sarahstanza

[sarahstanza]

when i rest

cold and dead underground

with only the worms for company

i hope she keeps you nice and warm

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[sarahstanza]

i picture you as a jellyfish

when you get close to me, you sting

like it’s a targeted attack, like i deserve it.

heartless and brainless the jellyfish floats

so beautiful from afar

so deadly up close

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[sarahstanza]

i pray that my mind is the first thing to be devoured

by the maggots and the flies and the dirt

so that my thoughts of you cease

before the rest of me does

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[sarahstanza]

when you hug me do you feel the rot under my skin?

a sign that youre holding on to something that let go long ago.

i wonder if you catch glimpses of the maggots swimming behind my eyes

as you gaze upon me and describe what our life will be when everything is better

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[sarahstanza]

tuck me in

and kiss my cheek

give me some sweetness

before it’s all over

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[sarahstanza]

i know you’re not mine

but, god, i will love you like you are.

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[sarahstanza]

i do it all for love.

do i need another reason?

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[sarahstanza]

help im all alone

or am i surrounded by

perfect sunsets and

eclectic people who all

crave love and hope and kindness, who too

occupy this beautiful world and

realise

everything will be alright

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[sarahstanza]

i dont want to give up yet

how much beauty lies before me?

i can’t give up yet

there is light and laughter and love

but

i might give up soon

for when i am asleep i am my happiest

what’s a few hours more?

what’s a few years more?

what’s an eternity more?

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[sarahstanza]

it is exhausting being this forgiving

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[sarahstanza]

you couldn’t even wait a month

after we ended things

to slide your dick into someone

perhaps i’m the idiot

for thinking i meant something to you

perhaps i’m the idiot

for trusting your word

perhaps i’m the idiot

for loving you at all.

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[sarahstanza]

my father walks past me as i make breakfast

he tells me im nothing like my mother

that he and i are alike

but i have her eyes

and her courage.

but i have his addictions

and his viciousness inside me.

i am my mother’s daughter

but i am also my fathers

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[sarahstanza]

in the shower we stood

while you helped me clean my piercings

‘hold your breath’ you would say

as you held me under the hot water.

now in the shower i cry

the aggressive pelting of the water covers my sobs

i hold my own face under the hot stream

so it can wash away these tears.

after the shower i sob

when i look at myself in the mirror

i turn the tap on

i waterboard myself

i pray this time it works.

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[sarahstanza]

you are a candle

warm and inviting

you cast a cozy glow.

you are a fire

hot and dangerous

you lick the ends of my curtains.

my house is aglow,

my house is on fire.

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[sarahstanza]

to love me is too much

so instead i am useful

i know how to cook and clean

i am my mother’s daughter

you wont leave if i do everything for you

i am essential

so i cook and clean

and never wean

you off my breast

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[sarahstanza]

my mother taught me everything, my father was too busy sleeping around.

she even taught me how to love.

my mother marries a man who sleeps with others.

i choose a man who sleeps with others.

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[sarahstanza]

i want Me back.

i want the girl who believed in love to come home.

i want the girl who wanted connection but didn’t violently crave it like an abandoned dog to return to me.

i want the girl who was untouched by violent hands to crawl into my arms.

i want Me back, the Me that doesn’t know how cruel this all is.

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