so my lips are dry and cracked and swollen because of mouth breathing and i also got sick? It's 7.24am and i still haven't fallen asleep (it's the weekend so it's fine) and i am about 17 lectures behind in internal medicine, my body is sore all over from a single set of workouts on Wednesday and at this point i am so overridden with anxiety that it feels like i drink it by the gallon.
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*taps microphone* so i’d just like to talk about all the little kids in coruscant who would absolutely be out of their mind with love and awe for the corrie guard, and their fire engine red painted armour
these kids
these kids would wait at their windows to watch them drive past their window on a scheduled patrol. they’d be so thrilled to see them in the market. or when Fox is standing next to Palpatine in the press in his extra red paint
their parent will be like ‘want to talk to them?’ and the kids will get all shy.
they might even draw pictures of them to give to them
because no matter what the adults think, abiut flesh droids or military police being given more and more responsibility (that theybwould see as power) as the war went on, but little kids know what’s up. they know how cool garbage men are, and fire men (with the shiny red paint), and other civil servants that adults don’t think are awesome but kids know
and you know, you just know that Sergeant Hound, with his cute mastiff and awesome bucket paint would be the absolute pinnacle of coolness to an eight year old coruscanti child
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I hate when I’ll be complaining about some stupid bullshit a coworker does to other coworkers and half the time their response is to lower their voice and go “well…. You know…. I’m pretty sure they’re… on the spectrum, you know?” And every time I have a split second when I have to consider saying “you know I’m autistic, right?” just to make them vaguely uncomfortable for a few minutes and actually think about what they’re implying but of course I do not do that because the gratification is not worth a large sect of shitty coworkers knowing that about me and then talking about me like that every time I do something vaguely annoying or dumb but man…. It does get tempting sometimes
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i swear to god the next time i think "oh i feel and function much better now, maybe i dont need my meds anymore" i NEED to remember that that is the DEVIL SPEAKING and that the REASON i feel and function better is BECAUSE the meds are IN my system and that the NEXT COURSE OF ACTION is NOT to REMOVE the from my system but to KEEP THEM THERE good god
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figured out what exactly happens when i get Too Into something and then feel like shit afterwards and i feel silly and also more than a little embarrassed bc its like. the only equivalent i can think of is fucking sub drop. like i need goddamn emotional aftercare or else im gonna feel terrible and like everyone hates me and overthink everything
i mean at least i figured it out! now i just have to go through the mortifying ordeal of Telling Someone so that way i can properly take care of myself and get help with taking care of myself.
this is so stupid. i mean its not, how i feel is valid and its okay to take care of myself and be taken care of, but my god i want to crawl into a hole out of shame and embarrassment anyways lmao
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haha. my GP was soooo confused when I said I've been sleeping like 14-16 hours a day with the new medication.
my dude. that has been an issue for a good long while now! had the exact same thing on the previous medication!! and also her going '16 HOURS A DAY?? 😨' did not make me feel any better lol
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the thing abt the pain my scoliosis/kyphosis causes me (mostly left side of my ribcage, then left side of my back, then left shoulder, then it slowly starts spreading to the right side + my hip, the more physical anything apart from lying i do the worse it gets) is that it started and worsened so slowly that i just. didn’t realise it. now it’s been a normal part of my life for a few years and. i hardly notice it. i hardly notice that half of my body aches. it’s normal. now that my knees hurt i’m truly aware of it for the first time in months, and— that’s not normal. it shouldn’t be normal that my ribcage & back hurt every day just because i go to school. what the hell. what the fucking hell.
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