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miekasa · 3 years

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mie!! since u write such beautiful gorgeous astounding breathtaking life-changing tearjerking fics, do YOU have any good fic recs that you personally love 🤔

I do! I have a whole blog of wonderful fics I’ve read (tho I desperately need to update it/reblog the ones in my drafts and tag them) @ackermeun for more if you want because there are many lovely, talented writers; but I’ll list a few of my faves for Levi and Eren below 😌😌

Levi

kiss me more by @vennilavee

Now, I could recommend you anything and everything by Saran and I have no doubt that you would love all of it. There’s not a single thing in her masterlist that I dislike, she even made me okay with the idea of pegging Levi bye. The entire tbah universe (specifically parental moments one) has a special place in my heart, but recently the perpendicular world has been on my mind, and might be coming for number one. Either way, you’re gonna love it. She writes Levi in his slightly bitchy, kinda needy, implicitly affectionate, true to nature form, and I am so grateful for it. Also, Saran is a comedian.

silver soul by @oi-levi (now posting from @bibblelevi)

I suck at keeping up with series, and, so, naturally, I’m terribly behind on this one, but I’m gonna go ahead and rec the whole thing to you anyway, because I have no doubt that the other chapters are just as great the two I’ve read so far. The way she writes Levi... when I tell you I could wrap myself up in a blanket and binge this whole series, and her entire masterlist, and be very content I mean it; her writing feels warm, that’s the only way I can explain it.

the art of tea composition by @karikarasuno

I don’t remember how or when I found this fic exactly, probably just scrolling through the tag, but I love it. Domestic fluff with Levi, allowing me to pretend I’m a morning person, and just the right kind of smut to go with it. Simple and very, very effective. I’ve reread it a few times by now, no shame.

where you’re meant to be by @deludedimagines

After you read this, I also suggest just going after the whole masterlist. I cannot express how grateful I am to have found this blog PLEASE. Her characterization of Levi is perfect, and something about her prose feels very clean and simple, but elevated and layered at the same time. This one-shot in particular is one of my favorite canonverse pieces, I’m a sucker for a classic injured lover trope.

the ones who matter most by @deludedimagines

Yeah... this shouldn’t be a surprise. Fantastic writing, fluff in canonverse has a special place in my heart because I think it can be really hard to pull off well; it’s difficult to balance a sense of softness within the aot universe for the obvious reasons, and getting Levi’s caring nature right can be (unfortunately) so hard to find. Good thing people like Sorcha are here. Enjoy more fluff. Also this fic is particularly fantastic to me not just because of the injured lover trope, but because the 104th babies pay a visit and you all know how much I love a good glimpse of reluctant adoptive dad Levi hehe

bullet by @jean-does-not-have-a-horseface

If you can’t tell by now, I love canonverse fluff, tho this fic isn’t fluff in the traditional sense, but I think that makes it all the much better. Perfect depiction of real life shit that would go down in the aot world paired with Levi’s need to protect his s/o. It’s fantastic.

the knife by @therealvalkyrie

I didn’t mean to turn this into Mie’s Favorite Canon Fics Showcase, but here we are anyway. As much as I love a good injured lover trope (and this does have that hehe), I love a good kickass reader insert, too. Shoutout to Valkyrie for included both in this fic, and Levi being proud of his s/o... well you can imagine how much I liked that bye

dante’s inferno by @alrightberries

College au + roommates au with Levi... that should be enough for you to read this lmfao, no but actually it’s adorable. Not to mention friends to lovers... if you know me you know how I feel about that, I’ll gobble up every f2l fic until I’m dead and gone. Not to mention there’s a cat and Levi won’t admit he likes it, or he’s jealous of it. Simply cannot go wrong here.

waves know shores by @onwiings

Bro I don’t even like the idea of public sex and I’m not even a fan of water like that but this fic has me wrapped around it’s pinky lmfaoooo. Some of the best Levi smut I’ve read and you already know how I feel when Levi and reader have cute interactions with the 104th in fics. Really it’s checking every item on my list.

Eren

speed racer by @emeren

I’m pretty sure I found this fic during my midterms last semester, and when I tell you I’m so grateful for it lmaooo. It’s really just a good au, I think it fits Eren (honestly barking at just the concept) and the writing brings it all to life.

under the moonlight by @murmikaa

I’d have to be dumb not to recommend this to you. I love reading longer fics, and if you do, then this will 100% satisfy you. The whole story is great and immersive, not just between Eren and the reader; their relationships with the other characters are really what makes this special imo. There’s also beach sex, so. Obviously it’s good.

untitled.avi by @puredivinity (now @celestidarling)

Naur you must of thought wrong if you thought at least one of Mara’s fics wouldn’t be here. I’m obsessed, I think I’ve read it three times minimum. I read all her Eren fics, and you should too. She writes him in such a dreamy way, almost like he’s right there and too good to be true that you must be hallucinating. Immaculate.

midnight snacks by @writertitan

Dumb, college-typical antics and fluff with Eren... obviously you know I’m about that. The whole concept is so mundane, but so cute, you can’t help but fall for it because it could be so real!! I love that kinda stuff hehe

i’m your satellite by @ackerfics

Comparing hand sizes with Eren!! YEAAAAH!! No, okay, but I read the summary and was ready to dive in because... size kink go crazy, but when I tell you I was so blown away to find out that it was not only from Eren’s pov, but that he was being a complete simp and down terrible the whole time. Normalize boyfriends being completely fucking in love with their gfs that simple shit like the size of their hand makes them wanna simp even harder!!!!

eren as an ass man by @hznji

I’m dying on the hill that Eren is an ass guy and you should too because it’s the objective truth. Fluff, Eren being a complete dog as per usual, Eren’s being touchy (I will also die on the hill that he’s touchy as fuck and has no concept of personal space) and just in genral snarky but cute banter. Gotta love that.

Jean

tears over beers by @appplepii

When I tell you this is my favorite Jean fic, I mean it. Friends to lovers with hopelessly pining Jean + oblivious reader = everything I could have asked for in a fic, AND it’s from Jean’s pov too!!! INCREDIBLE!!! The pining made me yearn, and the smut was so well done, too.

this drabble by @arlerted

Whatever, whatever, WHATEVER!!! I DON’T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT!!! Cal is right, don’t do drugs but... this mf... this imagine.... has been burned into my mind since the first time I fucking read it bye. Callie also writes a bunch of filthy (affectionate <3) fics and drabbles and lewds and you should read them, preferably when you’re alone and with the lights off.

#anonymous #um you probably didnt ask for 1k words worth of reviews but here u go anyway!!!#fic recs

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nightshadedawn · 3 years

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Persona 5 Royal Playthrough pt3

I ended up going through two Palaces before I could update y’all. Oh well.

...Yeah, no, quit calling me Miss Special Snowflake's boyfriend. It's not happening.

Ryuji, Morgana, and Yusuke having a conversation in the laundromat: "It's like he's our mom," says Ryuji... the mom friend.

Every time Morgana is like "I have to turn into a human so no one else can have Lady Ann!" then expects no one else to hear him makes me laugh. Like, bitch, no.

I have the restaurant in my Thieves Den 'cause I like it. Yusuke, Ryuji, and Morgana are there. They're so precious.

I got a three in a row Tycoon on cutthroat!!!

Ryuji and Ann just keep going "Shoulda figured" and other versions of the statement every time I win.

Ann just rejected Morgana's feelings HARD. I am happy.

Ryuji is too good, honestly. Why would anyone not like him? He's... He's always trying to build the team up, make them proud of themselves and what they've done. I will admit that he has his moments of being not a great human, but they're teenagers who were given absurd powers, so honestly, can you blame them?

I didn't know darts was an actual minigame! There's so many minigames. I'm so happy.

I don't like Akechi. I don't know why some people do. Like, his death scene was a bit... too late for a redemption for me, right after he tried to kill Joker, several times. His pain is understandable, but still... I can't.

Their "two sides of the same coin" also doesn't seem particularly fair. It's totally uneven in everything but color schemes.

Guys, GUYS, please, PLEASE decide whether you're going to react to my teasing or not.

"We don't have to deal with them directly," Ryuji says joyfully about the mafia. Oh you sweet, sweet, innocent child, if only you knew what I do.

I literally can't play this game around anyone else because I tend to yell "BABY!" to Ryuji, Ann, and Yusuke and "BITCH" or "FUCKER" to... a rather long list of villains in this game... and Makoto.

I can literally feel Yusuke's anxiety about his painting when you take him to Leblanc to see Sayuri.

How can you say Yusuke isn't gay when he says everything I do is beautiful?

I love Ryuji's 9th social link. It's LITERALLY written like a confession scene. This also means I kinda hate it because... I can't date him.

Also... PRETTY BOY RYUJI PRETTY BOY RYUJI PRETTY BOY RYUJI

I actually kinda thought that the new scene for Ryuji being a crossdresser is kinda funny??? Is this bad??? I wanna see him in a dress, tho. I gotta agree, he'd be a natural. Not the like, painfully obviously not taking it seriously from the dancing game, though.

Though I do think it's valid that he freaks out when two strange adults come up to him and try to take him somewhere, especially in a place known for being shady, and at night.

...When Ryuji complains about it, I do feel bad about ditching him. Then again, I blame the cat.

Ryuji may be my ideal type on paper, but I'm also highly attracted to Yusuke and this is so totally unfair.

*softly chanting* butlers butlers butlers butlers

Don't mind me just... *makes meticulous plot to avoid having Makoto join the team that i may or may not write a fanfic about*

Makoto is one dumbass bitch. Like, honestly, there's nothing she does that's in any way remotely smart.

...I thought I'd just skip Makoto's scenes until she became relevant, but here I am, still skipping her scenes. Does that mean she’s still irreleveant?

"Witch" I suggest, and Makoto complains! "Would you prefer "Bitch"? I can use that too.

I put Yusuke on the team in the middle of the palace through settings, replacing Morgana, who had been standing right behind me. Which made Yusuke stand right behind me. It looked like he was holding onto my waist and standing uncomfortably close. Bro, babe, I love you, but not in front of my boyfriend and girlfriend!

Just accept the compliment, guys, I'm not going to compliment Queen.

...Opening chests with Ann or Ryuji is just so sweet because they're so affectionate and touchy feely. Especially Ryuji.

Math. Fucking. Sucks. I should not have to use math in a game. I hate this. Obviously it's the Palace Makoto comes in that this happened.

Well, I finished the Palace in a day. I love the feeling. But it was getting close there. Joker and Yusuke were down to no spells...

...Yoshizawa hasn't showed up yet. When is she getting shoehorned in?

WHY IS THE VELVET ROOM RED!?

My very first playthrough I didn't execute a single execution except for the first one we have to do. It really screwed me over my second playthrough...

...I broke the electric chair. That's certainly something that happened.

147 games of Tycoon later and I've only been a beggar 31 times in total, versus the pure thirty wins in just Cutthroat.

They're in their summer uniforms and it makes make miss warmer weather already. It's fucking snowing outside. Grrrr.

Beat Kaneshiro! ...Wasn't a fan of his new boss battle. I'm even playing on safe mode! But whatever.

Makoto is a DISASTER at Tycoon. She exclusively got beggar all three times I played with her!

...RYUJI YOU CAN'T SAY SHIT LIKE THAT AND NOT LET ME DATE YOU.

Ann, sweeties, baby, you're doing so well.

She confessed to me, then in the call afterwards it was basically insinuated I proposed... WHICH IS LIKE FUCK YEAH 'CAUSE SHE ACCEPTED IT.

It makes me think of the future conversation where they're talking about marriage.

Anyway, if you haven't noticed, l love Ann.

My next playthrough I'm not gong to date her, though. I'm a completionist and I want ALL of the possible awards. But... I refuse to cheat on Ann. So I'll date everyone else then just hang with Ryuji... despite how cringy some of the date things are.

...If Akechi wasn't, you know EVIL and tried to KILL ME, SEVERAL TIMES, I might, MIGHT, like him. But in truth, I think that's really just the Persona 5: Revival talking. We get... into some stuff during that.

I know that either Atlus or the translators know EXACTLY what goes on in the Persona fandom because otherwise "He's too pretty to be wrong" would not be an option when talking to the newspaper girl about Akechi. I have to agree with her that his looks aren't really, you know, awesome enough for that.

Also, I read it as "He's too petty to be wrong" at first and I think that's an accurate sum of his character.

YO AKECHI-FUCK I HAVE NO NEED TO SEE YOUR ASS LIKE THAT WHEN I HAVE BOTH A BF AND AND GF.

...fucker fucking giving me shit about my fake glasses...

If you COULD date the boy out of mod, Akechi would definitely be the one they were pushing you to date. Like Makoto. Or Yoshizawa.

But hey, at least I get to not be nice to him.

I remember seeing this picture where Ann, Ryuji, and Joker kept going to the movies together and seeing 3D movies, and Joker couldn't wear the 3D glasses properly because of his own. I keep imagining that picture during this event with Caroline and Justine.

You know what? Some people call Joker a loli lover because of them, but nope! He's just adopted two more siblings. That is my stance on it.

FUcking

Fucker

WHAT THE FRRRRRRRR

FUCK YOU ATULS OR TRANSLATORS OR WHATEVER

APHRODITE AND MARS ARE FROM TWO DIFFERENT MYTHOS. Aphrodite is GREEK, Mars is ROMAN. Their reversed are VENUS and ARES. USE ONE OR THE OTHER PEOPLE.

I get very pissed about this, and it's worse with Hades.

7/4 is the day I am screaming at, if you were wondering.

My dad asked me if the other students think Joker's stupid because every time I answer a question right they get all surprised.

I don't really like Makoto, as I'm sure you've noticed, but she was super nice about Ryuji's special move idea. And that put her ahead of Akechi in my book.

TESTS ARE NERVE WRACKING EVEN WHEN THEY'RE FICTIONAL

Yusuke and Ryuji are good boys, the best boys. And they're so awesome about their special move.

AND RYUJI OFFERED MONEY FOR YUSUKE'S FOOD. And implied that he did it before???? Ryuji, you best boy.

This boys' outing DOES make me happy, though. Like, insanely happy. Dunno why.

Maybe because Joker gets to be so flipping cheesy.

...fuck you, Yoshizawa.

HONESTLY WHAT THE EVER LOVING--- Grr. Too many choices while with her. Too many. OOC Joker when with her. 0/10.

I LOVE THE FESTIVAL PHOTO

And you know, it's really hard to choose between Lala-chan and Ann, but... GONNA TAKE ANN ON A DATE

Got her some flowers. Lets see if we can give them to her this time!

"Such a good FRIEND." Babe, we're DATING. For like, TWO WEEKS NOW.

AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO GIVE HER FLOWERS

Ann called Yusuke a pretty boy, but then she's missing out on the REAL pretty boy, Pretty Boy Ryuji.

Ryuji, why're you so worried about other girls when you've got ME?

"I like the shade." "What are you, moss!?" Oh, admit it, Ryuji, I'm growing on you.

Cargona. Snrk. Gods, I love you, Ryuji.

Dome town with Ryuji! "Isn't it all couples?" That's the point!

I COULD GIVE RYUJI THE ROSES!?

Sadly, I bought those for Ann. Ryuji, you get the noodles.

AND HE FUCKING LOVED IT.

"It feels like I really captured Ryuji's heart!" FUCK YEAH I DID

Gonna give Yusuke the bracelet when I get the chance.

Why is everyone color coded in the chat room? Kawakami, Akechi, Mishima, and the reporter are all ORANGE. What's the point? Well, Akechi's more of a golden orange, but close enough.

While Mishima is not my first choice for a date, he's definitely not my last.

...But the boy really needs some fucking sleep. He's not drawn with the bags under his eyes, but I can see them!

It's not fair that they give Akechi a kicked puppy sprite. I'm... goddamnit, they're trying to make me not hate him.

When Makoto doesn't know something, I'm brought great joy.

NO DAD MAKOTO IS NOT MY GIRLFRIEND ANN IS AND SHE IS LITERALLY R I G H T T H E R E

First day in Futaba's Palace! I've gotta say, this is my second favorite palace. Kamoshida, Futaba, Madarame, Sae, Okumura, Shido, Kaneshiro, Holy Grail. In that order. I HATE Kaneshiro's place and dealing with the Holy Grail. But whatevs, man. I love this game. (Vanilla, at least, this one is still on the fence)

I found out a cool little thing. On the uphill sand slopes in the town (don't know about anywhere else) if you're running and turn back quickly, Joker will do a little animation to steady himself. It was cool and made it seem, I dunno, more human? Anyway, while I was admiring this, Ryuji and Yusuke just stood at the top of the slope and Ann followed me while I was running. Best girlfriend ever.

Kin-Ki is looking pretty kin-ky if you know what I'm sayin'

Please don't murder me because I do terrible puns.

*we fall through the trap door* *Ryuji starts screaming* Same, baby, same.

...Makoto is seriously annoying. Like, she's got no business acting as familiar with Futaba's situation. The one who WOULD be the most familiar is Yusuke, and I'm glad he recognizes that. It's not the exact same, none of their stories are after all, but I feel like those two get each other better than even Ryuji and Joker understand each other.

Yusuke and Ryuji's special attack is THE BEST

Ryuji and Joker getting up close and personal in the shadows. All those fanfics coming true, man.

I thought Futaba was sloth, not wrath? Why are her Will Seeds called Wrath?

Beat it in one day! It's so satisfying to watch all those achievements when I leave the palace.

You know, I'm thinking of wearing the Christmas outfits for the final battle. Just to be kinda funny.

Spending a relaxing day with Yusuke after going through Futaba's Palace... kinda want to take him to the bathhouse to check out that new scene, but I also REALLY wanna feed the boy... gonna feed the boy.

Apparently I can only make 'decent curry.' Which is fine. Because "I" can't make curry at all. Joker, you've done much better than I.

THE DATE CHANGE SCREEN HAD A RAINBOW AND RYUJI WAS COMING OVER ON THE SAME DAY FUCK YEAH MY BISEXUAL BABY

...Broooooo, the way you talk about your manga is how I talk right before I start shipping.

Took him to the bathhouse, 'cause I don't gotta worry about Mama Sakamoto feeding him.

...Can I take Ann to the bathhouse?

Asked Ryuji to move in. He was all up for the idea until he remembered that I live in an attic.

I'm Charismatic now!

...I was all hoping Ann would stop by but then Akechi asked me out. Laaaaaaaame.

Ryuji's smile is so fucking cute.

...I say we just be honest, and everyone's so fucking stupid about it until Makoto explains it. This pisses me off. They're not that dumb... At least, they weren't until Makoto showed up.

Futaba's hiding in the closet. ...I've spent too many weeks making jokes about closets to not have a joke about it.

Really, Yusuke? You see those books and think she can't understand?

...Wait, that sassy tone of voice... You were TRYING to pull a reaction of her. I knew I shipped those two for a reason. OTP and BroTP. Doesn't matter, they're both awesome.

I love you Ann, but I don't think your situations were the same at all. It's not like both are valid and bad, but... different.

Joker is SO fast compared to the others, especially when he's speeding.

What the...

Holy fuck...

JOKER IS TOO EFFING COOL

THAT MOVE TO GET FROM THE ENTRANCE TO TO TREASURE DOOR? Awesome!

Damn, Joker has my heart too.

I kinda wish we could see Futaba's costumes in her Persona. That would be pretty neat.

The moment right before Wakaba appears is so aesthetically pleasing.

...Futaba being happy is almost enough for me to accept Maruki's offer, and I haven't gotten there yet.

Ryuji and Ann keep smacking each other out of their ailments. Like, you guys just love each other so much! It's awesome.

Joker has lackluster responses to Wakaba... I'm hoping that isn't one of those "Answer these wrong and you break her!" things... Not that I think I was, but still.

I liked Futaba's new animation for when she defied her mother.

I wish the anime looked more the cutscenes. I'm trying to rewatch the anime so I can pinpoint specific moments for future editing purposes, but it's kinda painful.

1- This is the SECOND TIME you've landed on Yusuke while running from trouble.

2- YUSUKE LET GO OF MY GIRL

No Makoto, I don't want to go see Futaba with you! I can go see her myself.

So, I like Takemi's new voice with her lines during this scene.

Sure, she collapses every so often and sleeps for a while. Stays like that for a few days. Sorry that I put her into a coma for a month, Boss...

SHE LOOKS SO CUTE WITHOUT GLASSES

Guys, we have a month. Stop worrying.

THE TWINS ARE SO CUTE WHILE HANGING ONTO THE BENCH PRESS

Damn, Joker's dying to the amusement of two little girls.

I'm kinda disappointed I didn't get results for all that training. But I liked the scene.

Yusuke just casually be lugging bigass paintings around.

Taking the girls to the church may have been one of the funnier moments. These cement them as Joker's little sisters. With Futaba. Damn, Joker, you got no brothers.

Yusuke promises to come by every day and we can tell him to take his clothes off. ATLUS, you have some EXPLAINING to DO.

..And Yusuke took it and ran with it. My sweet summer child, I don't think I could handle you in as little as possible on the day to day.

"The heat induced delirium made me think outside the box." Same.

Guts takes sooooooooooooo long to level up.

"Punish me more" he says, as if Takemi won't do it.

"Good god. Well, none of my medicine can cure THAT." AT LEAST WE'RE ALL ON THE SAME PAGE

BATHHOUSE WITH YUSUKE

Awe, he had fun. :)

#Persona 5 #akira kusuru #shuann #pegoryu #pegoryuann #persona 5 royal #yusuke kitagawa #ann takamaki #Ryuji Sakamoto #Pretty Boy Ryuji

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creampuff-earper · 7 years

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Kate McKinnon Fanfiction. Foldingchairs and the city of dreams. Re-edited

Hey guys, I’ve decided to post my fanfic about Kate McKinnon on here. You can find it on AO3 as well: http://archiveofourown.org/works/8275334/chapters/18957797

Summary: This fanfiction tells the story of a fan, just like any of us, meeting Kate and everything that happens after that.

It takes off at SNL, later on Nino will be there and Kate is the most amazing person in the world. What could one want more?

Rated M from chapter 5

Chapter 6

I didn't admit it to Kate but breakfast actually made me feel a whole lot better. A light headache had kicked in from last nights drinks and before I could even ask Kate had pressed an advil in one hand and a glass of water in the other. We downed one at the same time and shared a knowingly smirk. We sit on the barstools at her kitchen island and silently, but contently ate our breakfast side by side.

"Your scrambled eggs are really good" I compliment her and shove another fork full in my mouth.

“Thanks!” she says and chews on her bottom lip. ”Hey uhm, soo" Kate starts again and somehow an unnerving feeling settles in the pit of my stomach. She was probably going to kick me out, by her means this was a one night stand, with breakfast I might add, and it was now time for me to leave.

"Any plans for today?" She finishes and I let out a strangled breath. Kate looks at me worriedly and rubs my back. "You okay there pal?"

I turn slightly red and scrunch my nose embarrassedly.

"Just thought you were going to kick me out..." I admit and nervously laugh.

"Oh I was gonna do that, but it seemed only polite to ask about your day first..." she states blankly and then continues picking at her plate. I cough or rather choke on my last piece of scrambled egg and Kate laughs, patting my back.

"It was a joke, don't die on me!" She cries out and tears of laughter are streaming down her face.

Finally I swallow the piece down and my cheeks are wet with tears as well, just not from laughing.

"Never do that again, please..."

"Your face, oh my god, like you saw a ghost" she keeps laughing and I can't help but giggle with her. Her laugh was so contagious and I wouldn't mind hearing it everyday for the rest of my life.

"I uhm don't have anything planned for today yet to be honest" I say, finally answering her question. Well, I did have something planned, involving packing bags and leaving the country but I couldn't bare to say that out loud yet... "what about you?"

"Yeh I have to be at the office at two, we're gonna start working on Saturdays show."

"Oh that's exciting! I saw Jenna Dewan Tatum was on!" I say and suggestively raise my eyebrows and Kate grins. "Yeh it'll be exciting for sure" she says and licks her lips. Although I initiated it, a pang of jealousy shoots through me and I regret bringing her up.

"You do know she's married to that other Tatum, right?" Kate snorts, apparently having picked up on my uncomfortable cough.

"Of course I do" I state as if she said something stupid.

"Well then why are you getting jealous of her?" Kate grins and she has caught me.

"I am not!" I bite back but the blush on my cheeks is giving me away.

"You so are, don't even try to deny it." She's laughing and I can't help but let out a little giggle to.

"Fuck off, who wouldn't be jealous of you getting to work "closely" with Jenna Dewan Tatum, that woman is a goddess"

"Hmmm that's true." She states but her eyes are twinkling with mischief.

"You know you are an asshole, don't you?"

"Yup"

"And you're proud of it"

"Yup"

I shake my head and sigh "All hope is lost with you woman..., think I’m gonna head home anyways." I say and get up from the chair, leaving a laughing Kate behind.

"You're still wearing my clothes tho!" She shouts after me when I disappear to the bedroom to grab my phone and my own clothes

"Let's see how much I care" I state and head for my jacket, intending to play this out all the way, getting back at her for making me almost choke to death.

"But I do!" She giggles and skips after me, throwing her arms around my waist when she reaches me.

"You're not leaving" she breathes in my neck

"I was, actually..." I say and continue to head for my jacket, dragging Kate behind me.

"Nooo you're not!"

"And why not? You're drooling over Jenna and being an total asshole and still you expect me to stay?"

"Yes actually..." she says and throws me her puppydog eyes and that trademark dimpled smile.

"Give me one reason I should stay."

She bites on her bottom lip and pretends to think really hard.

"Hmmmmmmmmmmmm"

She hums and I can't help but grin, this woman is such a dork and I love it too much.

She throws her arms around my neck and leans closer as her lips end up dangerously close to my ear.

"I still have to make it up to you for this morning…” she whispers and my knees go weak.

"Is that so?" I reply and try to keep a straight face when she slowly starts pressing hot kisses to my neck.

"Hmmmm, I'm very big on keeping my promises" she moans in between her literal torment. Her lips plant soft kisses down my jaw and then turn to the other side of my neck.

“How fortunate” I slightly moan, not able to keep up my facade and tilting my head time to give her better acces.

“Guess those clothes are gonna stay here after all huh…” She smirks when her hands pull at the elastic of the sweatpants she borrowed me.

“I guess so…” Is all I can come up with, when her hands dip in the back of the pants and squeeze my buttocks softly. She smirks at me and drops the pants down my ankles, leaving me in a pair of also borrowed boy shorts and a oversized t-shirt.

Suddenly she steps away from me and extends her hand “come on….” she whispers and for a second I’m frozen to my spot. The sight of a flushed Kate, in just panties and a shirt, illuminated by the sunlight coming in from the big window in her living room is almost too much for me to take. I feel like I need to pinch myself to be sure this isn't a dream.

My eyes travel up from her cute little feet all the way up to her legs, the sliver of skin on her stomach showing because her shirt is slightly ridden up, her erect nipples pressing trough the thin piece of material and finally her face, that occupies a big smirk and raised eyebrows. “Stop drooling, get moving!" She states and I snap out of my haze. She laughs and I step forward tangling my hand in hers and following her to the bathroom.

Upon entering the small room she lets go of my hand, and turns on the shower. I just stand there slack jawed. I watch her as she slowly starts pulling her shirt over her head and lick my lips. How this is happening again is beyond me, but no complaining here.

She tosses the shirt somewhere and steps closer.

“Gotta keep this even, right?” she says and her fingers end upon the hem of my shirt.

All I can do is nod, and I lift my arms in anticipation.

I’m like a lost, completely surrendering duckling underneath her touch. In my previous relationships it had always been me who had taken control, and this morning was no different, but right now, in her bathroom, my body is under her spell and I can’t help but relish the feeling that it awakens in me.

She quickly pulls the shirt over my head and her lips pounce on mine as soon as the shirt is out of the way. Her soft lips move over mine with a hunger in them, and I can’t help but let her take everything she needs. I feel her tongue run over my bottom lip and grant her entrance, not able to wait another second to feel the warm piece of muscle against me. My senses are in overdrive when her hands start roaming up and down my sides, frequently pausing at my hips to give them a soft squeeze. I can’t help but let out a soft moan when her hands rake over my stomach and end up just below the swell of my breasts. I feel Kate grinning against my lips and I bite her lower lip in return. Her hands slip down to my hips once again and before I know it she pushes the shorts down to pool around my ankles. Her hands leave me to slip off her own panties as well and she pulls me into the streaming bathtub/shower combination, underneath the spray.

I relish the feeling of the warm water hitting my skin. After a nervous date and a night of sweaty sex I could really use some cleanliness. But before I can loose myself relaxing in the spray her hands are back on me, roaming all over. We stay in the small space, exploring each other until the water turns cold. It’s a welcome change from the heat that has been raging trough my body for the last 20 minutes. I end up leaning my limp, overstimulated body against the cold tiles, just letting the water stream over my face. Kate quickly washes herself and her hair and rinses the shampoo, stepping out of tub when she’s content with the result.

“Come on sleepyhead, go wash up, I’m gonna track down some clean clothes” she says and looks at me with adoration in her eyes.

“hmspfsss” I humm and look at her trough my eyelashes.

“Aww I left you speechless, how cute” she grins and shuts off the water.

“HEY!” I yell and pretend to look angry at her.

“Ohh it does know how to speak.., come on I need to get ready, and so do you.”

“I’m gonna stay here forever, no matter what you say” I pout and turn on the water again.

“suit yourself, child…” she grins and turns on her heels to find some clothes when she realizes she’s not going to win this argument.

“NICE ASS!” I shout after her as she exits the bathroom and I’m rewarded with a middle finger. I laugh out loud and get up to clean myself, cause if I wanted it or not, at some point she had to go to work, and with every second I waisted sitting in that tub, I was missing out on being close to her.

Never in my life I had sex with someone that wasn’t my girlfriend or soon to be girlfriend. Sex to me always felt like something you only shared with someone you completely trust and want to share that deep connection with. Kate wasn’t my girlfriend, in no way was gonna ever be, but still every time her hands roamed over my body, touching me in places I’ve only trusted few to do so, I couldn’t help but feel my heart flutter with something that felt familiar. Something that I had felt that my first crush kissed me for the first time, like no one ever did before. The same feeling I felt when my first girlfriend told me she loved me, or when me and my last girlfriend stood in the shelter looking at the most adorable dog, that went home with us 5 minutes later. Although I recognized the feeling in my stomach when her hand slipped in mine last night, I didn’t allow myself to think to much about it. This was a casual hook up. It was the way it was done these days, just fun, sex and no feelings. I sighed deeply, shaking my head underneath the spray one last time, washing the tingling feeling on my skin away before shutting the water off. A clean towel was waiting for me on the sink and I wrapped it tightly around me, drying myself off in record time.

I tiptoe out of the bathroom in search of Kate when I see her in her living room, dressed in a casual outfit that suited her perfectly. She was talking to someone on the phone but by the way she was frantically swiping trough her hair every 3 seconds and pacing around the room I could sense it wasn’t a pleasant conversation. Not wanting to intrude I silently retreat to the bedroom and sit on the edge, contemplating if I was gonna wear last nights underwear or if I was going to ask Kate to borrow some.

Before I could make up my mind, Kate enters the bedroom and looks clearly flustered. She eyes me and gestures towards my still unclothed state. “yeh, my boxers are kind of toast after last night, could I borrow some of yours?” I say, hoping to answer her unspoken question. “sure” she shortly says and starts digging trough a drawer. She throws me a pair of old boy shorts and I quickly pull them on, feeling very aware of my nakedness all of the sudden. Kate stands at the closet she just pulled the shorts from but doesn’t move, she just stares in the distance and I quickly grow uncomfortable. “Hey you okay?” I try as I stumble trough the room trying to piece my outfit together and pulling the items on as fast as possible.

Kate doesn’t answer the question but walks out of the room when her phone beeps.

My heart sinks. Either she just wants me out of here, or that phone call was bad news. Both ways, I had no idea what to do. When I finish dressing I take another look around the room to make sure I didn’t forget anything and skip into the bathroom, putting on some deodorant and checking myself in the mirror one last time, before I find the courage to get out and confront Kate again.

She’s standing at her kitchen island, staring at a stack of paper, that seems to come freshly out of the printer.

I stand in the middle of the room, not knowing if I should get closer or stay away as far as possible.

When another minute passes, I decide it’s time for me to make this decision for her. Although it hurts every fiber in my body and I really don’t want to do this I take a step forward and cough to get her attention.

“uhh I’ll be going then, I guess”

She looks up at me with an emotion in her eyes that comes close to guilt. Another moment passes, in which she continues to look at me but doesn’t say anything.

“yeh okay, thanks, I had fun.” I choke out, my voice breaking and I turn on my heels, wanting nothing more then getting out of here as fast as possible.

“No wait!” she shouts after me and with my hand on the doorknob I flinch. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. My mind is running at a million miles an hour. If she didn’t want me to go, then what the hell was up with the sad face and not saying anything? I turn around and Kate has taken a step forward, clutching the papers in her hand.

“They took pictures last night…” Kate states and I get confused.

“They took pictures of us, after the bar, holding hands…” She clarifies.

“What like paparazzi?” I question, still trying to wrap my head around the information she has just given me.

“yeah… my manager just called to tell me about it.”

“oh…” lost for words, this is all I can come up with. I knew Kate is rearly seen outside of SNL, let alone pictured by the paparazzi, but how could this be so bad her whole mood went from 100 to 0.

“yeah… which is not a good thing…”

“oh” I blurt out once again, and I’m mentally kicking myself for my incompetence to form actual words.

She once again looks at the now crumbled pieces of paper in her hand and sighs. When she looks up at me again, I feel like something bad is going to come. And boy was I right.

"AndnowshesmakingmesignyouthiscontractandIdontwanttohavetodothisbutshemademe" she blurts out and I stare blankly at her. I didn’t get a word she said.

"What?"

"You have to sign this."

"Whats that?"

"Uhh a contract of confidentiality...."

"What...., why?" I look at the papers and an unnerving feeling settles in the pit of my stomach. This couldn’t be real.

"Because... we uhhh slept together.... and my manager is afraid you are gonna spread rumors that could hurt my career..."

I raise my eyebrows, getting slightly offended now. The unnerving feeling from seconds before is turning into something closer to anger and I bite my cheek.

"Is that what you have all of them sign once you had your way with them?" I spit out and immediately regret it.

“I told you I don't do this..."

"And what is this" I gesture between us "exactly?"

Silence. Dead silence... There’s a hurt look on her face and my heart sinks, I was really mad she was making me do this but the knowledge that I just hurt her, stung. I shouldn't have said it, I shouldn't have asked her to define this. God I didn't even know what this was. I sigh and shake my head.

"I'll sign them...."

When I look back up to her she blinks, once, twice and then turns around heading for the kitchen counter. I follow her silently. She drops the stack of paper on it but before I reach her, she turns around to face me.

"I don't know what this is... or was.... but I said it and will say it again, I don't do this. And I didn't plan on doing this when I messaged you two nights ago. But it happened and I don't regret any of it. Now you can sign those papers, or you don't. I know it's naïve and stupid but I trust you're not gonna ruin my career or say anything that could. I think it's fucked up that we had to end our morning like this and I hope that you can see that I really hate it, cause yeh..." she trails of, ending her ramble.

Her usually endearing rambles now have me lost for words. I shuffle on my feet, contemplating my next move.

Kate takes a step forward and I look up to her. She's pleading with me with those beautiful blue orbs and I can't help but melt.

"I'll sign them and be out of your hair okay? You need to be at the office in 1,5 hours and I have stuff to do, so it's fine"

"Okay" she breathes, somewhat disappointed.

She moves to the side and I find a pen, fill in the contact information and at sign the bottom of 5 pages of paper, not caring to read them.

"You don't wanna read them?"

"You trust me with our evening, I trust you to not fuck me over with whatever is in this contract..." "Fair enough"

"Okay"

I shove my hands in my pockets look at my feet. How did we go from having mind blowing sex to not knowing how to be within 2 meters of each other? This whole situation was fucked up.

Kate also looks as if she's glued to the floor, just picking at the them of her shirt

"This is weird" I blurt out and Kate awkwardly chokes out an uncomfortable laugh and nods.

"Come here doofus" I finally say surrendering to the stronger feelings that I don’t dare to define for myself. I have always been bad at fighting with people I care about. I extend my arms and she hesitantly steps in them wrapping hers around my waist, her head on my shoulder. I wrap mine around her shoulders and pull her close. The way she feels in my embrace is almost too much and I can't help but put my nose in her hair and inhale deeply, trying to savor the smell of it, trying to remember it forever. She groans lightly and pulls me even closer.

"Sorry for fucking it up" she mumbles into my neck.

"I'm sorry for lashing out to you like that, you didn't exactly have a choice." I mumble back and I relax into her, glad to put this behind us just before leaving her forever. We stand there for a good 5 minutes when she pulls back and smiles at me.

"Thanks again for last night... and this morning... despite our little misunderstanding."

"And thank you ms McKinnon, for giving me the best time of my life" I say and smile before planting a kiss on top of her hand that was still lingering in mine.

"I guess chivalry isn't lost amongst the youngsters" she jokes and I glare at her.

"So uhm, I shouldn't keep you up. You go do what you have to do" she says and gives me a small smile "I should get ready for work anyways." She says and I guess there's no way out anymore. I have to say goodbye to her, quite possibly to never see her again.

"Yeh, I should go."

"You should"

"Yeh" I linger and walk over to Nino and pet him a last time. When I get up my throat is thick with emotion. I walk over to Kate, who's already standing in the doorway. I stand opposite of her and smile.

"I kinda don't wanna leave..." I admit and look at her trough my eyelashes.

"I know, but it's okay. You go do what you got to do." She comforts me but I know it's bullshit.

"You know what, I think I actually have some free time tonight, if you want to meet up?"

"Well uhh about that..." but before I can finish my sentence she cuts in.

"That's right! We should exchange our numbers, way easier to meet up that way." She says and smiles, already talking her phone from the table.

"Here, put your number in and I'll text you. Alright?" I say nothing as I put my number in her phone and hand it back to her.

"Kate..."

"Yeah?"

"I fly back home tonight..."

#Kate McKinnon #Kate #McKinnon #Fanfiction #Fanfic #archive of our own #Ao3 #Ghostbusters #Jillian Holtzmann #SNL #Saturday Night Live #folding chairs and the city of dreams #chapter 6

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tuffacttofollow · 5 years

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A boat ride with God.

Are my vices that important to me that they have to tag along with me everywhere I go? Because, you see, I can never face my imperfections if I just wish them away, or ignore them completely. Oh, they’re still there, sitting and waiting.. My only option is face them head on; to acknowledge those things as they are and get rid of it to save myself from ruin.

How could I possibly let something so negative tag along with me? Even on a boat ride with God... See we hang out all the time. Beside the still waters is our hangout spot .. a place of comfort and peace where I get a chance to thank him for his amazing grace and singing songs that he loves.

This time, He’s suggested we play a game of “catch and release” he says, to ward off boredom.. I’m the only one fishing of course because hey, He’s God and I’m just ... me. Let’s face it he doesn’t need the fish anyway, He’s the Great I Am LOL .. but this game is different from the normal C&R. God makes me a promise

“For every fish you catch, there’ll be double waiting for you back on land “

“WHAT? Aww this finna be a breeze “ I say as I kiss my teeth and fan him off in confidence.

“But there’s a twist you see. See these aren’t just any old fish , they’re the big fishes in your life. Every situation that’s left you teary eyed is embedded in each one and they’ll all be different in nature but still a fish nonetheles. Now I know this won’t be easy, but the good news is, I’ll be here when ya need me.”

He says with the cheesiest of grins as he leans back in his convenient jasper framed chair with THEE STRONGEST FIBERS of lambs wool for backing, which by the way looks way more comfortable than this cooler I’m sitting on but i digress. He reaches for a heavy book and places it in his lap and cracks its open as if to begin reading where He left off.

He sits back, and then abruptly leans forward as if he’s just had another genius idea. “You know what, After a few good catch and releases, To make the deal sweeter, if you can catch and release every fish you receive, you can have triple the amount back on land ..”

“Wheeeww !! This is NOT what I had in mind for today” I think to myself as annoyingly grab my bamboo fishing rod.

And outta nowhere he says aloud. “Girl! i can here you! Start fishing”

“OK!” I mockingly reply in my head.

Ok 1st fish wasn’t so tough ..

“ you should spend more time with your friends, “ the fish spoke as I reeled him into the boat. “ you’re so anti social. You dnt get out much and quite frankly .. “

Before I knew it I’d thrown him back as quick as he’d come up and glanced at God. He smiled.

“I wasn’t about to let him say my friends are more important than my time with you. I would never... “

He nods his head and continues on reading his gi-normous book

About 20 more fish come and go. And I let them all go with ease.

“I’ve got this” I say, dusting my hands off after tossing away yet another fish.

I continue on fishing and here comes another, after hours of waiting.

“Where’s your phone? You’ve been out here for hours. Your boyfriend must be trying to reach you... “

“You know what you might be right,” I say as I quickly place the fish in the cooler and begin to look around. As I search the boat for my phone, I find it laying right by God’s feet. I look up to him and we lock eyes. “Oh I know what this is” I say as I dump the fish back out into the water while keeping my eyes locked in His gaze. “Won’t. Get Me”

He smiles and nods. I continue to catch and release what had to have been hundreds of fish, or the same desperate talking fish a hundred times WHO KNOWS!

That is until a moment of stillness in the waters happens and for hours there’s not a fish to be caught.

“Well where are they ? I know you know!” I say to God..

“Oh they’re there, just wait” He replies without glancing up from his book.

And so I wait and I wait until I hear a faint humming sound approaching from the distance. It was a girl, riding in on a jet ski. I immediately notice that the waters her boat ripples through is the clearest of turquoise waters I’d ever seen in real life. And, funny, this girl looked oddly like me except .. she had this long silky-straight dark brown hair. And her body? UGH ! I mean did you have to where baby oil today? Somehow that darn baby oil just set me off because I just KNOW the sun was gonna help reflect her every single perfection, all the ones I didn’t have.

“Hey girl! What are you doing out here fishing? My friends rented a cabin not too far from here. You should join us.”

I glance at God and our eyes met. He didn’t say anything and I didn’t either. I turned to her and replied, “I’m good baby grl but thanks tho” I said, a bit grudgingly, as I felt God’s eyes burning through my SOUL.

“Well you won’t mind if I sit with y’all, huh?” She says, “My friends are all sleep back at the cabin. UGH they’re so lame! They just dont know how to have fun”

My ears perk up. Well what do ya know. I like to have my fair share of fun!

“That’s a tough crowd!” I replied. “Well you’d be in God, hmgh uh Good company tho”.. I look over to God who’s giving me the Nick-Young-Question-Mark face to, probably, the saddest pun he’s heard in a billion years .. I quickly turned my attention back to ole grl as I held back my laugh.

“Alright cool help me in” .. I grab her by the hand and carefully help her into the boat. As I’m doing so, I feel a sudden chill. Like the quick burst of cold you feel when someone shuts off a bright light. Almost like the warmth of God had left me. I looked and what do you know, God and his fancy jasper framed chair was gone..

But I don’t get it! He said He’d be here.. “Where’d you go God” I thought to myself.

In that moment, I started to panic. Almost like the time as a child when I’d go on a grocery run with my mom and I’d stop, for what seems like only seconds, to pick up a toy, only to look up find that my mom has disappeared. It’s probably one of the scariest few seconds you’ll endure as a child. The disappearance act that you weren’t ready for. The most panicked search you embark on, with the quickest of footsteps, as you call out her name, only to find her on the next aisle, waiting for you to catch up.

“I’m here.” I breathe a sigh of relief as I feel God’s sweet voice embrace my thoughts and calm my fears. “Remember what we talked about. Catch and release”

I thought “What? catch and release?” In utter confusion. “I haven’t seen a fish in over an hour now.. we are literally the only three living beings out here cuz there’s definitely no fish”

“Uh? Hello?” I hear two other voices say

“Jesus?! Help me Holy Ghost! You know what I meant. Charge it to my head and not my heart !” I say aloud, jokingly dragging each word like a Southern Baptist preacher.

“What was that?” Ol grl said

“Uhm,” I stall, “What’s your name again?“

And we talked and talked and she begins to feel like an old friend. Its like we’ve known each other all our lives. That is, until a question comes to me seemingly out of nowhere to ask her.

“So what have you got going for yourself? Since you’re out here just living your best life. I know you gotta be on to something? Tell me your secret“

And then something strange happens. I hear her utter something but it’s distorted like she trying talk to me under water. But she keeps talking normally as if what she’s saying is completely comprehensible.

“God, am i tripping or am i tripping tripping?” I think to myself. “Why can’t I hear her?“ I start to feel the world around me fade out as I wait for God’s answer.

And then I hear his soft, still voice say, “Some thing’s aren’t meant for you to hear, nor see.” His words fall on me like heavy bricks. I’m riddled with questions now. My emotions bubbled up so fast before I knew it I blurted out.

“So what IS meant for me to hear, huh? What’s meant for me to see? She’s a gorgeous young lady who happened to look exactly like me except for a few alterations, which I personally would’ve suggested for myself had I had the privilege of picking my own features but hey you’re the boss here.”

I’d become so lost in my emotion that I’d barely noticed that the girl suddenly was no longer there. Just gone.

“She looked so happy and carefree.”

“Ah see there’s the thing. Did you hear the word you used?” God said to me with a sense of “ah-ha” in his voice.

“And instantly I was in the Spirit, and I saw a throne in heaven and someone was sitting on it. The one sitting on the throne was as brilliant as gemstones—like jasper and carnelian. And the glow of an emerald circled his throne like a rainbow.

“Twenty-four thrones surrounded him, and twenty-four elders sat on them. They were all clothed in white and had gold crowns on their heads. From the throne came flashes of lightning and the rumble of thunder. And in front of the throne were seven torches with burning flames....

“In front of the throne was a shiny sea of glass, sparkling like crystal. In the center and around the throne were four living beings, each covered with eyes, front and back.

“The first of these living beings was like a lion; the second was like an ox; the third had a human face; and the fourth was like an eagle in flight. Each of these living beings had six wings, and their wings were covered all over with eyes, inside and out.

“Day after day and night after night they keep on saying, “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God, the Almighty— the one who always was, who is, and who is still to come.”

“Whenever the living beings give glory and honor and thanks to the one sitting on the throne, The one who lives forever and ever, the twenty-four elders fall down and worship the one sitting on the throne, the one who lives forever and ever.

“And they lay their crowns before the throne and say, “You are worthy, O Lord our God, to receive glory and honor and power. For you created all things, and they exist because you created what you pleased.”

Revelations 4:1-11

And then I came to him. And all i could see was his brilliance and light and his love began to radiate through me as those words echoed in my mind like the vibrant sound of a high symbol in a stairwell.

For you created all things, and they exist only because you created those things which pleases you. I wouldn’t be here, had you not found pleasure in my presence.

As much as I hate to admit it, I brought my vices along with me that day. But I didn’t leave the same way I came. I faced it head on; acknowledged those things as they were and got rid of it to save myself from ruin because despite what I feel, comparison kills.

#beauty #love #GodisGood #God #storytelling #stories #books #lifestyle #boattrip #water #horizon #poetry #poets on tumblr #author #writers #excerpt from a book i'll never write

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survivorpanem · 7 years

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EPISODE ELEVEN - “ONLY SO LONG BEFORE THE PET SNAKE TAKES A BITE “ - ANDREW

hieeeee. omg okay.. i feel like it's been a hot minute since i made an actual confessional and not just me vs kait and jenn in my host chat. ANYWAY. i won my second immunity basically just my luck sdhg. i just had one person in mind and went down the list each and every time and put there name with who i thought fit best and that really played out for me? NOW. i just won my third immunity and jake literally... went off one. saying fuck me and shit. like bro skldhg. im gonna be at work till 10pm tomorrow and im gonna miss tribal and the whole day. i couldn't risk anything because anything could happen so i had to ensure MY safety. like i love jake but i swear he has one more nasty mesage to send me before i ask him "who do you think ur talking to btw?" can i just say this real quick... allison- started the rally to try to get me out me- lets get allison out. allison- goes home. ryan- was partners with jordan pming everyone trying to get me out. me- lets get ryan out. ryan- goes home. jordan- same as above. was partners with ryan pming everyone trying to rally votes against me the allison week. me- lets get jordan out. jordan- goes home. everyone- lets get andrew out its time! me- lets get jaiden out. jaiden- goes home. https://68.media.tumblr.com/02aa5ec34518a894eef3408820de7bbd/tumblr_ohuo4d0OUh1uxnkpto1_1280.jpg NOW. im not getting jake out. he can have his hissy fit all he wants but i know theres loyalty still down there. but do i want isaac or andrew out now? hmm..

ME: TRIES TO SAVE ANDREW IS SUPER EXCITED WHEN JAIDEN FUCKS HIMSELF OVER SO ANDREW CAN SURVIVE THINKS WE'RE GOING TO WORK TOGETHER ANDREW: I'M GUNNA ELIMINATE SAM FROM THIS CHALLENGE ME: BOY WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? I'M OVER IT!! I'M READY TO KILL ANDREW I've decided I want me, Zack, JC, and Sam B to final 4 because fuck Jake and Andrew for killing me and fuck Isaac because he's guilty by association. Also in all of these receipts of Jaiden trying to try up the votes, ANDREW is the one who suggested me! Jaiden said me or JC and Andrew COULD HAVE SAID JC BUT HE DIDN'T SO BYE ANDREW. AND HE THREW HIS VOTE TO ME WHEN IT COULD HAVE GONE TO SOMEONE ELSE HONESTLY BYE

I'm honestly v upset to see Jaiden go :( I was definitely stressed in those last few confessionals but I really do luv Jaiden so much and actually did see us getting so much further in the game together :/ I don't know why he had to flip and not even tell me about it but idk hopefully I can make the best of this. Like I'm not the reason he got out necessarily and I feel like our relationship was good enough to have an ok chance of getting his vote if I ever make it to FTC, which is highly unlikely idek why I'm thinking about that when it's still like 5 votes away if it is going to be a f2 like I think it is. Then the immunity challenge seemed to go well even though I didn't win. It appears to have raised distrust towards Andrew from Sam which is veryyyy good because I'd love to get Andrew out! I'm not a fan of the comp slayers in the game, even miss Zack and Jakey who are my allies are worrisome because of their challenge abilities. Sky Ferreira is sex btw. Speaking of jakey too I'm not sure where his head is at? Idk I got weird vibes in the challenge, especially since he took me out before comp queen Zack which is...interesting, so it's caused a bit of untrust with jakey and I too. I'm just worried that he's actually going to start picking his game up and start slayin and when he does I wonder if he's going to stick with me or flip and go with other people. So I need to keep an eye out for his ass, and another on the finish line. I'm also going to try for the time being to just continue playing as if I don't have an idol. I feel like idols can impair your judgement abilities and actually be a kind of crux to your gameplay because you can get a bit too assured of yourself, and you can never feel safe in these games. It's worrying now too because I see like one of the main benefits that was around keeping Jaiden was that he was such a big threat, it was just like you could just be like oh yeah let's do Jaiden, and people would be like yeah tru and then of course you could flip it to who you really want later. Now jaidens gone and Isaac asked me who I wanted to vote and it's not like I could be like oh yea we should vote Jaiden hurr hurr. So idk I was just like what about jakey idk and he was like yeah I think jaidens high key annoying and I was just like ok 👀 mama calm down as he continued talking about how jakey a lil trifling hoe, but I mean jakey likes Make Me (Cry) by Noah Cyrus so could he really be that bad? Idk. I should ask what his zodiac sign is before I make any decisions for the vote or ideas of his character.

flkjfdsal I don't remember if I did a confessional but this could be my last one since it's 20 minutes before the vote and I've heard NOTHING from anyone except for JC! so like fuck Andrew and Isaac honestly I REALLY hope me Sam Zack and JC stick together but I don't see it happening. I'm pretty sure I'm getting voted out so like it's been real.

I'm so happy I've made Final 7 but more importantly, I made it passed Jaiden! This vote is messy btw I just woke up from a nap and I have no idea what I'm doing.

So I'm being voted by Sam G, JC, and Zack. I know that for sure. I'm hoping Myself, Isaac, and Sam B all vote together. And just get out JC. I guess Zack is playing a map on me. So he'll see I voted for JC. And they might play an idol on JC and I'll be fucked. I dunno if an idol is being played tonight but hopefully if it is then it's played on Sam G? I really don't wanna die. But id I am then Zack is a snake. Like I knew that asdfghj but. I was hoping maybe he would actually take the secret pair beware thing farther. I guess it was fun while it lasted. Only so long before the pet snake takes a bite. Anyway, I'm probs not surviving tonight. So I hope Isaac or Sam B or Jake wins. But like 98% hope Isaac wins because he fucking deserves it. This will likely be my last confessional so. It's been fun and I'm glad I was able to play a pretty awesome all-star season. Anyway DAN GHEESLING IS MY BROTHER BYE.

I HATE MAKING DECISIONS! I have 5 minutes to decide whether I want to work with Isaac and Andrew or Jc and zack. I'm super nervous because there will be drawbacks for each option I choose. Zack will probably yell at me a LOT if I flip and Isaac will probably be so hurt by me and not want to be friendship anymore. And I want to work with Andrew in PI Allstars so I don't want to betray him here. Ugh this is messy fuck

welp i have 5 minutes so zack fucked me over hard core in immunity this round and all trust i did have in him is lost. this round it would be ideal for JC to leave but idk if sam b. is smart enough to make that move... um!!! yeah im just trying to convince her but i dont rly see it happening. andrew will prob leave or me tbh. i honestly think its me lmao. oh well. fuck zack

WELL, It appears Andrew is voting me again! Vote me once, shame on you; vote me twice, bitch you gotta go! Ugh idk I'm heeeeella nervous that I might be going tonight so I'm definitely keeping my idol close, we might be seeing a play tonight. Maybe even two if Andrew has one. Hm. So, I approached Isaac, told him I wanted to vote Andrew. He claimed he was down to vote Andrew too, but told Sam that he wasn't going to vote me but would vote someone else. Sounds like an idol might be getting played on andrewwww so they're splitting the votes, huh?! How. Fucking. Cute!!! This is disgusting I'll probably have to play my vote negator on whoever Isaac votes and use my idol for everything to work out tonight. UGH! This is so worrisome, idk why Andrew had to vote me tho! Like girl couldn't you vote either Sam instead since everyone else is on your side and Zack is immune. Whyyyyy meeeeeee 😢😢 it's not like I was pushing to vote for Andrew this week and last week also! *sarcasm* but I mean still, come on! It's not like Sam G wasn't pushing for you too, ugh. I don't know this is tough, if anything I'm probably gonna at least reveal to someone that I have an idol tonight or something. I need to find out how this vote is gonna go down...this is gonna be a long bumpy rife

Later...

Oh my fucking God Samantha BUSSY voted me out I can't fucking believe this. I'm honestly shook like I messaged Sam G first asking if she flipped then when she said no I went to Zack when he said no I was like what the fuck, how could it be pure angel Sam Bussy??? I pressed her and eventually she admitted to it. So I went to her and she denied it at first but finally admitted to it later. Then I called her and I think I flipped her. Hopefulfuckingly! I'm trying to flip Isaac as well just in case anything goes wrong and hopefully I can. I really hope I stay my dumbass should've played my idol when my gut told me to, but I simply didn't listen, I'm so stupid! But if I /do/ survive, then this would really be a wild move and I'll definitely be playing shit next week, if not everything smh. I'm puhRAYING that my mist works, because if not I'm going down as a big idiot who went home with their idol, probably the first big idiot who went home with their idol in storybook history! THE BIGGEST IDIOT IN STORYBOOK HISTORY!!! Kms if I go out this game I'm screaming.

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