#you killed my spirit

[jobackmanhorsesworld]

and in the end, you became what i cried about instead of who i cried to.

#bpd #bpd things #friendship breakups #breakup #long term relationship #i miss you #i miss us #if i could go back in time #i would be better for u #you killed my spirit #i should hate you #but i just #want you to love me #i want to be loved #please love me

[sysig]

“It could be that the loss of her children drove the Queen deeper into her darker desires...but, I don’t believe she was fighting against them that hard before that particular tragedy. No monster does.” (Patreon)

Bonus:

Hmm, wonder what he could cover those holes with :3c

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #UkaGaster's answers about Toriel really interest me :3c #As evidenced by the quote caption lol - but his other ones are very interesting too! Since it sounds like she's still around! #Poor classic Handplates!Gaster believed Tori dead for such a long time while she was at the Ruins #Meanwhile Fellplates!Gaster is just like ''? I saw the Queen last week she threw me into the pricker bushes? -.ò'' lol #But anyhow lol ♪ The implications that they're still in each other's vicinity really makes me curious about their relationship! #And how Toriel might react to knowing that someone - someone other than her - is having So Much Success on one of her sore spots #Not just of having children but of the constant reminders of Gaster's success where she has to live every day with a heavy heart for her own #Being cruel to him over it - well that's just par for the course isn't it ♪ #He mentions that she's much more of an emotional sadist - insulting him and then making it Very clear that she does Not approve of the holes #''They're ugly and you should feel ashamed for drawing so much attention to something so unsightly'' #I do think that her knowing that he's so intent on being kind and merciful and then twisting the knife on how much he's hurting her- #Making him feel guilty for daring to even attempt the betterment of all - for giving pieces of himself away and try to be a good person #''If anyone will break my spirit it will be her'' :) #Although that's all assuming that Toriel even knows about the brothers! :0 When I thought about it later it'd make more sense if she doesn't #It was still too good to not do something with the idea hehe - but imagine her betrayal if/when she found out tho she'd kill him on the spot #Gosh I haven't drawn Tori in foreeeeever I can't even remember the last time #Doing a/nother study on her would probably be fun haha she's rather plain how I draw her currently #I wonder if her Fellplates version would also wear reading glasses hehe #And the bonus :3c Where are the plates featured in Fellplates? Surely it's not just called that as a reference right ♪ Hehehe

[rad-batson]

Multiverse AU where different variants of Damian Wayne Al Ghul are accidentally hailed to one universe and Damian is in the middle, trying to get all of them back home, but it only gets worse and NOT for the reasons you would think.

So picture this: there’s a sea of Damian variants crowded into the Batcave. One’s a leader of the LOA. Another became the next Harley Quinn? One is a mute assassin. Another is Red Hood’s apprentice. One’s Batman. One’s a meta for some reason. Another is the leader of a revolution. One’s a monk. And another is a clone. They’re all somehow involved in vigilantism or the LOA.

And then there’s a completely normal one. He goes by Dami. He’s in college :) He works at an art studio. He’s got a heart condition. He has a boyfriend, and he has never been Robin before. In fact, he doesn’t even know his dad is Batman. So in a room full of wildly different versions, this Damian sticks out like a sore thumb. He’s like an NPC just standing in the middle of a final battle.

What he does know is that his mother, Talia, left the LOA with him when he was two because she fell in love with Bruce. Since then, the three have lived a Perfectly Normal Life as Perfectly Normal People in a moderately nice house in the suburbs of Gotham.

And you know what? No one questions it. Out of all the problems the Damians are having right now, Normal Damian is the least of them. So he just sits to the side, completely chill, and doesn’t interfere.

But then some chaos happens, the Damians are all sucked into a battle at some secondary location, Normal Dami is kidnapped, gets killed, and everyone’s super depressed about it. (Gosh, he was so nice. Why did it have to be him? Boo hoo. We didn’t even have time to recover the body.)

Until they head back to the cave…and there he is. Respawned. Alive. Confused.

He was literally dead on the floor two hours ago. They checked for a pulse! He bled out. Normal NPC Dami is supposed to be dead. But nope. He’s right there. “Hey, what happened? The last thing I remember is being tied up. Did I faint again?”

Everyone else, the whole batfamily and the mini Damian army, is like “wtf how’d you get here, buddy?” While he’s just like :) so Bruce, who put a bug on the security cameras or whatever, checks the footage and what he finds is absolutely horrifying.

Just after he died, Normal Dami’s eyes snapped open. Glowing a deep Lazarus Green. He stood up, walked out, and immediately fucking decimated the remaining group of kidnappers like a rabid animal. Literally anyone who got near him were goners, and Thank Sweet Jesus he didn’t run into anyone on the walk back because he didn’t care to clean off all that blood. Nope, he just walked right through the front doors of the manor, found a clean set of clothes, completely on autopilot, then all of the adrenaline wore off, and he collapsed from exhaustion.

So everyone watches the footage. NPC Damian is horrified. He insists that’s not him because he doesn’t kill people! How could they ever accuse him of killing people?! He has never done something like that. He can’t even walk up a flight of stairs without getting winded for Christ’s sake!

Nonetheless, he agrees to sit in their itty bitty holding cell as they do some fun little tests, and lo and behold: he is so genetically fucked up. Why? Because his DNA isn’t like the other Damians. It’s completely mutated by this green glowing substance that they know all too well.

The verdict? Normal Dami has been permanently mutated by the Lazarus Pit. The Lazarus Pit is inside of him. It IS him. Or maybe Normal NPC Damian is the Lazarus Pit.

When Normal Dami was two and he and Talia still lived with the LOA, there was an incident involving Damian drowning in the Lazarus Pit (à la Ra’s Al Ghul's Stellar Grand-Parenting Skills.) However, since he wasn’t dead, the Lazarus Pit devoured him, consumed him with violent pit madness, spat him back out, and Damian became this completely, unstoppably rage-filled toddler that can throw you over his shoulder and snap your neck. So Talia, terrified of what Ra’s would do with him, escaped to Gotham, found Bruce, begged for help, and they devised a plan.

Step 1: Raise Lazarus Damian as a completely normal kid.

Step 2: Take him to therapy. Maybe give him anger management classes. (Monitor his sugar intake. That couldn’t hurt.)

That was literally their whole plan. They had no other ideas ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Occasionally, he’d snap and kill someone in cold blood (whoopsie daisy) but his parents were an assassin and the world's greatest detective. No one’s gonna know.

Through some trial and error, they found out that abrupt adrenaline spikes were what triggered the madness. So they worked around it. They gave him calm, relaxing hobbies. They spoiled him with emotional support animals. They Never Raised Their Voices. He was homeschooled for a bit then introduced to university, but only AFTER they made sure Jon (the Indestructable Superboy) was his roommmate. (Yes, they told him. Yes, he is now part of the convoluted Keep Deadly Damian Relaxed Task Force. They’re also dating.) They got Damian a FitBit that tracked his heart rate so they could predict when his adrenaline spiked. They Life360’d his ass so fucking hard. Meanwhile, Damian just thought he had some kind of medical thing, none the wiser the entire time.

Long story short? “Chill Normal NPC Damian” Cannot Die. But he can Kill.

If he does “die” (the Lazarus Pit cannot die) then he goes into a murderous rage, kills everyone in sight, it wears off with the adrenaline, and he can’t remember what happened. This Damian is the Most Dangerous of the variants, and he doesn’t even know it because his parents decided that would be best.

And now the other Damians are scared of him, and he’s scared of himself, and no one knows why he's made of the Lazarus Pit, and they don’t know what to do with him, and they still don’t know how to get back, and some of them want to kill him, and some don't, but no one trusts him, including himself, and it becomes an all-out war over the fate of Damian.

Anyway, Normal Damian who's actually a Murderous Lazarus Spirit without even knowing it. Thank you :)

#he's so fucked up #lightly traumatizes my blorbo #damian wayne #npc damian's jon goes through so much grief trying to keep Damian safe but also feels so guilty over this massive secret #he knows Damian should know but he doesn't know how to tell him without hurting him and making him question their relationship #also think of npc damian's talia knowing that her choice to stay with the LOA is what caused Damian to become a lazarus monster #and for bruce there's the torture of knowing his child will always be a murderous rampaging spirit and you hate killing but can't stop it #fic ideas #batman #dc robin #damian al ghul #batfam #batfamily #dc universe #dc #robin damian #robin dc #lazarus pit #league of assassins #talia al ghul #bruce wayne #dc comics #jon kent #damijon #lazarus rage #multiverse au

[reluctanttrabbit]

[DAY 11: crossover episode!!!]

.....hai :3333

im finally back!! that day 5 post took me like. nearly a whole week.. so i took a break and hopefully im ready to start drawing some more now!! i just hope i dont get burned out. again.

heres the plan for the rest of fnaftober. lets hope i get them done!!!

#my art #cassie fnaf #fnaf cassie #gregory fnaf #fnaf gregory #cassidy fnaf #the one you should not have killed #toysnhk #the vengeful spirit #crying child #evan afton #cc afton #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fanart #i really like how i shaded in this one :)

[doodle-dog-diary]

To keep yourself alive AND stay sane you need an internal Senshi AND a Sam Vimes.

Senshi is there to remind you to eat, but Sam Vimes is there to parry your extended relatives rancid political takes at family events and keep you from going insane

#dungeon meshi #senshi #terry pratchett #discworld #sam vimes #i learnt firsthand that if you can't convince someone that black people are people too and killing people is generally bad #you can pivot and argue the point of 'a policeman's job is to arrest people not kill he's not a judge or an executioner' #when my father tried to talk his rancid political takes with me when i was half delirious with fever #it was like the spirit of sam vimes himself was speaking through my mouth it was amazing ive never felt so powerful before #i firmly believe this is the closest a person can get to having a jojo stan in real life #highly recommend

[yourplayersaidwhat]

"WHY ARE YOU GIVING OUT ADVICE ON HOW TO TORTURE ME?!"

-the paladin to the cleric

#shit my players say #submission #shareable #dnd #team spirit #clerics will kill you

[hearts4juzi]

Golden Freddy Friends

#these designs r for this au only btw #just felt silly so blegh #fnaf au #fnaf #cassidy fnaf #movie cassidy #fnaf movie #michael brooks #andrew fnaf #evan afton #the crying child #stitchwraith #toysnhk #the one you should not have killed #the vengeful spirit #five nights at freddy's #my art #golden gang au

[artisticaperture]

shout out to this scene from the last Olympian that’s been kicking around my brain since 2013

image description under the cut

Start ID.

Image 1: a digital illustration of Percy Jackson holding Pandora’s jar. Inside the jar is the spirit of hope, emitting a glow onto Percy’s face. Percy is looking at the spirit and smiling tenderly. Percy has tan skin and black hair, with a grey streak. Standing protectively over Percy and the jar is Hestia, smiling down on them.

Image 2: A close up on Elpis, the Spirit of Hope, inside Pandora’s jar.

Image 3: A close up on Percy’s face.

Image 4: A close up on Hestia’s face.

Image 5: An excerpt from The Last Olympian by Rick Riordan. The last three lines are highlighted. The excerpt reads:

“I picked up Pandora's jar. The spirit of Hope fluttered inside, trying to warm the cold container.

"Hestia," I said, "I give this to you as an offering."

The goddess tilted her head. "I am the least of the gods. Why would you trust me with this?"

"You're the last Olympian," I said. "And the most important."

"And why is that, Percy Jackson?"

"Because Hope survives best at the hearth," I said. "Guard it for me, and I won't be tempted to give up again."

The goddess smiled. She took the jar in her hands and it began to glow. The hearth fire burned a little brighter.

"Well done, Percy Jackson," she said. "May the gods bless you.”

End ID.

#pjo #percy Jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo fanart #the thing that will always kill me about the last olympian is #Percy entrusting care of Pandora’s jar of the Spirit of Hope to Hestia the goddess of home and hearth #being immediately paralleled to #Percy and Nico asking their fathers to abandon their palaces in favor of helping defend Olympus #Chris convincing Clarisse to join the others in Manhattan because what’s the point of protecting camp if all their friends are dead? #Home being a source of strength home being the people you love #not necessarily a place if home is where the heart is then my heart is with you etc etc etc

[kabukiaku]

The Resurrection of Papa Emeritus IV.

I've been itching to draw Antichrist Copia for a long time now.

bonus happy ending:

also close up of seestor and rain:

#my art #tw body horror #cw blood #froqueyourself #tw blood #ghost #the band ghost #copia #papa emeritus iv #popia copia #sister imperator #rain ghoul #this was fun to draw and at the same time i felt HURT for copia #the implication that he was killed first before being resurrected AHHH my heart---baby noooo you dont deserve this #also yes i had to add the juice box as a punchline cause--- #ghost can be so EVILLL and SPOOKY but they are also humorous. gotta lighten the mood here. #you may think hes gonna go and kill humans but hes actually gonna go buy some juice #or maybe do both... #i like to think that antichrist copia is himself + lucifier's son in spirit form so he takes copia as a host. #so now you have copia who will be battling within himself to see whos in control #phantomimeunholyvestments

[chipistrate]

Day 12: Vengeance

Teehee hiiiii Cassidy wassup those little rabbit dolls are cute what are you planning on oh okay and their heads are gone

#my art #chipillustrates #fnaf #fnaf fanart #fnaf ultimate custom night #fnaf ucn #fnaf cassidy #fnaf toysnhk #fnaf the one you should not have killed #fnaf vengeful spirit #fnaf golden freddy spirit #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fnaf world spring bonnie #fnaf scraptrap #fnaf springbonnie #fnaf springtrap #fnaftober #fnaftober 2023 #miiilowo fnaftober

[ryssbelle]

Characters belong to @heroesspirit

Based on something my friend said while we were on a 12 hour call

And yes Four, he does have stupid in his brain, and he is a fuckin bird, what about it

#my art #heroes spirit au #hs au #heroes spirit #hs sky #hs four #theyre just little guys and i adore them #i care them #i would kill for them #and i would kill for their creator #lee my beloved #once again recieve my gift of love for you and your characters #i actually cant remember if i posted this before but im like whatever at this point #im telling the joke louder for the people in the back #teehee

[nightmaretherabbitsideblog1]

Cassidy Abigail Ralston

Cassidy is Nonbinary and uses they/them pronouns (occasionally he/him)

#my art #reference sheet #my design #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #five nights at freddys #fnaf cassidy #fnaf cassidy ralston #fnaf the one you should not have killed #fnaf vengeful spirit #cassidy ralston #nonbinary #fnaf au #my au #change of heart au

[rox-of-iu]

bought "immortal life" as a gift for myself and I'm immediately obsessed

it's stardew valley style farm sim but xianxia (said by someone who never played stardew or farm sims this is guesswork lol)

anyway it's early access now but it will come out as a full game in Jan 2024! and I guess there is a possibility that the price will go up once it's a full game cuz that happens sometimes so if ur interested now is your chance hah (its on sale rn for 11,19€)

#immortal life #immortal life game #chen yuanzhou #Mu Xia #wei hong #oughhh its so charming i love it #funnily enough every time i play rpg games i pause the plot to go fish or farm whenever I'm allowed but I'm not really into farm sims lol #but this one spoke to me due to obvious reasons hahha #shout out to yumehbby who mentioned this under my yi xian post some time back and its been in my wishlist on steam ever since lol #im holding all of the characters gently all of them are my beloveds #i wont go too indepth over it here cuz A. im just 10 hours in lol B. i will talk more about it in a post I want to make in the future #rec list with other wuxia games and such #anyway as you may have noticed in the drawings my squad is very broke. but especially me hfjkdhgk #why is it my job to pay for the rebuilding 😭😭😢 im just a farmboy shouldn't that be Ji Yaohuas job shes in charge of the finances??? #girl i love you but where am i supposed to get 5k spirit shards i just paid 3k ur killing me #is this her punishment for my unwise financial decisions of buying hair bleach for 100 gold pieces?? im sorry pls Ji-shijie......

[y-rhywbeth2]

*You've butchered so many before - each death a gift to your Father. But this one, you will take from him. This one is just for you.*

I'm not saying that keeping Durge from dying/committing suicide is a bad thing (especially because their afterlife was not going to be an improvement), but if you lean into the options that portray them as suicidal, and then we get to Bhaal giving them the option of service or death (the only real choice he's ever given them) and Durge makes their choice - and judging by the Prayer for Forgiveness, death is something they've wanted for a long while.

This death, this choice, is for them.

And immediately somebody takes their decision away from them.

For the millionth time.

Jergal wasn't in the wrong, but my Durge still isn't speaking to him. (And yes, that's technically from the Chosen of Bhaal post-final battle thing but it's relevant.)

#Teeechnically you are not taking your death from Bhaal in the rejection scene because he is killing you; but the spirit of the thing's there #You're still fucking up his plans with your choice #Suicide ideation may come hand in hand with resenting those who chain you to life #Unfortunately Durge; freedom to make your own mistakes has some limits #Astarion: freedom to make my own choices means letting me kill 7007 people #Durge: freedom to make my own choices means letting Father kill me #Everyone go to therapy #/durge #babbling #edgelord hours

[wretchedraymond45]

the bv and the vs 🥙

#my art #ms paint shenanigans #digital #fnaf #golden freddy #bite victim #crying child #evan afton #vengeful spirit #the one you should not have killed #cassidy fnaf

[magbeth]

girl moment !!!

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #falin touden #my art #personal #i get her in a way no one else does. in that i like bugs a lot and have huge tits. we are kindred spirits in this way #if you examine any anatomy in this ill kill u. lizard. bird. human. i dont care. ill kill u