#wolf barking

[companionwolf]

This is me being brave but uh selfshippers / ficto folks / etc -- I'm kicking around concepts for a solo journaling TTRPG about what it's like to have a F/O; if you want to contribute a idea of what you feel is a 'core experience' for that, please do so! Negative things are okay, btw -- a lot of my own experiences are negative.

Anyway, here's what I have so far (note these are pretty personal, and pretty ... not happy):

longing / yearning / etc

knowing there will never be physicality / you will never hear their voice / etc etc etc

in that same vein, loving someone you cannot touch/etc

imagining your f/o with you

leaving notes 'from' your f/o

the self love aspect

the use of this as coping mechanism (ymmv)

this as orientation (ymmv)

imagines (ie scenarios with your f/o), headcanons, etc

interacting with f/o source

community (or lack of)

dealing with feeling shame / being picked on or hated / etc

Thanks. Remember, your F/O loves you.

#wolf barking #f/o tag #selfship #self ship #self shipping #selfshipping #f/o #fictional other #ficto #fictosexual #fictoromantic #tags for visibility #selfship ttrpg

[colliewolf]

I want Markiplier to be in the fnaf movie but not as a character I want him to have a face cam and act like he’s playing a new fnaf game. Starts off the movie with the HELLO EVERYBODY MY NAME IS MARKIPLIER and then the rest of the movie is just like this.

#fnaf #fnaf movie #markiplier #wolf barks #Id in alt #1k #5k #10k #20k #30k #40k

[companionwolf]

+ 1 kandi making skill level ft. a ⚠️ sign

#wolf barking #kandi #kandicore #peyote stitch #flat charm #tailstrokes

[companionwolf]

This bundle is pretty nice; it's got Rogue Handler, which I've been using as a component of my Delta Green esque game. Plus more like Fate, Stars without Number, & Blades in the Dark.

#wolf barking #ttrpg #ttrpgs #humble bundle #solo rpg #solo ttrpg

[companionwolf]

my birthday package finally got here <3

#wolf barking #delta green #this windbreaker is comfy #'why is your floor in the last photo Like That' were renovating the floor verrrrrry sloooooooowly

[companionwolf]

ok every1 what is best fidget/stim toy for holding in your mouth . NOT FOR CHEWING. just for holding there gentle

#wolf barking #fidget toys #fidget toy #stim toy #stim toys #adhd #autism #actuallyadhd #actuallyautistic #<- all those for reach

[companionwolf]

Inked my pride dice using this tutorial.

#wolf barking #dice

[companionwolf]

Going feral-- trying to tell if the 3 folks I've met are NEW new or new in the sense they're been around but only just found awareness + an ID. I know it doesn't actually matter. I'm just. I'm not stressed. There's no new trauma. What's going on. (Someone inside thinks I'm just dissociated from the stress but I don't fucking know, man.)

Is there a way to tell? I asked the trio ans they all kinda shrugged at me so :/

Reblogs and replies are welcome.

#wolf barking #regarding the others #uh gonna tag for reach #actuallydid #actuallydissociative #dissociative identity disorder #osddid #cdd #complex dissociative disorder #dissociative system

[companionwolf]

Thanks.

#wolf barking

[companionwolf]

I'm going to . I don't know. But I used a special service to blast a missing pet post on facebook and got a response but it was a fucking scammer and now I want to tear myself apart and just. Die

Anyway this is Amber's PawBoost posting-- I don't know if anyone here can help but. It might be worth a try ):

#wolf barking #i dont care abt dozxing myself i just want my baby back #im so. upset and angry. abt the scam and babt hoe this is my parents fault and fufuffufck #pawboost

[companionwolf]

#wolf barking #i am . really getting back to the doc now i pormmy #pretend the typo isnt there. #fuck it this goes in the main tag #soma #soma game #soma (game)

[companionwolf]

Hi selfship tumblr! I wanted to update you all about the selfship solo TTRPG (tabletop role playing game) idea I've been kicking around.

I've adjusted my concept for it and high key restarted from scratch. Now it's more of a isekai story, where you are brought into your F/O's world and have to go unite with them, somehow.

The core of the game is in a typical 'roll on prompt tables and write an entry of your adventure' journaling game format, with a few extra mechanics that to gamify it a bit more. I'm figuring out what those will be and how to make the game a working cohesive unit.

I'm focusing on nailing down the prompts at the moment -- I'd like them to be short but evocative, and generally applicable to any F/O source, while still often tying back to the themes emotions and idea the game is based around and aims to draw out.

'When can I play it?' I also want to know (I don't know, but you'll see a post if and when it comes to fruition). In the meantime, you might see occasional other dev posts from me in the tags.

('What about all the responses you got earlier about this game?' Those experiences folks shared are being used for inspiration and to help focus my prompts so they that fit the vision and vibe for what the game will be as a whole.)

#wolf barking #f/o tag #self ship #selfship #selfshipping #self shippping #f/o #f/o community #fictional other #< for reach #wolf does gamedev #wolf does game dev

[companionwolf]

I'm so frustrated. I think the other layers, at least one of them, think my layer (the one I'm on) isn't real? That we are not real, and are imposters. And that's one of the reasons the dreams are always so awful and full of hate?

I don't know how to approach this. I guess the main solution is talk, but it's very difficult to get communication going + I'm scared as hell-- both because what if it doesn't change anything...and what if it actually does?

#wolf barking #regarding the others #tagging w did tags bc input is welcome -> #did #did osdd #did system #did stuff #actually did #actuallydid #actuallydissociative #cdid #c-did #polyfrag system #polyfragmented #genuinely if you have advice PLEASE lmk i am suffering ): #dissociative identity disorder

[companionwolf]

Tumblr friends how do I make my kandi singles stronger string wise.. I use the cloth covered stuff and it works but it broke once and I freaked out big time ):

#wolf barking #kandi #kandi bracelet #kandi beads #kandi kid #pony bead #pony beads #< for reach #tysm! #i tried googling but it didnt help much

[companionwolf]

Hello all! I've consolidated the responses so far to my call for 'core selfship / ficto experiences' in relation to my 'having a f/o' solo journaling ttrpg project-- I want to let you all see what's been offered so far and also explain a bit more about what a solo journaling ttrpg is! (:

That explanation and the ideas offered below the cut, because otherwise this is a long post. For anyone this post breaks on, please forgive me.

To start, what's a ttrpg? It's short of table top role-playing game, sometimes called a physical game. If you've ever heard of Dungeons and Dragons (D&D), you know what a table top game is!

For those who haven't, table top games are basically like if you took playing pretend and gave it some rules-- or didn't. The world of TTRPG games is vast and encompasses a wide range of games from super crunchy structured rules with Lots of dice and math to games that are less than one page and super loose and free-form-- some don't even use dice!

The difference here is that most people think you need a group to play tabletop games. And if that's the experience you want, that's true. However, clever gamers have made rules and ways to play games by themselves! Some people emulate the person who runs the game using a generator, while others do games more guided by prompts. This latter one is what I'm doing-- it's called a journaling game.

Journaling games have a basic core of the idea that you / your character journals their experiences as they play (or after, if you don't want to interrupt your flow). Usually the main mechanic is generating prompts off a list using dice or card pulls, but some of these games also include mechanics like ticking boxes off, gathering resources, and making choices.

I'm still trying to figure out what mechanics I want in my game. Obviously there will prompts, but everything else I'm workshopping-- right now I've been gathering data, in the form of looking at other solo games for how they handle their gameplay. Sadly none of the things I've looked at quite fit what I want, but they're useful enough that I've began a design document.

In terms of themes - I want to touch on longing, distance, intimacy (not essentially romantic), and self love/etc. I'm also toying with the concept of a eventual expansion that allows you to play as your F/O, but I need a base game first, so that's just an idea right now.

Anyway, here's what folks have suggested as ideas so far --

- longing yearning etc

- knowing there will never be physicality / hearing their voice / etc

- loving someone you cannot touch/etc

- the self love aspect

- imagines, headcanons, etc

- interacting with f/os source

- community or lack of

- dealing with feeling shame/etc or being picked on/etc for selfshipping

- dealing with jealously/difficulty 'sharing'

- aking things related to your f/o (example: wedding albums)

- easy source eod joy and comfort

- knowing songs and art f/o would like

- finding things that are stressful LESS so because talking about it with f/o would help

- the cute guilty pride of 'I like this character' 'me too I actually self ship with them'

- having a friend who understands when no one else is around (even if they are from media)

- daydreaming

- trying to get yourself to dream about them

- always knowing exactly what to commission someone for

- spending money on f/o related things (merch, other items that remind you of them, comms)

- selfship when the relationship is something you'd never want irl

- using selfship to figure out what you want (in a relationship for example)

- social aspect (assumptions people make, the selfship community)

- dreams about your f/o

- f/os helping against self negativity

- feeling like they're present in your life (and or imagning them with you)

- feeling insecure (bc you can't get confirmation f/o returns/would return feelings)

- freedom of headcanon and making S/Is

- becoming in a way part of another world

- never lacking someone to talk to

- the painful remembrance that f/o is not real and cannot really do X for you (X = have your back, for example)

- self generated serotonin

- becoming familiar with the shape of their face

- getting your daydreaming muscles back up to strength

- analyzing songs through a new lens

- feeling both love and loneliness in the community

- writing letters to your f/o (maybe even writing some 'back' from them?")

- buying clothes to say you stole from them

- feeling your f/o loves you no matter what and will be there for you always

- gaining comfort from your f/o on bad days

- being able to tell f/o anything, from interests others may find weird to traumas and beyond

- f/o helping you overcome anxiety and boosting self esteem

- creating because of your f/o (art writing etc)

- re above: selfship as a creative outlet

- the interplay of selfship and kin

- relating something mundane to your f/o and thus it becomes special

- using your f/o to motivate yourself ('f/o would want me to take care of myself')

- self made f/os aka OC f/os rather than media ones

- seeing your f/o get bashed or misinterpred

- fear of ridicule

- daydreaming but it becomes problematic (ie it interrupts getting important tasks done etc)

#wolf barking #selfship #self ship #selfshipper #self shipping #selfshipping #f/o #fictional other #tags for visibility #feel free to reblog (: #selfship ttrpg #f/o tag

[companionwolf]

nearly every time I try to find advice on r/DID I end up embodying this:

and that's beautiful (: <- he's screaming with his mouth closed

#wolf barking #regarding the others #i feel like this rn #bc something is happening and i cant fknd any simialr experience or advice ): #sorrt if i posted tjis before and for tje shitty langauhe i just. this is it. this is me rn