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real.

WHY ALCOHOL HAS TO HAVE CALORIES!!! WHY!!!!

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What are the best diet pills? Starving has been getting harder.

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reminiscing today

i just thought about the first full day fast i had. i was in middle school (8th grade) and i was cheering at a basketball game after school. my parents ate dinner when we got home but i claimed i had already eaten. i just remember sitting in my bed feeling empty and absolute euphoria. little did i know a few years later i’d be eating once every 2 weeks. was not as euphoric then, i was actually dying. but anyway, that first time is one i’ll never forget.

#anamia #anorexik #ed disorder #anarecia #ana things #anarexx #tw eating stuff #ed tumblr #tw ana diary #ed bllog #ana trigger #4norex1a #i hate my body #ed tingz #ed problems #tw ed content #anareksia #tw ana relapse #tw ana fast

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self motivation

soooo, debating posting my pre treatment pics for my own thinsp0, should i? i was under 80lbs… if it’s something that people wanna see i’ll totally share i need to be reminded of what i miss.

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self motivation

soooo, debating posting my pre treatment pics for my own thinsp0, should i? i was under 80lbs… if it’s something that people wanna see i’ll totally share i need to be reminded of what i miss.

#thin #anareksia #anarecia #ana things #ana trigger #tw ana diary #anarexx #ana stuff #anamia #anorexik #ed but not sheeran #tw eating stuff #tw ed content #ed disorder #ed tumblr #ed tingz #ed problems #4norex1a #th1nsp1r4t10n #skiny body #bonesp0

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This starts off preachy and I’m so sorry 🤡 I swear this ask doesn’t stay that way

I’m not going to provide any tips because I don’t want to possibly aid in anything bad happening to you, but I will say please don’t do diet pills. A lot of them can be genuinely dangerous and just not worth the risk.

As for heart stuff- mine is abnormally fast now, so I will say don’t overdo it if you feel it beating hard. Even if you’re just taking a walk- it doesn’t mean you’re weak or that you have no stamina, it just means that your heart doesn’t have enough nutrients so it’s working overtime and might need a rest. Electrolyte water was pretty helpful for me when it was bad, so that might help with any heart stuff as well! (And try to avoid too much caffeine at one time for obvious reasons… I say this after drinking an energy drink… so as I say, not as I do).

Remember to drink water, take your vitamins, etc.

Sending energy and hugs/warm blankets <3

i really appreciate your advice, it means a lot and i am very hesitant towards the diet pills and the risks do worry me. i need to stay away from caffeine lol, i drink way too much. anyway, thank you for caring <333

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help

so, let’s keep a long story short. i was under 80lbs back in nov, (5’6” and newly 17 for reference) and my heart almost gave out, so i was hospitalized for 3 months and forced to gain back i don’t know how much. (followed up with 6 week php program). the whole time i was planning my relapse. i feel larger than i ever have been, and i desparately need to know what i weigh to get a grip on things. i’ve been back to omad for over a month and i feel like i’m gaining. my body adjusted back so fast. i’m considering diet pills. idk if they work or what to look for. i have to be careful with being secretive, or i know i will be sent back inpatient. i need help. i’m hoping this summer i’ll be able to avoid being home and thus go back to what i was doing a year ago. i’ve been dealing with ana since i was 12, and i don’t think it’ll ever go away. any tips or people looking for mutuals/coaches greatly welcomed!! be safe <3

#ed disorder #tw ana diary #ed tingz #ed problems #ed thots #tw ed content #ana things #anarecia #anarexx #anareksia #anamia #anorexik #i will be skiny #i hate it so much #i hate my body #i hate this #i hate my brain #send help #dietary supplement #pr0ana diet #the chic diet #weight loss #relapse mention #tw edtwt #ed twt

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i just need to get this out. so, bul1m1a relapse has h i t. i only drink diet coke and homemade 30 cal iced coffee to get me through. i feel as sick as when i was in deep with a^n^a the last time. i’ve been struggling with these two ed’s very hardcore since i was 12, i am almost 16. my lowest weight was 106, and then i got up to 145 in about a month of ”recovery”. i’m now back to 120 since the past month and a half. things are just getting real bad real fast. i only eat one meal, and restrict as much as i can with it, then p0rge it immediately. i consume no food other than that daily. i am NOT promoting this, i just need to be heard and validated. i have been so sick for years and nobody has known how bad i truly am. idk if it’ll ever get better.

#bulimyc #i will be skiny #anorektyczki #bulmic #bulmia #bulimua #i hate my body #bulimik #bulimima #anareksia #anarecia #ana things #anarexx #anamia #anorexik #ed tingz #tw ed content #tw eating stuff #ed problems #ed tumblr #ed thots #eating disoder things #eatung disorder #tw eating things

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i truly can’t do this anymore. i binged. but hey, hit a new low of 107:)

#anarexea #ana things #anarecia #anamia #bulimik #bulimua #ed tingz #ed tumblr #ed problems #hate me #i hate it so much #i hate my body #i hate my brain #i hate this #tw eating stuff #tw ed content #ed thots #struggle #bulmia #bulmic #i wanna be pretty

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anyone else just feel stuck? like i’ve been fluncuating between the same 10-15 pounds for months and it makes me feel so invalid. i restrict and lose then i lose control and just say f*ck it and binge. i feel terrible, like i’m faking it. there has to be someone else feeling this way, please reach out to me. i need hate. but still i only wish the worst for myself and i hope all the rest of you bb’s are doing good and i wish you all the best 🥰🥺

#ana things #ed tingz #bulimua #anareksia #annorexxa #tw eating stuff #skiny body #bulimik #anarecia #ed problems #ed tumblr #send help #anorexik #anorecksia #i hate it so much #i hate this #i hate my brain #i hate my body #hate #anarexea #ana tingz #bulimina

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t h i s

eating disorders do not have a look. no matter your weight your struggle is just as valid as any other person. your pain is real and seen.

you do not need to be skinny to have an ed

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i mean if it works 🤷🏻‍♀️

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DAY 15

GIVE IT UP FOR DAY 15

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don’t do this. PERIOD

About a week ago I posted this.

I’ve been getting horrible messages like this in my ask for months, including:

and my personal favorite

After getting the message saying “Just go kill yourself” I was completely done dealing with this person’s horrible messages and replied with just an “Okay.” and logged off tumblr.

About a week later I logged back on with 17 messages in my ask, most of them from the anon. I scrolled down and at first when I logged off, the anon messaged me things like

I scrolled up more and all of a sudden they started sending me more and more messages like

This was extremely surprising to me. I thought “After all those horrible messages you sent to me for MONTHS about hating me and wanting me dead, you say ‘sorry’ and that you ‘cant be responsible for someone’s suicide’?”

But I guess the lesson goes like this:

DONT TELL ANYONE TO KILL THEMSELVES UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED FOR WHAT MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN

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People with EDs during quarantine

50% of people: omg!! i have three weeks to get skinny! i'm gonna come back to school so FIT!

the other 50%: send help. i cannot stop eating. i have eaten my entire kitchen and it's only 9 am. i'm dying

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You can only reblog this today.

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i want to be dainty, i want to be fragile, i want to be delicate

i want my thighs to look like they shouldn't be able to hold me up; i want my wrists to seem snappable; i want to still feel my ribs when i sit down; i want the chains of necklaces to pool in my collarbones; i want to see every single bone in my hands and feet when i sit cross-legged or hold a pen; i want my shoulder blades to jut out with my every gesture.

i want to be dainty, i want to be delicate, i want to be fragile.