#years. or how i consider knowing it really normal

[doomed2repeat]

I know some people use the argument that Colin “lead Penelope on” as a reason to dislike him or want him to grovel, but that’s putting the fuckboy filter on him that he doesn’t deserve. Saying Colin was leading Penelope on implies some premeditated motive that Colin simply did not have. Lead her on to what? More friendship??

Colin was not leading Penelope on, Penelope lead herself on, I’m sorry to say it. Literally everything Colin did was accompanied by a reminder that they were just friends, with him verbally reminding her they were just friends even, and despite it all, Penelope maintained hope. That’s normal, and relatable (I know I’ve been there), but that doesn’t make her hope Colin’s fault, and with Colin being unaware of it, it especially doesn’t make it his responsibility.

Colin and Pen’s problem was that the way they saw their relationship never matched up from the beginning. From the moment they met Penelope was in love with him and framed their relationship around that love, while Colin only saw friendship. This is one person in the friendship catching feelings and trying to romanticize platonic aspects of that friendship. Penelope was always primed to treat his behavior with rose colored glasses and hope, while Colin was absolutely oblivious to how she was taking his friendliness, and worse- he couldn’t recognize her crush because that is how she’s always acted with him.

And as their childhood friendship developed into their adult years, Colin didn’t transition into treating Pen like an adult woman that he should distance himself from, because he still saw her as his friend and didn’t realize anything had changed. This is pretty much the problem behind the “You do not count” situation. Colin means he could never stop talking to her because of their established friendship, while Penelope hears “you do not count as a woman.”

Colin might’ve been acting in ways that were inappropriate for a regency man and woman to do, but within the context of them being friends for years, from before her debut, it’s obvious that Colin was just continuing childhood behaviors - not changing them in a way that would lead Penelope on- because Colin didn’t see any reason to change them. He doesn’t see a girl with a crush, he sees Pen, his old childhood friend. He didn’t think to be careful with her romantic feelings because he doesn’t know she has any. He doesn’t think to be careful with her reputation because he doesn’t consider this longstanding friendship to be scandalous.

If Colin was more situationally aware, the only way to avoid this whole thing would be for Colin to have stopped interacting with Penelope outside of basic politeness once he realized her crush on him, but as we all know, Colin doesn’t consider Pen someone he could cut off, and he is not situationally aware. And so yeah, we’re all groaning because as viewers we can see all the little ways Colin is overstepping and braking social rules, but do you really think Colin sees it?

“Leading Penelope on” implies that Colin was intentionally playing with Penelope’s feelings to get something out of her. But this is a true “Oblivious Colin” moment. Give the boy some grace, he just didn’t know!!! It’s a friends to lovers story. Colin is just in the friends phase. It might be frustrating until he falls for her, but it’s what we signed up for!

#Colin’s POV matters to the story #there are two sides to this #also a reminder how the friend zone has been used against women #polin #bridgerton #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #friendzone #friends to lovers #Colin’s POV

[shopcat]

i think another really wonderful thing just about Life is you will always know something someone else doesn't and get to share it and vice versa. and this will happen absolutely all the time we are all just massive libraries of different experiences and what seems like really really basic or not that important knowledge for you could rock someone else's foundations or just give them a new idea they've never heard of before or something. or just be an interesting new thing even though we spend most of our time learning interesting new things. but i think that's really cool... like how the stuff you don't even think about and is just considered background noise or building blocks to you could be something that helps someone else in any way rules.

#🐾 #was literally just thinking abt this bc of how like i used to help my friends with coding and html stuff bc i just picked up a lot over the #years. or how i consider knowing it really normal #but there are ofc people who don't know all the nitpicky things like how to idk add a link to a tumblr bio which doesn't SOUND hard to #most of us but some people just Don't know. well that's a really basic aspect but that's the point also #like just simple small stuff u can help with. and also bigger stuff #i think one time i offhandedly mentioned mirror pronouns literally i think i was making a JOKE about characters having blue hair + pronouns #but it's smth a couple people had never heard of before and when i explained it they were like Woah that's like everything i've ever wanted #and started using it. AND THATS CRAZY #also as for the html stuff i genuinely have been considering making some sort of basic info for how to use tumblr in that way bc i think #it could help newcomers or ppl who never got to learn. even if it's all googleable and such like blah whatever #maybe i will probably not though #like if something is considered ''basic'' knowledge then people don't think about how u had to learn it at one point too #yknow

[lilacthebooklover]

i think it's sad how little empathy kids tend to have these days. the other day, i was walking down a flight of stairs at my school when a random 11-year-old boy tapped my arm and asked "are you gay?". now, i thought he was saying "are you okay", and nodded (nothing wrong with being gay! i'm just not one to tell my sexuality to random kids who interrogate me). then, he began hollering the f-slur and yelling that everyone should get away from me. it's sad that literal children are so used to throwing around language like that and making jokes out of what is just plain hate speech. we're all human beings. i don't see why differences like that should matter.

#i know i sound really old here #but i'm just a tired 15 year old sick of the prejudice that follows every school environment #why is being gay an insult? #why is it considered funny when someone's race is targeted? #what does anyone have to gain from this? #where do we draw the line between banter and bullying? #it's been like this for years #and i'm sick of it #i don't understand how discrimination is almost always a prerequisite to popularity #don't people feel bad about saying things like that? #courtesy costs nothing #and yet i've encountered very few people my age who attempt to use manners at all #sorry about the rant there #i'm just tired of this being treated as normal #we're all people #we should treat each other as such #random #social commentary #i think? #i don't really know how to tag this tbh #discrimination #homophobia #school students #lqbtq #my friend came out as nb #and now everyone takes the mick out of them about it #what's the point? #it's just mean #people need to grow up #(or stop trying to be so mature)

[aurosoulart]

the CEO of NIANTIC liked my art on twitter?!?!?!?! 🫠 I am passing away 👻

#auropost #also i erased one of those ugly as shit ape nfts in the icons #no one needs to see that #ANYWAYS UH #THIS IS GETTING A LITTLE.......... REAL......... #i had the realization earlier that i'm pretty sure mark fucking zuckerberg has walked around inside of my artwork #because figmin xr was part of the world press tour of the launch of the latest meta headset #and he was like. there. yknow #and it's slowly dawning on me how batshit insane my trajectory as an artist has been over the past year #like this is sooooooooo not normal. i didn't go to college and i had zero industry experience #for many intents and purposes i don't know shit lmao #and yet?!?!? i am considered an expert in this field? #i literally just got off a call with a developer asking me to help with their vr art app #and i'm going to soon be hosting regular xr art workshops in LA #and as someone who has social anxiety i have literally no idea how i'm doing any of this #i just really love art and i really love helping people make art #and somehow that overrides the anxious part of my brain i guess?!? #I DUNNO!!!!! i'm just playing around and having fun!!!!! #anyways if you've read this far thanks for sticking with me on this journey #i know it's been a huge pivot from celestial prints to Futuristic Hologram Art #but i appreciate everyone who has been curious enough to stick around and see where this leads

[causticsunshine]

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#listen idk why some of yall insist on trying to submerge yourself w every crumb of content when you know the stunt is still going around #but also for letting even a potential stunt mention / pic / video frame affect you so much #considering they always push it more when they get any kind of reaction from it #like idk how many times we gotta say it but #1. make and create boundaries and if this is all your life is about: get another hobby oh my god that is so unhealthy #but also 2. STOP REACTING #don’t let this shit get to you so bad and ruin your day like gooood this is why some of you #really NEED to rethink your approach to obsessively interacting w content #but also reevaluate your priorities #be kind to yourself like why do you think i stop following so many people who constantly post whatever they can for the sake of ‘updates’ #*stopped #and making conversation out of nothing. it ain’t worth it !! go live your life !! #whether or not the fake kid is there why are you letting it bother you !! you know he’s gonna be w his love at the end of the day #talking about his baby nephew and their future family like if anything take delight in that and shhhh #it’s been like 6 - 7 years on off of this shit now so can some of you please stop acting like you were born yesterday already #and maybe idk react normally? maybe yk go do something else productive? actually worthy of energy #stunts #bbg #alex talks

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Well damn, today did not go how I expected

#life of faye #woke up normal and actually started to get stuff done #then got distracted texting d #which turned into us having a long deep conversation about our whole situation #like probably more in depth than we've really discussed it since he left portland #or possibly ever #i definitely ended up confessing that I am kinda sorta in love with him and don't know how not to be #and that I feel like a bad friend for still wanting to fuck him but also that I feel like there's been some mixed signals in that regard #and he talked about how he's not comfortable pursuing a relationship with me or anyone else right now #and that he would be open to something fwb-related but he didn't think I would be interested/comfortable with that arrangement #especially considering my own confessed feelings and everything #but I told him I can work with that because at least I would have a chance to occasionally fuck someone I trust #and i already know he fucks like a champ #like fwb fuckfest every once in a while- even if it's only every year or two- is still preferable to ~1 shitty new stranger date per year #and maybe it's pathetic of me to stuff down my love to at least get sex #but fucking a friend that just doesn't love me back is still better than fucking a stranger to me #anyway we haven't really nailed down it all yet but the conversation has finally been started #also he asked for me to make a painting for his bday and it made me 🥹 #nobody has ever specifically asked me to paint them something before #my date with sweet d

[talentforlying]

father grimaldi: forgive me, lord, for i have sinned. constantine: — understatement of the bloody century, that is. father grimaldi: the chapel is closed to the public! who are you? how did you get in here . . .? constantine: did you know vatican city has the highest per-capita crime rate of any nation state in the world? i'd have thought a touch of breaking and entering's pretty much par for the course around here.

so #1, an undeniable slay.

#2, how long do we think he was sitting in the confessional booth waiting for the guy to wake up from ellie's fake vision quest. like an hour? checking his light, practicing his Big Reveal Pose TM? he probably brought a book with him and just shoved it underneath the seat cushion when it was time to show off.

#3, knowing how intensely he studied & continues to study in order to teach himself magic at such an absurdly advanced level without any teachers to formally guide him? and how that level of dedication would absolutely carry over into researching a mark / making sure he had every corner of a confidence scheme nailed down pat? i like to imagine that the day before this meeting was spent with his severely under-caffeinated ass parked at a public library computer, squinting at articles for 'most important things to know about vatican city before you travel' or 'top 10 little-known facts about vatican city' and using the back of his boarding pass to take notes on what would be the best throwaway line to blow off all the usual questions with.

also, he probably woke up still in his travel clothes less than two hours before this scene and had to hustle to get suited up in time for his Dramatic Apparition. the demon blood was boiling so bad in that chapel that it was giving him a killer migraine. he didn't get breakfast so his stomach was growling the ENTIRE time. but all that meant was he had plenty of room to eat UP the runway and that's EXACTLY what the fuck he did.i'm

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #always torn in half between 'john is a freaky little weirdo who just Knows Things and Picks Up Vibes and it usually works for him' #and 'john is the most Normal Dude in the whole london occult scene he just works w/ magic like a grad student prepping for finals week' #and you know what? the answer is always 'Both. Both is good.' #also on the one hand i'm truly obsessed with the idea of john just?? Always having a bunch of weird trivia available w/ his eidetic memory #like he read about the apostolic palace once in a book when he was with the peace convoy and his brain latched onto it forever #and it just Happens to become convenient later on and this happens VERY often and no one ever really knows how he does it #but there is a real real charm in considering that he's still Just A Guy beneath all the layers of false confidence and mysticism #still someone who had to work to get to where he is now and who will always have to work to Maintain as well #i like the mental image of him pacing around his temporary digs with index cards and drilling all the necessary details for the scam #or him and ellie getting blasted the night before and dramatically playing out their Big Final Confrontation to iron out all the beats #you just Know they were laughing til they cried workshopping shit like 'MY OLD ADVERSARY! WE MEET AGAIN!' and 'DO YOUR WORST HELLSPAWN!' #still trying to keep straight faces the day of the fake fight while drastically improvising to try and throw each other off their game #idk!!! i always enjoy the Strange and Off-Putting things about him but all of the Really Really Human stuff is also just. so so precious #we always get to see The Myth The Legend as shaped by the errors of The Man. but especially in later years actually SEEING The Man gets rar #all this to say that for every perfectly executed and properly horrifying loom out of the shadows with a glimmer of his freaky glowing eyes #there is always at LEAST half an hour or more practicing angles + expressions + mood lighting in the mirror going on behind the scenes #and that is very very special to me!!!! #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE. #( visage. ) AND I'M A BASTARD. #sched.

[designernishiki]

anyway. nishiki and majima are both borderline and i could do a whole case study on either of them about it. send tweet

#im pretty flexible about most hcs regarding mental disorders and such but this take is one im like pretty fucking steadfast on #and I could write. an absurd amount about it. cause psychoanalyzing the shit out of characters is literally like. what I do for a living #and I have a weird special interest in abnormal psych and the dsm-5 in my closet and a psychologist for a mother and etc #but yeah so #inquire further at your own risk because I will talk. I will talk a lot #the only issue with majima is that I can’t evaluate his childhood and family life and just. his fundamental years of development in general #which is a pretty big deal when it comes to assessing for any personality disorder #nishiki oh yeah I absolutely can. but yeah we know basically nothing about majimas fundamental years. all I can really do is reverse #engineer so to speak based on how he is as an adult and what causes a person to do the things he does / be the way he is / etc #but of course that’d all be very very loose and hypothetical. FASCINATING to think about to me but obviously would have to be taken with a #huge grain of salt and be considered very very speculative #but I can say for sure that he didn’t have a stable and perfect home life/family life growing up I think that’s pretty safe to assume #anything more detailed than that is way more speculative but. yeah. I don’t think he was just. Normal. up until he was 20 #his identity issues run way too deep for me to accept that concept #anyway I need to shut up #majima #nishiki #rambling

[jorvikzelda]

how ethical is it to steal somebodys name

#things that. normal people think about #anyway i’m sick of having the name i have and i’m even sicker of pretending i think it fits me LOOOL #I considered changing my actual name to zelda but like. 1 that feels silly as hell - 2 it doesnt REALLY feel like me #(though sometimes when someone talks abt a zelda im like haha thas ME… it certainly feels more me than my name) #- 3 i dont wanna have my Fake Internet Name turn into my Real Name and then have to change my Fake Internet Name which i rather like #Idk like. When i picked my name (almost 6 years ago now) I was running FROM something & perhaps didn’t care so much about what i ran TO #…now i care. #How very unexpected #So im looking for smth that feels more me. More home. Something i want to go TO. #No name recs accepted I don’t want y’all knowing my legal name #not horse game #z talks

[blujayonthewing]

insane to me that we introduced autumn olive to be decorative and now they're fucking everywhere and choking out native ecosystems and people don't even know you can eat them

#not that eating them would STOP them but like. you know. a lot of wild edibles you should be conscientious about harvesting #but you can should and must overharvest autumn olive #garlic mustard is also edible (AND digging it up [to eat it] is actually useful) but that's part of why it was introduced in the first plac #as far as I can tell autumn olive was introduced for a variety of reasons but human consumption wasn't really one of them #anyway I dunno it's insane to me how many extremely normal very common plants are literally food and nobody TELLS us that #and especially wild when it's plants that are considered-- rightly or no-- some kind of problem #dandelions are like.... imagine if your lawn just kept sprouting spinach. just all year long no matter what you did #you can EAT them things!!! in lots of different ways!!! and people just don't KNOW that!!! #anyway eat autumn olives they are beautiful and tasty and highly invasive #about me

[frogathy]

why is my mom so weird about things when she could just be normal! there is no need to add a condescending tone when telling me your rules and guidelines as if i am going to break them. just say them normally and i will be like “ok!” as i have done my whole life! but when you do it in that tone it makes me sort of angry because why do you have to do it like that! why cant you just say things normally! why are you doing that! i really hate it! please treat me like i am a normal person who has followed your rules literally her whole life instead of talking to me like i am a convicted criminal!

#why!!!! why do you say it like that why why why #if you said it normally i would not be upset #i dont know how to explain it but her attitude just becomes so gross ?????? #it is entirely off putting and makes me want to stop speaking for seven years straight like it feels like i have been entirely deflated #it is literally about such a normal thing too. like telling me i can only play xbox for an hour on a school night #just. just say it normally. for the love of god almighty say it normally and i would not feel so terrible #nor would i be making a silly teenager rant post on tumblr dot com about it #i feel like such a child for feeling like this and getting even a little upset about it #but i really cannot stand the way she speaks to me. it’s as if she is expecting the worst of me #does she not understand that i have never done anything spontaneous in my life Ever and i have never once considered that there are less rul #rules than there are #i will obey you because you are my mother and it’s my obligatiom and i love you #so why do you have to talk to me like you expect the worst of me and like youre angry with me and then be confused when i get upset #froegis meep tag #rant #rant post #long rant sorry #tag rant

[timeisacephalopod]

I really do hate the idea that somehow if you don't have a job you're a burden to and "useless" to society because most people don't have jobs that contribute anything meaningful to society. Sure maybe that jobless person is "useless" to society but I work in a retail shop lmao. How the fuck is that a contribution to society in any meaningful way? Like is working an HR job really the backbone that keeps society together? I once read a story where bankers went on strike for six months to "show us" how useful they were. No one even noticed so I guess they aren't the backbone of society either, and considering approximately zero farmers, grocery store workers, textile workers, or really any job that actually contributes stuff don't have wages that reflect that I'll assume your "usefulness" to society isn't what you're paid by anyway.

#winters ramblings #look at the shutdowns mcdicks workers were more useful than lawyers and thats not to say laywers are normally useless #but it shows WHICH of those jobs wed keep around in am emergency and it WASN'T the one that required 10+ years of schooling #it was the low wage shit job that probably got a ton more stressful with rick of sickness #and ive said it before but i will scream about it till i die if people were paid by how hard their work was #then migrant farm workers and farm workers in general would be paid bezos dollars because their work is ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY #and its FUCKING BACKBREAKING ive seen those people work those fields its fucking BRUTAL #those people regularly get FUCKED by their employers they have to pay canadian taxes despite having no access to our social systems #and no votes either AND their wages are shite on top of all that. yet these people are ROUTINELY considered less useful #to society than shit like elon musk. every migrant worker ive ever seen has worked THOUSANDS of times harder than musk #probably even knows how to and yet THEYRE the ones we consider a burden to society?? the ones that dont have million dollar meltdowns #on twitter?? really?? #besides that how are YOU more useful to societs than the jobless?? tell me what meaningful addition YOUR job adds to society #because ZERO jobs ive had did anything useful #i worked at a tim hortons- not useful a radio station cleaning- somewhat useful but small time #then lush- not useful. then cineplex- kind of useful for displaying others art and entertainment brings joy #the sex shop was the Most useful because i basically became Impromptu Sex Ed Teacher and thats actually very useful #very small time in how i did it but still THATS the most useful job ive had bc now i work retail that doesnt contribute shit #yes people can get clothes there and thats obviously useful stuff but like come on do i REALLY contribute to society #in any meaningful way to be considered more useful than the jobless?? do i REALLY?? bc i dont think so #and thats not low self confidence thats me valuing the lives of people without jobs who probably still do a lot of shit #my mom doesnt have a job but shes CONSTANTLY running around helping my sisters and step dad with their shit #like she runs my step dads summer roofing business but because theres no wage theres no job despite her doing work #and her doing that is way more use to society than probably near EVERY person who has claimed the jobless are useless #she organizes all the shit for a guy to put a roof over peoples heads what do YOU do thats more meaningful than that?? #jobless isnt useless and having a job doesnt mean you arent lazy as shit at it either so even if your job IS useful #doesnt mean YOU are just because you get paid to be incompetent. cops.

[daydreamerdrew]

back-up story to The Flash (1959) #306, as republished in Immortal Doctor Fate (1985) #2

#ok I’m understanding the mechanics of Dr. Fate better know #I like what they’re doing here with Inza #regarding the emphasis on Inza not being able to understand the Dr. Fate side of Kent’s life #I figure that making Dr. Fate a shared mantle at the end of Doctor Fate (1987) was intended to play off that specifically #I’m not as confident in this but I wonder if making Eric and Linda’s relationship overtly inappropriate #was intended as commentary on Kent and Inza’s #maybe commentary is not the right word #making the interest begin when Eric was still physically ten and adding the step-mother angle changes the situation #and makes it more indisputably bad #so less of commentary on Kent and Inza’s relationship and more of playing off of them by making the succeeding characters darker/worse #back to the panels- I think that portraying Inza here as like a prisoner with no life purpose outside of (worrying about) Dr. Fate #also serves to highlight how Kent himself is like a prisoner with no life purpose outside of Dr. Fate #Kent saying ‘I thought after all these years you’d have grown up by now.’ #stands out considering that he was rapidly aged from 12 to adulthood #it’s weirdly infantilizing for him to say to his wife #it’s also wack cause as far as I know she did grow up normally #it comes across to me as un-self aware with to be fair if anyone has an excuse for that it’s Kent #anyway I feel like I can’t really blame either of them in this situation like they’re both in bad positions #dc #kent nelson #inza nelson #my posts #comic panels

[diluc33rpm]

1/2 Are you afraid of growing old?

yeah... what if i’m not dilf enough for my followers 😔

#the normal amount i suppose #every now and then i do have those moments of ‘damn later on i’m really going to exist in a failing body and die. wtf’ #but it’s not very much of a lasting feeling considering ‘later on’ is... later on. a week is a lot of time to me #what’s to say of what’ll happen in life in 50 or even 70 years on #i worry more about whether i will be able to grow old or not and how much #having a foreshortened sense of future sucks but at least it’s reassuring enough to know i’m doing what i can in the present moment #hope one day i’ll find myself there and i’ll be like. ah. so it was gonna be okay after all

[elytrafemme]

not putting under cut bc i feel like thats weird idk but jsyk im doing more mental health musings here 

u know something i find really interesting is like. okay i’m on my 4th therapist right now, right? which sounds like i burned through a lot and i guess i kind of did but really she’s my 3rd, the first one stared at me blankly for one session diagnosed me with GAD and “a mood disorder” with 0 other specificity and then recommended i go somewhere else. but the other two that followed were at that same place and i guess i just find it interesting how ill prepared they were with dealing with like... complex mental health issues?

because i mean, i don’t think either of the people i saw were bad people. but like. i told the first one about this one time where i was in one of the lowest mental states of my life (and at the time it was the worst i had ever felt) and my friends had been laughing at me during it, right. and so i gave them the finger. and my therapist laughed and was like well if someone gave me the finger i wouldn’t want to talk to them either. and then my second therapist said i hadn’t dealt with any “major trauma” and would watch me have dissociative episodes and do absolutely nothing but go like “i know sweetheart i know” and then the session would just. End. 

and it’s like, they were helpful when it came to things like my school stress, or ... well i guess just that. it was very basic things they could help with, it was like a school counselor. and that kept me from making these realizations about my mental health because they did not know anything more complex and couldn’t talk to me about it. 

my fourth therapist has been different, obviously, treats me like a person. it just so happens she’s the only private therapist i saw, and also the most expensive one. so like. fuck. 

#nightmare.personal #it's strange because i recognize that i know more about my mental health than a lot of people do at 17 #like i've already gotten a lot of work done really early and stuff #and yet i mean. i spent like. so much time not? learning about myself #and i just have to wonder how much time i could have saved if i was told that me having dissociative episodes wasn't normal #when i was just thinking about a memory #how much time i could have saved if i wasn't told that giving someone the middle finger for laughing at my trauma was #unjustified God i'm still so angry about that #and it's been like what. 4 years? #anyway. i don't know. sometimes i wish that i went to a therapist earlier #but i also know that either way i would have only seen the one i'm seeing now #when i started because she also saw another relative so like #otherwise we wouldn't have known her so. no matter how early i started nothing would have changed #i consider being 15 the worst year of my life but by far all the years before when i was with those other therapists. were the darkest.

[astral-catastrophe]

theres nothing more emotionally fulfilling than learning that your friend hates a person that that you’ve never liked

#it’s not the old childhood friend tho #but i did have to interact with that bitch during class earlier because the teacher partnered us #and she doesn’t know that i don’t like her #so i fucking had to fake a smile when i really wanted to cry #but in my defense #you try interacting with someone that emotionally manipulated you for years on end #at one point it would have technically been considered emotional abuse #she was a toxic bitch #it’s a good thing that i have learned how to act normal though #im bitter and know what? i have a good reason to be #i might sound like an asshole #but i don’t like her and yeah #im done now #jays being dumb again