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englishmuffinsrd · 2 years

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a lil somethin’ on my mind

If you were to somehow find yourself looking into the kitchen cabinet adjacent to my oven you would see an array of ceramic bowls coated in a pattern my mother is particularly fond of. If you were to look closer, however, into the tight conglomeration that is this cabinet, you would find, gammed into the left corner, a handful of grape-flavored jolly ranchers. For countless years these jolly ranchers have sat in the corner of this cabinet, aging, undesired, and of course, uneaten. Anytime I have a craving for something sweet, I will inevitably find myself gazing into this cabinet, looking at these sad, expired confections, my desire for sweets though, is never strong enough to convince me to have one.

The life of a grape jolly rancher is a rather gloomy one. Everyone is aware of them, but they are never chosen. Certainly, nobody’s favorite. Of course, the more likable watermelon, cherry, or green apple flavors reign supreme.

On those days when I find myself looking into this kitchen cabinet and my gaze falls on these pitiful candies, I worry. I worry that perhaps, that is me. That I am a grape-flavored jolly rancher. The one surrounded by candies of a finer taste, the one that is kept around only because nobody has It in them to just throw it away, the one that will inevitably be stored in a kitchen cabinet corner someday to rot and expire, unchosen, uneaten, unloved. And how upsetting it is to be the flavor that nobody enjoys.

We never are happy with what we have, or where we are at, discontentment is a disease that seeps into our lives through a lack of compassion for others or ourselves. contentment is a difficult thing to obtain when all we can see are the parts about ourselves, we don’t like. Still, no matter how often I find myself looking upon these sweets with disdain, I cannot stop myself from hoping that someday, someone else may find themselves looking into my kitchen cabinet, filled with excitement as I hear them say,

“Oh! Grape…

my favorite!”.

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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It is the morning of the SAT and I come on to tumblr to see this-

I’m about to lose my mind- no joke- thank you all wow- I never imagined my account would ever have more than 25 people following. Thank you all so- so- so much- once I finish up the inbox (lol) I can’t wait to open up requests and see all of your great ideas!! And once again- thank you so much!

For everyone else taking the SAT best of luck- I’m rooting for you!

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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I’m reposting to announce that Mad July’s audio of this story has been posted! Please check them out- the link is at the top of the post!

Valentines Day Special

Just Like The Books

Pairing: Shoto Todoroki X Reader

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: …

Synopsis: Valentines day was only a few days away and Shoto had not yet asked you to be his valentine!! Were you too romantically inclined from all those books you read or was Shoto just trying to make things extra special?

SPECIAL NOTE: This story is being read aloud by Mad July on youtube!!! The link will be posed here very soon, please give the channel all your love!

Link To Video- Here!!!

Link To Channel- Mad July

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It was less than four days until Valentine’s day and Shoto, Y/n’s boyfriend of a year and a half, had yet to request the spot as their valentine. Pure radio silence on his part. They weren’t worried though. Seriously! Y/n knew Shoto wasn’t the best with romancy stuff- it just didn’t come naturally to him which was fine! Still… everyone in 1A had a valentine. Heck even Mineta had received a love letter! Of course, everyone was painfully aware he had sent it to himself but either way- it was a bit embarrassing- what to have a significant other and them not even ask… whatever- Valentine’s day wasn’t even a big deal anyway!

Despite that- when the little envelope- wax sealed with a fingerprint- showed up in their school bag- they couldn’t help but feel the tiniest bit relieved. The paper was light brown and smelled of burned wax, after struggling for a second to open it without ripping the letter- they read to themselves:

“For every day that passes- I realize how many more I want to spend with you. Is this how Mr. Darcy felt when he was with Elizabeth?”

A smile grew on their face- Having introduced Sho to Pride and Prejudice last summer, it made their heart flutter to hear him bring it up.

“In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you.’ It must have been…will you accept my confession?”

- Your Secret Admirer

Not only did he remember their infatuation with the book, but he quoted the line too… he was just too cute! They folded the letter and gently put it in the box in which they kept all his letters. Only to promptly pull it out and read it a few more times.

The next day- it seemed Shoto was ignoring them. In class they would turn- only for him to look away. This wasn’t like him, usually he had no trouble staring- in fact, in the past Shoto would stare until Y/n was embarrassed, not realizing how hard it was to have him look so intently.

That night- after a whole day of hiding- it appeared that Shoto had been on their balcony. Strange as it is, there was a very obvious glow of a flashlight outside Y/n’s dorm room. Sat in the middle of the balcony’s ledge was another letter, held down by a small box. Y/n took at least a minute to look at the whole set up. It wasn’t crazy or anything- just a bit cute. The flashlight shown right through their curtain so they could see the display. Eventually they reached for the envelope. Wax sealed with a fingerprint just like it had been before.

“’Doubt thou the stars are fire; Doubt that the sun doth move; Doubt truth to be a liar; But never doubt I love.’ I remember when you read Hamlet to me- I remember knowing I loved you when I heard the smile in your voice when you read those words. Do you remember? When you quoted them to me while you braided my hair? Do you remember when you leaned over and said them that last day of summer? I hope you do… Because I can’t stop thinking about them.”

- Your Secret Admirer

“Yes” they thought, “Yes, yes of course I do.”

It was a little funny, Sho referring to himself as their “Secret Admirer” when everyone knew they were dating, still- they couldn’t help but find it charming.

By the time they had read the letter for the fourth time- the icy air had chilled their skin considerably. The wind whooshed past their face, but it was hard to leave their spot on the balcony knowing he had been right there. They had already stood before they remembered the box that had been used as a paperweight.

Leaning over to pick it up they ran their hand over the silk exterior. Inside, delicately placed on a velvet stand was a silver ring- a tiny sun on one side and on the other? A tiny moon. It was exactly their ring size and was so beautiful they had half the mind to keep it hidden in a box and not wear it at all. It took a particularly cold gust of wind to bring them back to reality and go inside.

At lunch the next day Y/n sat with Jirou and Kaminari. Food was the last thing on their mind. All their thoughts were occupied with was the fact that Shoto Todoroki had been wearing a ring in class today. A ring that had tiny, engraved stars all over. They couldn’t even thank him because he was gone when class ended. Y/n had even stood quickly and ran after him to try to go looking but he was nowhere to be found.

“Hey- what’s wrong?” Mina stared worriedly. Y/n was sure everyone could tell something was up. It wasn’t the fact that they hadn’t been asked anymore-but that Sho seemed to be avoiding them. They couldn’t answer their friend because suddenly Kaminari jumped upright- startling the whole table. Jirou and the man in question were sharing a look. Jirou looking exasperated and shifted her eyes from the bag hung across his chair- then at Y/n and then back at Kaminari.

“Oh! Oh!!” Kaminari clapped his hands as if remembering something. He bent down and pulled out an enveloped from his bag- it had the tiniest of stems attached- little clusters of baby’s breath had been sealed to the letter. They looked up from their table with Jirou, Kaminari and Mina and watched Deku from across the lunchroom nudge Sho with a worried look. He just took a breath in and stared at his lap- a content smile on his lips.

“Just ask me Sho…” They thought. Maybe this was his way of asking. Previously- whenever Shoto wanted attention- he never asked- he would pull on their sleeve or tug on their belt loop… maybe he didn’t know how to ask. Either way- Y/n wanted to thank him for his gestures- to give him a gift too- even if it wasn’t as nice as what he gave to them.

“If you asked anything of me- I believe my heart always replies- ‘As you wish.’ You read to me all about Buttercup’s requests of Westly- I myself have a request of you if it is not too much. Would you be willing to meet with me at my dorm this evening?”

- Your secret admirer

And when they looked up- Sho was gone from his seat with Deku and Iida.

Tomorrow was Valentines- and y/n had spent so much time worrying whether Todoroki would ask them that they didn’t even have a gift for him. Needless to say- they skipped final period to go out and get something.

That night Y/n was nervous- “Pull yourself together” they told themselves- they’d dated over a year and yet it was still a bit nerve wracking to see him. They didn’t really get all that dressed up- just changed out of their uniform into something comfortable and made their way to Shotos dorm room. They had his gift in a small bag and while they knew he would love anything they gave him- it didn’t feel like enough. Simply him reflecting on the moments they had shared had warmed Y/n’s heart to no end.

Romance novels were sort of a part of their relationship- a little thing Shoto had never experienced before they had the chance to become close. And when y/n heard such a horrible truth? They made it a mission to read to him all their favorite stories.

They twisted their ring and took a deep breath- “It’s just Sho…” they told themselves before they knocked.

Instantly the door swung open- as if Shoto had waited for them to knock- “You’re here” he said softly- his hair was fluffier than normal, spread across his eyes- he had also changed out of his school uniform.

“Yeah” is all they could muster- eyes falling on his expression. He looked so good even when he didn’t mean to.

He slowly took a step forward and tugged on their waistband. Pulling them into his room. It smelled like wood and varnish inside- within the brief second in the room they spotted the books laying on his desk. Pride and Prejudice- Hamlet- and The Princess Bride were all neatly set in a pile next to his laptop- behind those were some other stories y/n had shown him- The Notebook, Anne of Green Gables and The Phantom of The Opera were set on his wall.

He grabbed their face- “Y/n” he cleared his throat-

“I’ve been meaning to ask you- and seeing as- “He pulls his finger from their pants elastic- his hand messily grasped at their sleeve before tightly grasping it and then letting it go. He looked at the clock on the wall and faltered- “seeing as- I have three and a half hours before well- you know- I think its best to ask- the thing? You know- Tomorrow is Valentines day and I was wondering if you wanted to stay- with- stay here… with me- until then. So, we could spend the day together?” Somehow his hand had gone back to their sleeve and was shyly tugging on it.

“Oh right!!” he let go. “What I meant was, would you be my Valentine?”

And the hand holding Shotos gift let go somehow and had pulled him in by his neck.

And you know, it really was just like the books. Time slowed down and it was so warm, and they didn’t want to move- so they didn’t.

They pulled away “Yes, yes that would be just perfect.” And then Shoto pulled them back in again by the shoulders and quietly murmured, “oh thank goodness.”

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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Valentines Day Special

Just Like The Books

Pairing: Shoto Todoroki X Reader

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: ...

SPECIAL NOTE: This story is being read aloud by Mad July on youtube!!! The link will be posed here very soon, please give the channel all your love!

Link To Video- Here!!!

Link To Channel- Mad July

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“For every day that passes- I realize how many more I want to spend with you. Is this how Mr. Darcy felt when he was with Elizabeth?”

A smile grew on their face- Having introduced Sho to Pride and Prejudice last summer, it made their heart flutter to hear him bring it up.

- Your Secret Admirer

“Yes” they thought, “Yes, yes of course I do.”

It was a little funny, Sho referring to himself as their “Secret Admirer” when everyone knew they were dating, still- they couldn’t help but find it charming.

- Your secret admirer

And when they looked up- Sho was gone from his seat with Deku and Iida.

They twisted their ring and took a deep breath- “It’s just Sho…” they told themselves before they knocked.

“Yeah” is all they could muster- eyes falling on his expression. He looked so good even when he didn’t mean to.

He grabbed their face- “Y/n” he cleared his throat-

“Oh right!!” he let go. “What I meant was, would you be my Valentine?”

And the hand holding Shotos gift let go somehow and had pulled him in by his neck.

And you know, it really was just like the books. Time slowed down and it was so warm, and they didn’t want to move- so they didn’t.

They pulled away “Yes, yes that would be just perfect.” And then Shoto pulled them back in again by the shoulders and quietly murmured, “oh thank goodness.”

#my hero academia #baku no hero academia #bnha fanfiction #mha x reader #todoroki x reader #bnha x reader #todoroki x y/n #bnha shoto todoroki #shoto x y/n #todoroki fluff #bakugou x reader #bnha bakugo katsuki #todoroki fanfic #shoto x reader #hawks x y/n #hawks x reader #dabi x reader #shoto todoroki x reader #katsuki x reader

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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Congratulations on 200 followers :) <3 Can I request a bakugou x touch starved reader?. Thank you so much ^^

AHHH thank you so much dear! And yes, of course you may!!! I had a blast writing this- if it’s not what you were looking for I’m sorry- I just think everyone feels this way now that classes are back in the swing of things- anyway- please enjoy- 💛

I really like this

Pairing: Katsuki Bakugou x Reader

Genre: fluff

Word count: ...

Synopsis: Over the past month-with all the stuff U.A. demands of you-it was hard to see your boyfriend- even so- this past week has been extra rough with the first exam if the semester coming up. With all that stress building up- it’s safe to say: you are touch starved.

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“Hey Siri... how long until February 1st?”

....”it’s two days until then”

What?? Wasn’t is a week just yesterday? No no no no no no no This isn’t possible. Ever since the start of the semester y/n along with everyone else in class 1 A has been stressing over school related subjects. Even Bakugou found himself staying up a little later to study. Even so, having two days until the first exam of the season was not good. You had spent nearly all your time working and getting school work done in hopes that the weekend would come and you could rest but now.... looking at what’s on your plate- that doesn’t look possible.

You walk your way over to the mini fridge in your dorm and pull out a water bottle- you may be sleep deprived but hydration is important. Sitting back at your desk you loom over your notes and then look back at the practice problems. Why was the material not adding up? Why couldn’t you focus? Why were your eyes so dry? Ugh

It had been well over a week since you and Bakugou had even talked beyond a normal “hey” or “nice job” For most couples that’s strange- but for you two it’s not actually that weird. Even so-Katsuki watches you in class and he can see how tense you are.

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Rubbing your eyes you stops short... “did I put on mascara this morning” running though your brain...” no no I woke up late I didn’t have time” you promptly gives your eyes a rough rub and then harshly push your palms along your neck, over the base of your shoulders and up the back of your hairline. And even though your so stressed- even though you knows you should be focusing- it’s just not coming together, Aizawa’s voice is too dull and you’re too tired and right now you just wants to get school over with so you can get back into the routine of life.

“Your eyes look like bruises!!” Mina harshly whispers “are you alright y/n?!”

“Minaaaaaaa” you whine, “You’re not supposed to point that out you know.”

“I’m sorry y/n! Are you stressed over the exam? Some of the other girls are coming over to Momo’s dorm tonight to study- if it would make you feel better maybe you can come too.” She smiles so warmly all you can do is nod.

“Maybe, thanks!! I’m just so worried and even though I’ve read all the material I have a hard time remembering all the details.”

“Well then, we‘ll be sure to go over all of it tonight! Hang in there y/n!”

And even as your shoulders slump back and you hands go down to grab and massage your legs you can see Katsuki out of the corner of your eye squinting at you.

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“Wait I thought the Hero Legislations began when quirks began to emerge?” Ochako smacks her temples, “that makes sense doesn’t it?”

It does...... right?

“Well it took awhile for people to know what quirks even were- even then for those born with quirks to age into an adulthood so that is became customary for rules to be implemented. It probably took a lot longer than you think Ochako...” Even Momo looks tired and your hand hurts so bad from writing notes you have to stop every so often to shake your hand and crack your wrist.

“Oh... right....” Uraraka smiles, “that makes sense.”

“We don’t have long before the exam- not even 24 hours- I think we should all rest up and be sure to have a good breakfast in the morning. Look over your notes one more time.” Momo isn’t smiling but she looks content as she pulls her ponytail down. “Good luck- see you tomorrow evening” and then you stretch and get up to head to your dorm.

Walking up the stairs to you almost don’t notice the Bakugou-shaped lump at your door. He’s sitting cris-cross and looking at his phone.

“Katsuki.... what are you doing??”

Listen okay- you love your boyfriend- he’s great- annoying a lot of the time-but he’s great- even so- you want sleep and you just can’t sit and listen to him ramble about “stupid Deku” for hours.

He looks up at you. Silent.

And that’s scary

“Katsuki? You okay?”

He quietly stands and looks at your hand. Backing out of the way of your door- he leans on the door post.

“Open” is all he says. Way not like him either. “Open the damn door!!! I won’t ask again y/n!” Is more like him but he just stands there- bored expression on his face.

So you do- open the door I mean- and he quickly grabs at your waist and pulls you to the edge of your bed “Oof- Katsu-“

As weird as it was you couldn’t help but lean in- and your tired arms connect at the low part on his back. He’s crushing you- in a comfortable way. His face in your neck and his body radiating heat- it’s more comfort the BBC you’d felt in awhile.

“We have the exam tomorrow.” Is all you say- because really- it’s all you can think other than how you don’t want to move.

“What? You think I don’t know that?” And he bites at your shoulder. Yep. Bites it. Maybe just a nibble of annoyance.

And suddenly all your urge to read over your notes fades. You could sleep just like this.

“Bakugou- I’m gonna sleep right here” and he chuckles in confusion- and even though it’s only been a week since you’ve heard it- it feels like years.

He grabs at your waist again and presses his fingers into your side- it almost tickles- and he’s flipping you over on top of him, so your smooshed up against his chest. His hand on your neck. Rubbing at your shoulders when your hands had been the morning before.

“Let’s not go a week without this anymore” you mumble because it feels so good to be with him like this you could almost cry.

“Whatta ya talkin’ about?” He grumbles out.

“I really like this.” You say- drifting off

“Well...ugh ʸᵒᵘʳ ʷᵉˡᶜᵒᵐᵉ I guess.” He sighs.

And just as your drifting off into dream land he nuzzles his nose in your neck and hushes

“Me too.”

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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Hey there.

Hey hey 👋🏻

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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Hello hello!!!! I have just checked in my inbox for the first time in awhile!! And I just wanted to say I am SO exited to get to writing these stories!!! I’ll get right on it I promise! And just a heads up- these appear to be pretty angsty 😅

#my hero academia #bakugou x reader #baku no hero academia #bnha fanfiction #mha x reader #todoroki x reader #bnha x reader #todoroki x y/n #bnha bakugo katsuki #bnha shoto todoroki

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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Ummm what did I just wake up to?

Yeah so I first wanted to just say that I made this account for fun, and while I’m sure a lot of people would think 201 is nothing, it just makes me so happy that there really are people out there who like my writing enough to follow. I promise I have a lot planned story-wise, I cannot find words other than thank you, I’m so greatful, truely.

Don’t forget that requests are open, you can always come by just to talk as well, I’m always here <3

#my hero academia #bakugou x reader #baku no hero academia #bnha fanfiction #mha x reader #todoroki x reader #bnha x reader #dabi x reader #hawks x reader

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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Seasons change

Pairing: Katsuki bakugou x reader

Genre: tbd

Word count:...

Synopsis:...

This is a type of “teaser” I have for that bodygaurd bakugou fic I was talking about. I cannot promise a date this will be released but I can promise that I will be working on it. It will eventually be put out. Until then I hope you enjoy this introduction to the story.

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Katsuki will never forgive his company for putting him through this garbage. For ruining his life like this. For setting him back and labaling it as “experience.” He was so sure-so sure he would never learn or grow from any work other than the work of hero’s and villains. Little did he know that hero’s and villains don’t always go by those names. Hero’s and villains might be normal people in normals life. Hero’s and villains maybe live right before his eyes.

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It was had been late in the summer when Katsuki was signed as y/n’s bodygaurd. Most of this time was spent inside air-conditioned buildings. Held between fake laughs and serious hand-shakes. Between side-eye glances and tense meetings. The summer was spent at hotels and the buildings of people- people so colored by human desires.

It had been summer when Katsuki realized he would never forget that humid night at the park in front of that playground.

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It was nearly fall when the project y/n had been working on was at its intermediate stage. Although bakugou hadn’t been doing hero work, he only then saw how villainess the people in work buisssness truly were. He was reminded every day how much he desired to be a hero- the #1 hero. To finally be free of this hell and go back to hero work. And it was that reason that he hated the people he saw at those meetings. Hated the life you lived. Hated having to be a part of this.

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It was winter when Katsuki realized that being signed as a bodyguard wasn’t as horrendous as he originally thought. That the people he was with were humans just like himself. That they didn’t want these people to lose their jobs. They weren’t actually thinking inwards but outwards twords others.

It was winter when he lost himself in regret like before. Selfishly refusing to see the bigger picture. The day he drowned in guilt like that night with Mindoria. That night was so cold.

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You’ve has been working with Tokyo Today for nearly two years now. As the company plans to merdge with Japans Journey-a fellow news casting system- doing so would take months and months of labor. Because of this change, several people will have to be let go so the company may move forward. The loss of jobs are worrisome for many. For this reason many people fear for the safety of the workers in the project. This is why Tokyo Today haired several bodyguards from hero agency’s-intended to keep the peace while the companies merdge.

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Bakugou never wanted to be a bodygaurd. Case and point. He never wanted to work for a company of money hungry-computor sitting-office workers. That is why he doesn’t involve himself. He never intended to make it more of a mess than it already was. He thought that this particular job would never end-and while the days were slow and long. He won’t ever forget how the seasons changed right before his eyes.

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#my hero academia #bakugou x reader #baku no hero academia #bnha fanfiction #mha x reader #bnha x reader #katsuki x y/n #bnha bakugo katsuki #bakugou fic #bakugou katsuki #bakugou x y/n #bakugou fluff #katsuki x reader #katsuki bakugo x reader #todoroki x y/n #bakugou oneshot #bakugou series #bnha shoto todoroki

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englishmuffinsrd · 3 years

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I promise I’m working on that bakugou fic, a lot has gone on + I have no internet or power atm due to.... weather stuff. I’m at Panera right now so I can be in my English class lol. When I finish writing stuff, everytime I go back to proofread it I cringe and try to fix it.

I’m so happy for all the new followers I have and I promise I have stories coming, life is just a bitttt hectic atm.

#my hero academia #bakugou x reader #baku no hero academia #bnha fanfiction #mha x reader #todoroki x reader #bnha x reader #bakugou x y/n #bakugou fic

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englishmuffinsrd · 4 years

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I kinda wanna write a bodyguard bakugou fic, but not really an au, like in the bnha universe... but I have a tendency to write angst mannnnn

#my hero academia #bakugou x reader #baku no hero academia #bnha fanfiction #mha x reader #bnha x reader #bakugou x y/n #bnha bakugo katsuki #bakugou katsuki #todoroki x reader

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englishmuffinsrd · 4 years

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Well Oiled Machine

Pairing: Kirishima X reader

Genre: Angst- friends to...yeah

Word count: ...

Synopsis: After seeing Kirishima, her life long best friend with his new girlfriend, her heart can simply not take it anymore and she finally snaps.

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Kiri: “Where r u going??”

Kiri: “Hey?”

Kiri: “What the hell just happened?”

Kiri: “Y/n”

One missed call

Kiri: “Y/n!???”

Kiri: “seriously not the time to be ignoring me.”

Kiri: “please pick up y/n”

Kiri: “What even happened? Are you sick? Did you get nauseous? What is going on?”

Y/n reads the text again through teary vision; a hiccup wracks her whole body and she wipes her face with her damp sleeve. Sniffling she types her reply.

Y/n: “Hey!! Yeah I’m good, sorry bout that”

He reads it right away, despite the fact that she had seen his texts for the last hour and a half and didn’t bother marking it unread. Three gray dots bubble for a brief moment then, dreadfully, halt. Something swells within her chest. She places her phone on her dry sink, sees the blurry reflection of herself in the mirror. She normally would never react like this. Her heart just hurt too much right now. With everything going on, seeing Kirishima with a girl who hardly even cares for him just breaks her heart. Struggling to steady her breaths she coughs a few times and aggressively wipes her face again.

Suddenly the silence shatters, loud- her ringtone booms again through the tiny bathroom; the noise bounces around the walls and pierces her head. Taking in a gross sniffle and coughing to clear her throat she answers the incoming call.

“Hey!”- The voices cries between breathless gasps- “You sure you’re good? You left so suddenly …and I’m worried.” Kirishima pants out.

Y/n takes a deep breath to hold in the ever-creeping voice crack, holds her head towards the ceiling, making it sound like she’s yawning, “Yeah,”- she coughs- “we’re all good here! Just a little tired.”

Her flimsy attempt at sounding honest breaks at the strain in her voice, her façade melting. She can’t help it though, not this time.

Over the years y/n has seen Kirishima with lots of girls, and she has been okay with it, genuinely okay, she knows she’s not gonna confess and it’s pretty clear Kiri doesn’t think of her like that so what was the point anyway. If he was happy with those girls who was she to complain. This was something different though, she was inconsiderate and rude, unkind and pushy, she flirted with other guys and all Kiri would do is smile and brush it off.

“Where are you?” He sounds rushed, she can hear the wind roaring through the receiver, his head wiping in every direction.

“I’m at my dorm. Listen, you don’t have to worry, okay? I’m gonna get some sl- “

Rapid knocks echo from outside her dorm room. She yelps, effectively surprised, her phone falls in her slippery fingers but she catches it.

“Open the door! Please…””

Why, why, whyyyy!!! Gosh why is he here?

“Hey, Kiri...just need some time alone, yeah? I’ll see you tomorrow, sounds good?” Y/n’s heart felt like it just dropped to the bottom most part of her stomach.

“I swear! If you don’t open the door, I will break it!” Exasperated, he hisses- “Come on! I can’t just let you leave like that, you’re my best friend y/n!”

Sincerity is evident in his voice but it still hurt to hear. He’s soft and vulnerable right now but there’s something about his tone that says this is not a request. Sighing loudly, y/n opens the bathroom door. Not before splashing water on her face and dragging herself to the front door. She peeks through the peephole. She sees him clearly, running a hand through his hair, chills run across her. She knows this is so out of character, subconsciously though she knows if she does not comply, something, she doesn’t know what, could go very wrong. It would be the most humiliating thing, if Kirishima Ojiro found out that y/n l/n liked him it might as well be as if the world ended, that would be it for her. They’ve known each other since they were kids, shes seen him grow up, knows what makes him tick, knows how to make him feel better, but the same goes for her, he knows her. And he knows her well enough to know when she’s hurt.

The door cracks and he pushes, hard. She stumbles back some out of shock. There he is, breath ragged and sweaty, his phone still at his ear, then he throws to the ground.

“Oh, thank God! I was so worried!”

And suddenly she’s in a bone crushing hug, she can’t breathe or think, and time is standing still, her mind hurts and her body is exhausted from all the crying, everything is incredibly fuzzy. He’s burning hot and still short from air. She takes a breath and begins to say something, and he snaps.

“No! No, you cannot just- just up and leave without a follow-up, okay? Everyone was so worried! I’m your friend, I need to know whether your okay or not, understood?”

Discomfort sizzles in her chest and makes its way throughout her. She curls her toes and cracks her knuckles at the unwelcome feeling. Her heart still in her stomach she feels like swallowing would make her throw up but she does anyway. Seeing him in this disheveled state makes her feel bad, God knows he shouldn’t go to all this trouble for her. It hurts too much. Kirishima is so incredibly compassionate and sees so much more in people, he never gave up on her no matter how aloof she was, not matter how cold she was to him.

She had foolishly diluted her emotions, traced along the way she wanted people to see them so that all that remained was a burnt-out shell of a human that could hardly remember the person she used to be. Y/n’s life was no longer centered around herself and her but around her fear, she had become a stoic side character with nothing to show for. Too scared to put in the effort to actually find love or get over her feelings. Absolutely petrified by the thought of her feelings changing the friendship she shared, by the idea of losing him even more. Thus, her character was then put to waste and so, she stands, totally helpless. A hug is meant to be comforting but it was the most painful hug y/n’s ever felt, like this was her way of completely sealing away her feelings forever. And that’s all that filled her mind. A newborn coldness acompaning her—surrendering completely, and all the while not a sound escapes her lips. Like always too scared, too scared she’ll cry if she talks, too scared she’ll spill it all, too scared to do anything.

“Thank you- “she finally says, “I’ll tell you next time.”

She lies between her teeth and feels herself becoming standoffish again, just as closed off as before. She lies to him and prays he believes it.

“Promise?” He askes over her shoulder.

“Promise.”

And he does.

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Why do I only write angst? But like fr this one hurted a bit, a wee bit- I hope you enjoyed though :)

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hiiii i love your accountttt

I’m gonna cry you have no idea how happy this made me lol I’m going crazy 😂 but thank you seriously I live for this 🥺🥺

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So I’m at work atm on lunch break but guyssssd

We are are now at 101 followers which I know isn’t like a “big deal” but I’m so greatful there are that many people that enjoy to read my work :,) sooo...

Requests are open

I think I’ll leave them open for a bit, I’m not sure but I do have a job and am also a college student so they might not be out as quick as I would like them to be, that being said; I can do one shots, scenarios etc, I’ve never done headcannons but I can try 😊

Please note that I only right sfw and bnha stuff :)

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englishmuffinsrd · 4 years

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The guy who took my order at Starbucks was really cute, like honestly he was so attractive and kind wowowow

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englishmuffinsrd · 4 years

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Dying to remeber

Pairing: Hawks x reader

Genre: angst (hanahakai Disease)

Word count: ...

Synopsis: you were so in love with Keigo, you spent the past two years working with him at his agency, but everyday grows harder as you realize he never has and never will feel the same.

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The clouds seemed awful close to the ground that day, y/n made her way to the subway station, she took one, last, lingering glance at the sky and moved forward into the dark underpass. The subway had a certain smell about it, that’s why people can always tell if you come by car or by the underground, where she lived, the cheapest way to get round’ was the tunnels so that’s how she always came and went.

Y/n looked out of her office window, she was at least fifteen stories up, but instead of looking at the people below she was looking at the clouds that seemed close enough to grab. Almost....almost. Lunch break was in five, when her co-workers cell rang.

Keigo’s phone.

Y/n’s face remained stoic as she herd him speak to his beloved, promising he will see her for lunch, and that’s when she drew her eyes away from the sky and to the ground, hiding her face (as not to be found eavesdropping). After a time she finally tore her eyes from the people beneath her, not because of the distance from the ground to her office, not that she ought to get getting back to work, no, she simply felt the urge to cough.

Seemingly simple, it may be. Yet when she coughed her throat only began to itch more, and it felt as though she could hardly breath.

When we are young and ill, we often cry when we puke, its natural instinct. A child can hardly control themselves as they shake from the feeling of not being able to help but nearly suffocate while emptying their stomach, and honestly, the feeling is pretty dreadful in and of itself.

That sensation is exactly what she felt as she coughed, until, eventually, one, singular petal landed into her (bacteria infested 😷) hand. If you are one for specifics, it was the petal of the forget-me-not, often mistaken for a flower, they were actually weeds. The blue petal lay in her hand. It took a moment to process before she looked away and tossed the petal into the trash. However, she knew it would only progress from there.

That one petal soon grew into fully grown forget-me-nots, until the weeds turned into flowers. Sickeningly beautiful, peach marigolds, white daffodils, dainty freesias and then carnations, yellow carnations. Known to be the most sorrowful flower. They all presently became painted in her own blood.

They followed her everywhere, seemed to be in every part of her senses, she could feel them entangle her.

It took only two weeks after that first forget-me not-petal to finally turn from the other flowers to the rose. The morbid irony was obvious, roses resemble joy, longevity, but most pointedly, love, they symbolized love. The satire mockery lay in her hands, around her apartment, in her cubicle trash bin and the office bathroom. It hurt but she knew how to hide it, the florae lay waste all around her, flooding her sense with the nauseating pungency that was… roses, stem, thorns and all.

Tamaki Kaigo, he whom she had loved so wildly, he who had made flowers grow and bloom in the darkest part of her, flowers so gorgeous, yet so very fatal.

He probably didn’t even know her name, though he still smiled at her, still asked her how her day was when they saw each other in the elevator, she was nothing more than a mere coworker to him.

Y/n knew it was coming, and the worst part, she wasn’t scared. She went to work like any other day, sat in her chair and listened to the tapping of pens, the gentle clicking of keys and she saw once again just how close the clouds seemed. Hawks received his dayly

call, and for some reason y/n could feel the tears pricking at her eyes, and they sting, burn almost, for the first time she stares, really stares at the man.

How foolish she was to believe he would see anything in her, to see her at all.

Y/n is no longer afraid to be caught in the act of eavesdropping, it’s not as though he would notice anyway. He looks happy, you know. And that’s all that really matters.

The last cough brought a soft and beautiful baby’s breath that daintily danced and floated to Y/n’s apartment windowsill, standing proud in a pile of bloody roses. And the ridicule was as clear as day. You see, the baby’s breath is meant to show not just purity and innocence but unconditional, loyal, love of the most everlasting form. Love one would die for within the blink of a lie.

The last thing that caught Y/n’s eye, the last memory was the clear sky, she saw no clouds that day, and how sad she thought it was to not know how far the clouds were from her reach for once.

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This is so unedited I’m sorry 😩

I’ve always wanted to write about the hanahakai disease and I genuinely do love hawks so I figured I would give it a shot :) lemme know your thoughts

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