pineapplebear26

[pineapplebear26]

Hi everyone, it’s been a really long time since I’ve posted. Lots has happened!

-I lost my job in March, and have been home since then.

-quarantine has been doing a number on my mental health. I stopped seeing my new therapist, but I’ll be seeing my old one starting on Tuesday which I’m both excited and nervous for.

-I just got approved for disability a few days ago, which means my life is going to change a lot. I’ve got mixed feelings about it, because I really do want to find a new job, but in reality the only way I was able to work at my last job was because I had so many accommodations.

I don’t really want to tell my family about it, because I feel like they will be so so disappointed in me, but I need to do what is best for my health and right now that’s putting a pause on the job hunt.

If anyone has any suggestions on working while on SSDI, please let me know!

#SSDI #disabled #disability #spoonie #quarantine #unemployed #disabled baker #boston #bpd #bpd recovery

[pineapplebear26]

$5/$150

Crossposted to disability exchange Boston, trans exchange Boston, mutual aid mass, will update if & when funds are received from any and all groups

For the first time in my life I’ve overdrafted my account & I’m in the negatives $82. I have psych prescriptions to pick up tomorrow & need groceries and I could really use a hand with this ❤️

I’m struggling with a cyst in my brain, other chronic illnesses, a possibly broken foot, and hip arthritis and I don’t get paid until next Friday!

Closed comments on my surgery fundraiser for now

Venmo @christian-baker26

[pineapplebear26]

$5/$150

Crossposted to disability exchange Boston, trans exchange Boston, mutual aid mass, will update if & when funds are received from any and all groups

For the first time in my life I’ve overdrafted my account & I’m in the negatives $82. I have psych prescriptions to pick up tomorrow & need groceries and I could really use a hand with this ❤️

I’m struggling with a cyst in my brain, other chronic illnesses, a possibly broken foot, and hip arthritis and I don’t get paid until next Friday!

Closed comments on my surgery fundraiser for now

Venmo @christian-baker26

[pineapplebear26]

Also you can support me by buying treats from my baking website! I’m a professionally trained baker and I have a day job as a baker as well!

$0/$150

Crossposted to disability exchange Boston, trans exchange Boston, mutual aid mass, will update if & when funds are received from any and all groups

For the first time in my life I’ve overdrafted my account & I’m in the negatives $82. I have psych prescriptions to pick up tomorrow & need groceries and I could really use a hand with this ❤️

I’m struggling with a cyst in my brain, other chronic illnesses, a possibly broken foot, and hip arthritis and I don’t get paid until next Friday!

Closed comments on my surgery fundraiser for now

Venmo @christian-baker26

[pineapplebear26]

$0/$150

Crossposted to disability exchange Boston, trans exchange Boston, mutual aid mass, will update if & when funds are received from any and all groups

For the first time in my life I’ve overdrafted my account & I’m in the negatives $82. I have psych prescriptions to pick up tomorrow & need groceries and I could really use a hand with this ❤️

I’m struggling with a cyst in my brain, other chronic illnesses, a possibly broken foot, and hip arthritis and I don’t get paid until next Friday!

Closed comments on my surgery fundraiser for now

Venmo @christian-baker26

[pineapplebear26]

$5/$150

Crossposted to disability exchange Boston, trans exchange Boston, mutual aid mass, will update if & when funds are received from any and all groups

For the first time in my life I’ve overdrafted my account & I’m in the negatives $82. I have psych prescriptions to pick up tomorrow & need groceries and I could really use a hand with this ❤️

I’m struggling with a cyst in my brain, other chronic illnesses, a possibly broken foot, and hip arthritis and I don’t get paid until next Friday!

Closed comments on my surgery fundraiser for now

Venmo @christian-baker26

#disabled #fundraiser #funds request #request for help #disabled baker #please share #boston #overdraft #money assistance #funds ask #i need money #i need meds #meds mention #disability

[pineapplebear26]

The Migratory Bird Treaty Act was passed in 1818 and makes it illegal for people in the US to “take,” which means killing, injuring, or possessing, migratory birds in most circumstances. That includes accidental take, such as in oil spills, bioaccumuliation of poisons, or building on bird habitat. 

New proposed rules would make accidental takes legal. This change would mostly impact industries (and of course, the birds that they kill), and has nothing to do with people who pick up bird remains on purpose.

[pineapplebear26]

All trans guys are valid including:

Trans boys who wear skirts

Trans boys with long hair

Trans boys who paint their nails

Trans boys with colored hair

Trans boys who wear makeup

Trans boys who haven’t had top surgery

Trans boys who don’t want top surgery

Trans boys with wonky nipples

Trans boys with no nipples

Trans boys with self harm scars

Trans boys who wear heels

Trans boys who have mental health diagnoses

Trans boys who are disabled

Trans boys who knew since they were little

Trans boys who didn’t know until they were men

Trans boys who don’t always feel like boys

And I love you all 💕❤️💕❤️💕

Inbox is always open

#you’re all valid #just trans boy things #trans boy #trans men #transmasc #transmasculine #transgender male #transgender #ftm #ftm thoughts #positive vibes #trans is valid #this is valid

[pineapplebear26]

Today I traveled almost an hour to be seen for a “bridge” psychiatric appointment so I could have my medications refilled/adjusted, since I’ve been out for several weeks since my insurance dropped my psychiatrist with no warning in November. I arrived for my appointment, checked in, and waited almost forty five minutes after my appointment time to be seen, even though I had arrived half an hour early.

Within moments of sitting down with the provider, I was told that there had been a mistake in scheduling the appointment and that the provider I was speaking with was actually a social worker, and had no ability to prescribe me the medications I desperately need to keep from having to be hospitalized. (If I don’t get on them soon, this might be a very real possibility.)

They actually laughed in my face at the fact that the mistake had been made and that I had come all the way out there for nothing. In less than 3 minutes, I was sent back into the waiting room, where I waited for another hour so that I could have another appointment set up so I could actually have my medication that I need to function prescribed to me.

That appointment isn’t for another week. That is, if it actually is the right appointment this time.

This is, of course, because I had an intake on Monday with a therapist, that ended up telling me my psychiatry intake wouldn’t be until April. After waiting a month for the intake.

I made my initial phone call to start this process on December 10th. It is now almost February, and I am still without access to the medication I need. And I have health insurance. And I live in Boston, Massachusetts, where healthcare is supposedly plentiful, and easier to access than most parts of the country.

The healthcare system is failing EVERYONE. If it’s not failing you, it’s failing your friends, your neighbors, your coworkers.

I don’t even know what else to say.

#healthcare is broken #healthcare is a right #mental healthcare #mental health #therapy #meds #mental #mentally ill #therapists #psych drugs #psychiatry #us healthcare #health insurance #actually borderline #bernie 2020 #bernie sanders #bernie sander for president #fuck trump #fuck the us healthcare system #navigating healthcare

[pineapplebear26]

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-chris-with-pineal-cyst?utm_medium=copy_link&utm_source=customer&utm_campaign=p_na+share-sheet&rcid=9c61f31c5d7649a7a002e19a5a43ec03

#medical fundraiser #surgery fundraiser #surgery #brain surgery #PGCT #pineal tumors #pineal cysts #dr kim #disabled #please share #please reblog #gofundme #fundraiser #medical fund #disability #brain tumors #beain tumor

[pineapplebear26]

Reaching out to see if anyone could help out with $20 so I can get to my psychiatry appointment tomorrow, I’ve been out of my meds for a bit and it’s really important that I go but my arthritis is acting up too much to take public transit. Venmo @Christian-baker26

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-chris-with-pineal-cyst?utm_medium=copy_link&utm_source=customer&utm_campaign=p_na+share-sheet&rcid=9c61f31c5d7649a7a002e19a5a43ec03

Shoutout to everyone who is just now starting shoveling out childhood trauma even though you’ve been in therapy for ten years

Shoutout to kids who grew up too soon and have scars from it.

Shoutout to not knowing what your traumas were/are for years.

Shoutout to thinking you’re fine for a long time and something small sending you reeling

Shoutout to everyone who has never told anyone about their deepest traumas

Shoutout to anyone who wants to start healing…

They always say hindsight is 2020…. are you ready to start healing??

[pineapplebear26]

Anyone in the Boston Area want a cake for Valentine’s Day? 6” three layer cakes starting at $50. 10” cake pictured is $75!

https://www.treatsfortransrights.com

[pineapplebear26]

It’s ok to take breaks.

It’s ok to say no.

It’s ok to “let people down.”

Today I had to take a week (or possibly more) of medical leave to focus on my mental health that’s been snowballing for a while. My job will still be there when I get back.

Even if it wouldn’t, it would still be ok.

It’s ok to not be ok.

#mental health #its ok to not be ok #therapy #actually borderline #depression #anxiety #hospitalization #breakdown time #recovery

[pineapplebear26]

#accountability #mental health #spoonie #disabled #actually borderline #borderline problems #therapy #therapists #hot take

[pineapplebear26]

My intake for a new therapist & psychiatrist is on Monday. I’m super nervous about it because there’s a lot of symptoms I’ve been having that I’m really concerned about, but I know it’s going to be good to get back into it. I fucking hate that my insurance made me change providers. I’m off half my meds and I feel so chaotic and unregulated and I can’t sleep normally or eat healthy or barely even function. I’d give anything to be back to “normal” right now.

#spoonie #disability #disabled #depression #anxiety #bpd problems #actually borderline #therapy #psychiatry

[pineapplebear26]

Plz be soon

one day you will wake up refreshed, drink coffee and be able to read a book the same way you did when you were little. you will have a cat who curls up to sleep on your lap or a playful dog who is happy to see you. you will be the kindest you can be, listening to stories, and checking up on people often. you will make pancakes in the morning and decorate your abode with plants, your old paintings and cozy cushions. you will fill photo albums with blurry photos of your new friends and road trips and summery evenings. you will visit your favorite bakery and library often, and keep in touch with people you love. things won’t be perfect, but you’ll be at peace with yourself and you will be in love with life again. 

[pineapplebear26]

4C for life

5A period, honey .