#whether it would help i mean

[shoutsindwarvish]

two different rabbis directly to me + multiple places online: jewish imposter syndrome is real and is (to varying degrees) almost a universal experience in one way or another

me, who has been actively practicing for over nine months and taken multiple classes while also being halachically jewish by birth: i am the exception and am an imposter in jewish spaces and should feel bad about it. no i will not elaborate on why i believe this is true of me and no one else.

#to be clear NONE of this shame is being messaged to me by my shul #i’m just so insecure since i was raised religiously christian and only officially stopped attending church in 2020 #*february 2020 #even though i’d been drawn to judaism and deeply uncomfortable with christianity for years before that #and also had a degree of jewish identity through my family and celebrating holidays secularly growing up #i stayed as long as i did because 1) the liturgy was familiar #and 2) i’d be guaranteed to see my best friend once a week #converts have to go through a gauntlet. i feel like i’ve…cheated. #part of me wonders if i should pursue an affirmation #whether it would help i mean #but if i did my jewish grandfather would rise from the grave and say ‘YOU DON’T NEED IT BECAUSE YOU’RE PERFECTLY JEWISH AS YOU ARE’ #on the other hand he was also an atheist and probably would have mixed feelings on me practicing at all #although i’m not the only grandkid who’s done so #two of my cousins (their mom is my mom’s sister) were raised catholic but switched to judaism at least 10 years ago #to my knowledge neither of them went through an affirmation process #ughhhhh #my posts #jumblr #i guess i did elaborate why in the tags huh

[lotus-pear]

hear me out for genshin x bsd-

atsushi would be a cryo claymore that scales off atk (since the tiger is shown as extremely powerful and can even cut through space) and optimizes physical dmg

dazai would be a geo sword support that increases elemental res, acting as a debuffer (as no longer human works in the bsd universe) he would also scale off em

kunikida would also be geo but catalyst that deals physical aoe dmg.. he'd be an in-slot dps but not an optimal one imao his talents are much better suited to make him a battery unit

akutagawa would be pyro polearm?? or sword?? and he's obviously a heavy dps that scales off crit rate/dmg and tenma tengai could be similar to cyno's burst when, once activated, increases def while simultaneously raising rashomon's atk

chuuya would be an anemo catalyst dps similar to wanderer bc of his gravity manipulation and he would have a melee stance where he atks from the ground and an elevated state where he uses gravity manipulation to be able to atk off-ground. his ult would be corruption obviously and would parallel xiao's where his atk and crit rate/dmg are sharply increased but he undergoes continuous dmg until the duration of his burst ends (in this state he is vulnerable as his def is lowered and he isn't able to accumulate energy meaning he needs a team built around him, preferably with a healer and a shielder)

how does it feel to be the sexiest person on this site w absolutely the most correct and banger takes anon??.. why are u correct on literally everything

#DAZAI BEING GEO IS A SMART MOVE I LIKE THAT. i would've seen him as cryo (bc nlh is blue and also bc cryo is the element of contradiction) #(much like how dazai lashes out against his inherently selfish nature to help atsushi) #(and how he does not see himself as human and feels alienated from human society bc of it yet he is written to be the most relatable- #-character in the show?? or at least i think so) #BUT GEO MAKES SENSE.. GEO REPRESENTS DETERMINATION AND PERSEVERANCE #GEO VISION HOLDERS HAVE MINDS OF STONE AND WILL DO ANYTHING TO ACHIEVE THEIR GOALS #WHILE THIS CAN BE SEEN AS A NOBLE AND DILIGENT TRAIT.. DAZAIS MORALLY GRAY CHARACTERIZATION PUTS A WHOLE NEW TWIST ON WHAT THIS ENTAILS #HE IS MACHIAVELLIAN INTRINSICALLY. ITS WHO HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN. HE BELIEVES THE ENDS JUSTIFY THE MEANS #AND WHETHER HE ACHIEVES THAT THROUGH MANIPULATION OR THROWING AWAY HIS OWN HUMANITY.. HE WILL DO IT IF IT SEES HIS PLAN THROUGH #also kunikida would be dendro imao bc of his adherence and passion for his ideals #which parallels dendro users highly valuing and pursuing knowledge above all #anyway sry for rambling in the tags again those are just my thoughts feel free to disagree <33 #lotus’s asks

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

I was rewatching The Stone Forest and I really like to think that Hilda had to pass by the Bell Keeper’s outpost on her way out of the city limits. I like to think that idiot looked at what was happening, shrugged, and said ‘eh, she’s the scariest thing out there’

#“‘the scariest thing out there’?”the girl sends him a look that isn't quite a glare for once; it still conveys her opinion just as clearly #Edmund shrugs. Hilda is still within sight of his binoculars. he watches her run and can’t be sure whether she’s running *towards* or *from #*.He doesn’t think she knows either. #'I mean. it’s not like trolls can harm her at this time of the day. #Don’t tell me you believe in fairies kid.' #And there it is at last: the glare. Meiri looks up from her art project - her new therapist had reccomended it as a way to express herself #and since he'd been helping so much so far she'd decided to grudgingly give it a shot - #“*No*” she states pointedly; to anyone who knew her it was an affirmation. And Edmund knew her better than she cared for #'What I believe in is wolves and recluse spiders and ticks and nettle. And I believe that someone with the spine #to sabotage the Patrol wouldn't have the self control to not lick a pretty mushroom' #“Hey!” Edmund protested putting down his binoculars. “I sabotaged the Patrol! For *you* I might add!” #Meiri's smile turned mean; it was a regular expression for her yet it never conveyed any malice. Just the thrill of a game that never tired #her. “And would you?” she lifted one thick eyebrow; signaling to her dad that it was his move now #The dad in question was unfortunately thinking back to a time in his young teenage years when he figured he could eat anything animals bit #and gave himself a poisoning that had him taken to the ER. But she didn't need to know that. *ever* in fact. #“Obviously I would. Like I'd let a mushroom ruin my perfect sandwich diet” #Meiri groaned loudly. Some games were worth playing. But some wars she'd already accepted she'd never win #“Anyway” he turned back to staring at the outside of the wall as if it was of any interest to him (it wasn't) #“kid'll be fine is my point. And even if she isn't ya know what's the best think about this situation?” #They looked at each other with matching smirks. “none of our flipping business” he said at the same time as she echoed #“None of our fucking business” #He gasped immediatelly. “*Meiri!*” #The chastening was useless. She just shrugged innocently. #He'd really have to limit her library visits #the bell keeper hilda #meirdom #hilda the series #hilda netflix

[dennisboobs]

i think everyone on sunnytwt needs to be sat down so i can explain to them what basic human empathy is. and then maybe i put them in a blender until they agree to write meta about the characters instead of whether or not charlie day got facial reconstruction surgery.

#ada speaks #u do not exist in a vacuum and your words have the capability to harm others #celebrities may not see your tweets but your balding transmasc mutual and your follower who feels self conscious about her nose will #it is fucking bizarre the way these people conduct themselves online #really. really fucking weird man #and then you see them acting like ppl are 'defending rich white men' #instead of taking issue with the actual shit theyre saying #whether or not you think rcg has been 'under the knife' or not #a) how is this any of your business. you are not entitled to this info nor do you have a free pass to criticize someone's personal choice #b) ask yourself why you feel you need to critique alleged surgeries and how they stack up to imposed conventional beauty standards #c) you do not *own* them. you can have opinions on your own attraction to them but #a person getting plastic surgery or hair plugs or whatever is up to them. not you. if it helps to make them feel better then who cares. #just because it doesn't make them attractive to YOU doesn't mean its okay to point and laugh #if a trans guy got top surgery and it was 'botched' would you act like they were stupid for getting it in the first place? #if a trans woman decided she wanted to surgically shave her jaw would you shame her for that? #it's their body. it's not yours. #for the record i don't believe any of them have gotten work done but think its a stupid thing to speculate on regardless #ive watched family members go through plastic surgeries of varying success. ive seen them get botox and hair plugs and everything #normal everyday people do it and it's not always about vanity #it can be for gender reaffirming reasons (and yes this includes when cis people do it) to alleviate dysphoria #trying to point out alleged surgical alterations made is just. gross #not to mention that holy shit MOST of the shit ppl are saying is like. age. different hairstyles. different facial expressions. #maybe if these people actually watched the show theyd be able to see the gang in action instead of staring at pics like spot the difference

[lambjock]

i have too many thoughts on the deleted jackienat scene for a girl who's supposed to be enjoying her birthday lol. i think at the root of it all, it's highly likely that when the actresses breathed life into the characters, and scenes got improvised, some things just stopped making sense for characters to do. including good things, like with jackie's 'i love you' to shauna! and i think this is the case for natalie looking at jackie with hatred before leaving her out in the cold. maybe at one point in her early stages of characterization it made sense, but clearly the people on the show didn't think that way anymore at some point, hence the cut. also ngl people taking this deleted scene, which for all we know didn't even make it into the final script, as some sort of 'gotchu' for jackienat enjoyers ( romantic or otherwise ) is weird as hell to me. like, it was removed for a reason.

#my posts. #yellowjackets #im tired and its my birthday so maybe this doesnt make much sense but #i have lots of thoughts i cant stop thinking abt this scene #a mix of good and bad tbh #but mostly watching people act as if this completely destroys jackienat is hilarious to some degree #since a huge part of their appeal has always been how similiar they are. that's what jackienat is founded on #and with that similarity comes a hatred especially since both girls have a self loathing streak #so regardless whether people view this as a huge characterization moment for nat or not doesn't change this #people seem to forget how much natalie genuinely hated lottie and was jealous of her as well! it doesn't mean she loved her any less #natalie at her core is a teenage girl like the rest of them. she has flaws and pettiness and does things she regrets. a *lot* #but on the other hand she'd do anything for travis. that's who she lives for. and the only one who helped her save him was jackie #jackie might've stolen him away for the night but the others were gonna take him away forever #which is something natalie would hate more than jackie fucking him. hell in the show she even says she could care less about the sex #she just wanted travis to be *alright.* #had natalie been in the cabin when jackie was calling the girls out for what they did last night you KNOW she would've sided with her #would she have cared about the highschool drama between shauna and jackie? who knows. #but no matter her personal feelings on jackie they had a mutual hatred and disgust for what happened during doomcoming #and i think that would've mattered more to nat at the time. in a swarm of angry feral teenagers the only one she could trust then was jacki #of course these are just my personal opinions which im purposefully keeping brief lol #but like. i just have too many thoughts on this it would take an essay to iron them out so here's this i guess!

[lucyvaleheart]

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#another day another vent post #i really shouldn't keep doing this honestly. it doesn't solve anything i think #but i feel I've been too trauma-dumpy in the places i usually go and my dm restrictions mean my options are limited #so.... tumblr it goes i guess #helps that the problem tonight is feeling completely numb and apathetic. #isolating myself because i don't give a shit whether i live or die #and honestly can't really make myself feel..... like any of it matters #is it my meds doing this? who knows..... #any number of things could have caused this #i just. don't give a fuck enough to think about what #i have therapy on Thursday. I'm hopeful it'll help #well. normally I'm hopeful. I'll pretend i am now too. #start actually doing something about whatever is wrong with me. #sigh... #...i don't know if this is a cry for help or not...? i guess I'll slap in the same 'one-time free pass' to dm me on discord again #i can't really picture myself replying and i have no idea what would help. nothing feels like it would. and i may honesty to god just #fall asleep instead. #sorry to keep doing this shit #one day it'll be better #maybe. #Hopefully.

[reel-fear]

👀👀👀 Hey Bendy fandom~

#batim #batdr #bendy #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #this is SUCH a change for the better omg #I think having more fan games going around in the fandom will both be a lot of fun for the fans but also will help make waiting for more #official games easier if we have stuff to check out in the meantime #+ just generally being able to see other peoples fun takes on Bendys concepts or ideas sounds awesome! So many people I know have such #interesting and cool ideas with the concepts Bendy has and I would love to see those become full on games! #Heck this makes me super happy bc it means I dont have to feel so nervous and unsure about whether or not Its Showtime is a good idea or if #it would end with it being taken down #this fr makes me very happy #I hope theyre very serious abt this #bc I would LOVE to play some bendy fangames or maybe even help with them art wise for practice #but to stop my own rambling yeah huge W for the Bendy fans #maybe its a bit late and Id have preferred it MUCH MUCH SOONER #but better late than never #ramblez

[sakura-code]

Dual- Sword AU

I just thought of a cute and hilarious sinatio. It’s been established that Yuma is manly in charge of Makoto’s hair, what if he gets so into playing with his hair so much he starts trying different hairstyles on him. Makoto will get a bit embarrassed but he likes making Yuma happy and he gets undivided attention from his brother.

Fubuki and Kurumi thinks it’s cool and want Yuma to do there hair. Makoto gets possessive and now three people are fighting over Yuma with Desuhiko crying in the corner 🤣

That is such an adorable idea. Especially since (in my own headcanon) Yuma used to have long hair as well (basing off the old concept art of Yuma), so he probably has experience with tying his own hair. But he would definitely get better with other hairstyles through doing Makoto’s own hair.

I should also note in this AU, Yuma’s hair is actually a little longer. Since there is no reason to hide the fact Yuma and Makoto could be related because that’s the narrative they are pushing this time. It will still be shorter than Makoto’s still because I like to differentiate the two (and think Yuma having short hair looks nice to him as well). It’ll be like shoulder-length.

#master detective archives: rain code #rain code au #rain code #master detective archives spoilers #rain code spoilers #yuma kokohead #makoto kagutsuchi #dual swords AU #I am loving the asks you are giving me for Dual Swords AU I cannot wait to answer them #the hair scenario is such an adorable idea I am so using it #whether in the main story or as an AU one-shot I am writing this #these brothers and detectives need a break from the darkness that is Yomi Hellsmile #I mean Kanai Ward #Desuhiko would be so jealous yet so proud #and I could include the rest of the detectives by Yuma crying out for their help while three are fighting #though let’s be real he be mostly calling for Yakou #because Halara would demand payment for his service #and Vivia is just too lazy to do anything

[dutybcrne]

Thinkings thinkings of Fatui!Kaeya have been reawakened in reviewing Arle's teasers/animations

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Whether it's Dad!Pierro or not; I do love the idea of him being left in the care of the Fatui/House of Hearth #//Tho timelines considered; he prolly would be in Pierro's personal care while Arle goes through her Traumatic Matricide Experience #//Doubt the man would want to leave him out of his sight; Khaenri'ahn/Alberich ties considered #//Or maybe he was raised/trained to fight under Signora. Or even for Columbina (her namesake's ties to Pierro's; considered) #//Tho also do LOVE the idea of Kae and Taru growin up together in the Fatui ranks and being the disastrous + shy boi duo #//Tho Kae'd prolly have less to hide/fear with them when it comes to his heritage. The strictness he'd be raised with though... #//Eh; Taru could bring him out of his shell even still jdbgfkf. If anyone can; he deffo could. His little wintry sunshine #//So maybe he'd grow into his peacock self a little more naturally; even if perhaps still out of necessity/for ease of his missions #//Less of a facade to hide his grief/missing pieces tho; more like the way Taru is charming & goofy to lower people's guards #//Still has his little habit of testing people deffo is Much worse and much more sadistic when it comes down to it #//Particularly towards fellow Fatui who disrespect him or their comrades; or just someone he ends up disliking in general #//Does 'test' new comrades; but is more willing to step in & help them if need be. Wants UTMOST trust; determination & loyalty in his men #//So will only ever take those who push to complete the mission at all costs; even themselves/willingly ask him for help when they need it #//Dislikes those who run; & LOATHES cowards who abandon comrades to save themselves; he WILL deliberately make sure they don't make it back #//Still employs his intel gathering methods as normal verse; but has preying mantis tendencies when it comes down to it nbcfjgf #//ESP if they try to take advantage of/blackmail him in some way. Or worse; those who betray him. He is meticulous & VERY ruthless abt it #//His signature is decapitation & an unmelting (Abyssal energy-laced) ice shard through the heart; around which he'd carve a stylized one #//If those informants keep being useful to him; they are safe; and treated so lovingly by him; spoiled rotten with gifts & favors aplenty #//Once they lose their usefulness...well; regrettably he cannot leave any loose ends. These become frozen as statues for him to keep #//'Precious mementos of lovers & conspirators'; he'd call them. He'd keep them in his private home in Snezhnaya #v; glacialis pavonis (fatui!kaeya) #//If he had to have a Harbinger title/name (maybe bumped up for when Scara erases himself); he'd prolly be l'Innamorato #//Fitting of his methods (is also the remaining role of Commedia dell'arte lololol). He is saccharine sweet; pretty & deadly as a belladonn #//Deffo would have tango-based motifs rather than waltz; would favor frost-laced roses. Might even leave those with his victims too #//Can you tell I listened to Rondo Across Countless Kalpas as I wrote this up jhbfjgkfhf #hc; kaeya #//I mean yeah lol. I have so many more thinkings abt this verse aaAAAA #//Am torn if I want his to use a Cryo Delusion; or have him with Cryo Vision and an Anemo Delusion. Do like that for Cryo Swirls #//Then his rage/scorn could be likened to a Blizzard. Do like that image. Deffo favors his Abyssal powers more tho; maybe THAT'd be better

[beelzzzebub]

big nice paragraph of confused niceness below the cut so as not to clutter your dash with my voluminous personal weirdness :)

so! we got assigned new groups in my physics lab today and i normally despise lab (it's hard to finish in time, it's confusing, and a lot of the time my group ignores me. or i slow everyone down) but the group i got today was so wonderful. like by all estimates it should have been even worse than normal- it was really hard, i submitted my work literally at the last available minute, and the first lab with a new group is always awkward- but for some reason, we were just in sync. especially the girl i was sat next to, like i didn't even get her name until an hour in, but it felt like we were already friends, sharing the lab manual and calculator, checking eachother's work. normally when i have questions in lab everyone's kind of annoyed, but she was so nice and helpful, and i was able to help her with stuff too and it was just really great. we even had a moment where we said the same thing at the same time, looked at eachother, and burst out laughing. i legitimately had fun. and it was so comfortable. like lowkey, we were in eachother's space but it just felt normal. and i didn't feel like i had to be quieter or more restrained like i do pretty much all time with new people, and even a lot of the time with people i've known for a while. it is just. so so soooo rare that i feel that level of safety around someone i've just met, and honestly, it was just really lovely. all this to say- the class that i normally dread all week made my day, left me literally skipping out of the physics hall, and i am determined that i am actually actually going to try to stay in touch with this person once we switch lab groups again. and i'm putting this here because maybe it will somehow make me more sure that i'll ask for her number or something. and so that i can describe it concretely, because it really was just such a lovely lovely lovely time.

#boink #i feel kind of weird about it but i literally can't stop thinking about this girl #she was just so wonderful #i don't knowww it was just like really good vibes #i want to tell people about it! #gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #guys is this what romantic attraction feels like #i mean she was really pretty #like i keep thinking about her and smiling #i think it would be really nice to get to know her better #like regardless of whether that's a romantic thing or not obviously lol #like idk i'm just thinking like #what kind of stuff is she interested in! what's her major! where's she from! what music does she listen to! #bleh #someone send help #i don't have lab for another two weeks :( #i can't believe i'm actually sad that i don't have lab #ha

[kyofsonder]

"I think the reason I'm so stressed is because I'm trying too hard without resting," he said, as he continued to try very hard and didn't let himself rest at all.

#not writing #sonder speaks #hmm if only there was a solution #I mean sure resting would work #but at what cost? #letting down my guard? #being lazy? #no I can't afford that #I have to keep trying very hard #whether it's at actually helpful/healthy things or not #clearly that's the only answer #please reread those tags in a bitterly sarcastic tone #thank you

[teamhawkeye]

i really do worry for the state of media literacy these days

you go into any tag and see people with their whole ass chest saying wrong and untrue shit, and they wholeheartedly believe they’re correct despite the canon source they’re pulling from saying otherwise

#this is specifically about Travis and someone saying he can 'get away with all the murders he committed' #in the ending where he Laura and Ryan find and kill Silas and break the curse #that would mean that canonically Travis has committed NO murders. because he only ever crosses that line when Laura shoots him in chapter 7 #and you cannot break the curse by doing so because Laura and Travis have to work together in order to go after Silas #'going to do everything in his power not to get caught'- tell me you didn't absorb anything other than surface level detail from the game #without telling me. because i can very much tell you didn't get much of anything out of the experience #that man literally gives Laura the power to kill him before going after Silas. he is ready to atone then and there to her #he is repeatedly saying and showing that he hates the cover ups and lying and misery the curse and helping his family is causing #you can not like a character but for fuck's sake - making shit up to make you feel more self righteous about your hate is pathetic looking #and most of the information about Travis is hard fact - it is peppered throughout the game through his dialogue and notes/clues/evidence #vs. Silas who there is almost NOTHING set in stone about. you only know that he's the source of the curse and Eliza kept him caged #even Travis in the end can say he has doubts about whether he was actually Eliza's 'son' or if she didn't just take him and cage him #anyways...i know i'm biased but Travis is the most multi-faceted character in the game and he's the best <3

[unopenablebox]

ok i actually seriously can’t handle the fact that that post was in the second person. “when i see people who i’ve smugly decided are less functional or well-adjusted than me, i want to impose my will on them and make them into productive citizens by sentencing them to TWO YEARS OF HARD LABOR ON THE OCEAN”

are you a press-ganger trying to justify kidnapping street urchins onto your ship? are these the wilde trials??? come the fuck on!!!!

#i know people were reading it as a self imposed thing and thinking about whether it would help then #them #and i understand why people were doing so given that it was being contrasted with taking implicitly voluntary therapy too seriously i guess #but given. that that’s not what op says. i just. for fuck’s sake #box opener #like it’s reasonable to specifically focus on the sentiment that was intended ie whether manual labor is improving #and what it means to talk about it that way vis a vis actually thinking about the nature of labor #but the text of the post is approximately ‘effete degenerate people who think too much should be sent for mandatory toughening ups’ so #¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

[modwyr]

i know we all love companion quests and want to learn about our companions all the time but i do think the overall game would have been stronger if more of the companions quests were wrapped up in act 2 instead of being dragged out to the end of act 3.

#like i think if you beefed up the rescuing mizora stuff you could have ended wyll's quest there #with a question of whether he saves her or not and what that means etc #instead of slapping him on the ansur stuff seemingly for the sake of giving him something to do #like i don't want to say act 3 is bloated but i think its getting close to being so and maybe pushing companion stuff back #so more focus can lie on the main plot would help a lot #bg3 #bg3 spoilers

[existentialcrisistime]

in other news I got covid again, and this is somehow my fifth time

and in a cruel stroke of irony I tested positive on the very day that I'd been to the walk in pharmacy clinic thing about a fucked up probably infected cyst on my leg, and was told to go see the doctors about it

however I can't go see anyone about it yet because I have covid!

(the covid itself is however pretty mild for me compared to previous infections, so I remain hopeful)

#re the cyst - my body does appear to be clearing it up albeit slowly so this isolation period will be the test of whether my body can do so #successfully or whether I'm gonna get out of isolation just to get put on anti #*antibiotics #which I mean would likely help the mild chest infection I seem to get after every single damn covid #and what caused the cyst I hear you ask? oh it was just my body freaking out because I'd been tattooed so it decided to make a cyst in a #nearby location #nothing to worry about my body does the Big Post-Tattoo Pimple all the time they're just never normally this big and bad #long story short my immune system is terrible #nic stuff

[fierykitten2]

I just wanna say: Robert comforting Falcon after an autistic meltdown/shutdown

#I wanted to make a point but wasn’t sure how #captain falcon #dr stewart #captain falcon x dr. stewart #autistic headcanon #meltdown #shutdown #hurt/comfort - I guess #I’m sorry I’ve been thinking about this stuff this afternoon #I'm in a strange mood #hopefully it'll be a bit different tomorrow #I know he's a surgeon not a specialist in neurodivergent conditions but Robert should definitely know how to help someone with autism #I mean he's also from the future so I'd be surprised if he didn't #idk whether I headcanon Falcon as being diagnosed as a child/teen or undiagnosed but not the best at masking #but it's the future why would he need to mask #I'm way too optimistic about equality in the future