There's this thought that's been festering in the back of my head growing independently like an unwanted fungus and it needs to breathe for a second so I'm sharing it.
(This is is another me thinking out loud post so please think of it as an exploration of an idea rather than a presentation.)
what if, what if, what if. What if Naruto was Sasuke's first love.
What if he liked him. like liked him. And when he realized it it made him frustrated. Because he's supposed to be focused on so many other things but this stupid obnoxious useless team mate of his has forced his way under his skin and won't leave him alone.
And it's completely one-sided. Naruto doesn't feel the same way. yes he's obsessed with Sasuke but he really does mean friends.
Naruto wants to be the greatest ninja, he wants to be Hokage and somehow he's so focused on those things that he doesn't.notice. that Sasuke is suffering.
Meanwhile Sasuke is in agony because everyday it just gets worse. he cares too much. The desire for connection starts overshadowing his entire reason for existence. He's losing grip on the loneliness that was fueling his goals. And his heart is starting to ache with something completely opposite of darkness whenever he sees stupid Naruto connecting with so many people in the way only Naruto knows how.
and it begins to not matter anymore if he can avenge his clan or not. All he wants is to be with Naruto in that world.
He would die for Naruto. he did once.
But Naruto doesn't feel the same way. And the unhealed wound in Sasuke's heart is festering too much and he's hurting in too many ways that can't disappear on their own.
And then he starts realizing that Naruto doesn't understand him.
That the village they were both born in isn't his home but it is Naruto's. That Naruto loves it and wants to belong to it and is actually starting to.
And Sasuke realizes how far he is from this world that Naruto is living in because Naruto was born with nothing but is getting everything and he expects it to be the same for Sasuke too. He expects it to be the same for everyone. That's how it was for him. And he tells Sasuke so.
And it ruins Sasuke because he realizes that if he stayed he would be ripped apart entirely by Naruto's world view, that whatever love Naruto was giving him was only burning him and suffocating him.
So he walks away. because the love Naruto can give him is not the love that will heal him or help him.
It's the kind of love that will kill him.
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Let's be honest, and I say this with full offense, Lucerys Velaryon is the Archduke Franz Ferdinand of the Dance of the Dragons. He is meant to be a sacrificial lamb to kick off the entire war proper. If we had gotten a full season of development with him like we did with the younger cast in Game of Thrones, I guarantee more people would've felt something. The only reason I personally feel bad is from a baseline level of empathy, because he was a child who was placed in an unwinnable situation due to his mom being completely irresponsible with him and his brothers.
However…
The comparison between Lucerys and Aemond is no contest. Love him or hate him, Aemond has an actual personality and goals when we first meet him. There's enough dimension in Aemond as a child to showcase the potential for sympathy between him and Jace at the funeral, a scene they didn't need to put in, but they did, which emphasizes his own innocence. Even before he breaks bad fully in S1E10, he's still far more compelling to watch due to the number of scenes allocated to him and his dynamic with other people.
This is where you and I are going to disagree just a bit, because Lucerys does do something in S1E07 and S1E08. He gouges out the eye of a family member and petulantly whines that he “didn’t do anything!” when confronted with the possibility of getting in trouble for it, then years later has the nerve and complete lack of sense to giggle at the person he permanently maimed only hours after his legitimacy was publicly called into question (again) and resulted in a murder. The narrative (perhaps unintentionally) glosses over these moments in favor of portraying him as good, whereas if you read between the lines, you can see that as being an oversimplification. The problem is that because S1 was truncated, secondary characters like Lucerys don’t receive screentime dedicated to portraying anything other than a single personality trait. Unfortunately, because of his role in the text and the way it was adapted for television, there was never a chance that Lucerys would be interesting.
I don't even have anything to add, this is just objectively correct.
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Sorry if this is weirdly specific, but I was wondering why you don't like Ursula K Le Guin, since I saw you expressing that in the tags of a post. I've started reading some of her books and they seem so enlightening -- they touch upon issues like societal unrest, class, gender, etc in ways that are still relevant decades after the books were published. I hope I haven't ignored anything problematic she did, if at all. For all I know this could just be your preference and that's fine. I'm just worried that my seeing her as inspiring is actually a bad thing.
I get a lot of Qs on this (or at least, like three) and it makes me mildly regret my hardline status on Guin. Mostly because I don't have one. I hear many great things about Le Guin! I see great quotes from her and I understand her as someone who is extremely iconic and influential in inventive sci fi and fiction. Good for her!
My problem with her is a little one, I guess- it seems like it doesn't reflect her other books at all. I think she just wrote one bad one, the only one I read, and that's Word for World is Forest. I Hate this book, and it coloured my thoughts on Le Guin until I learned she was very respectable and loved. She especially indeed seemed on the forefront of writing class, race, gender, etc!
Word for World is Forest though I think is still... bad. I stand by that. We can't all always write good books ma'am.
Forest is about human colonizers on a forest world oppressing the ape-like alien natives, who are coded as native Americans, and how are peaceful and have no concept of war. The evil colonists colonize, the poor ape natives are sad :(( until they learn about violence :)) they were such Noble Savages they had no such thing but now they do!! Which is good but also bad :((
Basically, I hate the noble savage trope and it just is that.
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well I can already tell this is gonna be a bad night
today has just been fucking weird and hard. I'm in a bad mood. everything feels bad. (probably not helped by me not taking the new antidepressant last night so I wouldn't sleep all day)
the plan was for my friend to come over this weekend to help me pack. she did that last time and it helped a lot. (my husband could help, obviously, but he's in charge of other things that also need to get done. plus he's very bad at putting things into boxes.)
but the rail strike is still going on so it's likely that she won't be able to get here (or get back in time). so now that's suddenly a lot more stressful and the one thing that I thought would make it go okay is gone.
and I also have to like. at least reread my thesis a few times or whatever to study for the oral exam on Friday. which will make me want to die. because it is bad. so. that will be bad. and the thought of being asked questions about that piece of garbage for 30 fucking minutes is so horrifying that I genuinely do not know if I will be able to get through it without taking my Lorazepam beforehand (which I know is a horrible idea, and my psychiatrist told me twice that it's a bad idea, and I know it would just make me unbelievably stupid. but holy shit that is the scariest thing I can imagine.)
and of course instead of doing anything useful I'm now just sitting here feeling like shit (like last night, only worse)
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Majima is unusually depressed so Kiryu takes him to a theme park to cheer him up.
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Majima: *with a little raincloud over his head* You can punch me if ya want, Kiryu-chan, but I'm not really feeling up to fightin' back today.
Kiryu looks concerned. So in the next panel he's taken him to Six Flags. Kiryu is sitting on a bench chilling in sunglasses, waist pack over his shoulder, holding a corn dog. Majima leans an elbow against him grinning with one of those dumb squid hats on and holding a massive bun-chan.
Majima: *in the last panel raising a hammer from a strongman game toward a littering tourist* Hey pal! Don't ya know someone's gonna hafta clean that up?! How 'bout I test my strength on you instead?!
Kiryu: *on the bench, eating his corndog with bun-chan* Nature is healing.
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