#you're doing god's work out here

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

I tried making a thing

(nails it on the wall) A MASTERPIECE

#you're doing god's work out here #THANK YOU HHHHHH #caprico #loen #fashion polycool #i guess #lunanitic-moon #ask

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

like, ultimately, spn could never actually break the cycle of abuse and familial violence, bc to truly break the cycle would've required its writers to have the radical imaginary to look beyond the status quo. the show just reifies the idea of a paternal authority over the world. god dies but he has to be replaced you see, but it's okay, it's someone better now. family is hell but now family is also heaven.

#american liberal belief that you can make the world a better place if you just vote in someone better #OK that is. enough nonsense from me today #how i would've ended spn: no more god no more demons or angels or heaven or hell or the supernatural. only reality!!! #sam and dean go on a road trip but they go see something fun like that biggest ball of twine again. they get out of the car. #(dean off in the distance laughing. he looks carefree for the first time in a while) (sam is smiling with him) #sam looks back at the impala and you're left with the weird feeling the two of them are just. not gonna get back into it. END SCENE #anyways. more motivation for me to work on my own wips #yeah here's two horrible siblings but how do i write them out of the maze in a way that matters!! #^ comical realisations at returning to old novel drafts post experiencing spn. maybe sam and dean have always lived here #even before i knew them........ #j.txt

[dollypopup]

so many people out here mad af that Colin isn't in love w/ Penelope from jump and completely ignoring that the single sexiest thing a man can do is be friends w/ a woman wholeheartedly and without having any romantic or sexual expectation from her

#polin #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #bridgerton s3 #sorry i reposted it because it didn't show up in the tags for some reason? #but i feel strongly about it soooooo #anyway colin is fantastic and peeps need to build their bridge and get over it #IT'S FRIENDS TO LOVERS Y'ALL #FRIENDS #TO LOVERS #THE FRIENDS PART IS FIRST!!!!! #all these 'oh my god just admit you're in love w/ her' #pen out here in every conversation basically going 'hey do you think i'm dateable yet?' #whilst Colin is like 'Penelope is so smart and I love talking to her' #and colin being vulnerable as hell on main talking about how he's working on himself and asking about her dreams #y'all out here like 'KISS ALREADY' and i'm going heart eyes over how he always asks her what she means or complimenting her for being funny #bit more of a serious take: Penelope needs to start seeing Colin as a person #he's just a fantasy to her instead of a friend and it's really sad #rewatched all their scenes in S2 and i'm not kidding that most of the early convos are her prodding him for information about his love life #if he's met someone if he likes her if he's ready to date/marry #like girl??? maybe just??? be happy that you have a deep and insightful friendship with a good dude???? who never pressures you? #who stuck his neck ALL the way out for you #just because he values you as a person and your presence in his life #I LOVE HOW HE IS WITH HER #IT'S BEAUTIFUL #anyway colin is the goodest bton boi no one can change my mind

[amoneki-ramblings]

hngh. okay first rant post I just think amoneki is so insane especially for how much they care and respect for each other right up until the very end like???

okay first of all there's obviously the way that they outright say (even if it's not directly to each other) that they don't want the other to die

Also the fact that Amon tells Kaneki to take a Break. In the middle of a fight. (Which also adds him to the pool of characters that are trying to tell Kaneki to tell him to just let himself rest for once (who he does Not listen to))

Also the fact that when Kaneki deals his first (and only) potentially fatal blow to Amon Ever, instead of feeling betrayed by the fact that he was trying to avoid attacking him before or thinking "Oh so this is where he finally tries to actually kill me" Amon just calls Kaneki strong. He Cut Off His Arm and Amon's first thought is just to say that he thinks he's strong, even if this should technically be a sort of betrayal to all their previous encounters and a Contradiction to what Amon observed at the beginning of this fight about how Kaneki really wasn't planning on killing him (it's like even though this happened he knows deep down that it wasn't with a real killing Intent).

He doesn't even think about himself or that he might Actually Die he's just thinking about Kaneki even right then and afterwards

(ohhh my god I hate Amon (/affecionate) I have so many Thoughts about him especially thoughts Specifically about how he has a sort of idealized version of Kaneki in his head from the few times they've interacted I could talk about it for Hours (but then I'm gonna be here for ages and I will get So off track) )

And it's also about the fact that. In his final thoughts/words in tg Kaneki opens up with Amon's words; these are his words that have been stuck in his head ever since he first heard them and they are some of the last words he clings to before he's "erased". (When I first saw that line near the opening of the final chapter I almost lost my Shit) Like,

It's about how even up until the end they're thinking about what they said to each other at that first encounter by the river

It's about how much impact they've had and Continue to have on each other even when they're basically Dying (and it's partially the others' fault)

It's about the actually Insane amount of parallels and the flipping of their situations between their first encounter and their last (in the original series)

It's about how neither of them deal the killing blow in an "unfair" fight (when the other is basically disarmed) but once they're on equal grounds that's the closest they've come to Actually killing the other and even then they don't want that to Actually happen and both hold onto that same thought

It's about how the natural thing would be for them to just fight and/or kill the other without a thought but they don't because "This guy's Different"

Enemies to It's Complicated. Enemies to you-have-impacted-my-worldview-in-irreversible-ways-and-I-wish-I-could-just-sit-down-and-talk-with-you-but-can't

Enemies to I-should-hate-you-because-you-(technically indirectly)-caused-the-death-of-someone-I-cared-about-but-also-your-words-won't-leave-my-head-and-I-want-to-know-more-about-you-also-I-don't-want-to-kill-you-but-you're-not-leaving-me-much-choice

Amoneki divorce has me so fucked up

#tokyo ghoul #tg #kaneki ken #amon koutarou #amoneki #amoneki ramblings #koutarou amon #ken kaneki #while i know a lot of what happens between them in :re i'm not actually There yet #so i'm stuck in a perpetual cycle of looking at them in original tg #and losing my mind Every God Damn Time #i did it i made a post. i made a blog in fact i got encouraged and caved Instantly #ummmm psss pss there's amoneki here if you're interested #however also please read my pinned i (shamefully) have not finished the manga (yet) i'm working on it okay !! #these mfs interact directly like Four times and i am playing those scenes on loop forever in my head #they're so married they're so divorced it's ruining my life /pos #okay but actually i spent like an hour writing this instead of doing homework so maybe /neg too #they're so married and donato knows it's like not even funny #absolutely terrified about posting in the main tags but. gotta get out there somewhere right??

[moonscape]

okay i'm going to be nicer to totk for real now *deletes most of my drafts*

#bwark #god i'm fucking trying to have some kind of epiphany here where i can have it all click and be like ''even if i have my problems i can still #get enjoyment out of it'' but this game makes it so damn difficult #''i can discuss the story'' wait nope can't. story sucks ass and butt #''what about the exploration? that was the best part of botw'' uh no can't do that when the surface is practically the same and there's no #substance to the sky or the depths #''gameplay?'' i don't like ultrahand. which sucks when that's 90% of the gameplay #i respect the work that must've gone into it and the creativity it's drawn from fans but making one gameplay aspect literally ALL YOU DO #runs the risk of alienating people who can't get behind #and sure other zelda games have their gimmicks but it's different #like take tp for example. i get that the wolf mechanic isn't for everyone. but aside from the early game twilight sections and a few sparse #puzzles in the later game you're never really forced to play as wolf so it doesn't overstay its welcome #god i just remembered that totk turned wolf link into meat chunks. another thing they took from us 😔 #actually on that genuinely why couldn't they just bring him back? #like you're reusing a ton of shit from botw anyway?? #which brings me back to my main point is that anything that isn't new is just. botw again #shrines are back but they're uglier. dungeons are the divine beasts but in a new coat of paint #why did they add more shrines to the game anyway? like you'd think they'd at least lower the number because fans didn't want them to return #the SINGULAR leg up i can think of id the bosses. yeah i love botw and i'll hold my hands up and say that a lot of the common complaints for #it don't bother me personally but yeah the blights absolutely sucked #divebombing colgera with the dragon roost theme playing was the closest thing that this game came to giving me an experience #okay i'll shut up now I'M GOING TO BE NICE EVEN IF IT KILLS ME

[rist-ix]

https://www.tumblr.com/rist-ix/749015401700229120 not you reblogging this when you ship bloom with the man who murdered her family 😭

Bloom's into ppl who slay! Hope this helps :3

#alright snark and ship wars aside i get where you’re coming from tho #if you're genuinely interested in my thought process here i would love to elaborate #which is exactly what I’ll do! #first of all! the post you linked is about headcanons #which my brain kinda wants to put into a whole different category than ships — fandom ships in particular! — but i can leave that aside #because there IS an argument to be made that relationships are an extension of characterization and personality traits #if you wanna go that route i would wanna explain that Bloom's and/or Valtor's interest in the other is in fact based on canon #(even though I don’t really think ships need to be established in the source material. make shit up that’s what fandom is for #1) the Andros episode speaks for itself. Valtor specifically tells the Trix to back off because HE wants to be the one to fight bloom #2) the episode before that he asks questions about her (and only her; even though he has more powerful enemies to worry about) #demonstrating curiosity about and interest in her #3) that same episode (or the one before; can’t remember) is their infamous first meeting #where time LITERALLY slows down as the pass each other on the stairs #they get IMPACT FRAMES #the whole color palette changes!!! #idk about u but I eat that shit up. love the drama of it all no one does it like them #I’m gonna skip all the instances where Valtor is spying on Bloom through his little scrying spell because oh god who has the time #let’s go straight to Bloom #if I had a week I would not be able to collect all the moments where she growls his name in pure fury and single-minded determination #she gets a little bit obsessed with him over the course of the season and I personally think that’s very sexy of her #Bloom is known for her tunnel vision when it comes to her past and origins and Valtor's existence fits PERFECTLY into that #it ties in neatly with her overarching story of the past 2 seasons #literally PERFECT foils #which always makes for the juiciest stories #4) she singles him out for a duel in the museum episode #5) she can literally feel his presence #6) the mere mention of his name sends her into her weird faux enchantix #of course there’s no romance in canon but there’s TENSION AND CHEMISTRY which is all u really need for a ship #all their animosity and bad blood is what makes it so INTERESTING to wonder how they COULD work. it’s the spice that makes for good fanfic!

[jamiesfootball]

🎃 trick or treat 🎃

You get a long snippet (act surprised):

Roy flipped to a page at random:

'Ah, la belle dame sans merci who lived in his heart, made known to him in transitory fading splendor by dark eyes in the Ritz-Carlton, by a shadowy glance from a passing carriage in the Bois de Boulogne!'

The book Ted had given Roy had started with, ‘It was a dark and stormy night.’

“Oi!” Jamie started, sitting up to give Roy a concerned frown. “This one isn’t the first in the series.”

Roy shrugged. “Doesn’t matter. They’re all supposed to be self-contained stories. Don’t think I’ve ever met a person who read Wodehouse in order.”

Mollified, Jamie settled back into the cushions with Roy’s book, seemingly unaware of the puzzle Roy was rotating in his head.

Within the first few pages, he had a good idea what Ted intended by giving Jamie this particular book. He also couldn’t help but notice that he’d been given a book fit for his six-year-old niece, and Sam had been given Ender’s Game, and somehow Jamie had been the unlucky bastard with a reading assignment that would make any university student want to stick pencils in their eyes.

Also Anthony Patch was a posh rich twat.

#trick or treat asks #ask game #snippets #partway through suffering through The Beautiful and The Damned and BOY HOWDY DO I HAVE OPINIONS ON THIS BEING JAMIE'S BOOK #i tried to find you something fluffy but instead I found this and I am having STRONG FEELINGS ABOUT IT #anyways the fluffy part is that Roy spends a good chunk of time trying to find A Book for Jamie #partly to undo a little of what Ted did (and he does not even know the whole of THAT yet) #and partly because he has assigned himself Coach Homework to work out what he would've done in Ted's situation #and partly because jamie struggling to finish this stupid book is excruciating to watch. because jamie is not enjoying the book like at all #so here roy has literally just. traded him books. so Jamie can curl up on the couch with Wodehouse #and roy can suffer through the realistic disintegration of a relationship into emotional (and physical) domestic abuse and alcoholism #and like. ted couldn't have known. but wow wow wow this is not a light read #anyways #abuse mention cw #for the tags at least #roy kent #jamie tartt #fic: oh god you're gonna get it (you have not been given love)

[catboyyukineapologist]

i'm dying. Guys, I'm Actively Dying over the sheer characterization of these three lines.

#noragami #noragami 105-2 #noragami spoilers #after taking a translation course i appreciate fast-moon's work here 1000x more #like holy shit dude you're doing so much here. oh my god. it's YOU tearing my heart out. #it's adachitoka's knife in your hand #noragami ebisu #noragami 105-2 spoilers #kunimi #noragami tenjin #mayu #noragami takemikazuchi #kiun #years in this fandom and i still can't figure out the tagging ettiquete

[talentforlying]

one of these days i'm going to write up all that i've changed from azzarello's bullshit era and the one (1) piece i've kept from milligan (and also changed) and the only thing currently stopping me is that it is going to be so, so inside-baseball incomprehensible. and i almost never want to go reading/screencapping azzarello and milligan to add references but i Want to add references.

canon is goop, just know that we continue to ride the bus down "hellblazer ended at #250 and looks like swiss cheese before that" street.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #i'm doing page maintenance before i fuck off to work rip it's got me thinking #anyway i think i said WAY back on this blog that a side goal of mine is to make hellblazer lore accessible to non-comic readers where i can #bc it's such a Heavy comic & i love it so much & i always felt Terrible recommending it to people only for them to be disgusted #and like. @ past me that particular goal is NOT as easy as you thought it would be lmao #esp because i have a habit of getting VERY detail-oriented when it comes to talking about hellblazer i think #but by GOD it's still a goal. i can put in some motherfucking references here and there when i talk about The Lore #like. azzarello's writing style never translates well for me in synopsis bc he Loves to put the audience in the outside perspective #where we are bystanders/with the rest of the bystanders to constantine's actions and not to his motivations/inner monologue #and i HATE that. hellblazer has ALWAYS been about what this guy has going on underneath the masked exterior #all the things you can't say out loud when you're queer and working class trying to survive in 70s-80s-90s england #but that you FEEL with your WHOLE fucking chest. how that feeling drives you to enjoy little rebellions wherever you can get them #(also azzarello just fucking Sucks LMAO but i'm talking style rn) #so i end up relying on frusin's art to tell the story a little more bc i think he understands the Theatre of constantine's public persona #and when that theatre is Absent then it's really REALLY noticeable. so frusin keeps me in it most of the time #and if i'm digging into frusin art then i'm Going to want to compare it to older panels bc i like body language consistency #milligan on the other hand has NOTHING to save his sorry ass bc his writing is drop-jaw fucking terrible AND the artist seems to like it #but the loss of john's thumb being tied to his mental health (ignoring the bullshit with shade) has always felt. important to me somehow id #anyway MUCH thinking about my favorite loser on this about-to-be-annoying day shdjksd he has been done so dirty #hellblazer brain go brrrr

[knifearo]

hi, i’m having a really hard time rn and i found a post of yours randomly on my dash, so i’m not sure if you’ve already answered a thing like this. if you have, feel free to just ignore this! if you haven’t though, how did you know you were asexual? i feel like romance is just a hypothetical for me, but i crave it so badly. it just feels like the second i try to put anything into action, im suddenly repulsed. but it also makes me so sad that i respond this way. am i just socially anxious, or does this sound like an aromantic who has fallen victim to societal standards?

hi hiiiii!!! first of all: i love you and you're doing great. second of all: being aroace, my discovery of aspec stuff kind of went hand in hand. i was lucky enough to have terminology available to me, and figured it out pretty young; i had a lot of the same stuff going on, though. when someone first suggested i might be ace, i (not really knowing enough about what that meant) said "sure, but i want a partner. someone who's always there with me and supporting me." later that year/the year after, i looked a little more into it and went, "oh, that's what it is!" and then it felt super natural from there to pick up the aromantic label too. to me, they've always been intertwined.

the actual things that helped me Figure It Out were definitely shared experiences (hearing people describe squishes was an aha moment for sure, and hearing someone say that they had thought sexual attraction was a joke and then realizing that it. wasn't an elaborate inside joke. very jarring lmao) but i definitely had the same hesitations when it came to romance. six or seven years after coming out, i've since realized that what i wanted wasn't actually a partner; i was craving intimacy and the feeling of being special and prioritized by someone, and the way i'd been programmed to want that was through a partner. i'm super strong about being non-partnering now, and i feel that all my needs in that direction are met by my close personal relationships, cause what i actually wanted was never romance; at least personally, it never occurred to me that you would probably want to like. kiss a partner. maybe share a bed or smth. not a single thought in my head about that lmao

if you're feeling repulsed, my instinct is to say that it's probably not something that you want. my advice here is to really examine what you're looking for. do you want romance because you want romance, or because amatonormativity has gotten it into your head that romance is the only way that you can have certain things?

another thing to consider is that amatonormativity can and will kind of like. program you to want romance. and it can be really hard to let go of that, even if romance is something that actively repulses/stresses you out. remember that you have a lifetime behind you of being told that romance is the greatest thing on earth, that it completes you, that it's life's ultimate goal, and that that stuff can be hard to overcome. i know a lot of people feel a fair bit of grief over losing the chance at romance, even if the reason is that they don't actually want romance. it's a strange place to be in. your prerogative here is to figure out your own personal relationship with romance, and however it ends up, that's fine.

it's also totally possible that you're aromantic and you just want romance. that's totally fine! wanting romantic interactions does not constitute romantic attraction, which is the core thing here. you can be aromantic and be in a romantic relationship. the external things are not as important as how you feel on the inside.

so much more that i could say, but i'll try and pause myself here for now. to quote one of my own posts: you can literally just be aromantic. it's free and nobody's stopping you. as long as that label is useful to you, it's yours. look more into amatonormativity, think a lot about things, and spend some time in community spaces; you have all the time in the world, and all the support you could ever want from me and the rest of the community <3 stop by in the ask box or the dms anytime! absolute best of luck to you. kisses <3

#fr if you want interaction send in an ask anytime <3 #people are here for you! :D #god this post is fucking long. sowwy would edit it down a little but i'm rushing out to get to work. wanted to get you an answer asap <3 #you're doing great! keep it up! everything's going to be okay :) #ask #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #aroace #aro positivity #talking

[cloudbells]

I'm sorry I gave everyone the impression that I was gonna be active allie when I first joined this fandom 😔🙏🏿 I planned on it but I should have warned the masses that my life often loves to backhand me away from my interest.

#me my mine #TMI i joined therapy again recently and it's taking up all my mental energy and im trying not to quit it 😩🤞🏿 #when i die the first thing im gonna do is rip god's throat out with my teeth for giving me all these PROBLEMS 🤣 #shower thought of a (culturally) christian #also my name is not allie i just wanted the alliteration #i actually dont mind giving out my real name if i havent already but i feel like people would be uncomfortable with it #for reasons that are too long to tag but anyways im 99% sure ive said my actually name here at least 7 times #also in case it wasn't clear im not really christian #i grew up as an evangelical yes but it's been so long since me and my family have been active in religion #my dad likes to call us “spiritual” now #you may be thinking “user cloudbells whu do you overexplain so much when you're inactive for more than a coupoe weeks?” #and to that i answer “still working that out”

[parameddic]

my boss was nice to me again i love working here this is horrible (i probably need to quit next year)

#kdfjlsdkfj #we were talking about taking photos of the business for the google business profile and i found the google maps street view and he said #'oh can we steal their photo?' and i said 'well we can definitely just print screen it and take it' and i #print screened and opened it in paint and cropped out google's overlay and he #LAUGHED so loudly oh my god #''aster ... It's very refreshing working with you. I like the way your mind works #I have the impression you're extremely bright.'' #george 🙈 you can't just SAY things like that my ego won't survive. it will inflate so much it pops #he recruited me to talk to his website-development company with him and then asked my opinion directly and i told him #that i thought they were a waste of $400/month when we don't need the service they're offering and we can do things without them #and he was so right in so many ways about. he was right i DID want to talk to them it was good fun #also right that i had an opinion i wanted to share but hadn't found a spot in the conversation for #and! he agreed with me! #i don't know man. i love working for this guy. he's good fun and he pays me all the way through lunch (even an hour's lunch) he's so #good #he is 76 and working for him forever is not practical and also i have life plans and goals but #.............................................................................................. #i do love working here yknow #aster talks #tbd #(tell me 'he sounds so cool!' in the replies if u have spoons. i want to agree with you loudly if you want to agree with me loudly)

[non-un-topo]

"It's not dysphoria" I say as I write an entire assignment on my own invisible queerness and gender identity, and as I feel like tearing my skin off and crawling into a cave forever

#i love that this seems to happen every october sdfghfd #those who have been here long enough know the pattern by now #but what am i gonna do about it? nothing probably. idk maybe something when i'm 45 #i would be more okay with all this if i wasn't fucking 5'1 with the biggest girly baby eyes ever #god when cis people say 'but you're so pretty' all sad like it's a shame i'm not dolling myself up. #maybe i can pass as an 11 year old boy. and maybe passing isn't the point. but i would at least like a CRUMB. #....ah. that's why i'm so messed up rn. probably this assignment / research topic i'm choosing #and also having to keep my partner's transition a secret. it's not hard i just worry that someone in the family will find out #that's probably why i've procrastinated working on this assignment for so long lol. it's too personal. #i also had one of those days yesterday where i felt like everyone was scrutinizing me. and maybe a few old men actually were #but i mean who cares? but still can't queer people just exist without being a spectacle? #without cis people constantly trying to 'figure them out'?

[volivolition]

Idk if you saw or not but a new chapter of the fury of a shattered mirror dropped last night! I haven’t read it yet but I thought I should let you know 😎👍

awughgh HELL YEAH!! ive been away from my laptop for a while so i didnt see, thank you birdy!! :] this is the best news ive had all day hkjgh <33 excited very excited going to read it now <33

#volta transmissions #SKILLS ARE BACK BABEYYYYYYY!! ehehehehe :] oh i LOVE seeing them come back from just ''??????'' SMILES REALLY HAPPILY #welcome back to the world little ones... oh im so happy to see them... :'] ''You do you softie'' EHEHE... skills interactions :D! yay!!!!! #okay i'll add more liveblogging in the tags as i go probably hkjhg <33 i appreciate you very much birdy <33 #''the avant-garde prick is just making shit up again'' HAKJDHKJ... ''You did us proud holding out til the end'' WAH... ENDURANCE... ;O; #WELCOME BACK ENCY SMILES!!! no motorics skills yet though thats to be expected hkjh <3 ency ''you have the facts'' and #empathy ''and the emotions'' HKJGH IS THAT A FACTSFEELINGS SKILLSPOSTING REFERENCE /J lots of voli talking!!! very happy about this <3 #VOLITION - ''if we had the logician here...'' ''...'' ''damnit i thought that would work'' HAHAJKSHDSKJH SMILES. HA. #''Punch something. maybe Coach will show up'' HHFKJH... oh my god this makes me so happy... cmon we gotta get the gang back together... #half light!! hello!! my darling!! LETS GO!! ough buT NOT ENOUGH TO GET ARMS BACK NOOUIGHJ MOTORICS WHERE ARE YOU LITTLE BUDDIES??? #''try to get eyes back online'' ''come on come on--'' OUGH I LOVE... i love how theyre all supporting each other as they come back online.. #TEAMWORK!! CMON LETS GET EVERYONE BACK!! YEAH BOI WE GOT A MOTORICS BACK UP!! HELLO PERCEP! calm down! you need composure in here!! #THE JOYWIRE... OUGH STOP STOP IM SO FOND... VOLI CMON. nooo ourgh takes damage... ''You were really gonna cut me out?'' AWAH... WAHHH!!!!! #ow my heart my HEART. chemi baby my little darling... hugging him kissing his forehead... THERES OUR LOGICIAN HELLO DARLING!! #hkjh trying to cue in interfacing DAMN :'] good metaphor anyway concept it was very well laid. voli keeping track of each of them too hehe #HI DRAMA YAYY! platonic love story! friends!!! ''Neuroplasticity's off the charts.'' ''I'm surprised you know a word that long that isn't- #'''amphetamines''' ''Dextromethorphan asshole'' HAJKSH YOU FUCKING TELL 'EM! YOU'RE NOT E-CHEMISTRY FOR NOTHING!!! #again with trying to get Phys back in hkjhg INLANDDD SMILES HI THERE DREAMER!! Logic just like ''yeah. i hate it here.'' ''have you tried?' #HM NO INLAND I DONT THINK WE HAVE HKJHG... /FLAGRANT DISREGARD LETS GO LETS GET IT/ SHIVERS MY DARLING!!! #okay this is the 20th tag. hopefully a reblog will be enough to finish out my thoughts but god knows i have so much to say hjhg

[densitywell]

the Changebringer magically empowering FCG's coin and telling them that if they stray from her path they'll end up alone and in the dark, completely reinforcing FCG's unwillingness to confront his own autonomy and desperate need to have someone else tell him what to do...........

#btwn this and the umadara incident working out so well i fear this whole excursion has taught that little robit the wrong lessons #this and the dawnfather being kind of a dick to deanna... the idea that beings that fallible and terrified have so much power over you!!! #gods are real lucky the alternative is obviously worse bc they are doing terrible pr work rn #fresh cut grass #critical role #fcg #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #man this would be such a fun discussion if people could be remotely normal abt it #am very curious where fcg goes from here though when so much of their story so far is abt seeing themselves as a fully realized person #which is not incompatible with dedicated religious belief! but when you're as deeply insecure in yr sense of self as fcg is #a powerful person or group coming to you and promising to give you life and meaning and community if you do exactly what they say is. #well it's ripe for further hurt and manipulation to say the least! at best it is probably not gonna fix things for you long term. #CRposting

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

lies on the floor and has just So Many Feelings about all the ways in which pericles and cassidy are foils, one of them being the comparison between how they use constant, vocal, unabashed affirmation of the qualities they value about themselves to cope with rock bottom self-esteem.

there's so much to be said here about how pericles' 'positive' self-talk is ultimately destructive to himself and everyone around him, whereas cassidy's has both been healing for her and held her back from processing her self-loathing in other ways, and so much of that has to do with her experiencing firsthand the results of pericles' shit handling of his poor self-esteem and desperately not wanting to be anything like him. fuck me up man

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #cassidy williams #professor pericles #SDMItag #there's SO much here god #the older i get the more i understand cassidy and *ow* #which like god the 'desperately does not want to be another pericles' is a whole can of worms of its own #cassidy: it's important to internalize that you're allowed to like and be proud of things about yourself without having to Pass Peer Review #not just as a matter of principle but because your brain needs to hear it reinforced to do so; especially when there's already damage #in the same way that someone tearing you down over and over and over will beat the idea into your head over time #no matter how Flat Out Wrong you believe they are on a logical level; and no matter how viscerally you believed that at the start #be the opposite of that for yourself #pericles: my entire personhood hinges on one (1) Good Quality(tm) #without it i am utterly worthless and deserve everything that has ever happened to me. everyone i refused to believe about myself was right #the only valid measure of whether i am a person and have worth is whether the One Good Quality demonstrably *works* in practice #and other people are forced to believe it is real and matters because it directly affects them; usually to their detriment #and the only reason people try to stop me from succeeding or give me consequences for my actions is because they don't see me as a person #'locking me up like a common beast' isn't wrong because he's inherently a person; it's wrong because *he's Smart and that makes him one* #and it does not cross his mind at all that 'seems to have murdered a bunch of children' *might in fact be a reason they'd lock up a person* #so fuck em he'll hurt anyone and everyone in order to prove his One Good Quality; and make *absolutely sure* they know it's being proved #there has to be someone else to witness and validate that proof; because to him his own judgment does not count #cassidy after having her life destroyed by the results: Hm! no thanks #dyn: so nice to meet you; angel