caniexist

[caniexist]

I am fine being alone until I realise I am alone

If the world won't disappear before me, shall I?

#tw #tw self destruction #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #tw selfhate #pro for myself #ana trigger #anamia #fatty #depression #alone #sad thoughts #sad #suicide

[caniexist]

My will to be present at any given moment is dwindling. I dont care what anyone has to say anymore. I have nothing to say anymore.

#tw #tw self destruction #fatty #ana trigger #pro for myself #anamia #tw selfhate #tw ed relapse #tw ed account #tw ed vent #pro ana #ana #anarexsick

[caniexist]

I need an outlet to vent

To reflect, quiet introspection

A vechile, a method, a place

Do I find solace in my flesh

Or is it my last resort

I find time and time again

When im on the verge

I have no one

No place, no comfort

Just a minimially present reflection

Hollow, beady eyes adorning egregious skin

Will the echo of my heartbeat linger on if I go?

#anamia #tw #tw self destruction #fatty #ed fast #ana trigger #pro for myself #tw selfhate #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #sad poetry #poetry #tw self destructive behavior #self h@rm #self harm #tw ed relapse #tw ed account #ed #tw ed vent

[caniexist]

Hey hey hey hey hey hey hello hello hello hello ok bye goodnight

[caniexist]

Bro one day im fucking leaving

#tw self destruction #sucidial #tw suicide

[caniexist]

MY GOD IM SO LONELY

#lonely #lone #loner life #anamia #tw #tw self destruction #ed fast #fatty #ana trigger #pro for myself #tw selfhate #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive

[caniexist]

Blaze is scam coz capitalism

#blaze #blaze trends #blaze this #tumblr #please #pretty please #love you #pleasant #ay #hey #yo #good #bad #nice #medium #hot #cold #ok #capitalism #do i even make sense #no

[caniexist]

Tumblr why must u eat my post give it back pls

[caniexist]

Burn out

I ran hours ahead before I crashed

You cheered from behind me

I'm slowing down

Were you insincere

My eyes blur, legs begin to wobble

The ground shaking, disorienting

If I fall, will you stop to help me

A gush of wind, I see your figure run past

Is my downfall your success?

#anamia #tw #tw self destruction #pro for myself #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #tw selfhate #poem #sad poetry #personal rant #just ranting #venting

[caniexist]

I feel so close to ending it all fuck the more i think about it the more logical it feels.

#tw #anamia #ed fast #fatty #ana trigger #tw self destruction #pro for myself #tw selfhate #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #tw self destructive behavior #self harm #depression #self h@rm #tw suicide

[caniexist]

He peered down upon me, grasping my neck

His grip suffocating, the last of my air escaping my chest

The overwhelming feeling of emptiness presided

Drowning me

Pushing my head down in a bathtub

Where did I stop and the water start?

My chapped lips overwhelming blue

Skin a faded grey

I lay at the creek face down in the rocks

Legs a muddy collection of browns and reds

Please call it murder

For I could not bear if you thought it any other way

#tw depressive #anamia #tw #tw self destruction #tw selfhate #tw depressing thoughts #poem #poetry #story #sad poetry #sad thoughts #depression #self h@rm #self harm

[caniexist]

Melanchony strips me of my words

It rips out my tounge

Tying me down, limb by limb to the confines of my bed, my wrists sore from the rope

Carved out my insides, leaving me hollow

Deafening silence wailing at me

Louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and LOUDER AND LOUDER AND LOUDER

#anamia #ed fast #tw #fatty #ana trigger #tw self destruction #pro for myself #tw selfhate #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #depression #tw suicide #suicidal #poem #pro 4na #proana #pro ana #self harm #tw self destructive behavior #self h@rm

[caniexist]

I wish I had a purpose

I wish I had friends

I wish I was skinny

I wish I was smarter

I wish I was nicer

I wish that people liked me

I wish I were alive

I wish I wasn't so scared

I wish I wasn't so sad

I wish I wasn't so jealous

I wish I wasn't so clingy

I wish I were dead

#anamia #tw #fatty #ana trigger #ed fast #tw self destruction #pro for myself #pro 4na #tw selfhate #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive #tw suicide #4na tw #anarexsick #pro ana #proana

[caniexist]

I have no real friends wtf

#anamia #tw #fatty

[caniexist]

Why does it hurt to feel so empty

To wanna die knowing you can't

#tw ed vent #anamia #tw ed relapse #ed fast #tw #ana trigger #fatty #tw self destruction #depression #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressive

[caniexist]

I have geniuenly accepted my life to end sometime in the near future

Thinking about it realistically, I dont think about a family, a career, a life

I think about how when I'm done, I'll be gone forever and it'll be so liberating

#suicudal #tw suicide #sucidial #self harm #tw ed vent #fatty #tw self destruction #tw selfhate

[caniexist]

i feel unreal

#proana #ana #pro for myself #tw suicide