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I just had a realization. So in acotar, we learn from Alis that Amarantha had declared herself high queen of Prythian. Later in acosf, Rhys is advised by some of his inner circle to take over Pythian and become the high king. I just realized that they were asking him to take on the same position as the woman who tormented him for 50 years. This just further shows how disconnected the inner circle was from Rhys’s trauma from those 50 years he spent as Amarantha’s sex slave.

#Acotar #acomaf #Acowar #acosf #amarantha #rhys acotar #feyre archeron #inner circle #cassian #azriel #amren #mor acotar #high fae #high queen #high king #high lord rhysand

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Ok, so I love how in acotar Nesta is so stubborn that fae glamours don’t work on her. Like, my girl is such a stone cold bitch that even her subconscious told the fae magic to fuck off. But it got me thinking, what if this doesn’t just apply to her with glamours, what if she sees the whole world like this. Like, we see especially in acosf how well she understands how the social game works and how to cut people the deepest. But what if that’s because something in Nesta is so strong willed that she sees through all the bullshit niceties of the world. What if Nesta lives in a world that is several shades darker then the one her sisters live in.

if you’ve read Heros of Olympus, it’s like how Nico saw Tartarus as it truly was rather then how Percy and Annabeth saw it. Like, you know that part where Percy sees Tartarus without the mist and can’t believe Nico didn’t go crazy? I think Nesta might be like that.

#acotar series #acotar #acomaf #acowar #acosf #nesta archeron #feyre archeron #elain archeron #nesta acosf #character arch #trauma #book things #sjm books #pjo #heros of olympus #nico di angelo #tartarus #the mist #glamours #high fae

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anyone else think that Who’s Afraid Of Little Old Me? is Nesta. Like, she’s seen by everyone as Feyre’s older sister that did nothing to save her. Cruel sure, but not scary. The inner cuticle, besides Cassian and Feyre, hate her at first. For most of the books she’s not powerful like Feyre or sweet like Elain, she’s just petulant and depressed. But then she steals from the cauldron, she becomes a god of death, she becomes terrifying. Even the Illyrian generals believe her when she says she’s a witch. I just think that the rage and power in who’s Afraid of Little Old Me? is absolutely Nesta.

#acotar series #acosf #nesta archeron #nesta x cassian #nesta acosf #acotar fandom #ttpd #the tortured poets department #whos afraid of little old me #taylor swift

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 49

I can’t believe it, it’s the last day of this series. I’ve posted one analysis for every day leading up to TTPD and it’s finally almost here. It feels right to end this with acceptance. So our final song of the era is Clean from 1989.

The drought was the very worst

When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst

It was months and months of back and forth

You're still all over me

Like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore

The years Remus spent waiting for Sirius and pretending he wasn’t was the worst of all. Everything they had ever had began to fade away, but Sirius was still marked in every part of Remus.

Hung my head as I lost the war

And the sky turned black like a perfect storm

They won the war but Remus lost it. He lost everything. His world turned back in a hailstorm of tears.

There was nothing left to do

When the butterflies turned to dust that covered my whole room

So I punched a hole in the roof

Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you

And there was nothing Remus could do, the love they shared turned to dust. Remus saw Sirius everywhere and nowhere. But he finally let the feeling he had pushed away back in.

The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud

But no one heard a thing

For a while it was awful, the waves of depression seemed never ending. For so long he had pushed away the heartbreak because it meant he was still love with Sirius.

Ten months sober, I must admit

Just because you're clean, don't mean you don't miss it

Ten months older, I won't give in

Now that I'm clean, I'm never gonna risk it

But now he’s finally over it. After all that hurt he finally feels ok again. He’s older now, and he won’t lie, he’s tempted to go back to Sirius now that he’s out. But he’s never going to risk it, not after the years it took to finally feel whole again.

Rain came pouring down

When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe

And by morning

Gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean

The worst of the pain, the all consuming sorrow came when he was drowning. But after the years of hurting in secret that’s when he could finally breath. And when he healed, he felt like he was finally clean at last.

wow, this is it. And it almost made me cry to write this. Tomorrow I will post a shout a shout out to the songs that I didn’t get a chance to do. Thank you so much for supporting me in this series. Let the new era begin.

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #fanfic #harry potter #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew #the tortured poets department

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 48

Today is depression. The song is Right Where You Left Me from evermore. POV Remus post war

Friends break up, friends get married

Strangers get born, strangers get buried

Trends change, rumors fly through new skies

But I'm right where you left me

Everyone around Remus seems to be picking up and moving on. Friends, classmates, get together, get married, break up. Everything Remus never did. People are born, and people die; things change around the world but Remus stays exactly where he was that night in 1971

Matches burn after the other

Pages turn and stick to each other

Wages earned and lessons learned

But I, I'm right where you left me

The years go on, time passes, pain returns again and again. Life goes on but all the pages in Remus’s story seem to be stuck where he was. Because he’s still right where Sirius left him.

I, I swear you could hear a hair pin drop

Right when I felt the moment stop

Glass shattered on the white cloth

Everybody moved on

I, I stayed there

And thinking back, remembering the moment he found out, everything is crystal clear, even though the years following are a haze. Remus swore that he could hear his heart beat in that moment time stopped. And then the world shattered around him. Everybody else moved past it, grieved and healed, but Remus stays that’s in that moment.

Did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen?

Time went on for everybody else, she won't know it

She's still 23 inside her fantasy

How it was supposed to be

He stays frozen in time. Time moves on for everyone who survived but everyday is a replay for Remus. In his mind he still feels 21, he still feels like his world ended yesterday.

Did you hear about the girl who lives in delusion?

Break-ups happen every day, you don't have to lose it

She's still 23 inside her fantasy

And you're sitting in front of me

Sometimes he wakes from a daydream, one where he’s with Sirius again and everything is how it should be, and for a moment he forgets that’s not reality . But Sirius is gone; he should be over it, it’s been years. He shouldn’t be dwelling on pain and betrayal. But how can he not when everyday rips his heart out again.

I cause no harm, mind my business

If our love died young, I can't bear witness

And it's been so long

But if you ever think you got it wrong

Remus pulls away from the world, hiding from the light of living. He remains in darkness, unwilling to let go of all the love that was torn away. And it’s been years, but if Sirius ever comes back, it it ever turns out that he never did what they claimed, then Remus will still be there. 

I'm right where you left me

You left me no, oh, you left me no

You left me no choice but to stay here forever

You left me

You left me no, oh, you left me no

You left me no choice but to stay here forever

Remus stays right there, just as he was when Sirius left. He left him no choice but to love him forever. To hate him forever. To feel a million things at once for the love of his life that ruined his world. Because he’s still right where Sirius left him

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #fanfic #marauders #harry potter #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 47

Today’s stage is bargaining, and the song This Is Me Trying from Folklore perfectly summarizes how Sirius feels after the prank. He knows he can’t make it better, but he’s trying. Whether or not Sirius and Remus were in a relationship before the prank is unspecified, although I think that the idea that they were makes more sense for the prompt, but the analysis is ambiguous.

I've been having a hard time adjusting

I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting

I didn't know if you'd care if I came back

I have a lot of regrets about that

Sirius can’t adjust to the way Remus sees him now, he used to feel so special, worthy, and now Remus won’t look at him. Sirius doesn’t even know if Remus cares that he came back to school, that he exists at all. And he knows it’s all his fault, and he regrets it all.

Could've followed my fears all the way down

And maybe I don't quite know what to say

But I'm here in your doorway

Sirius couldve listened to the voice in his head, the one that sounded like his mother, when it told him that Remus could never forgive him. When it said he was unlovable and what he did proved it. But he didn’t. He doesn’t know what to do, how to make it better, but he’s here.

I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying

I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying

All he wants is for Remus to know that he’s trying. He’s trying to be better, to make things right, to control his impulses, to make it up to Remus. He’s trying.

They told me all of my cages were mental

So I got wasted like all my potential

And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad

I have a lot of regrets about that

And Sirius knows it’s his fault, he let snape goad him, he let everyone’s words get to his head. And he knows his words and actions are cruel when he’s mad. He regrets that, the cruel streak he can’t seem to control.

And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound

It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you

You're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town

And it’s hard for Sirius to be there, in public, trying to look like he didn’t make the biggest mistake of his life. It’s hard to be anywhere when Remus is everywhere and all he can think about is how he irrevocably screwed up the best thing he ever had. Because Remus is the one person that never hurt Sirius, that never made him feel worthless. 

And I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying

(And maybe I don't quite know what to say)

I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying

At least I'm trying

Sirius needs to say that he’s trying. He knows that can’t get back what they had, what they could've had, but god he wants it. And Sirius being there, asking for forgiveness is him trying. At least he’s trying

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #fanfic #harry potter #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 46

today is anger. Our song is exile from folklore, dual POV of Remus and Sirius as they split apart after realizing they each suspected each other of being a spy.

And it took you five whole minutes

To pack us up and leave me with it

Holdin' all this love out here in the hall

It took all of five minuets for Sirius to leave, all of five minutes for him to give up on what they had spent the last ten years of their lives building. For him to leave Remus with only memories of their past.

Second, third, and hundredth chances

Balancin' on breaking branches

Those eyes add insult to injury

Sirius resents it, all the ways he knows that Remus had given him a second chance. But not this time, not this time because Sirius didn’t do anything. They’ve always been only a couple steps from a ledge, and the way Remus looks at Sirius, a Mix of heart, betrayal, and uncertainty, makes Sirius want to jump.

I think I've seen this film before

And I didn't like the ending

I'm not your problem anymore

So who am I offending now?

You were my crown

Now I'm in exile, seein' you out

Remus knows how this will end, and he doesn’t like it. And now that Sirius is gone Remus doesn’t care what people think. He doesn’t care about not getting to close to the werewolves because Sirius isn’t here to give him that look, the one that says he’s edging on dangerous territory. The one that says Sirius doesn’t trust him anymore. But who is he offending now, Sirius and his precious reputation are gone. Because Sirius was everything to Remus, and knowing he didn’t trust him makes him want to lock everyone out.

So step right out, there is no amount

Of crying I can do for you

All this time

We always walked a very thin line

You didn't even hear me out (you didn't even hear me out)

And Sirius is watching Remus step back, watching him stop fighting for them. Because Sirius knows that there is no amount of crying can make Remus want him back, nothing that can make him listen. The whole war they’ve been treading on thin ice, but this time Remus didn’t even listen to Sirius. Didn’t give him a chance to prove that he wasn’t his last name.

All this time

I never learned to read your mind (never learned to read my mind)

I couldn't turn things around (you never turned things around)

'Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)

So many signs, so many signs

You didn't even see the signs

In all the time they’ve been together Remus never felt like he truly knew Sirius, he could never read his mind. And he couldn’t fix the gap between them, no matter how hard he tried. Sirius never gave Remus any signs that he would leave the moment the trust wavered; except he gave so many signs. There were so many signs that their trust was breaking, so many signs Remus never saw.

I think I've seen this film before

And I didn't like the ending

You're not my homeland anymore

So what am I defending now?

You were my town

Now I'm in exile, seein' you out

I think I've seen this film before

So I'm leavin' out the side door

Sirius and Remus know that this is how it ends, even if they hate it. Even if it makes them want to set the world on fire and watch it burn. And they were everything to each other, what do they have now that they know they never trusted each other not to be spies. And now they’re alone, watching the other fade away. And they’re ending before they have to face the final blow

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #harry potter #fanfic #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew

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‘I would die for you’ is all fine and well but ‘I would kill for you’ is just, AHHHHHH. Like it is superior.

#wolfstar #enemies to lovers #xaden riorson #violet sorrengail #violet and xaden #feyre archeron #rhysand #rhys x feyre #cassian #nesta archeron #nesta x cassian #book tumblr

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 45

Today is the first stage of heartbreak: denial. The song, from the ‘I Love You, It’s Ruining My Life’ playlist is False God from Lover. It explores themes of senile in their relationship and problems deeper then the war they pinned them on.

We were crazy to think

Crazy to think that this could work

Remember how I said I'd die for you?

Remus knows that it’s stupid to think that he and Sirius could work out. They were crazy to think they could work out just because they loved each other. They were in the middle of a fight for their lives and Remus knew he would die for Sirius, but would he die for them?

We were stupid to jump

In the ocean separating us

Remember how I'd fly to you?

And it was stupid to jump into a relationship when there seemed to be miles between walls Remus couldn’t ever break through. But that never stopped him from trying.

And I can't talk to you when you're like this

Staring out the window like I'm not your favorite town

I'm New York City

I still do it for you, babe

And Remus can’t talk to Sirius when he gets in his moods, acting like Remus isn’t his favorite thing when he knows he is.

I know heaven's a thing

I go there when you touch me

Honey hell is when I fight with you

Remus knows that they have something though. He feels like he’s only alive when he’s with Sirius, like he’s only died when he isn’t.

But we can patch it up good

Make confessions and we're begging for forgiveness

Got the wine for you

But they can fix it, they have to. Sirius can break down his walls, Remus can be vulnerable for Sirius. They can say sorry and make it better.

But we might just get away with it

Religion's in your lips

Even if it's a false god

We'd still worship

We might just get away with it

The altar is my hips

Even if it's a false god

We'd still worship this love

And against all odds Remus feels like they might just be able to do it. They might just be able to survive being in love in the middle of a war. Even if it seems doomed to fail, even if love can’t survive in a world of hate, they can still try.

And you can't talk to me when I'm like this

Daring you to leave me just so I can try and scare you

You're the West Village

You still do it for me, babe

They all warned us about times like this

They say the road gets hard and you get lost when you're led by blind faith

Blind faith

Remus knows he’s not present to be around when he lashes out at people, goading Sirius to leave just to see if he will. To see if he really means it when he promises to stay. And everyone warned them about love in a time like this, they said that they would never make it if they fell together hearts first, never bringing their heads into the mix until it seemed too late.

Still worship this love

Even if it's a false god

Even if it's a false god

Still worship this love

But they still worship their love. Even despite their problems, and the war around them they still have their love. And that’s enough, it has to be

so in this song, I really chose to explore themes of denial that I often see in fics about this relationship. Especially how Sirius and Remus tend to blame their relationship problems on other problems occurring in their lives, even when it’s not necessarily true. For some reason I feel like denial is the happiest stage and even it’s breaking my heart to write. I have a feeling the next five days are going to be rough.

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #fanfic #james potter #hp fandom #harry potter #taylor swift #peter pettigrew #I love you It’s ruining my life

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 44

So, this is most likely going to be the last happy song in the series. For the next five days, until the 18th, I am going to be doing one song from each of Taylor’s five playlists for the stages of heartbreak that being sad, please enjoy today’s song, Mine from Speak Now, pov Sirius.

Do you remember, we were sittin' there by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Sirius remembers the start of their relationship, the time Remus casually laced their fingers together as they sat by the Great Lake. Sirius is a rebel, true, but until Remus he had never wanted to put his heart on the line for a chance at love.

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together

And there's a drawer of my things at your place

You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded

You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

Even after they graduate Hogwarts Remus doesn’t leave Sirius, he doesn’t grow tired of his company. They share all their things, and slowly Sirius is learning how to share his scars with Remus too. And Remus promises Sirius that he will never be like his family, they won’t ever ‘love’ in a way that crushes your soul.

But we got bills to pay

We got nothin' figured out

When it was hard to take

Yes, yes

This is what I thought about

And the world around them is crazy, they have to learn to be adults in the middle of war, something they have no idea how to do. But even when things seemed unbearable, having Remus, being with Remus, made Sirius a hundred times better.

And I remember that fight, 2:30 AM

As everything was slipping right out of our hands

I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Sirius remembers getting into a fight in the heat of the war, he remembers tensions flaring and suspicions growing. He felt like everything they had built was being torn away, like the people they were fighting for were turning them against each other.

Braced myself for the goodbye

'Cause that's all I've ever known

Then you took me by surprise

You said, "I'll never leave you alone"

Sirius prepared himself for Remus to leave, for their love to be a cruel twist of fate like to many other thing in his life. But Remus surprised him. He stayed; he promised to keep staying.

Hold on and make it last

Hold on, never turn back

(Hold on) you made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

(Hold on)  you are the best thing that's ever been mine 

Do you believe it? 

We're gonna make it now 

And I can see it 

I can see it now

Sirius vows to hold onto Remus, to never let him go. He vows not to let the war tear them apart anymore. He will never not trust Remus again because he is the best thing that Sirius had ever had.

I already have a couple ideas for what songs I’m going to do, but if you have any recommendations/requests, please let me know in the comments!

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #fanfic #harry potter #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 43

this song is short, yes, but it is perfectly lovely and heartbreaking. POV Remus after Sirius is out of Azkaban.

I remember tears streaming down your face 

When I said I'll never let you go

Remus remembers how broken Sirius was. He remembers the way his heart had cracked in two when the man he had never stopped loving started sobbing in his arms because he hadn’t felt them in twelve years. He remembers the indescribable pain of knowing that he could have stopped this, but all he could do was promise to never let go again.

When all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said don't leave me here alone

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Remus remembers how he came back different, how the darkness of Azkaban almost extinguished his ever burning light. He remembers how Sirius whispered ‘don’t leave me’ in the middle of the night, and how Remus held him tighter as they cried.

Don't you dare look out your window, darling, everything's on fire

The war outside our door keeps raging on

Hold onto this lullaby even when the music's gone, gone

And Remus wishes he could protect Sirius, wishes the universe wouldn’t be so cruel as to rip them apart with a war and bring them back together in its sequel. He knows that the war outside is coming ever closer but for now all he wants to do is give Sirius peace.

Just close your eyes, the sun is going down

You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now

Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound

Remus promises Sirius that he will get better, and little by little he does. Remus promises Sirius that no one can hurt him in Remus’s arms, that Harry is safe at school and he is safe here, with Remus. He promises that they will be safe and sound.

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #fanfic #harry potter #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew #post azkaban sirius

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 42

Todays song is Dress from Reputation, which I have actually posted about before outside of this series, but here is my full analysis, pov Sirius bc this song is Sirius

Our secret moments in your crowded room

They got no idea about me and you

There is an indentation in the shape of you

Made your mark on me, a golden tattoo

No one has any idea how Sirius feels, no one knows about the secret looks they exchange that make him wonder if Remus could feel the same way. No one knows about the moments they share, alone in a room full of people. Remus has become a permanent scar on Sirius’s heart, a wound that Sirius never wants to heal.

Say my name and everything just stops

I don't want you like a best friend

Only bought this dress so you could take it off

Take it off

Carve your name into my bedpost

'Cause I don't want you like a best friend

Only bought this dress so you could take it off

Take it off

When Remus talks to Sirius he feels like the world stops. He can’t focus on anything but Remus. He wants him, wants to keep him forever. And Sirius can feel Remus staring, so why can’t he figure out that Sirius only wore these clothes so Remus could take them off.

Inescapable, I'm not even gonna try

And if I get burned, at least we were electrified

I'm spilling wine in the bathtub

You kiss my face and we're both drunk

Everyone thinks that they know us

But they know nothing about

Remus is an inescapable force, like gravity. Or at least Sirius assumes so, he’s never tried to run anyhow. And if they go down in flames at least he will have felt the heat. All of their friends think they get it, all the little touches when they’re drunk, but they have no idea.

All of this silence and patience, pining in anticipation

My hands are shaking from holding back from you (ah, ah, ah)

All of this silence and patience, pining and desperately waiting

Sirius is always on edge from the way they are, constant pining and waiting has him desperately wanting. Desperately wanting Remus.

Even in my worst times

You could see the best of me

Flashback to my mistakes

My rebounds, my earthquakes

Even in my worst lies

You saw the truth in me

And I woke up just in time

Now I wake up by your side

My one and only, my lifeline

Even when Sirius was at his lowest, even when he had done the worst thing that he had ever done, Remus saw him. He saw that Sirius was sorry, that he felt really and truly awful. And despite what he did, Remus forgave him. And Sirius changed just in time, and now he has Remus, the center of his world.

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #fanfic #harry potter #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 41

Todays song is Cruel Summer from Lover, pov Remus as he and Sirius fall into a ‘casual’ relationship that’s killing Remus.

Fever dream high in the quiet of the night

You know that I caught it

Bad, bad boy

Shiny toy with a price

You know that I bought it

Remus knows he can’t help falling for Sirius. He know that Sirius is a bad idea, but god does he want him. And he knows that he’s going to pay the price for it, but in the moment he can’t remember why.

Killing me slow, out the window

I'm always waiting for you to be waiting below

Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes

What doesn't kill me makes me want you more

And it’s killing him, the way he and Sirius are together/not together. He’s always waiting for Sirius to be waiting for him, and he can never seem to stop. Everything about Sirius that doesn’t kill Remus makes him want Sirius infinitely more.

So cut the headlights, summer's a knife

I'm always waiting for you just to cut to the bone

Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes

And if I bleed, you'll be the last to know

Even though Remus always seems to be waiting for Sirius to put the final nail in the coffin of … whatever they are. He’s always waiting for Sirius to hurt him to badly for them to go on; but if he did Remus knows that Sirius would be the last to know.

Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true

I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you

And I snuck in through the garden gate

Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh)

And I screamed for whatever it's worth

"I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?

He looks up grinning like a devil

Remus always tells Sirius that he’s ok, but he’s always lying. Having Sirius but not being with him is killing him, but being completely apart from Sirius would be worse. And every time he reaches the a breaking point, screaming at Sirius that he loves him to no response Sirius flashes him that Sirius black smile and he falls right back into his arms.

It's new, the shape of your body

It's blue, the feeling I've got

And it's ooh, whoa, oh

It's a cruel summer

It's cool, that's what I tell 'em

No rules, in breakable heaven

But ooh, whoa, oh

It's a cruel summer

With you

Everything about Sirius is new, and tragic, and exhilarating. He tells everyone that it’s fine, tries to convince himself that they’re just playing by the rules, which are none. Falling for Sirius when he keeps pushing Remus away when he gets too close is cruel. But it’s also wonderful. It’s a cruel summer.

#wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #marauders #harry potter #fanfic #james potter #hp fandom #taylor swift #peter pettigrew #Lover #cruel summer

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 40

we officially have only 10 more days until TTD! And I don’t know about you, but I think Taylor Swift and the number 10 only one thing comes to mine. So please enjoy today’s song, All Too Well, Red, from the vault. POV Remus as he remembers his relationship while Sirius is in Azkaban.

And I know it's long gone and there was nothing else I could do And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to

Remus knows it’s gone, he knows it’s not his fault, but each time he manages to forget Sirius his traitorous heart forgets why they fell apart.

And there we are again when nobody had to know You kept me like a secret, but I kept you like an oath Sacred prayer and we'd swear To remember it all too well, yeah

And memories of them are everywhere, Remus can’t stop seeing them before it all broke down. He can’t stop seeing them when they were still a secret. And Sirius fought to keep that secret while Remus fought to keep him. They swore to stay together but it seems they were destined to go up in flames.

And maybe we got lost in translation Maybe I asked for too much But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up Running scared, I was there I remember it all too well

Sure, it could have been him, asking for more than Sirius was willing to give, misinterpreting what he said. But Remus knows it wasn’t. He knows that in the end it was Sirius who ripped them apart, betraying Remus as he ran scared from what they had.

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it I'd like to be my old self again But I'm still trying to find it After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own

Remus desperately tries to get over it, to go back to being himself again but he can’t. Because he’s never been himself, not really, without Sirius at his side. And he can’t find it now, not after he finally had Sirius and then lost him. Not when he knows Sirius took a piece of his heart.

They say all's well that ends well, but I'm in a new hell Every time you double-cross my mind

Everyone tells Remus it will be okay again but every time he thinks of Sirius, of the betrayal, he's sent spiraling back into misery

'Cause there we are again when I loved you so Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known It was rare, I was there I remember it all too well

And he can’t forget it. Everywhere he turns he sees Sirius. He sees Sirius and him in love before Sirius broke the best thing the both of them ever had. They were rare, a once in a lifetime kind of love.

I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue? Just between us, did the love affair maim you too?

And though the war is over Remus feels like it stole a part of him, like Sirius took a part of Remus when he left. And Remus can’t help but wonder if Sirius is just as miserable as he is, if their love hurt him the same.

Just between us, do you remember it all too well? Just between us, I remember it (Just between us) all too well

Remus wonders if even in Azkaban Sirius remembers being in love, remembers what they had. Because Remus knows that he remembers it all too well.

This song also works for Remus post prank, let me know what you think!

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 39

today’s song is going to be Snow On The Beach from Midnights. It is pov Sirius as he and Remus fall in love.

One night, a few moons ago I saw flecks of what could've been lights But it might just have been you Passing by unbeknownst to me Life is emotionally abusive And time can't stop me quite like you did

Sirius knew, one night he just knew. He knew it would be always Remus who lit up his life, it had always been Remus who set his world aglow, even when he didn’t see it. And life is cruel, yes, but the way Remus stops Sirius’s world until it narrows to only him makes it all fade away.

I've never seen someone lit from within Blurring out my periphery My smile is like I won a contest And to hide that would be so dishonest And it's fine to fake it 'til you make it 'Til you do, 'til it's true

Sirius has never known somone who makes him feel quite like Remus does. Somone who draws all of Sirius’s attention the moment he walks into a room, blurring out anything else. And he could hide it, but it feels immeasurably wrong to hide something with a force like no other. And Sirius has spent his whole life pretending to be fine, but with Remus he’s more than fine; he’s whole.

I can't speak afraid to jinx it I don't even dare to wish it But your eyes are flying saucers from another planet Now I'm all for you like Janet Can this be a real thing? Can it?

Sirius can’t say what he knows is written on his face, he’s too afraid to break it. But Remus captures Sirius’s heart like nothing else, and he’s begging for the love between them to be real.

Are we falling like snow at the beach? Weird but fuckin' beautiful Flying in a dream, stars by the pocketful You wanting me tonight feels impossible But it's comin' down, no sound, it's all around Like snow on the beach

Sirius can’t help wondering if he and Remus are falling in love as they stand there; if he hasn’t already fallen for Remus. And he knows they are the last thing anyone would expect but they feel so right. It’s like a dream, Remus actually falling for Sirius seems impossible but it’s happening right in front of his eyes. Love is all around them; weird, strange, beautiful, exhilarating, and perfect. Just like snow on the beach.

Please let me know if you liked this, it would mean so much!

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[oh-my-wolfstar]

Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 38

sorry for the delay, but today’s song is I Know Places from 1988. It is pov Remus as their relationship evolves over the years.

Somethin' happens when everybody finds out See the vultures circling, dark clouds Love's a fragile little flame, it could burn out It could burn out

Remus always knew that it would be the world that broke him and Sirius. He knew they were in love, but he didn’t know if they could withstand the force of everyone’s opinions or expectations.

Baby, I know places we won't be found, and They'll be chasing their tails trying to track us down 'Cause I, I know places we can hide I know places

But Remus know that they can be together without the rest of the world getting involved . Everyone might be watching Sirius, waiting for him to live up to his lat name, but they won’t find them.

Lights flash and we'll run for the fences Let them say what they want, we won't hear it Loose lips sink ships all the damn time Not this time

Even in the middle of a war they can be together. They’ve grown since their Hogwarts years, the world can say what they want but Remus and Sirius have grown together.

They are the hunters, we are the foxes And we run Just grab my hand and don't ever drop it My love

The world is hunting them but they will survive if they hold onto each other, if they hold onto love.

they take their shots, but we're bulletproof I know places and you know for me, it's always you I know places

When it comes down to it, when the world tries to break them they don’t crack. Because Remus know that they will always be it for eachother, and he knows places where they can just be.

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Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 37

Today’s song will be Long Story Short from evermore. It’s pov Sirius post Azkaban but it is happier and more hopeful, it’s what would have happened if they survived through the war.

Fatefully I tried to pick my battles 'til the battle picked me Misery Like the war of words I shouted in my sleep

Sirius tried not to fight with Remus, he tried to pick his battles but how could he when his life had become a war zone. He argued with himself all the time, a mental war of grief and suspicion raging inside, fed by the world he lived in.

And you passed right by I was in the alley, surrounded on all sides The knife cuts both ways If the shoe fits, walk in it 'til your high heels break

Remus never truly saw what was happening to Sirius, and Sirius knows. He never knew how he ended up in the right place at the wrong time. But it hurt them both just the same, the way the world forced Sirius to be something he never was and never would be.

Actually I always felt I must look better in the rear view Missing me At the golden gates they once held the keys to

Sirius always felt that everyone liked him better when he was gone, he wondered if Remus ever realized what they had till it was taken away. When I dropped my sword I threw it in the bushes and knocked on your door And we live in peace But if someone comes at us This time, I'm ready

But when Sirius gave up the war he had never stopped fighting he ran to Remus. He ended the years of massacring himself to be happy, to believe he deserved that at least. And this time he won’t let war tear them apart.

No more keepin' score now I just keep you warm No more tug of war now I just know there's more

Sirius is done second guessing the people he loves, he’s done letting the world dictate his heart. Now he only wants to be with Remus, because he knows there more in love than there will ever be in war.

Now I'm all about you I'm all about you, ah Yeah, yeah I'm all about you

Now Sirius is all in, he’s done not trusting anyone. Now he’s going to trust Remus and the love they have with all his heart.

I wanna tell you not to get lost in these petty things Your nemeses Will defeat themselves before you get the chance to swing

Sirius wants to tell Remus to let the petty fights go because the war will end with or without them. They will aid the effort but they will no longer let it consume them.

And I fell from the pedestal Right down the rabbit hole Long story short, it was a bad time Pushed from the precipice Climbed right back up the cliff Long story short, I survived

And Sirius knows why they shouldn’t become the war they fight. He knows because he paid the price, lost twelve years of his life and was marked a traitor. He spent his youth fighting, he lost his youth to Azkaban. And in there he lost everything, bushed to the brink of madness. But he pulled himself back together, mended his broken soul and learned to love without fight. He came back from hell and went to his love; because long story short he survived.

actually, I’ve been having fun exploring life after Azkaban and during the second Wizard war, it’s so interesting to think about all the things that Sirius lost, and the way he was able to come back. I think long story short sums that up perfectly.

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