#who takes and takes and takes from u

[inkskinned]

you didn't say sorry, not really. you said sorry only when i pushed about it, you said it like an afterthought, like - oh fine, if this is what you want. the apology was already tearing itself apart in the air. you said sorry, but you caused this. you said sorry you feel that way, i guess. you said: what else do you want me to say? you've already made up your mind to be angry about this.

you've moved on since then. i hope you found a therapist. i am stuck with all of the hurt you caused but - you've been working on yourself, on your multiple projects, on that beautiful life you live. happy - you look happier, lighter, free of all of it. you take artsy videos of yourself dancing; caption it - a friend recently abandoned me.

nobody else knows how hard you pushed. nobody else knows what you did. i am sure you tell everyone a version of the truth that makes out the best of you; turns me into a cold unfeeling bitch who just "doesn't understand" you. i am sure you leave out all the ways i gave you myself, over and over, for years. how many times before this you hurt me, crossed my boundaries, laid me bare - what you say to them about when i finally drew the line is - she is just being unfair.

sometimes i feel insane about it. i have to text my best friend, make sure that what-i-think-happened actually-happened. to double-check that i wasn't being a bad person. maybe i'm misremembering it. she often has to guide me back to the same two facts: beyond what any one person could reasonably expect, i gave you everything, and you still wanted more of it.

it makes me angry, when it doesn't make me sick. i force myself to journal about it. how fucked up it makes me, knowing your narrative will be the one that sticks - knowing you are out there, right now, making sure everyone listens. telling them how you are being targeted. how you, hurting me on purpose, making me feel small, ignoring my needs - how that was really my fault, in the end.

yesterday you made a post on instagram talking about how you used to feel guilty about something that had gone wrong in a relationship, but that you've freed yourself from those toxic idealisms. you said: i am not giving her the power to make me feel bad about my mistakes. i am just a human person - it's up to her if she wants to be the bigger person and actually forgive.

and i just sat there and thought: you haven't even actually apologized for it.

#narcissist #toxic #this is about like #when u have done literally everything for someone #who takes and takes and takes from u #and when ur finally like #hey dude this thing u did hurt me #they're like #OFFENDED that u finally stood ur ground #and they turn on u SO quick #you: um dude it really hurt my feelings that u said that #them: god you're so fucking sensitive #them on instagram: LET PEOPLE BE THEMSELVES. JESUS CHRIST #them to their friends: yeah idk she just FREAKED OUT about like a miscommunication #you: .... i uhhhh asked u not to say that about me and to apologize for saying that #them to their friends: she just wants me to fucking live in misery she's toxic #you: ??????????????????????????????????? i asked ... u to treat me ... like a human person #anyway don't let those people bait u #they're good at what they do and they'll make sure to act on ur weaknesses and #get u back #so they can keep taking from u endlessly #like.... stealing ur whole energy

[feralthembo]

I am BEGGING yall to remember that "gay panic" means "i killed this person because theyre gay so you cant jail me for it" and NOT "UwU too gay to function"

Yall CANNOT reclaim this one please stop trying

#like i get it u want to take power from oppressors or whatever but using this jokingly will alienate other queers in ur life #i cannot trust anyone who doesnt know the severity of the term gay panic

[phoenix-before-the-flame]

Gajeel- 'You're gonna be my cat!'

Pantherlily, pushing 40 with a mortgage-

#fairy tail #fairy tail headcanon #gajeel redfox #fairy tail pantherlily #fairy tail gajeel #ft pantherlily #like gajeel bro #my dude my guy #u cannot be out here in the streets tryin to adopt a fully grown man #can u imagine it from lilys end #this fucker whos about half ur age runs up sayin hes gonna take u as his cat #how did he not go 'what the fuck is ur problem'

[ryllen]

A question I have just recently,

can Sebek handle spicy?

this is what i generally think of fae.

tho i think,

lilia knows spicy spices from his travel.

even tho in dragon form, malleus breathes fire from his mouth, and fire is hot, it might be like the kind of fire that doesn't hurt him in the first place

sebek father might bring spicy spice from human world with him, but since i think of him as a mellow man, he might not be interested in spicy food in the first place

#honestly it makes me wonder all the nrc students ability to handle spiciness & i wish everyone would start putting them into tiers #twst #twisted wonderland #do i tag this as sebek #i do want to know what others think of him #sebek zigvolt #i think the octas would be very bad at it #but floyd probably keeps on challenging it so he gains tolerance over it #riddle would be very bad with it #ace would be pretty good #but deuce would be a little less #or do u think punk him would dare other punks on spicy food #who would shed tears #who would break a sweat #who would eat like it's nothing #who would wail asking the great seven to take them to the after world #i am just wondering bcs of the rabbit sausage roll in deuce hometown #leona who never lift a finger finally break a sweat from spicy food #who knows we even see tears in his eyes while he endures it silently #can vil stay beautiful eating spicy food #despite his tough claim can epel handle spicy #anyhow do u know there's samyang 1/2 spicy now #that's the only one i can eat without suffering like actually enjoying it #idia i feel like he would wrinkle from spicy food #but what if he is some connoisseur of instant noodles so he had been eating spicy ones quite a lot #my brother always love to see me suffer over spiciness

[fumifooms]

Kaka compilation

Because everyone is sleeping on him. Witness his greatness!! First two Kaka colored icons were colored by me, lineart by Ryoko Kui though!

Kaka & Kiki are kinda like Laios & Falin… Kaka being stoic and giving repressed energy like early Laios, Kiki being cryptic and always smiling and kinda soft-looking. Autism siblings 2, ostracized and othered as kids and have a deep bond due to sticking together through it all, though unlike with Laios their parents are very loving so Kaka developed family as a big value more than Laios (bc asides for Falin Laios doesn’t care much about it).

In the gnome festival comic you can see Kaka is more emotive than he seems! Full with a :3 face, and he’s the one crying at the end. He’s insecure about his legs and being tall… It really got to him. Conceal don’t feel. In the gnome festival comic you also see him sensing others’ gaze on him and that something is off unlike Kiki, again Laios-like in the way that judgement from others gets to him more than her.

#The twins are so autistic swag #A falin just as chilled out and smiling and a laios who never stopped repressing #They’re so neurodivergent and they’re allowed to just exist I love you Kui. Kaka is just literally me #I looove characters that are hard to know and hard to read/easily misunderstood. They’re my favorite thing #LOOK AT THE WAY HE SMILES THE WAY HE BLUSHESSS HE’S PERFECT and I would take a harpoon to the chest for him thank u #I do love Kiki too btw but I’ve been seeing her in fancontent and posts way more than Kaka so I had to give him some spotlight #But also Laios is my fave of the Toudens so this very much checks out #Their pre-Flokes story would be interesting to analyze too #Dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #kaka floke #Kaka #Kiki and kaka #floke twins #As you may guess from my new-ish icon I am in my kaka era #ALSO I SWEAR TO GOD STOP BEING MEAN ABOUT HIS NAME #KA IS A SYLLABLE IN MY IRL NAME. YES I WAS BULLIED AND CALLED KAKA AS A KID. MY NAME ALSO MEANS UGLY STUFF IN A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE #KAKA’S A PRETTY NAME I’LL DIE ON THIS HILL. IT’S NOT WEIRD IF YOU DON’T MAKE IT WEIRD #Oh also another laios falin parallel: they both sort-of-date the same woman

[scourge-sympathiser]

SCOURGE SUNDAY 010/???

classic

#scourge wc #warriors #warrior cats #scourge warriors #wc scourge #scourge #scourge warrior cats #bloodclan #scourge sunday #<--just now realizing i should be tagging these LOL #anywayz in honor of getting 2 double digitz i thought it would be fun to redraw the scourge from my first like. Big Post #shout out 2 thos who hav been here long enough to reconize him #off topic but i figured a style of doing skullz tht ive been having a lot of fun w/ #bcuz i find weeding vinyl stickerz rly fun n needed more designz so i would hav excusez 2 cut thm out LMAO #my fave is the horse skull #honestly i should probz post my like physical object craftz2 more thn just instgram im just bad at taking picz #n the insta is 4 like. irl shit like marketz n stuff #ive got a market on the 25th actually pretty pumped ive got a lot of neat stuffz #if u liv in/near calgary alberta u can come say haiii #not a very wc heavy table of course i try 2 avoid making 2 much fanart merch. but. i did use the older halloween scourge 2 make a patch heh #need 2 remake the stencil 4 tht actually now tht i hav a proper heatpress ive discovered tht the red ink kinda brightenz #n showz thru the white so i can hav it be just a big undershape anymore trusting the white 2 fully cover the issuez LOL #ok ive gotten way 2 off topic n this is entirely 2 many wordz. enjoy this scourge

[stopthatfool]

i know he snores like a fucking beast. i know it wakes everybody up. and i know he falls asleep in a matter of seconds. so you can't even fall asleep before him. you can't beat him. honk shoooo honk shooo head ass. i want him fucking dead. tucking him in bed all nice and warm as i type this.

#bradley and his chainsaw! (it's just him snoring) #“what is that sound. who is mowing their fucking lawn at 3 am???” #“oh that's just bradley :)” #top gun #top gun 1986 #bradley bradshaw #bradley rooster bradshaw #rooster top gun #ROOSTER! dumb little guy #rooster #i present this to u this as I take a break from writing ch.7 of the jeep universe #batting my eyelashes as i gently place this in your hands #stopthatfool goes crazy and explodes #stopthatfool's headcanons

[kazuyummy]

dating sim picrew thread!

what would YOU be like in a dating game? several dialogue options to choose from based on how you'd talk - or make one for a fictional character!

picrew link: here

no pressure tags: @true-deru @stigandr-the-cat @meggsngrits @kailali @fushigurro @auslanderka @chaotic-on-main @ceenthesis @giogama08 @heroesfan101 @koushuwu @prettyiwa @ricecrispiebirb & the entirety of planet earth if ya wanna!

#🌸-ani-irl #bubble tea date in the city YUP that's me!!! #this is a lie tho i'm flirty w people i have little to no interest in then shut down in front of ppl i rlly wanna impress lol #i went from loudest mf on the planet to shy uwu gorl when i met my bf lol #but anyway. he likes that i'm loud now LOLL #pls lemme know if you get tired of me tagging u - i just lose track of who does em and won't take it personally at all!! #picrew tag game #tag game #picrew chain

[foolsocracy]

wgats up lol

#heeeyyyyy guuuyyyssssssss #currently losing in my battle vs school #take some spider Robbie #tfw ur best friend is a masked vigilante who dies saving u from Ellis island #so u take up his crime fighting role only to see him again 🤔 strange #peter benjamin parker #robbie robertson #my art #spider noir #spider man noir #spiderman noir #ummm #marvel #one day I’ll come back fr and also have more than just sketches…. I swear guys I SWEAR #the year 1933 crazy af why r there 3 different ppl playing spider

[rcbertleckie]

masters of the air · part nine

#masters of the air #mota #motaedit #hbowaredit #hbo war #edits #tvedit #hbowardaily #ronsparky #violaobanion #olympain #userstaud #userbells #john egan #callum turner #gale cleven #austin butler #mota spoilers #deeply unwell still #who else gets two reunions in 9 eps like be serious #anyways sb stab me i cant take this #love how u can see bucky smiling from far away

[noecoded]

cowboy asmo but hes an infamous bandit coming to rob ur small towns bank and its the 1800s

#my silly saga is OVER #hehe hes like if you were a bartender and u watched him come intothe bar .. hes from out of town … hes so cute .. and he orders a drink #and hes taking down things from ur bulliten board kinda but its like 1800s western small town so u dont really think anything of it and hes #chatting you up and asking about news in town and who the sherriff is etc etc and hes flirting w u and hes soooo cute omg . he tips so well. #and there are ppl maybe who are looking to make some money spending the night w him but rlly he just wants to talk to u u dont even notice #that hes crumpling up ur wanted posters or asking too many questions abt local players and whos in charge and the bank in town because hes #just soo charming u dont even care rlly most strangers from out of town r so rude …….. #obey me shall we date #asmodeus obey me #mine #asmo

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[unexpectedbrickattack]

short king and his shorter kings

#pizza tower #pepstavo #peppinoise #i sketched it out WEEKS ago #but w me almost finishing this godawful comm i felt compelled to do something for Me #i cannot wait to finish; i have a couple of forms sitting there collecting dust but im too overwhelmed w this shitty comm- #-to even attempt to tackle those. i need to scrub my brain and start fresh. but after i finish it lmao #anyway hey. hope everyones okay and vibin #dont take this seriously but also. heehee. #in hindsight i feel like i need to bump gustavos head up a lil bit but weh #not too compelled to fix it. #additional context that i think is fun; gus is just a touchy dude and he finds all kinds of reasons to pick peppino up #and every time peppino is like SO flustered and shocked bc itll be in the view of customers #like some sports team wins and its on their tvs and ppl are hootin n hollerin #and like people will notice and keep cheering and its alot hes like oh my GOD u cannot keep doing that im going to explode and then die #noise will do it to prove he can do it and then his back snaps in two bc he weighs like 80 lbs (36kg) #but for like a brief moment of time he is facefirst in tummy and hes ecstatic #theo it is not funny to be rushed to the er bc u broke ur back #also suggestive (but funny i prommy) #but he absolutely would be that like girl who needed a neckbrace from having her gf accidentally sit on her face too hard #hes like ouuuuhhghh....that was worth it. how long will it take to recover doc bc i wanna do it again :) #meanwhile. i think if that happened peppino would literally go into hiding. ur not finding him. #it would literally haunt him that he nearly killed this rat w his fat ass #as if this is not the way both gus and noise would like to go out. it would be peaceful for them i think #anyway #runs away cutely; see u in two weeks maybe

[ryllen]

this PSA is brought to u, by first year farmer ・゚ *✧

#fsds just kidding i love how welcoming robin was too; even offering table with her family during the stardew valley eve #but no red carpet can be more welcoming than local grandma who smells like flowers and cookies and take u as her grandchild from day 1 #i thought linus was sketchy at first but then i almost cry because he is the only one drag me back home when i am dying in mine alone #with no one knowing or care where am i #sdv #stardew valley #sdv evelyn #sdv farmer #stardew evelyn #stardew farmer #stardew valley evelyn #stardew valley farmer #fanart #surely it was sketchy at first the way ur money and things are gone #but after knowing linus u get to trust him that he was sincere helping u #it really was like this homeless man cares for me more than anyone in this village #*tho reasonable bcs he's the only one actively foraging for things to live & coincidentally u are one of the thing he found #but i can imagine by the way i was playing; first few months arriving at the valley farmer just keep spending time sitting beside linus #contemplating about life #like second homeless person in the valley #if there's a popularity poll for stardew villagers; evelyn should be top number 1 no discussion #for someone who started stardew valley without any interest of the bachelor/rettes this is how i feel

[starbiology]

working on this mini comic again >:)

#me pointing at the little kid version of me who still lives in my heart: this is for u #jhudora #illusen #illudora #neopets #neoart #neotag #the panel this comic is from has been sitting in my wip folder for months now #its gonna take...so long. but hopefully will be worth it #my art

[caffstrink]

T4t huntlow so real etc etc

#for u anon #huntlow #hunter #willow park #the owl house #toh #fanart #art #tbh i have mixed feelings abt changing characters gender for the sake of shipping in general #my trans willow was mostly bc ppl always focus so much on hunter and not on willow #not that i oppose to any hcs or aus or etc etc #also picked this hairstyle for hunter bc in thanks to them hunter says he likes who he is (right now) while looking in the mirror :) #and giving back his mullet and hair noodle was belos once again taking his agency and person away from him #and forcing him back into the caleb square #so as much i do like the hair noodle i support the haircut more