#whatever it dont matter 2 me

[samsrosary]

taking ur boyf out for a nap when he can't sleep

#my art #sastiel #samcas #we are BACK #samstiel #sam winchester #castiel #fanart #supernatural #spn #btw why has my art been flopping lately. Are you guys leaving bcs of twitter layout or is it the fact ive been drawing deans #whatever it dont matter 2 me

[puhpandas]

Biggest hope for Help Wanted 2: It shuts up the "LOL His just an evil little shit!" people by unambiguously declaring that Gregory was one-hundred percent, irrefutably, "You are an idiot if you say otherwise" that he was indeed, possessed by Glitchtrap.

the people who think the 12yo is genuinely a homicidal evil mastermind just on his own when mind control is probably the biggest plot point in the story are already crazy. like it's better to not give those ppl ur attention or to torture urself looking at those posts because they literally dont matter. theyll always find a reason to excuse their violent hatred towards him and theres nothing thatll change that. might as well save yourself the trouble of looking at the posts they make yknow?

#/nm #but yeah Gregory hate doesnt even bother me bc i dont look at it lol #i dont go on twitter at all either #life is peaceful when you stop making yourself angry looking at hate posts #yknow? #their opinions dont matter to us because theyll hate him no matter what and dont care to get their reasoning right #so whatever. right? #pandas.txt #pandas asks #pandas talks #discourse #pre help wanted 2

[voltrixz]

Silver Sable and Shocker friendship real and true to me actually. Why? It's funny to think that Shocker is good friends with the ex of his boss's right hand man

#AND YOU KNOW HAMMERHEAD IS NOT HAPPY ABOUT THIS #he hates that guy 😭😭😭 (hammerhead and shocker's dynamic will always be really funny to me(as well as really interesting) #but whatever!!! friendship win!!! i think the 2 are really chill with each other and have small chats over smoking cigarettes together #i think she would stop by his bar everynow and then too #and yeah yeah they're on different sides in the criminal underground yadda yadda but i dont think it really gets in the way of things #usually #for the bar like montana has rules set down similar to the bar with no name in the comic (no fighting inside no matter what opposing team #ur on or whatever grudge you have ) #and ourside of the bar when on work duty they have a friendly rivarly and immense respect for each other so yeah 👍 #friendship wins forever and ever #voltrix rambles #this may be a bit messy but ya know #tssm shocker #tssm montana #<i'll leave em there

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#love that my body decided to incapacitate me the weekend before i have to read 5 different papers for classes #and it would b one thing to just read them but no for 3 of them i have to give detailed interpretation and 1 i have to present on #ive already failed to read one bc i forgot we had to do 2 papers for monday. oops. not that i could have done it anyway. i barely got 1 done #and im on track to fucking up the one due Tomorrow as well #im just fucking tired of reading fucking chemistry driven papers that i dont understand no matter how many times i read them #and everyones like oh itll get easier but no it fucking wont bc i cant fucking read right #its so fucking frustrating. why do i even bother? im so tried #i don't even have the paper im supposed to present on so ill have to do it all tomorrow. cool. great. not that i could do it today anyway #im just. this is gonna b a difficult week #and i misused my whole day by doing extractions bc i scheduled my training a week ago when i thought i would b fine over the weekend #nope. its fucking bullshit. this is y im like. y do i even want to b in academia? #how could i b a prof if i cant read well? its fine to b dyslexic as a math person but im like i have to read so much and so little gets thru #but then what the fuck else am i supposed to do? idk. im just gonna write down something for all these questions and go tf to sleep #ill get up at some horrible time in the morning to finish this. damn the consequences. ill see my therapist tomorrow anyway #and meet with my advisor like 🤪 yo guess what i made zero progress this week #sorry u got stuck with me while im going thru a year of fucking health problems #but whatever cant get rid of me now im already here. here and tired and i wanna go to bed #unrelated

[doodlboy]

Them ✨️

#om gem au #obey me #wip art #obey me mammon #mc elliot #obey me mc #character design #digital art #elliot doodles #mammons theme is /\ and els is \/ so when ya mash em together they level out #not posting their fusion yet bc im not a fan of the colors but they look p okay #anyway i love that no matter what i put mammon in he still has cowboy energy #i might change mams ear colors bc i dont think theres enough contrast or smth #anywayyyy #4 down 12 to go #dying but enjoying myself #i really need 2 stop giving a shit and post a comms sheet and not have to design it all fancy and whatever like brain..keep it simple pls #anyway yea #oh idr if i said. els gem is cracked bc of his attempted murder thing that happened w belphie and he's permanently scarred #& blind in 1 eye. kinda like white/pink pearl

[beautifel]

seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level #for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her #still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions #Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later #jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this #not fair not fair at all this is evil #and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences #i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it #i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity #is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike #Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to you😂😂😂😂😂😂 #AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED 😃😃😁😁😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔪🔪 #at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even #LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it #what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol #hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather #kms than tell u how i know 😂. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter #how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there #n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng #or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak #n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own #well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her

[asbestieos]

🫂 hope youre doing alright :(( feel better soon !! hugs

thank you ill be ok 👍

#just a very. heavy. bpd moment. the illness get the better of me. or actually i dont like beimg loke #‘te illness got the better of me’ #bc my actions r my actoons no matter whatever duress im under right so like if i hurt myself it was a moment of weakness and i have 2 be #better than that next time. and i will be i think. just dont want to be a little weakling about it #(not that its weak to still be in recovery)

[subarashiihibi]

logging onto tumblr and seeing blatant ableism was not something i was expecting but Alright

#izaya is the official number 1 cluster b pd ambassador #me personally ive always been a firm believer in bpd izaya but after doing more research on aspd #i get it like it really does make sense esp a lot of little things here and there #just a horrible take in general i fear. rethink your life choices if yr being ableist over a hc #and shoutout to whoever brought the aspd izaya hc to life 💞💞 #i dont usually talk abt 'drama' or whatever but it's so disheartening to see #rly it shouldnt matter that much for someone to make a whole damn post fussing over it #regardless of whether or not izaya has aspd he is beautiful and it shouldnt be that huge of a deal that is my honest opinion #as in if yr that hung up over 'nooo izaya cant have aspd he has empathy!!!!🥺🥺' #1) just go to hell and 2) this should not affect how you regard him that much and if it does you are not worthy of liking him #er thats just me being petty but rly i mean it! it's all unconditional love for izaya here. #actually one more thing i do want to say i really do appreciate the creator of this hc i said it earlier but like #i love analyzing izaya as a character but i am admittedly SO BAD at forming meaningful explanations and stuff #so smth to not only do that but also explain how he fits the aspd diagnostic criteria and how it all lines up... it's really cool #ok sowrry i wont ramble anymore. im writing a damn essay in these tags 😭

[sodrippy]

my parents being like "we always call you, you never call us so we're not gonna call anymore" is so 🧍 like ok. we just wont talk then? bye forever

#they act like its a personal slight against them like ok man you know i dont make phone calls and it makes more sense for you to call anyway #like they used to call in their morning whenever they were free and im always free so it doesnt matter #anyway whatever im sorry like i get that maybe they feel like we dont put in the effort but like #1. youre lumping me in w my bastard brother and we are just not the same 2. you did this! we're not close bc you were bad at being parents! #sorry but guilt trips dont work on me i just dont really care 👍

[alltimewhat]

im kind of glad that im hearing from a lot of people that the barbie movie was Not as good as everyone says it is because after learning what the last line in the film is i was turned off even further on a movie i already didn't care about

#genuinely made me go from not caring to actively not wanting to watch it #also just. being nb i dont want to see a bunch of boysvsgirls jokes for 2 hours or whatever. i dont care. none of this matters.

[hauntedestablishments]

NOT gonna cry at my dad's house i am going to write this stupid fucking fic and ignore my stupid unreasonable thoughts

#vent i suppose #i used to be able to hold friends and conversations and so much for Hours #like not 2 have an ego but people Liked me #i dont know where it all went #i dont know how to talk to people and no one seems interested in talking to me #like even friends i have im no ones favorite #n like it shouldn't matter but it does!!!!! #it matters so much to me that i can go days to weeks without a personal message from anyone #it matters so much that i have to be im a group setting to be noticed #no one wants to talk to Me #anyways whatever this started over something stupid I DONT CARE! #if my friends see this no they dont Lol

[thecherrygod]

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#my posts #you know how this usually goes #i make an amount of tags so that if you read this its bc you've clicked and its not bc i am just posting it like whatever lmao #... unsure if i should even post it tho but what else do i do just leave it in my brain? idk maybe its the same maybe its better #maybe its worse? .... why have i been feeling kind of like this and at this kind of intensity for like about 2 weeks or more #2 weeks is how long ive been properly aware so i think its more but like. man. #like maybe its been like a month and i just havent been keeping track of time bc january is way too long to even try lmao #. but. idk. i just wish i could be kinda.. stable. like i cant feel good lmao #like it truly doesn't matter nothing is good enough in general #what i do isnt good enough #what goes on around me doesnt help trying to ignore the constant.. dread? #and like all things considered i should be doing good currently #or at least not this bad #but here i am constantly trying to not let myself feel too bad until im alone bc man. #so... yeah it just doesnt feel like anything is truly worth it not me as a person nor the things i do nor the things i experience lmao #also lately ive been just feeling more..... disconnected to others... like i dont understand them and they dont understand me #but like.. more than usual #and i guess its me? that it's kind of a me problem #idk I'm just tired. i need to sleep. i want to let face down on some sort of big water body or do something that will make my life worse #or they i will regret lmao #i. wont do any of those #also when i mean face down in some sort of bldy of water or whatever i dont necessarily mean like die #not against it but its not the only option #just lay there and float..... also not against it #i just want something that i cant have i guess bc im not sure what it is #like i just know what i want is to not constantly feel like this but idk how lmao #... u would sleep if i can bc man also I'm so tired #.... adding tags its a bit worse than I assumed lmao im also thinking about wether i deserve stuff or not lmao #like it got windy and cooler and i was like 'a blanket by my legs would be nice' only to be like 'no you don't deserve that ' like ah yeah #its kinda worse than i thought lmao

[triggeringtommy]

*kicking my feet n twirling my hair* i wanna kill myself

#personal #not just personal but also relatable #im rly fucking bothersome and i feel rly dumb 4 it bc this shit shouldnt matter but it doooooo it rly do im such a big crybaby itsembrassing #i wanna kms bc nothing in my life is ok #moms relationship with me is getting rly bad again #we cant talk anymore bc she just wants 2 control my life forever #i told her i wanna move back to FL on my own with my best friend #she said shed literally go crazy on me and loose her fucking mind and hurt me LOL #she literally threatened me haha #i hate it hereee #my mommy wantz me 2 stay forever bc im a source of income #she wants 1000 instead of 500 and doesnt care how i make it work if i leave my partner #she said do OF or feetfinder idc how u come up with the other 500 u dont pay rn just get a full time job n sell ur ass idc #she would rather me work a fuckton and still hav to sell my body than me just move out and us go seperate ways #whatever #i hav to think on this apparently #i just wanna move back i want friends i want to be near my family #im miserable here bc im alone with the people who all abuse me #no wonder i puke 24/7 this home life isnt normal

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#aaaand thats a 3rd doctor. a psychiatrist. who listened to me ans thought: mm sounds like bip0lar lol #me: wow its so easy to get diagnosed as bip0lar. thats bc u r exhibiting lots of depression and a limit amount of mood elevation. that's #like. thats what bip0lar is. she was like yea ppl with bip0lar 2 spend like 75% of time being depressed and a lil elevated mood... which #sounds like what u r describing. me: #...yeah. but again its complicated by the 0cd and spectrum issues. but she independently brought up 4dhd. just when i was like no its all #0cd. here we r again. stuck back in the messy overlap. but whatever i got proscribed bip0lar medicine. lam1ctal. we'll see #bc everyone i talk to is like. we need to control the mood 1st. like so u dont die. and im like hm yeah good call lol #she seems super cool tho. like i would love to just talk to her. ugh. she wants to get a handle on the mood and then maybe add a stimulant #bc shes had it happen in thr past where someone comes in with debiltating 0cd and got treated with lam1ctol and a stimulant and the #obsessive rumination stopped. so well see. idk if ill actually qualify as 4dhd enough. well see. fingers crossed #my mood is a lil elevated rn so its all fun. well see if we tip off a cliff bc im getting less sleep and go go going #unrelated #ugh im scared to start the medine tho bc the ssri i got proscribed fucked me up so much. which is also an indicator of bip0lar #god dammit. if this works im gonna have to actually accept the idea of being bip0lar. i mean. it makes sense being on that spectrum #is just sounds insane and i was not expecting it despite my fucking obsession with understanding wtf my deal is #idk. whatever. doesnt matter

[andoutofharm]

sometimes i get on tiktok because i am bored and i immediately remember why i usually do not go on tiktok

#i dont CARE if you dont like abap or favorite record maybe consider not everything is for or about you and SHUT UP #like. if you want to say ‘oh i wouldnt have wanted this one’ to a friend or whatever fine. #but can people stop doing this on their platforms and shitting on everyone who did want it and saying ohhhhhh i didnt like it #WHO CARES. 1) you werent even there so why does it matter and 2) if you were there and were disappointed uhhhhhhhh get better soon #idk something about this massively rubs me the wrong way #also the argument of ‘i saw them a lot during that era so i dont want it :/‘ GUESS WHAT. AGAIN. THIS IS NOT ABOUT OR FOR YOU. #especially when it was a LIVE DEBUT are you FUCKING kidding me #anyway. i am eating abap haters whole and distributing their tickets to abap lovers <3

[greencarnation]

So yk how Taika, Rhys and Con are Zionists? I think we all know by now. (People supporting them anyway I fucking see you)

It gets worse. Remember how they killed Ivan off screen and kinda just erased him? Turns out it's because they fired the actor, Guz Khan, over his support of Palestine last year. Last year. None of this is new, but I'm glad we're finally waking up to it

#our flag means death #ofmd #fuck that show and everyone who works on it or still watches it #its fucking disgusting #you are disgusting #your faves are actively supporting the slaughter of children and you're pushing it aside bc teehee cute gay pirate found family? #nah fuck you #and dont talk to me abt that show being a big part of your life or it helping you or whatever the fuck #if you knew me even 2 months ago i was a RABID fan and had been since it first aired #none of that fucking matters now #how do you sleep at night #next person who puts anything about thst show on my feed is getting blocked #taika waititi #rhys darby #con o'neill #<- genocidal cunts #IT ISNT WORTH IT!!! NO SHOW NO MATTER HOW BELOVED IS WORTH IT!!!!