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vladimir-todd · 13 days

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“Some people know me as the voice that you hear,

When you loosen the noose on the rope.”

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vladimir-todd · 13 days

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Forever a Sick Boi.

#Ren Gill #RenMakesMusic #Sick Boi #Mental Health #Mental Illness #Psychosis #Music #Song #Singer Songwriter #Youtube

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vladimir-todd · 8 months

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It's my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr.. lol.

#10 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone

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vladimir-todd · 9 months

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Say less. At least my skin is however many years clean.

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.

#self h@rm #dissociation #cptsd life #self sabotage #depression #mental health

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vladimir-todd · 5 years

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I need them…

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vladimir-todd · 6 years

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My first tattoo, the Evenstar, from The Lord of The Rings.

This tattoo has a lot of personal meaning to me. I requested that the original crystals be change to sapphires, which is my birthstone. I love it.

It turned out even better than what I imagined. The artist who did it was Robbie Reel, at Addictions In Ink, in Wichita, Kansas.

#tattoo #addictionsinink #lord of the rings #lotr #evenstar #arwen undomiel #aragorn son of arathorn #arwen #aragorn #robbie reel

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vladimir-todd · 6 years

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My name is Shane. I am a transman. When I was a kid, I felt like I was a mistake. But watching Mulan changed my life. For the first time, I had someone I could relate to, that I saw myself in. I broke down when she sang “Reflection”, her words represented exactly how I felt. I could never be a girl, that is not who I am inside. The fear of losing everyone, not being able to be the perfect daughter, or bride. Mulan saved my life, Mulan showed me who I am, & made me believe that I could be myself.

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vladimir-todd · 6 years

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