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I love getting high. But smoking weed gives me mad munchies. at the end of the night I always have an awful binge when I'm too high to care about counting calories. Then I feel so disgusting and in pain the next day

#tw ed things #weed #munchies #binging #ed vent

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I don’t purge myself at all but I don’t think people understand how dangerous purging is for your body, so please please please anyone who does - break that habit! 

Friendly reminder-

DO NOT PURGE

Side effects from purging that aren’t really talked about (can occur from long or short term)

Thousands of dollars in dental bills

Forever sensitive teeth

Enamel completely eaten away by stomach acid, losing the ability to enjoy hot, cold, or sweet things

Loss of gum lines and/or teeth

Esophagus being turned into “hamburger meat” instead of the smooth walls it’s supposed to have

Increase indigestion

Your sphincter to your stomach from your esophagus tearing and/or breaking, causing stomach acid to permanently leak into your esophagus

Stomach stretching and never returning

Spraining/Tearing abdominal muscles due to trauma

Intense stomach pain after doing it for so long, no matter how much you eat

Not ever being able to keep anything down again because your brain has rewired you to do it automatically

Permanent double chin

Permanent big jaw

Permanent swollen face

Infections on hands from either cutting them on teeth or acid eating them away

Seizures, Hormonal Imbalances, Cysts on face, Acne, and any other kind of random symptom because causing your stomach to do the opposite of what it was designed to do and/or causing a nutrient deficiency can be the cause of a MULTITUDE of issues

Death

Majority of Bulimics die while purging over the toilet

You are worthy of having one day of fun. Not pro, but in the future, rethink these horrors and if anything, restrict don’t purge. Purging will cause more life-threatening issues faster, even though both aren’t good. If you must, please choose the lesser of the two evils.

Stay safe as possible. Don’t beat yourself up over one day, babe. It won’t ruin anything, trust me.

#purging #bulimia #buliima #tw ed

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please I get guilty thinking about how lonely he is right now when he literally made me feel like shit my whole life 💀

Who else was on the “daddy’s girl” to “hating your dad” to “he may have caused me a lot of trauma but he’s done a lot for me and he’s battling his own demons so I guess he’s aight”, pipeline??

#daddy issues #trauma

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I've been fucking crying to the song mockingbird by eminem for a while because I'm so jealous that i didn't have a dad like that.

And the tiktok trend where they talk about their amazing dads just makes me so jealous.

I wish i had atleast one caring male figure in my life.

And yes i do have fucking daddy issues

#daddy issues #sometimes i get sad i didn't have a good dad idk #but my dad can rot in hell

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it’s starting to feel a bit like summer where I’m from and I’m actually terrified 

#tw ed #th!n #sk!nny #i want to be th1n #i want to be skiny #i need to lose this weight #th!n$p0 #ed vent

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I really need to tell my mum that I should stop having therapy... I feel like I’m wasting her money because therapy literally does nothing. I started telling my therapist about my deep-rooted self-esteem issues and inferiority complex and she just brushed me off so we could talk about my dad...

#daddy issues #therapy #family issues #inferiority complex #low self-esteem

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started counting calories today for the first time (I always avoided it because I didn’t want to get obsessive lol) and jesus christ I eat so much... I always thought I ate so little but apparently not :’(

#tw ed #ed #counting calories #i want to be th1n #i want to be skiny #i will be skiny #th!n

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Reblog if:

- You support recovery.

- You support those in recovery.

- You support seeking help.

- You want  people to seek help.

- You think everyone is beautiful, regardless of their weight.

- Even if you yourself, aren’t seeking help or are in recovery, want others too.

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why not me

why not me

why not me

why not me

why not me 

I can change my body but I can never change my face

why

not

me

#ugly

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I’m going home in a week and I’ll probably have to see my friends :’) time to try and keep a straight face while they humble brag about not eating and losing weight

(i really hope they don’t notice my weight gain jdfkdjhgjkhkdfjgh)

#toxic friends #ed things #i want to be skiny #thin #tw eating things #low self-esteem

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ah, i found myself in a meme

the struggle is real

#tw ed #i want to be skiny #thin

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Entry 5

I always wonder if people ignore me in favour of someone else because I’m unlikable or just because I’m quiet. I used to think it was because I’m ugly but no one’s that shallow. I guess I just need to be more outspoken. But I’m not easy to like and I’m not funny or interesting, idk. I just need to try harder.

#anti social #tumblr diary

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I hate how being biracial is so romanticised and sought after until you’re biracial but ugly like me. it’s like the aesthetic isn’t cute anymore and it kinda sucks 

#biracial #half chinese #i got bullied for being half chinese in school lmao #maybe everyone would like me if i fit eurocentric beauty standards #beauty standards #ugly girl #chinese

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PLEASE same my nose is DISGUSTING 

ok ok so i’m -obsessed- with weight loss but i also have a big nose & im scared it’s going to make my nose looks bigger 🤪 honestly though fuck it id much rather be skinnii.

once i’m skinny AND get a nose job it’s over for y’all

#nose job #i want rhinoplasty so bad #ugly face #tw ed #th!n$p0

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please i have a crisis about this everyday, i hate being around other girls because they’re so pretty and i always think about how unfair it is that i was born with such an awful face, i’m so tempted for surgery

Ik my whole acc is me venting about my body but I hate my face just as much and it’s killing me. I just want to be able to look in the mirror without crying.

#ugly #body issues #feeling ugly #nose job #plastic surgery

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I hate how sensitive I am. I hate how anything anyone says to me makes me want to curl up and disappear forever 

#sensitive #sad #sadgirl

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:)

#im fat #wow self hatred #strikes again