#why am i even sharing this?

[multicolour-ink]

I just feel so down

- I've gained weight because I eat too much sugar and I just hate the way I look right now.

- I'm stuck in a job I hate.

- It's a rubbish job with terrible hours and I barely have time for any recreation.

- I feel like I'm a failure in the sense I'm not bringing anything remotely worthwhile to my family (even though they would say otherwise).

- I feel bone idle and lazy because I prefer to sit around and do nothing.

- I'm mentally exhausted. All the time.

- I'm depressed.

- I'm too scared to make any changes because I always get let down.

#honestly the job is my main problem #it's shit #but when I tried looking for another there's no support from anywhere #people tell you to apply online #recruiters push you to go for a job only because they want the clout #I'm sick of it #why am i even sharing this? #I'm just fed up with holding it in #i just want to do my own thing

[kurts-weird-honey]

I blame my autism for the fact that I don’t sleep but I’m actually just really high 🍃

#autism #weed #why am I even sharing this?

[katetorias]

there is something so horrible about destroying churches, or any place of worship. im not even religious. it’s about the fact that people were so devoted, put so much effort into building and decorating and just experiencing this part of their life, that they hold so important. and all that effort is taken away by a fucking bomb

I find religion beautiful, and it’s harrowing to see these things happening in PaIestine and no one cares. suddenly now no one cares about religion or the importance of religious monuments

#religious monuments are important they are beautiful they are symbols of what matters to the people who made it #they are history #rambles #I hate this #I know I’m privileged to even be talking about this from my apartment but that’s why I’m doing it anyway #it’s easy to feel powerless because I mostly am #but I’ll keep sharing every thing I can #free palestine

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

What Is Masking?

Mrs Speechie Pi

#autism #actually autistic #autism awareness month #autism acceptence month #masking #why we mask #examples of masking #masking affects both children AND adults #making can be exhausting #I’ve masked for so long that I don’t even know who I am #I’m sure some of you can relate #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #actually neurodivergent #feel free to share/reblog #Mrs Speechie Pi (Facebook)

[acertifiedmoron]

yeah overthinking prophecies is the mind killer but i have to say my piece re azor ahai, that is, if it's really meant to be one character, then the best narrative choice is dany. not only because she fulfills every word of the prophecy an entire book before we even learn of its existence. but also "no one ever looked for a girl," aemon tells us. in-universe her gender precludes her from being imagined as the saviour figure and on a meta level even the readers don't think the 16 year old girl with this much power (dragons) will be allowed to keep that power and fulfill an important narrative destiny as a hero of the story. the expectation is that the character will be brought low and/or surpassed by the classic warrior hero archetype of jon. which is why i think dany being AA is the most subversive choice. and would actually make jon the red herring.

#i am also partial to “everyone is azor ahai” as in it's just a long night legend sharing similarities with other myths around the world #and is meant to inspire people. so sam dany jon bran tyrion etc will all have parallels #but it's possible grrm means it to be just one character. even if that character is never conclusively identified in the text as the ONE #“no one ever looked for a girl” wrong! it was a boy all along! is a really bad reveal lol. which is why only jon being AA feels wrong to me #and “dragons out of stone” means just that. hatching dragon eggs. does anyone think jon is about to hatch more eggs #because not only is it anticlimactic to introduce more dragons at this point but also deprives dany of her agot character defining moment #valyrianscrolls #asoiaf #daenerys targaryen

[magnus-rar]

it's so insane to me how differently jonah treats jon compared to how he treats everyone else. throughout his life he treated people like tools, like something "to watch, to know, and ultimately to discard". he doesn't care about their suffering as long as it benefits Him. but even though he separates himself from other people, puts himself on a higher pedestal, it never seems to apply to jon. with jon it's always "our master", "our victory", "the world that we have made". everyone else is for us to use. the world is our playground. he’s been living with this "use or be used" mindset for centuries, always on the run, never safe, never trusting anyone, just to meet jon and decide to include him in his life-long plan… and yes, part of this was out of the necessity (he did need to get an archivist for this to work), but if it was purely transactional, then why would he say all that. gayass

#maybe that's why elias was so pissed at jon's “am i still human”. because he believes himself to be something more than a human and treats #jon as an equal so him clinging to his humanity so much is irritating. like why do you want to be a human when you can be my archivist #when you Are my archivist #there's also something to be said about how jon's like “noo i'm not like youuu” at every chance he gets even if it's Clearly not true #but jon's Issues is another topic that i will probably talk about when i stop being so scared of sharing my thoughts #i spent 2.5 hours on this post solely because i kept getting sidetracked by reading transcripts while fact-checking myself #jonelias #mine

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[carpetbug]

darling duusu my beloved

#carpetbug art #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #ml #miraculous fanart #kwami #duusu #ml duusu #kwami duusu #babe wake up new carpetbug kwami just dropped #the motherest to ever mother #even tho their design is based off a male peacock #i am having the worst burnout for literally everything in my life so i’m very sorry for so little things to share #la llorona is almost ready to be out and i’m still plugging away at my different aus #i’m just. a last quarter senior. and the senioritis is killing me #ml feline blue au #ml fbau #also why do liiri and orikko both have beaks and this bitch dont. what’s up with that

[gabelew]

( />/</) ehehe

#botw #zora #sidon #bazz #sidbazz #oh wow is this the first time im posting a ship art of them? really? #i thought i already drew so many #anyway #this is supposed to take place some decades before botw events when sidon was more in his teenage-ish years #thats why the size difference isn't that visible #i have the whole timeline figured out you see #there is even a whole story for this stupid ship that im not going to share now #but i hope the emotions sorta manage to come through anyway #also yes i am ignoring the 3d-ness of sidon's head handlebars very hard why are you asking #it's in service of having pretty posing i am justified

[triaelf9]

hey folks who interact with creative works online! just a tiny PSA

If you don't like a character, that's totally fine! If you have a different reading of a situation in a show & have issues with stuff that's going on, that's also fine.

What is NOT fine is to ACTIVELY SEEK OUT fans of the characters you don't like and talk shit about them, the characters they have feelings about, or the content they've posted b/c you, Freddy McHatesalot really needs to tell everyone how much you dislike a...fictional character.

You are totally welcome to consume content in your own space in whatever way you see fit. It is disrespectful of the fandom space to try to drag other people into your space and interact with you if they don't want to. And dunking on a character in writings or art of them is fucking rude as hell to the person who put work into into the creation they made out of some feelings they were having.

Also. side note, it is possible to enjoy a character who is Wrong About Some Things or Isn't Doing The Right Stuff In The Right Situation. Sometimes it's possible to like a character and disagree with them, and shitting on people b/c you can't see what they see in a character is pretty trash garbage and is 90% of why I just make silly little art for me and my own silly feels and hope folks get a chuckle or some enjoyment out of it too.

#Behave better #and if you can't behave yourself I'm not going to play into your little hate roleplay #you can do that elsewhere while I enjoy the nuance in my media thankss #don't pull me or my work into your weird vendetta against fictional characters #I draw art for me and for anyone who is feeling like I am #to jump in and be like “this person is the shittiest & I hate them” on that creation is ummmmm #why I don't interact with fandom like I used to #b/c if people can't control themselves it spoils the whole pot #I don't like some characters and stories and ships #does anyone here who isn't a close friend of me irl even know what they are? #no b/c I don't find that worthwhile to spend my time doing #I don't fill my page with hate for fictional characters. I post what I enjoy and share it to put more joy out there in the world #sorry this is so long #I'm just fucking pissed b/c I thought we were past this bad behavior #and I'm too old too tired too busy and too stressed to have to put up with this shit. Grow up.

[shopwitchvamp]

The Three Fates

#aka: what it's like to be on twitter right now #shitpost #twitter #twitter screenshot #everyday i think to myself why am i even bothering to post on twitter #it's a ghost town filled with pussy in bio bots #when i look at posts from last year and see how much they got shared vs anything i post this year i really have to stop and wonder if #it is a complete waste of time and i should just abandon my twitter #anyways #at least i can make a dumb post out of this

[starrylevi]

Little drabble about you feeling all the feelings and Levi tries to help out 💫

You’ve always been made to feel like you’re too much. Others say you’re “too sensitive” or you “care too much”. They’ve made it such a point that now you actively try not to say or show too much. You keep your feelings to yourself, no matter how lonely or painful it is. Being by yourself forces you to learn how to self soothe. That way, you don’t need to share your feelings. So when Levi asks you what’s wrong you don’t quite know what to say…or how to say it.

You turn to face him in bed. “It’s a lot…” You sigh.

Levi rolls his eyes playfully. “Try me.”

You pause, looking up to the ceiling as if it’ll give you answers. “Have you ever felt too big for your body?”

“Hm. What do you mean?”

“Like, everything that’s inside you is too much and you feel like you’re going to explode?”

“Like when you’re angry?” He raises an eyebrow.

“Kind of…but it’s different.”

“How so?”

“Well…” You try to think of a way to explain it in a way he’ll understand. Words fail you. “I’m not good at this.” You say with a light chuckle.

Levi’s eyes soften at your words. He wants you to feel comfortable expressing yourself. “Me either.” He reaches around you and pulls you close to him, so close that both of your noses are touching. You can’t help but let out a giggle. “Come on, keep going.” He gives you an encouraging squeeze on your hip.

“Hm….it’s like what you said about anger but…it’s like you have a cup of water, right?”

“Mhm…”

“And let’s say it’s filled halfway…but water keeps being poured into it, until it overflows.”

“Right.”

“There’s too much water in my glass….I’m spilling, slowly but surely…and I don’t know how to stop it…but I need all of the water to get out.”

“So tip yourself over.” Levi jokes.

You chuckle. “But that’s exactly the issue…I’m scared to tip myself over.”

“Why?”

You sigh. “It would be too much…I would be too much.”

“For who?” Levi’s eyebrows furrow.

You shrug. “For you.”

“Y/N…You don’t get to decide that for me.”

“But it’s already been decided.”

“By who, you?” He asks.

“Yes.”

“No offense but…you make terrible decisions.”

You let out a gasp before you start to laugh. “That’s rude.”

“It’s the truth.” He smirks before he places a gentle kiss on your lips. “Listen,” His smile falls and his expression turns serious. “I don’t know who or what made you think you’re too much but you’re not. Your feelings are not ‘too big’ or whatever the fuck people like to say…and if they tell you that, just point them out to me.”

You shake your head, chuckling. “Levi…”

“What? I’m being completely serious.”

“I know, that’s what makes it so funny. My little guard dog.” You nuzzle his nose with yours affectionately before placing your lips against his.

“You tell anyone else you call me that and I’ll end you.” He says in between kisses.

“Ooo, is that a threat?” You pull back a little and

grin widely at him.

“It’s a promise.” He mutters as his lips find yours again.

#Clearly I am feeling all of the feelings but it is what it is #I think the writing that comes out of it is kinda cute even if it’s not great #but it helps #and why not share it #maybe it’ll help y’all ♥️ #I’m not making any sense but here ya go #levi #levi ackerman #levi aot #levi x reader #levi x you #levi ackerman x reader #levi ackerman x you #levi drabble #levi x y/n #levi fluff

[offkilterkeys]

i imagine you have a vault of unreleased content that you don't get around to posting for relatable reasons. if you do i humbly ask that you grace me with something. anything! close your eyes and pick a file? let fate decide. if you made it i'll like it, that's the point anyway

I’ve posted some panels or pieces of these but never the entire sequence on here I don’t think, so but this is one of the only substantial things I’d say I’ve kept in a vault.

I feel like compared to my newer stuff these look super rough, but they were really good practice.

These have pesterlogs that go with them but this post is already huge so eh. This was set to occur a couple hours after Caliborn’s masterpiece, so Roxy and Dirk are talking about Halquius’s heroic sacrifice/death. Davepeta and Dirk continue that line of conversation, while Roxy is pulled into an argument about self control as I bum everyone out by reminding them that Jasprose never actual stopped being an alcoholic.

#homestuck #rose lalonde #roxy lalonde #jasprosesprite^2 #davepetasprite #dirk strider #and Roxy was gonna bring it up cause she think he’s being weird for doing that #This was mostly just me messing around with the sprite^2s and fleshing them out #Also expanding upon Jasprose and Rose’s relationship cause I think it could be sooooo silly #anyway the last Jasprose panel intentionally looks like the scene in trickster mode where Dirk scolds Roxy for getting Drunk #Jasprose is all “you just hate me cause I remind you of mom #and Rose is like “No I hate you because you’re literally a worse #less articulate #horrifically selfish #version of me!” #Dirk asks Davepeta if they want a hug #cause of the whole brother/moirail death #and to both of their surprise they say no #that’s why they fist bump #The Lalonde’s conversation is left on a cliffhanger while Dirk dips out in order to do some soul searching #also the sprites not glowing anymore was a conscious decision #it’s meant to imply that now that they’re out of the medium they’re slowly losing their game construct-ness #also also Dirk’s house being in the middle of the ocean was a conscious decision #he put it there even though everyone else used Jade’s powers to have their houses move from their planets to Can Town #Roxy brings it up before they’re interrupted #anyway sorry for using this ask as an excuse to share old content I am just always brainrotting

[juniperberrypipebomb]

Decided to finally take a look into my photo folder after almost 2 years of not looking there

Gonna share some them here bc this blog is MY autism and IM gonna be the one who chooses how its gonna look like (im not gonna be mentioning vrc worlds here bc i dont rember lol)

22nd of march 2024 - a friend of mine showering me with affection while i was afk (she gay)

20th of february 2024 - "Sunset in the ocean" (despite how bad it looks i love it honestly)

23rd of december 2023 - "Universal bandit named: Fukc" (probably one of my greatest most beautiful creations /hj)

31st of august 2023 - "The autism" (probably was the loudest and longest laugh i've had; all of the other options were so fucking good too but the outpocketness of the last one got me harrrrrrrd)

20th of july 2023 - "Highest tower"

31st of march 2023 - Probably the prettiest world i have seen in vrchat (i miss that avi.. its not only been made unavailable but also the creator of it nuked; that avi is my pfp atm, still yet to decide again what avi i have captures the "me" energy)

16th of february 2023 - One of earliest memory i have with my long time friend gwen @virapyon

21st of july 2022 - Probably the 1st time i ever tried using pens in vrc (glad to know my sense of humor havent changed since then)

Also despite being besties with @doggirlpaws we share 0 pictures together, at least on my end; mind sharing them if you find any bestie?

@virapyon this applies to you too as well girlie

also ahem,

EVERY MUTUAL MENTIONED IN THIS POST IS VERY GOOD LOOKING AND WHOEVER FINDS THIS POST SHOULD THINKS SO AS WELL CAPICHE?????

tagging into my other, but nonetheless beloved mutuals im not that active with to say hi, you are welcome to add your good experiences that you had, be it vrc, gaming, life or anything else, would love to hear more from you people; no pressure tho

@letrayofash @suchlostflame @redheadedfailgirl @labgrownmeat @collector-of-dust

@parasocial-hermit @raspberrypie4u

#also if anyone else might want to join into this experience sharing post - go ahead #even if i dont know you i would fucking love hearing and reading about it #doesnt matter if its vrc gaming music or any type of experience #gonna plug-in my other mutuals here as well bc why not kinda wanna see what they are up to #wow i really am turning this vrc photo sharing post into interactive one huh #juniper stupider #cringe but i embrace it #juniper's tree branches

[narwhalandchill]

oh my fucking god i feel. SO stupid rn at How i didnt make the (super sane very normal just absolutely. Yes. Surely) connection earlier but uhh

so anyway im now like 89% certain that whatever the "traces" of the narwhal that remain on ajax and facilitate their (ever-growing) innate connection are like. an actually fundamental aspect of it (them?) more or less.

why? because if you consider its pov just for a moment. the narwhal was literally about to depart teyvat for good. it had nearly finished consuming the primordial sea and preparing to breach surface to finish the job by eating the french for the leftovers their human bodies were made from. its an interstellar voyager it does not linger on planets it devours. it goes glug glug and it leaves.

and like if it wasnt for traveler intervening its confirmed through narzissenkreuz and renes world formula that teyvat wouldve just been destroyed. no one could have stopped the narwhal not neuvillette not focalors not anyone.

so what was the one other thing it did right before going for that french brunch? calling for ajax. getting them reunited in the primordial sea. like all the possible implications aside bc theres many different ways to speculate on the exact reasons why and the nature of that link. the point remains.

it wasnt leaving teyvat without finding him.

like the narwhal is about to fucking Dip from this cringe planet and whatever part of it that ajax carries within himself his narwhal Absolutely wanted to be reunited with. what the fuck am i supposed to read from that. hoyo???????!??! answers?!?!?!

and its not only the calling from the narwhal side itself either bc this is ALL coinciding with the growth of a 'restless power' within ajax and his vision malfunctioning (the things celestia is literally confirmed to harvest energy thru to repair its damaged authority) and his connection with the narwhal reaching an actual conscious level (arguably subconscious n emotional too bc i find it Curious his mood is poor right as the narwhal is repeatedly described as positively malding to the point its boss fight mechanic is literally a rage meter). ajax' power is growing. his destiny is starting to shift and something is drawing him to fontaine... right as the narwhal is getting close to finished with the primordial sea. funny how it overlaps eh. how it aligns 🤨🤨 why are they orbiting each other like this (they should kiss)

(& not to even Mention how ajax just Happened to get that absolutely exponential and borderline unbelievable feat of power spike in extending his foul legacy endurance as massively as he did. while. within the primordial sea. with his narwhal. who had at that point all but incorporated the power of that sea into itself. i s2g if childe was getting passive home turf co-op bonus exp with a 4x multiplier automatically the whole 40+ days 💀💀)

#man the way its lovely reunion but tjen ajax fucking ATTACKS IT ON SIGHT you couldve gotten married!!!!11!1 fucking unbearable i am in agony #anyway contrary to popular belief we still have no fucking clue whether ajax' link to the narwhal was innate #skirk saying the traces remain on him after meeting it isnt saying tht much. the parts he shares w it couldve well been innate but dormant #instead. also just the fact that he woke it up already shady #then like. monoceros caeli being his from the beginning is completely plausible despite ppl acting like its been confirmed his const change #and like them being halves of the same entity on some lvl would make the narwhal being so weak without him n until ajax found it again #make very much. sense. anyway ajax toxicity jokes aside if the narwhal was just trying to eat him point blank without even a hello #i do get why hed react aggressively. but also bros been telling everyone n their mom hes fighting his narwhal the seconf he finds it again😔 #so i feel somewhat confident in assuming he started that 40+ days brawl #anyway if ajax Isnt the celestial narwhal on some level or possibly becoming it as their link grows. #riddle me this atheists. why is his 3rd phase boss theme. the song about His individual murderous rage at us #bc he thought he was outplayed by us. His personal wrath #whys the song for that called the wrath of the celestial narwhal. of the star swallowing whale. Hmmmge. his individual rage. #why does tusk of monoceros caeli speak of him embracing the narwhals innate qualities as embracing mere parts of Himself #funny how tjat goes!! (the OST n boss drop is not 100% serious theory but it does drive me insane. bc why would they phrase it like that) #anyway either theyre 2 halves same original entity or theyre soulmates idgaf . they should fold teyvat in half and eat it for brunch #aaand im going to be consumed by this realization for the next month wish me luck #WHY DID IT NEED HIM THERE SO BADLY???? HUH?????? #i mean relatable dont we all. but its sooooooooo inch resting. Curious indeed #rambles #genshin #childe #narwhalposting #childeposting

[moonandris]

#faye's polls #writeblr questions #writeblr polls #writing polls #writing questions #neurodivergent #neurotypical #neurodiversity #adhd problems #writers with adhd #writers with autism #just adhd things #adhd writers #i HATE having adhd yet also being a super creative person lmao it's like WHY did i get this super creative yet broken brain #i'm really curious to see the results because i love writing but it's so damn hard #i have adhd and it's SO challenging for me to even do tasks that make me happy WITH medication #so i am really hoping to connect with other writers who are going through the same struggles as me #and see if we can share tips and help each other out #because this world is NOT built for people with neurodivergent brains and it's hard out here! *cries in adhd* #so i think it's so important to interact with others and be part of a community that helps each other thrive #please and thank you if you reblog this i really appreciate it #have a blessed day my creative friends <3