heranxiouslife

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I don't want to lose you

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I can't even go through with it. I'm pathetic

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I can't do this anymore. I can't keep hurting those around me, the ones I love.

I'm no good for you. I can't be what you deserve. I'm broken. All I do is hurt you.

I'm sorry.

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Advice I lived by

Do one thing a day that is productive. Whether that be work or school related. Something to tick off the to do list

Do one thing a day that will make you feel better. For me, this is cooking a healthy meal. Going for a run. Having a shower.

Do one thing a day solely for you. Because you enjoy it. For me, that was reading, or coloring, or being with friends.

This is the advice given to me by my therapist a few months ago. I've modified the exact wording slightly (memory issues) but it still pretty solid advice, I think. Of course, this doesn't mean you can't do more of these things. Repeat them. This is the minimum. If you can.

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Take stock of what you do have, not what you used to have

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I feel so alone

I'm sick of texting you. I'm sick of waiting hours or even minutes for a response. I'm sick of the distance. I'm sick of not being able to portray my true feelings correctly in text. I'm sick of picking fights, because I miss you.

I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss the sounds of other people around me. I never do well on my own.

I hate the distance between us. How it feels like I'm slipping away from everyone. How they're all having a much better time without me.

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He said it back

I told him I loved him

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Everything is going well right now

So why do I feel like this? Why is there a huge empty feeling in my chest?

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I feel happy.

And I'm terrified because of it. Fuck it. I'm just gonna enjoy it

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I just want to feel something

All I feel is emptiness. There is a pain in my chest, a hole even. Not exactly where my heart is. More like my entire body is empty

and I can't figure out why.

I don't look like myself. I don't recognise the girl in the photos on the wall. I don't remember who I was back then.

I thought I was growing as a person, but clearly I'm just getting worse.

How to do I go back to how I was? How do I improve?

I just want to feel something other than this loneliness I have inside me. The feeling that nothing matters, nothing is real.

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I'm not a good person

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do you ever look at strangers smiling or dancing or having fun and think “i love you”? or see someone bop their heads along with the music from their headphones and you just wish you could tell them how pretty they look doing just that? or feel your heart warm when you watch someone laugh really loudly and then think about them later that day, completely randomly? you’re a part of that, too. someone has kept quiet about how beautiful you are to them, has smiled at the thought of this complete stranger that made their day, has repeated a joke you made to someone they love. there’s a lot of quiet love and admiration and connection in this world and even if you think you don’t belong, you’ve always been and always will be a part of it.

[heranxiouslife]

Take some time to recharge

Today's one of those days when I'm struggling to get out of bed. Instead of beating myself up over this, I'm going to take it one little bit at a time. Maybe start by going on a walk to one of my favourite views x

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What am I doing?

I don't know what I'm doing. I'm not acting like myself. But maybe that's a good thing? I always overthink and am too nervous to be who I really want to be. But who I am right now doesn't feel like me either.

I'm not sleeping. I can't. My brain won't switch off.

I'm falling behind on school work. I've never done this - no matter how hard its been I've always pushed through. Why can't I know?

I'm not being a good friend. I've never been a perfect friend but I've never hurt my friends like this. I don't mean to - it just seems that nothing I do is good enough. Its never right. Never enough

I'm looking at myself in the mirror and I don't recognise myself. My appearance has changed. Hair dye and piercings done so I could feel something for once. But now I just don't recognise the girl looking back at me.

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I don't feel like myself

I don't know how to explain it but it just doesn't feel right. It hasn't for a few days.

I tried to push through it but I can't. I cleaned my room, did some work, showered, washed the dishes. I tried to act like everything was fine.

I don't know what else to do. I tried to talk to my friend about it, but how do you explain that nothing feels like its really happening without sounding crazy? How do I put into words that everything feels fake - that every action right now feels out of place.

Should I just wallow in this feeling? Is this something I'm just going to have to put up with until I'm out the other side.

I don't know. All I know is I want my family. But they're not here. And I can't explain this without worrying them, or my friends around me.

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[heranxiouslife]

it’s okay if trauma has made you angry. your subconscious reaction is to protect yourself, and sometimes this is how it’s expressed: it doesn’t make you a bad person