#🌌🌌 ;; Vent

[mogai-sunflowers]

body standards in the queer community are so fucking harmful. the amount of fucking breakdowns i’ve had because i knew i’d never be able to fit into the perfect butch fashion idea. god. it’s exhausting and nothing makes it better. fat queer people, qpoc, disabled queer people, this shit affects so many queers in different ways and it’s so hurtful i want to cry rn. im not even mad im just sad that the world is like this. i deserve to love my body but i dont and the biggest reason is because i dont fit into queer narratives. it sucks. but i will still do my fuckin damndest to uplift others who are struggling with the same thing. it breaks my heart, watching other queer people talk about this. sure, it’s good to know im not alone but i also dont want anyone to ever have to go through that but i know thats not realistic. yall are all beautiful NO MATTER WHAT. your skin is your skin, your body is your body, your hair is your hair- it’s all okay. especially if you’re trans and this kind of stuff hurts cuz dysphoria. it’s so important to recognize that transition goals dont have to be an ideal, they can be realistic to you. im not asking anyone to feel guilty im just asking that you realize that something needs to be done because this is killing people. just love all queers no matter our bodies or physical characteristics, we all deserve the happiness that other queers deserve. i love y’all so much if you ever need anything or need to rant or want some validation please know you can come to me.

#🌌when the stars align ; reigns rambles🌌 #rant #vent #personal #ask to tag #like my anorexia is literally 90% beause i want to be able to be skinny so i can be the cute skinny butch everyone idealizes in queer spaces

[anti-endo-haven]

TW: Possible si??? Not sure tbh but some might get triggered

We are so done. We want to be able to go talk to our therapist and go "hey what's your opinion on like DID/OSDD because we have spent ages looking into it and it's the SINGLE thing that covers what's going on with us?" but we can't. Because for all we know, he's one of the people that doesn't believe in it or believes you should be locked up for it.

We've got so much happening this year and we are so so so scared to bring this up to our therapist. Best excuse we have is saying our friend who's diagnosed wants to maybe see him but wants to know his thoughts first but even then, we're scared to ask.

One of the main reason's he might not is this fucking endo shit. Actually that's why less professionals in psychology are believing in it is endos and the shit they cause.

We're so sorry for the vent. A positive thing: we were able to rule a few things out wrong with us bodily! Which sounds bad but when we have over 15 disorders physically and mentally as a whole, we take what we can get to knock some stuff out.

Question, because we plan on being here often, can we have this as our tag? 🌌🕷️/nf

Hopefully you and your partner have a great timezone

It’s perfectly okay to vent! I’m glad that you can find a safe space here.

You can always use a hypothetical as a question to judge reactions even with therapists. You also don’t have to ask until you feel like you’re in a space ready to ask that hypothetical.

It really does suck that endos and their stuff now is making professionals just not want to say anything and taking away resources for systems.

Glad you were able to rule things out, though!

I’ll get those on the pinned post. :)

#🌌🕷️ #anti endo #did system #system #endos dni #osddid #traumagenic system #actually did #endos not for you #actually traumagenic #did plural #did plurality #osdd plural #osdd plurality #anti-endo-haven-vent #anti-endo-haven-vents

[astro500]

Nobody really talks about how tiring it is to be the younger sibling. It's absolutely draining. You barely ever get included in things your older siblings do during your teen/middle school and high school years but when you guys were kids you were best friends and were inseparable and you just miss that so fucking much. Then when you finally accept that your sibling wants nothing to do with you when you're an adult your sibling just comes back and acts as if they never did anything. As if they never ignored you or bullied you or made fun of you just to make their friends laugh. So you just feel absolutely disgusted and infuriated. Constantly asking yourself if you are okay with this and why they're doing it even though youre extremely uncomfortable with the situation.

And if you guys were actually on good terms you have to watch them leave and get more and more distant from you. Leaving you behind with your parents as you take care of them until it's finally your turn to leave but you feel this heart wrenching guilt that just makes you nauseous because you're leaving them.

And that's barely even scratching the surface of being the younger sibling. You're always referred to as "******'s sibling" and are always compared to them. Always in their shadow. And when you try to do things that are different from your sibling your interests are either overlooked or your parents make you do things they did just solely because your older sibling did them. You never feel appreciated or wanted. You try to make you sibling seem better than they actually are to your friends when venting about them because you don't want your friends hating them but your sibling constantly talks shit about you to their friends.

It's fucking exhausting being the younger sibling and more people need to realize it

#🌌astro🌌 is rambling #younger sibling #vent post #younger sibling vent #younger siblung stereotypes #venting #sibling vent #younger sibling stereotypes #i hate being the younger sibling #sibling problems

[afterheaven]

Sometimes, there's no closure in conversation. Sometimes, the best closure is going down to the place where you spoke happily for the last time, bringing the bracelet she gave you, counting off happy memories on its shining amethyst beads, and chucking that shit in the creek.

(There will always be more I wish I said. I loved her dearly; how could I not? But she is part of a different name's past now. She holds no place in Gabriel's future.)

#angelkin #angel r speaks 🌌 #actually angelic #Vent #More or less I suppose #Things I did today

[antiendofuzzies]

vent

I really hate how some alters in our system deny some of the trauma that happend to us and try to pretend that it wasn’t that bad like one of the littles I take care of is a yorkiekid* and it makes me really sad that that is their system role -🪅 from 🌌🩷

*A yorkiekid is a syskid/system little that holds trauma related to having body modifications against their will or without their consent. This may be considered a subset of other terms

im sorry, sometimes alters just can't remember or are in denial and there's not much you can really do about it. We really hope you're safe and okay now

((sorry this isn't a very good response, we're not sure what to say))

#actually did #anti endo #did #did system #endos dni #safe space #age regression #cw vent #Tw mentions of body modification #But not detailed #Just warning just in case #🌌🩷 anon #🪅 anon

[startlitmirrorshards]

Isn't it lovely when a hyperfixation suddenly stops and it takes to play the guessing game of why? Is it:

1. The depression is hitting too hard

2. The alter(s) associated with said hyperfixation have officially left the front

3. Brain is bored due to getting no more happiness from it

4. All of the above

#stello 🌌 #sms★ #did #osddid #osdd #endos dni #traumagenic system #c did system #actually dissociative #actually mentally ill #depression #vent #tw vent

[yourlocalmissingtexture]

Having my more broad range of emotions back is kinda nice actually. I remember happiness, isn’t that awesome? Sure my other emotions have been a bit amplified but it’s worth it I thi-

[Thwk!]

Ouch!! *grapples at shoulder blades, hand comes away bloody* What the fuck? *reaches again, locating and pulling out an arrow*

[The arrow is notably heavier than a typical projectile of its kind but not by much. It appears gilded.]

….wait.

….

Oh.

Oh no.

#colored text #is this a vent? #not exactly but idk what it actually is #kinda prose ig #cautiously optimistic #have a sticker if you get the reference > #👽👁️🫀👑👓🐺🐊🐋🍀🌼🌙⭐️🎸🎨🚀🌌🌅💡🔮🧫📦☢️🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

[asunaros-future]

+aurora opens the vent and crawls out, just to fall right in front of a man with purple? hair.+

"ow- OH SHIT WHAT THE FUCK-"

[The purple-haired man stares down at Aurora.]

...........Wh. Why'd... you fall out of the vent? What's with you weirdoes and climbing in the vents?

#🌌 classified answers #auroratumbles #ooc: shotout to v-1 living in asunaros vents for a while

[tricky-pockets]

Hate it when my family freaks out about me walking around my own neighborhood. "But isn't it kind of dangerous downtown?" not really, man, there's just some people here who don't have an indoors place to sleep. that's the only reason you think it's dangerous. you're scared of poor people. i'm not, though; I am poor people. mentally ill, too. i have more in common with Dave outside the liquor store than I do with you. i live here! I'm not fundamentally different from the people you're scared of! ffs

#sam tag 🌌 #vent

[labrdorite]

Mandatory Tag Post! ♡ (-> block & blacklist all of these as you wish!!)

Updated: 3/12/24 [THE TAGS TAGGED UNDER THIS POST ARE OLD. BLOCK THOSE AS WELL IF YOU DONT WANT TO SEE OLD POSTS FROM ME]

♡ F/O Tags

1. 𓆩♡𓆪 veri -> veritas ratio; honkai: star rail

2. 𓆩♡𓆪 hthm -> alhaitham; genshin impact

3. 𓆩𓆩♡𓆪 aymer -> aymeric; ffxiv

4. 𓆩♡𓆪 neuvi -> neuvillette; genshin impact

5. 𓆩♡𓆪 zl -> zhongli; genshin impact

6. 𓆩♡𓆪 kvh -> kaveh; genshin impact

7. 𓆩♡𓆪 avtrn -> aventurine

8. ﹒⪩⪨﹒yq -> yanqing; honkai: star rail

♡ Personal Tags

-‘๑’- ask

-‘๑’- letters (i usually dont post f/o letters i cant but just in case)

-‘๑’- txt (used a LOT. prev txt tag was — 🏹🩵)

-‘๑’- vnt (vent)

tw [trigger] ;; tws

-‘๑’- comm info

ੈ✩‧₊˚ commission

ੈ✩‧₊˚ own art

ੈ✩‧₊˚ own writing

ੈ✩‧₊˚ gifts for me

ੈ✩‧₊˚ gifts for you

彡 xiv posting

彡 gi posting

彡 hsr posting

彡 gif

彡 art

彡 words

彡 mutuals

彡 promos

♡ OC & Self Insert Tags

✧.* labradorite -> shipped w veritas & aventurine (separately and together. i DONT interact w aventio content though sorry.)

✧.* val -> shipped w haitham & kaveh (both seperate & as polyam ship)

✧.* emrys -> shipped w neuvi & zhongli (separately)

✧.* romen -> yanqing’s adoptive parent (weird middle space between ship & not w jy. i dont talk abt it much at all anymore bc he’s slipped from my brain. so dw. if you need tags to block then block 🦁🍂 & 🦁🃏)

༊*·˚ azu’a -> ffxiv oc, also shipped w aymeric, and maybe urianger i’m unsure (not quite a s/i but he is my proxy to kiss the elf man. he’s his own character though)

#— ✉️ #— 💌 #— 🏹🩵 #— vent #— comm shtuff #— 🎨🩵 #— 📘🩵 #— 📩🩵 #— 🩵✉️ #— 🎮🎲 #— 🎨 commission #🌊⚖️ #🌊🪼 #🦁🍂 #🦁🃏 #🩸🗡️ #🩸🧊 #🌱📖 #🌱🪻 #🔸☄️ #🔸⚒️ #🌺🎨 #🌺🪻 #🧊⚔️ #🧿🃏 #📖⚒️ #🔮🌌 #📖🌌 #🦚💎 #🦚🌌

[ithriel-coins]

the fuckign dizzy /neg

#do words lose weight if said too often? 🌌 talking #vent tw #<- kind of ? #pots #undiagnosed pots #send help /j

[mogai-sunflowers]

vent post ahead

i am genuinely fucking worthless. None of my friends actually love me I am literally so stupid and all I do is cause problems. I am useless. I will never make a difference and I will never love myself so I might as well get it over with

#🌌when the stars align ; reigns rambles🌌 #tw vent #tw suicide

[anti-endo-haven]

Vent (sorry for it /gen)

Ever since R.A.B (host) found out about the persecutor, he's been more cruel than usual. To the point that while yes he's fronting (he's like perma-frontstuck, since he discovered the system they're never NOT fronting), he's not really in control. Hell he's annoyed we're typing it like this instead of how he usually would but.

Right now the persecutor (or maybe someone else? We aren't sure, just that right now they're being crueler than we've had in ages and L.M is going insane trying to stop them) is like trying to break R.A.B and is succeeding bit by bit. We know it's not a factive of one of our abusers but by the Gods this is annoying. I mean, we've got one who's never fronting (he's not dormant we know he's there he just doesn't front by choice) in co-con trying to help but it's failing.

We're so so so sorry for the vent, our therapy is just still not being done because our therapist won't call us back and it's getting a bit too much to keep inside.

-🌌🕷️

Don’t apologize for venting.

I can’t say much that can help besides trying to understand what’s causing them to behave the way they are. Either because they want to or something happening underneath all that anger.

If R.A.B knows that the persecutor is trying to break him, try and see if there can be something done to help that. Remind him of what’s going on, that everything is okay, and that it can be hard to be gentle to someone hurting you, but find the underlying cause.

Even if it’s just because they want to be mean, it’ll be okay. I know that there’s some alters that just want to cause pain and they can’t stop and they don’t want to, but there’s also ways to try and help them out as well. Some just take more time than others and some don’t want the help.

But if you’re able to talk to R.A.B and ask what’s up and try and find ways to help one or both, that’s a starting point.

I wish I could be more help and I hope your therapist can contact you sooner than later.

#🌌🕷️ #anti endo #did system #system #osddid #endos dni #traumagenic system #actually did #endos not for you #actually traumagenic #did plural #did plurality #osdd plural #osdd plurality #anti-endo-haven-vent #anti-endo-haven-vents

[kingspacebar]

In a funk today

#my art #my ocs #vent #Space 💖💫🌌 [He/They] #Gary 🍁🧸⏳[He/Him]

[afterheaven]

Maybe I can't save you. Maybe we can't save each other at all. Maybe there is no redemption beyond any of this for either of us, and when we are gone, the energy keeping us alive simply disperses into nothingness.

Maybe we were doomed from the start.

I'll stay anyways. I can't save you. It would be unfair on both of us to become saviors. But if I can at least ease your pain just the slightest bit, even if the only thing you get out of it was knowing someone wanted to help, then I think it will be alright. Even if it isn't. It will be alright.

#angel r speaks 🌌 #actually angelic #angelkin #vent #somewhat

[antiendofuzzies]

vent

i feel like becuase of me being a little people wont take my job as a protector seriously and think that i cant keep our system littles/kids safe, like i have been doing this job for a long time and i was one of the verry first protectors our system had so i know how to do my job and make sure that the other smaller littles are safe form bad people and trauma, so it just makes me really sad when people say that i cant be a protector just becuase im a little - 🪅 part of 🌌🩷 annons system

awh, that sucks, i'm really sorry. we have a few protectors that are littles and we often have people telling them they can't be protectors too. but they can, and so can you, no matter how old you present / feel, you're great at your job as a protector ^^ don't listen to those that say otherwise, they're uneducated

#🪅 anon #🌌🩷 anon #anti endo #actually did #did #did system #little #little protector #cw vent #safe space