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skyeslittlecorner · 2 months

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Okay I know it's too too late now... but can we have some scenarios about the kings (maybe Lucifer and your fav nobles too pls) reactions when receiving Valentines gifts from MC plssss 🫶

Don't worry, anon! We're between Valentine's Day and White Day, so it's the perfect time for some romance~

This is my first time writing for Luci. I can't wait until we finally see him in the game and I can add him to the royal team permanently.

꧁:･ ✡ ･:꧂

Satan doesn't pay much attention to such occasions, so when you approach him and give him chocolates, it's a surprise for him. Very nice one. It's actually obvious that you chose him, after all, he is your boyfriend a demon with whom you signed a contract. Get ready for a deep kiss of thanks and to be pampered even more than usual throughout the day. You will feel his true gratitude at night, where thanks to his excellent mood you may even try to gain some dominance.

Mammon is curious about where you're taking him, why he has to keep his eyes closed, and what that mysterious gift you mentioned is. When you take off his blindfold and he sees the chocolate fountain in front of him, he bursts into laughter. What generosity! He will take you in his arms so you can dip your fingers at the very top of the fountain. Of course, you won't try it yourself, and he will gladly lick the chocolate running down your arm.

Beelzebub examines the strange chocolate you prepared for him. It seems fragile on the outside, but inside it is full of a thick cocoa, liquid mass. A half-smile appears on his lips. Did you do it on purpose? He already knows how he wants to try it. You will be dragged to the nearby club. Beel will lay you on the table, break the chocolate and pour the cocoa mass on your cleavage. He refuses to taste it any other way than from your body.

Leviathan was expecting to get something from you, so he becomes more irritated as time passes. When you finally come in the evening, he looks like he's about to hang someone. Only when you explain to him that you had to finish your chocolates and show him the tiny works of art wrapped in fancy paper you will be spared. Paper with roses… were you and Barbatos wrapping them? Bingo, he has a prey to hang. He'll try one, but you can't tell from his face if he likes it. And as punishment for coming so late, you have to spend your entire night in his coffin.

Lucifer is a devil who is hard to read, but you feel like you saw him smiling under his breath. He just connected the facts. So that's why you came to him yesterday with a burnt hand? Were you careless when making him a gift? He will thank you and kiss the poor fingers that sacrificed itself for him. On the one hand, he would rather you not hurt yourself and be more careful. On the other hand, your eyes sparkled with tears so beautifully when you came to him asking for help... If you really want to make him happy, be like that again.

You invited Sitri into the kitchen to help you prepare chocolates for the others, so he knows exactly what you're planning. But he didn't expect he'd get some himself. When you hand him the hand-wrapped tea biscuits, he looks completely moved. Of course, now you both have to try them out. You will spend a lovely evening drinking tea, just the two of you, in the palace garden (sometimes disturbed by explosions from somewhere in the city).

Amon has an expression like a surprised pikachu, but a hundred times cuter. How so? Is this for him? Chocolates you made yourself? No one had ever done something so intimate for him. He will be touched both because you chose him and because he will remember how Beelzebub gave him a cookie and saved his life. Prepare for tears and feeding each other.

At first, Andrealphus doesn't understand why you put a cardboard box in his hands, and what does this have to do with Valentine's Day. He knows that lovers and friends exchange chocolates on this day, but he himself never did it. A whole life spent alone is not conducive to cultivating such customs. He will smile warmly hearing your stressed gibberish, and tell you to relax. It will be difficult to go to a café together without spreading panic, but what about going for a walk?

PS. If you would like more Valentine's Day headcanons, let me recommend @sulumuns-dootah works! They are wonderful. Here is a link to Gehenna demons, but there are more, check it out~

#whb #what in hell is bad #skye's little talk #whb satan #whb mammon #whb beelzebub #whb leviathan #whb lucifer #whb sitri #whb amon #whb andrealphus

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steamberrystudio · 5 months

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19/11/2023

Hey everyone! Time for the bi-weekly tumblr update for Steamberry stuffs!

Summary

Finished writing all routes up through the end of chapter 9

Started working on editing for now

Added in-game achievements

Received some new BG art

Ramble

Okay, so writing-wise, I wrote Yren's content up through the end of chapter 9. Also revamped my end-route summaries for Yren and Raif.

The current word count is 426,000 words.

But I decided to hold off on finishing the endings for the four remaining routes. The main reason for this is that I have planned a lot of early-story changes that are going to shift the trajectory of the route endings. And I was really struggling with how to construct the route endings with those planned changes in a more nebulous state.

I usually try to avoid working out of order because I find it is not conducive to forward progress. But there are some points when you have to break the rules and go back to make important edits because you need them there in order to be able to move forward.

I'm kind of at that point.

So I decided I would fully edit Asher's route, which will allow me to inject all those planned changes into the story which will make it much easier to construct endings that call back to that earlier foreshadowing.

So writing-wise, that's what I've been doing this week. I am currently up to Chapter 6 in the edit (which means I'm a little less than half through the route).

Other Stuff:

I have received new BGs of course. Those are coming in at a fairly steady rate of 1.5 - 2 weeks each.

I also have decided to add in-game achievements to WSC. I've been thinking about it for a while but putting it off since I know that one more screen (like an achievements gallery) means more tweaks to the UI. But I finally sucked it up and did it anyway.

I've also been playing with a colour slider for Wil's sprite. I'm not going to go into detail about it here because I've talked about it more in depth on Patreon and will continue to post most of the details there.

But the idea is that instead of choosing from 3 skin tones and 2 hair colours, there would be colour sliders allowing for a much greater range of selection. One of the big concerns with colour sliders is whether or not the recolours can be made to look as good as recolouring manually - which has always been why I've stayed away from them.

The more complex shading styles have always struggled with colour sliders. But a developer friend - Feniks - has made a really cool and dynamic shader that actually can recreate even painterly or non-outlined art styles with incredible accuracy.

Using a slider is really useful because it increases the variations the player gets while *reducing* my work load. Instead of having to recolour manually, I would actually only need to colour everything once in grey scale.

Of course, it's not as easy as just dumping in the code and art. It requires some experimentation and learning but right now it is looking like I will be able to make it work. So I may be able to show off some examples in the future.

Screenshots:

None this time...

Upcoming Weeks:

I am currently editing Chapter 6 of asher/common routes and there are some pretty substantial edits I have to make.

It's always tricky to estimate what I will get done editing wise because editing does not flow at a more or less even pace like writing. Chapter 5, 6, and 7 had (and will have) major updates and changes so it may take a while to get through them. Though I'm already through with Ch 5. So...that's one of three.

Anyway.

And I'm also working on the GS lore book, still (LoL. 🙃). Someone today reminded me that I still need to go through all the deleted content to see if anything is salvageable for the lore book too.

😭

Thank you so much to that person (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. And you need to answer for your crimes, my friend.) 👀

#gilded shadows #whenstarscollide #indie otome #amare game #devlog #updates

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vergess · 10 months

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you seem like a good person with genuinely nice intentions- i also find it really awful when people go "dont bully people because they COULD be autistic" instead of just saying "don't bully people." the idea that someone hates me, or thinks im cringe, but chooses not to be rude to me because i seem autistic to them is way more hurtful than them just bullying me... (obviously the ideal is for them to never bully anyone) and the argument that we shouldn't bully individuals with "childlike/cringe" interests because they might be autistic is really infantalizing, because it assumes that autism and having "childlike/cringe" interests are interlinked when i don't really think that's the case. (using childlike/cringe in quotes because i don't really believe any interests are childlike or cringe, just those are common descriptors used by people). again, you seem like you have really nice intentions, and i'm pretty sure we all agree, bullying is bad, it should never happen, but the idea of not bullying someone because they could be autistic is just harmful to the autistic community + doesn't stop bullying. have a wonderful night, im sorry for sending you an ask <3 im sure you'll get some hate so i wish you the best

Look, you also seem nice. You're the last ask that slid in under the wire before I turned them off completely due to the mass harassment.

That means you sent this before all the submissions and DMs once I turned asks off, where people started getting really fucking nasty. I am trying very hard not to hold those people against you, but it has been a long fucking day.

So, I'm trying my best here to be patient and kind when I write this essay, instead of just blocking or reporting you. You seem like you might be willing to listen. Even if you're not, your message makes a good starting point for me.

Because I have two major problems here.

1: Autism absolutely correlates with preferring media aimed at younger audiences.

This is not universal, and it's not because we're ~stupid~. It's nothing to do with """"mental age"""" or whatever trashfire talking points you've heard. You may recognize the more clinical terminology from diagnostics, even. It's a major identifiable symptom called "age-inappropriate interests and behaviours." (I personally prefer age-atypical; the current technical language is still, unfortunately, age-inappropriate.)

These age-atypical interests are caused by combinations of disability related factors including but not limited to:

Children's media has cleaner sound balancing with stronger dialogue tracks that make following the language easier. There also tend to be clearer pauses and tonal cues.

Children's media is often safely predictable in its outcome. Someone may die, but probably not the main hero, for example. This predictability is desirable for many autistic people in a hobby, as it limits distressors.

Language used tends to be plainer, with less reliance on quick flying quips that are hard to hear/read fast enough, or clever implications in screenplay. Many other autistic people love complex "adult" film specifically because they are fluent in screenwriting and enjoy exercising that fluency. Many more autistic people never learned screenplay fluently. Pretending that all autistic people have the same level of fluency in screenplay is not conducive to having a genuine conversation on this subject. All of this information and more is available to you it you associate yourself with non-verbal, less verbal, and intellectually disabled autistic people right here on tumblr.

Children's media is often translated into more languages than adult media, especially with dubbing. Being able to hear and read the dialogue simultaneously is a super basic access issue that autistic people are stuck fighting all the damned time, and kid's shows are some of the very few types of mass accessible pop art that actively enable that.

Speaking of mass access: children's media is often very easy to access, with a tendency towards being hosted on multiple stream sites, broadcasting in syndication, etc. This means more autistic people have access to it, and thus by simple numbers, more of them will enjoy it than niche artforms we are rarely allowed to interact with freely.

Media consumption more broadly is a desirable hobby for many autistic people because it can be done alone or with friends, as one's energy levels allow, and both forms can be similarly gratifying. This is a level of control over socialization that is very rare for most autistic people.

You'll also find trends of autistic people gathering around other subjects that have these qualities, not just children's media. Just off the top of my head, both kink and train collecting meet these standards, particularly as regards control, stressors, and access; both are also famous for being disproportionately autistic.

Indeed, this tendency to gather around accessible, controllable hobbies that can be engaged with alone or in small groups creates the very notion of "cringe."

People don't think watching kid's shows is bad in a vacuum: they think that autistic people are shameful, and thus anything we congregate around is shameful too. Including watching kid's shows.

Pretending that autistic people don't have an above average level of interest in media made for kids is nonsense. It's nonsense. It actively worsens everyone's perception of both the diversity of autistic experiences. You can claim that anti-bullying campaigns are bad for autistic people all you like, but no amount of research has ever or will ever back up that claim.

Either you are lying, or you have been lied to.

Autistic people are so well known for this that it's literally how we are identified socially AND diagnosed medically.

That's the reality.

No matter how much you hate it: other autistic people are still going to be drawn to hobbies you don't share, and they are still going to be abused for it. Including so-called """baby movies."""

Enjoying media you don't is not grounds to say that actually the abuse other people face is made up and doesn't need to be addressed.

Liking kid's shows is morally neutral.

You must acknowledge it as a morally neutral statement of fact, not an accusation of personal failing. Liking kid's shows is no better, no worse, no different from liking mid-16th century tapestry, or artsy experimental music from cities I've never heard of in countries I've never visited.

If you cannot even admit that all non-violent hobbies are equally legitimate, then we have no common ground upon which to continue a discussion.

As long as you operate under the presumption that any autistic who is less complex in their interests than you is not worth acknowledging, then you are not worth this discussion. You can try again when you've learned not to be pro-bullying.

Which brings me to

2: You are still, right now, loudly and proudly insisting that being anti-bullying is Bad Actually.

Once you've accepted the fundamentally morally neutral nature of being into something kinda "cringe," ask yourself why your reaction to anti-bullying campaigns rooted in that neutrality is to separate yourself from the other autistic people demanding to be treated with the basest level of human respect.

To then pass on blatant lies about those people (whether knowingly or by mistake), and claim that they are hurting themselves. To demand that those people "stop hurting themselves" by obeying your rules. Rules that, whether you wish to admit it or not, were very obviously made out of ignorance and will very obviously cause great harm.

Those lies are now fueling hatred of a damn anti bullying campaign. The single most milquetoast conceivable.

Furthermore, this is an anti bullying campaign modeled off some of the most successful abuse interventions for autistic people that have been studied to date. It is a campaign started by other autistic people to protect ourselves from the heaps of ableist abuse we receive daily.

And you loathe it enough to join this cavalcade.

But see: the anti bullying campaigns work. They save lives. They improve quality of life in every measurable field. And they have done for literally decades. This is a closed matter. A proven fact.

Whereas spreading misinformation about the diversity of autistic experiences actively worsens that quality of life. Another proven fact, actually.

Your choice is between a proven benefit to autistic people started by and for us. Or a proven detriment that causes huge amount of death in our community.

And right now, with all your genteel kindness, silk gloves and sweet honey? You've chosen "do the thing that makes autistic people suicidal". Worse, you've convinced yourself that this is a good thing. That increased suicidality and abuse benefits all autistic people because the method thereof happens to benefit you.

I don't know how you think it benefits you. Maybe it makes you feel safer in allistic society. Maybe it just boosts your ego with a rush of vicious justice serving glee. Probably it's something else entirely.

Whatever the reason, you've nevertheless chosen the second most common cause of death among autistic people ages 10-35 as the thing you want to support.

See, telling people not to be abusive shitheads because like 70% of their abuse is rooted in an unexamined hatred of disabled people is not """"shoving politics where it doesn't belong"""" or whatever else. It's identifying and acknowledging the root issue, and attempting to actively address it.

So, with all that out of the way:

WHY did you think sending me this misinformation would make me more sympathetic to the literally dozens of people who have done nothing but harass me for 13 fucking hours now?

#ActuallyAutistic #Autism and bullying #Autistic abuse #I'm not editing this anymore you get to live with the typoes

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artistic-writer · 8 months

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a year gone by

Many of you will know that for the last year or so, I have had very little, if any, fandom contact. I guess I should explain a little bit about what has been going down and what has kept me away.

My account would not let me in: And i am stubborn. So i stopped trying to get in. At the time i felt like the fandom was moving apart and I didn't want top to be apart of the he said she said that came along with it. I have seen a good number of new fandom members emerging, who are kind and loving and thoughtful on the Discord, and have made me want to come back.

Wilf: I got a second dog without realising the consequences of doing so and the impact it would have on my family. Wilf has his share of problems. He is my little ball of anxiety and I have been working through the many issues he has with him, but we are far from there yet. He is nearly 2 now <3

My health is in the tank: I have had several flare ups of my Fibromyalgia in the last few years, and many of them have made it difficult to sit still long enough. As you can imagine, this takes its toll on one's mental health. Yay having an illness that is worsened by inactivity. My nature is a little self destructive and i throw myself into work in order to forget about the pain, and that has led to severe fatigue, which in turn, is not conducive to writing or arting. I am sorry. Also, in April i had a work related accident where i thought i had just sprained my ankle, but as it turns out, i have detatched not one, but two ligaments, so am awaiting the outcome of will i/won't i need an operation? My appointment is in Dec.

I took up a hobby!: For nearly FOUR years I have been on the waiting list, trying to get into a dog sport called Flyball. FINALLY, my local team got back to us and Killian is running through their first course, and will hopefully be offered a place on the team! I have found a group of real human beings who 'get me' and so far, i am loving it!

I got a promotion at work: I am the boss now. for reals. i still cannot believe anyone would put me in charge of a team of people, but here we are. This eats up more of my time but also allows me to have a decent schedule - so should allow for more me time!

I went back to school: Obviously, not content with enough in my life, I enrolled on an Advanced Canine Behaviour Diploma course, for which i have a year to complete. I'm sure i can fit it in...somewhere. Collecting all the letters after my name, innit.

I work two jobs: 48 hrs a week in one job just wasn't enough, clearly. I am currently training with the Institute of Modern Dog Trainers (IMDT) and hope to become a fully accepted member at the satrt of next year. Their values align with everything i do in dog training, and although I currently offer 1-2-1's, classes, and such, I really want accolades that tell people I am the best. I currently work as a dog trainer Fridays, with the odd handstripping and groom thrown in between jobs.

My husband and I are working through some things: We are not actually married but it is easier to tell people we are rather than explain why we are not. We have had a very up-and-down few years, mainly because of miscommunication, but we are working through it because we are each other's soul mates. I would never want anyone else in my corner. maybe @hollyethecurious, but she's just there to hide the bodies. As such, we are making time for each other more, so I'll likely just be around in the evenings or weekends.

#life #about me #now you know

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sneezemonster15 · 11 months

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look at this 💀 what do u think about it? this person genuinely said the reason why sasuke's straight is bc of fake rumours made by little girls that happen with every popular kid at school 😭 she took it fr lmaooo

https://www.tumblr.com/kirinkarin/715752831201771520/dushman-e-jaan-yaoi-shippers-really-are-so?source=share

Lol, I have addressed her theories before. Read it here. It was a response to her response to my post.

She is just a nasty little homophobe, ignorant and real delusional to boot. Don't mind her too much, it would only give her more leverage. Just ignore her. She lies. A lot. To herself as well. And lies that can be caught so easily, a child can do it. Which is funny because, like the manga is right there for everyone to read. I can read it, she can too, so can everyone. We know what's been said and shown and how it's been said and shown, we know how to read. It's all there. And yet, she does selective reading and can't for the life of her, understand nuances that prove Sasuke and Naruto as gay lovers. She simply bypasses those because they don't serve her heteronormative purposes.

Basically like any other anti SNS female Sasuke stan who basically lusts after Sasuke, and conveniently ignores everything that indicates at Naruto and Sasuke's romantic relationship. She also has no idea about Japanese media, history, literature, sexual culture in Japan, or the process of writing a story. Everything that influences Kishi's storytelling. Facts are facts. One can't just unsee them, and if one is doing it anyway, well how can I take them seriously? Just an embarrassing, silly fangirl who cannot take constructive criticism, who can't be objective no matter what information she is given, and knowingly perpetuates dogma, bigotry and misinformation about sexuality and its portrayal in media, who also blocked me (as did all her cohorts) after I published my post about her. Even though I have never interacted with her blog. Or any other Sasuke stan for that matter. Lol. Maybe they just don't want me to see their content.

Just understand this, anyone who vehemently denies Sasuke and Naruto's romantic relationship or who makes it their life mission to prove Sasuke and Naruto as straight, is simply a homophobe. Bigots of the first order. They know it's romantic but their conditioning and prejudice stops them from being reflexive. Which they haven't been able to break, evidently. You can try to be reasonable but at the end of the day, they aren't here for logic or reason or the art of storytelling. They are here to write Sasuke het smut and self insert into any girl so they could have Sasuke fuck them in their imagination. The understanding that Sasuke is gay would not be conducive to their fapping. So they just bypass that altogether and spread misinformation and bigotry like they have done here.

#ask #anon #sasuke #honestly i consider anti sns sasuke stans who hate Sakura and Hinata in the same category as SS and NH stans #and sakura and hinata stans #they are all the same in the most important ways #homophobes

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natsmagi · 3 months

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i was typing this in the notes to an ask but it gogt waaaay too long lol sorry. prefacing it with you know i love your artwork & i have nothing against what you choose to draw. also possibly worded weird cus i didnt write it in the sense of talking only to you alone

there is certainly this conflict between artists as random individuals and artists as a collective when it comes to how to approach this issue… as a hobbyist you can draw whatever you like but also when you have trends like a lack of fatness thats going to be disheartening too. i think the answer is getting more people into making art (& like general societal change of course since its an issue baked into bigotry.)

because as much as i agree with the sentiment of "there is significant under representation of fat women" (or characters in general) at the same time fandom is a hobby space and i dislike the notion of badgering individual artists to draw any particular thing especially when the source material does not have that thing. if you are looking for artwork of fat women thats great but i would not ever recommend something like enstars that has 1. no fat characters and 2. no women, barring a few exceptions. i think expecting to find fanart of fat women from a source entirely composed of thin men is unrealistic, even with the relative popularity of femstars.

plus there are other complications such as the typical modern fandom f/f scene sometimes being very strict and even vicious at times with their standards of what's enough diversity or what content is appropriate. ive heard a lot of anecdotes about people who WERE contributing to these things but whom were still harassed or got threats from other users over it not being good enough, and that's just not conducive to creating the environment or diversity you want. nobody is going to want to be in a fandom space where they have to walk on eggshells all the time. and i bring this up because of how you were clearly harassed by randos. accusing you of misogyny or shaming other womens' bodies as being "unrealistic" is not the way to go

the only reasonable solution i can think of to this is, again, to just encourage more artists to start drawing in the first place, or even better start contributing yourself. individuals should have the freedom to draw what they like without getting flamed for it AND people should be able to see themselves represented in artwork. i would like to see some more fat characters too, this is definitely something ive thought about before myself

(personally all the fat people i draw are ocs or portraits of people i know that i dont want to post online but maybe if i get some inspiration i will draw the long-sought chubby mugi myself. i am not super interested in femstars though so whether or not itd actually be fem mugi is up in the air. but all the talking here about this topic has had me thinking about following my own advice and putting what i want to see into the world.)

OUGHH THESE ARE ALL GOOD POINTS!! and i agree! the main thing we should be doing is ENCOURAGING people to add more diversity, not harassing them into it! people who only draw for fun arent really obligated to draw anything outside of their comfort zone, which again is why i think its better to simply uplift the idea of trying out new things and new appearances that you dont often draw

theres also SO MUCH room for more femstars artists too! and like ive said before if you wanna see something done right you gotta do it yourself. and i kind of like that. i like that everyone gets to craft their own little femstars variant of the enstars cast, and you can make them look however you want! and honestly? you SHOULD! seeing personal touches to designs always brings me joy, so even if you dont feel very confident in your art, if you have a specific vision for a character that you want brought to life please go ahead and draw it!! (or if you really dont want to you can always commission someone)

i also wanna highlight one of ur last points too bc yea. its unfortunate but often times whenever i see someone try adding diversity to their art for the first time they end up getting flamed because its not an accurate depiction of what they were trying to represent. and that really sucks! obviously we should strive to have accurate representation, but if its an artist that hasnt tried their hand on it before, ESPECIALLY a beginner artist, we shouldnt flame them for it. rather we should educate them on what went wrong and how they can improve for the future. these are people who actually WANT and are TRYING to add diversity to their art, but because in animanga circles theres a lack of education on how to draw more diverse features of really any kind. which is why trying to educate is far better than shaming. because if you shame these artists theyre gonna be too scared to try again, giving us less diversity once more

so yes basically what im saying is i want us all to encourage diversity and to help each other out by sharing resources and tips when it comes to drawing it!! one person is Obviously not gonna be able to do every single thing, which is why i want more people to pick up the pen and bring life to their visions!! also i really want more femstars food pelase pick up the pen i am a starved orphan and only femstars yuri can satiate me!!!!!!!!!

#long post #<--felt warranted KAHJSDFK #but genuinely though i want diversity to be requested and desired #and i want it to be done so in a positive and respectful manner towards hobbyists #if we're talking megacorps u can shittalk them all u want and send all the angry emails in the world #but for artists on the internet who are only here to have fun its important to remember to be kind and encouraging!#bc asking them for rep in a hostile manner is only gonna create negative associations #which. would be counterproductive #diversity is a wonderful thing so please do not make people resent it by being rude!!!!#that is not what we should strive for!!!!#ask

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meirimerens · 4 months

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how much time per day or week do you think you spend making art (either drawing or writing)? you have such crazy creative output (in my opinion at least - i know its very different for everyone) and all of it is so wonderful!

THANK YOU.... I TRY TO MAKE THAT #GOODSTUFF... thank you for #enjoying... ok i've already mentioned this part in an ask somewhere but one of the reasons i seem to have a "crazy creative output" is because My Ass is unemployed right. i am that "the unemployed friend at 4PM on a monday" person. i'm also not studying, so i can truly dedicate my time to #mycraft, and even then i don't have the output i could have if i spent all the time i'm at my puter actually drawing or writing. i also hyperfixate in the Not Fun Way and my brain Will Not let me move on before i've finished task 1 and it's not very conducive to a productive #lifestyle, artistically or otherwise. i also mention this ^ because i have plans of actually going back to school next year and between studying + needing a job to pay rent my creative output i'm aware will likely Dwindle so. warning everyone rn.

i can't really make calculations per se but i'm on my puter/tablet for real like in the #creative mindset at least 5hrs a day. i'm on my puter/tablet for longer than that, but i also do bland stuff like read and write emails, try to keep my webbed sites updated, i watch movies and videos, i talk to friends, i go on unnecessary wikipedia deep dives for 2hrs at a time, i hoard pdfs for sport, i keep my eyes on multiple websites i need to to re-enroll in school, i worry about my future housing situation and as such scroll renting sites for hours etc. you can see what i mean when i say i don't have the creative output i could have; some people can finish a full image in 5hrs. but i'm too #scatterbrained for this. i truly think when i actually have commitments in my life (uni & work) i'll make better use of the spare hours i'll have left because they'll mean everything to me...

tldr a lot, but i don't actually focus enough in that Lot to have a truly impressive #yield, and i'm soon going to have to do things everyday which will make this crop yield dwindle... but such is life. thank you for sticking by so far... more to come. i prommy.

#ring ring (answers)#anonymous

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ragnarokproofing · 8 months

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author ask tag game

Thank you for the tag, @catchingbigfish! I'm tagging @sarahlizziewrites, @moonandris, and @sam-glade with no pressure, and with an open tag for anyone else who is interested. Apologies if you've already done it, this has been sitting in my drafts for like a month.

All of these answers are in regards to my thesis, which is a large-scale dark fantasy novel with an alternating third-person PoV.

(1) What is the main lesson of your story (e.g. kindness, diversity, anti-war), and why did you choose it?

I don't like to conceptualize my fiction as having "lessons." It's not so much that it's inherently inaccurate as that it's not constructive, or conducive to deep and resonating fiction; I have found that this presentation lends itself to moral absolutism. Furthermore, I don't tend to have my characters learn objective moral lessons, but rather learn or decide something about themselves or the world, and make a choice about how they are going to act in the future.

So to phrase it in that way, "what does your main character realize or decide about himself," my main character Fasenil decides that there is enough in the world that makes it worth saving even though it's largely hostile to his existence, and that he is willing to sacrifice himself in order to save it.

(2) What did you use as inspiration for your worldbuilding (like real-life cultures, animals, famous media, websites, etc.)?

I am very aware that the first thing that any of my readers think of when they read my drafts are Skyrim. While it is an inspiration to some extent, my world is far more inspired by real-life cultures, primarily real-life Viking Age Scandinavia. I take historical research very seriously, and I take great pains to maintain historical accuracy when relevant. I have a frankly massive number of sources that I'm not going to cite here.

That's the main inspiration for the area of my map where the novel takes place; inspirations for the larger world include the Holy Roman Empire, 20th century fascist movements, and more.

(3) What is your MC trying to achieve, and what are you, the writer, trying to achieve with them? Do you want to inspire others, teach forgiveness, help readers grow as a person?

I think that this question runs up against the same problems as the first. I don't desire to teach readers any sort of specific lesson with my fiction. If they take lessons away, that's nice, but it's not something that I concern myself with.

To answer a related but separate question, I hope that some small fraction of readers who feel the same things as I do feel on some level seen; not the shallow "validation" that is so often talked about in online art and fandom spaces, but with the sort of universe-reordering forcefulness and urgency that I've felt so few times in my life. Not saying "you are a market that it is advantageous to target," but "you exist, I see you, and I know." I am writing, in that sense, to my younger self.

My characters both are in an abstract sense seeking to transcend their pasts, and to find belonging. At the beginning, Fasenil is at first balancing his desire for "success" and accolades with the growing threat that visibility presents to him. Hallbjorn is trying desperately to carve out a life that is free from the obligation of violence, but can't seem to do it. I don't consider it my job to pretend that any of these struggles have objectively correct or moral answers. I can only have my characters make decisions, and do their best to forge a way forward.

(4) How many chapters is your story going to have?

I mean, there are thirty in my outline, but that is extremely fluid. It is possible that it will eventually be divided up into a duology.

(5) Is it fanfiction or original content? Where do you plan to post it?

It's an original fiction novel, also functioning as my MFA thesis. I don't plan on posting anything more than snippets and supplemental content (art, memes, etc) anywhere; it will be traditionally published.

(6) When and why did you start writing?

I've been writing since I was a little kid. I've only been taking it seriously as a craft and as a career path for about a year and a half.

(7) Do you have any words of engagement for fellow writers of Writeblr? What other writers of Tumblr do you follow?

I follow many, many writers of tumblr, too many to name here.

The piece of advice that I repeat to myself most often is, "good prose is a renewable resource." What this means is that you must trust in your ability to be able to generate good prose in the future, and not stay married to ineffectual passages just because they are well-written or you are fond of them. My first priority is the function of a paragraph/passage/scene within context, because that is much more difficult to revise than prose itself, which can always be improved.

Also, participate. Write weird essays and post them. Read more. Pick a topic that interests you and read half a dozen papers about it on jstor. Ask questions and offer to workshop people's stuff for them, and then get good at workshopping. Form your own opinions instead of just absorbing whatever's popular in the social media-sphere that you're in.

#my posts #tag game #unnamed thesis tag #writeblr tag game #writeblr

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Ideas for Approaching Sharing Fanfics

I've been trying to think of my ongoing issues with sharing my work online in a more constructive way, instead of being Big Sad about it! Ideas beneath the cut.

This is 100% spitballing, I have made 0 decisions. Heck, the most likely outcome is that I take a long break and then return to what I was doing with sharing my fics. Don't take these ideas as a threat or a promise, lol!

I do think these are interesting ideas, though, and I'm so curious what people might make of them, especially writers and fic enthusiasts!

-The simplest idea is to continue writing as I am now and share my work with mutuals/friends. I suppose this way, at least I know my writing IS being read and enjoyed, and there will be no AI scraping/misuse shenanigans.

-Practice Editing Completed Works

I've made great progress developing my writing as ahiddenpath. That's even more valuable than my stories themselves, which is a reassurance; there's no way I wasted my time. However, something I haven't done is edit an entire, completed work as a single unit. Fanfics are released on a chapter basis, and while I've learned to edit chapters, I haven't gone back over a completed work.

Basically, my work is all completed first drafts or in-progress first drafts. And that's fine, but if I'm going to seriously pursue becoming a novelist, then I 100% need the skill of refining completed drafts. The fact that I haven't is a bit alarming.

That's the next thing I want to do. I've referenced a "secret project" a few times, now. That project is a completely edited Growing Up with You, something I've been picking at off and on for a while, now. My initial plan was to edit it and release the new chapters on AO3, while leaving the FFN version alone for anyone who enjoyed that and doesn't want to see it change. As you know, I've also been working on an edited Four Years, although the GUWY project is much more ambitious, with new content. I especially wanted to fill in some spots (like the Chosen first meeting in early Adventure and some parts of 02) and add content about Galemon.

But with my recent feelings about sharing my work online, you can see where sharing an improved product is uhhh... Something I'm reluctant to do. So I guess that begs the question... What would I do with these edited fanfics, other than use them for practice?

-Sell epub files of my edited fics to any interested trusted individuals

I've recently been uploading my fics to Kindle and exploring Scrivener's file export options. It's so convenient to read fics on kindle instead of online! Obviously, while fanart creators can sell their wares, fanfic writers face additional/different challenges, so I'd have to figure that out/do a benefit/risk analysis.

-Start a patreon with epub files as rewards

This one seems kind of overly complicated/overkill to me, but I guess it's an option. It's also a way to share art if I want to continue making it??? Same issues as the previous suggestion, though, and no guarantee of protecting my work, really???

-Book bind complete/edited fics

Tbh, because of material costs and how long it takes to make a book, I'd have to charge so much for book binding that I'm not sure anyone would be interested (as opposed to epub files, which would only be a few dollars). I enjoy doing it, however, so this would be a great personal project.

-Change my fanfics and try to publish them

I'm a big AU gal, so it's possible that I might be able to edit some of my fics with publishing in mind. I have no idea how that would go, but regardless, it might be meaningful practice.

-Write and try to publish an original short story collection

I have a few short stories (many based on dreams) that I haven't shared, mostly because they're just a bit... Hm, they're just different than my fics, so I figured the reception would be pretty meh. These would likely be the most conducive items for publishing

-Work on an original novel

I've been working on a series of novels off and on since I was 14, and man, does the 14 part show, lmao! I'm not sure how viable this novel series would be, especially because some of the ideas I thought were so cool and unique when I was 14... Um. Honey. No, they're not. But you have a big heart and passion, young miss, and that's worth a lot!!!!

If you ask what my dream is, I'd say to be a novelist. But I also 100% assume that my stuff would never get off the ground, and statistically, that's likely. Still, my husband tells me that I'll regret it if I never try. I don't have dreams of grandeur, but I do know how to put the work in on something. Maybe it's time?

Those are my current thoughts! Keep in mind that I still would like to finish my ongoing fics, especially Puits d'Amour. I do think that editing a complete fic would be developmentally meaningful, so I imagine I will put more time into that.

For now, I'm not making any decisions, since I suspect I might just be burnt out and struggling with... You know... Existing in 2023. We'll see how it goes! Take care, and let me know if you think any of these ideas are interesting!

#hidden's life

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i may firmly be in the throes of a very in-depth post-crisis re-read for my janet fic so i'm not really reading current comics (also, current comics don't super excite me), but i am making the exception once a month for td: r, so i will put my spoiler-y thoughts on td: r #3 below the cut

tim-bernard continues to be very bland and inoffensive to me. they're fine. i don't hate it. but it's just. kind of dull to me?? like i really don't feel like meghan is writing them in a way that shows they have a ton of chemistry imo. just lots and lots of meghan writing tim to be constantly emphasizing over and over and over again how happy he is! how much he likes bernard! how bernard is the greatest thing that is happening to him! without really showing us i guess? and maybe it is that the art style being so stylized (i don't hate it, but it is very unique) not really being conducive to showing romantic chemistry? it's just their interactions this series have been. one side hug. then they sit at a table across from each other. tim thinks about how wonderful bernard is. then in this issue, bernard interacts with tim as robin. they sit across from each other on a couch. tim thinks about how wonderful bernard is. meghan is just not doing a good job at showing me why i should become invested in them. she's doing a great job telling me that tim thinks that bernard is wonderful and she is not convincing me!! i'm sorry.

on that note, bernard def knows tim is robin. which is also contributing to the overall boredom i feel. because he's just so placidly understanding because he knows the secret!! there is literally no conflict. everything is working out without any speed bumps at all. i am driving endlessly through the cornfields over here.

on the other hand i can't yet tell if this is making me slightly suspicious of bernard. is the emphasis on how in love tim is with him and how much he wants to trust himself to open up and how happy he is and how bernard is the greatest thing that's every happened to him a long set up for an inevitable betrayal of tim by bernard where bernard is actually the mastermind behind it all? is that why we keep harkening back to the chaos monster?

i do highly doubt this given the cover solicits with the kiss. it's probably just boring writing that is meghan really trying to sell this relationship because of how invested she's in it. more than likely the big reveal will be bernard knows he's robin and now tim's worries about his double life disappear along with our only source of potential narrative conflict of having a secret identity and managing a relationship with a civilian and i will remain zoned out driving through my cornfield.

i do love, love, love the emphasis on sherlock holmes + tim as a detective. it is one thing I think she's getting right.

and i like the houseboat, but i am not in totally love with the marina setting and basically disconnecting tim from all of his really important past relationships to focus on all these new characters for him. like, i'm all for tim discovering himself and trying to be independent, but compared to post-crisis red robin #12 where he discovered himself and asserted his independence by reaffirming his strong relationships, this disconnection just doesn't feel like tim to me. it just makes me really be able to tell that meghan's definitive tim is war games tim (a time when he was notably cut off from all of his most important relationships and surrounded by newly created characters as friends) and makes me think she doesn't have a solid grasp on tim at his best. which i am not a fan of. it does feel like meghan would rather write a tim + her ocs story rather than work with the well established friend and family group he had.

though, given her fundamental misunderstanding of all of his friends in yj:dc, i can't say i mind terribly she is not trying too hard to acknowledge them in her story.

i do like the implications that tim is def in college now. make my man 21! get him a drink.

#sometimes i do read (current) comics

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andillwriteyouatragedy · 2 years

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so, i have been going back and forth about whether or not to announce this, so i'm doing a soft-launch instead. i thought about it so long i overthought it, which is the opposite of the point of this! i am trying something new with my art to keep it moving in a direction i am happy with, and i want to share that! and, ultimately, as the saying goes, everything is made up and the points don't matter!

i am now officially collecting my work under my own banner!

to me, the world of publishing as it currently exists is not conducive to the sharing of our truest art or our most genuine self-expression. it is with this in mind that i am releasing all my books under the name of bone-deep books, my own system of releasing my art. this is my attempt to establish my own way of publishing my writings how i see fit, as well as keeping as much of my work as i can under one banner: my own.

what i value about sharing my work is sharing it. i create because i love to, and i want to give the art i create to as many people as possible. the priority of publishing my own books is to value my own artistic image for my work above all else. no compromises, no third-party changes, no judgments. just me creating my work to share, and you receiving my work to enjoy. i hope that the spirit of bone-deep books will help me to accomplish this.

the more i understand myself and the world around me, the more i come to realize that the current state of art commercialization, "content creation," and the industrialization of writing are in nearly complete opposition to the environment authentic art flourishes in. our most genuine art comes from within ourselves; an atmosphere of free creation breeds the truest art we want to create, unfettered by restrictions that ultimately mean nothing and do nothing but stifle our work. in expressing my true self, i realized that being published by some big corporate house, or having fame attached to my name, or selling my work just to sell work and have work to sell, or having a career based in this industry of false creation, while seeming like cool and exciting opportunities, ultimately served against my true purpose.

for me, and i know for many others, it is, above anything else, about making the art i want to make— the truest form of self-expression, exposing whatever is in my soul that i want to create, giving my writing to the world and myself— and never compromising on it. i do not write for universal appeal. i do not write to cater to a publisher. i write for myself and my expression of self. i write because i want to tell a story.

and that, right there, is what it boils down to: i write because i want to. i don't want to have a book of mine sit unread on a shelf because i was afraid. i don't want to have a story of mine untold because a publisher wasn't the audience for it. i don't want to stop myself from creating because i don't know who to create for. i am creating for myself. everything else is a bonus— the greatest bonus ever, which is connecting with my fellow humans over something i wrote that truly came from my soul, unchanged, exposed, real, and mine.

this is my personal approach to my world and to my art, and, as always, i am always discovering more about myself. while i am always open to changing my mind about things, or hearing more information, or being flexible as i move forward, i believe that releasing many of the restrictions society has placed on art and publishing my own work myself will be majorly important to my growth as a writer, as an artist, as a creator, and as a person, as a human being. i have nothing but love for people who choose different artistic paths such as traditional publishing, because that is what art is all about! for me, this doesn't work— but, for others, it might work perfectly, and it's exactly how they want to create. that's wonderful, and i encourage it! i discovered a different path to follow myself, and i am trusting the joy and confidence i feel in following it.

of course, as with everything in my art, this process is very much a work in progress! i had an idea, and i am trying it out and working out the kinks, which is the only way to learn if an idea works! please have patience with me as i figure this all out (the books, and also life)!

thank you so much if you've read all of this!! if you want to read more or check out my site, you can do so by clicking here!!!

#books #publishing #self-publishing #self publication #self publishing #bone-deep books #bone deep books #bonedeepbooks #my books #nicole mello #personal ramblings #news #personal news #tumblr probably will not care about this but i love posting what's going on in my life #hi everyone!!!!!#i tag things like an old man

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Hi, Olivie! Catching up on your latest “Not Reading” video and I have to say I’m just stunned people tag you in bad reviews??? Like, I realistically know it happens all the time to authors on bookstagram, like I use booksta every day, but I’m still flabbergasted people think it’s okay to tag authors in the most negative posts known the mankind??? Like where is the basic human decency and common sense?

On a side note though: I often tag you in my TBR posts or like, general praise posts on my bookstagram (I’ve been reading your self-published works since early 2021 and just love to show off my indie copies and rave about your work in general, especially because you’re one of my comfort authors. Moreover, I tend not to write super critical thinkpieces on bookstagram for any book because I find Instagram to be a very gimmicky place and not actually conducive to discourse in general). Anyway, are you generally okay with being tagged in positive reviews of your works? I just wanna know what you’re specifically cool with as pertains to booksta and tagging? Thanks, and have a great summer!

I’m into my reread of One For My Enemy (first time reading the newly published version) and it’s like hard drugs in the best way possible.

I think after a certain level of perceived popularity (perceived being the operative word) people stop thinking of me as a human being, much less one who receives notifications. and to be fair, there is a lot that I don't see—instagram loves to hide things in my spam folder and I gave up on even trying to deal with my DMs a long time ago. I don't always read everything I'm tagged in, it just seems like on those days where I'm like "let's see what's on instagram!" it'll backfire cosmically. also, instagram likes to put only the meanest reviews in my notifications, which is like one out of every fifty. I have no idea what the plan is there, engagement via misery? in any case I try to stay out, because you're right—it's not really conducive to conversation. it's not like two active users on instagram at the same time are engaging in a meaningful way, like what can occasionally happen on twitter or tumblr. anyway, to answer your question, yes go ahead and tag me! I can't promise I'll see it and if it's a review I likely won't read it, since even praise isn't necessarily good for the art and any stray comment could have a weird effect on my brain. but I like to share posts when I can so that I can direct people to accounts they might have interest in

so basically don't worry about it. the risk of complaining about social media users who do things like that is that they aren't listening, but the people who behave conscientiously are, so it's kind of a preaching to the choir thing

#hope you are enjoying ofme!!!!!

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completely agreed thoughts on the prank, the way that a lot of the fandom interact with it shows a lack of key understanding in what literature is and what it is intended to do and also a lack of ability to critically think about and engage with the topics and issues that are presented in literature (and also with literally any other kind of issue outside of literature but that’s another conversation).

i think that cancel culture and the idea that if someone does something Problematic they are automatically Bad, irredeemable and deserve punishment has definitely played into this as well.

a lot of people have completely adopted this mindset and are obviously applying it to literature in the exact same way, inevitably leading to ‘antis’ and the belief that characters should serve as some kind of moral blueprint. first of all that would completely defeat the purpose of literature, if reading about a character doing something Wrong leads you to the conclusion that that character is now Bad and you don’t put any further thought into the issue, you are really missing the purpose of literature itself!!!!!

the belief that literature that depicts Problematic topics should not exist or should be shunned is such an incredibly un-nuanced take and is so so harmful (i have so many more thoughts on this specifically but i am trying to keep this short ish).

(also i’m very aware that i am literally parroting your essay back to you and my points are by no means new takes that you did not cover, i am more just trying to explain why i agree sm with your essay)

yeah no i think your point about cancel culture is definitely true--online spaces are often not conducive to nuance, because algorithmic social media actively works to polarize us. and i think a lot of online culture is really rooted in the dynamics of like...a surveillance state, where we are constantly meant to police each other's morality, and where calling someone out when they slip is a way to reify your own public performance of moral purity. at the crux of it, we're all being dragged into this social investment in Punishment (especially public punishment) as a vehicle for the betterment of society. and this is a fundamentally flawed premise, and part of the reason that i really encourage anyone and everyone to engage with some abolitionist theory (angela davis is a great starting point)--because Punishment is not a vehicle for the betterment of society, it's a vehicle for reifying systems of power and ongoing social control.

anyway. yeah, it sucks to see this mindset infecting the way people engage with literature! my personal perspective on art (including literature/writing) generally is that it's meant to be a conversation; it's meant to make you think, and reflect, and ask questions. and if you are coming across a piece of literature that's just presenting you with a set of moral guidelines and telling you to follow them, i think you should be very wary of that!! nothing is created in a vaccuum, and anyone telling you "this is how you should live your life" is going to have an agenda beneath the surface of what they're saying that you need to learn to recognize. it is much less frightening for me to see writing that asks "how do you think you should live?" than to see writing that says "this is Morally Correct."

#once again my religious trauma comes to the forefront in influencing my current beliefs lmao #like...i spent years in a community where i was constantly being told what was Moral and Right #and where i was actively discouraged from thinking critically about it #don't fall into the same trap!!!#ranting and raving

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