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perfectlullabies · 1 year

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grandparents’ tombstone is up and it’s fucking marveloussssss

#what a relief #we cried at the cemetery #it's so gorgeous #so monumental #so elegant #all the other graves look silly next to it HEHE #god. i'm so glad it's done #we are rly happy with the results #there was so drama before we arrived. but in the end everything was ok. so it doesn't matter anymore #so glad #so so glad

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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2023 Saudi Arabian Grand Prix - Post-Qualifying - Oscar Piastri

#MY BOY IM SO HAPPY!!! ALL THE WAY INTO Q3 AND THEN STARTING P8 #but ah im so fkn happy bcs compared to what happened last wk this wk is absolutely crazy good results #mentally im quoting seb's post Brazil 2012 radio if you know you know #if he gets into the points tmr i *will* scream #btw he is the literal definition of puppy dog eyes #hes so sweet looking ;;;;#(i think atp i dont rly feel complete if i dont make highlight posts after watching quali/race or even fp so yeah)#(its kinda just how i conclude the event in my brain so pls take these as you will)#oscar piastri #op81 #f1 #formula one #formula 1 #2023 saudi arabian grand prix #we do a little bit of f1

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lobotomyladylives · 15 days

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literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!!#i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me''#i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal.#and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

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hues3ra · 1 year

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here’s the thing

#why can I not escape my past and move on from my ex #like ok sure it ruined my life #but who was supposed to know I was undiagnosed bpd with someone w bpd that didn’t tell me/was physically abusive when episodic #and that it wouldn’t permanently alter who I am as a person between my diagnosis as a result and all of the lovebombing/abuse before I knew #also didn’t know they had bpd until 4 years together and I wish I did so I could’ve been a better partner :/#but also we are so trauma bonded #and no one has ever loved me the same #no one else has written me 10 page love letters #no one else has understood me like him #I haven’t ever loved anyone like him since #but I think he hates me #and he’s moved on and I’m happy for him and hope he’s okay and happy like honestly I do #but I want a second chance so badly #if not with him just with someone who might actually see me and love me again #I think I just love to be abused tbh #I wish I could feel safe and loved again #I’ll always miss u but I get why we aren’t good for each other #I rly did try my hardest #maybe I was never beautiful enough to keep ur attention from the start #I’m just perma sad now #u won and maybe I’ll still kms but it will always come back to u #fuck #personal

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d3arapril · 8 months

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nsfw modern!ellie headcanons <3

i've been deep in a pit of reddit audios and this is the result. i love ellie. head = empty.

mdni 18+ only!

i will start by saying this - ellie is dirty and a freak.

spits on it, in ur mouth...she also likes it when u spit in her mouth when ur on top

literally the dirtiest fucking mouth!? angels have cried bc of the things she says during sex

whispers 'whose is it?' in your ear whilst she's digging deep into you from behind, hand in your hair to pull your back up to her chest

(doggy is her favourite position btw she told me)

i've briefly said this before but ELLIE WILLIAMS SUCKS TOES! I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYBODY SAYS!!!! your legs will be up on her shoulders and she will have a toe in her mouth. or she’ll start at ur feet, kiss up ur legs until she reaches ur pussy 🍴

speaking of pussy this bitch loves to EAT! “babe can you get me an i’m a munch tshirt?”

anything is an excuse to go down on u. had a successful grocery shop? she’s down there. finally cleaned the bathroom? she’s down there (in said bathroom.. and she is eating it from behind, face against the mirror u know what’s up)

strap queen.... sings trap queen by fetty wap and laughs to herself cos she just thinks of the word strap..she sings it to u often.. u get annoyed often "she's my strap queen...that's what u think of me right babe?" (and abby is a scissor queen...will i elaborate? maybe one day)

she's huge on eye contact, loves to stare you down and make you feel small

as serious as she is she can very often be rly stupid during sex too.. like she will randomly gasp and lean up from ur neck and ur like what?!? and she’s like i just remembered something in savage starlight.. i gotta read that when we’re done and then just carries on fucking u. she forgot to read the comic and fell asleep

growls and groans in ur ear, her voice gets super deep and raspy when ur fucking

“let me fucking hear you” “whose is it baby?” “tell me whose pussy this is” all up in ur ear. Yes Sir 🫡

speaking of sir.. i don’t think ellie rly likes being called anything else besides her name (controversial)

she is a super jealous as we know so only wants to hear her own name coming out of your mouth

speaking of jealous she gets jealous of the strap if u suck it so she doesn’t like u doing that anymore

tell u what she does like tho.. she loves it when u go down on HER. she never asks for it but ur always happy to do it and when u do.. she’s wriggling all over the place, hands constantly switching between being in ur hair, in her own hair and covering her face, squeezing at ur hands.. girl can’t control herself

that’s enough for now i think…i need to go stand in the rain🧍🏼‍♀️

#head go brrrr #goodness me #ellie williams #ellie williams x reader #ellie williams smut #the last of us smut #ellie #my writing

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honeytonedhottie · 13 days

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lets get jacked, manifesting challenge⋆.ೃ࿔*:･🗒️

this is a manifestation challenge to strengthen ur mind and ur mastery of manifestation. its mainly an affirmations challenge so if ur into that kind of stuff then great, but if any of this feels limiting to u then just take what resonates and leave the rest.

THE CHALLENGE OBJECTIVE ;

the objective of this challenge as mentioned before is to strengthen ur mind and to simplify manifestation for u, by building up ur repetition and persistence game just as though u were building up a muscle.

GETTING UR REPS IN ;

i want u to download an affirmations counter app where u can keep track of how much u consciously affirm. choose a set amount of affirmations that would equal a rep and keep track of how many reps u do daily.

set a goal for a minimum amount of reps that u wanna do in that day and see if u can meet those goals/exceed them. for me, 100 affs were equal to 1 rep.

MENTAL DIET ASPECT ;

if ur into body building at all u know that its not only the reps that u do that get u the physique u want, but also the diet so lets talk mental diet.

the strictness of ur mental diet all depends on u and ur circumstances and capacities so take my word with a grain of salt but me personally, i recommend a stricter mental diet.

i've already gone in depth about mental diets in this post right here so if u haven't already read that i recommend u should. for this challenge tho i recommend a strict mental diet and consciousness towards ur thoughts.

THE THOUGHT BEHIND THIS CHALLENGE ;

the idea behind this challenge is just to simplify manifestation bcuz a lot of the time we overcomplicate it for ourselves or we consume content that does so when in reality the easiest thing to do (at least in my experience) is to affirm.

i got inspiration for this post from @esotericc-angel's post about the easiest way to manifest and it rly encouraged me so i recommend reading that post and doing this challenge. i'd love if u reblogged this post with results from the challenge to encourage and uplift others in the loa community and as always, HAPPY MANIFESTING GIRLIES ✨

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bonny-kookoo · 8 months

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Lmao I'm rly fucking tired and accidentally almost posted this ask on my account for some reason instead of as an ask before I caught myself haha but anyways

Hehe so based on this google result about dogs, I was wondering about a drabble with sweet tooth jk buying or giving oc a plushie a few days or so after the first night as a way to comfort/distract her? Maybe he suggests she hold (or him lol) it if she feels lonely. Ur so cool and hope ur feeling good 🫶🫶🫶

Yoongi knows exactly what Jungkook is doing, even if the dog hybrid himself is unaware. You don't seem to realize it either- only Jimin is suspecting something going on as the dog hybrid watches with a wagging tail how you hold the soft lion plush close to you, one hand absentmindedly feeling the soft fabric of the short legs of it.

The lion isn't new at all. It's his- and he's been doing these things for a while now, ever since the camping trip.

Everytime you come over to Yoongis and Jungkook's place, he either drops one of his few plushies in your lap, or attempts to gain your attention in other ways- typically by taking you outside into the garden to look at the fruits he's growing.

You think it's cute- but you fail to really spot the underlying meaning of it.

Though, it's the same way the other way around- Jimin having noticed the way you sometimes push yourself into his side randomly when sitting next to him. Other times, like right now with the lion pillow, he can clearly see your hands grabbing the plush toy, before opening your palms again, just to dig your fingers back in.

Kneading.

And there's also, of course, your typical cat-behavior; from knocking stuff down just to catch Jungkook's attention back on you, to blatantly sitting on his lap even when he's clearly doing something.

"Jungkook likes her." Yoongi says to Jimin next to him, as they watch you push your shoulder into Jungkook's side, who's currently showing you a video on his phone.

"I mean, she seems to like him too. That was what we hoped for, right?" Jimin wonders, having to stiffle a small laugh under his breath when Jungkook has to lift his arms a bit, eyes wide open in surprise while you stubbornly climb into his lap, halfway leaning on him now, tail happily curled around you before you resume watching. The dog hybrid checks in with Jimin for a second with his big round eyes, before he seems to relax again, carefully positioning his arms again to resume the video.

"Hmhm. Though I think they like each other a bit more than we thought they would." The oldest human laughs, shaking his head before he resumes his cooking.

"Wait, you think-" Jimin starts, a bit caught off guard.

"It's pretty obvious. He's definitely head over heels for her, poor guy." He chuckles, turning the steaks in the pan. He's happy for Jungkook- you don't seem like a genuinely bad person at all, after all, you've started to become awfully soft for the dog hybrid, despite what you're saying and trying to portray with your acting.

Jimin, however, doesn't really know what to think. He's so used to your attention always being on him, that he feels a bit lost now. Do you not like him any longer? And if that's the case, can he himself deal with that?

He doesn't want to choose between Yoongi and you. Why can't he have you both?

#bts fanfic #bts imagine #bts fic #jungkook imagine #hybrid imagine #jeon jungkook x reader #jeon jungkook imagine #yoongi imagine #jimin imagine

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dragongirltongue · 5 months

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New Pinned post <3

Hi there, the name is Zelda, or one of like, 20 other names that may or may not be listed somewhere around here. If you know a name I go by that isn't findable here don't use it. <3

I'm bigender which is made up of girl and fem6oy, as such I use she/her and sometimes he/him pronouns when I'm feeling fem6oy enough <3

I'm in my 30s, not getting more specific than that until I decide it's not true enough to change it, don't try to find my exact age as I don't like sharing that information publicly, I don't even update it on my birthday <3

I'm a polyamorous bisexual voraphile freak and if you're over 18 you're welcome to talk to me about how much of a freak I am. I love to flirt and encourage it. Also happy to share my Other Blog with anyone interested, again as long as you're of age. <3

I'm a film graduate and currently working on doing something with that experience as well as working on a superhero comic and a 2D zelda style game. Feel free to bug me about any of those I love to discuss writing and media and want to encourage media literacy. <3

I'm also an ex-jehovahs witness and as a result I'm hugely into the holiday season in a very against my old god kinda way. Also big into sinning <3

Also I'm like, a dragon in probably an otherkin/thetadelta kinda way, like, it's core to who I am and how I understand myself so yeah. Despite this my fursona is a fox, the dragon in my icon is literally me <3

I also draw sometimes and when I do it'll be posted to @dragongirldrawings but always reblogged here too.

Also I'm a member of a plural system, feel free to check out the rest of the system over here @haven-sys <3

Further on the identity weirdness I'm an imaginary friend for the person who used to inhabit this body, they've been gone for like, over 20 years so it's not really relevant but I have started embracing my nature as a fictional creation, it's comforting.

Btw, if one of my posts containing my typing quirk ends up on your dash I take no responsibility for it. I use it in posts that are for me only and if they happen to resonate with others that's their choice to reblog.

So yeah that's me, hiii I love you all <3

this post is specifically a6out tum6lr user Zelda dragongirltongue

DNI list under the read more.

lmao imagine if I actually made one of those finally, that's how you'd know I've been replaced with an evil clone or something.

That being said if you're looking at my blog to send me an ask or dm about what someone gets off to please understand unless they're actively hurting someone I rly don't care. I have a lot of ignored and blocked anons about this.

This goes double if the person you're trying to alert me to is trans femme, we don't play that game here, especially given that I know I've been targetted for things as simple as engaging in vore the wrong way for some people or whatever.

Like, I just want to make it clear I rly don't give a fuck what another adult does in the bedroom, I rly don't care if the bedroom happens to include their blog and I rly don't care if they like to flirt about it with other adults on this website.

Also if your pinned post is a callout for anyone about anything it's likely to set off my paranoia around you, which is to say I will not be able to trust you if this is the case even if it's for someone who's actually a danger to a community, like, actively.

Like, this ain't a moral stance or anything, it's a mental health thing. I see that you want to make your first point of contact into a crosshair on someone else I'm gonna be scared you're gonna aim at me next even if it's completely reasonable that you'd never find anything objectionable with me. It scares me and I'm gonna spend every interaction walking on egg shells around you cos what if you're digging for dirt, like, I got no way of knowing.

Anyway as the opening joke implies I don't see any worth in having a list of things to not interact with me over cos the lived experience on this planet is so full of nuance and I've formed deem friendships with people who'd probably have avoided me if I had a DNI and they cared about it.

I think DNIs are dumb but this feels like a space to talk about some general limits on what I'm gonna put up with on this website. I'm just here for a good time with other freaks, anything else is optional. If you want to drag me into your discourse at this point then I guess this is whre I ask you to Do Not Interact. To anyone else, I love yall <3

If you've been directed here after sending an ask my way please apologize for wasting my time [here]

tl;dr DNIs are dumb but don't drag me into your personal grievances with others.

this post is still specifically a6out tum6lr user Zelda dragongirltongue

#6aaah #last updated april 28

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enbylucy · 1 year

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some established/living together nalu headcanons cause i miss them

one thing about them? they make everything an adventure. everything is a fun little outing.

gotta get groceries? let’s all go together and get lunch too. gotta stop by the guild? cool we should take the scenic route. cleaning the apartment? turn on the music and we’ll do it together.

they are INTOLERABLE together in public

constantly whispering and giggling and nudging each other, sharing inside jokes, lost in their own little world. it’s sickening

lots of petty arguments. it was your turn to do the dishes, who finished the last of the snack, you’re hogging the blanket, you got to pick the show last time, etc etc

the petty arguments usually result in lucy stomping around and huffing and natsu glaring at a wall for ten minutes before they both fold and start talking to each other again

they can’t watch movies together bc lucy always accidentally spoils the movie by making eerily accurate predictions. it pisses natsu off

natsu has a terrible habit of leaving all of his shit all over the house

shoes in front of the door instead of on the rack, clothes strewn across the floor, backpack in the middle of the living room, etc etc

lucy hates this cause she’s already clumsy by nature and the random obstacles on the floor just make it worse

natsu, early riser, waking up at 5am vs lucy, night owl, going to bed at 5am

also lucy who wears contacts/glasses and has negative vision vs natsu who could probably spot a bug from 20 miles away without squinting

lucy drools and natsu snores. a lethal combination. they’re terrible to share a bed with. happy hates them

they take bubble baths together sometimes. natsu doesn’t rly like them cause he hates the feeling of his skin getting all pruny but does it cause he likes making lucy happy

lucy loves bubble baths w natsu cause the water never gets cold!!!! it’s like her own personal hot tub

lucy always gives happy a lil kiss on the top of his head before bed and natsu started to demand them after awhile cause he felt left out

#natsu dragneel #lucy heartfilia #nalu #nalu headcanons

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k3woru · 9 months

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BSD 109 spoilers!

This detail of the scale in the new BSD official art with Dazai and Fyodor is more than life and death on a scale and let me explain why

I was inspired to make this even though i don’t use tumblr much (i want to now after twitter died) after reading @soupthatistohot ‘s post on BSD as an absurdist text - I found it rly interesting!!

To summarise it for context, “Absurdism is the belief that the world around us is irrational and inherently absurd and that explicitly seeking meaning is pointless … All of the animanga’s main characters are on a journey of discovering their meaning in life, and their place in the world, and they do this by rebelling against its absurdity — especially Dazai.”

We can think of the scale as an allusion to Shakespeare’s Merchant of Venice, where the scale has been famously used to represent the 1 pound of flesh with no extracted blood- essentially no violence or death- that is to be given in exchange for being unable to repay a loan - ultimately, an exact pound of your flesh being extracted would result in death. The scale in the official art depicts that ‘flesh’ in the form of a heart (a vital organ) is of equal weight to an angel wing. Presenting the angel wing which cannot exist in the real world, Asagiri utilises the fantasy elements of BSD to fully drive the possibility for the ability users to thrive within the non-ability world, ‘discovering their meaning … and their place in the world’. This is important because earlier as stated, BSD rebels against absurdity. Dazai’s side with the angel wing suggests his nature to rebel from the original narratives - to subvert our expectations and come out of this through his own means, using his ability for good. To be on the side that saves people.

The sheer fact something like an angel wing-a miracle, basically, from Dazai’s side is possible to resolve conflict and be of equal standing to the pound of flesh that was demanded to repay the loan is crazy. The pound of flesh/flesh on a scale representation has been seen in multiple pieces of media- within animanga, It’s seen in Moriarty the Patriot as a direct reference in one scene too!

Bringing this back to the scale itself, the skull represents mortality - important because multiple character’s mortality are at stake as a result of the present saga’s conflict. Skulls can also represent the opposite however, protection, power, and a gratitude towards life. Further if you wanted to draw upon the ideals of Memento Mori it’s just an overarching symbol that lies perched at the very top of the official art that reminds us that despite these character’s absurdist rebellions, nobody can escape death overall … well, maybe Dazai can here 🤷‍♀️

There’s a lot more I want to say about the official art’s intertextual symbolism… I love how BSD official artworks always have some dichotomy between the setting and the characters that prove something or else.

Let’s hope for a happy ending!!

#dazai #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd 109 #bsd fyodor #bsd manga #bsd manga spoilers #kafka asagiri #merchant of venice #moriarty the patriot #bsd official art #bsd analysis #bungo stray dogs analysis #totally not copium #sat0rugojo on instagram

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smokestarrules · 5 months

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hi! i wanted to ask u a question abt gwitch if that’s okay. during That episode 17, before miorine does the cruel/idiotic betrayal breakup she tells guel that she’s the same as him and also doesn’t want to lose her precious things. obviously she meant suletta but i was always confused, bc she’s still going thru with the backstabbing and pushing her away so she IS losing her precious thing unlike guel who with this deal is preserving his precious thing which is jeturk company by partnering w her. so they’re not the same in that sense OR did she mean 2 other ways: that she doesn’t want to lose the precious suletta she knows and loves to prospera’s manipulations that’ll turn her into a murderer, or that she means it like suletta will surely die on this path if it continues and she doesn’t want to lose her literally.

sorry this got long but i’m v curious how u interpreted that, like she said that and then goes and gives up her precious thing- unless it was the latter reasons i mentioned. also i’m realizing now it sounds like i hate miorine, i don’t, i get what she did and im nuetral/like her character but i never got the catharsis and resolution from that act bc of the rushed ending, and now i have this unresolved frustration and anger towards her that pops up sometimes when i think abt the 2nd cour.

i rly rly wish they’d gotten to talk abt this more during their reunion than just the one line “pulling u away from ur mom, it was all a mistake” like i desperately needed the words im sorry. i KNOW she probably said it offscreen but maaaan, i know u like this trope but break your heart to save them gets under my skin so badly i just want to shake the character!

this got long again i’m so sorry for the rambling, like i said i’ve got baggage from ep17 that imo didn’t pay off well enough to justify doing that. i still ship sulemio tho and am so happy they’re married, it just breaks my heart that we didn’t get more episodes to unpack that miorine acted exactly like her father. have a good day! thanks for reading all this if u did

To me it was both of the reasons you yourself mentioned: Miorine weighed her options, and ultimately decided that Suletta would be worse off if she didn't cut ties with her in the worst possible way. As a result, Suletta would be taken out of the most dangerous areas (re: Prospera also giving her up, as was the deal) and she wouldn't be further corrupted by Prospera either.

There just really wasn't any good decision to make. I love that episode because I think it's incredibly good character development for Miorine to be able to make that choice; she's always been somewhat of a selfish character and that's been shown alongside her protection of Suletta, so obviously this is a huge decision for her no matter what.

I would have also loved to see an apology, but unfortunately it's pretty clear that the tail end of the show was pretty rushed and while the scene we did get of their reunion was done incredibly well, there's a few things that they simply ran out of time for. In the end, I think I would have loved a true season 2 where they could flesh everything out more slowly and thoroughly, but I am happy with what we were ultimately given. You are absolutely valid to have some misgivings about how it all went down.

#mobile suit gundam the witch from mercury #miorine rembran #suletta mercury #sulemio #smokey answers #anonymous

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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2023 Bahrain Grand Prix - Free Practice 1 - Felipe Drugovich & Stoffel Vandoorne

#look. If I see a driver I like i am obligated to gif. I gotta.#idk yet if ill gif any of the race? maybe quali? but gifing live stuff is my personal hell so #i rly love the am boys i am always happy to see them :)#its satisfying a bit to be able to put 2023 stuff into my f1 gif folders since its been stuck as only being 2005 for more than a month #but anyways who else is hyped for quali??? nando pole ofc #id watch fp3 but i refuse to get up at 6:30 am ill just see the highlights here or watch it after #ive already written down the blank template for 'bahrain quali results' in my f1 notebook so you know im ready :)#bahrain 2023 gp #bahrain 2023 free practice 1 #felipe drugovich #stoffel vandoorne #f1 #formula 1 #we do a little bit of f1 #aston martin

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fr0gc4t · 5 months

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a ramble/confession, and some non-dualism tips

if u seem to already consciously know that ur god AND also think in limiting beliefs, ur not alone. i do it too. it’s way more common than u think.

sometimes we understand a concept and think it’s true, but our egos don’t think in the way that would actually comply with that concept, and that stops us from fully shifting into belief and freeing ourselves from ego. “belief” and “knowing” aren’t always the same thing.

prime example: YOU knowing that ur “desires” r already urs, and then ur ego switching the process completely and being like “so where is it?”. we all know that happens to a lot of ppl in the loa/non-dualism community. the ego is tricky bc its nature is to try and intimidate us. then we slip back into ego-based thinking. happened to me, and is still happening atm. and also i wanna remind ppl that, like healing, awakening to ur true self is often not linear. and that’s totally ok as long as u don’t give up. i was pretty much almost fully realized but then i let my ego get to me again and since then i’ve been trying to get back into that state but just haven’t succeeded at changing my thoughts/improving my self-concept (adhd is making it very difficult).

look. ik it’s kinda weird to have someone post a ramble abt FALTERING at living non-dualism. most of the time, we talk abt the opposite to remind ourselves if our power. but i think it’s important to be open and vulnerable when ur struggling, especially when other ppl could learn from ur struggle.

like i said. not getting i right the first time is OK AND NORMAL. ik ppl say “changing ur self-concept is effortless” but LET’S BE REAL FOR A SEC: that’s not true for everyone, especially neurodivergent/mentally ill ppl, and ppl with intrusive thoughts (i’m all of those, btw), bc our egos r EXTRA spicy.

awakening to ur true self as the god of ur reality is healing, and healing is HARD. in this case, since whatever we are aware of is true, it doesn’t rly have to be, but when u have inner demons, MY GOODNESS IS THIS SHIT DIFFICULT (but still sooo worth it, i promise u).

so good for u if it’s not difficult. really, i’m happy for u. i just also want to bring to light my situation, which is: hearing ppl say “changing ur self-concept is effortless!!” just made it harder to change mine.

I AM NOT TRYING TO SAY ANYONE IS SAYING THESE THINGS MALICIOUSLY. I’M LITERALLY SO HAPPY AND PROUD OF U OMG. i just think that the non-dualism community should be a little more vulnerable, bc FAILING IS NORMAL WHEN TRYING TO CHANGE UR MINDSET, ESPECIALLY FOR PPL LEARNING HOW TO MANAGE NEURODIVERGENCE, MENTALL ILLNESS, TRAUMA, INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY ETC.

AND THAT IS TOTALLY OKAY!!!

i see ppl say things like “i don’t want any limiting beliefs near this page!!!” when limiting beliefs and learning to overcome them r a normal part of this process and should not be shunned, and should rather be met with compassion and understanding. AND SOME PPL DO MEET IT WITH THAT!!! but there r also many who don’t. i understand not wanting to hear ppl’s limiting beliefs in some situations, but not being open to hearing them at all just creates more stigma around being vulnerable abt faltering in this journey and needing some further encouragement or advice. positivity is only good until it becomes toxic positivity. (AGAIN, NOT POINTING FINGERS AT ANY ONE PERSON. I’M TALKING ABT ALL OF US, INCLUDING ME)

my adhd makes it so hard to stick to a new habit long enough to get used to it. and as a result, i have faltered a bit. okay, maybe a little more than a bit. AND THAT IS OKAY. THAT IS NORMAL. THAT IS SOMETHING WE NEED TO TALK ABT MORE.

maybe these stuggles r an “illusion,” but that doesn’t mean we should pretend like we don’t have them. we don’t always have to put on a happy face and go onto tumblr and vaunt to try and fight the intrusive thoughts. if u know anything abt the psychology of intrusive thoughts, FIGHTING THEM DOES NO GOOD. we should accept them and let them be there, knowing that THEY CAN’T HURT US.

even then, they might stress us out. and that’s when we might need to vent. and venting is NOT a bad thing. sometimes it’s the only way i can cool off. but instead of venting into ppl’s inboxes, we should make our own posts, like this one, in constructive language (i suggest writing the angry/anxious stuff first in ur notes, then, when ur calm, rewriting it in a constructive sense and posting it on tumblr). we need more openness to sharing our struggles. mental health struggles r sooo real (even if our human minds r illusions), and we need to make the non-dualism/loa community a safe place to talk abt those struggles and see if anyone can relate, or maybe used to relate and has adivice.

being gentle and open to this conversation is just as important as affirming that we have what we desire. bc, well, if u have the struggle i have, or something similar, u know how difficult it is. hell, i even thought abt going back to loa and trying to get into the void instead of keeping on my non-dualism path bc i thought it would be easier(???) and now i realize that that doesn’t even make sense bc both of these things require improving ur self-concept, which is what i was trying to avoid.

THAT IS LITERALLY AN EXAMPLE OF THE THING I EXPLAINED AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS POST (which was supposed to be the main topic… i rambled a lot. oops.). i knew that i had to change my self-concept no matter what, yet i thought that getting into the void wouldn’t require that. sometimes the thoughts just don’t add up. and it’s bc of the ego! i actually only became aware of that now actually.

THE EGO JUST WANTS TO CONFUSE U AND TAKE CONTROL OF U. i’m just still letting mine have power over me… but now that i’m aware of it, i can try again, this time with a different perspective.

faltering is normal. not being able to change ur thoughts the first time is normal. having this kind of weird cognitive dissonance is NORMAL. THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO NOT GIVE UP, AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER.

you failed to change ur mindset and ended up spiraling? needing a break from trying to change it? i don’t blame u, this stuff is hard. it’s okay tho! what u need to do now (or when ur ready) is: FORGIVE URSELF AND TRY AGAIN. and don’t be afraid to start the conversation of “can anyone relate to this?” or whatever helps u.

we can do this. we can change our thoughts, even with any obstacles we may face, bc we are stronger than our egos. WE’RE GOD, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! we can do ANYTHING.

the first step is knowing that faltering is okay. next is realizing that our knowledge of who we are doesn’t always match our thoughts, and that that is the nature of our brains. the next step is forgiving ourselves and moving on.

hopefully this rant wasn’t too jumbled or confusing, i kinda just wrote it here without any planning lolz. i need to figure out a format.

and i hope some of u could relate to my struggle. be as open as u want in the replies. i will not judge. if u need to make ur own little rant, it’s fine by me.

also, sorry for being gone for a while. i don’t use tumblr very much anymore. i’m slowly falling away from all apps except pinterest, amazon and depop 😅 but dw, i won’t let myself fall too far. i luv tumblr and the non-dualism and loa community has changed my life and opened my mind in so many ways. even if i haven’t succeeded at getting all my desires quite yet, it’s okay. i will succeed. maybe not right away, but i will. and so will u. (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ

#this was a loooong post tysm for making it to the end!!#u have earned a cupcake for making it this far 🧁#archive ໒꒱ ⋆ﾟ⊹#non dualism #non duality #nonduality #nondualism #advaita vedanta #advaita #manifesting #manifestation #law of consciousness

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AHHHH I MANIFESTED MY DREAM GF WE LITERALLY GOT TOGETHER LIKE 5 MINS AGO IM STILL PROCESSING IT BUT I HAD TO TELL U CUZ UR POSTS HELPED ME SM.

i have been trying 2 manifest this mf being with me for like 2 weeks now but i was getting real exhausted and frustrated because i wasn’t seeing results in the 3d. i was legit one straw away from saying fuck you to manifestation and giving up forever ☠️ BUT my gut told me to try it one more time. and the funny thing is i didnt even have to do much!

before i was non stop on loa tumblr, listening to subliminals 24/7, tiring myself tf out. so what i did is i took a mental break for like 2 days and then after, all i did was live in the end. i’d just act like i’m already dating her. like whenever i bought a new outfit i’d be like “damn i can’t wait to show her this” or whenever my friends would tease me abt being single i’d just be like nope im not im dating her. then i started seeing results IMMEDIATELYYYY she started flirting with me out of NOWHERE, she started sending me couple tiktoks, BASICALLY BEING HELLA OBVIOUS THAT SHE WANTS ME. then rn she just confessed and asked me out i cant believe it i am SOOO happy. even my friends r shocked by how quick it happened.

to anyone struggling and feeling tired and on the edge of giving up, plz do what i did. take a deep breath, do some self care, take a break! u do not have to exhaust urself 24/7 obsessing over it. RELAX. also make manifestation fun for u. u will not see any results if u just feel depressed while manifesting like i did. for example in my case i rly enjoy art so i drew me and her as a couple to help me visualise. its way easier than u think guys. and tysm rae for waking me up ur advice helped me a ton. <3

congratulations bby!!!

#loa #success stories #success story

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soggypotatoes · 1 month

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recently i was having a long late night conversation with a friend and suddenly came to an acceptance that im asexual :0

ive been going back and forth on this for many years, bc i have childhood trauma it's hard to tell what's going on.. but i've realised that it doesn't really matter. whether it came from that or not, i don't think i really experience sexual attraction, in the end. i do think i like the idea of having sex with someone i love, and i would like that to be part of the relationship, but it's not really about sex, it's about being close to someone and sharing vulnerability. i never really took seriously that for some people sex is a Need that they can't do without lmao

another reason why i didnt id as ace was that i do feel like i would want that kind of intimacy if i was in a relationship - then i realised, hang on, it's not really sex.. i'd be happy with like.. anything that results in that deep vulnerability, really. i'm not really into kink, but if i was in a relationship with someone and instead of sex we engaged in kink or dom/sub or whatever, i'd be just as happy cause it'd result in the same thing (i might prefer that even.. sex is scary).

anyway this is prob tmi or oversharing or whatever it was just a nice thing to realise. i'm not rly gonna go around sharing my identity as ace because most people would assume that meant something that i'm not. but it's nice to realise this about myself

#ed mumbles

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inchidentally · 1 month

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ouuhh that's not…

I swear I read it three times and looked through their blog hoping they were joking alfhaslfkh nope

BUT I do not want anyone to engage with this so I'm hiding the link - not just because it's ridiculous but because the best way to confine rpf ship drama is to leave it alone. (edit: so I lied abt this asofgsalfga I did reply to one person but only bc they put it in the main tags) I don't rly like blocking but I also don't want to have to create a million filtered tagged posts on my dash - and tbh I don't think anyone I've blocked will care anyway. this way I can still see carlando content for fun but none of the fandom nonsense.

I'm mostly posting this bc up til now I rly wanted to set aside the behavior of the fandom to continue enjoying carlando content but I just can't be bothered anymore. between the larrying and the rampant, disgusting casual misogyny - and ofc the competing with which friendship or fake ship blorbo 1 and 2 are "happier" with asgfjsalfglja. and it's not just this latest thing I get sent tweets and posts abt whole agendas to "prove" that Lando isn't "happy" with Oscar/Martin/insert man who is currently considered threatening to their concepts of Lando's relationships. some ppl even friendzone Max F and Lando and pretend Carlos means more to Lando than him so there's no limits to the insanity.

so for me atp there just isn't enough about carlando to make it worth constantly being reminded that the way too many of it's fans truly believe that these are two men are either as close to each other as they are to their real, acknowledged close friends and/or in a secret gay relationship, that their girlfriend(s) are cold-hearted PR plants/escorts rigged by an evil all-controlling PR department and once the blorbos are freed of homophobic forces (oh god Carlos' old tweets tiktokboom) they can finally have the kind of toxic heteronormative version of a queer relationship that is right with the universe.

like, rpf is only meant to be for fun and more important it is meant to be kept away from anyone involved/the general public !! but when ppl's delu results in the actual women these men choose as their partners being at best aggressively cropped out of pictures and videos* and at worst stalked, harassed, their families and employers harassed, abuse and slander left in comments sections on popular social media and team pages - yea carlando laughing together sometimes and slowed down bro hugging isn't enough lol

it’s also slightly the fact that if you picked a bunch of Lando’s reactions to Carlos and Daniel and no one knew context clues then no one would be able to tell which one he’s reacting to. Carlos/Daniel teases Lando, Lando shriek laughs and goes red, James Corden style gay innuendo, slightly tense undercurrent of men wanting to one up each other with jokes, iterations of bromance that are half sincere and half for the cameras, hashtag hashtag. Lando goes to Daniel's ranch on a whim, dando is special. Lando goes to Carlos' sister's huge society wedding, carlando is special. Lando's family likes Lando which makes carlando special. Lando and Daniel share mutual friends outside of racing which makes dando special. like, it's the same dynamic just rotated around at different times. I enjoy both ships to a certain degree but I'm kind of mystified at ppl choosing to see them as super deep and meaningful and worth fighting over.

side note g o d do I fully embrace that ppl who do these ship competitions and larrying nonsense have ZERO interest in landoscar bc we love Lily and support Lando in his many probable conquests - and bc the Lando and Oscar dynamic isn't a big bromance for the cameras and has no fake gay for fangirl consumption.

like yes pls absolutely consider landoscar inferior to carlando if it means they stay away from inventing conspiracy theories and saying they "just have a bad feeling" about Lily and start attributing everything Lando has achieved to his teammate instead of himself.

also I could be SO incredibly mean using charlos vs carlando and the difference between PR and the public trying to tear one apart but it persisting vs PR and the public being a major factor in the other persisting at all. or the fact that charlos does everything ppl want carlando to do. but there's no point spending more time on people who think that two adult men - who've both said they're as much rivals as friends and the bromance is more what the public sees - are laughing in metrically different and lesser degrees of happiness with their new teammates vs a former teammate.

like, as long as I can now not be exposed to those opinions then they have a perfect right to express them. god knows I'm not saying my blogs is worth a damn but at least I don't trash anyone's gf or try to stunt on other rpf ships for no reason

tl;dr I'm p much done trying to make carlando worthwhile for me to rb or post about. I enjoy seeing it on my dash for myself but that's it! no one will be affected by this change lafhlsahf

*I know there are a few ppl out there who do this bc they have a no-private life policy on their blogs and that's np. they aren't die hard carlando fans tho.

#inchreplies #wank adjacent #<- tag to block to avoid seeing these in future!#why do ppl want to constantly push things that get proven wrong #like just enjoy your ship and stop trying to edge it closer to them dating irl by competing w other ships it isn't happening #for reference

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