She reminds me of the moon
beauty strung along her unseen tune
the light she inspires
reflected to everyone else, herself no wiser
peaceful yet bright, doused in starlight
because today, tomorrow, and tonight,
she reminds me of the moon.
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I'm happy and tired and bored and excited
but depressed and fulfilled
and
and
and done.
I think I'm done.
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You called me a woman now and I died inside, because that meant before you saw me as something else.
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I couldn't call this a crush
I don't smile to myself
When I think your name
It's been months before
That I've forgotten you exist.
my heart doesn't beat beat beat
when I happen to see your face.
All I know is I'm in love,
With the idea of someone
And you're interesting enough
That I want to see
If I could make you more
Than just,
Interesting.
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I think I finally decided
I like the way I look
I like the shape of my face
I like the shade my eyes make
When the sun catches my hair
I like the red that is there.
I like my nose that could be too small
I like giving too much and being my all
and when I look in the mirror what I see
It's finally nothing more than me.
-"More than Me"
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I want to know what her lips taste like,
I want to know what sounds she'll make
that are different than his,
I want to finally be the taller one,
I want to hold her in my arms,
I want to know what she thinks,
I want to know how she feels, I think,
that despite my every try not to, I want her and not him
-Her not him
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You're grieving me
but I'm still here
you dug the grave
you shed your tears
and im still here
you said it's true
your greatest fear
but I'm still here
you say you want me near
please, I'm still here
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I just want to exist
I just want a place to be
I want to use the restroom in peace
I would like my existence
To not be considered a resistance
I just want to exist
Why don't I get that too?
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You don't think
you'd like to know who I am
And as a daughter,
I'd have to admit to some pain
But as a person
Who has had to live inside my brain
I think you're probably right,
I don't know why anyone
Would ever like to know what I am.
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No, I don't think he'd stick a knife in me
But I do think he'd stand back,
Watch me die.
At the end of the day
I'm not sure there's much difference
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Please god I want everything
I want my name held in your fists
I want to be beside you
I want to be inside you
live between your ribs
god
I want you as a prayer
god
I want everything
Give me something
god
I just want to be able to ask for more
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I get so excited to show you
what I've made I forget
to get dressed,
veins laid out bare to you,
skin no longer sewed up tight,
because I felt something
I thought
you might like to feel it too
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I find I desperately want to be wanted
but unfortunately to do so
you must also want others as well
-"Lonely by Choices, Mainly Mine"
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You don't think
you'd like to know who I am
And as a daughter,
I'd have to admit to some pain
But as a person
Who has had to live inside my brain
I think you're probably right,
I don't know why anyone
Would ever like to know what I am.
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Sometimes I curse the fact that I ever learned
that trauma can be inherited through your genes
past sins and horrors written up
in a complex pattern
A's, T's, G's, C's
slotting together like legos to paint the picture
that I never needed to know.
I'm aware I'll never be clean or whole.
Because it makes so much sense
that the child would inherit the sins of their father
regardless of the fact I have never been touched
by his father's sins and his mother's before.
I'm broken and used and cursed and
it's written into my very code.
So there's no fixing this
because there's no event and there's no traits
to rework and reconfigure,
no therapy that can undo conception
no manifestation that can undo the past.
I was born red handed and unclean
and I will die with my father's blood
staining my very veins.
I would've preferred I never knew.
At least then I could pretend.
At least then I might've faked my way
into one day feeling whole.
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I desperately want to bite
I want your blood between my teeth
And your eyes on me
And I could want for nothing more
Than for you to be happy
But I want you to want me
So I'll just sit there pressing,
Words between my teeth
won't bite want you
Won't hurt want me
Won't hurt
please
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A picture of a purple flower
pretty in it's simplicity
and unknowingly blunt
in it's nostalgic delivery.
Suddenly I wasn't looking
at a badly lit computer screen,
I was on my knees
beside a bright green mailbox
plucking the first purple of spring
to rush inside to my mom.
I'm going to plant these.
I'm not quite sure yet
if I'll have to find bulbs
or learn to keep seeds alive
long enough they can be left alone.
But I can never get back,
that green mailbox and
those too short limbs
nestled in the muddy grass.
I can plant these.
Pretty purple flowers
that show up after the winter
just to let me know
everything is gonna be alright.
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