hell--and-silence

[hell--and-silence]

Loving you shouldn’t make me want to cry. But it does. It does, and that breaks my heart.

3 a.m thoughts #118

#3am thoughts #spilled thought #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #broken heart #heartbreak #love #in love #sad #alone #lonely #depressed #heartbroken #cheated on #hurt #cry #crying

[hell--and-silence]

By the time you've thought about relapse, you've already lost.

Ten Word Story #44

#spilled ink #spilled thoughts #relapse #suicidal #suicidal thoughts #self harm #cutting #TW: cutting #tw: suicial thoughts #depressed #depression #quote #lonely #alone #trigger warning #sad #mental illness #mental health #tw: eating disorder #eating disorder #anorexia #bulimia #anorexic #bulimic

[hell--and-silence]

As you get older and grow up, you come to learn that there is nothing poetic or romantic about your pain and that all that time you spent waiting for someone to recognize your suffering and save you from yourself was nothing more than time wasted. No one notices because you are not special. No one talks to you about what you’re dealing with because you won’t tell them about it. No one realizes you are hurting because you pretend that everything is fine. You are no one’s responsibility but your own and the sooner you learn that the sooner you just might wake up and put the same kind of time and effort into yourself that you wish someone else would. The longer it takes you to do that, the more likely you’ll end up dead.

3 a.m. thoughts #117

#personal #depressed #depression #suicidal #Suicidal Thoughts #trigger warning #tw: suicial thoughts #tw: depression #self harm #self hatred #i am feeling majorly fucked up #sad #alone #lonely #fucked up #help #self help #waiting #3AM #3am thoughts

[hell--and-silence]

Please come back.

Things could never be the same between us but that doesn’t keep me from missing you

#personal #3am #3am thoughts #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #i miss you #it's been ages #but sometimes i remember how much i miss you #and it hurts #friendship #lost friendships #lost friend #lost relationships #relationship #alone #lonely #come back

[hell--and-silence]

I'm not enough for you. I was never enough to make you stay and I won't ever be enough to make you come back. And, somehow, I have to learn to live with the fact that everything I am is nothing that you wanted. And it kills me. It just kills me.

3 a.m. thoughts #116

#personal #my life #3am thoughts #3am #spilled thought #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #depressed #depression #alone #lonely #lost friendships #lost friend #lost friends #friends #friend #relationships #relationship #lost relationships #not enough #everyone i love leaves me #leaving

[hell--and-silence]

I know you don't care about me, so why am I still wasting my time on you?

3 a.m. thoughts #115

#personal #my life #3am #3am thoughts #spilled thought #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #lost relationships #relationships #lost friends #friendship #lost friendships #friends

[hell--and-silence]

I think the only good thing that comes from heartbreak is the writing material.

3 a.m. thoughts #114

#personal #my life #3am thoughts #3am #spilled thought #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #heart break #heartbreak #broken heart #alone #lonely #depressed #depression #relationships #relationship #lost relationships #friendship #lost friends #lost friendships #writing material

[hell--and-silence]

I don't miss you.

Lies I Tell Myself #2

#personal #my life #spilled words #spilled thought #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #lies i tell myself #i miss you #i don't miss you #lost friendships #lost friends #lost relationships #relationships #depressed #depressions #depression #alone #lonely

[hell--and-silence]

You don't matter to me anymore.

Lies I Tell Myself #1

#personal #my life #lies i tell myself #six word story #six word poem #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #lost friends #lost friendships #relationships #lost relationships #alone #lonely #depressed #depression

[hell--and-silence]

Everyone I love leaves me. So why did I think that you'd be any different?

3 a.m. thoughts #114

#personal #my life #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #3am #3am thoughts #alone #depressed #depression #everyone i love leaves me #lost friendships #lost friends #friendship #love #naive #lonely #sad #abandoned #abandonment

[hell--and-silence]

I never wanted anything more than to be your friend. Was that too much to ask?

3 a.m. thoughts #113

#personal #my life #3am #3am thoughts #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #alone #lonely #depressed #depression #friendships #lost friends #lost friendships #sad

[hell--and-silence]

I wonder how long it's going to be before you're not the first person I want to talk to in the morning and the last person I want hear from at night.

3 a.m. thoughts #112

#personal #my life #3am #3am thoughts #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #depressed #depression #alone #lonely #sad #heartbreak #broken heart #lost friends #lost friendships #friendship #i keep catching myself thinking about messaging you #but i know it's not a good idea #i wish you'd stop being the first person i want to talk to when i feel like shit #i miss you #i haven't heard from you in 3 months #i should be over it by now #but i don't exactly do the whole letting go thing #so here we are

[hell--and-silence]

How is it possible that the people who are in my life the least affect me the most?

3 a.m thoughts #111

#personal #my life #3am #3am thoughts #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #alone #lonely #depressed #depression #abandoned #abandonment #lost friends #lost friendships #friends #friendship

[hell--and-silence]

I miss you. Please come back.

Six word story #41

#i miss you like crazy #and i hate that i do #but there's nothing i can do about it #personal #my life #depressed #depression #alone #lonely #friendship #friendships #lost friendships #abandoned #abandonment #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #six word story

[hell--and-silence]

My mistake was thinking you cared for me as much as I cared for you.

3 a.m. thoughts #110

#personal #my life #3am #3am thoughts #depressed #depression #alone #lonely #love #care #friends #friendship #lost relationships #lost friendships #lost friends #lost friend #unrequited love #unrequited feelings #unrequited

[hell--and-silence]

Silly girl.  You hand yourself over to people who you love, thinking they will love you in return.  'This time,' you say. 'This time they'll stay for sure.' But they never do.  And you never learn.

3 a.m. thoughts #109

#personal #my life #3am #3am thoughts #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #alone #lonely #depressed #depression #abandoned #abandonment #sad

[hell--and-silence]

When did I become who I never wanted to be?

Ten Word Story #43

#spilled ink #spilled thoughts #ten word story #ten word poem #ten word poetry #question #quote #personal #depressed #depression #suicidal #trigger warning #alone #lonely #sad #mental illness #mental health