Tali smiles, looking less than friendly.

“Hey, miss witchy-woo, tone it down for like 5 seconds.” Scott interjects, “We’re making friends here.”

“This is the most fascinating night of my life…” Joaquin murmurs, “...and I’ve been curb stomped by a supersoldier.”

“BUCKY!” Sawyer’s jaw drops as she takes in her closest male friend.

“Woah. Woah. Woah…I did NOT.” 

“Sorry…flag-smashers.” J attempts to hide his grin. “I don’t think I’d be here right now if Barnes did it…”

“I can’t believe you think I’d curb stomp someone, Sawyer.”

“Bucky…you killed the majority of my newsroom.” She defends herself, “All I’m saying is it could’ve happened.” “He’s only known me for a few months.” Joaquin interjects.

“Have you seen, Mr. Grumpy-face over there?” Monroe challenges, “If stares could kill.”

“I told him about the staring thing…” Sasha sighs.

“We’ve all told him Sash.” Sam adds. 

“Can we stop ganging up on me?”

“See how not fun it is to be the proverbial punching bag?” Daisy asks.

“CALLING YOU EVERY FLOWER OTHER THAN DAISY WAS FUNNY…YOU TOLD ME YOU LAUGHED.” Sawyer cries, “I thought we moved on.”

“As the proverbial punching bag, I’d have to agree that it’s Bucky’s turn.” Steve nods.

“I hate you.”

“That’s your best pal.” Joaquin states, “...read about it at the Smithsonian.”

“And sometimes I hate him…”

“Sometimes we all hate each other.” Jazzy chimes in, “makes sleepovers more interesting.”

“So what do you say, Torres, you in the group or what?” Bucky asks and Joaquin breaks into a slow smile.

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#bucky x sasha #steve x daisy #sam x monroe #scott x jazzy #pietro x sawyer #loki x tali #marvel fan fiction #marvel #original characters #marvel au #joaquin torres #bucky barnes #sam wilson #steve rogers #pietro maximoff #loki odinson #scott lang

[robbybarnes]

~DUSKWOOD~

Richy: "Mmmm...don't know if i should be worried or excited for what will come..."

Jessy: "What do you mean?"

Richy: "It's Robby...have you notice she's not here anymore? Where did she go?"

Cleo: "...oh,i think she said something before about looking for a pedal boat..."

Richy: "Yup. But there wasn't even the shadow of a pedal boat in this beach nor in the sea..."

*suddently a running Robby approach followed by a lot of angry people,two dogs,some police men,a bunch of kids and a lifeguard on a quad*

Robby: "RUUUUNNN!!!! RUUUUNNN FOR YOUR LIFEEEE!!!"

Dan: "What the..."

Tommy: "Is she covered in blood? Are those scars?"

*running past my friend right in to the sea,swimming for my life*

"YOU STUPID ASSHOLES! IT WAS JUST A FUCKING BOAT! HOW COULD I KNOW IT WAS AN EXIBITION ONE!?!?"

Lilly: "A boat? A full big boat? Wtf..."

Jake: "Well,in her defense we spent the whole night,yesterday,watching Pirates of the Caribbean so..."

#duskwood #duskwood everbyte #jake duskwood #duskwood dan #duskwood lilly #duskwood thomas #duskwood richy #cleo duskwood #duskwood jessy

[dreamertrilogys]

If you are comfortable sharing, what's the situation with dani? ofc pls only share if you are comfortable!!<3

i typed up a response to this & then accidentally deleted it TWICE i fucking hate this app. anyway this got long soooo

okay so we first met in english class at the start of the year right (we were both sort of friends with this one girl & like we sat near each other and both spoke up in class a lot). anyway we got this assignment to write a memoir about something that’s happened in our lives. so here i was a week before the due date, still topic-less (we had a month to work on it btw). i half-jokingly said i could come out to the teacher as bi in the memoir bc then she’d HAVE to give me a good mark right (it worked btw i got a 98% on it <3). and then it sort of spiralled into a whole “you should write about someone you’ve dated and being sexuality into it via that” / “i’ve never dated anyone” / “pretend you dated me”. (oh btw dani was already out to me and our other friends from english class as bi at this point). and so then we started flirting a LOT but like mostly as a joke(???). it was definitely more lighthearted at the start but like. well we were still very much flirting. like it was to the point where she’d ask me to go somewhere with her and i’d have to ask “in what way do you mean that” (the reply to that was always some variation of “in whatever way you want me to mean it”). this continued for like months and stuff but i didn’t consider the possibility that she actually liked me until recently (around a week ago ish?) anyway

okay so now it’s ummm. last tuesday(?). there’s a supply teacher for english so we decide to skip together (in a date way. i think). many things happen here:

we hold hands (romantically. she specifically asked me if i held hands with my friends and when i said no she was like ok good)

she kept looking at me and i kept saying what and then eventually she told me she thought i was pretty and that she liked me

this was so. like i had to cover my face with my hands for a bit after this and then i eventually told her she was pretty too and stuff. i couldn’t manage to tell her that i liked her but i did heavily imply it i think

i then came out to her as trans (ok so this was kind of rocky. first i was like would you still like me if i was a guy & she was like (lightheartedly/mostly jokingly) no bc guys have penises

and i was like are you bi? (like not meanly but just she’s sort of been questions if she’s bi or a lesbian and like. yknow) and then we sort of talked abt it for a bit and she was like i don’t know there’s like one (1) guy i’d date but don’t worry it’ll never happen (can’t tell if she only likes him bc he’s unattainable or if she was just clarifying that it would never happen bc yknow she just told me that she liked me)

anyway then and then she was like why tho? and so i was like i’m trans etc etc (MOST EMBARRASSING CONVERSATION OF MY LIFEEEE i genuinely despise the act of coming out to people it’s so awkward). anyway she was incredibly nice about it and apologized for her previous answer and shit (like she was genuinely truly sorry for it trust me). she was also like “for the record i still like you”. anyway she asked what names/pronouns she should use in front of which people etc etc

anyway while walking back to school after the whole coming out business she was like “can i reword something from before?” and then told me she thought i was hot (like in contrast to the earlier pretty). this was SOOOOO

okay so anyway ever since then she’s taken over the spot of the guy who used to sit next to me in english and every class we just spend with our chairs pressed together shoulders touching etc etc. now my PERSONAL issues with the idea of dating her:

i mean. there’s my religious stuff obviously. islamically i technically can’t date anyone but like. i genuinely don’t know where i stand on that anymore it’s quite awful i don’t want to think about it etc etc

there’s the fact that i still have a huge crush on one of my other friends (but like. he’s very definitely currently unattainable so i’m not sure how much this matters)

i’ve never dated anyone before this is so scary 😭😭 she’s dated much more than me and like. idk

she’s so cool and pretty and nice and hot but i don’t truly think we could like be together forever like we simply are just two very different people without enough in common (OR maybe i just have commitment issues. who knows.) (then again we were never really friends like the whole friendship was based on flirting as a joke so really what common ground do we have) (do i really have commitment issues? i mean yes probably but also i genuinely think if my friend who i have a crush on asked me out right now i’d probably say yes. but then again who knows for sure. certainly not me!)

not an issue this is a pro. did i mention she’s SO fucking hot like it’s insane 😳

#so anyway yeah. this got SO long help 😭 i was gonna do this all in my diary entry some time later but thanks to you i didn’t have the chance #to procrastinate it (genuine thanks not sarcasm) #answered #anonymous #fake ex gf #gf

[mariclerc]

An unexpected role (pt.4) | cl16

Summary: you revealed your little secret to your date, you didn't expect he would take it so well.

Warning: bad comments on social media, unnamed ex-partner, abusive ex-partner, swearing, a LOT of fluff and Charles being an amazing dad and boyfriend.

a/n: this one is a little bit long, I hope you like ittt!!

Check out the series!! Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 5

taglist 🎀 @martaaairwin1994-blog @barcelonaloverf1life @bananaleclerc @thedecalcomania-blog @jonasswifie

ynusername

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tagged charles_leclerc

ynusername my loves 🤍🤍

user1 NO WAY ‼️‼️‼️

itslolasss you finally posted them bestie 🥹🥹 i'm supa proud

charles_leclerc it cost her a couple of tears but i'm finally on her insta 😌😌

ynusername itslolasss please don't believe him okay? But yes, I may have cried a little while posting this 😭😭

itslolasss i know you did darling don't worry abt that 🫶🏻🫶🏻

charles_leclerc I love you and Lily with all my heart 💗💗 my cute girls

ynusername charlieeee 😭😭 you're making me cry babe 🥺🥺

charles_leclerc owww, don't cry little dove 🥺🥺

landonorris i missed several chapters charles_leclerc can you explain????

pierregasly i also missed several chapters bro

landonorris wait you didn't know this?? then who knew?

logansargeant when did this happen? i'm lost

carlossainz55 same here

user2 not half of the grid not knowing that Charles had a family 🫣🫣🫣

scuderiaferrari we didn't know either 🧍🏼‍♀️

user1 TEAM 😳😳😳😳

francisca.cgomes cutiesss 💕💕💕 i love you bothhh

ynusername kikaaa Lily misses youuuuu 🫶🏻🫶🏻

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc my whole lifeeee, I love them both 💗🎀✨

lorenzotl finallyyyyyyyyyy

user1 oh my god, they're so pretty 🥺 congratulations charlie for your little family

ynusername we love youuuuu so much charliee 🥹😭 thank you for appearing at the perfect time in our lives, we owe you a lot 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

charles_leclerc it's nothing amore, the one who owes you two a lot is actually me 🥹🥹

ynusername okay charlie boo boo! 🥺🥺

leclerc_pascale mes filles, je les aime beaucoup 💗💗 (my daughters, I love you both very much)

ynusername nous t'aimons aussi maman!! (we love you too mom!!)

charles_leclerc bien sûr, tu ne m'aimes plus... mens, je plaisante maman 🤍🤍 (of course you don't love me anymore... lie, I'm joking mom)

scuderiaferrari welcome to the red team Lily and yn!!! ❤️❤️❤️

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lilymhe oh goodness congrats big guy! And welcome to the f1 paddock cute girlies 💕💕

ynusername oh god, thank u sweetheart 🫶🏻🫶🏻

sebastianvettel congrats Charles ❤️❤️

charles_leclerc thank you so much Seb!!

sebastianvettel if you need some parenting guide you can ask me anything!

charles_leclerc noted!! Thank you so much Seb <3

user3 oh god, congrats champ!!!!

f1gossipp are we seriously going to congratulate him just because he is raising a little girl and his dating a pig?

user2 bro... Let him live!!! He has a beautiful and adorable family and I think that from comments like yours on social media he had them safe and sound!!

f1gossipp yeah sure, she looks like a fucking golddigger

user4 yeah, she looks like a total bitch. Attracting a man using a little girl as bait? Please, everything to get attention because she needs it

francisca.cgomes can you please shut the fuck up??? this is why Charles didn't want to show little Lily or yn and he did it because he is proud of them and loves them with his whole heart!! it's one thing for you to support him and another thing for him to throw shit at the people he loves.

Your cell phone doesn't stop vibrating with notifications, since last night you decided (as a family) to post pictures of yourselves on insta and, as expected, some fans went completely crazy, but too crazy in your opinion. There were many good comments, and you really appreciated them, as there were also very, very bad and ugly comments talking about you and Lily and what hurts you the most is that it's not your or her fault.

Right now you are lying in bed next to Charles, he has one arm on your waist and you are lying on his chest, even though your head hasn't stopped spinning thousands of times, the beat of his heart calms you incredibly and you really loved that.

Suddenly you hear the bedroom door open and small footsteps echo in the silent room.

“Mama? Up! Up!” Lily says from the foot of the bed, trying to climb up.

“Oh, come here darling!” You say while you move a little without waking Charles so you can put Lily on the bed next to you.

She smiles. “Dada?” she asked.

“Dada is sleeping baby, but we can sleep with him too, don't you think?” you said to her softly, she nodded.

She moved onto your other side and you covered her with the blanket you and Charles were using. She snuggled up next to you while you tried to fall asleep even just a little. These quiet moments are what fill you with calm and make you have hope that not everything is bad, you have a nice family, a healthy and happy little girl, a wonderful boyfriend who would go to the moon for you two and there's not much more you can ask for. This is everything you ever dreamed of having.

Suddenly Charles babbles something a little sleepy. “Mhm, good morning princesses!” He says and you let out a giggle.

“Good morning champ!” you say as you give him a kiss on the cheek.

“Dada! Mowning!” Lily says making hands so that her dad can hold her in his arms.

“Oh, but what a nice good morning I have here! Ma petite fleur and ma belle” He says as he brushes his nose against Lily's and smiles. (my little flower. my beautiful.)

“Yes, especially with online comments.” You say releasing a sigh.

He looks at you curious. “What kind of comments, my dear? Don't tell me you read those comments?”

You nodded. “Sadly yes, it's just that... I couldn't help it, sorry love.”

He denied. “You shouldn't apologize to me love, they are the wrong ones! They don't know you and they don't know Lily to have an opinion about you or our little family.” He looked at you and smiled and then kissed you on the corners of your lips. “So you don't have to apologize to me, okay? I love you two very much and I hope you know it, honey.” He says as he starts giving you kisses on your face, Lily starts bouncing in his arms and you laugh.

You nod with a shy smile on your face. “Okay sir, I won't apologize to you but it does bother me that they are that way, you know?”

“I know love, but don't waste your energy on that, there are more important things than that. Like, for example, Lily!” He says smiling at the aforementioned and she giggles. “Look at her, isn't she cute? Because yes she is, a cutie!”

You giggle. “Fine, fine. How about we get up and start this day properly, okay? What would you like for breakfast, my loves?”

“Pancakes!” They both say in unison, you smile and get out of bed.

***

The rest of the day passed peacefully, and you were truly grateful. You liked being in this little bubble of love and comfort building colourful block towers with Lily and Charles, but sometimes it was necessary to show a little bit of that love that you have as a family to the world, and perhaps many people are bothered by that, but at the same time there are many who don't.

But seeing the smile on your baby girl face every time her dada tickles her or hugs her is priceless and it makes you think that you are really in the right place.

“Love? What are you thinking about honeybunch?” he asked softly while holding Lily in his arms.

“Nothing, I'm just so happy to be with you. It sounds silly, but you guys make me so so happy.”

He smiled. “Aww, love. That is so cute! I am also very happy to be with you two!”

Lily, feeling the love, begins to giggle a few times. “Mama! Dada! Love!”

You giggle. “We love you too baby!” you say in unison.

You more than anyone know that with the photos being posted on Insta, your parents are going to want to try to get back into your life. And it really doesn't make any sense since they turned their back on you many times and now they want to come back to see how much money they can "get" from you or Charles is very stupid.

“Do you know what terrifies me? That my parents, seeing the photos of us on social media, want to come back into my life, you know? After everything they did to me...” You were going to continue but he silenced you with a kiss on the lips.

“Princess, don't think about that. Yes, they most likely want to get back into your life and Lily's, but you know what? It's up to you to make them come in or not.” he whispers.

“Who are you and what did you do with my Charles? I didn't know this philosophical Charles.” he laughs.

“Sometimes I have to use logic honey, I'm not just a pretty driver.” you let out a laugh while he winks. “But honestly baby, don't think about that... How about we watch a movie together?”

Suddenly, almost automatically, Lily smiled. “Movie! Can we 'atch... Princess movies?” she asked softly.

Charles smiled and caressed her hair. “But of course honey! We can watch any princess movie you want!”

You smiled and got up from the floor. “Okay, I'll look for a blanket and I'll look for Mimi too!”

“Mimi!” Lily screeched and you giggled.

“Okay okay, you two stay there.” You say as you walk towards Lily's room to look for her stuffed bunny Mimi. “What movie will we see, loves?” You ask from the hallway.

“Tangled!” They say in unison, you just laugh while grabbing the blanket, that's yours and Lily's favorite movie and little by little it has become Charles' favorite —although he was a little reluctant to watch princess movies but he loves them.

You return to the living room where Lily and Charles are already settled on the sofa with some sweets and a small glass of water for Lily. “Tangled it is then!” You say as you hand Mimi to Lily while she snuggles between the two of you and the three of you shelter under the blanket.

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itslolasss god, what a beautiful thing, you three will make me cry I sweaaaarr 😭😭😭

ynusername stfu, right now i feel like i'm in a fever dream you know? Not counting the bad comments on insta.

itslolasss girl I love you and I love your little girl, but please don't hurt yourself by reading all that garbage :( they have no idea what a great mother you are‼️‼️

itslolasss i bet all my money that Charles already gave you a lecture about not seeing those disgusting comments 🫵🏻🫵🏻

ynusername erm... Yes 👉🏻👈🏻 and I say, he's truly right tbh

itslolasss can we talk about the fact that you made him watch TANGLED? He's such a girl dad bestie

ynusername hehe, yup lily and i did that thing 😋🥰

“You know something baby?” You move your head to the side so you can see Charles blushing a little bit. “We have our own fairy tale here.” he whispered.

You giggle while caressing lily's back, she fell asleep in your arms. “Are you sure about that?”

He nodded. “Yup! We have our own little bubble of love here, a sleepy little princess, and I have you.” he gives you a small peck on your lips. “There may be some... little problems along the way of course, but I don't think that will be an impediment for us.” he smiled at you.

“Aww, babe. That's so sweet!” you blush slightly at his cute words. “I know that not everything is rosy and there will be some problems, but I don't think it is impossible for us.”

He smiles and kisses you on the lips, it was a slow and sweet kiss, after a little while you separated to catch your breath. “As long as I am with you both nothing bad would happen to you, okay?” He said and you just nodded with a smile on your face, really with him both you and Lily felt protected.

***

A couple of weeks have passed since that night, and the truth is that everything is going quite well, no one hates you and Lily on social media anymore, apparently they managed to understand that you are a family... And by "understand" you mean that Charles posted an extremely long post on Instagram to make it clear that if people (or the "fans") hate his family will have to deal with him.

“Calm down little butterfly, I've finished combing your hair, okay?” you say tenderly to Lily as she plays with Mimi.

“Okay mama.” she giggled softly.

You finish fixing her hair when there is a knock on the door, you are not waiting for anyone, Charles had gone out to buy some groceries but other than that you weren't waiting for someone else. So very cautiously, you walk towards the door and look through the peephole to see who it is.

“What... What he does... here?” You whisper to yourself, on the other side of the door is your ex-partner.

You feel your body start to shake, this can't be happening! How did he manage to find out where you live? You're honestly terrified to think that he might take Lily, but to be honest, coming back after almost three years of abandoning you both when you were pregnant it's pretty stupid and dumb.

With trembling hands you manage to write a quick message to Charles which, surprisingly, he read immediately and replied with “I'm on my way bubba. Don't worry everything will be fine <3” You let out a sigh and very carefully looked through the peephole again, he is still standing there with a face that is not at all pleasant.

With a heavy sigh you slightly opened the door. “What are you doing here?”

He smiled coquettishly. “I thought about paying my girls a visit.”

You cleared your throat. “Oh really? After almost three years, really? Besides we were never "your girls", so if you can go away I would be very grateful” You say with a coarse, serious and annoying voice.

He sighs heavily. “Do you have another man?” He says with anger. “Answer me, bitch.”

You roll your eyes. “So what if I have it or not? It's not your fucking problem!” You say exasperated.

He looks at you again with anger and hatred. “You are with that fucking little driver? Oh really? You are such a little whore, looking for new sticks to insert in your holes.”

“Please, stop now, please.” you whisper, begging him to leave you alone. “Stop this please.”

He didn't listen to you and slapped you in the face, the raw sound echoed in the hallway of the building, you were perplexed in your place with your red eyes full of tears. This was common when you were together? Yes, sadly it was, but you couldn't do anything, you were too young and, according to your parents, he was the "right man" for you... What a crap.

“Mama?” You heard Lily's soft voice and before your ex could hit you again you took her into your arms.

You looked at Lily with a somewhat sad face. “It's okay cutie pie, mama is here.” you whisper.

He looked at you both like you were fresh meat. “Is that Lily? Come to daddy sweetheart.” It's ironic how one moment he was hitting you and now he wants to play house with you and Lily, totally abnormal.

Lily looked at your ex and started whining. “You not ma' dada.” Lily said in a stammer.

“I know darling, dada is going to be here soon, I promise.” you whispered again.

He frowned and became angry again. “So, you're really with that little driver, huh? Oh little bitch, you'll see.” He said with his voice full of rage and egocentrism.

You closed your eyes and covered Lily as you waited for the impact of, perhaps, another slap or perhaps something worse, but that impact never came. Half open your eyes to watch as Charles held your ex's wrist with one hand and grabbed the door frame with the other.

“Listen, I don't know who the fuck you are but I'll just say one thing and I hope it's clear to you.” Charles said with a strong voice, you had never seen him so angry, well, only a couple of times when he got angry with his track engineer, but nothing more than that. “You come to touch a measly inch of my wife and daughter and I swear to you that you won't have an easy time finding a job or even a partner later on, is that clear?” he said rudely.

“You're just a fucking driver, what are you going to do to me? Run over me?” Your ex said.

Charles laughed sarcastically and without grace. “Please, I am capable of making your life miserable.” he smiled sinisterly. “Now if you allow me, could you get out of here? I want to spend time with my wife and daughter, and if that bothers you and you want to cause another stupid scene, I can call security.” he said in a serious voice.

As if it were a warning, the building security appeared and took your ex-partner away from your apartment door, you let out a sigh of relief and hug Charles with Lily in your arms and he hugs you back. You let out the suppressed tears in your eyes, it has been so long since you felt so much fear and terror and the fact that Lily has been present terrifies you even more, he begins to rub your and Lily's back very carefully.

“He's gone baby, let it out, there's no pressure.” Charles said in a whisper as you entered the apartment again.

You let out a little whimper. “I don't know what... I don't know what he was doing here, how he found us... I was very scared.” He caressed your face a little and then separated and looked for the bag with the groceries that he left in the hallway. “I don't what he wanted Cha... I'm... I'm sorry” you whisper he wiped your tears with his thumb.

“Baby... You don't have to apologize for his shitty attitude, the important thing is that I arrived on time, don't you think? And besides, you and Lily are safe, which is the most important thing.” he said. “Although, I can help you place a restraining order against him, if you wish.”

You blinked a few times. “Really? Charlie, it's not necessary, you know?” he shook his head multiple times.

“Love, you have to do it. It's for your safety and Lily's! I wouldn't mind talking to my lawyers about it and getting help from them.” He said in a calm voice as he carried a calm Lily in his arms.

“You're sure?” I looked at him hopefully.

He nods. “Completely sure, darling.”

You nod with a shy smile on your face. “Okay babe.”

He kisses your temple. “Now, how about we cure that ugly mark on your face? And then we can have a cuddle session for my favorite girls, how does that sound?” He says while tickling Lily's tummy, you nod.

“That sounds good." You smile a little. “Thanks again love.” you said and he kisses you softly.

He guides you to the room and heals the minor wounds left by your ex's slap. His touch is gentle and soft, it's like he doesn't want to hurt you and that's good for your soul. Finally, he placed one of Lily's bandages on your cheek and kissed the spot, causing you to giggle.

“Your stuble tickles me love!” you say and he smiles and blushes.

“And why isn't Lily tickled, hm?” He says with a little smile and starts giving Lily kisses and she giggles loudly.

“Dadaa! Tickles!” she says between giggles.

You smiled. “What did you say, honey?”

“Fine, fine. Maybe you have a bunch of tickles!” he says with a chuckle. “My ticklish girls.” He says and tickles you and Lily again and you both laugh louder.

***

After a few hours, sleep overcame Lily and you were just a push away from falling asleep, the fatigue of the unexpected day was hitting you hard. But you couldn't go to sleep without first talking to Charles a little, it was a kind of routine that you do before going to sleep.

You murmur. “Mhm, baby?” you asked.

“Can't you sleep my darling?” He asks and you nod. “Come here petit bébé.” He says as he opens his arms. (little baby)

You snuggle into his arms. “I don't know how to thank you for what you do for us.” You whisper.

“Baby, you don't have to thank me for that, you know?” He says softly. “It's something that comes naturally from me, it's nothing really.” He says while placing kisses all over your face and you giggle.

“you are an angel charlie.” You smile.

“I don't see myself as an angel, but if you say so, that's fine!” He giggles and blushes.

You make a little silence and then speak again. “So... My wife, you said earlier, tell me, sir, what do you mean by that?” You giggle a little.

He blushes even more. “Oh well, I don't know, it just came out... I'm sorry if it makes you uncomfortable darling.” He said a little embarrassed and you silenced him with a short kiss on the lips.

“Not at all... I have to say that I liked it.” You whisper and he opened his eyes wide.

“Doesn't it make you uncomfortable?” you denied.

“You can call me that as many times as you want bubba!” you giggled.

“Oh god, thank you so much chérie, you make me the luckiest man in the world!” he giggled.

“It's nothing baby boy! It's like you say, it's something that comes naturally.” You say and give him several kisses.

With him you feel safe and loved, a feeling that you haven't had for a long time (since before you finally knew him). And so in the warm arms of your loved one, you fall into a deep sleep thinking that not everything is bad, there are good moments as well as bad ones, but with him and Lily there is nothing they cannot overcome as a family.

#formula one x reader #f1 x you #charles leclerc fluff #charles leclerc imagine #charles leclerc x reader #charles x reader #charles x mom #charles leclerc #dad!charles leclerc #charles leclerc x mom #charles x you

[goodmorrowing]

Bestie what happened 😭

ALRIGHT i'm going to give the most brief timeline of events this year that i can 😭 this comes with light trigger warnings for abuse, sa, poor mental health + associated behaviors. i think that's it.

JANUARY: celebrated my one year anniversaryyy with the love of my lifeeee and honestly everything was fine. i was having fights with my mom but generally things were good. i was gearing up for my last semester of college and going around and it was good!

FEBRUARY: again it was FINE i was starting to panic about my life changing but that's normal. early in the month i started getting harrassed by my ex-boyfriend and it became a whole situation. but i was still okay. i was working my dream job as a paid internship and planning to move but not stressing too much because i had everything in order!

MARCH: march actually came and went really fucking fast. a lot happened and my gf was playing lacrosse so it was a blur of finishing up coursework and watching so!! much!!!! lacrosse!!! + a whole field of other spring sports. again there was more with my mother siding with my ex but that came and went.

APRIL: april was my birthday month! had a birthday, and then the panic really started to set in. i was searching for apartments in washington dc but my heart really wasn't there because my mother was in the area. everything got a little slower when my gf suffered an injury from lacrosse and was ordered rest. also the harrassment from my ex increased tenfold but the first part kind of culminated here. overall, it was okay.

MAY: i graduated!! it was not as joyous as i thought it would be because i wasn't rich in family or friends, but it was okay. at a grad party, i was taken advantage of and humiliated. it was more impactful than it should have been. i was ashamed and trying to forget it happened. i wasn't coping too well. at the time everything going on just turned into a puddle of mental wreck. it got to a point that i was having daily anxiety attacks and in a bad place. i adopted a cat though!

JUNE: so i thought the ex situation was over but! it wasn't! this guy found my address through his friends and showed up at my place regularly, would non-stop call and text me from different phone numbers, would threaten me and my girlfriend, etc. he even found out about my sa from the month prior and attempted to use it to humiliate me, on top of so much other bullshit. my mother was fully on his side at this point and the whole situation made my mental health plummet. i felt so fucking scared all the time. another thing to note is that he got married in april (which was a leading cause of the fight we had then) and was still married at this point. it felt awful to know that we had both "moved on" and i was still stuck in cycles of his abuse.

JULY: i was supposed to move in june, but complications prevented me from doing so until july. so in july i moved from new jersey to washington dc! it was honestly huge for me. i lived in the dmv area during my teen years, so it was refreshing. my girlfriend had gone for the first time the prior year when she was helping me after i went low contact with my mother. my girlfriend and i moved into our first place together and we loved it. i was working my dream job for real and kate was taking up work as an artist and it was one of the best months of my life. all of the stress i had slowly started to fade out.

AUGUST: there were some complications here. we found out that my gf's injury wasn't healing right and would require surgery. which was fine. we were tight financially, as an artist and a writer often are, so i started waitressing again, which was my student employment job of choice during college. my girlfriend got surgery and started physical therapy, so she was recovering well. everything was still okay.

SEPTEMBER: in september my mental health began to tank again without much rhyme or reason. after seeing my mother for the first time in months, i decided to go no-contact with her because it went terribly. the whole thing filled me with so. much. guilt. my father passed away when i was a kid, so cutting my mother out felt worse than it should have. i was barred from seeing my younger sister until she turned eighteen (but she is thankfully so understanding) and everything just felt like a wreck. at this time i also had to take a break from my dream job because it wasn't making ends meet. my girlfriend and i were experiencing some personal conflicts but it was nothing huge. it was mostly just added pressure on top of everything that had already happened.

OCTOBER: october was a wreck of a month. my girlfriend and i quickly recovered from our spats but my mental health wasn't getting any better. i couldn't afford therapy and things were getting bad faster than i could handle them. it was a vertical battle. essentially i abandoned everything that wasn't absolutely necessary and began living in a perpetual routine of working shifts that could go on upwards of twelve hours, several times a week... cooking dinner from nothing... cleaning... making minimal conversation... and downing energy drinks so i could do it all again. any semblance of life that i had just simply felt like it was gone. all of the things i was looking forward to? gone. at the end of the month, there was an emergency in my girlfriend's family and we had to make an emergent trip to boston.

NOVEMBER: cont'd. so we went to boston and stayed for about a week (this was actually the time when my phone broke lmao). i had to go back because we'd left our cat in the care of friends and had to sort some things. kate stayed in boston. i came back to learn that i'd lost my waitress job and would lose my apartment without proof of income. so i made the spur of a moment decision to pack some of our things, deal with the rest, grab the cat, and come up to boston indefinitely.

flash forward to december, things are getting better. it's still difficult. it's getting better. and hopefully next month things will be great. hopefully next year everything will be okay again. but all is well, besties ✨ and god that was long! oopsies.

#i honestly probably forgot some things #but i feel like i owe this explanation of what happened #i regret not answering this first so i could bury it in fun stuff

[reignbowarbiter]

FUCK MY WHOLE LIFEEEE GODDDD

#cheese *blush* #NOT TO BE A BRAT BUT NOTHING EVER GOES MY WAY. !!!!!!!!!!!

[loremonster]

BRAIN WHY DO WE KEEP IMAGINING OUR WORK AS COMICS

THAT'S LIKE TEN TIMES THE EFFORT TO NOT EVEN PUT A WHOLE CHAPTER TO PAGE

I CAN WRITE 100 WPM BUT NOOOO BRAIN THINKS IN PRETTY COLORS AND MOTION AND FACES FUCK MY ENTIRE LIFEEEE

#I'm just complaining in a hyperbolic manner #deeply annoyed that I write words good but I don't THINK in words #i got gud with words in a futile attempt to communicate what goes on in my skull #but it always feels hallow like a component of the story is just straight missing

[yunohentai]

mtl nct dream to be fwbs with someone? (also, do you think any of them would fall in love or get attached? 😩) - ari 🤞

most to least nct dream member who'll be into friends with benefits (my opinions) thank you for requesting! and the others who are reading this, my reqs are always open so feel free to stop by.

jisung and chenle are included! if you don't like that please skip.

jeno: he seems like the guy who'll be the most into 'sex without any strings attached' because he's all in for getting his dick wet but not being all lovey and sweet. fwb with jeno would start with him just staring at you while you're over at the dream dorm and talking to jaemin, wearing that mini skirt which showed your black pantie whenever you bent over a little. you knew what you were doing to him as you then would sit next to him and act all innocent, he'll definitely make an excuse with "i want to show y/n my ps5 in the bedroom." and take you in there with his shirt stuffed into your mouth as he fucks you from the back, not letting anyone else in the house. i don't think he'll straight away get feelings,, it'll take time with him but attached? definitely. he'd want to fuck you every minute. but mostly it'll be you calling him up to fuck ANYWHERE litreally anywhere. a public bathroom, dressing room in a mall oh and what not.

haechan: oh this fucking boy.... HE'S GOING TO BE SO COCKY ABOUT IT. this mf gonna make sure that the whole house hears your moans. he probably wanted to be your boyfriend but you indirectly made it clear that you don't want a boyfriend but some good sex so he decided to settle for that... just to be by you. he'd be calling you every minute and moaning into the phone with "oh y/n please come over, i want to fuck you so nice" and those words would be enough to make you run over. in the end you two will definitely fall in love with each other, even though you'll mostly be annoyed as fuck of him for being an ass.

mark: this!! would happen with him and then, there would be this certain tension between the both of you because of him not admitting the need he has for you BUT jerking off 24/7. it was totally obvious to you that you've ruined him. YET THIS MF WILL TRY TO ACT ALL "man like" and when you'd get him into this fwb plan he'll try to dom but fail miserably, making you fuck his cock. IMAGINE BEING DUMB AND HAVING A BIG COCKKKKK thats ur favorite line to tease him with. you'll be crazily in love with him and his dick but he's gonna be in denial of his romantic feelings or attraction to you forever. but finally get a grip on reality and grab you FOR LIFEEEE.

renjun: well... i don't think he'll be very into this. he likes relationships to have a lable (bf/gf) before they get intimate. BUT,, somehow... he'll get into fwb too. You come over at the dream dorm just to drop something from your friend who is jaemin's girlfriend as you two meet each other, and then meet again at a party.... and have sex... DRUNK SEX BTW. and then the next day,, he'll be all whiny and shit around his friends. "dude just get some pussy if you're so needy" LMAO. then he and even you will be just running to each other whenever horny. oh and he wont be that attached romantically but you'd go crazy over all his bullshittery. you two will definitely end up together.

jaemin: Naw,, This mans is all in for the sex bro. LIKE THE BAD BOY, PLAY BOYYYY. at night he's in her bed, in the morning some other girl's. literally the hottest playboy🤩 but you would make him stop in his tracks, he'd legit stop looking at the girls just because how sexy and pretty you were. he'd try to get you in bed a few times but you'd make fun of him and he'll take this challenge. seducing you, then being all good and sweet to you. [FALLING IN LOVE TOO.] but you'd stay unfazed until... this man describes his need for you in words... that'll make you weak in the knees and y'alls would fuck and fuck LWSDIEFEHF. you guys wont start dating fast though he'll confuse you hella.

chenle: man ion think this sweetheart would even wanna have sex :((( he just seems to me like the one to pick you up in his arms and carry you everywhere because he doesn't want his princess to hurt her legs. SO CUTE. but oh boy... flirt with another guy and you're getting fucked into the mattress. he possessive asf,, but yes he won't be into fwb shit.

jisung: he too doesn't seem like he's gonna be into it BUT BUT BUT,, that boy can make you scream without touching. NO JOKES,, his voice is enough to make you wet your panties💥💳💥💳 and he's such a softie that he'll take you out on dates, and fuck you slow and very good :D no aggression in his love. yeah he also wont be into fwb according to me..

#nct dream #nct dream mtl #nct dream smut #mark smut #jisung smut #jaemin smut #jeno smut #chenle smut #renjun smut #haechan smut #nct smut #yezziechan #smut #mtl #requests #mark lee #kpop smut #nct 127 smut

[subtle-edge-of-rot]

Michael fucking his s/o in front of a mirror and the whole time he’s whispering in their ear how beautiful they are , how much of a whore they are for him and the whole time he’s giving them a pace that they can barely handle so they can’t really say anything except for daddy. I need this in my lifeeee

-🐙

Bestie this is what I need on an esoteric level.

Just to get a hand fisted in my hair, pulling my head back so that I’m forced to watch while he rails me and speaks filth into my ear. I need my hands to scramble for something to hold onto while I try and take the pace he’s set while I’m screaming for daddy 😌

#payton’s asks #michael myers #🐙 anon #tw daddy kink