#unhappy either way

[dannydevitosdiary]

Ok well to be fair he was always like this

#unhappy either way #poor dude #simon petrikov #ice king #Adventure Time #AT #fionna and cake #cartoon network #hbo max #adventure time simon

[thatscarletflycatcher]

The more the time passes, the more convinced I am that a reading of Jane Eyre that omits the theme of mercy as key to the story is incomplete at best and bad at worst.

#jane eyre #i think this is at the root of all the insidious and useless darcy vs rochester comparisons #because ultimately the wrong Austen heroes do is forgivable #the effects of their sins are more or less easily reversable #such as Darcy's pride and rudeness or Wentworth's pettiness #there is mercy being served with atonement #but it isn't a radical mercy #which I think is the point in Jane Eyre #Rochester's attempted bigamy is beyond justification #it can only be understood as sourced in stupidity and immaturity rather than in true wickedness #it can also be understood as part of the way he was raised up and the sins of his own father #but cannot be justified #Rochester can only be either hated and shunned or loved and forgiven #there's no possibility of indifference #the characters that create the most unhappiness to themselves and others in this novel are those who live without mercy #and those who act with mercy the opposite #Rochester's redemption is possible because he has shown mercy to others #at least sometimes like Adele and his first years with Bertha #st John can have everything in his favor and yet his mercilessness makes him a figure of fear for Jane #Jane's deliberate choice to show mercy again and again IS essential to the story #Jane Eyre is a bildungsroman AND a romance because of it #readings that seek to turn Rochester into a complete forever villain #i.e. he is a liar and he actually tortured Bertha into madness #are ultimately readings that want a reason to reject any sort of mercy for him #by making him incapable of good and repentance

[cerise-on-top]

Fasching with König

Because today is Faschingsdienstag, I just had to write something for him on that day! Today is the only day I can post this, afterwards I'll have to wait over a year again! Fasching is an Austrian holiday that is essentially the last day before fasting for 40 days, so people go all out with food and drinks and festivities, they even dress up in costumes! It's not nearly as fancy as what some other countries have, but it's tradition! Besides, who am I to say no to a Krapfen with König!

Mentions of alcohol, but König is Austrian, so what did you expect?

First off, he hates going to the city during that “holiday”, there are far too many people, the crowds are way too big and it’s too loud for his liking as well. The only reason he’s taking you to the city on that day is so you can experience more of Austria with him. At least that’s what he tells you, in reality he just really wants to go eat a Langos or two and drink a few beers. No one would judge him for that on Fasching, there are crazier bastards out there than him. He’s never been a fan of Fasching, not even when he was a kid. The only reason he looked forward to that day was because he could go home from school earlier than usual. But other than that Fasching had always irritated him. He was never one for playing dress up either.

He couldn’t say he was surprised when you came up to him, demanding for the two of you to dress up as something. The most König would do on his own would be to put on a pair of bee feelers on top of his head, but he would never consider putting on a full costume. Not only was there a chance people would stare at him, but he’d feel awkward as well. Besides, which place would actually sell a costume in his size? Not a common one. You’d need to be a bit annoying for him to put on more than just bee feelers. He’s more willing to play dress up with you as long as you put on something as well, though, even if it still wouldn’t be anything too fancy. If he can find one, he might put on a Winnie the Pooh onesie, but only because it’s somewhat comfortable, somewhat warm and because there are weirder people than him out there.

He’d hate seeing the Faschingsumzug, but he’d tolerate it just for you so you can see all the wagons together and comment on all the costumes. The music is far too loud, there are people surrounding him on every side and he still hasn’t had a single drink yet. Tragic. You might wanna hold onto his arm before you’re being swept away by the crowds. Although König usually isn't one for PDA, in this case he’d prefer to keep you close. It keeps him a bit calmer and you’re not getting lost in a city or town you barely know. You can drag him around all you want, though, he’ll comply, even if he might roll his eyes a bit whenever you wanna go take a closer look at some of the other costumes and wagons. However, get ready to be dragged to one of the nearest stands for a few Langos. They’re not amazing, nothing special in the slightest, but they’re not bad either. He’ll pay for them, naturally. You can choose between a regular Langos, a Toast Langos or even a Käsekrainer Langos. König will likely have eaten all three due to his massive appetite, but you’re more than welcome to take a bite out of them as well.

Once it’s finally getting a bit later and the masses are starting to disperse, that’s when König will be a bit less grumpy. He gets to finally go to a bar with you and drink to his heart's content, his highlight of the day. You can drink whatever you want, from soda to Pago, from Spritzer to Jägermeister, he’ll always go for a few beers. While he might seem a bit grumpy at first, once he’s had his first beer he’s a bit more cheerful, König just really hates big crowds. However, he got to spend another day with you, which is all he could ever want. While you’re sitting at the bar he might take out a few Krapfen for the both of you to enjoy as well. Might joke about getting some Heringsschmaus with you the next day, even if you don’t like fish. It’s tradition, it’s part of the Faschingszeit, but that doesn’t mean he’s a big fan of it either. No, he much prefers the Krapfen you can eat during Fasching. Not big on fasting, he loves beer and meat too much to give up either of those things and won’t even do so if you ask him to. He’s a simple man, he knows what he wants and he knows what he likes. You can pry his Schweinsbraten from his cold dead hands, and even then he’d put up a fight.

Although König loves spending time with you, he will be glad once Fasching is over and once you finally voice the thought of going home. He’s tired from all the people and the alcohol makes this situation only slightly better. Even so, despite all of that, he’s looking forward to the next holiday, proper or not, he can spend with you. Due to him having drunk some beers, he’ll likely stay in bed a bit longer the next day. A perfect opportunity to snuggle up to him for a bit. Afterwards you can discuss what you would like to eat together.

#cod #cod x reader #könig #konig #könig x reader #konig x reader #I was so unhappy when I had to go through town today and there was no way through so I had to go around town to get home #I was so incredibly pissed about that #but hey my father made Gulasch today! and he put a blueberry quark strudel in the oven! it was so creamy and good! #so food wise today was amazing for me! #I even wore some cat ears at wok. the other apprentice and me were the only ones who “dressed up” today which was a shame #even though he only wore devil horns and that's it so nothing big either #but there are people who dress up entirely! but you barely see couple's costumes here. I saw none today in all honesty #I saw a lot of ladybugs though! a few bees! piglets! sunflowers! #it's a colorful festival! but a lot of people drink on this day so not a lot of them will be at work tomorrow! good #the only reason König would love this holiday would be because of the beer #you guys don't understand just how much alcohol Austrians drink we're far far above the EU average #the state I live in is far above the Austrian average as well my father told me today #so yeah we drink lots and lots of alcohol. beer for the most part but Spritzer is also really popular. Spritzer is superior though #beer is just disgusting and gross. I've tried it once and it was so bitter. but this is coming from someone who likes Jägermeister haha #I didn't get a Krapfen today though which is so incredibly sad :( Maybe some other time but it won't be a Faschingskrapfen :(

[bitchpack]

Honestly the amount of people i've seen basically couch diagnosing taylor with like hysteria a mental breakdown/other mental health issues just bc you're not happy with her choices is like. Not it lol. Like seriously don't accuse people of having mental health issues especially when they're not giving any indications that its the case and it wouldn't be any of your business even if it was

#especially since the ppl sayibg this are the same people that are like ITS WRONG TO SPECULATE ABT SOMEONES SECUALITY lol and its not wrong #to accuse them of being mentally ill??? #like if you're unhappy with her dating matty either hold her accountable or don't but either way she's afaik a grown woman making her own #sane decisions don't act like thats the case #not* #also especially if its a woman you're accusing making her seem unhinged is gross when the person you're actually unhappy abt is the man

[spherekuriboh]

the difference between the triumph in 'i found you!' and the shame in 'you've found me.' is proof enough!!!

#distext #i feel strongly enough abt this one to tag it #the silt verses #youve found me and the god i unwittingly fed-- it was never yours but it was mine and you stayed because you found me. #blah blah the narrative twists to incorporate the listener's hopes and desires for a happy ending blah blah #but the god is not capable of denying the rapture in the journey. it is in fact all it has to offer. #sebastian being unhappy *now* doesn't mean that the god is unfed. of course not. the journey is eternal. #but the lingering doubt would not have been centered upon his lifelong traveling companion. because that *spoils it!* #there is no journey in staying here. staying here is an ending. and the other narrative can't bloom with such a shadow hanging over it. #hope exists. of course it does. it must. but it isn't like. saccharine and revisionist. #not the decision to stay in the place of potential and never see and ending through. #dev calls him sebastian. whether it's an attention check (are you listening?) or a slipup back to formality it is a fuckup. #in much the same socially inept way that 'let's stay here' was such a desirable idea for your lover this morning you dont even consider NOW #elephant. elephant is what i meant. #anyway. meta fodder for the listener (i dont have the commentary but ive seen the phrase 'coin-flip') vs. watsonian social interactions. #........ frankly i dont think that sebastian gave enough of a fuck to pick a winner between hayward and carpenter either but that is just m #i think there's probably something smart to say about how moving forward this season involves nothing but uncertainty #where even following the cairn maiden to an assured ending leaves the pulsing question of when #but man im just upset. gay sex saved the day solved the mystery and now we're going back to get shotgun married to dodge the draft #if you dont have your own insurance plan your spouse's is fine. #sorry. what was i talking about? #right. there isn't a joy in this. there is no definite moment where the hurt- this trauma. the fog.- would pass and settle into comfort. #and among all of the promises and threats. it would only hurt for a moment. #nope! congrats. scarred for life you have to keep on living and difficult conversations you have to keep on having and continued awkwardnes #can't catch me suicide metaphor i'm gay as fuck. anyways #podcast tag #tsv spoilers

[aq2003]

there comes a beautiful time in life where i have to ask myselg th question, "did i accidentally project too hard onto the character that i only relate to a little bit and in doing so hugely missed this one entire aspect/interpretation of the characters . am i stupid"

#ARE THEY STUPID! #dr who #this is about ten specifically his relationship w martha lmao #m being so serious i genuinely did not. see the 'ten was on purpose leading martha on to make her think her feelings were requited' angle #until going out into the wild and reading the tumblr posts. like i genuinely did not. at ALLLLLL. its like a brick hitting my head #bc the ENTIRE time s3 ten came off to me as 'doing stuff w no romantic intent behind it but would consistently get misinterpreted as such' #cuz IIIIIIIII have done this. IIIIIIII have run into this problem before. and it sucks so incredibly bad. #i actually do want to think my og interpretation still holds water cuz like. well i could gather all the evidence but #first one that comes 2 mind would be him going 'it's like when you fancy someone + they dont know you exist' to martha. in episode TWELVE #two routes; either ten is needlessly cruel and callous even after a season's worth of building up trust and friendship w her #or he is on super 'i dont think she has feelings for me and this is a very unhappy coincidence of a line' cocaine #Or the 'she fancied me' line in s4 to donna. either he is disregarding all the good and positive impact she did him. or the fact that this #went over his head the whole time made him look back on that time w discomfort <- I DID THIS. I MIGHT HAVE BEEN PROJECTING #THIS ONTO HIM. AM I STUPID.?.????? #you know how mikage rgu can either be read as an incel or a gay man lost so completely in the sauce #ten is like in this same ballpark. i think. of 'emotionally manipulative and disrespects women' or 'aroacespec and missed the cues' #funniest possible options to pick from. ten my brother how did you set yourself up like this #absolutely not denying that he was toxic and unhealthy during s3 in like 500 ways btw. but well. ths is the one concwpt that #flew over my head. so completely. and i can kind of see it now but i also still find it hard to incorporate into my belief system #bc its like. brother I'M aroace and missed the cues too lol #tangential note we can trace many problems down to a writer's room filled w white people not giving #martha's character the respect/agency she deserves for the existing narrative she has. bc they pulled this w mickey too both in series 1+2 #if they wanted to portray ten as manipulative then him and martha should've been given more screentime #together where martha (or anyone else) calls him the FUCK out on this. and ten would need to suffer narrative consequences of doing smth #as fucked up as that rather than his happy stable dynamic he has w donna. if they wanted to portray him as oblivious then marthas character #shouldn't have constantly been boiled down to an unrequited crush (particularly her dialogue in the s3 finale - there's a LOT more reasons #why she would choose to leave/why their dynamic was unhealthy besides ten not returning her feelings) #if you read all these tags you may be entitled 2 financial compensation #ten and martha #aspec doc tag

[thelightatendwasaflamethrower]

Considine’s portrayal of Viserys is so tragic because Viserys is clearly trying to be a good man. He’s not evil nor even truly weak. He’s simply just not strong enough for the enormous burden of being king. He’s an ordinary man who tries and fails to meet extraordinary circumstances.

#Viserys is wild because he either can’t make the right choices or can’t execute the right choices in the right way #but I can’t hate him because honestly I’d be the same LOL #constantly fucking up under the strain of a kingdom and an unhappy family #not saying that simply trying is enough #but gosh it looks so lonely being him #he’s so close and yet so far #tv #house of the dragon #hotd #asoiaf #got

[aroacehanzawa]

saw someone say that kazuki's backstory about his ex-wife felt like just a filler sub-plot in this episode, and i have to respectfully disagree

#the whole point was that he's been afraid to change and afraid to seek happiness elsewhere and only hanging onto her memory #he said it himself #and until he accepts the past and accepts to change himself and move on with his life the plot wont be able to move forward either #we've seen him take the steps to be more responsible for miri and all. and now is the next step for him to also be 100% emotionally present #which he is able to do after getting closure thanks to his sister-in-law. and it ties in well with the family dynamics plot too #because he's not just playing house anymore .he needs to be there fully for miri .and rei also needs to realise a similar thing #that he needs to put effort into the family #anyway it was in no way 'filler' and i do suspect whoever wrote that post might just be unhappy about kazuki being given such an important #and emotional straight marriage backstory. some people are weird like that #buddy daddies

[derpinette]

i have a weird relationship with weight because i hated eating more than anything the moment i was ready for solids ( i hate chewing with my entire life always have & will ) which made me underweight for most of my life ( to this day ) & during late primary-middle school this made me actively suicidal because i felt like something was wrong with my sex because i just was not developing whatsoever prompting me to have a years long phase of trying to gain weight in any way i could ( #EPICFAIL by the way ) & i was already insecure but i felt seriously so unforgivably ugly after bullying not just at school but by adults of my entourage. but then i did in my late 15s which prompted the pendulum to swing in the other direction & suddenly i FREAKED OUT & thought well being skinny is pretty much all i have & know myself to be & clearly it is not going to last forever so i Better preserve it i was delusional about how skinny i thought i was actually i look stumpy & weird i have to prove myself. But now i am normal again kind of

#also i used to get beaten to finish my food nearly daily & it would take me forever to do that like literally hours with no exaggeration #just made me hate eating even more. now my technique is eating as fast as possible before i even realize how overwhelming #the sensory experience is & i can just be done with it VS the pain&dread of eating slowly -> disgust of Everything+hyperawareness #eating tightens my muscles like i hate it so fucking much catching the food putting it in my mouth CHEWING swallowing #what a damn chore #so i always liked cheese it was my “safe food” pretty much the only thing i liked #i even hated the foods autists usually like like fries & fried chicken meatballs ETC. HATED. #i was/am more of a soup & turning all my food into varieties of Slop kind of girl nothing hard for me please... #i experienced middle school during the like ♯Thick era of the world which was honestly a good thing like for The Populace #but i felt like killing myself because i felt like an unforgivable fugly genetic failure & people did not hesitate to let me know #anyway either way i would be unhappy caus if i did gain weight during puberty i would have a meltdown about all the Changes #so i feel content for the time being about only losing the fat in my face & getting age appropriate wrinkles really #trying to enjoy the privilege of thinness while i have it because it will not last forever 0_0 but that should not matter anyway... #the privilege of thinness: being way uglier than others & constantly looking like a gibbon dying of disease + no energy or strength ever #JK people are much MUCH nicer to thin people & they do things for me on account of looking physically incapable so um yay i guess #light at the end of the tunnel that is very significant in the grand scheme of things socially. ♯CountingMyBlessings #also i was raised on ♯HAES tumblr from 2014-2018 i truly believed in that & was so damn envious i was not curvy & beautiful LOL #so i never hated overweight people really i think for the most part the SJW tumblr values stuck with me #but now i know it depends on your base frame & genetics & there is no guarantee to what you choose to do (naturally) acceptance is peace #sorry for the gigantic Arse post i just needed to get that off my chest for a long time. not on here specifically just in general #oh & i am a ♯Grignoteuse but grignoter (grazing) is different from eating in my mind&body #& my insecurity was not a result of wanting to fit in really but kind of in the sense that i wanted people to stop berating me for my looks #like body wise only & also not understanding why every other girl looked like a girl blossoming into a woman #& i looked like i was transitioning to Malnourished (unsexed) Ape made worse by bein GNC.& like the need for control later on & erthang ETC

[rollercoasterwords]

rae, will sirius eventually get his memory back? 😄😄😄😄

i guess we’ll all find out together won’t we….

#ask #wfrau #if u would be unhappy w him never getting his memory back u should stop reading the fic. and #if u would be unhappy w him getting his memory back u should also stop reading. #only keep reading if ur prepared 4 it 2 go either way i don’t actually wanna deal w anyone getting mad at me over it lol

[pepprs]

my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

#purrs #longer than that too ofc but i think ever since i moved to campus in 2021 and shit started hitting the fan my life just started snowballing #and picked up speed majorly when i moved back home and ive been stuck in this horrible limbo ever since. like im scaring myself with how #deeply profoundly unhappy and unwell i am. i am just detached and scattered and bewildered by everything. and the only way to break free is #to fight it but i don’t even have the strength. like in order to fight it i have to have the strength and it s exactly the thing that is #being stolen from me. and i work really really hard to suppress it when im around people so no one can tell but on the inside im being eaten #alive and every day that goes on the pain gets harder to bear except im numb most of the time so i can’t tell except for when i can #one of the things that makes me saddest is ive pushed everyone away either by ghosting them or scaring them. when what i want and need the #most is love and comfort. but then when i get it it isn’t enough. idk. im not explaining it well i just feel like. horrible. unbearably #i think i need to go on meds like i truly cannot go on like this not even in a s*i cidal way it’s like i just can’t take living like this #delete later #i know im causing the people who love me pain by being unable to accept that they do love me and that’s the worst fucking part. is hurting #people by being like this. scaring people by being like this. and being so disconnected from myself #and feeling completely and utterly beyond help like nothing ive tried has fixed it but also there are a lot of things i haven’t tried but i #feel so terrible or my freedom is limited so i can’t. idk. #also the crushing knowledge / sense that i have lost the most precious important years of my life both bc of the lockdown and bc of mental #illness lol. except that’s not true bc of all the stuff abt how your best years are always ahead of you and you can make them. but it doesnt #feel like it for me and then i beat myself up bc my job is literally to exude that belief and help other ppl feel it and i increasingly cant #i remember in high school having the thought that one day i could be depressed and being conscious that i wasn’t and now i look back on that #and am like… how. and will i ever not be. i don’t think so. it just feels unending

[villainsidestep]

anyway now that we’re awake again. thoughts on fawn’s Definitely Not unrealistic idea of how family relates to forgiveness

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #the post is asking in a rhetorical way but also if u Do have an answer feel free to give it lmao BUT ANYWAY #our personal thoughts. headcanons if u will. abt our own oc. #fawn who gives unending love and forgiveness to their brothers not bc they’re unaware of the possibility of them holding grudges against #them for it but bc fawn who learned from north that the two ways you can feel abt someone is either good or bad !!!! #when you are good and people are happy w you then that is good !! it means you are worth something !!! #but when you are bad and they are unhappy with you. that is when the trouble begins !! that is when they hit you and hurt you and #let you know that you’re nothing !!! you’re useless and a reject and only usable as a tool !!! #tools can be replaced. it doesn’t have to be You. and river has proven that enough already even before you lost value #v3 fawn who doesn’t expect chen or the ortegas or anyone else to rescue them bc they consider themself no longer usable to them #but their brothers. if they’re alive they’d help them. if they’re alive then fawn will help them back. bc they love them. trust them. #bc they only want to ever be good towards them. they don’t want to be bad or have them be bad back #but. if their brothers are bad to them. if they abandon or replace or kill them. fawn will forgive them. #bc if they don’t have them then what’s the point of having survived losing them the first time?

[babyfairy]

gonna be alone for like the next ~2 weeks petsitting and i’m in the midst of some sort of depressive episode so. lol. i should probably Not be alone but i need the money bc i have no more sick time at work 😋

#i don’t give a fuck either way honestly. i suffer at home too #i’m unhappy no matter where i am or who is around me it doesn’t matter. so what difference does it make if i’m alone or not #i’ll bring my ps5 so i don’t plunge a knife into my gullet LMFAO

[fizzingwizard]

"My brother had no regard for her; his pleasures were not what they ought to have been, and from the first he treated her unkindly. The consequence of this, upon a mind so young, so lively, so inexperienced as Mrs. Brandon’s, was but too natural. She resigned herself at first to all the misery of her situation; and happy had it been if she had not lived to overcome those regrets which the remembrance of me occasioned. But can we wonder that, with such a husband to provoke inconstancy, and without a friend to advise or restrain her[...] she should fall?" - Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility

#jane austen #sense and sensibility #literature #the level of sympathy and compassion and understanding of the human heart #we think of historical eras as either moral and right or depraved always one or the other #and that the morality of the first was upheld by the stern treatment of anyone who acted out #and by extension that depravity is brought on by a lack of rigidity #but the struggles and paradoxes that are part of being human were just as real and just as common and people DID understand them #its only the base and unimaginative who think everyone can be fit into one righteous box if they just try hard enough #never acknowledging times they failed their own standards or maybe without ever having been tested at all #its easy for someone who is happy to judge someone who is unhappy #and we have always known this and it's always been true but we're still dealing with the same unbending personalities who are so loud #just the other day i was in an internet fight where multiple people were claiming that if someone says no to regular sex they are cheating #the possibility that they just have a low sex drive or are going through something was called an exception too rare to matter #the possibility that people are different and not everyone wants the same amount of sex and sex is really very awful when you dont want it #was laughed and sneered at. whats more a partner who accepts their partners sex drive for what it is was called a beta lol #being compassionate and understanding of people you love = beta behavior LOL LOL #this is why we cant have nice things. relationships should be based on support and communication and openness #to the reality that people change sometimes in ways we like and sometimes in ways we dont. nothing is forever. #my two thoughts that entire thread: i hope the men who read this arent intimidated out of standing up for their female partners. and #i hope the women reading this understand you have to believe in yourself despite all of it. despite everything the world throws at you. #of course women can be mean and selfish just as much as men and of course mens needs and feelings matter and so does keeping commitments #but no one has a crystal ball and if you enter a relationship expecting things will always be A Certain Way you're in for a rude awakening #especially if all you do to promote what you want is to badger and pressure and shame your partner for being an imperfect human #tangent but its just these things are so timeless. we should know better now. there's got to be something wrong with us that we don't