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[thingsphoenix21]

I opened my own poetry account it would mean the world if you guys checked it out.

The almost hatred.

The almost hatred.

I hate the things that are left in between.

I hate that we're stuck in the nothingness.

The almost love, the almost no contact.

The almost awkward, the almost future.

I hate that I stayed quiet.

I hate that I didn't say something that day.

I hate that I repressed my anger.

I hate that you didn't do what was right.

I hate that I have never had the strength to say something.

I hate that you still do little things that are ours.

I hate that you have little crumbs of you all over my life.

I hate that you wouldn't kiss me in that crappy station.

I hate that we buried that moment as if never happened.

I hate that you told me 20 minutes before, that we were just acquaintances.

The hug and the three seconds of longing for something more.

And that neither of us took the step.

And we played it as nothing.

You pretend so well, my love.

You should get a fucking award for this.

So you could put it amongst all of your lies.

And then I realized that we will stay in the almost...

That I will have to cherish these moments and days for myself.

All of your promises.

"I don't want you to leave Chaos... I don't know if I will, but if you do it I would hate that..."

And the question of why didn't it happen keeps lingering in my brain.

Why I must always overthink the same things?

The station, the Diet Coke, and your bloody smile live with me.

It is awful losing someone who was never yours.

I hate your poems, I hate that your last published poem has my name written in secrecy.

I hate that you still care about me, but you won't look at my face.

I hate that I won't hear you call me "Casper", "silly" and" bigheaded gal".

And that I won't refer to you as "Mr.Ego", "Darling" and "Love".

I hate that we won't be all cuddly again watching silly mems.

I hate that you don't accompany me to places.

I hate that I can't tell you that I cut her off.

I hate that we won't be in that last August lying down talking about nothing and everything.

I hate that you even made me believe that the story of us was just a story.

I hate that January's hug didn't turn into what it screamed to be.

It screamed kiss. We know that you and I, and whoever reads this.

My eyes have always shone when you were around.

Life was easier when we pretended it was nothing.

That our friendship; Was just a very special one.

I hate the weight of that stupid hug. That your hands remained as weight in my back, and that mine stayed on your neck. And that it went by a few seconds, wondering, and neither of us, made the step forward.

And that I thought, now it is. And no. 

He's going to do it! He didn't.

Of course, not. Because it's easier to write about it, right poet boy?

I run away from you, right?

And you left, leaving me with the words hanging, you promised you wouldn't do it. And you did.

Do your promises have any truth?

I hate that I still feel your hands on my back.

I hate that I still care about you.

I hate that you used your friend as your replacement.

I hate that you still look for me, but don't ask about it.

I hate the last words of our last real conversation.

"What it's meant to be will be."

I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!

I hate that you still haven't returned my book.

I hate that it's a constant reminder that you still have a tiny piece of me.

And I that now, after all of this time, is when you wanna read it.

I hate that every time I listen to Taylor Swift I hear your rants.

I hate that our friends can't be in the same place with both of us.

I hate to hate.

I hate the almost kiss.

I hate the way you pulled away.

I hate that you didn't understand why I was so angry for a month.

I hate that whenever Cucu asked if it was my anger something more than just your cruel words, I lied. To protect that moment and you, from the truth.

I hate that every time I tried to go back to being close to you, you pulled away.

But yeah, your text messages were still there. It's easier to write than to feel, right poet boy?

It's easier to win awards than to accept the truth.

I hate that you are such a fucking coward.

And I hate that I still love you, to someone who's so convinced it's so hard to be loved. And I hate your stupid lies.

I hate the almost...

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Hera: Your fucking dead to me. I only have one sister. Hestia: You don't mean that. Hera: I fucking mean every fucking word. Your dead to me Hestia. Hestia: I don't believe you. Hera: You and me? We're fucking done. There's nothing fucking there anymore. No more apologies, no more lies. You don't mean anything to me. Your my husband sister, not mine. NOTHING THERE.

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Rhea: You always let your emotions get in the way, that's the problem with you Hera. You don't think. Hera: Mom, please... Rhea: He's just the king, Hera. Not yours to keep. Hera: No, he's not. Rhea: So what are you telling me? That all of this revenge was worth it because he is the love of your life?

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Artemis: She's ugh. You guys don't even understand. Hermes *reading a book*: Sister, i beg to differ. Artemis: You don't. Hermes*passing the page*: Athena, Athena she's so PRETTY it makes me lose my breath. Persephone*fixing some flowers*: Me next! Me next! Athena Athena she smiled at me and I fell of the stairs. Apollo: Athena... Oh Athena. She could ran me over and I would probably say thank you brother. Dionysus: Athena. Oh Athena. Just one chance we can have a beautiful eternity. Persephone: Aren't those your words? Artemis*death glare*: I hate you all. Hermes*chuckles*:Yeah. But you still stick around.

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Hera: I hate you. Zeus:Yeah... Turns me on love. Hera: What? Zeus*gets closer*: Love it. Hera *blushing*

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Hephaestus: I'm sorry... I-I'm probably just boring you with all of this metals facts. Aphrodite: No, no. I think it's cool. It's just your passionate it's just impressive to me... *Hephaestus blushes since no one ever listened*

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Rhea: Your gonna be king my son. Isn't that charming.

Zeus: I don't know if I like it...

Rhea: What do you mean you don't know if you like it?

Zeus: I want a life on my own.

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Athena: Hera can I ask you a question why do you always throw such a fit of rage when Zeus... Like he's not gonna change. Hera:I was taught that keeping quiet kept the peace. Until I realized who's peace is it keeping? His? No fucking way.

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*Demeter in her weekly gossip session with Prometheus* Demeter: I cannot even speak the name of the god who organized that monstrosity. Prometheus*while he sighs*: I don't give a fuck his name is Hades. Demeter: Fucking Hades.

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Hera: And then talking turned into screams... Didn't mother tell us don't rush into things? Hades*sighs*: Uh huh, go on. Hera: Then he flashed his beautiful eyes at me... And I was gone. Hades: So this is why you're engaged to our brother?

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Hera: Always you two. Such a funny team. Covering for eachother's lies, and cheats. Right Hestia? Always doing what's best for the olympus right? Zeus: Hestia has made mistakes. But she's here now. That's gotta count something. Hera: Shut up ZEUS! This isn't about you. This is about you sister. This is about what you didn't do. More specially what you didn't say. It's about what I DID. I'm the one who's the queen. And you know what? I'm doing a fucking great job. Hestia: Your not being fair.... Hera: Fair. You don't get to tell me what's fair. You hide behind right and wrong, but you know what your fucking miserable behind that aren't you big sis? Always defending the undefendable. I did it all. I rule the bloody thing, not you. I always used to wonder why him, not me? Hestia:Stop it. Your doing the patetic thing. Zeus make her stop. Hera: Zeus, my dear. Don't you dare. Let me finish. Hestia: Dear. I get it. Your refering to him as dear. How sweet. You really think he loves you? I did a favor by keeping all inside. The shame your fake love to him caused. Your ashamed because HE LOVES ME MORE. Your his wife I'm his sister. FOr me he would go to war, for you he can't even remain faithful. *Hera angry cries* Hestia: Oh, poor thing. You need to know a few things in life. There's always the one who loves and the one that's loved. The one that loves, that in this case you, does everything with passion. The loved one is the one who limitates to being loved Zeus case with literaly every women that it's not you. It's not that being the lover isn't fun. It's just painful is it Hera? It's easier to attack the one's who figure it out. Hera*chuckles*: The only one here who's miserable in this whole thing is you dear sister. With your speaches about love and your fucking sense of rightness wich is disgusting. That is because you don't want to admit the truth. Hestia*calmly*: The only truth is the reality. And I'm gonna explain it to you. You love Zeus... Zeus loves everyone but you. And I don't need this love thing. And it why you hate me so. Because you choose loving and I choose what's right. Hera *gets closer to her*: Fuck sakes. That you don't love anyone? Of course not. Sweetie. You don't have what it takes to love. To love you need courage. I'm brave. Look. Zeus my love. I love you. I love you that much that I don't care who you lay with me as long as you always come home. *Zeus cleans her tears* Hera*holds Zeus hand*: See that? This is courage. I feel it and I say it. And that's something you never being able to do. Because how long you been.... 10 centuries in love with Zeus. And you didn't even dare to open your mouth. You put him a pedestal, followed him around. Now what? He's married with me and that kills you dosen't it?

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Hephaestus *smoking*: I wanna be someone's first choice. Aglaea: Yeah... You are. Hephaestus: No, no. I know what your saying. I'm not her first choice. Aglaea: But your someone's first choice.

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Ares: I really need to organize my thoughts.... Athena: Wait, your thoughts? Plural..

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*After Hera caught Zeus with Metis* Zeus:I was trying to make her forgive me. Hera: For what? Zeus: Because I'm trying to be a better person for you. That's all I fucking do. Tell me what else can I do to make you believe that I love you! Tell me. Hera*looks down* Zeus: You are never gonna trusth me... Hera*deadlook*: Trusth you? You think that I should trust you? Zeus:Yes. Hera*chuckles*: Where has that ever gotten me? Zeus: You've never gonna forgive me are you? No matter what I do? You are just gonna keep brining it up every time. Hera: Because I don't trusth you.

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*Hephaestus protection squad* Hebe*closes the door*: No don't pick up the pigeon, you know she's only calling cause she's drunk and alone. Thetis*nods*: Don't let her in, you'll have to kick her out again. Hermes*sits beside him*: Also don't be her friend, you know you're gonna wake up in the morning in her bed. Dionysus: And if you're under her you are not getting over them. Those are the rules.

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Hermes: Your home now. Dionysus: get off me man. Hermes*hugging him*: NO you let me love you orphan boy!

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Hades: I need help.

Demeter: Two words.

Hestia: I bet they won't be helpful.

Demeter: Your. Problem.

Hestia: I was right.

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