#venting ignore this

[stephlastname]

Venting under cut

I used to be somewhat happy. Somewhat.

I used to be able to laugh at stupid videos online. I used to smile every time I saw my birds. I used to enjoy cooking, writing, drawing and taking walks. I used to be content with my body and how it looks. I used to enjoy playing games. I used to feel happy whenever I was with my family and friends.

Now I don't react at all to funny videos any more. I don't smile at my birds that often any more. I don't like doing the things I used to enjoy, any longer. I can't look at my body without wanting to cover it in gashes and blood. I don't play games any more. I don't feel happiness very often any more.

I gave myself up completely for them. Locked in my house awaiting their texts because if I didn't answer immediately they guilt tripped me. Made me feel like shit. Gave me anxiety. Gosh, they gave me so much anxiety. Made me feel like the most terrible person. Had to change myself so much for them. I broke myself apart and shattered myself to the point I don't recognize even a single piece of myself any more. Who am I, now? What am I? What do I do? What's my purpose? How do I get better? I want to get better, I truly do. But all of this had been going on for so long, I don't know if I can find my way back. I can't find a light in this seemingly endless darkness.

Why did they make me this way? Why did they make me change and break myself to this point?

Please. I don't want to die. I want to live. I know I want to. But I don't know how to, any more. They've made me live solely for them and made my life about them for so long, and now that I'm finally free, I don't know anything any more.

I don't know who I am any more. Please, someone take my hand and guide me. Please, I don't want this to be my end. Not yet.

#venting ignore this

[funhouse-mirror-barbie]

I just. I don’t really want to keep talking about it, but I have to get these feelings out because the more I think about Somerton’s excuses video the angrier I get, ESPECIALLY given his insistence in the video that there isn’t a real community within LGBTQ spaces—specifically this quote; “We wanted it to be a channel where every queer person could feel welcomed... And we failed at that. That is something that, in hindsight, I think is impossible to create.”*

Because wow! Aren’t you the one who called Becky Albertalli, a bisexual woman, straight ?? Aren’t you the one who has consistently stolen queer and lgbtq people’s work as your own , profiting off of their labor and research and time? Aren’t you the one who sicced your fan base on smaller creators who noticed your plagiarism??? Aren’t YOU the one who LIED blatantly about lesbians “historically having it easier” than gay men ?? That LIED about Radclyffe Hall’s book being banned and destroyed???? What was it you said?? That she got to go on with “her merry little life”???

Fuck you. How dare you.

How dare you say there is no community, no safe space for all of us, when you have literally done NOTHING but maliciously and consistently stolen from, lied to, manipulated, and put down and bullied the community.

You have done nothing but try to break apart and put down your lgbtq siblings, so of course you believe that solidarity, safety, and intersectionality within our community is not something that can exist.

There are lgbtq people who are actively working to make those spaces, where everyone feels welcomed, but you clearly see yourself as being above that, above collaboration and community, above listening to other’s experiences.

You only think that a space where all queer and lgbtq people are welcomed and feel safe is impossible because your goal was never to carve out that space. It was to make money and take advantage of the people who looked up to you.

You think it’s impossible because you never once thought about the people you were stealing from, never once cared about the community, our history, the activism of our elders and all they did, never thought about how your actions and lies would hurt the community.

Stop making excuses and lying. Be fucking better.

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*(Somerton, James. “A Measured Response.” YouTube, uploaded by James Somerton, 26 February 2024, https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kCNByQ6WopM)

(And that’s how you cite a FUCKING source, James. It took me a minute, after two seconds of research on how to source a YouTube video. Fuckhead)

*I added the link to the video to make a point, as you need to have it in citations. The video is monetized, so please either don’t click it and watch elsewhere OR watch with ad-blockers.

#james somerton #LGBTQ #lgbtq community #fuck off james fuCK OFFFFFFFF!!! #lesbian #im a lesbian and im so fucking mad at him ignoring the historical solidarity there was between gays and lesbians #so mad at him erasing people’s experiences and stealing #I’m so glad I never fucking saw this guys videos #hbomberguy #media criticism #funhouse convo #funhouse vent

[dreampearls]

three of them

#genshin impact #tighnari #cyno #collei #m #my art #i was going to like.. extremely fully render this but then i got tired . Sorry collei that you got the brunt end of my burnout #anyways :-] glad to finally be posting this. im a tighnari hair vent truther for life now #ignore that i drew him flipped. Okay. his design was always like that . Okay

[itty-bitty-sunshine]

Late night talk

#Ignore the cut on speech bubble it was vent #i just really liked how moon turned out despite this being a 3am doodle #not au related #dca fandom #doodles #dca fnaf #dca moon #self insert #sunshine draws

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i swear im normal if u ignore my extreme mood swings, my debilitating attachment issues, the heavy urge to self destruct and the never ending yearning to feel truly loved despite it all

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd #bpd fp #bpd shitposting #bpd vent #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #actually borderline #bpd problems #if you just ignore all that i’m definitely normal :)

[flipomatic]

#rwby #rwby volume 9 #rwby volume 9 spoilers #weiss schnee #rwby 9 #spoilers #weiss being the comedy relief again #it's happening more now since ruby is in MOURNING #I wish one of these characters #blake it should be blake #would freaking take a few minutes to ask ruby how she's feeling #and let her vent some of that sadness off a bit #or at least comfort her and show that they care #but they're just pushing onward and ignoring it #idk if it's an issue with episode time #or a plot point for later #but a little more emotional intelligence would be appreciated lmao

[gizzberg]

Recently, I have been feeling a bit down and lonely because none of my friends want to play TF2, and playing TF2 alone kind of sucks out the fun for me. Don't mind my ramblings, because the reason is a bit childish. Anyway, I made this SFM because I was feeling cringey and sad.

#just ignore my venting #tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 medic #tf2 oc #team fortress 2 medic #Wilfred Wenrich #Wilfred “Papers” Wenrich #sfm #source filmmaker #my art #my oc

[neonross]

IDk i don normally vent it doesnt make sense cuz i was upset while making this

errr- oof-

#small vent #just ignore

[stephlastname]

Just like that i threw all those days,, months, away. Just like thay

#venting ignore this

[what-aboutno]

Big brother things

#zara's art #ragbros #this is platonic btw if you didn't get the message #diluc ragnvindr #diluc #kaeya alberich #kaeya #wait this might be the first comic ive ever posted online :0!! #yeah hope you enjoy i speedran this for i could get it out #also this was for practice 👍 #oh fun fact this is all in Diluc's pov but that fitst dialogue is in black rather than red because its both of them thinking it :) #this is technically vent art because i wrote this while being incredibly sad at 3am but we can ignore that

[hoofpeet]

"Touch grass" Oh sorry you had to see one post implying that I might have any personal life beyond mindlessly pumping out content for you to enjoy. Forgot my job is to spend all my time making cutesy bullshit to post and then slink back into the shadows lest you have to acknowledge that I ever have personal issues. Eat a dick

#i hope you are uncomfortable !!! how long have i been making “art” with no complaints . #8 years with nary a vent post #you don't get to take all the work i spend hours on while ignoring that i'm even slightly upset about anything #it's not made for you fuckface you don't get to criticize my internet presence

[sibmakesart]

luckily there was a half bottle of cooking wine left in the fridge

#HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA no i wont be seeking help lol ignore me #tw alcohol #tw alcoholism #sib is a DUMBASS #r u surprised #art #artists on tumblr #digital art #self insert #ig #personnal #vent #ig ??? #idk #i still dont know lol #im 2and half glasses in just ignore whatever comes out of my mouth. keyboard. whatever #ngl as an atheist i think the second step is bs so

[pigeontakeover]

Literally fuck all of you, a trans woman gets killed and the entire website gets flooded with information about it. And then a teenage trans guy who got kicked out of his parents house for being trans gets murdered on a date by a transphobe, and the ONLY people I see talking about it are transmen. Most of the posts about this kid have under 100 notes. Will someone PLEASE care about transmen? And the news is already burying it as "violence against women". I've already seen one of the stupid fucking TERFS on this website say they're glad he got killed because "all men" or whatever

And if i keep having to deal with seeing stupid fucking transandrophobia deniers be all like, well transwomen have it WORSE than transmen sweaty :) tmen have male privilege (: how about yall shut up

#omg im the op #transandrophobia #vent #if i have to be a one person news outlet to talk about this poor kid and put him on some peoples radar i fucking will #im tired of us getting erased and the violence against us ignored

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the artblock be hitteth Harder than normal, for tis not normal artblock. woe. Wally be upon ye

#im still So Inconsistent when scribbling him #he never comes out the same way twice #but then again. do any of us? #anyway i think the Misfortune of the past week finally killed my brain #its a tiny smoking poppy seed resting in the middle of my skull floor #too much all at once. cant art anymore #i keep pulling out my tablet and setting up to draw #and then i stare at the screen feeling mild to intense discomfort #i try to scribble. it comes out Horrible. #i put my tablet away and go stand in the middle of the kitchen #i come back to scroll on tumblr #i feel Despair. rinse and repeat #scribble salad #is it distressing? yes! one more to add to the ever-growing pile! #i need to start pre-packing for my inevitable move #sigh... dont wanna go.... #but its not like i have a choice! i quite literally have a single option which is to say! no option at all! #apparently if im in a constant state of severe stress for long enough my creativity completely breaks. shattered right down the middle #too exhausted. the Despair is too strong #and once again i am accidentally venting on a scribble post! sorry! please ignore this im just Saying Shit

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i use dissociation more than anything i’ve ever learned in my 10yrs of therapy

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #dissociation is my favorite coping mechanism #that and avoidance #i love avoiding my problems until i can’t take it anymore and have a full blown breakdown about it #it’s easier to go through life ignoring everything that’s bothering you until it all just explodes one day #idk maybe that’s just me tho #right after every breakdown i feel like shit tho cuz i usually freak out everyone around me but i don’t know how else to cope #even tho i’ve had 10yrs of therapy nothing else worked for me #so dissociation it is babyyyy

[teaboot]

Kink at pride, drag queens, traditional family values, blah blah blah. I'm washing laundry and listening to my radio shows and stitching together a body harness on my sewing machine. I've worked at a dungeon and I've worked at a sunday school and nothing matters and we should all calm down. Put on a garter belt and go to the fucking farmer's market. Fucking hell

#Vent post #Jesus just be aware of where you are and act appropriately its not rocket science #Drag queens aren't stripping during story time at the public library how did this become a huge deal #I'm so tired #Poking the hornets nest #Jesus christ just ignore me