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emry-stars-art · 10 months

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tell us about the royals au!!! (im on my knees. please.)

Ohhhhh my friend you have started me on a RANT I hope you’re ready!!!

I don’t know that I’ll ever actually write it so I’m not too worried about spoilers, and the wonderful people in my dms (which are still open btw) bouncing ideas with me are always going to come up with great ideas so I’m putting WIP in big red letters, things are subject to change! But for now, some ideas. Most of what I have will be under the cut, but if you want to know more about a specific part/have any questions please I’d love to chat :D will link to the art/posts I have so far!

(In this au I’ve been referring to Neil as Nathaniel at first and then Abram (hello names as a plot device), and everyone else right now is some version of their name)

Kevin and Nathaniel were raised at Evermore castle, Kevin to be in direct competition to Riko/see which of them might claim the throne (not thought out yet), and Nathaniel as the Moriyama’s attack dog, born and raised to take his father’s place as such. The two never met in person, but Nathaniel knows and recognizes Day because of course he does, and Day knows the name Wesninski means a very, very dangerous person. Essentially the top assassin on the continent.

But as we do, Day decides he can’t/won’t handle the treatment anymore, whatever the last straw may be, and runs off to Palmetto in a kind of desperate chase of the stories his mother used to tell him when he was little. He knew she loved that kingdom. Somehow he finds Wymack - the twin’s royal advisor - or Wymack finds him, and once Wymack realizes who this kid is and has reason to believe he’s not here on Evermore business, he puts Day’s incredible talent and training as a tactician/commander to work as his pupil.

Meanwhile Nathaniel is still at Evermore, mistreated and learning from his own failures and mistakes until he’s nearly as good as his father at the family business.

I don’t know how long Nathaniel plans it, but he either plays the part for long enough or his skill is so undeniable that when the Moriyamas have plans for the Palmetto Kingdom, they send him and one other accomplished fighter to kill the king. Nathaniel goes quietly and decides he’s not coming back if he can help it.

So instead of killing the young king, Nathaniel’s panic has him turn on his partner at the very last second, stopping them just before they can get to the king. He takes them somewhere far away and does what he does best, leaving no one to report back to the Moriyamas. From then on it’s a waiting game to see how long the family will wait before they send someone after him.

Day’s followed them, and Nathaniel turns around from the body and sees this man he hasn’t seen in years, alive and safe away from Evermore. It’s as elating as it is crushing - because Day heard his partner call him by name, and there is no way Day will ever let a Wesninski walk away alive. Not if he knows what’s good for all of them.

Except Day doesn’t kill him, even when Nathaniel asks him to. (Better Day than Riko, Nathaniel knew that even when they were all stuck at Evermore). Instead, he takes Nathaniel back to the twins/Wymack, gives him a little bread, and they sit until he can pry out an explanation. (See the comic of this first meeting here.)

Day and Nathaniel spend most of their time together because Day refuses to let Nathaniel out of his or Wymack’s sight until he proves not a threat to the royal family, which proves an issue because between Andrew’s rotation of personal guards (he never gets along with them well enough that they stay/aren’t fired) Day is Andrew’s guard, which sometimes means Nathaniel is stuck a lot closer than Day would like. But after a long, long time, Day and Wymack decide Nathaniel was serious about the whole “runaway” thing and isn’t playing spy (maybe there’s some dramatic event/Nathaniel protecting a twin that convinces them or maybe it’s just a lot of little things over time). Andrew, after a rough spat with the latest guard, is again in need of a new one. Finally Day just asks “is there ANYONE you could possibly pretend to get along with that can do the job” and Andrew knows Nathaniel is dangerous he just doesn’t know exactly how or why (but oh he is curious) so maybe he just straight up says. “Wesninski.” And Day has to go “…. Fine.”

So boom. They knew each other superficially before, but now Andrew and Nathaniel are spending most of their time together and miraculously - no arguments. No spats. Day thanks the gods there’s no physical altercations (that’s probably what got the last guard fired so quick). Nathaniel is just a mystery with shady ability to tell the truth and Andrew can’t help his curiosity. Good old fashioned andreil :D

From here the timeline becomes essentially nonexistent, I have no idea when these things happen in relation to each other but so far they’re all things I like and want to include!

1) there’s plenty of games and competitions at Palmetto, we love a good tussle, and Nathaniel usually does quite well - he’s not good at playing fair, but his underhanded methods are not technically illegal and usually he can use his preferred weapon - dagger rather than sword. He does well except for the one time an opponent accidentally says/does something that was constantly said or done to Nathaniel while “training” at Evermore, and he comes back to Andrew and the tent he watched from in the beginning of a panic attack. Andrew doesn’t know anything about Nathaniel’s past at this point, but he knows a panic attack when he sees one. In trying to talk him through it, Andrew realizes that yes Nathaniel is scared of being hurt, but he’s more afraid of hurting others. Nathaniel won’t let Andrew call him by name, he flinches every time Andrew says it. After, Andrew asks what he should call him instead, and Nathaniel finally asks to be called Abram.

2) Balls! Masquerades! Abram doesn’t have many outfits, he wears the regular issued uniform to every event. Andrew will not stand for this. Abram always wears clothes that cover him fully, which is fine, Andrew can work with that. He’s still seen Abram in a tight shirt or two. So he commissions one of the most knowledgeable people in the court (we’re thinking it might be Allison, she’s a noble but she’s great with textiles/embroidery/etc) and gets Abram a new outfit. It still covers him, its still protective material, but it looks better. (Find Abram in a corset here). Andrew handles it totally normal and rational in his head when he sees Abram actually wearing it of course.

3) Day probably assumes for a little while that Andrew and Abram have got a more or less normal guard/charge relationship, even thinking it’s slightly antagonistic considering this is Andrew we’re talking about. (This doesn’t fit the timeline, but here’s a mini comic of one of Day’s misunderstandings hehe)

4) king Aaron! He became king at 18/20/whatever age we decide this universe deems old enough because he is in fact the elder twin here. I imagine their parents have both been dead and gone for at least a few years at this point. Dan is Aaron’s guard and she and Abram hit it off great as coworkers and friends. More on the uncertainty of the twins backstory later. (Drawings of Aaron and his queen Katelyn here!)

5) the angst. The Moriyamas should have heard from the Wesninski boy months ago - something somewhere went wrong. So, naturally, they go to collect their property. If they get away with it, we can imagine how it goes. What I don’t know is if the twins, Day, and Wymack know for sure he was kidnapped or if they have a little nagging in the back of their head that wonders if he’s only run away from the castle or if he’s run back to Evermore with everything he’s learned.

When he’s recovered, Day doesn’t let Andrew too close too often for a while. If Abram forgets where is for even a second too long - waking up from a nightmare, having a flashback - it’s long enough for it to be fatal to whoever might get too close to Abram. It’s already almost proved fatal for Andrew, after Abram played normal so well that Andrew let it slip - he forgot Abram was taken back to Evermore for them to finish making him into a thoughtless weapon, and they’d nearly succeed. He wakes Abram too quickly and ends up extremely lucky Abram recognizes both his voice and the way Andrew didn’t call him ‘Nathaniel’ or ‘Wesninski’. There’s really a huge amount to possibly be covered about this point so I won’t go into detail here - but if you like hurt/comfort you know where to find me 👀

6) the biggest thing we haven’t figured out is Andrew. Either he was kidnapped at a young age and only recovered in his teens, or the elder King Minyard didn’t much care for his second son. Though I’ve always liked the idea of Mr. Minyard being a good man who died shortly before the twins’ birth and their mother just couldn’t handle the grief or knowing that the twins look like him. Anyway a lot of the twins’ issues after both of their parents are dead are the advisors or other people around them that try to take advantage of their youth and inexperience for their own gain, without realizing that both Aaron and Andrew have had to grow up much too fast, each for their own reasons. They can usually see right past the tricks. It’s why they both trust Wymack so much - he’s one of the few adults that are truly there to help them, and not make decisions for them.

Im sure there’s more I missed, but this is long enough as it is lol. People have asked about the Trojans/Jean in this au, and I’d love to include them! My brain’s instinctive response is that Jeremy is some sort of high end noble/royal of a faraway kingdom, and Jean (always last to leave the nest, im so sorry baby) somehow gets over there, but I don’t have an idea of his or anyone else’s roles yet. Renee could even still have a hand in him getting there if we really want.

So I’m still writing snippets and drawing over here lol but i promise I don’t bite if you want to talk :D

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wantbytaemin · 7 months

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the fucking shitshow i experienced today…

#i won’t even get into the details of it but my work is being undermined and i didn’t say anything about it bc i was so taken aback and in #absolute shock. i have literally never Ever experienced something of this sort im not being dramatic i went into my office and told my #coworker girls what happened and everyone was staring blankly like ‘they said that to YOU??????’ bc it’s genuinely fucking unbelievable #got told some out of pocket shit that i willllll notttttt let slide but i need to get my shit together and think up the best way to respond #bc this wasn’t just undermining my work it was borderline humiliating. all from this woman who is supposedly my PhD mentor who NEVER #fucking helped me with anything and now she’s trying to tell me something that is SO insanely unfounded and just insane truly #as if i didn’t take over the entire goddamned (multi million) project and played the role of *drumroll* two phd students three #collaborators and TWO mentors one of whom was supposed to be the project lead. all that did so well that our ceo STILL praises me in #meetings and he never fucking praises anyone. as if i wasn’t offered two job positions in two separate labs while in one of london’s top #universities. as if i haven’t published 8 papers and a scientific book chapter which I’m the first author of #all without her help and now she wants to play mentor by trying to talk shit. oh my god im so miserable right now you have no idea #i can’t fucking stand her and no one in the company likes her anyway lmao but like #when i get out of this fucking state of SHOCK she just put me in im about to tell her to fuck off forever so politely and so wonderfully #that she will not know what happened to her. doubting MY capabilities ohhhh as if. as IF.

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godofstupidsentences · 7 months

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I actually don’t understand why the town decided Reid was the big villain of the story

#listen to me-#LISTEN #Im not delusional I can recognize when my fav is in the wrong #I LOVE when my fav is in the wrong #and he is!!!#but from the pov of the champions!!!#bc what did he do to the rest of the world?#he wrote the book which was definitely the reason why this horrendous tournament was ended in the first place #he… sold curses to the champions??? like the cursemaker that he is???#he told Briony how to break the curse???#like I totally get why the champions hate him bc he was plotting all along etc etc #but does the world even know about this?#like… what did he do so villainous to them-#(if you can’t tell I’m going insane over these two books)#reid mactavish #all of us villains #all of our demise

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sunglassesmish · 1 year

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Kay ... i basically just woke up and i have to catch up on EVERY SINGLE THING BUTTTTTTTTTT:

AND THEN::::::

KAYYYYYYYY I'M FUCKING FREAKING THE FUCK OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG JENSEN IS SOUNDING MORE AND MORE LIKE A SEQUEL IS GOOING TO HAPPEN AND HE WANTS THE CONFESSION TO BE ADDRESSED AND LISTEN THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY THAT HE WOULD THEN NO HOMO DEAN TO CAS RIGHT????? RIGHT??????????

i mean okay listen listen. the reunion happens and all that cas and dean reunite etc. you cannotttttttt tell me that they would then no homo it. especially because now that jensen has the idk what the technical terms are but like right now he has the rights to spn to work within it's universe with spnwin so he for sure is gonna exec produce the spn sequel. and with chaos machine he and danneel very clearly played into the queer community and its representation etc. i cannot imagine that when it comes back they would crush cas by going "sorry cas but I'm not gay" like i could never in a million years see that happen. OMFGFGFGF OKAY LISTEN LISTEN I'M FREAKING OUT LIFE IS GREAT. okay for the longest time i was worried that if there was going to be a spn sequel they would completely ignore cas' confession cuz spn in the old days was ... eh (and i mean i loveeeeeee the show but ya know) but now that jensen said it is going to be addressed if they ever return, and with him being the IP holder right now and with his production company being so queer focussed in it's press release.... and with misha caring so much about cas' queerness. i just do not see any version where dean doesn't reciprocate. i mean he's def gonna fumble and he and cas will prob dance around it etc. but like ........ fucking hell

i swear to fucking everything i neeeeeeeeed NEEEEEEED this sequel to happen like if someone at HBO or CW or WB blocks it from happening I will call upon every single power that I do not possess to curse them to eternity and beyond BECAUSE I FUCKINGNNN NEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDD CAS AND DEAN BACK ON MY SCREEN. I SERIOUSLY MISS THEM SO MUCH. FUCK NOW I'M CRYING. I CAN'T EVEN SEE WHAT I'M TYPING. I MISS THEM SO MUCH. THEY'RE THE BEST CHARACTERS EVER AND THEY DESERVE TO LIVE HAPPY EVER AFTER AND I FUCKING HATE THAT FINALE THAT WE GOT BECAUSE IT WAS A HUGE DISSERVICE AND AFTER EVERYTHING DEAN AND CAS DESERVE TO LIVE TOGETHER BY A LIKE JUST GROWING OLD AND WE DESERVE TO SEE IT AND BY FUCKING GOD I FUCKING NEEEEEEEEEEED THIS ON MY SCREEN. okay I went completely insane but I FUCKING MISS CAS AND DEAN AND I NEED THME BACK AND I NEED THEM TO REUNITE AND I NEED THEM TO TALK ABOUT IT AND I NEED TO SEE THEM FUMBLE ABOUT IT AND I NEED TO SEE THEM ADDRESS IT AND I NEED DEAN TO RECIPROCATE CUZ I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF THAT HAPPENS I WILL DIE. I WILL LITERALLY DIE. AND I DON'T EVEN CARE. LIKE NO ONE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO TELL ME ANYTHING CUZ THEN LIFE HAS GIVEN ME THE ABSOLUTE BEST POSSIBLE THING EVER. AND I'M CRYING AGAIN CUZ I MISS THEM SO MUCH. (I have serious mental health problems lol but I don't even care lol

i just miss dean and cas so much

em this is the best thing i’ve ever read i love how passionate you are!!! nobody else has freaked out about this enough i love you 🥰🥰🥰

but then in his cockles panel he said he wants to remake the finale and misha even told him to do it!!! i can’t remember the specifics because that panel was like a fever dream but i know he’s cooking up something (whether he’s come up with the idea or not he’s doing something i think)

i need dean and cas back. i need them back so bad…. like it hurts my heart thinking about how they their lives ended and they lost each other

#thetiredstuff #ask #i’m so glad you’re back but i already told you that hehe #and this cockles panel was the most insane thing ever idk if you know what happened but jensen called misha his boyfriend #so

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akkivee · 2 months

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do you know how often these float to the forefront of my mind since they dropped???? does he know how well he suits jyushi???? does he know he’s on his way to ruining my life???? does he know—

#vee queued to fill the void #i’m sorry i haven’t gotten out my report on the bat cross talk lol i have an hour’s worth of content typed out #and no energy to type out the last hour 💀 there’s a brief after talk tho so i’ll talk about that one. uh eventually 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️#but during the cross talk sakaihara-san told us he and hayama-san got to talking about the new cast #and sakayori-san’s face eyes demeanour EVERYTHING was what he envisioned jyushi to look like and!!!!!!!! goddamn do i agree lol!!!!!!!#like sakayori-san’s vkei jyushi had me by the balls from that first visuals drop but he rocks baby jyushi too??????????????????#he’s so powerful???????????????????????????????????? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#nakanishi-san bless him i think needs to perform kuukou lol like if you ever wondered how hayama-san would act as an older brother/senpai #you get to see it almost every time nakanishi-san opened his mouth ITS OKAY NAKANISHI-SAN KUUKOU RESIDES WITHIN YOU TOO #I CAN TELL BECAUSE THAT ACRYLIC STAND IS MAKING ME FEEL INSANE YOU GOT THE ROLE OF KUUKOU FOR A REASON SIR OWN IT 👊💥#much like his seiyuu counterpart i think nakatsuka-san is well rounded and can very much keep up with his team lol #like he’s got this NO SWEAT i’m very curious how the play will turn out lol #c: jyushi

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shalegas34 · 26 days

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just got a prescription for drugs i had to sign for at the pharmacy. lets fucking go

#i had my specialist appointment today and i was DREADING it. everything was going wrong #the bus didn’t come. i didn’t have food. the doc was running an hour behind #by the time i got there i was half starved having a mild anxiety attack #but then she pulled out my ultrasound results and it showed fucking adenomyosis which means i likely have endometriosis too #let me tell you boys i almost started crying in there #after years of doctors telling me to suck it up & stop being a pussy i have actual proof that i’m not just being a pussy. CRYING #also the specialist told me my gp put me on estrogen for no reason (what i needed was progesterone) and i was so mad bc #that shit gave me feminising features i did not want and which are now irreversible #aside from not actually solving the problem…#anyway i’ve now got paperwork for surgery and different kind of progesterone pill plus the insane ass painkillers i had to sign for #i’m very happy with how that went. we are winning today boys #i feel bad for her bc i was so overwhelmed when she was flinging info at my starved brain at the speed of light #i kinda just shut down & was acting like a corpse in there. i must’ve looked really rude lol #it took me the hour’s walk back into town (was not taking the bus again 😂) to process everything #life

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brittlebutch · 9 months

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truly i’m so beyond insane about the Bill and Ted Musical song “Don't Surrender” that Bill sings when he thinks Ted got killed by the castle guard. i'm being so normal and okay about it tho i promise

#N posts stuff #look! i'm kind of insane about the whole album. Soldier's Heart and Future Dudes! especially also #but you have to know about me that i'm Eternally Haunted by that old version of the movie script where Bill -#before he realizes Ted isn't actually dead - calls HIMSELF a fag for mourning so hard #and so like. in the copies of the musical script we have the 'don't surrender' scene seems to have been omitted for whatever reason #but we know what scene it's for bc Linda Kay did an interview with the guy who wrote the thing and he told her it was that scene #so in my head like. not only is the song Alone enough to drive one to autistic shrimp emotions Beyond comprehension #but my brain superimposes that old movie script onto this song bc we Have no written scene for what it would look like musically #so in my head bill finishes That Song and then looks down at ted and calls himself a faggot for having sung it and i'm ...... just #it’s like. oughhhhhhhhhhhhhh dude i am LOOKINg at you i’m being so normal fuck #(<- he is not being even a LITTLE bit normal about it)#bnt

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kaidabakugou · 5 months

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coffee dates with your mom have you spilling all your dirty secrets without a second thought 😭

#kai.rambles #idk what this phenomena is but it’s apparently common lol #im gonna tmi in the tags like it’s a little face time call bc i’m waiting at the airport for my friend #but i had a little coffee date with my mom yesterday bc we both needed a little break since the family is STILL here and hasn’t left #and we just need this whole thanksgiving thing to be over bc we’re going insane with so many relatives in and out of our homes #so we went to a local coffee shop that just opened and it’s so cute btw and ITS PET FRIENDLY so i saw many doggies there #and can’t wait to take woody when this whole doggy virus going around calms down 😔#but anyway she saw that i was like fidgeting in my chair and ask wtf was wrong and i told her that i had a pimple on my ass cheek lol #and she was like how did it even get there like you take such good care of your skin??#and i was like idk it just appeared there 😅#and she was like - 🤨🤨 after your bday?#and i said like yeahhhh?#at this point i already knew she was onto me lol and we both laughed and she asked what did my bf and i do for my bday #so i told her and now she won’t stop laughing at me #for context - here’s the tmi lol - but my bf used whipped cream on me for my bday and we cuddled for a bit #afterwards with the intention of going to shower but we ended up passing out all sticky 😭#and i quickly took a full exfoliating shower in the morning when i realized but it was already too late and now i have a pimple on my ass 😭#and it’s like more towards the inside of the cheek so it fkn hurts everytime i sit down #and i was so paranoid after that instead of putting one boric acid capsule into my pussy i put two just in case #bc i was so scared that i was gonna get and infection of something but it’s been 4 days now #and nothing’s happening so i think i’m good but yeah i told her and now she laughs everytime she sees me or remembers it 😭#i don’t mind bc it’s her and i trust my mom and tell her everything but i never get into detail about my sex life #so the fact that THISSS is the one thing about it that i tell her it’s hilarious #so yeah and now whoever reads this monstrosity of tags knows too #and if you did read this then come here bc i’m giving you BIG WET KISSES and taking you out on a little picnic date 💓💓#and we can wear matching outfits and feed eachother desserts🥺

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balmungkriemhild · 3 months

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there is no male loneliness epidemic you guys just suck

#i saw A Post on my dash and it’s like. if you guys wanna be cooed and coddled so bad just fucking say it lmao #baby boy want a headpat? baby boy want a blankie? lmao #see if i talked about my problems growing up a girl i’d be laughed at and told i’m insane #both online and in person #what makes you so fucking different? what makes your loneliness so much more important than mine?#whatever. i’m not a man. i dont know shit. lol. lmao #vio.txt

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tiny-stack-of-knights · 1 year

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They’re posing for a painting or something… idk they’re just bein pretty (:

As always credit to @detonatethegemapples for her lovely Crowned Magolor!

#meta knight #Magolor #gijinka #crowned and knighted #my art #what if I told you this was originally supposed to be a shitpost 💀#deadass I actually really like how this turned out #the king and his knight! :)#rotating them in my brain #back at it again with the crowned and knighted heheheheh #I am so excited for rtdl dx when it comes out I’m going insane

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unknownarmageddon · 9 days

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daily hozier!!!

yeahhh hozier!!! yippee yippee

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daydadahlias · 10 months

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I saw this tweet the other day with an insane amount of likes that said something along the lines of “I don’t trust people that hate children, the most vulnerable members of our society” and a ton of comments were “those people are hands down pedophiles trying to overcompensate by saying they hate kids” and like dude ?? that is the most insanely batshit and problematic take I’ve ever read ?? People that don’t like kids are not automatically fucking pedophiles? What a dangerous and horrible thing to say??

No one has an obligation to like children. This whole automatic “maternal” “paternal” instincts shit simply does not apply to everyone and the only reason people think it does is because of the overwhelming emphasis society has placed on the necessity to bear children. But it’s time people just fucking deal with the fact that not everyone wants kids. And they don’t need to. People don’t need to have kids to have purpose on this earth. And the attitude of “you’ll understand when you have kids of your own” like no, I won’t. I have enough autonomy and sense of self to know that I don’t want children. Please stop assuming people want children. Please stop pretending people are supposed to have children.

I’m certainly not condoning grown ass adults who are cruel to children and belittle them or talk down to people who do have kids because that’s just not okay because, yes, kids are vulnerable and heavily influenced by attitudes around them. So, yes, adults do need to be kind to children so they grow up in a healthy environment even if they don’t “like” them but no one has an obligation or a requirement to want to be around kids.

I am not required by law to like children and people need to stop pretending like people who don’t want kids are some fucking danger to society just because they don’t conform to it.

#like what the fuck???#if a person doesn’t like kids they’re a PEDOPHILE??????#are people out of their fucking minds #sorry inspo via my nephew driving me insane today #and me telling my dad I don’t have the patience to be around him right now because I know I’ll get snappy with him #and I don’t want to be rude to him #and my dad acting like I’m a fucking monster #because I don’t want to be around kids #and I didn’t want to hold my sisters baby #and that makes me a fucking lunatic #like dude ?? I just don’t like kids I don’t know why I need to explain myself over that??#sorry I’m like so mad #I just hate being told I should have kids #and that I will have kids #and it’s always ‘when you have kids’ and not IF #like bro I have NO obligation or requirements to bare children bc I have a uterus #so you need to shut the fuck up #ok rant over #I know this has nothing to do with 5sos but also it kind of does bc #people are so fucking insane about mystal’s baby #and like expect everyone to be so over the moon abt it and like #and like can we just please stop pushing this narrative that babies and children are the be all end all #everyone has a different vision of their life #and not everyone likes or wants kids #so uh shut the fuck up thanks

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