#EAT UR FUCKING BREAKFAST

[oomisluvr]

SUNDAY CANDY (I’VE BEEN PRAYING FOR YA’)

synopsis: one should not attend the end of the world without a good breakfast. thankfully, its just sunday.

warnings: exactly one (1) swear, mentions of food, sfw!

It was a simple spread, according to Kiyoomi.

Vibrant strawberry jam filling the airy pockets of fresh ciabatta, smothered in dandelion-yellow butter and warmed comfortably. Fluffy eggs sprinkled with fragrant black pepper and fat flakes of himalayan salt, dazzled with parsley and green onions cut from the small windowsill garden. Rows of thick, fatty slices of bacon; crispy on the edges but softened everywhere else. Orange juice so bright it mimics the sun, thin pieces of pulp dancing alongside the cool ice chips.

You think you might cry.

Sakusa floats around the kitchen, his shirtless torso pressed against the cool granite counter as he mixes ingredients in a pale plastic bowl, flannel pajama pants hanging low on his hips. He hears you before he sees you, throwing a look over his shoulder to take in your appearance, his face softening into something that looks a lot like love.

“Good morning,” He hums by way of greeting, “Rest well?”

“How could I not?” You joke, tossing yourself onto the counter stools and swiveling around just because you can, “Your thread count is in the millions. Where are your sheets from? Dubai? Honduras? Fucking Mars?”

“Egypt, actually. And they’re only a 1500 thread count.” He corrects playfully, breathing out a quiet laugh, “But I’ll take the compliment, I’m glad you slept well.”

“Only a 1500 thread count.” You mutter to yourself, toying with the hem of your faded club shorts you’ve had for years, “Practice today?”

“Hmm? Oh, no, not today. Meian’s letting us have the day off.“ He says, idly scratching an itch on his torso, a gentle smile pushing the apples of his cheeks, “Just us today.”

Between the two of you, quality time is worth more than gold. Breakfast, especially, has become a ritual of sorts. And Sunday brunch is always holy. You hum sleepily, happily, thinking of all the tasks you won't do today. You watch him shelter the food from your prying eyes, and you nearly call him out for it. He acts like you can’t smell the flavor profiles of every individual dish; like the pile of dishes in the sink and colorful spices on the countertop aren’t giving away his not-so-secret recipes.

“What’s for breakfast?” You say instead, just to make him happy.

“It’s a surprise,” He grins, flour dried across his cheek like a phantom kiss, “But I’m almost done.”

It continues like this. Him defending the food as you try and knab a bite. Lazily waving around the hard plastic spatula as he talks, and ignoring the speck of egg that flies off to save himself the embarrassment. Playfully flirting with him as he tries not to lose focus. 

“Close your eyes,” He whispers, as he flicks off the gas stove, “Food’s ready.”

You push your hands over your eyes, spreading your fingers to take peaks at him. He plates your food, heaping portions that nearly topple off the plate. You grin, promising yourself to finish it all. 

At one point, his eyes meet yours and you snap your fingers shut with a squeak. Whoops. He laughs, and you both pretend you weren't peaking. 

“Okay, open your eyes now.” He mumbles, wiping his hands on a dish towel, “And tell me what you think.”

Removing your hands from your eyes, you gaze down at the plate below you. It’s a confession, a declaration of love. All of it.

A heavy porcelain plate, a housewarming gift you gave him when the two of you were just friends. The edge is chipped from dropping it in the sink one too many times. The memory makes you feel warm.

The food itself is plated with enough space between each dish that it doesn’t touch, remembering your disdain for mixed textures. You never mentioned anything, but he picked up on it.

Your favorite fork, one of the prongs bent a bit abnormally. You joke that the weight of the metal is just right – you didn't think he’d remember.

Your heart melts out of your chest, raw feelings pooling on the floor. Every dish is an offering, a sacrifice. You stuff your face full of it. 

“Good?” He smirks, flirtatious and knowing. You nod with a mouthful of egg and bread and bacon and jam. “Then slow down. Breakfast is not to be rushed.”

Your heart beats a little faster when you notice the satisfaction on his face. Kiyoomi’s glowing, shining with a happiness that only shows around you. “It’s just us today. Take it easy.”

based on my core belief that breakfast is the absolute Most Important Meal of the Day. take care of yourself <33

#kinda corny and I'm not happy with it #ANYWAYS #EAT UR FUCKING BREAKFAST #sakusa #kiyoomi #sakusa kiyoomi #kiyoomi sakusa #sakusa fluff #sakusa x reader #sakusa imagines #hailyuu fluff #haikyuu!! #haikyu #haikyu x reader #domestic.sakusa

[oatbugs]

last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum. #also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭 #but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[ego-meliorem-esse]

Okay but why do François and Arthur keep separating if they are the only ones who understand each other that well? It's their arrogant personality? Their vicious habits and need to be correct? Bc I actually see françois more aggressive and Arthur more permissive in the end which seems to be contradictory to what I see people writing in the fruk shippers. I don't get it, no hate

Nah nah all good valid question and i do agree actually on most of what you say.

They dont separate in the traditional and common way we associate humans and human relationships with. Not fully.

Lets say they spend a vacation together. They go to the beach and drink and find bars and terorrize supermarkets during their stay. They are happy and content and a destrucrive power couple. But they are still nations and nations have more responsibilities than two moddle aged human men could ever have. So they clash on a thing or two. One takes a stab at an old phychologial wound thought healed. The other gets irritated but doesnt express it (cus emotional repression is legal apparently) and he takes a jab at the other at their weak spot. And they are irritated at each other and start to bicker bc both are too hardheaded to apologize or talk like people who didnt grow up during the middle ages. Now any small mishap irritates the other. A big fight then separation. They dont see eath other for a longer period of time after that. They might hit it off again with an old friend/enemy/lover and its fine. The problem is that François knows exactly what to say and what nerve to pick and get on it to get Arthur to react as he wants. And Arthur is too much of a sarcastic person and generally a man who enjoys a good challege which he might not get from everyone he interacts with. At least not precisely the way he likes. Like Alfred, Arthur gets bored seemingly quickly with a person. Also his affection can be missinterpreted as belittlement or even a jibe or taunt. He portrays himself as polite and appropriate but in truth he is a hard man to get along with. And few people know how to deal and distinguish his comments.

So after a randevouz with Portugal whom he hasnt seen in a while, he is once again sitting at home by himself pondering what takeout to get bc who has time to cook these days. He is still annoyed with francois but doesnt think too much of it. So after a while something happens and he wants to talk to someone about it, so having all but forgotten their little feud he picks up the phone and dials the french phone number. François picks up and you can hear the irritation in the "I thought the lord is still pissed at me. What a surprise." To which Arthur responds with "Oh do shut up. Now listen I've recetly got word that......" because who can be as stubborn as mules yet forgetful as fish at the same time? These two.

I do think to a certain degree Arthur is more permissive. Especially as he got older and saw his empire sink into that ocean he loved so much. François has more of a need to prove that he is still on top of the game so he does tend to be more assertive in some situations and discussions.

Even if they dont speak to eachother for multiple years at a time, something will come that hauls them back to one another. Be it shared history, mutual understanding or good gossip.

In short, small things break them apart and smaller things bring them together.

#i miss them holy fuck #i need a holywood movie set in the 1880s in the english countryside and they are sitting at the breakfast table eating and insulting #eachother as they pass bread and wine and butter to oneanother #i need them stressed and on a time crunch trying to figure out a plan durong wartime #i need them say last words to eachother as they both die but have the last words be somthing like we should have stayed home today #hetalia #ask meli #hws england #hws france #fruk #my headcanons #im sorry if it doesnt answer ur ask but i did enjoy your point of view very much anon

[visceravalentines]

alright alright i know that fic ain't up yet but it's just bc it keeps getting longer so here's a lil bedtime snack

You undid his fly and slid your hand into his pants, feeling him up through his boxers.  He was thick.  He writhed as you stroked him purposefully, caught between working his jeans off and melting into your touch. 

“What’s the matter?” you teased. 

“Driving me fucking crazy.  Hold on.  Fuck.”  He swatted your hand away and stripped off everything at once and you must’ve been on your game at least a little bit tonight because he did indeed have a gorgeous cock.  You wrapped your hand around it before he could even settle back beside you and he groaned, collapsing onto his back. 

“Jesus Christ, Murph.”  Your fingers only just met around his girth.  “You’re huge.” 

“I know,” he grumbled.  “We can take it slow, it’s – fuck – it’s okay.” 

You didn’t expect him to be so considerate.  “That’s awfully sweet of you.” 

“It’s nothing, c’mere.  Let me touch you.”

#murph connors #why yes i did give him a big dick what about it #he's also subby as fuck so how about that?? #how about THAT??? #nobody count how many times he says fuck in this fic i don't wanna know #god i want to eat him for breakfast #ty for ur patience it will be worth it pinkie swear

[piplupod]

one more post while i am insane but i do think maybe Wanting to live should be ... enough to live. like can it just be all that is needed maybe. instead of [gestures vaguely at capitalistic society] all of that. a person should just Want to be alive and be allowed to live and given what they need to live. i dont want to have to beg and grovel for the ability to keep myself alive, i already did that (and continue to do that!) with my parents and now apparently i have to do that with the govmt and just... Everything.

#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #this is mainly just. why do i need to work when i Cannot work. #i wanted to work ! i really did ! but then things did not line up properly and now i am fucked !!! #and i cannot get onto disability bc that would involve so much sneaking around getting shit done and i Cannot risk it #i have simultaneously nothign to lose and everything #like. if i get caught by parents applying for disability then i will be in so much fucking trouble #my already nearly intolerable living situation will get Truly Intolerable. and then i'll be dead basically #and i dont even really qualify for disability bc i can Do stuff still. i just... can't do it often enough to make a living. #regular ass ppl can barely make a living. i'd never even come close #me when my disability is disabling enough to Need disability payments but not disabling enough to Qualify for disability payments 🙃🙃🙃 #straight up i am tired. i am so tired. i cannot see a way of living past whenever my bank account runs out. #like no i dont want to kms but yeah im gonna kind of have to ... ????? #because what do i do fhsdfjkl there is not a way to live !!!! idk man its fine its just fucked up #i'll go eat some food and not think about this. i feel like a rat stuck in a death maze #no matter which exit you take u know ur going to be euthanized at the end. ARGH !! #suicide tw

[satsuki-yumizuka]

whats a show or game you love that you cant recommend to people

one piece. not because theres anything unrecomendable abt it but bc most people i know are weak of spirit and also feel this really weird need to read the entirety of something or none of it

#like if u are interested in one piece. read the first 100 chapters #maybe that sounds like a lot to people? idk. i eat manga chapters for fucking breakfast #anyways if you finish arlong park and you dont fuck with it then ur done. thats it. #u dont HAVE to read all of it if it doesnt interest you. #and you dont have to commit to it either. pick it up and drop it whenever you want

[dantelionwishes]

i just had a sandwich, biscuits, and tea dude i feel so old 😭 <- only ever eats rice meal and juice for breakfast

#asian to colonizer moment /JJJJJJJ #is this what happens when ur tired and a lil fucked up #listen i do not usually enjoy those breakfasts and in fact i actively avoid it #I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT COMPELLED ME TO EAT #all of that rubbi- #tbf i weirdly enjoyed it but this may be the last time i will #i spek

[bo0zey]

boys be mad asl when i don’t giggle n tehe n show cute emotions like bitch my wounded inner child just got done drunk sniveling begging for daddy not to yell n hate her while her intoxicated narcissistic father screamed n gaslit her until she dissociated to euthymic plane 🙄🙄🙄

#‘trauma dumping’ eat my shorts loser assholss #so funny he said if my narcissistic sociopathic insane brother killed himself then it’s ‘goodbye to the rest of y’all too’ #like ohhhhh so ur eldest daughter n youngest son don’t mean jack fuckjn shit to u right??? lmfao lolll #yeah just go rot with that selfish egotistic psycho while ur 15yr old son who lost his mom at 7yrs old #i want to strangle my fuckjgnf dad sometimes he’s so cruel n said so many mean things to me #he always has to defend my middle brother ‘he’s depressed what if he kms’ like??? #my middle brother literally manipulates tf out of my dumbass emotionally unintelligent father he’s tearing this family apart #meanwhile i never planned on seeing 18 nor living past 22 n now i have to go exist n find a job when i never thought i’d have to do this sh #shit ever b. i was supposed to #be dead 4 years ago lololllll #god forbid i tell him that or my plan to kms at 27 lollll #so worried abt a fucking LOST SOCIOPATH SEFISH NARCISSITIC CAUSE ur gonna make me and my baby brother suffer?? as orphans ?? #my dad n i used to get breakfast every sunday in middle school n talk abt life n drive around after n those days meant the world to me #i never realized how much i missed them. how much i looked forward to him saying he’d call me while i’m away at college #but my middle brother egosticizl fuck is like ‘lolyh i just nod n say what dad wants me to hear’ when my dad is trying so hard to save him f #my dad admitted to neglecting my lil bro lol it makes me so fkcing angry he doesn’t give af abt us #says ‘im worth more im the ground than i am alive’ n my inner teen bursts into tears bc she experienced that already #yeah moms life insurance money was so fun!! until it ran out bc of college n impulsive manic spending n the materialistic thrill never laste #i want to hate him but i can’t even deny i love him so much he hurts me and everyone i love and disappoints us all n we still care for him #he’s letting my brother fuckjgn kill him literlaly my dad is physically sick bc of my sociopath narcissistic bros drama #he blames me for not going to him n telling him abt my ‘’mental issues’ as if i didn’t have to grow up n become mom the day after my 16th #i am my mothers child he didn’t know anything abt our childhoods until she died and he had to step up n parent us himself #he doesn’t know what it means to be a parent he shouldn’t be a parent but oh fuckjgn well oh my god WE ARE YOUR KIDSMWE NEED YOU WH #WHY CANT YOU SHOW US YOU CARE WHEN WE ALL HAD TO LEARN ALL WE HAVE IS OURSELVES #i am so angry he tried to throw me under the bus abt not having a job as a new grad nurse instead of my brother for dropping out everything #ur son wants to drop his ap classes bc he procrastinated n doesn’t wNna do the work so now he’s manipulating u to let him quit #i am just not exiting the identity crisis coming to terms w the fact that i’m 22yrs old n alive n need to start living n working #tonight was a shitshow but the ending calmed down but i couldn’t stop crying sniveling whimpering when dad yelled #yelled n accused n attacked me n chose to defend my middle bro over me like..he’s trying to kill u n i freaked out bc stepmom said u cut #ramblings

[mando-abs]

Pedro gets to have the wispy hair look on purpose WHILE having a fever and everybody love it

But when I do it when I first wake up, my dad makes fun of me for it

#like it looked so much like it #and then my dad’s like ‘ur hair looks very interesting this morning’ #like shut the fuck up #and let me eat my breakfast in peace you menace #he doesn’t know I hate this #but I do #pedro pascal

[vaugarde]

.

#can my mom like. please not jump to conclusions and be all weird about me #so bit of context for earlier post is that i was eating breakfast and i just woke up and my mom walked in and greeted my happily #and i just gave like a casual ''hey'' bc my mouth was full and she was like ''LOL wtf thats so rude! lets try again. hey!'' #and i said hey again but tried to make it sound more chipper but failed bc im tired and she just groaned and walked into the other room #and we're supposed to go to the river today but shes trying to make plans to go today and tomorrow bc my aunt is coming today #and aunt has a tendency to try and keep people around for very late despite previousplans and my mom always goes with it #so she wants a day with just us. issue is i have to go into college tomorrow to do a meeting and i wanted to study #which. btw i told my mom abt earlier in the week saying id ask to attend virtually but she shut it down and INSISTED i go in person #and whatever plans we have dont matter so i should just go ahead and dedicate the day to schoolwork #so i remind my mom of this and suddenly shes like ''wtf. ur staying the whole day? cant you go for just the meeting and leave?'' #which i didnt want to do bc the meeting is less time than the drive and she literally told me to stay the entire day #so i remind her and she gets frustrated and mad telling me i ''shouldnt limit myself and i should decide to go either today or tomorrow'' #but probably should just study today bc ''well youre clearly in a bad mood for how u greeted me today so maybe you shouldnt come'' #and basically ''come when youre in a better fucking mood tomorrow'' and like. well i WASNT in a bad mood i was just tired #but damn ok now i fucking am bc now youre getting mad at me for plans YOU fucking suggested i do #when i had a completely different plan at first that u tried to make out to be ridiculous #fucking hate it when she does this she also did it on vacation where she got snappy and passive aggressive and rude to me #bc she THOUGHT i was in a bad mood at the park when i wasnt. i just hadnt woken up all the day and wasnt talking #but instead of asking abt it or anything like that she got pissed and basically treated me like shit the whole day #and then when i confronted her she was just like ''ok we BOTH messed up i GUESS can we put it behind us'' #it makes it hard to talk to her when theres an actual problem bc i try to communicate and she just takes it as a personal attack #so now i dont want to go out today just bc my moms being shitty and accusing me of not liking her sister (which ngl i really dont) #and yeah i dont want to stay out late when i did want to get at least one reading done today #but i had everything prepared and now i have full obligations to tomorrow bc she insisted i go ahead #and now shes acting like i did that to spite her #its so exhausting. probably gonna take like separate cars tho tbh so can leave even i f they get sucked in #and use the work as an excuse #echoed voice

[xythlia]

I got four hours of sleep & ik I'm about to be a huge cunt to those mean old men who sit at the counter literally from open until about 3pm just drinking coffee but they get all pissy if u take longer than a minute to refill their cups like I'm not fucking concerned w u idiots if I have a full section ur coffee can wait

#then they always smirk and slam down the like quarter in change they get after cashing out like wow really worth #eating up my prime seating area for like eight fucking hours #theres literally like fove of them that come in and just do that all day long i have a grudge against the one #bc when i first started he ordered a breakfast meal w hashbrowns + onions so thats exactly what i put in the pos #i bring him the shit & he berated me for like twn minutes about how i was fucking brain dead bc he said no onions like bitch #i wrote everything down ur ass said ADD ONIONS now shut the hell up & eat ur food or leave #♡.kita

[in-som-niyah]

ok another floating thought:

Jason Todd does not tolerate bad eating habits.

Iced coffee for breakfast? Absolutely not.

6pm and you had not a single sip of water? Forget it.

Having a single slice of toast for lunch AND dinner? Naur babes.

You will be eating 3 square meals a day will allowance for snacks and 'happy foods' as he likes to call them.

As soon as you complain about a headache, stomachache, light-headedness, fatigue he will tell you to go fucking eat something with a glass of water, not coffee.

Its even worse if you live together like i strongly believe he would wake up early just to make you a balanced breakfast before you go about your day.

GOD BUT IF UR IN UNI??? babe be ready bc he will break into your dorm to bring u food that he cooked u himself. (he's a loverboy duh)

no time to cook or order? He's gotchu

too tired? already on the way

exam season with barely any time to take a breath? already on it babe he'll spoonfeed you while you revise your textbook

and plus, how else are you supposed to grow as big and strong as him when you're only eating half a meal a day?

I WANNA MUNCH ON HIS MOOSCLES SO BAD FUCKKKKK

#jason todd #niyah speaks yappanese #jason todd x reader #red hood #jason peter todd #jason todd x you #jason todd smut #red hood x reader #dcu #jason todd comfort #the red hood #dc red hood #red hood imagine #red hood x you #redhood #under the red hood #arkham knight x gn!reader #arkham knight x reader #arkham knight #I NEED TO BITE HIM #HES SO BITEABLE

[piplupod]

people defending their precious white man of the week and ignoring BIPOC pointing out his racism Yet Again. i'm so tired. i'm so tired. i'm so tired!!!!!!

#im literally shaking right now im so fucking mad #''he's not racist what are u talking about show me proof'' #[one google later] oh wow i found all this proof with literally one attempt at googling. crazy. i wonder why u couldnt find that on ur own #and then they say ''no he said this thing so its fine :)'' i go look at the thing. it is white saviourism. again. as always #''he's keeping the culture alive :)'' he is twisting it beyond recognition actually. he just took it and ran with it. #and now he's trying to cover his ass! #and white ppl will just eat that shit up lmfao. #''wow what a mature response'' says his adoring audience and his response is literally just ''i can do what i want bc im white'' #i will not get involved in the replies of a post. but man. i'm fucking livid. literally shaking right now. #im so fucking tired of anti-indigenous racism being brushed aside like it doesnt matter #yall just bulldozed us all over and then tried to wipe us out when we didnt respect yall and now you continue to fuck us over #and then get upset when we try to say we would like A FEW THINGS TO OURSELVES. INCREDIBLE #the white ''i need access to everything all the time no matter what'' attitude is SOOOO blatant #this isnt even going into his antisemitism lmfaoooo #literally a list a mile long and ppl still plug their ears and close their eyes and yell LALALALA IM NOT LISTENINGGGG #also here's your necessary ''not all white people''. i know. i'm aware. theres some good ones sure but they shouldnt need to be coddled #and reassured every time somebody complains about white people general behaviour. let me complain!!! its a pattern of behaviour!! #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[speakercrab666]

it’s okay to cop out sometimes. sometimes eating right and going outside just isn’t gonna happen today, and instead of sitting in your bed and feeling guilty for not making a meal and going for a walk, you get an ice cream and a medium fries from mcdonald’s and eat it parked next to a playground with your car door open.

and is it perfect? no, of course not. i’m not even sitting outside i just have the door open and an ice cream and fries hardly counts as a meal. but it’s something, and that is always better than nothing :)

#tw food #yes i wrote a novel in the tags but this is my blog you’re just living in it now shut up and read my novel it’s called Eat My A(DHD)ss #el has a life #el has adhd #felt like i had to do better today #but i realised what the hell does doing better mean?? and why do i think it means be the best??? #sure eating something good for me and getting some exercise outside is better for me than doing nothing #but so is half assing it #that’s half an ass right there that’s way more than no ass #so if ice cream and chips for breakfast in a playground parking lot is my bar for the day then so fucking be it #i’m doing my best #and that’s fucking good enough god damn it #ALWAYS REMEMBER. IF THERE IS ANYTHING YOU CAN DO AND IT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL EVEN A LITTLE BIT BETTER. #DO IT. IT DOESNT MATTER IF IT FEELS LAZY OR LIKE A COP OUT OR LIKE UR HALF ASSING IT #ITS SOMETHING!!! AND THAT WILL FEEL SO MUCH BETTER THAN NOTHING!!!! #sometimes nothing is all you can do and that’s okay #i know that very well. it happens and it sucks and it feels so bad and i understand #but if there is something. ANYTHING. that you can do that will make you feel a little bit better #don’t let the thought that it’s not the ‘best’ thing or the ‘right’ thing or so on stand in the way of you getting to feel a bit better #today i woke up and my brain was screaming MCFLURRY MCFLURRY MCFLURRY #and nothing else i could think of sounded at all appealing #i didn’t want a mcflurry for breakfast bc i thought i should do better #so i did #i got a mcflurry AND i managed to cram some fries in my mouth too how good is that!!!! #i did better than i thought i could #it wasn’t better than i thought i SHOULD but fuck you what i should do doesn’t matter if i can’t do it #what i CAN do is way more important no matter how small or half assed or not good enough those things might feel #executive dysfunction #actually autistic #living with adhd

[toastsnaffler]

ugh slept badly and as per fucking usual the kitchen is full of fucking smoke I'm gonna say smth abt it. URGH ok fine I'll wait until I'm less mad so I can phrase it in a way that isnt rude 🙄

#like PLEASE STOP USING OIL WITH A LOW SMOKE POINT AT THAT TEMP. the olive oil is NOT FOR THAT. we have other oils!!!! #and dont ALWAYS leave the fucking room while ur shit is cooking like maybe keep an eye on it. its like ten fucking minutes man #win win situation u can stop eating burnt breakfast and the rest of us dont have to tolerate the smell of burning for the entire day #i hate how it gets into my clothes and im rly sensitive to smelling like smoke i cant wear stuff id sleep in to the kitchen bc of the smell #its probably not great for our lungs either. honestly a miracle they haven't set off the fucking fire alarm yet #also means we have to keep the window open all morning to get rid of the smell and it gets colllddddd come on man #whatever. except its not whatever but whatever!!!!!!!! #itd be fine if it was just once in a while like we all make cooking mistakes but this is every damn morning 😭😭😭😭 #.diaries #wouldnt have to deal w this if id slept ok and woken up earlier to have breakfast before them but whatever gonna eat now i guess

[pizzapizzadickz]

:/

#why was i upset again??? #diary #personal #i had like a meltdown last night. and i sorta just sat there sobbing for like an hour. then i went to bed. #when i woke up i was just like #anyways. i now am trying to eat breakfast. very unsuccessfully bc i am not eating currently. #id like porridge. but we dont have the one i like rn. so i have to settle for something else. its taken me 40 mins to decide #anyways now i have to MAKE the porridge. and im so burnt out from the meltdown its like. not gonna go well :/ #like. ur telling me that while i feel like utter shit i gotta be around people????? and stand at the stove for GOD knows how long???? #im gonna make the quickest porridge i can but still its not my day #i rly hope i dont have another meltdown today. bc im already like primed and raring to go for another. #god i hate them so much tho. bc i gotta be quiet i dont want anyone to hear me crying. #and like. honestly i generally get super agitated and lose my mind for a while. so like. if i was alone id probably be super loud n shit. #theyre very painful tho. internally that is. probably in part bc of how much i need to be quiet #cuz like. since i cant cry loudly. i just hold my breath! like!!! i probably sound like im hyperventilating!!!! #and honestly!!!! i have before!!!!! soley bc i cant breath enough when crying. #yeah. but you really can only cry for so long. so generally i eventually get tired and fall asleep. #or my mind sorta blanks out on me and i decide fuck it time to sleep. #so yeah. idk. meltdowns are very painful. its been a while since ive gotten that bad tbh? #whats more hilarious is i was perfectly fine until i tried to sleep. well. i wouldnt say perfectly i was stressed n tired #but nothing to indicate i was gonna meltdown or shutdown. i probably just got so overwhelmed that it sorta broke on me #and like. before i was in bed i had a task to complete so i had to focus on that and not how im feeling. so yeah. #idk. ill try to take care of myself today. but theres not much to be done. im gonna feel like shit for a while. #of course unless i get high or something. id feel a lot better instantly bc it sorta erasses the rough edges on things for me #so rather than feeling like my skin is pricked up and on edge (like i do now). id probably be just focused on food or vids #idk. its weird. and im tired. imma go eat. #drugs tw