#A little treat from dropout

[churchandstateofbeing]

the adventuring party episodes are gonna be WILD this season

#dimension 20 #d20 #dungeons and drag queens #brennan lee mulligan #alaska thunderfuck #jujubee #bob the drag queen #monet x change #questing queens #adventuring party #dropout #no I mean it. Between yassified brennan and the general humor of the series thus far these adventuring parties are gonna get SERIOUS #A little treat from dropout #Honestly? The best way they could’ve done a pride season #They’re already serving looks and attitude. I cant wait for them to play dnd and give their Opinions

[dropout-if]

DEMO (coming soon) - FAQ - NAVIGATION

Dropout is an upcoming (and a side project!) +18 slice-of-life interactive fiction game. Loosely inspired by media such as In the Heights and Night in the Woods.

Tag(s): Slice of life, Drama, Romance, YA, LGBTQ+, Text-based.

You take the train home from college after nearly four years away, knowing you will be welcomed with open arms, bright smiles, and the sincerest congratulations from your friends and family, from the entire neighborhood. Their pride has not been misplaced, for better or for worse, you are the one: the only one who made it into college.

This is your first summer home since you began studying in Stanford. That is what everyone thinks.

This is your first summer home since you dropped out of college, thus becoming the biggest disappointment in your neighborhood. That is what only you know.

Trigger Warning(s): Crude humor, Strong language, optional sex scenes, Violence, Depression and depictions of other mental illnesses, Substance use, Unwanted pregnancy (a RO's, Wanda).

A short disclaimer

Features and Characters below!

Return to your home, the fictional neighborhood of Downtown Heights, where you're treated like a local hero because of your grand achievement.

Determine how you managed to make it into college and why you decided to call it quits.

Reunite with your high school friends and acquaintances, with whom you've barely spoken in the past few years.

Romance one (or more) of the six old faces waiting for you in Downtown Heights.

Customize your Main Character! From their teenage years to their young adulthood, from physicality to personality. Be it your traits, flaws, and vices: everything shapes your return home.

Navigate the very dramatic shenanigans of young adulthood.

Queer relationships • RO Intros • ROs' Social Media • RO Facts

Jean/Jade Gray (he/him or she/her): THE EX • 23 years old

J and you were good. Until you weren't, and then they broke up with you right before you left for college. The two of you promised to stay as friends, but, like most promises between you and J, that too was meant to be broken. Your ex is often considered to be ambitious, determined, and cutthroat. You honestly expected them to be well out of the neighborhood.

Exes to lovers. It's possible to start a poly relationship (v and triad) with J and Kai.

Uma Bharat (they/them): THE OLD FRIEND • 22 years old

It has always been you and Uma, and this has been something you covetously believed to be true. But then the distance settled in, and then the many years in which you lived abroad. You can't claim to know them as well as you once did. Uma once dreamed of being a successful painter, and they have never given up on art (though they sometimes feel like art has given up on them).

Childhood best friends to lovers. It's possible to start a poly relationship (triad) with Uma and Travis.

Statler Amani (he/him or she/her): THE HEARTTHROB • 25 years old

You knew Statler back in high school, though they can't claim to have known of you until you made it out of the neighborhood. Many years ago, they were every high schooler's dream partner: kind, polite, intelligent. Their current partner must be proud. Nowadays, Statler works as hard as they can to help their family.

Unrequited crush to lovers. Statler is already in a relationship, a (more-or-less) toxic one.

Wanda Pavon (she/her): THE MODEL • 22 years old

Wanda had a future in modeling, the two of you were in the same group of friends in high school, and you never doubted she would be capable of making it out of the neighborhood. Her self-assertive and spontaneous personality surely would have made Wanda's road a little easier. You only find out why Wanda stayed in Downtown Heights when you meet her daughter.

Friends to lovers. Wanda is a single mother, her daughter's name is Gabi.

Kai Alofa (he/him or she/her): THE ROOMMATE • 24 years old

Kai's glow-up is the reason some Downtown Heights grandmothers believe in magic. The high school nerd turned fuckboy/girl has spent the past few years traveling around the state. Like you, they are back for the summer, ready to disappoint their parents. Rooming together comes as a natural result of delaying said disappointment (or so Kai claimed).

Friends with benefits to lovers (mandatory to romance Kai). It's possible start a poly relationship (v and triad) with Kai and J.

Travis Camaro (he/him): THE RIVAL • 21 years old

Uma, Travis and you were considered to be inseparable: it was the three of you against the world. That is no longer the case. A massive argument completely shattered the friendship Travis and you had. You know he resents you, you know he's jealous you managed to make it out and that he was left behind. And that's all you know. Travis has always been... a private guy.

(Past friends) to enemies/rivals to lovers. It's possible to start a poly relationship (triad) with Travis and Uma.

Choosing a route.

The Dropout's Family

The list of flings!

#if game #dropout if #dropout #wip intro #wip #interactive fiction #dashingdon #choice script #cog #cog wip #choice of games #interactive fiction wip #intro post #if intro #hosted games

[maarrgarr]

The Unknown Heir.

part six.

masterlist of the Unknown Heir.

Gojo Satoru x fem! reader

Synopsis: The reader returns after being gone for two years and leaving her boyfriend, Satoru, without giving him a reason. But now she doesn't come back alone.

Warnings: English is not my first language, possible grammatical and spelling mistakes, some plot changes.

"Satoru..." you said, with a trickle of voice.

You both looked at each other for a long moment. Neither spoke or moved, both were moved by the other's presence.

You were afraid you didn't know what Satoru was feeling or thinking, he just stood there, not making any movement or grimacing. He had his blindfold on, so you couldn't see his eyes, those eyes that had captivated you so many times, the same ones your son had.

Until you saw how he seemed to stand up straight and asked you, "What are you doing here?" his scathing tone surprised you. You didn't expect him to welcome you with open arms, but perhaps, deep down, you expected him to do so with a little more emotion.

You kept quiet, still a little dismayed to find him like that, so suddenly, so he asked you again only with a stronger tone: "I asked you, what the fuck are you doing here?", "I- I came back" was the only thing you could formulate at the time. You considered yourself someone brave and who always went straight ahead, but Satoru could always bring out your weak side. "Yeah I noticed that" he spoke sarcastically, "But I asked you what you're doing here". You understood if he was angry, but you weren't going to let him make you look like a fool that he could treat however he wanted.

"I'm going to work here as a teacher" you said in a more confident tone. He laughed bitterly, "Looks like Yaga hires just anyone as a teacher now" he said, "He didn't hire just anyone, he hired me, one of the few special class sorceresses" you replied, starting to get annoyed at his words. "Sorceress? we still consider you a sorceress? I thought you were already a dropout" he said and you frowned more, "Well I'm not, and if Yaga-sensei decided to hire me it's because there is clearly a lack of teaching quality here, so I'm needed" you said with a cocky smile, no one was going to doubt that you were a full-fledged sorceress. He leaned a little and said: "Believe me, no one needs you here, we are fine without you" your smile faded, as you felt that this conversation was no longer about education. You were speechless and a lump formed in your throat.

He smiled when he realized that he had achieved his goal, although he did not feel good, but his anger was stronger and he spoke again: "I will do anything to make you leave again, but this time you will have a reason" and he disappeared from your sight.

You let out the sigh you didn't know since when you were holding in your throat. The last thing he said broke your heart a little, although you tried to convince yourself that everything he said was out of spite, that last thing seemed serious.

You accepted that he no longer wanted you here. But you really wished that when he met his son, he would accept him.

And if he didn't, that would really break your heart, but you would stay strong for Ryusei.

TAG: @staygoldsquatchling02

#gojo satoru #gojou satoru x y/n #gojou satoru x reader #jjk gojo #jjk x y/n #jujutsu gojo #jujutsu kaisen x reader #satoru #satorugojo #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen satoru #gojo x reader #gojo saturo #jujutsu sorcerer #jjk x you #jjk x reader

[remidyal]

So I'm going to start speculating a little about future D20 seasons, just because we're running out of JY and thinking about that makes me sad.

My guess is that we're getting another four side quests, plus the replays of the Time Quangle live shows, before whenever the next IH season is (probably jan or feb 2025). From Dropout's production schedule, most likely at least two, probably three, and maybe all four are either already filmed or filming presently. The strikes may have disrupted this somewhat, however.

We know the names of two from the 5th anniversary video; we also know from the JY FAQ for a fact that one of these two, called "Never Stop Blowing Up" is next.

In the last few years this has been the slot for a campaign not GMed by Brennan or Aabria; I'm going to actually guess that there's a decent chance Brennan also won't be a player though I'm not at all sure of the timing with paternity leave and all. What the season is from that title could be a lot of things, though social media stars or stuntpeople have been guesses I've enjoyed. I think this is going to be a new setting, rather than something set in a preexisting universe, but I could be wrong there and there's been speculation that it might be something Starstruck (in which case I WOULD expect Brennan at the table).

GM possibilities for this or any other season even just from among people who have played on D20 before are too widespread to even do a complete list; highlights who have played on but haven't GMed for D20 and who I understand have experience (and would be excited to see) include but certainly aren't limited to Jasper, Ify, and Anjali from various side quests. Among the IH, Siobhan has made it fairly clear that she's not interested in GMing. I don't know if Ally has experience or not but they would obviously run something wild and I'd be here for it. Lou I believe has DMed home games but not actual plays; I'm uncertain if he'd be interested in running for a show, but I'd certainly watch if he did. Emily and especially Murph have a ton of experience as well but I think NADDPOD is kind of too much for Murph at least to GM outside that. Zac is low-key the IH I think is the most likely to end up GMing a season; rotating heroes is a thing, of course, but I don't think the workload there is as high as NADDPOD's.

We also know a Dungeons and Drag Queens 2 is coming at some point. The most likely format for this is a straightforward sequel with Brennan GMing for either the same four players or four different Queens, but I would actually love to see one of the players from the prior run step into the GM seat if any of them have gotten deeply into the hobby in the meantime. If they swap Brennan out for another DM here, this would maybe be the one season where I'd be delighted for it to be Murph, simply for the makeup possibilities. (One possibility is simply that he wears Cody Walsh cosplay for the season.)

I also think (or maybe I'm just trying to speak into existence) that we will get another 10-episode Aabria-GMed season this year, probably as the lead-in right before the next IH season for the third time running. Burrow's End and ACoFaF are both out of this world, stellar seasons to me (MiMa is... complicated by how much I want the property it's mocking to fade from memory, but that isn't its fault or hers) and I want to see what she does next.

Last, probably between D&DQ2 and that 10-episode season if that happens, we'll probably have another 4-6 episode original. If Brennan DMs D&DQ2 and Never Stop Blowing Up, this will probably be someone else; otherwise, not much to go off of.

It's possible that the live shows end up filling in one of these slots and are treated as a season until themselves, but I think they're going to be released not all in a row but rather to fill weeks between seasons. This might just be a greedy hope on my part, though! I do hope Brennan sits out at least one season, and I'd love it if the person who GMs who isn't Aabria or Brennan is someone who's done less prominent projects. (I'm actually talking myself into really rooting for a Zac-GMed season, though Ify's been my main hope for a long while.)

One thing that does seem to have shifted lately, specifically in Dropout's marketing - in the past, they were always extremely secretive about seasons past the currently airing one until it was complete, with the names not even known until the release of the season trailers. This changed a little when they teased Matt Mercer gming a season (which turned out to be RavWar) during Never After's airing; it's changed much more in the last two seasons, with a teaser for Junior Year coming out before Burrow's End had even started airing and with the names of multiple seasons being given in advance. It wouldn't surprise me if we continue getting little seeds for future seasons as we move forward.

#dimension 20 #dropout tv

[malewgtfstories]

BIG BRO

Iseah has always been a cocky evil older brother to John. Iseah was a lean, fit, and muscular high school dropout. He always made fun of John for being overweight and called him mean names such as porker, and pig.

One day John woke up and grew tired of his misstatement. Thus he concocted a plan to fight against his wicked bro. He went to his best friend who just so happened to be a witch and knew of a way to switch the tables. The first step was to switch one of Iseah's favorite jock straps with an enchanted one. After a few hours, you would see some distinct changes. The only way to make such drastic changes permanent was for him to wear it for 5 hours. Wanting to take revenge he accepted the offer.

Iseah was in love with his "lucky" jock strap. He always wore it and never washed it. He would either be wearing it or nothing under it. So while Iseah was taking a shower John took it and gave it to his best friend. They quickly enchanted it and put it back to where it was. As Iseah come out of the shower he felt like he wanted to show off his toned body to his porker little brother. So all he put on was the oh-so-enchanted jock strap. While he was leaving the bathroom he felt a little groggy and a little tired. Iseah went to take a little nap, unbeknownst to him as he was sleeping his whole reality was bending before him. when he woke up from his 4-hour nap, he found it quite difficult to stand as he felt like his "little" bro was sitting on top of him. he opened his eyes to see a round mound lying underneath his blanket. He was horrified to see a thick gut underneath.

He stood up in a panic tripping over stuff as his center of gravity was off. His parents walked into the room and were worried over all the ruckus.

"What happened, BIG GUY?" said his dad.

Big guy? he was never called big guy.

"Honey, are you hungry I'll fix you something to eat. A BIG BOY like you needs to eat," said his mom.

He was confused they were treating him just like his little bro. He pushed past his parent and "ran" to the bathroom. he saw to his horror his face stuck in a body bigger than his younger brother. He felt as if his whole world was caving in, but at the same time, he felt an urgency to eat. He waddled his way to the kitchen to his younger brother look at him with shock in his eyes.

"Bro, what happens?"

"I don't know bro but I'm starving".

John with delight told his mom to make food since they were both starving. Their mom had a tendency to make the most fattening type of food. Iseah would usually stay away from the food but now he didn't stop himself and ate like he never had before. Even after so much food in his stomach, he was still hungry for more. he scavenged and ate all of the leftovers in the fridge to satisfy his hunger. Soon enough John started to fall in love with his new lifestyle only wanting to eat and play video games with his bro. As soon as the clock hit the hour mark Iseah was permanently stuck in his balloon formed to Johns's delight him and his Bro could bond and feast like real bros. After that day Iseah was truly the Big Bro.

#thin to chunky #permanent tf #male weight gain stories #male transformation

[devilfic]

Saw the previous Matt Murdock post and I can’t help but think of him as college professor dynamic???!

LIKE HOW WOULD HE BE?

❝criminal law professor!matt murdock❞

cw: law school professor matt being everyone's wet dream, brief mention of alcohol, brief suggestive content. words: 1.3k.

AHHHHHHH criminal law professor!matt who never set out to teach but got invited to a lecture held by an old lawyer friend of his and built up such good rapport with the students that when one of them came up to him after class and told him they'd sign up for any class he'd teach, the cogs started turning

only teaches one class a semester, probably one class a year

one of those professors that almost everybody wants to get in with but is prone to several dropouts after the first two weeks because of his teaching style

he's very casual most of the time but very much hands-on and will not let up on you for a second if he thinks it's a teaching moment

he's relentless. he is not an easy A but you will come out of his class better than you went in

his favorite part of the job is getting into ethical debates with the students

likes to do a lot of mock trials and very regularly stick his students with cases that test their moral judgment

it's not to make them feel bad or play at having the higher moral ground if they make a "wrong" decision, but more so to force them to consider what they're willing to compromise on to win a case

and whether winning cases is the best thing for them or for their client

he's the type of professor who will gladly stay an hour or two after class just chatting it up with students over cases he's done in the past or answering questions about practicing law professionally

he grades hard but he always offers ample feedback to make his students do better next time

has a saying that he'll never turn down a coffee from a student trying to butter him up

and immediately follows up with "it won't make me change your grade but it will help me remember your name"

this motherfucker definitely likes to sit on the edge of his desk while teaching, too

undoes his tie a bit when he gets passionate about a topic, rolls up his shirt sleeves to his elbows, has to stop himself from pacing the room without his walking stick when he feels particularly excited about a discussion

does not care about late work like at all

as long as you get it to him before the end of the semester, you'll be fine

you'll be panicking, emailing him about how you're so sorry but your laptop got stolen on your way home and that you'll have to rewrite your entire paper from scratch in the school lab tonight so it'll be a day late and you'll get a response back in 4 minutes that just says "No problem, stay safe - Sent from my iPhone"

and... your laptop is mysteriously returned a few days later. apparently whoever stole it had a serious change of heart. you also got a 98 on your paper

(he may not be swayed to change your grade with coffee but he is a bit of a softie when it comes to stuff like this)

he's also just the hottest professor on campus. do I even have to say it at this point

comes to class everyday in a nice button-up, very form-fitting trousers (none of his students have ever seen him in a pair of jeans nor will they), glasses perched on the tip of his nose, a leather messenger bag at his side that is mysteriously well-stocked with first aid supplies, and a loose red tie around his throat

do you see the vision

cancels class often because of daredevil business and treats these as days to work on papers

tries not to cut class short because of daredevil business

it actually makes him a bit sad when he has to, and so he makes it an open invitation that if students catch him out in the wild or walking around campus, they can bother him as much as they want

his TA is a little (a lot) exasperated with him but he makes up for it by buying them food. it has actually put a dent in his budget at this point but their appeasement makes it worth it

he has an office on campus but he very rarely uses it for office hours, you can pretty much find him anywhere BUT his office

he likes to meet in coffee shops or lecture halls or parks on campus because he feels like it's less daunting for students to just sit and talk out in the open

he's very popular on valentine's day

students and faculty alike will shower him with chocolates and mini bottles of wine and roses and proposals to go out for drinks sometime and he always accepts the gifts graciously

and then passes them onto his TA, karen, or foggy

although he'd be lying if he said he didn't keep some of the wine for himself

he has a strict rule against dating within the university, he'd just rather it not be awkward

now,,, a one night stand with a fellow professor maybe? no strings attached? he's not opposed to that

let's just say that tie and office are getting put to good use-

if you're a student and want a piece though, you're gonna have to wait until you've gotten your degree, sorry

he happens to like his one class a semester/year and he'd very much not like to deal with the legal repercussions of getting caught with a student. repercussions of which he is well-versed in

but alright. I mentioned that he sometimes has to cancel class because of daredevil business and so I MUST tackle the big question: does anyone suspect him

yes and no

it starts out simple. sometimes he shows up to lectures with cuts and bruises, some bandaged but fresh, and swears that it's nothing to worry about. you might catch him wearing the rare sweater on those days, even

when he gets questioned about it, he sort of spins some half-baked lie about boxing being his part-time hobby

and then people start noticing that he's never around when there's a daredevil sighting

now, he doesn't always cancel class for daredevil business. sometimes it's because he's got a client to take care of!

but he also loves to invite his students to sit in on the less serious cases so. what gives

one student starts a rumor and then it kind of becomes a joke in class that professor murdock is secretly daredevil

most of them don't take it seriously because how could their sweet, chill, blind professor murdock be a crime-fighting vigilante? it just wouldn't make sense!

and you know what this bitch does? he feeds into it

student: yeah, professor murdock is daredevil. that's a good one

matt: what do you mean?

student: oh, it's just a joke! we know you couldn't be daredevil

matt: but I am

student: hahaha that's funny

matt: no, I really am daredevil. haven't you noticed? same build, never in the same place at the same time, devilishly handsome

student: uh-huh, sure thing professor

matt: is it cause I'm blind? that's pretty insensitive, don't you think? you don't think blind people just read braille all day and get walked across the street, do you? is that what you think?

student: well I mean no but like... I mean.... uh....

matt: nahhh I'm just fucking with you. I am daredevil, though

student: hahaha for sure man, definitely

matt:

he does fly too close to the sun one day though when one of his students tries to debate him in class about it for shits and giggles and accidentally comes up with such a compelling argument for why he could definitely be daredevil that he sort of just nervously laughs and stops making jokes about it for the next four weeks

also keeps a flask in his desk drawer to pour into his mug after a rough night on patrol. but if anyone asks, no the fuck he didn't. mind your business. you have a C in his class

taglist: @yikes-buddy @alexxavicry @theclassicvinyldragon @marina-and-the-memes

#I saw this ask and immediately got to work #please send me more matt stuff I actually really enjoy writing for him #matt murdock headcanon #matt murdock fluff #matt murdock au #matt murdock #daredevil headcanons #daredevil fluff #daredevil au #daredevil #marvel #mjwrites

[a-very-tired-jew]

Dropout has an Antisemitism Problem - Part Something

I was going through the Dropout discord because I recall members of the Palestine channel saying Israel doesn't care about the hostages, the hostages were treated well, etc, etc...

I came across an exchange that I had missed due to the rapid nature of Discord messages and...well I'll let you read.

Fig. 1. User compares antisemitism to systemic racism and says it can't exist in Palestine due to power dynamics. Other blogs on here have talked about how antisemites view Jews as holding power and therefore can't be discriminated against. This is my first time seeing it in this type of comparison, which tells us a lot about the user and how they view things. The fact that they think bigotry and discrimination only happens within a power dynamic tells us that they know very little about what they're talking about, and are using progressive activist jargon to hide their ignorance. Systemic racism refers to the structures within a society that give an unfair advantage to one group over and another and/or harm a group based upon ethnicity or race. You can have systemic racism and good ole fashion racism, they are not exclusive. However, the way in which this is framed makes it seem like the user thinks of racism as only an institutional issue and, thusly, antisemitism as well. Which belies the issue that antisemitism informs a lot of Hamas's intent towards Israel and the global Jewish diaspora.

The leaps in logic are such a weird thought experiment of Olympic proportions. If Jews were to live in Gaza, hypothetically, they would likely be subjected to antisemitism due to Hamas being the government, because it would be systemic. However, because there are no Jews in Gaza, and the Jews live in Israel, there is therefore no antisemitism in Gaza (or Palestine in general)... Quite a few leaps, denials, omissions, and outright cognitive dissonance on display there. This specific individual is a goy whom I have referred to in other posts that has routinely defended Hamas's actions and posts daily Al Jazeera updates, so we know where they stand. In all my other posts they are the one to call in mods to kick people out for questioning their narrative. In fact, this particular excerpt comes from a larger exchange where Jews within the channel are discussing Hamas's antisemitic charter, intent, and subsequent actions because another goy user had questions. A mod was called in to address this particular user's actions in telling Jews that antisemitism can't exist because it's only systemic, and the Jews told them that as a goy they can't define what is antisemitic. Well...this user is part of the core group of the channel and has been allowed to stay, whereas Jews have been kicked for lesser reasons. And yeah...they're still there as of March 2024 and routinely posting their AJ updates. Good job Dropout Palestine channel for making sure your Pro-Pal movement doesn't have antisemites in it. Doing a great job /s

#jumblr #leftist antisemitism #antisemitism #dropout tv #activism

[smaptain-smerica]

Beauty School Dropout - Part V

Pairing: Bradley Bradshaw x Female!Reader

Summary: When Bradley is called back to Top Gun, he is reunited with a long lost friend from high school. Through their strenuous time leading up to the mission, the two friends relationship becomes complicated by external forces.

Warnings: Death of family members

Master list

Before Bradley could even unpack his own bag, he was already packing two boxes. One full of y/n’s things, and one full of Mandy’s. 

Bradley had thrown Mandy’s things carelessly into the box. Wrinkling the clothes and not caring whether the pictures and notes crinkled or not. 

Bradley made sure y/n’s things had been freshly washed and neatly folded. There were significantly more of y/n’s things than Mandy’s. Feminine hygiene products, a half empty bag of her favorite candy, even bits and pieces of an old Halloween costume. 

A couple tears slid down Bradley’s face that he quickly wiped away as he looked at the picture that used to live on his desk before Mandy made him get rid of it. It was a framed picture of y/n and Bradley after playing a game of paintball. Both covered in different colored splotches that muraled their torsos and faces. That was Bradley’s favorite memory. It was one of the only times that he didn’t let her win, she simply was better at paintball than him. But that secret he would take to his grave. 

A soft knock in the doorway drew Bradley’s 

attention away from the photo and he now looked into his mothers sympathetic eyes.

“I messed up mom.” Bradley admitted through a tightened voice, keeping down the emotions. 

“With Mandy?”  

Bradley bit his lip to keep down the emotion that was threatening to explode from inside of him as he shook his head, unable to take his eyes off the picture. 

Carole made her way over to the bed and sat down next to Bradley. She brought her only son into her side and rested her head on top of his, stroking his shoulder gently. 

“You guys are so close, I’m positive you can talk it out.” She tried her best to advise her son. Bradley brought his hand up to his face and wiped away a stray tear, sniffling his nose. 

“It’s better if I don’t after the way I treated her. I don’t deserve to be her friend, she’s too good for me.” Bradley’s heart felt like it was shattering. Leaving y/n behind for her own good was ten times harder than leaving Mandy for his own good. 

It wasn’t until Bradley saw Dylan dance so intimately with y/n that he realized he was in love with her. The jealousy he felt in that moment was unlike anything he had felt before. He was nearly blind with rage when he shut himself in the master bedroom. It took every ounce of strength in him not to knock Dylan out. 

“I don’t think that’s true.” Carole tried to soothe her son. “Now, she didn’t deserve how your girlfriend treated her.” There was a clear distaste to Carole’s voice that Bradley had picked up on. He pulled back from his mom and looked up at her with a guilty expression. 

“You heard?” 

Carole hummed in agreement. “With my own ears. Y/n stopped me from telling you because she didn’t want to ruin your happiness.” 

Bradley felt a heavy weight tug on his heart. It felt like an elephant standing on a tightrope, the tethers threatening to snap at any moment. 

“I’m sorry I ever brought Mandy around either of you.” 

Carole chuckled a little and shook her head. 

“She’s gone now, that’s all that matters. You live and learn, my love.” 

Bradley gave his mother a half-hearted smile before putting the picture face down on his bedside table and he picked up the box with Mandy’s stuff in it. 

“Would you mind taking the other box and just putting it by the front door? Y/n is coming later to grab it.” 

Carole gave her son a saddened expression. “It’s not too late to fix it, hon.” 

“It is now.” Bradley sighed. “I’m going to the military and she’s going to dermatology school in New York. Maybe it’s for the best that we didn't get to say goodbye, I don’t think I could have.” He admitted sorrowfully. Bradley walked to the door with the box and exited his room. 

Before Carole grabbed the box with Y/n’s things in it, she looked at the flipped over picture on his nightstand. She picked up the frame, smiling at the memory and then propping it up on its kickstand to display the image once more. 

Bradley stared at that picture on his nightstand for hours a day it seemed. He replayed every memory and every moment with her in his head. The concentration on her face when taking a test, the peace that reflected her every time she entered a library, the way her cheeks and nose were sun kissed at the beach in Mexico. 

Bradley was completely and utterly in love with her, and he let her walk away. 

Leaping from his bed, he reached for his shoes and scrambled to put them on. He flew down the stairs and out the front door. It was the middle of the day, his mom was at work. He also knew that y/n’s father would be at work but her mother would be working from home. 

Bradley tackled the quick jog to your house with ease, making it to the driveway and traveling up. His eyes scanned up to your window, noticing the lack of decorations. What was normally a display of dream catchers and plants sunbathing, was now empty, white blinds. Bradley’s heart sank.

Taking a deep breath, Bradley knocked on the door. When nobody answered he knocked again. Only a second later did y/n’s mom open the door. Her eyes widened at the sight of him before she smiled. 

“Bradley!” She greeted him in relief. Then her face fell to concern. 

“Is everything okay?” 

“Is y/n here?” Bradley asked, not bothering to hide the desperation in his voice. Sympathy flashed across her eyes as she looked at him. This instantly confirmed his suspicions. 

“She left yesterday. She started talking to her new roommate and left early to explore the city.”  

There it went, the tether's strength couldn’t bear the weight of the elephant anymore. His heart plummeted down to his stomach at the truth of his worries. 

“I can give you the mailing address of her dorm?” Y/n’s mom suggested. 

“Or, she has a phone number now, do you want that?” 

Bradley hesitated. He wanted her phone number. He wanted the address. He wanted both. But then he thought about what would really happen. He would write her letters that he would never send. Stare at her phone number all day and never hit the call button. 

“No. That’s okay. Thank you Mrs. L/n.” 

She smiled sadly, reaching out to grip his shoulder. 

“You ever need anything you come right over, okay?” 

“Thank you.” Bradley responded quietly, truly appreciating the gesture. 

Y/n pulled up to Bradley’s house, her heart racing. He had said he wouldn’t be there but the thought of having to face him made her heart ache. Why did it have to end like this? Y/n had hoped that they could stay friends. Maybe even visit each other during summers or spring break. 

Upon putting her car in park she noticed a very familiar motorcycle parked in the driveway. Suspicion crept under her skin as she got out, walking up to the door. Y/n reached for the handle, her hand shaking gently as she gripped the door knob and slowly pushed the front door open. 

The brown box with familiar clothing in it sat right beside the door. That box only held y/n’s attention for a moment as she heard Maverick and Carole talking in the kitchen. 

“Mav, please.” 

“Carole this is his whole life we’re talking about. He’s been dreaming about this since he was four!” 

Y/n could hear her heart in her chest, praying that it would quiet down while she slowly crept towards the kitchen doorway to listen better. Y/n plastered herself against the wall to attempt to be invisible. 

“Pete. Please, listen.” 

Y/n had never heard Carole so desperate and pleading. There was silence on the other side of the conversation before Carole continued. 

“I’m not going to be here much longer.” 

“Carole please don’t say that-“ Maverick interrupted her, his voice breaking slightly in the middle of the sentence. 

“Well it’s true. I need you to protect him. Please, he can’t end up like his dad.” 

“Bradley’s a good kid. He’s smart. Everything is much safer now than it was then.” 

There was silence when it was Carole’s turn to talk, and y/n heard a deep heavy sigh before Maverick continued. 

“Alright, I’ll think of something.” 

Y/n looked back to the open door, taking that as her cue to announce her entrance. She quietly tip-toed back over to the box and picked it up, shutting the door loudly to pretend she had just walked in. 

“Bradley?” Carole asked into the house. 

“Nope.” Y/n responded with a shaky, nervous breath. 

Carole and Maverick both rounded the kitchen door, Carole looking at her sympathetically while Maverick tucked his hands into his pockets. 

Setting the box down, y/n was engulfed in a hug by Carole. The tension in the air was thick. None of them dared bring up the reason that y/n had come in the first place. 

“So,” Carole began. “When do you go to New York?” 

“Two weeks.” Y/n responded with excitement. She was ready to move to the big city and start her new life. This was going to be a good change for her. A nice chance to reset all the emotions.  

“Here.” Maverick caught the two women's attention as he moved to dig around in his backpack that he had tossed in the entryway. A pink envelope with y/n’s name written neatly on the outside was handed to her. 

“Congrats on graduating.” 

Y/n’s heart swelled as a warm smile spread across her face. She took the car and put it carefully on top of the neatly folded clothes in her box. 

“Thank you Maverick. You didn’t have to do that.” 

“Of course I did. I know how expensive New York is. Now, come here.” 

Maverick extended his arms out to y/n and she stepped into his embrace. She was met with a tight squeeze and a ruffling of her hair by Mavericks knuckles. 

Y/n looked between the two of them, suddenly feeling the awkwardness lacing over the air. She took in her bottom lip and picked up the box. 

“Well, I’m off.” 

Carole’s face was smiling, but it was a sad smile. Y/n would miss this woman that became such an impactful character in her life. She didn’t know how she would handle not seeing this woman every week. 

“Good luck y/n.” 

“We’ll be rooting for you.” Maverick brought his hand up to his forehead in a lazy salute. Y/n reciprocated the lazy salute back before turning on her heel and leaving Bradley’s house for the last time. 

Y/n had come home for the summer, and she couldn’t be more content. New York was amazing, everything she imagined and more in fact. She spent a lot of free time seeing shows on Broadway and getting food at unholy hours of the night. The city that never sleeps was indeed a fitting name. 

But now being back in her small hometown in SoCal, the quiet was something she never thought she would miss. There was no shouting, no car horns or sirens going off. Only the sounds of the birds fluttering by and the wind chimes making melodic tunes in the warm summer breeze. 

Both of y/n’s parents were at work so she was home alone on a hot, late may afternoon. Though, the window was still open and letting in a draft. Yet another thing she found difficult to do in New York. One of her favorite books was laying in her lap as she read lazily in the sun cascading into the living room. 

A knock at the door caught her attention. Y/n furrowed her eyebrows while finishing the paragraph before marking her page. She walked to the door, opening it to stare at a familiar face on the other side of the glass. 

Bradley’s face was purely shocked, jaw gaping and eyes wide. Y/n’s heart thundered in her chest as she was at a loss for words. Her eyes scanned Bradley’s face. He got tan, very tan in the summer sun. But his eyes were still red and puffy, almost like he had been crying. 

“What did you get home?” The waver in his voice only confirmed the suspicion. Y/n’s heart broke. She couldn’t remember a time she had actually seen Bradley cry. Everything that happened in the past year went out the window. Ignoring the promise she made to herself that she would hate him forever. She knew it was impossible. 

Y/n pushed the glass door open and grabbed Bradley’s hand and drug him into the house. 

“What’s wrong?” She demanded. 

Bradley did as he was told, getting pulled into her house willingly. Y/n shut and locked the door before turning to face him. Bradley had his bottom lip in his mouth looking at the floor. 

“My dad..” his voice cracked at the quiet, pitiful words that he spoke. 

Y/n’s head whipped to the calendar on the wall and she squinted. Her heart sank out of her chest upon realizing the date. His dads birthday. 

Instantly, her arms were around him. And like a magnet his arms were around her impossibly quick. Y/n sighed and sank into the warm embrace and smell that she missed so desperately. 

Bradley’s head slumped to her shoulder as his cries grew into sobs. Sobs that raked through his body and shook his breathing. Y/n held on, squeezing him tighter by the moment and rubbing circles on his back. 

Bradley pulled back from her embrace, face red and tear stained. He grabbed y/n’s hand and led them over to the couch where they sat down. Y/n was confused by this action, and wondered why he had moved their location. 

His brown eyes glossed over with tears met hers. She searched for any indication of what this meant. He looked like he was trying to choke out words but nothing was leaving the captivity of his vocal cords. Y/n squeezed his hand tightly, reassuring him it was okay. 

“My mom died a month ago.” 

Y/n’s face fell into shock. A hand covered her mouth and she could already feel the emotion rising to her throat. 

“Her cancer got too bad too fast. I told your mom not to tell you because I knew you would drop everything and come back.” 

And Bradley was exactly right. She would have dropped everything and taken the first flight back to California. A new emotion rose into her mind. Guilt. She should have been there for him, should have picked up the damn phone and called. 

Tears streamed down her face in addition to Bradley’s new ones also flowing. Bradley looked down at their intertwined hands, a thumb running over the tops of her knuckles. 

“This is his first birthday without her.” His voice was gentle, fragile, hardly even a whisper. 

The emotions she was trying to keep inside were now too strong. Y/n practically leapt into Bradley’s arms to consume him in a hug. Half for his comfort, and half for hers. Bradley’s arms wrapped tightly around her waist as she sat half on his leg and half on the couch. 

“B, I’m so sorry.” Y/n whispered through her own pains tearing through her body at the moment. 

Bradley curled his head into the nape of her neck, taking a tighter grip on her body to press against his own. 

“I’m so happy you were here.” He whispered. Y/n felt his tears dropping down into her shirt as she was certain that hers were doing the same. 

Y/n savored the way that their bodies fit together. Perfectly, she thought. Like two puzzle pieces that were made for one another. The pain in her heart over the news of Carole’s death was paired with a new pain. Heartbreak. Heart broken because she realized that the miles and miles of distance did nothing to her emotions. Heart broken because she was still in love with Bradley Bradshaw.

Finally, all she managed to mutter into his skin was; 

“Me too.”

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[quandaryqueen]

Masters of Fear Crane and a dropout reader who needs help studying to get back into school and maybe has a little crush but we have to focus rn no time for all that please

Study Date

Masters of Fear Jonathan Crane X Reader

Jonathan battling his feelings? Mmm that's the shit.

🧡 Above all else, he is fucking understanding of your circumstances. School in difficult enough with the some of the teachers being unsupporting, neglecting, power-tripping, minor mistakes-policing, close-minded individuals who discourage students from chasing their dreams. Add in the students themselves who are the absolute best at bringing out the worst of you, but with teachers doing nothing to stop it, those said students continue to persist at pestering you. Then there were your domestic circumstances of course. Jonathan is not that all good with showing his emotions, but he hopes you know that he is not judging you for dropping out and he is understanding of your reasons.

🧡 Since you're showing interest in returning to school, he highly encouraged you, but with you asking him to help you? Well that he can do... Um... In your house? Just the two of you? Alone? In your room? Ahem. Uh... Right, right... He can do that, sure...

"Right... First year, first sem, these are the subjects and here are my notes." Jonathan handed you his old notebooks, the back of each notebooks torn off lest you should see your name written all over it. Not only that, he had hunted for your name written on the margins of the pages and scribbled it out.

"Got it... Thanks for the help again. You really have no idea how much this means to me." Gratitude was visible in your smile, as you reach for the notebooks, fingers brushing with his from the exchange. "I just don't know who else to turn to, to be honest..."

"I-I'm here for you..." He clumsily squeaks out.

"Yeah and I'm so so thankful you are. How can I ever repay you?"

Jonathan swallows thickly. He isn't dreaming, is he? Will he be waking up soon? Oh gosh, he was reading way too much erotica—

"No no, don't worry about it," his voice cracks.

🧡 He is patient, he will explain to you concepts of certain topics in class on repeat if it means seeing you in the university halls again, take his seat next to you during classes, eat lunch with you, suffer through activity due dates, ride out migraines, vibrate from caffeine overload, writing thesis all that bunch! And he will continually insist that you are no bother to him, just as you reassured him that his presence was not a bother at all.

🧡 Everything about you just had to be cute in his eyes and it's pissing him off. How can someone like you exist? Is that even allowed? From your subtle little quirks, the way you look so focused on your task, the way you look at him while nodding attentively as he teaches you, the way you smile in triumph when you achieve something, the way your face twists when you're bothered— AGH!

nonono, focus man.

Jonathan had to remind himself with a squint of an eye.

Friends. You're just friends.

🧡 After packing up for the day, you grinned at him.

"You know, I meant it when I asked you how can I repay you."

"And I say you don't have to,"

"Well I want to." You pouted. "Tell you what, tomorrow we can go to the diner nearby. My treat."

"Oh no no Y/N—"

"Come on! Just this once," Jonathan reddened when you took his hand between yours, his eyes broken off from your pleading gaze. "Please?"

"A-alright." It didn't take long for Jonathan to agree, how can he say no to you of all people?

"Great! I'll see you tomorrow then!"

The brunet nodded absentmindedly to himself, processing whether this exchange was a platonic offer or not. Either way... Oh he is living his dream.

#jonathan crane x reader #mof scarecrow x reader #mof jonathan crane x reader #masters of fear scarecrow x reader #masters of fear jonathan crane x reader #masters of fear #request #anonymous

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

so i’m gonna rant about my brother

here’s a list of things he’s done. now on top of that, he’s my older brother and when my parents divorced, my mother started working a bunch but my sister was still too young to take care of herself. so my brother and i kinda had to take over except my brother did not step up at all and used the freedom to sneak himself a phone, get social media (against my mothers rules at the time) and i ended up basically being a single mother to my little sister in 4th grade

i’d make sure she showered, i’d make her dinner and lunch box, i’d make sure she got her homework done and check it before bed and i’d make sure she gets dressed in the morning and make her breakfast— my mom knew i was doing all this but also assumed he was helping, he was not

on top of that my mom got stressed about the house being clean and so i took on a lot of those responsibilities as well! i was in a really bad place and i felt like if i wasn’t useful enough then my family wouldn’t love me anymore so i tried to take on any responsibility i could.

by sixth grade i was still taking care of my sister but i also started sweeping and mopping the house, doing all the dishes aside from his, and the laundry

so i kinda blame him for me not getting a childhood and all this happened before “ran away” on my list (it’s chronological)

so then there’s everything that happens afterward. and my mom recently decided to get in touch with him and make my sister and i hang out with him every weekend… just with everything completely forgiven

and it pisses me tf off because i wasted a lot of my childhood because of him meanwhile he got to live his life AND be the problem child. and my mom currently treats him better than she treats me so it feels like i wasted my whole fucking life for her approval when apparently all i needed was to be a royal fuck up to get it!

i’m going to fucking college because it’s what she wants meanwhile he’s a dropout with no intentions to go to college

he brags about all his friends— how some of them have been to jail, are accused sexual and physical abusers and she feels BAD for him???? and then get MAD at me for not wanting to be around him.

so she says she’ll hangout with him one on one if it bothers me so much (she said it so fucking sarcastically tho) but now i’m like… so you’re choosing him over us?? after everything we’ve done to make your add happy. my sister and i clean the house almost everyday trying to keep her happy

my poor sister knows how to pour alcohol so that it doesn’t foam because she does it for my mom just to keep her happy. like it’s all so fucked up

sorry for my LONG ASS rant guys ily all for giving my a little safe space

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #but yeah!!! 😀 #so so so girlhood #girl vs mother #a tale as old as time #so coquette #🎀 #luvr mother diaries #my sister is the only good one in my family fr #and that’s cus i raised her

[enarei]

I didn't speak to my father at all for the better part of 5 years, and then when I did for the first time, after being outed against my will to him. he attempted to leverage that to force me to be closer to him again. which I don't think is innately cruel, I mean, it's hard to draw a line between coercion and just hanging a prize in front of their eyes, at least in your view. but this was funny to me because the first thing he said to me, as I'd been outed, after ignoring him for the past half decade, was send me an email calling me a stupid person for thinking I could become a woman. I'd dropped out of school and he tried to condescend me with a biology lesson by explaining what chromosomes are. it was something like 4 paragraphs long, and actually fairly well written for the most part. you could tell he really put effort into it. which I think is amazing just in the face of still being the most unecessarily cruel thing to say to someone you're attempting to reconnect with. but like. yeah.

I basically said this to him, and continued to ignore him, to which he eventually relented. the next time he tried to contact me, around 2018, when I was trying to get on hormones, he started telling me about this sex reassignment surgeon he'd met in the next state over, and how he was convinced I could move to their like, in-patient clinic and do an interview with other transsexuals (he specifically used that word instead of the much more common travesti or just trans) to hopefully have *the surgery* by the end of the year. I hadn't even started hormones at that point. I didn't even like, ever talk about any of this with him, he just decided I wanted a pussy and he was going to reconnect with his stupid dropout son by giving him one. think this was one of the very first in person conversations we had that wasn't just like, arguing about the reason we were estranged, actually.

I just think it's funny because like. it's not necessarily wrong to assume a trans person wants to change their genitals, sex reassignment was probably the most popular form trans women (or trans people in general) took in mainstream discourse that wasn't inherently mocking of us after all. but for how curious he is with other things he took so little interest into why I was doing this. why would someone that was raised as a male choose not to behave as a male anymore, at least in some contexts, when it is so very humiliating and frowned upon. you know? I feel that if I met someone who just completely disregarded rules that exist in society, rules that I didn't even fully understood could be broken, and I was like, willing to compromise on my instict to be prejudiced against them, because I really want them in my life, I would at least remain a little curious about it. cause we speak now. we've spoken for almost three years at this point. and not once has he asked me a single question about it.

I don't know. my parents weren't very religious and although I deeply hated both of them for completely disregarding my bodily autonomy in different ways, I expected more of a disruption from finding out their child is transgender. because I was still implicated in all this shit growing up. I was still, not physically violently, but still very sternly, steered towards not acting too effeminately in front of other people, I was told to dress a certain way, and the fact other parents would freak out when I hung out with their daughters was never met with much empathy for me. this is just like, a problem, but it's uniquely just my problem, which has now been solved, and everything else is fine. "cis children", like my brother, grow up in a completely normal environment, the way one of two mutually exclusive identities is imposed on them from birth doesn't have longstanding implications on their psyche, their ability to express certain things, to not become suicidal. it is not strange to them that they're treated in starkly different ways, for being men or women. or even that they felt compelled to get married when my mother got pregnant, that divorcing was impossible and put immense strain on both of them. somehow none of those things are really problems to be examined under the same lens as your son becoming your daughter, even though they complain about it a lot. it's just incredible to me how a group of people can be so clueless and uninquisitive about what's going on around them. perhaps cis people aren't cis because they're not trans. it's just a label for people that are fucking stupid.

[lecomtedelafere]

btw like. the brainwashing done by the israeli state is not limited to israelis themselves. birthright and 'right to return' is a settler colonialist tactic that's pumped into jewish children all over the world. i was getting this when i was in the single digits. we are trained out of local jewish dialects and into israeli hebrew, with the end goal of our jewish education being to go to israel, hopefully to stay. on top of all our community accomplishments is that goal: go to israel. i was a little hebrew school dropout but that didn't spare me from the muck. for years i believed that israel only ever acted in self-defense. my mother believes this, though she can't deny what's happening now and has switched to being 'pro-civilian' and anti-israeli government. some of my concerns are still valid, such as where arab jews would go upon the dissolving of israel, but that is a concern that can exist simultaneously to the need to dissolve israel, and i can also not pretend that mizrahi jews were ever treated as more than second class citizens by the state. israel as a nation does not care for arab jews and would rather import white jewish children from america and europe.

our local languages are dying. yiddish is frowned upon by hebrew-speakers, ladino and other jewish languages even more so, but my personal experience is with yiddish. they do not want a diverse global jewish population, they want israel with a unified language and unified ethnicity, which necessitates stomping out anything that isn't that.

a lot of jewish people around you right now may be struggling to unlearn what they have learned in the face of this. i urge you not to dogpile them if they're taking steps towards pro-palestinian thought, because it is far better to have them break out of the mindset that was taught to them than to drive them back into it for not knowing to begin with. let the pro-palestinian ranks swell and israel's chokehold on global jewry dissipate.

[queen-of-bel]

What do you think makes Izaya who he is?

my fave character of ever.. i actually moved cities a little bit ago and i didn't bring my novels with me, so i don't have direct quotes, but i will try my best to remember which novels stated what

I think there are five major things that influence Izaya's personality:

1. His parents were neglectful, which meant he had to essentially raise both himself and his sisters. It went about as well as you'd expect it to, and Izaya carries guilt over how his sisters turned out. He never got the support he wanted from his family, and he's pretty good at hiding how that's affected him, but there was an interesting scene at the end of... volume 9? Where Mairu and Kururi say that they'd be just a little sad if he died, and Izaya says something along the lines of "for once, you guys are saying things that make me happy to hear instead of your usual greeting of telling me to die".

2. Building on that, Izaya doesn't really know how to interact with people in general. A large reason is because he is actually just... really fucking weird. He likes to project this image of him being a diabolical mastermind who has everything under control, but that's far from true. He's charismatic enough to trick people into thinking that, but it's actually really easy to deal with Izaya. Just tell him he's full of shit lmao. Shinra says that he's a grown man who never grew out of the "middle schooler playing make-believe" mentality, and I don't think there's a better way to put it than that.

3. He's got a huge fear of death. Between meeting up with suicidal people to understand how the hell someone can actively want death, his "forever young" mindset, and trying to wake up Celty's head because he wants to know if there's an afterlife, death is something he fears greatly and his quest to find some kind of answer or sense of peace with the idea of death really motivates his actions throughout the novels.

4. The man drowns in self-loathing. Tsukumoya heavily implies that Izaya doesn't like himself, and there's plenty of moments in the novel that confirm that. He's a really lonely person, becoming upset when he doesn't get invited to parties, and hates holidays because he's jealous that everyone else has someone to spend it with. Of course, this loneliness is largely his own fault because again, he's a fucking freak. He is actively antagonistic and pushes people away because he's too scared to get hurt, probably going back to point 1 about him never having a proper support system. But of course, when you act like that, no one is gonna want to talk to you!!

It doesn't help that the ones Izaya considers "monsters" have a healthy and and thriving social life. If the monsters are able to have friends and Izaya isn't, then what does that make Izaya?

5. Alright, the biggest event that shaped Izaya's personality. Shinra's stabbing. Izaya may have been a weird kid, but that's nothing compared to whatever the hell Shinra was on. Izaya envied Shinra and tried to emulate him in a lot of ways, including adopting Shinra's twisted definition of "love".

When Shinra got stabbed, all Izaya wanted was to make Nakura pay. He had no idea that the school would sweep the stabbing incident under the rug. He very easily could have been expelled, and forced to become a dropout. Instead, he instinctively pushed through with this insane plan to take the fall for Nakura, and in exchange, make Nakura’s life a living hell and spend every day regretting what he did.

Like ?? What the fuck!! What kind of child does this!!

It's Izaya's one-sided friendship with Shinra that gives us the biggest glimpse into his true personality. Izaya can be very loyal and selfless to people he cares about. Izaya pretended to not care about Shinra’s condition after Adabashi attacked him, but only as “payback” for how coldly Shinra treated him after he was stabbed. Izaya couldn’t help but still care for Shinra, using Ran and Mikage to knock out Adabashi, break his leg, and bring him back to Izaya’s apartment, where he remained imprisoned for days.

But Izaya also really fucking sucks. His intentional detachment from everyone else also means that he has no real sense of empathy and he doesn't care about how his actions affect others.

He's really delusional, never coming to accept the fact that Shinra is not a friend of his. Shinra treated Izaya as a stepping stone to get closer to Celty, and I think Izaya knew that deep down but never wanted to admit it. He sadly comes to the conclusion that Shinra can't be considered his "best friend" anymore after he gets stabbed, to which Mikage points out that Shinra can't be considered a friend at all.

I think ultimately, Izaya is just the product of a bad environment and extremely self-destructive behaviors. He's certainly not the most morally bankrupt character in the series, but there is a lot wrong with him.

#answered #durarara #izaya orihara

[nalia-tsukino]

Shinji Homura

Name: Homura Shinji

Kanji: 炎 シンジ

Mother: Homura Natsumi 

Stepfather: Homura Shinjiro (née Tanaka)

Biological father: Hoshino Yamato

Younger sister: Homura Tamaki (3 years younger than Shinji, deceased at the age of 18)

Wife: Homura Himiko (née Kitsui)

Best friend: Tsukino Yuuto

Age: 26

Birthday: May 18th

Zodiac sign: Taurus

MBTI type: ESFP

Blood type: AB

Height: 180 cm

Gender: Male

Pronouns: He/him

Sexuality: Pan

Race: Kitsune (Yako)

Nationality: Japanese

Place of birth: Demon World

Current city: Kaminashi City

Voice actor: Imai Fumiya

Fragrance: Woody (Jil Sander Sun Men shower gel with notes of bergamot, flowers and musk)

History

When Shinji was born, everyone assumed that he is the biological son of Shinjiro. Only later it will come out that Yamato is his true biological father. This fact will make Shinjiro his stepfather.

Shinjiro doesn't have a bad position in society. To maintain the good reputation he does everything possible and is very strict with the family.

However, Shinjiro wants an even better position. He hoped to achieve this through an arranged marriage. So he hates the fact that his firstborn is a boy and shows this openly. He treats Shinji badly and beats him for every possible reason.

When Shinji's sister Tamaki was born, she was the great hope. An engagement was immediately arranged for her.

Tamaki didn't want to marry someone who she didn't love. She rebelled and let herself be seduced by a vampire. When Shinji found out, he tried to save his sister. But he came too late.

Due to his grief and anger, Shinji attacked the vampire without thinking further. He was in a state of emotional emergency. Suddenly his green flames turned black and he was able to kill the vampire with ease. There were no witnesses to this result and Shinji became a little scared of himself. Out of fear of possible consequences, he hid the fact with the changed fire color. He kept this secret until today. No one knew about it except Yuuto.

Shinjiro blamed Shinji for Tamaki's death and said hurtful words to him: "Why did she die and not you? No one would miss you. You destroyed my hopes."

However, Shinjiro didn't want to give up and decided to have another daughter.

Shinji was disgusted by the thought and decided to stop Shinjiro's plan. Since he achieved nothing in the Yako Realm, he sneaked into the Human World and looked for a way to prevent a new pregnancy among the Zenko. Unfortunately, the Zenko didn't help him, but he found a small group of dropout Yako that sold him pills to prevent a pregnancy. When Shinji returned to the Demon World, he brought the pills to his mother. She agreed with Shinji's idea and has been taking the pills regularly ever since.

Since Natsumi didn't get pregnant Shinjiro looked for an alternative, but he didn't achieve anything.

A few years later and some time after Yuuto's escape, Shinjiro found a fool who made a deal with him. Without Shinji's consent, he arranged an engagement with his deal partner's daughter.

Like his sister, Shinji didn't want to marry someone who he didn't love. Desperate for a way out, he tried to run away, but Shinjiro was clever and prevented his escape to the Human World. Natsumi asked him to accept the engagement and get married. Reluctantly, he was willing to grant his mother's wish.

Frustrated about Shinjiro's latest plans and Yuuto's current serious relationship, he was looking for distraction and began a fling with a man. It turned out that his lover was his fiancée's brother. When his fiancée's father found out, he broke the engagement.

Shinjiro was so furious about the cancellation that he once again beat Shinji and then threw him out of the house and banished him from the Demon World.

In order to bring the pills to his mother, Shinji sneaked secretly into the Demon World every now and then.

He found a job in the Human World as a caretaker. His boss, the landlord of the apartment complex, allowed him to live in a small, old house which is nearby his workplace.

Due to struggling with his new life and because he felt lonely, Shinji lost control over energy snatching and became hooked to energy. He started to fight against the addiction and decided not to have any more sexual encounters with humans in the future.

When Shinji once again sneaked into the Demon World to bring his mother the pills, he was caught by Shinjiro. Now Shinjiro found out everything about the plan to prevent pregnancy and freaked out. He and a few other relatives beat up Shinji very badly. They threw him almost half-dead through a portal into the Human World and they threatened him with death if he dared to come back. Afraid of losing her son, Shinji's mother begged him to obey and never return. Badly injured, he managed to call Yuuto and ask for help.

After his recovery, Shinji made plans to save his mother. But again and again there were delays until the plan was perfect and could be executed.

During the planning phase, Shinji met Himiko. Because of Shinji's bad experience, the beginning of the relationship was almost over before it had even really started. But the two made it and are very happy now.

After the successful rescue of Natsumi, Shinji tried to give her a good start in her new life in freedom.

A while later, Shinji found out that Natsumi had a serious relationship before her marriage to Shinjiro. Since Shinjiro wanted to marry Natsumi at that time, he tricked Natsumi's boyfriend Yamato and caused his banishment from the Demon World. It turned out that Yamato is the head of the dropout Yako group. Now Shinji understood why Yamato was willing to help with the rescue of Natsumi. After all these years, the two can finally have a relationship and be happy. 

Natsumi and Yamato were hesitant first, but then revealed that it's possible that Yamato is Shinji's biological father. Together they decided to find out the truth and took a DNA test. The test result confirmed that Yamato is Shinji's biological father.

Appearance

Shinji has orange-red hair and his eyes are amber-yellow.

He is tall and skinny. Still, he has a decent amount of muscles.

He has 3 ear piercings (2 on his left ear and 1 on his right ear). The stud earrings are a gift from his sister and he never takes them off.

Shinji's fur is orange-red. His tail tips, paws and his chest area is yellowish.

He has 3 tails.

His foxfire is green, but it can turn black.

Personality

Actually, Shinji is rather soft but he doesn't show it. For this Shinjiro is partly to blame.

Shinji was a sensibel child and he liked to cuddle with his mother and sister. In Shinjiro's eyes cuddling and being soft were unmanly and a sign of weakness. So he ordered him to become harder and forbade him to cuddle.

However, Shinji couldn't change his nature and cuddled with his mother and sister secretly.

Since his childhood he pretends to be rough on the outside. But inside it looks different. He yearns for gentle affection.

Later he started to compensate the missing love and affection with the kick of energy snatching.

To this day he hasn't overcome the loss of his sister. That's why he developed a fear of losing someone. When Yuuto left the Demon World, he freaked out. It was only through the support of his mother that he could gathered himself and moved on.

He is a hothead.

Skills

Shinji can call and control his foxfire perfectly by will.

He has the rare skill that his fire changes color. However, he can't control this. It simply happens under intense feelings and emotional stress. With the altered flames, he is even able to kill vampires. The ability to change the color of fire was common among the very first Kitsune, no matter whether Yako or Zenko. Over centuries and with the circulation of the Kitsune, this characteristic was lost more and more. Only the heirs of the very first Kitsune's bloodline own it. However, not every of them who carries it is able to use it. Strong feelings and emotions are necessary triggers.

He can change his form partly or completely by will.

He can walk into dreams.

He can seperate his star pearl, but never does it.

Since his foxfire appeared Shinji trained very hard to impress Shinjiro and make him proud. However, Shinjiro didn't care about his skills and the amount of his tails.

Shinji can cook simple dishes that his mother taught him secretly.

He can dance.

He can draw, but never does it.

He is talented in crafts.

He can carve wood.

Relationships

Shinji made his first experiences with a man. With him he had a serious but short relationship. When he dropped his shell and showed his softer side, his first love broke up with him. He began to wonder if Shinjiro was right about unmanliness. So he decided not to show his soft side to anyone anymore.

Shinji told Yuuto what happened. Since that day Yuuto knows about Shinji's soft side but has never seen it.

When Shinji was heartbroken, Yuuto tried to distract him with buddy activities. Yuuto's caring is the reason why Shinji developed feelings for him.

Since Yuuto never showed that kind of interest and because he was afraid of being hurt again, he never told Yuuto about his feelings. Also, he wanted to protect the friendship.

After this experience, he had only flings and one-night stands. On the one hand because of what happened with his ex and on the other hand because of his feelings for Yuuto.

When he had chosen a sex partner he played the Big Bad Fox and showed no feelings except lust. Because of this he got involved with the wrong partners. But he couldn't see his mistake here.

Secretly, he yearned for gentle affection, cuddling and love.

After finding his true love Himiko, he made it difficult for himself. His past and experiences were to blame. It took him a while to understand what he was doing wrong. At the moment he finally opened his eyes, he dropped his shell and showed his true self.

Shinji is a very caring partner.

He is gentle and touchy and yearn for soft attention. At every possible opportunity he takes Himiko in his arms, kissing and stroking her lovingly.

But Shinji is also passionately. He likes to show that he wants Himiko and only her.

Unlike in the past when he was dominant, he is a switch now.

He likes gentle and rough sex.

Likes

Dishes with meat

Vanilla ice cream

Beer and coffee

Board games

Video games

Parties

Listening to music

Dislikes

Dominant and aggressive people

Life according to Yako rules

Vampires

Reading books

Art made by @cutelih

Sprite made with Picrew

Shinji Homura, Shinjiro Homura, Natsumi Homura, Tamaki Homura and Yamato Hoshino belong to @nalia-tsukino

Himiko Homura and Yuuto Tsukino belong to @yuriko-mukami

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REBLOG IS ALLOWED AND WELCOME~

#shinji homura #shinji's bio #shinji's characteristic #shinji's history #shinji's headcanons #my characters #original characters #nalia-tsukino

[gritsandbrits]

The Reason You Suck Speech ~ Sentinel Prime Edition.

After being fed up with the way Optimus Prime gets treated by his so-called friend, GritsandBrits finally reads Sentinel the riot act. Sentinel Prime Bashing, Optimus Defense Club. Warning for any Sentinel stans this is very negative towards him and tbh he needed that.

Tv Tropes: Someone delivers a speech to another character on all the reasons why that other character sucks or is a horrible person. There are several contexts in which this can happen.

In this context, it's giving 10yo me the chance to finally say what she wanted to say about Sentinel. He may have gotten off easy in canon but we aren't in canon are we? 

Okay. I have had enough of you badmouthing Optimus! Now I'm not saying he's perfect - who gives a damn! Perfection is boring and the way I see it trying to achieve it only leads to more problems! And I have never seen a more clear example than you Sentinel Prime! You like to rub everyone else's failures in their faces yet do nothing to help them grow. You strut around like Primus's given gift to the universe expecting people to like you yet barely have a good word to say about anyone. Even the few bots who do give a damn about you you treat with contempt.

The show may have let you off the hook then but it's been over for twelve years now and nothing is holding me back from calling you out. Even years later I'm still mad no one actually called out you for being an asshole, save for that one time Optimus told you to take your attitude and stuff it. That part made me laugh. And deserved.

You went around making everyone feel bad about themselves. You nearly put your own team in danger when you bribed Decepticons, said an ageist statement towards your boss In the Almanac, and would've endangered both planets has that fourth season been made! All the hurt you caused you got away with it... Not this time! Nobody ever talked to you like that? Good. Perk up those antennae I got more. 

You are part of one of the most powerful defenders in the universe. You are a candidate for what is the most powerful position on your planet. You're like almost royalty to your people yet here you are acting like you part of a school clique talking shit about people behind their backs. Ever since you came to earth you been carping and sniping at Optimus more than usual. For what? Because he's a college dropout? Or is it because he made something of himself with being a dropout and without you! Him being happy ticks you off, so you gotta cling on to what little control you have left by undermining his work. Bad enough he had to drop his things to bail you out and having to waste precious time and energy foolin' up with you!

His job was to maintain the space bridges not be your personal lapdog! Just because he's a janitor doesn't give you the right to make messes for him on purpose. It's basic courtesy. Then again, you wouldn't understand courtesy if it hit you in the chin!

It's not just the way you treat Optimus it's also how you treat everyone else. You make fun of Bee and Bulkhead, they told me about how you were at boot camp by the way. You pick on Jazz and the Twins for expressing interest in our planet. You even had the gall to insult Prowl's memory when he was the one who gave his life to save Earth AND your world! If not for him you wouldn't be here now bullying the way you do. 

Yeah I said it! You're a bully! A prime bully who throws tantrums when he doesn't get his way. Who likes to make everyone else miserable! Who bullied his way into positions of power! We're all happy and content with our lives with all its faults and follies and fun and freakiness. Even you with your lack of courtesy, we still accept you, so why can't you accept us? Do you have to destroy everyone to make your life worthwhile? The worse part is you don't own up or express remorse. Rather, you blame other people for suffering the consequences of YOUR actions!

You complained about Optimus lying to you about Miss Spider, well what about the other times he told you the truth? When he warned you about the Decepticons' presence on Earth, or Wasp's innocence, or organics not being a threat, all you said was: you're lying, I don't believe you, you're just a dropout, arrest them all! Not a 'let's settle down and figure this out together', nope! Just straight up threatened them with prison! He tries to be honest with you but you refuse to hear him out! 

You complain about a lack of communication but how can we when you go around insulting everyone! The rare times you do speak positively it always come out so backhanded, like you have to point out something negative no matter how inconsequential it is. Everyone's forced to walk on eggshells around you. Why? Because we know you got a negative remark loaded on your tongue. That and you like to brag. Loose lips sink ships as they say.

And back on lying, honey he never lied to you. If anything he was protecting you! He didn't want to hurt the both of you so he had to make a hard decision at the cost of his own wellbeing. When you did learn the truth, instead showing the poor thing a bit of compassion, you tell her that she was better off dead! What is that to say about someone? Especially someone who was your girlfriend? 

She probably didn't have much of a choice, and you know good and well how slick Megatron is! But besides that, you were hurt yes, but you have the time to seek closure. Instead you denied your ex a chance to heal from her traumas. You continue using Optimus's own trauma against him.

You plot and scheme to further your ambitions not caring who gets hurt. You try to inflict trauma on every organic on this Earth. Tell me, are we really a threat? Or are you just venting your anger over not being told about Blackarachnia? Given your past behavior I would not be surprised if it ends up being the latter. 

That's another thing every time you faced with a difficult situation you immediately lash out. Optimus has been your biggest victim. When it's not dumping your the responsibility on him, it's sneering or picking on him. You ever stopped to think how Optimus might've felt? The guilt he feels over not saving her? The fear that someone could hurt her, or that she might hurt innocent beings. How he has to shoulder not just his own grief but yours as well. How he has to deal with your hatred. 

You say you don't haye him yet that doesn't stop you from treating him like a tool. Do you ask him how he feels? Did you offer him comfort in his time of need? Or are you the only one ever allowed to feel sad? Maybe you can learn his side of the story if you bothered to give him a chance! You claim it's too late for apologies but the thing is, that's not a reason for you treating everyone like junk. When others make mistakes they at least try to fix them, or move on and take steps to do better in the future. Even if it's not verbal, there's other ways to apologize and grow. 

You could've worked with Detroit. You could stop calling Optimus that awful name. You could've open you heart - excuse me - your SPARK to others and learn about our planet. Sure you can't change the past but that don't mean you can work on yourself now. Everyone even in the fandom been nothing but patient and kind to you, and you returned it with spite. You can't fathom being happy with yourself so you hafta drag everyone down with you. 

But yet Despite all the garbage you hurl at Optimus you know he never spoke badly about you? Sure an exasperated sigh here and there but never slander. He never went out of his way to hurt your career, hell he gave up his future for you! Yet you still treat him like a threat to the point of attacking his teammates to get at him. All the harm you've inflicted on him, he still helps you out! He could've left you at the mercy of Headmaster but helped you get your body back. He could've let you get killed or hurt but he comes to your aid like a real friend should. He saw something worth salvaging.

Are you willing to toss all that away for temporary catharsis? 

You let one tragic mistake sour your worldview so you project that onto others. They make a mistake you don't give them grace. You don't give it yourself. You expect everyone else to think and act exactly like you, selfish and mean, yet you see the opposite. Bee and Bulkhead try new things and has hobbies. Jazz plays our music, Ratchet studies our medicine, Prowl loved our wildlife, and Optimus loves everyone. Even you, you hateful self-centered jerk. He cares so much about you though I can't see what it is that makes you worth saving. 

Every day they go out to help the city not expecting to be rewarded or even thanked, but because it's the right thing to do. Meanwhile you're just standing around huffing and puffing, refusing to lend a hand. Stubbornly clinging on to that cynical mindset that being flawed is inherently evil and that nobody can be good. We fought things bigger than you, yet you treat us like a bunch of idiots who don't know anything no it's you who don't know anything! But even those aren't a good enough reason to carry on acting like that.

Your whole life has been challenged, and now that everyone seen you for the sad, scared soul you truly are, they stopped entertaining you. You lied to yourself, you're stuck with that lie and nobody is around for you to dump your frustrations on.  You can't keep living off lies you know. You can't force everyone else to live in them either.

Now I know what I just said won't get you to change your mind and honestly, I've stopped waiting for you to have an epiphany a long time ago. It's clear you're content with the path you're going down but you will have to walk it alone. The rest of us will continue to enjoy ourselves. We'll love our flaws and freaky grossness. You? You be all alone with only your crown for company. It's sad it has to be that way. But I hope you take it as the time to reflect on the choices you've made and will make. That when you do eventually become the Primer Prime, those choices had better be worth it. 

#transformers animated #fanfiction #tfa #character bashing #sentinel prime bashing #optimus prime defense club! #tw long post #transformers #tfa fanfic #rant #basically EVERYTHING i wanted to say to this dude for 17 years #fuck sentinel #he really did not deserve Optimus; and optimus deserved better #tropes #tv tropes #the reason you suck speech #bashfic #self insert

[thebreakfastgenie]

one 🔥 for mash, one 🔥 for tww

These won't be new because I post my unpopular opinions all the time lol but

MASH:

There is a very obvious "king of repression" in MASH. It's Margaret. Margaret struggles to admitting she's feeling anything or experiencing negative effects from the war to anyone. If there is anyone Sidney is dying to put under a microscope, it's her, although I don't think he sees any of them that way; they're his friends and he likes being able to help them, they're not lab rats. Margaret has an entire conversation with Sidney wherein she's denying feeling anything at all, while expressing sublimated rage, and basically projecting, as she's trying to offer him advice. In fact, rage is one of the few emotions she ever feels comfortable expressing. One of the only people who can get past her walls is Hawkeye, and in Comrades in Arms she even falls back on rage with him.

Margaret's second conversation with Sidney is mostly comic relief and unfortunately dominated by early installment weirdness Charles ship tease, but it goes very similarly. She makes claims about other people while seemingly unaware of her own feelings and behavior, and she yells a lot.

Margaret says she's not a very open person. We see her struggle to form relationships, including with the other nurses, because she is so closed off. She's lonely, but she pushes people away. It's hard for her to admit she wants or needs anything. She hates to show any kind of vulnerability.

And yet we can see Margaret be compassionate! With the other characters in the later seasons, and with the patients throughout. She does acknowledge emotions, just not her own, because that would be too dangerous.

These are all traits you rarely get to see in a female character and I for one owe Loretta Swit my life.

In the spirit of the game, I'll get a little spicy:

I think the reason the fandom devotes so much time to the repressed BJ headcanon--which is just that, a headcanon-when Margaret is right there doing it in canon and gets very little attention is that people struggle to see female characters as complex. Emotional repression in particular tends to be associated with men; we see this all the time in society. This is not a problem specific to this fandom; it's a reflection of how we are taught to view women that manifests in every fandom. I do think Margaret is a prime example of it.

TWW:

I don't like Donna's arc in season 6. I think it loses sight of the foundation of the character, which is my criticism of a lot of seasons 5 and 6. I hate the "shallow girlboss feminism" critique, but if the shoe fits... We're supposed to believe Donna is overqualified for her position and Josh has been unfairly holding her back. This is simply not the case. There wasn't really a ladder for Donna to move up. She was very good at her job, so Josh had every professional reason to keep her.

None of the other assistants are portrayed as being treated unfairly. Mrs. Landingham, Debbie, Bonnie, Ginger, and Carol are all career assistants. That's a real job! Donna also has no formal qualifications and no relevant experience prior to the Bartlet campaign. The whole point of Donna was that this silly, slightly flaky young college dropout is actually extremely smart and capable. Donna not wanting to remain an assistant makes sense, but she wasn't wronged. The job offer she gets in season 4 is lucrative, but it's for a start-up, where formal qualifications are less important than in, say, the White House, and they're more free to emphasize her on-the-job experience. Donna getting as high a position she as she does on the Russell campaign is frankly absurd and in my opinion a product of it being a convenient way to have two main characters handle those campaign scenes.

Once Donna does get successful, she jettisons most of her personality in favor of being Competent and occasionally the only moral one (2162 Votes; Donna is the moral compass of the show but the way that was presented bugged me). And Josh was right, if a bit dramatic, when he said he was the victim. Donna quit without giving notice! That's pretty unprofessional! Donna was so full of shit when she accused him of keeping her in grunt-level servitude, when we've seen the responsibilities she's been given. And like... knowing how he liked his food was part of her job. It's uncomfortable to admit but Josh did give her a career. That doesn't mean she's beholden to him forever, but it happened. In Impact Winter, she never told Josh what the meeting she wanted to have was about or that it was important until the last minute. She also knows better than literally anyone that his meetings get rescheduled all the time because that's the White House, and him not prioritizing her meeting over various urgent situations is not personal. Maybe if the show had done a better job of showing him dismissing her and taking her for granted as an ongoing pattern I would buy it, but they didn't.

Even in the Josh/Donna resolution in season 7, Donna has to be Cool and Right even at the expense of making sense. Josh is the first one who brings up talking (and even indicated he wanted to way back in Election Day, which she ignored), but we're supposed to believe it's a sign that he's panicking about commitment when he doesn't want to do it while badly jet-lagged? It's all the tables have turned, Josh is pining for Donna, until Donna's the one setting deadlines. All in all it made the character much less enjoyable for me and unintentionally sent the message that women can't have personality and success. Iirc, CJ gets a lot less fun material once she becomes chief of staff, too.

#mashposting