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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, I miss that "connection" we used to have... Even if it was only because I listened to everything you did.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Hear Me

A poem about being the scapegoat of a narcissistic mother

You say "I'll do better"

We say "I believe you"

You say "I'm trying my best"

We say "I believe you."

You say "I'm doing better this time."

We say "I believe you."

You say "I'm going through alot right now."

They say "we believe you."

I say "I know, me too."

You say "were a team"

We say "I believe you"

You say "it's not my fault."

They say "I believe you."

I say "it's not ours either."

You say "yous aren't making it any easier."

They say "I'm sorry"

I say "it's not any easier on us."

You say "You don't know what it's like."

They say "I'm sorry."

I say "but I do."

You say "Leave it, it makes me feel better."

They say "I'm sorry."

I say "I don't want to pick up the pieces again."

You say "I don't see you dad's helping us."

They say "We hate them."

I say "You taught us to lie to him, he doesn't know how bad its gotten."

You say "Everyone's against us."

They say "we hate them."

I say "for good reason.

Then we argue. We argue. And we argue again.

You say "If you hate it here so much, go live with your dads."

They say "no, we hate them."

I say "fine." I pack my bags.

We argue a last time...

You say "your being dramatic. Just come home."

I say "I'm done."

Now, we haven't spoken in a year.

You say "Your sister hates me."

They say "we hate her."

What I say doesn't matter, cause you don't let them hear me.

[dear-narcissistic-mom]

i hear my nmom’s voice yell in my head everyday everytime i do something she wouldn’t like

[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom. If you think I'm mad at you because you made mistakes as a human you're wrong. If you think I'm mad at you for making mistakes as a mom you're wrong. I'm mad at you because you sincerely apologize and changed the actions you needed to. You never took accountability for the things you did.

It was always I am remembering it wrong or it was my fault or excuses. That's not a true apology.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, I hate I have a hard time sticking to things because you taught me no one cares, is interested, or pays attention to my stuff so what's the point?

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, if only I had known this then. Maybe I wouldn't be so damaged.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, sometimes I wish I could post this. You were the reason no one stayed. You alienated me from everyone, even myself.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, I will never treat people the way you treat those closest to you. All you do is hurt.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, I wish you knew how much you occupy my mind.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, you have no clue how hard it is to try and set boundaries with others because of the lack of boundaries, the lack of respect of those boundaries.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, I hope those around you see your true colors

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

Dear Mom, having walls up makes it hard to gain friends which I know is the goal. I still refuse to allow this to stop me from trying.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

So I amped up my old blog. I deleted some old stuff and kept some old stuff. This is supposed to be like a "dear Mom" blog where every post starts with dear Mom followed by either a happy or depressing feeling.

There are days I'm thankful for her and days I really hate her.

She is a narcissist and I was the golden child. So I received a lot of her love however the world I lived in was very much more delusional and heartbreaking when I came to that reality.

So to those that wish they were the golden child no you do not.

Dear Mom, sometimes I wish I wasn't the perfect little daughter you saw me as, maybe then I would have seen through the bullshit sooner.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

"don't worry I won't become obsessed"

As you tell me you took the scale to weigh yourself when you did it literally three days ago to weigh yourself but because you had coffee you had to check it again only three days later instead of just waiting

If you can't wait for something then you are becoming dependant of it.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

I'd love to know what you do. On the phone all day and night. You say you're sick of it all and yet you remain. Nothing changed you are still the same you have always been. It went from one addiction to the next the worst of them all. Electronic addiction, the undetectable kind. Everyone is on them, we have to or our lives are upside down. Nothing is right without the little device that fits in a pocket. So small and the world is over if it disappears. Let it go leave it down. DEAL WITH LIFE like we all have to.

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[dear-narcissistic-mom]

I just had a panic attack thinking my dog got out and no one told me and searched the whole house to find out he's just outside all quiet like lol

[dear-narcissistic-mom]

You give only what you want So if you are kind to others you want others to be kind to you.