#//anyway! i am fucking unwell!

[gas-stxtion]

//i'm sorry i'm so mentally ill but i've been thinking about tony and the onceler and making myself diseased.

anyway. @triggerbigger count your fucking days because i am going to hunt you for sport and you will not enjoy it

#you know this whole thing is one big experiment‚ right? and you're the little mouse? {ooc} #see your face and know i've made it home {tony/onceler} #mun's art #❝ seeing tony actually upset was the scariest thing i'd ever seen ❞ {antonio vargas} #triggerbigger #//why would i do a background lol who do you think i am #//anyway! i am fucking unwell! #//on a more serious note i'm definitely gonna have to practice more with drawing the onceler in the future #//translating his design to my style was a fun challenge! #//not wearing his signature coat here because i could not be assed to figure that out lmao. #//so he's a little dressed down #//soon tho.... heheeeeeeeee #//but i'll definitely have to practice more yeah!! #//not pictured: tony having to lie down for five hours after this #//because he threw his back out doing this #//because he forgot that being shot in the spine three times. tends to make it hard to do shit like this

[adamnsey]

#fucking truly #also works for both of them #anyways i am made SO unwell by these episodes. like i need to lie down #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #ofmd season 2 #ofmd season 2 spoilers #edstede #gentlebeard #blackstede #blackbonnet #stede bonnet #edward teach #mine

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

are you really besties if you can't share a joint

#i will maintain my stance that blue-yellow is one of The best color combos ever #fuck red-blue WHERES MY LOVE FOR BLUE-YELLOW HUH #anyway. them <3 #might color this at some point! Maybe! #but mannnnn man man man i love them so much oughhhhh #they are... besties... Bestest Besties... woaw... #was gonna add in like. environment details. maybe something for barn to be leaning against #but then i realized! i dont Have to do anything! and tbh i quite simply couldnt be fucked! #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #wally darling #barnaby b beagle #barnaby's human design has single handedly made me want to buckle down on Improving in the drawing-humans area #HES SO GORGEOUS AND FOR WHAT!!! AND FOR!!! WHAT!!!! #i just wanna keep scribblin him! gah! agh! ough! #shoutout to barnaby b beagle for continuously making me Unwell <3 #hes so neat. what a guy. #adding wally in was a last minute decision tbh i was lost in the sauce #but then i stepped back and well. barn needs his little buddy am i rite fellas #so! a little smoke sesh for the best pair of friends Ever! probably at a random spot in the woods or somethin idk #does a sketch need to have thought behind it. is it not enough to simply draw what one wants to #OH MY GOD BARNABY'S HAND IS BACKWARDS. FUCK ME. #man i am Not redrawing that. who cares! to make mistakes is to be human! #(said through gritted teeth)

[threestripeslider]

Tired: Rise!Splinter is a neglectful and awful father who doesn’t care about his kids >:(

Wired: Rise!Splinter’s negligence comes from a place of deep trauma that he’s carried with him his whole life – losing his mother, having been betrayed by the love of is life, being imprisoned and forced to fight for his life, used as an experiment and subsequently being mutated and losing his whole identity as a person – and while it certainly doesn’t excuse his behavior, there is no doubt that this man loves his sons fiercely despite his own shortcomings and perhaps it is exactly that love and care that causes him to keep his children at arms length in hopes to spare them his family’s cursed legacy that grooms them into martyrs and are thus destined to die young, a sacrifice for the greater good that Splinter is never willing to make even if it means forfeiting the world to the Shredder. Splinter’s journey of fatherhood began by being completely unprepared as a fresh young single father of four young children that depend on him to survive and there is no surprise he’s hit almost every bump there possibly is when raising a child but never in his life has Splinter ever blamed or resented his children in any way – he is not perfect and he’s aware and he tries to do better all because he loves his kids this fucking much bc despite all the shit he’s been through, those kids made him realize that he can try again. to dismiss him as an awful father is a gross mischaracterization of a deeply traumatized man of color who evidently tried his fucking hardest not to pass on the hurt onto his own children while grappling with his own demons and the crushing destiny of his family’s blood line that took away his mother.

#rottmnt #hamato yoshi #hamato splinter #turtle files: meta #guys i am so unwell about him #he's literally so!! i love he!!! #this guy's been to hell and back and yet!! and yet!! here is still!! #HERE IS STILL!! RAISING KIDS!! #HE KNOWS FUCK ALL BUT THEY DEPEND ON HIM AND THAT IS ENOUGH #i need to lie down #i am literally so [starts wailing sobbing crying] #the next omo chapter's gonna be a doozy boys #anyway dont mind me #teh number one splinter defender #KSJSJKBDBKJDBJKF #I JUST FEEL A LOT ABOUT HIM OKAY #as someone who comes from an asian family with generational trauma... #bro. BRO.

[shima-draws]

I’ve mentioned it before but I’m a fucking sucker for unhealthy dependent relationships. There’s just something about them that is so. Chef’s kiss 👌

Anyway I’m still thinking about how Law was so attached to Cora and was so traumatized by his death that he literally devoted thirteen YEARS of his life to revenge killing Doflamingo. Even though all Cora ever wanted was for Law to just be free and live his life happily. And Law spending all his time in a hateful revenge spiral is literally the exact OPPOSITE of what Cora wanted for him. BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE. If the thirteen years of endless devotion to avenging his savior wasn’t enough Law 1. Named his pirate crew the Heart Pirates in honor of Cora, 2. Covered himself in permanent heart-themed tattoos in honor of Cora, and 3. Fashioned his Jolly Roger to be a mockery of Doflamingo’s and ALSO to honor Cora. Homie is a walking memorial for a man he only really knew for six months and again crafted the most intricate plan known to mankind to murder Cora’s killer. Because losing Cora fucked him up THAT much. Because even though Cora set him free, the moment Doflamingo shot him Law was chained to the memory of a man who no longer existed. Law literally fashioned his entire life down to his own appearance after Cora and it makes me so insane. I cannot even imagine what went through his head after Dressrosa I mean how do you move on after a thirteen year grudge is put to rest. What is he supposed to do now. Avenging Cora was literally his entire existence, his entire reason for living for half of his life. He needs therapy probably. If Cora somehow ever did come back to life Law would lose his fucking mind. The dependency is SO unhealthy and I am SO here for it

#Anyway this is not me promoting unhealthy relationships irl #If you are that dependent on someone that you can’t bear to live without them. Get help! Therapy!! Actually!!! #In fiction tho it is a wonderful treat. Haha yes I love to watch my faves suffer. #One Piece #Trafalgar Law #Donquixote Rosinante #Donquixote Doflamingo #Doflamingo #Cora #One Piece Cora #One Piece spoilers #Dressrosa #Shima speaks #I AM SO. HNNGHHH. I AM UNWELL. I probably also need therapy. LMAO #Oda why did you do this why did you kill Law’s dad (again) #Law: Feel like shit just want Cora-san back #Also I didn’t even get into how much Cora influenced Law’s life VS how his actual blood family influenced his life #Flevance was traumatic as FUCK and yet all of Law’s notable trademarks are still Cora-themed… #(Bc Cora saved him. Bc Cora gave him a reason to live after he thought he’d lost everything) #Slams my head into the wall and howls

[selfdiagnosedeyemotif]

#I NEED TO BE PUT DOWN. #SHIT. #ANYWAYS THE SOPHOMORE YEAR REWATCH IS GOING GREAT. IM HAVING A GOOD TIME #LET IT BE KNOWN THAT I ALWAYS KNEW THERE WAS ONLY ONE PERSON CLEVER ENOUGH TO FIND THIS #AELWYN ABERNANT YOU MAKE ME FUCKING UNWELL. I AM PHYSICALLY SICK #aelwyn abernant #fantasy high #fhsy

[grimbothefool]

...fellas..., @bakedbeanz

#digital art #fallout oc #others ocs #oc: randall #upon looking at it after waking up i am not a huge fan of the angle i drew randys hat at BUT. it's okay #anyway i am unwell about the blorbos #also i do not know how to use digital watercolors like what the FUCK did i do to this

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[respectfully-looking-at-the-fish]

have you seen them?

#small shitty quality doodles my speciality #my art #jrwi #jrwi riptide #jrwi jay #jay ferin #gillion tidestrider #jrwi gillion #jrwi chip #jrwi fanart #anyway hi!! #my autism recently decided to clutch onto these three and now im unwell about them #in a fuck it im bored moment i decided to watch a few episodes #i am now stuck here

[valentinoappreciator]

Vox hypnotizing me into a drooling, cock hungry mess who’s so warm and wet and willing for any cock to fill her holes, and Valentino just cannot resist, so he takes full advantage of me and the situation…. when

#text #hazbin hotel #vox hazbin hotel #valentino hazbin hotel #hypnosis #nsft #dub con #if you squint I guess???? #anyway I want this so much it is unreal!!!!! #maybe there’ll even be VoxVal… in the sense that Val hauls Vox close so they can kiss while Val fucks into my warm #warm pliant body #gngngnnhnhnngnh #I am Unwell

[sleepanonymous]

Do yourself a favor and take a seat for this one fam 👍

I fell upon a point The axis of the spectrum To bathe in abstract joy Or die without direction

Determined steps we take But please, for goodness sake We’re not gonna make it out alive

I sit for wasted days and toil in desperation To weep beneath a sky of fractured indication Let faith lead you down But please, for goodness sake We’re not alive; we’re just getting older

I would help you, but I can’t Seems that time got the upper hand To live yet never understand Is there a purpose?

But you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders

But you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Do we) And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Deserve this) And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Do we) And you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders (Deserve this)

Live by the subordinate belief That we are more than this we live By the subordinate belief That we are more than this we live

Okay so you guys are just gonna have to trust me on this one. This came from an(other) anon source since the link on Way Back Machine is dead. This was published to Ves's YouTube channel on July 15, 2012. The description said something along the lines of this (basing it off memory, it's very loose):

I wrote this song about the idea that humans have evolved beyond our means. We suffer implications due to our sentience and awareness of our world, which leads us to questions we cannot answer. Animals are programmed to fear death but they probably aren't aware of its inevitability, where humans most certainly are, but are totally powerless to stop it.

Update on this song as of December 2023:

Two different Anons provided me with more background info. The first screenshot is the original description that Ves had (he also worded things in a much better and more Vessel way than I did lol). The second screenshot is copy+paste text from the lyrics portion below the description. I updated the lyrics to reflect the text.

#lost media #circa 2012 #song heaven is a spectrum #screaming sobbing throwing up #i am unwell #i simply cannot with this man #maybe i'm in it too deep but #you look like heaven crashed on your shoulders #is a 10/10 banger fucking lyric #this song fucks so hard #i think this is my second favorite song he's written #including all of ST #nothing surpasses atlantic for me tho #i vibe with existential dread ig #i really hope you guys were sitting down with some good headphones #because this gave me harder feels than euclid #anyway #lyrics are a massive guess on this one #its 2012 so he probs had lyrics in the description #but i have no good link :( #if you hear something different pls lmk

[nymdraws]

one (1) piece of an animation i will hopefully for the love of god actually finish

#something something sunrise parabellum. im unwell #um. yeah ok sure ill tag why not #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #fan #2022 #i consider this part done rn its just . the only scene i have currently. or at least substantially the rest rn is #scrappy incomprehensible thumbnails and a Vision in my head #also i need someone to tell me right now if harsh augmented reality is a tiktok song becuase i just found it through spotify but #i am going to be fucking DEVASTATED if i make a whole animation with it and someone accuses me of being a tiktok user #i am only afraod of this bc when i went to grab the song from youtube there was. a very conspicuous chunk of *most replayed* #anyway. yeah.

[terracyte]

when. when old fashion pet name. when whenw ehwnewhewn 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️

#im unwell i fucking love them #this is a love letter to every fic where hob calls dream any old fashioned petname #i am. i am simply #i love them v much #i think 'duck' as a pet name i so fucking endearing i think they deserve sappy happiness fr #anyway #this isnt the 'totally different' thing i was talking about that ones still in production i #its goin #slowly #but goin #well the og idea is done but i needed to add more #so soon. SOON #but yeah they <3 #dream of the endless #morpheus #hob gadling #yes i gave him freckles i couldnt help myself #but also. dream with star freckles. GOD #i need that in my life too #and him w tattoos #make him the ultimate storyteller fr #it wORKS I SWEAR IT MAKES SENSE #sorry ok anyway #dreamling #the sandman #terra art #I JUST THINK MORPHEUS DESEREVS A LITTOL KISS ON THE CHEEK #AND A HUG #AND THERAPY #AND AN IMMORTAL BF <33

[kingleedo]

🥰🥰🥰

#leedo #foroneus #ultkpop #malesgroupnet #kpopccc #idolnexusedit #lucieblr #foraddy #tuserchrissy #useroro #eyestrain #kngld.edits #I AM SO UNWELL #I AM SO IN LOVE #i am also very sleepy #he looks so fine i wanna crawl into my bed and cry #anyways #i am off #enjoy my man being fine as fuck #I CRACKED WEVERSES HTML SOURCE AND SPEED RAN (WATCHED) THIS LIVE HAHAHA #NOW I AM REALLY OFF

[liesmyth]

I will not go so far as to say Augustine was right, but I will say I definitely have friends and romantic partners I would let the sun turn to a black hole avenging. Sometimes you gotta suplex a streamer into the stoma

He may not have been right but he was SO REAL for it. I hope you die I hope we all die!!!!

#I am always unwell thinking about how he didn't realise how much he loved mercy until she was dead #also. same vibes as john exploding the fucking nuke once all his other friends were shot dead because his world had already ended anyway #THE HORRORS OF LOVE #anonymous #ask #augustine

[miabrown007]

going crazy about kaz brekker hours

#HE'S JUST *screams into a pillow* #Inej wants him to be better she NEEDS him to be better and shed his armour and be emotionall vulnerable and honest to her #and every time he tries it life delivers a right hook into his solar plexus and knocks him to hell and back #and time and time again he is made to come to the incorrect conclusion that being vulnerable and soft and caring about anyone ever #is a mistake and a weakness that he isn't allowed that he doesn't deserve #and his only way of getting what he wants and keeping the people he loves safe is if he becomes something that can't love them #like life just continues to punish him for having any kind of feelings #and he can only love them if he kills the part of himself that loves them. like COME ON MAN #i'm literally unwell about this kid (KID HE'S FUCKING 17 LET HIM LIVE) #someone sedate me (well actually don't i need to start reading CK tonight) #Kaz I Am Ruin And Ruination Brekker #and it's so tragic because he has come such a long way during SoC and when Inej asks him to be hers you know he can't do it. he would like #to but he's unable of it like his walls are still built up so high. #and it's fair of her to ask because she needs that and keeping her always at arms length is not viable of Kaz but also that's all he can #currently give her. that's his all and it's not enough and my heart is breaking for them ohmygod #they make me think so much of felonies love square I'LL EAT GLASS #okay. anyway. finished six of crows. i'm normal about them. #mia's reading